#grief n stuff

[insomniac-pbparker]

i have such a visceral reaction whenever I see Those scenes . God forbid a guy try to go on tumblr

#peter prattles #god. augh #there is not a way to describe it #LIKE i don't know if that's a normal thing? #ugh i don't know #is this a vent? maybe #shrug this hopefully'll pass or something #grief n stuff #Those scenes absolutely wreck me #maybe this is normal n maybe it isn't? I should look it up or research or something #i should do more research on all of it #anyway #also Those scenes as in the prev rb

[trashpocket]

platonic!stobin and what if: steve died in s3 and became a ghost to haunt robbie (and eddie can sometimes see n hear him too)

#did i really go out in THIS?! #stranger things #eddie munson #steddie #steve harrington #platonic stobin #like #steve dies due to accumulated injuries after #promising robbie that he'd stick by her side and all that jazz #and she's so grief stricken that she goes to his house and raids his stuff #and dustin is along their with her #grieving and moping together #talking about steve n getting his stuff to remember him by #then dustin leaves home before dark #and robin wears Steve's letterman jacket #as a commemoration #but before she leaves she turns around to close the closet #finds steve harrington in his scoops ahoy uniform #bloody and bruised still #and his first words are #and robin cries and laughs and runs to hug him #but she passes through him #but ghosts in hawkins isnt the strangest thing ever #(but its unfortunate that Steve's ghost will look like that forever) #(18 and too young to have died)

[coquettejohnny]

photo of the sunset i took today ^_^

#sunset #golly that was sure pretty huh? its like the mist is what's pretty. all gold and silver...too bad it cant stay like that all the time. #nothing gold can stay. #huh? #natures first green is gold #her hardest hue to hold #her early leaf's a flower #but only so an hour #then leaf subsides to leaf #so eden sank to grief #so dawn goes down to day #nothing gold can stay #where'd you learn that? that was what i meant #robert frost wrote it. i always remembered it 'cause i never quite knew what he meant by it. #yknow i never noticed all the clouds and colors n stuff till you kept reminding me about them. its kinda like they were never there before #y'know i could never tell steve or two bit or even darry about the clouds and the sunsets. just you and sodapop. ..maybe cherry valance #i guess we're different huh? #shoot yeah. maybe they are. #the outsiders #stay gold

[spotsupstuff]

Wait where is spore from? (Rain world real life country equivalent)

Sweden! i had her speakin swedish already too

#spot says stuff #rw #oc tag #the biggest pain i experience with this equivalent stuff is that i am not master of all languages ever #i wanna make all of em sometimes speak in ''their own languages'' more often SO much my gods. #like yesterday i was thinkin about Euros n Sparrows talking about Brook in the post-MA au and Euros is telling Spars how Brook helped him- #-so so much with his grief after she died and hes sure he wouldnt make it without her and Sparrows is of course crying and she just mutters #''oh сестричка...'' which means little sister but like AFFECTIONATELY. REALLY really affectionately. i LOVE this feature of slavic- #-languages SO SO much... and that idea punched the air out of my lungs. just... them speaking different languages than english... #especially as a means to show emotional things like they are reverting back to what they know the best because they cant focus on- #-staying in the universal language.. yea............ and then also the general fucking up n accidentally speaking in this mother tongue to- #-others n they are like '?' GJDSLKCMLKDS happens to me SO often. just segways into slovak in the middle of sentence JGKLDGJLKSD

[rennybu]

how many distinct playlists is too many for a single OC. because Loam is at 3

#there is no wrong or right answer btw. im just silly #1 is like. backstory and Major Character Development Shifts plus stuff that suits his changing themes #one is the tzipporah rescue arc insanity of grief stress dread terror relief and love #and one is sweet instrumentals that just remind me of loam plain n simple #6 hrs i think. total <3

[xbadnews]

yesterday i ended up getting a little bit overwhelmed w/ offline stuff & didn't finish anything. today, i have literally Nothing else to do & i intend to keep it that way. got my naruto mug filled w coffee & i am ready 2 rumble

#ooc. #tbd. #personal in tags/ #i was just cleaning & stuff & was struck with very intense fear of losing someone important to me yesterday #so it was just hard for me to focus on anything Really #preemptive grief if you will #i am gonna go visit her tomorrow before dnd for a few hours #but today i just wanna have fun #n write #n watch king of the hill

