#homoerotic girl band when.

[brigittefitzgerald]

manifesting…

#homoerotic girl band when. #when is it my turn. #edit: ok here’s each person in the pics in order: #talena atfield (kittie) #courtney love #amy love (nova twins) #miki berenyi (lush) #igirl #brody dalle #jennifer finch (L7) #joan jett & cherie curie #lita ford

[waywardsalt]

mmmm a while(ish) back i wrote out a scene from one of my loz aus (the one with an actual name, 'in the court of the crimson king', [often shortened to just 'crimson king']) so uhhhh i edited it a bit to account for some changes made since then and decided to share it here!

(if this is difficult to read for any reason let me know and ill just paste the text in normally)

this was also my first time actually writing bellum for real as opposed to how it works in peus so im still a bit shaky with him

this is meant to be a flashback scene for... somewhere within the story, a lot of the more specific plot details of this au are still murky, but it's the most developed one and most likely to be the next au i actually write. its fun and older than i expected, since my friend was able to find and share some old documents i had shared with him a few years ago and i was surprised to find an early draft for this au in there.

the basic idea of this au is that it is set in a semi-industrial hyrule city, separated into segments (districts?), each of which is run by an anonymous leader who handles both the general matters of their segment as well as being in charge of a lot of crime. bellum is one of the leaders in this scenario.

linebeck lives with his adoptive family (link, aryll, and their grandmother) and helps them make ends meet by going off every other week to earn money through jobs. due to money often being very tight, linebeck secretly moonlights as an urban legend-type figure known as the 'demon of the gray moon', and takes extra jobs ranging from theft to spying to murder, often working directly for bellum, who is a close friend he's known since childhood and the one who helped him cultivate and bring into reality the persona of the demon.

(i need to somehow shorten this synopsis, but there's a lot going on from the start and i have yet to even figure out how things begin, so... it's a work in progress. the plot that takes place has some elements of wind waker and a little bit of phantom hourglass as well as kind of being its own thing)

#my post #uhhhh i dont have an au tag for this one hang on #not gonna tag it with the actual name bc thats gonna put it in tags with like. the band n shit #crimson king au #yeah thats easy #heres some weird thing. with bellum in a humanoid form being linebecks really weird friend. this is the one where theyre kinda homoerotic #even tho this is a fucking ganonbeck au. THE og ganonbeck au of mine #anyways linebeck killing people (usually for money) is a consistent through-line between a lot of my aus #he's kind of just straight up a serial killer in this one #linebeck is like 20-ish in this au and was adopted when he was like 12 btw. hes link n arylls adoptive older brother #ID BE GLAD TO ANSWER ASKS ABT THIS. BTW. THIS ONE HAS BEEN SIMMERING A LOT AND IS THE MOST DEFINED #girl i WISH i could show you the design for the demon of the gray moon outfit im so proud of it #i could probably draw up a really crude idea but rn the mask is kinda inspired by the all night mask in mm and has a bunch of curved horns #also the long description of bellum is bc its my first time writing him w/ that desc and bc this might be an early flashback #my writing #fanfiction

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

ohhhhhh my god my lead actress's big brown eyes...... girl you're killing me......

#and my male lead is quite literally blonde with blue eyes it's ridiculous #he's ok tho. actually i did find out today he played clarient in marching band in hs #so that's a red flag but hey i just need him to act and he's been pretty great at it. red flags are allowed <3 #he also got us our other guy we needed for some small scenes. so he's been invaluable despite the serial killer eyes #in truth he actually looks lke a panda to me. there's nothing wrong with his serial killer blue eyes i'm being mean #sorry for being anti men who play clarient. in my defense i've known those guys and i have never met one that didn't annoy me a little #anyway. she has beautiful big brown eyes and he is there. and our other guy is beautifully tragic and doomed <3 #that was my criteria for casting him. i said 'he needs to look beautiful and tragic' and then we found him #he did great today. i don't know if he likes me but he showed up and he wore all the outfits i told him to wear so #actually i think i act weird around good looking men. i think it's because once a hot guy is around i get one notch lower on the hierarchy #and i'm usually up there. frankly. so i don't like being lowered... #i mean you guys will see what he looks like eventually i'm gonna post the link to the film when it's done and i'm graduated #but he's Hot. i was scared of him for a moment. he was wearing sunglasses. and then i made him walk up a bigass hill #and then i made him be in vaguely homoerotic pictures. his words. he didn't seem to mind there were jokes had. jests even #and tomorrow at 11am im gonna make him stand on a bed and put stars on a wall while yelling at him to smile and look pretty #and well. that's awesome. heirarchy is restored once we all remember that i'm the guy in charge...... #anyway. i had an eventful day. 8am to now. i gotta go to sleep girls. #unfortunately that's not happening soon due to i've committed myself to reviewing today's footage. ok

[alottiegoingon]

love letters

shauna shipman x fem!reader

summary: the one where reader receives love letters from jeff

warnings: jeff mentioned for plot reasons, jealousy mentions, homoerotic friendship?, shauna is reader's best friend, no crash timeline, fluff but angsty ending, not proofread

this may have a part II in the future?

you thought it was weird when the first thing you saw as soon as you opened your locker was a letter. you weren't exactly the most popular girl ever but you weren't a loner. you were right in the middle.

you blinked rapidly, eyes darting back and forth to the envelope of the size of your hand and to the completely empty hallway. you were the only one in there. judging by the outside, it couldn't be a warning from school or from the book club you went to. it also didn't make sense to be someone bullying you, it was too neat.

you withdrew the paper nestled inside and carefully unfolded it. it wasnt anything professional, just words meticulously written on a notebook paper. you peer through narrowed eyes, attempting to recognize the handwriting but it wasn't like you knew everyone at school so intimately to know how they wrote.

in the small piece of paper, the words "you're always pretty but today you look as stunning and vibrant as a daisy in spring. love, jeff." are written in a sleek, rounded calligraphy, each letter carefully crafted with black pen ink. you feel your heart skip a beat as you read the name signed on the bottom, not believeing your own eyes. coincidentally or not, daisies were your favorite flowers and you couldn't stop thinking about how he knew that.

jeffrey sadecki was one of the popular boys in wiskayok high. almost every girl wanted to be with him while the boys wanted to be him. you weren't one of those girls, though. you despised how all of them would humiliate themselves and change their appearance or lie about their favorite movies or bands just to get attention from the boys. nothing too girly or the boys would laugh about it but nothing too bold or you wouldn't be delicate enough.

one detail caught your attention and brought you back to reality as you were overthinking a simple letter. the way jeff had signed his name was different from the rest of the words. more angular and noticeably larger. maybe he was in a hurry or too nervous, it didn't matter. the important thing now was to tell shauna, your best friend. you slammed the locker door and hid the letter on your pocket, rushing to the wiskayok high soccer field to let her know everything.

now, in terms of knowing someone closely, shauna was at the top of your list. shauna shipman was your best friend since you were in middle school as two twelve years old with awkward music taste, bad haircuts and an embarassing fashion sense. after school, you and shauna would spend hours locked inside your bedroom talking about your celebrity crushes, make fun of the boys after their unsuccessful try to make a move on the popular girl, and devouring an entire carton of bubblegum ice cream, that shauna would always bring to you, while watching movies. shauna wasn't a huge fan of it. it was way too sweet. but it was your favorite after all.

"i think you should pick the flavor next time." you randomly spoke while the two of you were sharing a bed and watching grease from 1978.

your leg was resting against shauna's, the back of your leg gently positioned on top of her knee. it first started as a way to annoy her when you were around fifteen but then it just became a casual thing. shauna would look all tense with a tight face until she felt your warmth.

"why? it's your favorite." shauna's entire face twists in confusion. her eyes immediately fly at you but you were focused on the small tv. inside her mind, in her own little world, nothing was more important than your sudden hate towards ice cream.

"it's too childish. i don't think any other girl on her last year would pick bubblegum ice cream as her favorite." you groan, frustrated.

