#i am simply preparing

[thatdude-noah]

i have an ongoing list of names that i like and want to use. and i never let myself delete names from the list. sometimes i look at it a week after adding a new name and i immediately hate it but i force it to stay there just so i know. just so i remember.

#i love having a list of names because i use a different name for every social media platform im on #and also i desperately want to run away and disconnect from my life and start completely new #and so i will need a new name for that #i am simply preparing

[tommykinard6]

Buddie fans, my loves, come have a seat for a moment.

I want to have a chat, from a long time Buddie lover to you, whether you’re new or have been here a long time.

It’s okay.

I’ve been in the trenches with you. I’ve been pulling for Buck and Eddie to get together for years. I haven’t given up, even as I’ve seen other fans leave because they lost hope. I don’t blame them. The Buddie section of the fandom has been powerful and beautiful and all consuming. We’ve gone seven seasons and up until this point, not one of the two men in question was even confirmed to be queer.

But we all need to take a moment and breathe. That’s it. Stop doom scrolling for a moment and breathe in.

Good. Now hold for a moment.

And breathe out.

I’m going to get real here, alright? And you might not like everything I say and that’s ok.

We need to stop being a problem. Stay with me. I’m not saying we need to stop shipping Eddie and Buck. Far from it. I will love that ship forever. I’m not saying we need to stop our fanfics or fanart or our love for these two. Our feelings are valid. Many of us have been in love with these two for a long time. The Buckley-Diaz family is a strong unit.

Our feelings are valid and we feel what we feel. But our reactions are utterly and entirely our own responsibility.

We need to stop the bullying.

Let’s face it, many Buddie fans have also been long time bullies in the fandom. Particularly in regard to the actresses who have played the female love interests in the past. Don’t get me wrong, aside from maybe Ali, I have disliked every love interest introduced. But have we not yet learned to separate actress from character? If we are going to dislike an actress, let’s do it for a valid reason. Marisol’s actress for example is problematic. But many fans have rained hell down upon any woman introduced.

I’ve noticed this issue for a long time. But now we’re dealing with the issue being even more widespread because of Buck/Tommy. Now fans are bullying each other. The fandom is divided, even in what is probably one of the better seasons we’ve gotten (in my opinion). I need you guys to stay with me here.

Buck is bi.

Let’s say that again. Evan Buckley is bisexual. A major character on a major show on a major network, previously a womanizer and still a very masculine figure, is queer.

This is monumental. This is amazing.

But so many of you are letting your feelings about Buddie get in the way of appreciating the progress we’ve made. Especially with the reintroduction of Tommy Kinard, Buck’s love interest.

Let’s clear up a couple of things, shall we? Tommy Kinard is not Sal DeLuca. He is not Captain Gerrard. While he was part of the old 118 and definitely was in the old boys club, not only is he not the major problem, but in most cases that he’s an asshole, it can be traced back to his own secret. It’s not great, sure. But let’s look at the facts. Chimney is friends and still keeps in touch with him. Hen appears to hold no animosity and was clearly comfortable with him. In Bobby Begins, they all are friends. And clearly, Tommy has undergone a massive self-growth period. You cannot try to back up your point with inaccurate facts.

People can change. People can also be forgiven. It’s the prerogative of those involved. Enough said.

“But TK6,” you may say, “Buck should be with Eddie! Tommy is a plot device!”

Let’s set aside instant gratification culture really quick and talk about storytelling. You cannot get everything you want when you want it. You also cannot have your cake and eat it too. Buck and Eddie, if both queer, were never going to come out at the same time. Do we really want that?! Because identity is messy. Self discovery is messy. Eddie has Catholic guilt. Buck has self esteem/worth issues. Life isn’t a fanfiction. The real possibility of their relationship surviving such a transition isn’t all that high. IF Eddie is canonically queer, he’s going to have a rougher path than Buck has had.

Also, everyone is a plot device. Let’s get real. If a character doesn’t move a plot along, what’s the point? YES, Tommy is there for a storyline. That doesn’t in anyway invalidate his existence or his presence in Buck’s life.

If you want an instant Buddie storyline, visit ao3! There are amazing stories on there.

Now let’s talk about Buck/Tommy, or TEvan.