[bangcakes]

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#in the past i would have given up but now im like #oh right if i want something..... i gotta go for it and make it happen HDJDJDJDJDJDJ #itd be easier to give up tho LOL. god.... #idk im just................ what if like. nothing even happens n i spejt all this time liking him like that would SUCK. hhhhhhhhh #i should just see if him n my ither friend wanna hang out but im ANXIOUS ABOUT ASKING #BC. GOD. the longer i dont see someone the more im like.... oh they probably didnt even like me that much JDJDJDJD #like this even happens with ppl ive been friends with for 15 years like i am just THAT insecure???? #maybe not insecure.... idk. i think i just.... dont wanna get hurt so i tell myself that ppl dont actually like me. but thats like so dumb. #bc thats like... borrowing grief from the future right????? and like hhhhh god #idk i just like. sometimes its better to have 0 expectations or hopes?????? #idk romance has never worked out for me b4 so why would it this time #tho to be fair this is the first time ive actually like wanted stuff to keep happening. #prev guys ive been like oh god oh no this is so fast #and its like. just them wanting to talk constantly #but now i have this guy that i talk to like. every 1 to 2 weeks LOL GOD #im trying to hang in there #i think its just that its passed 2am #idk idk #im just.............!!!! #and like what if bc im not moving fast enough.... he moves on JDJJDKDKDKDKDMDMMDMD #but then its like.... ok it wasnt meant to be then....?????? #god this is so JDJDJJDJDJDJD #be careful what u wish for bc like. i said i always wanted a friends first slow burn and LMAO....... #hhhh n e way #im also like maybe i jynxed this whole thing by talking about it too much 😭😭😭 #ugh whatever... im so JDJFJFJDMDMMD #personal

[risingsunresistance]

aw jacobruby retweeted this thing he put together last year

#yeah i guess about now is also the anniversary of hypixel opening up that memorial book isnt it #augh. a strangely fond memory for me somehow #felt very helpful during all that. the one thing that made me feel sane was feeling like i could help other people through it too #helping luna keep up with all the hypixel staff messages n stuff for that list of all the parting messages from other creators n such #i think i wouldve been much worse off if i chose to do nothing instead. helping other ppl in small ways like that helped me a lot #chat #death tw #tw death #grief cw #whatever the tags were

[squiddlysquoo]

Just heard the news about the Murderbot tv show. I suppose the books will always be there !

#Murderbot #murderbot tv show #like not the throw up or anything but some white dude buying the rights and casting himself as the star. get fucked #at least I can stop worrying about it now. solidly fallen on the ‘it’s gonna suck shit’ side of things #I’ll probably pirate it to see what the fuck they did when it comes out but tbh. kind of fine with it. passed thru all stages of grief at on #at once #I guess we’ll see if this dude is willing to go by it/its pronouns and be normal about it or if we r gonna get a wonderful he/ham situation #n guess we will see if the other queer stuff gets to stay in. was kind of psyched to see super normalised polyamory and queerplatonic stuff #in tv #but yknow. we will see if it makes it to the screen lmao #that persons cis woman ART casting horror theory looking more and more likely by the day

[silvercrane14]

I think the depressing character should die more often tbh. Like. In media about mourning. It's always the cheery one who dies. Where's my media abt the cheery one having tk deal with their friends death

#anyways ppl shluld eecommend me manga abt grief n stuff #not necessarily fitting this parameters but #crane screams

[nemasani]

Epic III from Hadestown, rewritten to be about Nyrissa from Pathfinder Kingmaker. Apparently @starlightcleric ‘s second prompt for Owlcatober is ‘fey’?

(Contains Kingmaker spoilers for book one, though I know the story from my tabletop campaign, which is only loosely based on the Owlcat game, so I’m not sure when different bits of information are revealed)

Lyrics below:

Sundered apart is the heart of the queen

Queen of wasteland, queen of shale

The heart of the queen loves all she sees

As the hammer loves the nail.

But a mortal's heart is a simple one

Flowers and skin, flesh and blood

And all that she loves is her kingdom

Her kingdom is all that she loves.