"that's so stupid, it's just a flavor. and, you know, i think it matches you."

her words made you curious enough to shift your attention away from one of your favorite movies. she seemed to understand your fogginess and explained herself before you could say a word.

"i mean, it's fun and colorful and free of any judgments. it is also the favorite of a lot of kids and kids are way too honest to lie about something. so if they like it, it's because it's really good.. it's unique, i think."

"wow, shauna..." you subtly nod your head in agreement, feeling touched by her words. "you can really compliment an ice cream flavour that much? "you smile as you tease her.

"just shut up and eat your ice cream. you're so annoying."

now, in senior year, pretty much nothing had changed. you would still spend the afternoons after practice with shauna as well as the weekends. shauna was also really smart and would eventually help you with math, literature or english during finals. she was pretty good at it but it didn't surprise you at all; she was always carrying a book around or that super secret journal that you swore she would write on after you fell asleep during sleepovers.

"jeff? wow... are you sure?" shauna immediately looked away from you and made herself busy, forcing her uniform into her bag, at the second she heard his name. shauna wasn't exactly very fond of him as well but she never sounded so lifeless.

"yeah, he signed his name! i guess it could be one of his friends messing around with me but the handwriting is way too pretty for someone who did it as a joke." you sigh. "and he also mentioned a daisy in the letter. that's my favorite flower, shauna!"

shauna was avoiding your eyes at all costs but, for a split second, you saw her eyebrows knit.

"wait, so you're happy with that? i thought you didn't like him." shauna sounds unbothered but you notice how she rub her hands together to brush the sweat off or how she was incessantly adjusting her shirt.

"i don't. boys are stupid." you give her a determined nod to dispel the thought away. "it's just... it feels nice to know that someone cares about me. we've never had a conversation before but somehow he knows about my favorite flower so, i mean..." your voice trails off.

you never thought of yourself as someone who was excited to date boys. the idea of going out on a friday night with a guy never made you burst with joy. you'd rather spend the night with your best friend and have your typical sleepovers or going out for movies. even watching shauna write on her out of reach journal in silence was more interesting. despite shopping together when needed, playing around with clothes by putting them on and running a fashion show, dressing up for a boy and putting makeup on wasn't your thing, whatsoever. it wasn't fun cause shauna wouldn't be there to make you laugh or roll her eyes to hide how her eyes would affectionately get lost on your figure. "i guess he must be really interested on you, then. right?" shauna looks at you for the first time that afternoon but she looks different than usual, offering a strained smile.

[💌]

the next days slipped away from your hands in a blink of an eye. surprisingly, jeff wasn't actually that bad or at least he tried to be a normal nice guy around you.

you remembered how he was actually nervous when you two exchanged a few words and he made sure to let you know that he was responsible for the letter when he asked if you had liked it with a huge cocky smile. at first, you couldn't care less, he was trying too hard. but then the letters kept coming and you finally accepted to go on a date with him.

you went out for the movies and when you felt him pulling that classic move on you by sliding his arm on top of your shoulders, you had to fight against a giggle. shauna would love to laugh at that with you later. then, you stopped by your favorite place; a small family-run dinner that had a great milkshake of your favorite flavour.

"you don't think it's way too childish to be someone's favorite?" you hear jeff's voice fill your ears while you were focused on getting the last drop of the ice cream. you look up at him with a baffled look, not paying attention to whatever he had just said.

"the ice cream. i never dated someone who liked bubblegum."

"oh. yeah..." you feel heat rise to your cheeks and out of nowhere, you began to trip over your words. "it's not my favorite. it's stupid. i was... just trying something different!"

the days turned to weeks and the weeks became months. just like that, you were walking through the hallways of wiskayok high with jeff's arm over your shoulder. you weren't sure if you liked being seen as his property or something silly like that, but a lot of girls would die to be in your place.

you weren't sure if you actually liked him. the most excited part of your date nights was to eat for free and memorize all the idiotic things he had said to gossip about it with shauna later. besides, you could rarely pick the movie or talk about your day. the name "randy walsh" was stuck on your brain thanks to how often jeff would mention him and his funny stories that would actually make you sleepy.

but, again, maybe you just had to try harder.

the letters kept coming almost everyday. and if not everyday, then at least once a week. somehow, always pretty and perfectly rounded letters with his sloppy signed name on the bottom.

[💌]

"i can't wait to read it! people are saying that it's sad but i think it's gonna be great." you were telling shauna about the new stephen king's book that had came out that week; the green mile.

"i think sad is good. people underestimate how great tragedy can be." she casually mumbles, grabbing the carton of ice cream from your desk that you would share before walking to you.

you were about to agree with her when her words cut you at the moment her eyes met the packaging.

"what's that?" she said with a deflated tone.

"ice cream?" you chuckle at her obvious question. usually she would tease you back or give you a snort. but now she decided to ignore your lighthearted words.

"no, i mean the flavor. since when do you like vanilla?" she reads the words vanilla over and over again before looking up at you.

"oh, yeah. i changed. i'm too old for bubblegum now."

"how?"

"just eat it, alright? jeff said vanilla is too boring but i think it's better than being a kid flavor, right?" you giggle, oblivious to her clear annoyance.

shauna's hands close into fists as soon as she practically smashed the carton against the desk. the loud noise made you look at her almost instantly with widen eyes.

"are you okay?" your voice sounded so low-pitched and whispered that shauna almost couldn't hear it.

"are you? we used to laugh about stupid boys and now you are suddenly changing yourself because of jeff? he barely knows how to spell the world embarrass." you notice her voice slowly getting louder.

"this is insane. it's just ice cream, shauna! you are just jealous cause he writes pretty letters for me while you stay home to your pathetic journal." you feel your blood boil as she accuses you of changing because of a fucking boy. you would never.

shauna doesn't say a word and the silence made you realize that, deep down, she was right. her eyes are staring past your soul as she feels your words hit her and it made you regret them after a second.

"i didn't mean tha-" you tried to apologize but she was faster.

"no, you know what? you're right. i spend my friday nights with my pathetic journal but at least i don't pretend to be someone i'm not just to make a boy like me." she takes a step closer and this time her voice is low and tamed. "at least i'm not weak and don't attach myself to the first person who offers just a hint of interest on me cause i'm desperate for attention."

her sharp words sink in, eating you from the inside out. she doesn't seem sorry and you don't feel bad anymore. you feel your jaw clenching and tears were welling up on your eyes while you stand up from your bed, face to face with your best friend.

"fuck you." you struggled to speak through the lump in your throat.

the room got quiet and the sorrow was almost palpable. shauna's pupils were teary, fully dilated and unusually darker, regarded with disappointment. she didn't say a word before leaving your room and shutting the door behind her.

you couldn’t think of anything while collapsing into your bed, sobbing against the pillow, other than how badly you hated vanilla ice cream.

[💌]

barely able to sleep last night, you were distracted by shauna’s words and the fact that this was the first serious fight that you two had ever shared. shauna didn’t talk much about her feelings and would let everything merge together until she was bursting out with anger or a bunch of passive aggressive comments but she was never too harsh on you.

you knew you had to apologize and fix things with her. even though her words weren’t exactly the kindest, she was just worried about you, you thought. you wondered if she liked jeff in secret and was jealous of him even if she had never mentioned him before.

you weren’t sure if she had feelings for jeff but you weren’t sure if you did. he could be a jerk sometimes and definitely too self centered but he made you feel important. he liked you enough to know your favorite food, even though he called it childish, and your favorite movies, that he thought it were too weird for a girl, and your favorite books, that he mentioned how boring they were.

yes, he was decent and overall, compared to the others, he was a nice person. but then, as you were in the bathroom getting ready this morning, you remembered that he wasn’t the first person to ever care

you remembered when shauna showed up at your door once at 3am when you couldn’t sleep, way too worried about finals, with your favorite treats and a book of hers that reminded her of you. or when she spent an entire month learning how to draw daisies because you loved them and she wanted to give you a special handmade gift. a week later, your room was filled with drawings of different sizes of your favorite flower. there was even a small piece taped to the wall of your bathroom right next to the mirror.

then, it occurred to you that, once while watching romeo and juliet late at night, you mentioned how much you loved romantic gestures like receiving letters from the person you loved and shauna mocked you but then, two weeks later, you received one. it was a weird coincidence but it was there, right in front of your eyes.

you were feeling like complete shit when you stopped by your locker, already regretting leaving your bed this morning. you flinch as you see jeff magically appearing behind the small metal door with a huge creepy smile and a small bag in hands.