I am a long time Buddie lover. I also proudly ship TEvan. Yes, those can coexist. I don’t often multiship, but it’s a beautiful thing. I want Buddie to be endgame, sure! But I’m also okay if TEvan lasts. If they end up being endgame, will I be disappointed about Buddie? Of course. I will also be thrilled because Buck and Tommy are a sweet couple and I’m here for it.

As a queer woman, I’m happy that Buck is bi. Multisexual representation is still sorely lacking. Male sexuality that lets a man keep his masculinity while being queer? Even more so. Just take a look at the ao3 tag. Buck is emasculated in many fics. That’s why I stopped reading a lot.

We have a ship here that includes two very masculine men, who are emotionally vulnerable and exploring something new. I understand ship disappointment. But the negativity is wild. We need to stop the bullying. We need to stop the cheating storylines. We need to stop making Tommy into an ab*s*r only because we apparently can’t handle a love interest being a good person.

At the end of the day, these are fictional characters. It’s a fictional show. But these are real people. All of us are sitting here behind our screens with real feelings. We need to stop.

Buddie may one day happen. And maybe they won’t. TEvan might be endgame. They might not be. Tis the way of 9-1-1. It’s exciting, isn’t it? Waiting for something new and exciting. It was starting to get a little stagnant.

As a queer person, I’m not trying to gatekeep anyone. However, we cannot sit here and say “stop queerbaiting us!!!!” (They weren’t, we’ve always had queer representation on 9-1-1) “give us more representation” and then when they give it to us say, “NO! Not that way!”

If it was about the representation, it being Eddie or Tommy would matter a lot less.

So if you are someone using representation to shield yourself, kindly just be honest with yourself and everyone else.

In the words of our Lady and Savior Taylor Swift, “You need to calm down”.

Now, back off into the world of scrolling you go, my lovelies. Remember, keep an open mind and breathe. At the end of the day, it’s a show. But I for one will happily wait for every episode because I’m loving this.

#911 abc #9-1-1 #911 season 7 #911 show #tommy kinard #bucktommy #evan buckley #buddie #eddie diaz #911 spoilers #911 meta #I’m sure I’ll get hate and I’m prepared for that #however #I’d like to point out that you’ll simply prove my point #it’s two am and I just want people to get along #lgbtq community #lgbtq

[icewindandboringhorror]

Just curious what the average level of personal investment in these sorts of things is. Like, how much do people usually get into silly stuff like this their friends ask of them? etc. etc. Which I know, only surveying a small sample on a very specific website means I'm not getting an exact average idea lol, but.. curious nonetheless .. Maybe reblog for bigger sample size but also this is not very serious at all/not worth a call to action gbhjbhjb

#which I know this could be context dependent like.. maybe you'd normally dress up but on a week that #you feel sick you wouldn't or etc. etc. - but I mean.. GENERALLY. in the most general average scenario #where you have the average amount of health and free time that you always do. etc. just based on your personality #and level of investment in these things - what on AVERAGE are you most inclined to do #also of course assume they communicate with you ahead of time and are not like planning a part last minute #like 'throw together costume in 5 hours and show up tonight randomly' or etc. I would hope that if we're going with the #AVERAGE of things - most people's friends have better communication skills than springing entire parties #on people last minute lol #assume you have like.. a few days-a week or so to prepare. however ealrly people usually start talking about #birthdays. In my experience it's usually one or two weeks ahead of time. Like 'oh next weekend' or 'oh two weeks from now' etc. #ANYWAY.. feeling a little Sick again of course but still trying to get some photos or something posted #AGAIN i promise I am not going to exlcusively post polls and ntohing else forever hgkjgnekj #I just really really love the ability to post polls and have always my whole life been obsessed with surveying people #I used to think I wanted to do that as a career somehow like.. be one of the people that does psychological interviews #or produce interview asessments for a company or etc. etc. I am always the one friend in the group thats giving out custom made #surveys or asking for other simialr stuff (did you ever take an mbti quiz? how about enneagra #m?? oh yeah I know they're not really scientifically valid or antyhing but like... DID you take them?? huh?? did you??please?? ghjj) #I simply cannot resist.. posting a little poll every once in a while.. as a treat #whilst I still fall behind on like actual content and costumes and stuff gbjhbjh #New poll adventure should be not as much of a wait as the last one was though since I already have the writing #for it really. I just have to do the ms paint sketch. hopefully no unexpected other health issues will get in the way #*** *** *** #< (anytime I do these three star patterns it is an ocd compulsion not me bleeping out words or something just ignore it lol) #(it means something secret in my evil brain just pretend you do not see it. significant only to me) #BUT YEAH.. ... poll... what type of costume party atendee are you? #:0c