And Nyrissa is queen of thorns and of stone

She blankets the land in mist and mistrust

She razes the forests to buttress her throne

And she harries and pierces and scars all of us.

But even that long-broken heart was once mortal

Before cups, before sands

Before laughing lies and hearts of marble

She'd build her own garden

She'd use her own hands—

She'd realize the vision she held in her eyes

A land of unending flowers

Where her people could rest beneath clearer skies

Protected by her power.

Singing la, la la la, la la la...

What has become of that once-mortal heart

Now that Nyrissa's queen?

What has become of that once-mortal heart

Broken and crushed like her dream?

The more she tears, the more she reaps,

The greater the void grows that lives inside her

See how she labors, see how she weeps

No one to care and no one beside her.

And she keeps on alone

And she keeps her hand hidden

She's grown used to hurting if she wants to survive.

But what she doesn't know

Or what she's forgotten:

The Lantern King lies.

Where is the treasure inside of your chest?

Where is your pleasure?

Where is your youth?

Where is the mortal with flowers in her hands

Who stood before the King

With so much to lose?

 Singing la, la la la, la la la...

#something about having served an evil baroness #and having considered her a friend #until she lost someone to Nyrissa and went mad from grief #gives Ellery an odd sort of perspective on the Nyrissa question #not to mention being in love with the current baroness #and having a pact with her to build a nation where outcasts and monsters could be safe #hades and orpheus #nyrissa and the baroness #ancient enemy and young idealistic upstart who have more in common than either of them would like to admit #i rotate the blorbos in my head like microwave mac n cheese until epic poetry falls out #anais mitchell #pathfinder kingmaker #hadestown #owlcatober 2022 #music #my stuff

[nostalgiapocalypse]

physically pained scrolling two posts down on my blog from that jrand post to see my ex mutual's funny post knowing that they're a radfem now

#tunes in toontown #tw radfem mention #god. good grief. #ska/seal/99 if you wanna block... ough #also sorry for not posting LOL this blog isn't active anymore.. all my ij n musical stuff is on my main

[bixiaoshi]

anime is supposed to help me relax n forget abt real life yet here i am watching stuff that will make me go through all emotions known to human kind n invent 5 new emotions under 25 minutes

#the anime and donghua i like to watch will literally make me go through 5 stages of grief and invent 10 more stages of grief #yes i use media as escapism just so i distract myself from irl. yes i will watch n read the most distressing stuff which makes me feel #everything 100x more #jo.txt

[getblammed-aa]

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[jwowwsboobs]

well em alreatdy knows this but 2days good thing was tht i started looking 4 tattoo shops in my area … cuz of legal stuff ill probably get my tat in like may which is l8r thn i wanted but i think ive narrowed down mg options 2 a couple shops in my cty tht r women owned n run n i rhink i wanna get a tat from a female artist 4 my first one ! but i feel good abt this i feel excited:)

#2day’s challenge was the art project we started 2day…all sharpie peice :\ n one part of it has 2 b an observation drawing which i am soooo #soooooo bad at 💔💔 been slacking at my drawing rlly badly 4 the past couple years n i dont know why:( #okay thts not true im like 90% its the hashtag grief cuz its the same way abt literally all of my hobbies . lol! #ill get back into yhe groove i just have 2 start picking stuff ip n doing it #maybe i log out 4 a while … i dont think i was meant 2 b online like ever i think im meant 2 b some weird obnoxious girl u meet randomly n #r 4ever changed or something. like im more of an experience thn a person … like im not a person im a performance art piece #okay ykwht bye 4 now tumblr i love u all very deeply but i need OUT! #xoxo #queue going etc lots of love 2 each n everyone of u all <33 if u wanna contact me email is lv.mrcry.slghtr @ gmail dot com #or stoner barbie 1232 on discord #okay bye bye 4 real i do love u very mych

[bicyclepainting]

huxley’s zodiac chart

huxley zodiac chart time <3 i actually changed this chart around So much before i finally felt solid about it. it was a struggle not to just give him All taurus placements because i truly believe there is an argument for each placement here to be taurus. anyway

character analysis and astrology ramblings under the cut!