“i got something for you.” were the words he said before handing you the content from inside the paper bag. you weren’t expecting anything and definitely not after the shitty night you had. you were determined to break up with him but the idea of it vanished as you took a first glance at what your new gift was.

the new stephen king’s book, the green mile, right under your nose. your jaw was almost hitting the floor thanks to the beautiful cover.

“jeff… this is amazing! i’ve been wanting to read this since last week and i couldn’t find it anywhere. thank you!” you had to force your words out, too stunned to speak properly. looking away from the book, you saw how he looked genuinely happy with your reaction.

“it was nothing. i just like paying attention to my girl.” you ignored the smug tone and focused on the book.

jeff didn’t wait any longer for you to finish your appreciation moment and pulled in for a kiss, tightly holding onto your waist. he hugged you right after and while you were resting your head on his shoulder, he was looking at shauna right behind you two.

greeting her from a distance with a satisfied and arrogant grin was his way of saying thank you. shauna resentfully nodded and ignored the feeling of drowning in her own emotions as she watched you leave with his arm around your waist.

quickly, she placed the receipt from the bookstore in her backpack along with her notebook and favorite writing pen before disappearing into the crowded hallway.

#yellowjackets #yellowjackets x reader #shauna shipman x reader

[shera-dnd]

Not to be a fucking weeb, but I'm just so glad we live in the era of anime that we live in

Back in the day characters would have the most homoerotic declarations of friendship to each other and you'd still have to argue with people on the internet over subtext

Like unless you were watching a show explicitly about girls being gay you'd never get anything more than a "you're my dearest friend" said in a tone that made the word "friend" buckle from all the work it has to do

But now we have gays piloting robots, gays playing in rock bands, gays getting isekaied, gays playing underground golf for the mafia

And it's all so delightfully blatant

In Witch From Mercury when Suletta makes the cliche "but we're both girls" line, Miorine just comments on how backwards Suletta's planet must be

Then you have Kita, from Bocchi the Scissor Rock, directly saying that she has a crush on Ryo, and Ryo openly talking about how much of a chick magnet she is

Anisphia from Magical Revolution is even more blatant, straight up shouting at the screen "if I fall in love with anyone it's gonna be with a woman!" a statement that may not be taken all that seriously by her father, but definitely by her future father in law

Not to mention Aoi and Eve from Birdie Wing who - even tho they don't fully understand their crushes for each other - are so stupidly gay for each other that their two best friends refuse to let them share a room, because they don't trust them alone together for an entire night

In short it's a good time to be a lesbian who is into anime and I'm so happy to see how much things have changed in the last few years

Can't wait for the Chainsaw Man anime to get to the international assassin's arc so we can have an even more wonderful time as gay weebs

Now give gay men and trans people the same treatment you fucking cowards

#anime #self indulgence #g witch #witch from mercury #mobile suit gundam witch from mercury #bocchi the rock! #the magical revolution of the reincarnated princess and the genius young lady #birdie wing

[homoeroticbetrayal]

Iconic Homoerotic Betrayal: Round 2

Round 2 Directory

Context:

Griffith/Guts

Summarized by Anonymous Contributor

Griffith was the leader of the band of the hawk, a mercenary group. His goal was to some day have his own castle, and to do so he needed loyal followers. His most loyal followers eventually ended up being guts. Guts entered the band of the hawk after losing a duel with Griffith (that's where the "you're mine" image comes from).

Griffith's ultimate goal was to get his castle, but he quickly formed a bond with guts that would go on to form whole archetypes for homoerotic subtext. Guts would eventually be so inspired by Griffith's dream that he would leave the band after years to try to find a goal to espire to himself. This being spurred by Griffith saying that he doesn't view those working for him as friends, as a true friend would be an equal to him, someone who's also striving for a lofty goal. In order to leave guts had to beat Griffith in a duel, which had never happened before, but his want for Griffith to see him as a true friend let guts beat him and leave the band of the hawk, sending Griffith into a spiral of shock and anger and depression.

When guts returned to the band of the hawk after finding his dream, he discovered that Griffith's dream, which seemed all but accomplished when he left, had fallen apart. Not only was he never getting his castle, but he had been locked deep in a dungeon and brutally tortured for a long time. Apon hearing this news, guts rushed to Griffith's rescue, who had been reduced to a shell of his former self due to brutalization and malnutrition he had insured for so long. But guts and the rest of the band of the hawk didn't care. They decided to set out yet again on achieving Griffith's dream. And they slowly started nursing him back to health until one day Griffith gave up on his dream. Seeing how feeble he has become and how much he needed to rely on others now utterly defeated him and he attempted to take his own life, but right before that he was approached by the god hand.

God's who rule over countless demons and monsters who are looking for their final member to complete them. Griffith's determination beckoned them, and they gave him an ultimatum: Become reborn as a god by sacrificing all your men, or don't. Obviously the ever ambitious Griffith betrays the band of the hawk and becomes Femto, the final member of the god hand, and kick starts the apocalypse by letting all his comrades get eaten alive by demons, including guts, obviously. Especially guts.

Thanks to a talking skeleton, though, guts just barely escaped with his live after witnessing true horror and experiencing great pain and suffering. And that's just the prologue of Berserk, the rest of the series is just guts angerly screaming Griffith's name. Many betrayals in this tournament can claim tragedy, but were they a betrayal of such great magnitude? Did the betrayal end in the death of everyone the protagonist ever cared for and the antagonist ascending to godhood?

Anthy/Utena

Summarized by Anonymous Contributor

THE blueprint for homoerotic betrayals of the canonically gay (as opposed to interpretive, certainly there are older iconic examples for that) variety. listed as #2 in the infamous top ten anime betrayals video, iirc.

it is about akio pushing anthy to utena. it is about utena’s protective stance, misunderstanding. most of all, it is about anthy kissing utena’s shoulder before stabbing her.

the story has been leading us to this the whole time — utena assuming once again the protective princely position; akio, always playing divide and conquer, unable to manipulate utena to betray anthy, now reliant on anthy betraying utena; the game being rigged from the start, true victory impossible (for the duelists, who will always lose the game proper to akio, the rule maker, in one way or another; for akio himself, just as obviously); utena’s love for anthy within the princely stance; anthy’s love for utena and anthy’s fear (of the world beyond; of utena loving her truly; of utena not loving her truly but just projecting onto her still as any prince does, and turning out to be the same (as akio) in the end) and akio (framing himself) as the only one who will love her no matter what because friends turn away from you and only connections by blood are forever, the two of them are the only ones who’s real in this projected world, so on and so forth, and anthy’s bitterness towards utena (“do you know, utena-sama, how i always despised you” from that one “in the next episode” bit) and her princeliness and her being not that impossibly unlike akio (all princes are the same). everything has lead us to this moment. and yet we are shocked.

personally, i’ve never moved on from how she kisses her shoulder.

See a whole dissertation on Utenanthy here

#griffguts #utenanthy #griffith #guts berserk #utena tenjou #anthy himemiya #berserk #rgu #polls

[pauls1967moustache]

Having another thought about girl Paul being in this interesting spot where as an extremely beloved and powerful celebrity she has unique access to women sexually but is perhaps cut off to them emotionally by that dynamic and by the time she settles down with Linda has probably wrestled with a lot of guilt and loneliness. And maybe something she appreciates is she feels Linda doesn't judge her for her history or her layers of artifice and they can just be human beings together, especially if that kind of relationship has seemed so impossible to her before.

oh absolutely. i actually thought a lot about her relationship to other women in her life, bc i think it's really interesting. like paul joins a band with boys and because she wants to be taken seriously she goes "not like other girls" mode and distances herself from more feminine things, but it leaves her isolated from most of her female peers. the closest women to her are basically the WAGs, but cyn would be naturally suspicious because she's not dumb, and i think cyn would end up warning off any future girlfriends from trusting paul entirely. it's that story of how she told pattie the wives would never have what the beatles have with each other, but in this universe cyn's like "paul can be a friend when she wants to be, but she's theirs not ours."

and then obviously paul is having sex with women, but this is still the '60s and she's still mostly closeted, so it's not like she can have a steady relationship with any of them, not to mention the power imbalance, like you said. the only women she really has access to are women who idolise her to a sometimes dehumanising degree, so i think the only time she can really connect with other women is when they're also in the industry and they Get It, so like mary hopkins or marianne faithfull.

i think even before linda, jane is the main person who fulfills this sense of female connection for her, but like in real life it's very fraught because paul is in a different stage of her life. she obviously can't date jane openly, but i think they fall into a sort of homoerotic girl best friends situationship for a few years, where they're sort of dating but sort of not, while everyone assumes paul's going to marry peter asher one day or something. i don't think either of them take the possibility of an actual relationship seriously, because it's just kind of unfeasible from where they stand in their public images, but jane is known as paul's closest female friend and they get the Gal Pals treatment. but everything's very vague and confusing between them personally, and paul still sleeps around as much as irl, and also jane hates paul's relationship with john even more because with the added element of friendship in paul and jane's relationship, jane has to suffer that age old problem of "why is my beautiful perfect friend so hung up on this terrible man? i hope jakey dies".

and then after jane gets fed up with the john of it all, and everything starts breaking down, paul finally comes to a place where she just wants something real that she can solidly rely on, which is where linda comes in. and linda is industry-adjacent so she Gets It, but is also not hung up on public perceptions the way an actress or another musician might be, so it gives paul the space to worry less about it, and focus more on being loved.

#asks #girl paul

[samspinkyring]

Affection; a Sam Kiszka x Reader

no content warnings as of yet, but I'll add as we continue! i ask that readers bare with me, as this is my first time using tumblr and quiet honestly my first time posting a solo fic i've written completely by myself!! thank you for anyone stopping by <3

“Oh, i ‘ m looking for affection in all the wrong places . “

September

That was the last time you could honestly remember things being normal. The air had a specific crisp in its breeze, and fall sports were in full force. Sam had dragged you out to the football game, of course for no other reason than to poke fun at the players clad in shoulder pads and stupid knee-high socks. You and Sam’s friendship mostly consisted of being complete cunts whenever you went out into public together. The type of people you’d typically hate when being out in public, but Sam happened to bring out an extremely annoying side of you, and you didn’t help his ungracious sense of public awareness at all.

“Y’know, football is kind of a homoerotic sport once you really think about it.” Sam said, voice raised slightly above the band and fellow students in the student section that were cheering for the team. Both of you had no idea what was going on, and you were relieved you didn’t have to pretend. You were standing shoulder to shoulder with plenty of other students, and it wasn’t the most . . . comfortable experience, but you’re glad you have Sam to distract you.

There’s a soft laugh shared between you and your best friend, his hand coming up to lightly graze your arm to keep his feet steady on the narrow bleacher you two were standing on as he laughs that stupid annoying laugh you’ve learned to love, ”God, do you just say words to say them, Sam?” you tease, eyebrows raising as a silent test to your statement. There was some truth to your words. Sometimes Sam just. . . talked, probably because he wasn’t used to getting words in between his bickering older brothers. 

Truthfully, you loved them all. You loved how you could go to Josh about pretty much anything and he would listen – offer some philosophical advice that you couldn’t even begin to comprehend. Jake had this air about him that screamed confidence and you really admired him, his talent and attitude towards life was something that was infectious to you. Daniel, while not related, kept everyone in check. As tiring and overused as the term “mom friend” is, there's no other way to describe him, and you admired his ability to be the calm and driving force behind each and every one of you. Then there was Sam. . . Sam had all of the qualities of his older brothers and best friend all in one package. Something that drew you towards him like a moth drawn to a flame.

Although you would never tell him how you truly felt out of fear of losing the relationship you had built with not only him, but his family; you couldn’t imagine a life without him – so you kept quiet. If silencing your desire meant you got to keep Sam around, you would.

“Hellooo, Y/N, are you even paying attention?” Sam is waving a hand in your face, bringing you back to the fact everyone was cheering. You shove his hand away and start clapping almost instinctively over whatever play had just happened. 

You look at Sam with your eyebrows drawn in, glaring at him playfully, “What? Jealous I'm not giving you all my attention?” You tease, turning your head but not before shooting him a killer side eye

Sam lets out a small ‘pft’, shaking his head and brushing hair from his face,”Oh, whatever. Bite me.” He responds, popping his hip out hard enough to knock you into the girl to your right to which you immediately apologize.

You slap Sam in the chest with the back of your hand, glaring at him once more, “If you wanna be annoying, I’ll just go sit with Josh or Jake. I’m sure they'd be glad to keep me company.” You retort, a stern look on your face. Josh, Jake, and Daniel had shown up to sit and watch their friends in the band and whatnot that had been left behind once they graduated.

Sam’s teasing smile almost faltererd – and you can tell, “Yeah, whatever. You like hanging out with me too much.” He said, rolling his eyes. If only he knew the truth behind his statement.

The game goes on to win in Frankenmuth’s favor, ensuring that every possible place to get food in that town would be filled to the brim. You and Sam find the other three missing from the group to decide where to eat, and once Danny makes the decision for everyone, you pile in two different cars and head to the closest option for food and drinks. You and Sam drive together, of course, the other three in their own car. You sit in Sam’s passenger seat comfortably, it was your spot after all. You occupied it more times than you didn’t, in the morning on the way to school and typically after whenever you and Sam came up with mundane plans for the remainder of the day.

Sam parks next to the boy’s car and you both get out, walking into the restaurant together and bantering, riding the high of the night. You all piled into a booth, Sam comfortably between you and Danny and the twins in the other booth across from you. The waitress came over, a young girl who was very visibly upset that she had missed the game. Still, she reluctantly took your drink orders. You got a Shirley Temple along with Sam (who got his with extra grenadine and an extra maraschino cherry), the other boys getting a lemon water, Coke, and Dr. Pepper respectively.  As you guys settle in, small talk ensues.

“So, how long are you guys in town for?” You ask, leaning your elbow on the table and placing your chin in the palm of your hand.

“Don’t know. . .” Jake started, Josh interjecting to finish for him.

“It’s starting to pick up!” He said excitedly, “Y’know, we’re getting gigs further and further out which is awesome, but very unfortunate for Samuel.” He said, mocking a pout towards his younger sibling who simply scoffed in response.

“Well thankfully –” Sam started, pausing to shoot Josh a glare to which the elders reaction of course was to feign innocence ( always one for the theatrics ), “We live in a small town where the staff understands. You know? As long as I get my work done on the road or before sets or whatever – Daniel too!” He said, throwing his best friend into the equation.

Jake let out a small laugh, moving hair out of his face and staring out the window. You knew he was listening, but to anyone else, he probably looked miserable.

“Hopefully . . .” Danny started, getting the conversation back on track, “ hopefully we’re stationary enough for me and Sam to finish school this year. Music is great, but senior year is also extremely important.”

“Music is forever, Daniel! To hell with school. You won’t need it once we’re playing huge, sold out, one night only shows!” Josh  said, half joking, using his arms and hands while he talked.

“Oooh, like Madison!! All of the greats have played Madison Square Garden.” Jake said, motioning with his hand in the middle of the table.

“Big goals. Promise you guys won't forget me when you’re famous?” You say, jutting your bottom lip out in an extremely dramatic way.