masterlist for the series

sun- taurus

moon- libra

rising- cancer

mercury- gemini

venus- taurus

mars- taurus

before we get into huxley’s actual chart, we should cover the topic of stelliums. in astrology, a stellium is a group of three or more planets in the same sign or house in a chart. there is some debate about what exactly qualifies as a stellium but the basic agreement is that the rising sign does not count (it isn’t a planet) and it has to be at least three from the inner planets (all listed here, including jupiter and saturn). the outer planets (uranus, neptune, and pluto) don’t count because they are considered to be generational planets (meaning that they are slow-moving and many people born around the same time share the placement) and might not have as much impact on your day-to-day life. asteroids also aren’t counted because they are a relatively new discovery added to astrology and not part of the inner planets. they’re more like the little details to the painting of a birth chart, compared to the broad strokes of the inner planets. as for what a stellium is like in practice, it is just a very concentrated energy of that sign or house. people with stelliums tend to go through stages of extremes where nothing is going on to everything is going right/wrong. this is because as the planets go through transits, if it affects (for example) one taurus placement of huxley’s, it would affect the rest too. as an example, if the sun was in taurus, not only would he feel the effects of that in his sun sign, but he would for his mars and venus as well. with all of that being said, i wanted huxley to have a taurus stellium, i feel its fitting and will explain why as we go.

taurus suns are extremely steady and dependable. taurus is the fixed earth sign so they often get the reputation of being stubborn. "bull-headed" is the term most often used because this sign is represented by the bull. but one thing about taurus is that they know when to choose their battles, and they do not choose lightly. taurus is a slow-moving sign, they spend their energy with purpose. i believe this definitely applies to huxley, stubborn on the things he wants to be, but ultimately chooses his battles wisely

libra moons are very friendly. they love people and love to talk to other people. libra moons also have a very strong sense of justice; they are represented by the symbol of scales after all. they take a lot of time with their feelings, weighing all options before moving forward. they very much value balance and peace. when i think about the expression of hux’s libra moon in canon, i think of his anger towards kody in his first audio but also his restraint toward kody during the inversion and how he spoke to damien through that (theres also that taurus “knowing when to choose your battles” thing there too)

the rising sign simply indicates the ruler of your first house, the house of self. it can also have an influence over your appearance. because cancer is ruled by the moon, cancer risings tend to have round faces (often called moon faces) and can have a more feminine appearance in general (regardless of agab). cancer risings come off as very friendly and caring individuals, which i think is shown perfectly in his first audio

huxley’s mercury sign was something i went back and forth a lot on. theres only three options (aries, taurus, and gemini) due to the nature of mercury, but i still struggled choosing. giving him a taurus mercury made sense because of his voice, taurus rules over the throat and when mercury (the planet of communication) is in taurus, the voice is often smooth, slow, and calming. and that is SO hux like FR. However.. hux rambles quite a bit and that is not characteristic of a taurus mercury at all. gemini mercuries on the other hand….. ramble city babey!! absolute chatter boxes <3 i think hux’s taurus stellium smooths out the gemini mercury’s chattiness a bit, but its definitely still there (and his stellium would explain the voice too tbh)

because taurus is ruled by venus, this placement is domicile! this means that the planet is comfortable in this sign. venus is the sign of beauty, relationships, finances, and aesthetics, among others. taurus venuses are often romantics who love love and have an appreciation for the finer things in a relationship, and life in general. once they commit they Really commit (the same can be said for the other fixed signs as well: leo, aquarius, and scorpio) and they tend to like to take their time when getting to know people. taurus venuses are extremely loyal as well. i think all of these things are applicable to dear hux <3

the opposite of a placement thats domicile is a placement that is detriment, which is the case for a taurus mars. scorpio is domicile for mars and the opposite of scorpio is taurus, so that makes it detriment. taurus mars are often slow to act. they may lack motivation beyond their comfort level (like failing the same elemental class multiple years in a row). and the previous elements of taurus are also exhibited for this planet (the planet of aggression, passion, and drive) as well: loyal, stubborn, values security. i think these all apply to hux for this area as well

#good grief this took forever to write #you reach a certain point where you know a sign TOO well that it becomes hard to explain #me n my tauruses #sigh #anyway #as always this is open for discussion/debate/etc #love to talk abt this stuff with ppl so id love to hear ur thoughts regardless if u know anything abt astrology #and i can always answer questions n stuff #astro thoughts #astrology #redacted asmr #redacted huxley