There was laughter among your table, and for a split second your eyes caught Sam. All you could think about were his dimples and how perfectly they complimented his smile. You draw your eyes away, an almost painful feeling ripping through your chest

“No, but seriously, like, I better be on a guest list somewhere! Or maybe I can come on the road with you guys for a leg! I don’t know, something. You know I’m literally going to die of boredom once you guys leave again.” You say, a somber feeling filling in the creases of atmosphere around the five of you.

“C'mon, Y/N, of course we won’t forget you.” Josh starts, offering an extremely sincere smile.

Jake inhaled through his teeth, a look on his face that only said “I don’t know about that”, jokingly of course.

Suddenly the silverware on the table shook, Sam having kicked Jake underneath the table and shooting him a glare, “Kidding!” Jake exclaimed, rubbing his shin where the tip of Sam’s shoe definitely left a bruise.

“Seriously, you know we’d always be happy to have you tag along with us, Y/N.” Sam said, wrapping a comforting arm around you and pulling you in for a side hug.

Even though you have hair in your face and your shoulder feels like it’s about to dislocate from how hard Sam is hugging you, the only thing you could think about is your closeness. The way you can smell what cologne Sam is wearing, only because you were there when he bought it. You can feel how soft his hair is against your face and god, he’s so warm. You pull yourself out of his gravitational pull before you’re sucked into the inevitable black hole that already consumes you.

You tuck your hair back behind your ear, beaming at the boys,”Yeah, yeah, whatever. I’m holding you guys to it! You bet your ass I’m gonna be at every show I can.” You say, a serious look falling on your face. You try to ignore how hot your ears are from the closeness with Sam, hoping nobody else notices.

“We believe you.” Jake said, holding his hands up as if he’d be hurt for not agreeing.

“Good.” You say, raising a fist playfully in Jake’s direction to which Danny intervenes naturally.

The night goes on as usual, you guys share food at the table, talk about stupid high school gossip, what songs are in the process of being written, etc. At the end of the night you split into two groups once more, climbing into your seat in Sam's car so he could take you home.

As you’re buckling up and Sam is starting the car, he begins to speak, “I really do miss you out there, y’know. If I could have it my way, you’d be with us every time.” He says, pulling out of the parking space

Although your heart skips a beat, you speak as if it doesn’t affect you, “Oh, whatever Sammy, don’t flatter me.” You say jokingly, though inside you feel like your heart is about to explode. The anxiety Sam gives you isn’t bad by any means, but it’s definitely hard to ignore the way it feels like every time you speak, butterflies are bound to fly right out of your damn mouth.

“I’m telling the truth!” He says, a hint of offense in his voice.

“I know, just fucking around with you. It means a lot, Sam. I’m like . . basically lost when you’re not here.” You admit, your eyes focused on the road. You’re nervous that if you even look in Sam’s direction you’ll word vomit all over. There’s a knot beginning to tie itself in your throat and suddenly it feels hard to speak.

“Tell me about it. Sometimes before I step on stage I just imagine it’s me and the boys in the garage and it's just you sitting on that dingy little couch. It calms my nerves.” He says, playing his luck with the admittance game.

You let out a fond laugh, your gaze averting to your folded hands in your lap, “You’re funny. .” You say, too caught up in the fact that you can hear your own heartbeat and how hot you suddenly are.

“How?” Sam asks, turning his head towards you.

“Just are. .” You say, meeting his gaze with a smile. He chuckles and turns his head back to the road, making his final turn onto your street. That searing pain is back in your chest once you realize your night is closing in on its end. Sam pulls up to the curb and turns off the ignition.

“I believe this is your stop, miss?” He says, a playful grin on his face.

“Oh, why yes it is.” You retort back, feeding into his playful nature. For a brief moment you two lock eyes and the world almost stops it’s orbit. You can see every glimmer in his eyes and you swear for a second you stop breathing all together.

“I’ll see you tomorrow?” Sam says, although it’s barely a whisper between the two of you. There’s almost a sense of warning in his voice.  The whole atmosphere shifts and suddenly you feel like you’re playing a dangerous game.

You know you are. You clear your throat before attempting to speak, not wanting to embarrass yourself and give away just how nervous the situation made you, “Yeah, see you tomorrow.” You said, letting yourself out of the car. 

Before you could get the door shut, Sam leaned forward just enough so you could see him, offering a gentle smile – much more comforting than the tone his voice had dropped to a few moments ago, “Goodnight, Y/n. I’ll text you when I get home, okay?” He said, knowing you would ask him to text you anyway to make sure he got home safe.

You nod and wave before shutting the door, making your way inside the house. Your heart is racing incredibly fast and you take a moment after shutting the front door behind you to process what the fuck just happened. So much for normal. You shake your head and toe off your shoes, kicking them aimlessly by the door. You make your way to your room, going about your night time routine before a ping! from your phone alerts you that Sam had gotten home safe. You sit on your bed and swipe the phone unlocked.

Sammy: hey, made it home :)

You: ok good id have to kill you otherwise

Sammy: wooooahhh. 

Sammy: what? jealous im not giving you all of my attention?

A taste of your own medicine from earlier. You roll your eyes at your phone screen.

You: not funny.

Sammy: oh what happened to me being funny ):

Your heart skips  a beat

You: i hate you 

Sammy: no you dont <3

You’re staring, mouth agape, at your phone. How do you even respond to that? Does he know? There’s a million thoughts racing through your mind.

You: shut up

Sammy: hey, dont be mean

You: im being mean.

Sammy: remember who gives you your rides to school in the morning, y/n

You: whatever samuel

Sammy: ouch, full name?

You: god given.

Sammy: ok, message received. good night. I’ll see you in the morning :) 

You: okie

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Letting out a groan, you flop back into your bed once again to process the text conversation that just happened. You put your hands over your face, sighing into them before plugging your phone in and making yourself comfortable in bed. Sam was the last thing you thought of before your thoughts lulled you to sleep.

#greta van fic #greta van fleet #sam kiszka #josh kiszka #jake kiszka #danny wagner #sam kiszka x reader #fanfiction #gvf #sam kiszka fanfiction #greta van fleet fan fiction

[seasurfacefullofclouds1]

Can I share a view of the Louis fanbase? Unfortunately, because Louis’ fandom still comprises mostly of 1D fans or Larries, all of their perception is grounded in the Larrie material which is handed down from old Larrie Twitter/Tumblr/IG/YouTube posts. All of this content is highly skewed to form the narrative that Larries/1Ders wanted to pass down. The big Larrie blogs now were not even existent when 1D was active, a lot of the information they share today as facts in untrue but they are not really interested in facts. What this has done is really dumbed down the boys personalities and turned them into 1 dimensional people (1D :)), which they really weren’t. From 2013 onwards, the media basically treated 1D as Harry’s band. All the focus was on him, hence a lot of what you would find on Tumblr or You tube would all be focused on him and the others would be just side characters. Concert goers focused their cameras on Harry for the most part, people like Ellen Degeneres had interviews where each question was directed at Harry and the others were there just as props. It wasn’t fun for non Larries or people who were not big Harry fans in the 1D fandom so people ended up aligning to these cohorts.

Louis for instance was a big flirt on and off stage with all the boys not just Harry as Larries now like to proclaim. Here is a post that I am sure not many Larries today would have seen.

https://littlelilohands.tumblr.com/post/52444329609/the-most-outrageous-liamlouis-moments-masterpost

They will however have seen Harry and Liam being homoerotic on stage because that’s part of Harry being gay saga.

Louis was always the one who was the most comfortable with showing genuine affection. He really set that tone for the band. He has done the same with his band now as a solo artist too. It’s not about homo eroticism on stage, it is about care and affection with Louis.

One of the criticisms the Larries will have about Louis is that he seems to not encourage female artists and surrounds himself with men. This is also a bit one sided. One of the first collaborations of any member of the band was Louis with Bebe Rexha. They seemed to have a very comfortable chemistry when they did promo. Louis had her sing the opening verse of the song. He also wanted to put together and manage a girl band initially. On xfactor, he seemed to gravitate towards Ayda and showed her the most respect. Very different from the working relationship Harry seemed to have forged on the movie set of DWD with Florence and Olivia. Wonder if he would have treated a male director in the same way?

Also, Louis’ friends and family will be presented in really bad light by the Larries but no one can deny that he has always kept them around. Stan was there almost all through the xfactor journey with him, he is the one who invited his friends over from his hometown for the big party he had when they were first getting successful. His celebrations were never about inviting the Beckhams to his birthday party. Remember when he took his great grandmother to the Savoy for her birthday, I am sure the Larries today don’t have any masterposts about that. His family must have done something right for the amount of love and care he has always shown them.

Yes, he has vices such as he is a chain smoker, he likes to party and consume alcohol and is a self confessed stoner but that’s not all there is to him. I wish he gets to have a fandom one day that is not just built on Larrie masterposts but a more balanced view.

The cupcake image of Harry also percolated down from Larries and 1D fans. It’s amazing to realize that what Harry took away from Louis’ legacy of brotherly camaraderie and acceptance of all sexualities and genders was that it was good marketing.

Flag waving and photoshoots were done for marketing. Privately, Harry’s romantic partners were strategically chosen for business. They were discarded when they outlived their usefulness. But L/Harrie masterposts are all about Harry-the-victim. They will not call him out for his friends or his choices, just as they cannot accept that Louis isn’t the crude caricature they make him out to be.

[theygotlost]

the end of the watch 1.11: this is (not) discworld (episodes 7 and 8 double feature!)

sally shows up and accosts carrot in a bar restroom. no fucking joke she acts like one of those weird ageplay bitches on tik tok who do a disturbing little girl voice and pouty face. its literally fucking UNBEARABLE and i wanted to kill her so bad. btw she and death are the only characters with american accents.

vimes swaps bodies with Evil Vimes In Another Dimension, who's incarcerated in the tanty. he's thrown to "The Beast" for insubordination, which turns out to be Detritus

Detritus is apparently the "the best friend [vimes] ever had". they do a very heartfelt and slightly homoerotic forehead bump.

carrot and sybil are wardens of the tanty what i will refer to hereafter as the mirrorverse. mirrorverse carrot has a really scary middle part.

death asks carrot, angua, and cheery which one would be most likely to eat the others so he can "arrange his schedule". then he very shyly performs a 37 minute freestyle for them while playing the theremin.

in the mirrorverse carcer is captain of the watch after betraying vimes.

sybil somehow realizes vimes is an impostor when she kisses him. angua can also tell the impostor is sus by the type of aftershave he wears, which doesnt make sense bc they swapped minds and not physical bodies, so he would still be wearing the same aftershave???

this entire series has been building toward stopping the noble dragon but I genuinely forgot about the dragon because up to this point hasnt even been rampaging the city at all after the first episode? it just disappeared? and now its back?

vetinari locks himself in his "dungeon" which is actually a sick bachelor pad with sexy couches citing the line from gg that "you should never build a dungeon you would never want to stay in yourself". he chills out in a cunty red gown listening to jazz music. which tbh was pretty awesome

death asks to join vimes' emo band.

carcer stabs wonse for basically no reason.

throat dibbler is made head of the thieves guild.

carrot plans to lure the attention of the dragon bc he's a virgin and the dragon only attacks virgins. carrot has to learn to not be ashamed of his virginity like it's a gay coming-out narrative.

the matt berry talking sword requests to be worshipped as a "sex-ual deity"

im pretty sure angua they/thems cheery at some point but I might have just misheard her

in order to stop the dragon the watch puts on the best damn talent show ankh morpork has ever seen!!!! (they play in a rock band AGAIN.) cheery shreds the fuck out of the saxophone.

sybil intentionally sends goodboy out to seduce the dragon and it works.

carcer disintegrates from existence back to the future style and im still not sure why. the watch doesnt remember carcer and thinks wonse did all his crimes instead. as revenge wonse isekais vimes into an evil pocket dimension in what was likely meant to be a setup for a season 2 that will never happen.

and that's the show! many people have told me how brave i am for watching it and thanked me for my service but I want to be clear that i could NOT have done it on my own. this was a journey that @vampirejuno , @fealtyfaggot , and I embarked on TOGETHER. nico and ciarán deserve as much appreciation for their sacrifice as I do. ive also engaged in a lot of day drinking for this so sorry everypony please drink responsibly.

#the watch watch

[thebreakfastgenie]

If you had to make a script for a Billy Joel episode of Glee what episodes would you put in it

Okay so I actually think the Billy Joel episode of Glee did a decent job with the songs it chose:

Movin' Out

Piano Man

My Life

An Innocent Man

Honesty

Just the Way You Are

You May Be Right

They had previously done Piano Man, Only the Good Die Young, Uptown Girl, New York State of Mind, and The Longest Time.

They had no problem using Piano Man again, so I'm going to treat songs appearing previously as no object, that being said I feel less strongly that Only the Good Die Young is essential since it was used in the show elsewhere. Anyway I'm going to come up with seven songs because Movin' Out had seven and that gives me a guide lol. This isn't a cohesive episode plot it's just songs I think would work well, I will think about a cohesive episode plot but I need more time for that.

I would do:

The Entertainer (idk who would sing this but I'm picturing Mr. Schue bringing someone in to mentor the kids about the music business and this person being cynical and singing this song)

You May Be Right (but edited better, christ I hate how they edited it)

Tell Her About It (I see Blaine doing this one)

Allentown (that tank factory you're obsessed with fits in with the dying industrial town theme, also the music video for this is a little homoerotic so Kurt and Blaine could do something with that maybe)

An Innocent Man (in the episode this is used as a teen angst romance thing and it's great, it was kind of a surprising choice to me at the time and it was excellent I would keep it)

Summer, Highland Falls but only if Blaine gets to sing/play piano (I can't stomach a Glee cover of Vienna even though I think Darren Criss could do it so he gets Summer, Highland Falls)

We Didn't Start the Fire (Gwyneth Paltrow's substitute character should do this one. Also I know Mr. Schue becomes a history teacher but it doesn't suit him.)

I know Piano Man is obligatory but fuck that. It's too long and you can't edit Piano Man because Billy Joel will write a whole other song just to yell at you. Also like enough already. Enough.

Some other considerations:

This Is the Time as a Finn/Rachel graduation/breakup situation, featuring the other high school kid couples facing an uncertain future as well

My Life was great in the episode also and I would love to see that again

It's Still Rock and Roll to Me in the context of the kids freaking out because their intel says their competition (that school in the pilot with the steel drum band) is doing something flashy and new and Mr. Schue reassuring them that it's all still just rock and roll and they just need to do what they do

Keeping the Faith in the context of doing an old school throwback number for a competition but I would kill myself if I had to watch Glee do that because old school throwback numbers were my school's show choir's Thing and they won all kinds of competitions and everyone was obsessed with them

Miami 2017 when one of the original kids has a getting fired/quitting/dropping out arc in New York and is being dramatic about it lol

[stackthedeck]

Thoughts on gwenmj? For Earth 616 or 65

My thoughts are they’re perfect!

For earth 616 I like the idea of them being something unspoken that homoerotic friendship girls have that they don’t realize is something more something once in a life time until they’re much older and it’s already slipped through their fingers. The thing about Gwen and MJ is that despite “competing” for Peter they’re friends, good friends. MJ doesn’t need Peter because she has her party girl persona she prefers to be unattached to protect herself. Gwen is perfect and has everything why would she need Peter. So they’re friends and they’re not jealous of each other not in the romantic sense at least. But when Gwen is alive mj is distant and still experiencing and recovering from abuse. How can she make room for all of Gwen’s love, pure and committed in all the ways MJ can’t be yet. But Gwen loves her anyway, reaches out to her and says we’re going to be best friends. MJ can’t bring herself to love like that until it’s too late. She’s Peter’s to mourn and yet MJ is left empty and cold without her. they weren’t friends, MJ couldn’t bring herself to say the words back to her. But she kneels at Gwen’s grave and knows that Gwen was her best friend, she was more, she’ll never have anyone like her again. A part of herself was buried with Gwen. It’s not fair that someone so perfect can die and MJ still be here. She knows that when Peter looks at her, he’s looking for Gwen. And MJ can’t fault him for it because she’s doing the same. His love is pure and committed just like Gwen and MJ tries to give that love back, tries to bring a little of Gwen back. It’s not until years and years later than MJ realizes that she loved Gwen the same way she loved boys, loved her different than them, loved her better and worse. Peter is MJ’s soulmate but Gwen was her first love.

For earth 65 Gwen and MJ are much the same, unspoken and young but that Gwen doesn’t have the luxury of a peaceful memory. Gwen is breathing flesh and blood and a teenage girl. MJ and Gwen are best friends and they fight because that’s what friends do. Gwen has the weight of the world on her shoulders and she pulls away from MJ just so she’s not crushed under the weight of it with her. They have that same teenage girl love, that unspoken need that can only be found in the naivety and fire of adolescence. And that love comes with breakups that feel earth shattering despite that they went unnamed. And yet they come back together because that need is magnetic. Best friends fight, band mates fight, girls that are friends fight. Girlfriends fight. And they move on from the fights to practices and ice cream and study dates. MJ needs Gwen, she needs her drummer, she needs her best friend to keep her on beat. But MJ’s love knocks Gwen off beat, throws her world into question, makes stupid and mean. They’ll get together when they’re older but when they reminisce on that moment they’ll comment on how young they were. Gwen can’t pin down the moment she feel in love with MJ she was born loving her born hating her born being her best friend. Gwen looks at MJ and thinks about Peter but she’s not replacing him. No it’s all the grief that he caused her and she can’t help but anticipate it for MJ. They’re two planets orbiting each other, doomed to never touch but blessed to never be able to pull away

#asks #so basically they’re like just like every girl friendship #you know how it is #they’re like fleabag and boo #you get it #like obviously none of this needs saying #this is canon

[missyourflight]

some stuff i read and watched in june:

taskmaster (s1-5): haven't done an early seasons rewatch in so long, s4 and 5 are basically perfect 2 me. incredible that mark watson manages to be both my favourite type of taskmaster guy (hopelessly despairing) and also nearly won the thing lol. nish forever obviously

silo: got well into this! probably at some point apple will stop throwing millions at sci-fi shows but i'm going to enjoy their folly in the meantime

mission: impossible ii: hadn't seen this one! the weakest of the lot but the john woo of it all is undeniable

mission: impossible iii: PSH outrageously good as the villain, hi keri russell

mission: impossible - ghost protocol: so much fun, especially the sequences where you can see brad bird's animation brain going

mission: impossible - rogue nation: ILSA my beloved, the opera sequence is so gorgeous, no notes!

mission: impossible - fallout: it's good when henry cavill reloads his arms, it's better when tom cruise is sprinting around london rooftops and breaking his ankle etc, my most basic trait is that i Love when they're in london like oooh tate modern. anyway i'm very ready for dead reckoning

asteroid city: the bits about making art really got to me! the vending machines were cool!

joint security area: crash landing on you prepared me for this, blank check weren't lying when they said it was homoerotic, song kang-ho forever etc

dodie smith, the town in bloom: the most delightful narrative voice i've read in Ages and v funny. easy to sell me on 1920s theatrical shenanigans

k patrick, mrs s: So hot and butch, i liked the butch friendship stuff almost more than the sex stuff. more sexy lesbian novels Please

kj charles, the secret lives of country gentlemen: another winner from KJC, my most reliable romantic comfort reads. this time it's smugglers!

alice slater, death of a bookseller: sticky little thriller about being poisoned by true crime, great sense of place, So many pints of dark fruits

laura kay, wild things: bisexual disaster in love with her best friend, tragically very me- and also george russell-coded, god i want to swim in a pond again

SOME STUFF I SAW AT ROCK WERCHTER

the dj on the first nigt who played a mash up of i'm gonna be (500 miles) into temperature and then the 1d cover of one way or another into little lion man (deeply cursed fandom flashbacks etc)

weyes blood with candelabras and glowing hearts and amazing adam curtis projections on the big screen behind her

king princess sending the gay girls of belgium absolutely wild - "you wanna hear a sad lesbian song?"

matty healy is a dickhead but he's very good at being the frontman of the 1975. like if ben whishaw was straight and kind of disgusting

stormzy!!! literally the rain was pouring during blinded by your grace pt 2

mumford and sons - this whole festival was like being borne back ceaseless into the past but the cave still fucks me up, marcus really in his ken marino era, face-wise

PUP - i do believe if this tour doesn't kill you, i will to be a wholly perfect song, they had a trans flag on stage, best vibes of the festival

sigur ros - sometimes you just want to be in a massive barn with thousands of people with your faces turned up in the dark feeling like you're inside the sound somehow

muse - fucking incredible live band still!! every time i'm see them i'm floored by how hot chris the bassist is and then i forget about it and then i see them again and i'm poleaxed etc. they had a tech meltdown during knights of cydonia at the encore so we got showbiz instead!!

christine and the queens - beautiful and terrible as the dawn

jacob collier - asked if we wanted to get funky then put on a special hat, bit george russell-coded in the face

arctic monkeys - sometimes you just want to be in a field with one of your oldest friends singing the songs of your youth!! i love the 70s act actually! there are so many sexy songs on AM!! the skies finally cleared for the beautiful full moon, thank you belgium, good night

#monthly media #sophposting

[souryogurt64]

haven't finished the essay yet but it's really funny to me that the band that hijacked fob's mixtape campaign is the one kellin quinn's daughter is named after. scene music really is the eternal looping torment nexus

Lol that was also the last name of my toxic homoerotic girl best friend when i was 15

The mixtape is really cute, i had never listened to the whole thing and admittedly i assumed it would be cringe but i liked it 😭

[hinotorihime]

so chapter 3/the may 16th entry of dracula is actually one of the pillars of my argument that Dracula Is A Love Story.

the central point of dracula is that humans loving each other matters; that ordinary people can stand against darkness and evil simply by the strength of their connections to each other. dracula is old and powerful, but he is, fundamentally, alone.

dracula cannot love. this is what defeats him in the end.

spoiler-laden and very long discussion under the cut.

we learn some interesting and important things from the scene of dracula and the vampire women. first, dracula’s own peers don’t even like him. the relationship between them is overtly hostile, with the women disobeying dracula’s orders and being restrained only by his superior strength:

I saw his strong hand grasp the slender neck of the fair woman and with giant's power draw it back, the blue eyes transformed with fury, the white teeth champing with rage, and the fair cheeks blazing red with passion. ... With a fierce sweep of his arm, he hurled the woman from him, and then motioned to the others, as though he were beating them back; it was the same imperious gesture that I had seen used to the wolves.

the vampires are equated explicitly with wolves-- not as the family structure we now know wolf packs to be, but rather as a group of vicious and naturally solitary killers who are forced to band together under the power of the strongest one for the sake of acquiring food.

then we get this exchange:

"How dare you touch him, any of you? How dare you cast eyes on him when I had forbidden it? Back, I tell you all! This man belongs to me! Beware how you meddle with him, or you'll have to deal with me." The fair girl, with a laugh of ribald coquetry, turned to answer him:—

"You yourself never loved; you never love!"

more evidence of the disdain, hatred, and perhaps fear that the other vampires hold for the count; it hints at a history that we never actually get, but can perhaps guess at, especially in the immediate context of the scene (the women attempting to prey on jonathan), which frames a vampiric attack, very very obviously, as a sexual assault. and it expresses, flat-out, in so many words, a core theme of the novel: dracula cannot love as humans do.

dracula tries to refute this claim, in a very unconvincing way:

Then the Count turned, after looking at my face attentively, and said in a soft whisper:—

"Yes, I too can love; you yourselves can tell it from the past. Is it not so? Well, now I promise you that when I am done with him you shall kiss him at your will.”

yes, tumblr, this is the homoerotic cherry on top of the homoerotic ice cream, but like...

consider the parallels between the implications of this statement and this passage from jonathan in chapter XXII, which is incidentally my favorite line in this entire book and has lived in my brain rent-free for ten years:

To one thing I have made up my mind: if we find out that Mina must be a vampire in the end, then she shall not go into that unknown and terrible land alone. I suppose it is thus that in old times one vampire meant many; just as their hideous bodies could only rest in sacred earth, so the holiest love was the recruiting sergeant for their ghastly ranks.

like. okay! okay then!! jesus christ. hang on a second i need a moment.

fundamentally what stoker is doing in chapter III is drawing a distinction between the selfless, self-sacrificing love that the human characters will later demonstrate for each other (jonathan’s for mina, or lucy’s suitors for her--

What can I do?" asked Arthur hoarsely. "Tell me, and I shall do it. My life is hers, and I would give the last drop of blood in my body for her." ... "If you only knew how gladly I would die for her you would understand——" [chapter X]

)

and the “love” that dracula expresses for jonathan in this scene, which is no more in the end than a malicious possessiveness over his food. maybe when the count was a mortal man he was capable of loving in a mortal way-- his words to the vampire women seem almost wistful or nostalgic to me. but look at the contrast between lucy’s deep love and playful affection for her boys when she was alive and, well, this:

Lucy's eyes in form and colour; but Lucy's eyes unclean and full of hell-fire, instead of the pure, gentle orbs we knew. ... With a careless motion, she flung to the ground, callous as a devil, the child that up to now she had clutched strenuously to her breast, growling over it as a dog growls over a bone. The child gave a sharp cry, and lay there moaning. There was a cold-bloodedness in the act which wrung a groan from Arthur; when she advanced to him with outstretched arms and a wanton smile he fell back and hid his face in his hands.

She still advanced, however, and with a languorous, voluptuous grace, said:—

"Come to me, Arthur. Leave these others and come to me. My arms are hungry for you. Come, and we can rest together. Come, my husband, come!"

There was something diabolically sweet in her tones—something of the tingling of glass when struck—which rang through the brains even of us who heard the words addressed to another. As for Arthur, he seemed under a spell; moving his hands from his face, he opened wide his arms. [chapter XVI]

the revenant that was lucy retains her memories, but none of her human feeling; arthur’s love for her becomes no more than a tool to manipulate him into being her next meal.

vampires are incapable of love.

they are incapable of true community, too; fundamentally outcasts, fundamentally loners, who only group together under duress for the sake of hunger or the threat of violence. and it is due, in the end, to this incapability that they are defeated. for all his power, dracula dies unceremoniously at the hands of a bunch of young men who care deeply for each other and would do anything for jonathan harker’s wife. there’s a hope in that, and a comfort. as samuel vimes once said: it’s better to light a flamethrower than to curse the darkness.

or, in terms stoker would have been more familiar with: the light shines in darkness, and the darkness cannot comprehend it.

a final note: it would be remiss of me to ignore the unfortunate implications of the very queer framing of this assault scene-- other people have talked about the way that the homoeroticism of dracula’s claiming of jonathan, and the implicit feminization of jonathan-as-gothic-ingenue, was in context intended to increase the horror factor, and about the way it probably reflects stoker’s complex feelings about his own sexuality. the idea that homosexuality is “not really love” or, worse, is inherently assault, is still prevalent in today’s society, and my interpretation of this scene unfortunately cannot escape those undercurrents. the incorporation of these themes in the novel is masterful writing, and would also be rightly considered abhorrent if it were published today. ah, the art of literary criticism!

#dracula #dracula daily #dracula spoilers #literary analysis #dracula meta #mine #something here also about unholiness and the repulsion of vampires by the cross and the eucharist #the two major symbols of god's ultimate self-sacrificial love for humanity #and 'god is love' = 'love is godly' #but i need a bit longer to develop and then articulate those thoughts

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unhinged rainbow magic post 11 of 12

Ok most of this is insane rambling but for one part of it you’re going to need to remember Bethany the Ballet Fairy’s tragic backstory of having a gay quarter life crisis because of a homoerotic ballet rivalry with a girl who she loses the lead role in a show to please and thank you

MAGICAL CREATURES FAIRIES (hurray for cute animals again!)

Ashley Dragon looks like a dragon version of nessie the loch ness monster, which is a great design tbh DRAGON ON THE JEANS YES Also different versions of dragons! we love diversity Outfit does not match but she makes me not care! It’s different colours but its the right shade of each colour (this is such good colour theory knowledge El well done) HAIR EXCELLENCE Pockets! Sandals are not the right shade of yellow, it should match the top or the dragon on the trousers - also the chunky looking design is ugly, she needs to either go barefoot or have jesus sandals

Lara So well put together oh my god This is a witch not a fairy Adorable kitty! Cat lady vibes (cardigan) but super super cool (skinny jeans and boots) I am WEAK for those boots omg Lovely hair as well

Erin How is her hair literal fire??? Idk but I am Loving It Lara’s a witch, Erin is a goddess Freckles!!!!!! THIS is how you do a headband! The honeysuckle fire flower thing? ADORABLE Viking esque fur neck thing is NICE it has how to train your dragon vibes She’d take me to a pagan ritual involving a bonfire and I’d enjoy it Dress? INSANE This is a GOOD BELT TAKE NOTES it’s a lovely asymmetrical waist ribbon band thing!!!!!  Her delightful sandals have greek goddess vibes I’m living Girl could set me on fire and i’d thank her

Rihanna AHHHHH THE LIL BUBBLE AND THE SEAHORSE ARE SO CUTE Congrats on having decent blonde hair! Barefoot + anklet = beach ass vibes babey Her dress gives me the feeling of being underwater and looking up at the sun Mamma Mia vibes! Groovy and beachy and blonde This dress is kinda growing on me ngl The hem looks good on her and I like the shape of the neckline, but it should be a thinner line of green Rihanna absolutely votes for the Green Party btw

Sophia  Her creature is a cygnet cos it’s small and raggedy but it’s white instead of grey? First impressions she kinda looks like a bad art project but still cute I really like her hair tho its very cute with the ribbon Movie sleepover vibes This girl is wearing slippers. A pyjama top. And a really nice skirt. Is she halfway through getting dressed???? Feathery inspiration of her skirt is good, it looks like she’s halfway through a swan transformation Colour scheme is very cute and dreamy vibes

HEADCANONS: please remember Bethany’s backstory again thank you! This is the girl who takes the role of Odette in Bethany’s dance company, and the girl with whom Bethany has a homoerotic rivalry. Sophia weaponises flirting because it amuses her, especially aggressive flirting, like Bethany can be leaning against a wall and Sophia will come and put her leg up on Bethany’s shoulder. Sophia just delights in getting really close to her all the time. Sophia is into Bethany, Bethany is into her, Bethany knows neither of these facts. She has a high ponytail when she’s doing ballet and it just makes Bethany's brain go offline. Later in life they’ll run into each other, when Sophia has a high-powered ballet girlfriend and Bethany has her wife the costume designer and her really chill life. Sophia will apologise for making Bethany freak out but she really was into Bethany, and Bethany will reply yeah you fucked up my life for sure, but I don’t think I would have quit without you so thanks. Also your leg gave me horny nightmares. 

Leona (unicorn) Shit this is horrific I hate it all Well done on having a cute animal and absolutely nothing else Long flowy blue dress with more renaissance vibes please (see below picture) 

ok good we fixed it moving on

Caitlin (ice bear) The bear is so fluffy and it looks like shiver from barbie and the magic of pegasus awwww Swiss ski resort vibes are top notch Colour scheme? Yes Fluffiness? Yes Cosiness? Yes The haircut is really cute but I want more of a brown shade with less green in it thanks

#rainbow magic #rainbow magic fairies #magical creatures fairies