[feelingtheaster99]

Gosh I think it’s a 100% a smart decision to have a flashback of Luke training Percy to fight but WHY MUST YOU MAKE THIS EPISODE HURT SO

#I’m PREPARING FOR IMPACT #I am not ready #especially if I see Annabeth’s reaction to it #those who know know #BECAUSE THE BOOKS ARE FROM PERCY’S PERSPECTIVE #AND WE DON’T SEE HER IMMEDIATE REACTION TO FINDING OUT #and it will simply BREAK MY HEART I KNOW IT #😭😭😭 #Percy Jackson #percy jackson spoilers #luke castellan #annabeth chase #grover underwood #pjo #pjo ep 8 #pjo season finale #pjotv #pjo spoilers #pjo tv show #pjo tv #pjo tv spoilers #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson and the olympians #percy jackson tv show #percy jackson tv spoilers #live reaction #the prophecy comes true #the prophecy comes true spoilers

[noa-nightingale]

It’s over and I am not okay.

$9 Sandwich Vs. $150 4-Course Dinner | Worth It Revisits

#steven lim #andrew ilnyckyj #adam bianchi #worth it #bfwi #buzzfeed worth it #the last episode #i simply was not prepared #i am so sad :( #watcher

[musicalchaos07]

I Look in People's Windows (The Tortured Poets Department, Taylor Swift, 2024)

credit to @lunar-years for the idea

#I am fully prepared for the hate anons #this is SIMPLY too funny to pass up #stranger things #steve harrington #jancy #< target audience #taylor swift #jonathan byers #nancy wheeler

[seraph5]

I’m like irrationally annoyed that Paul Wesley is shorter than Ethan peck by 3.5cm like. I know how completely insane that is I’m just like man just a tiny bit more of a height difference is a more satisfying aesthetic for fanart lollll.

#this is not remotely a take I am prepared to defend #it’s totally irrational #don’t try to fight me on it #I will simply say you are right lol #spirk #also obvi tall nimoy lil Shatner was always such a vibe

[scrapimmortal]

anyone who's ever worked in food service know how you stop yourself from popping a vein when it's obvious that an entitled customer is treating you like shit because you're doing 'unskilled labour' even though without you they wouldn't be buying their sourdough bread and sipping their fucking lattes

#if you disrespect service staff i fucking hate you there you go #i'm in a godawful mood because i think my period is coming and i got a migraine while working and i simply at what i do at this point #and there were barking dogs and screaming children in the shop today and i wanted to d word #i got up at 4 AM TO OPEN THAT FUCKING PLACE AND PREPARE EVERYTHING CAN I AT LEAST GET SOME GODDAMN RESPECT

[hillerskaroyals]

merry young royals eve!!! make sure you leave out milk and cookies for lisa tonight

#lads‚ besties‚ bitch (affectionate) we are less than 24 hours away from s2 #i would ask how you’re going but i KNOW the answer is gonna be not well #i had to break out the tags comma for this post #that’s how you know shit is serious #i am simply not emotionally prepared for what’s going to happen tomorrow #young royals #my yr thoughts #young royals shitpost

[anglerflsh]

so how was the parade??

Do you mean Pride? I looked at the very end of it from across the street for a grand total of four minutes before going home

#if you're talking about the military parade going on today I was there too early to see anything except the preparations but it looked cool #[.asks] #anonymous #I don't do well with manifestations. Mother brought me to one as a kid and I had a panic attack because i thought we'd get arrested for it #it wasn't even a protest it was just a city-organised event I was simply a very anxious child about these things lol #and I still am <3 I don't like the noise or the amount of people and I'm nervous about it escalating. So. I still probably won't go again #with the exception of things like the artillery parade (so events and stuff that aren't protests) I'm not one of this sort of thing i guess

[darchildre]

Just had a library patron tell me, "I'm sorry for your lack of common sense" because I told her that no, we do not have a paper cutter that patrons can use and no, I'm not going to take her papers 'into the back' to cut them for her because that's not a service we offer but that I had a pair of scissors I would be happy to lend her.

A) Good job, lady - you've succeeded in making me feel upset and anxious, which is, I'm sure, what you wanted. So I guess you get to chalk this one up as a victory. How exciting that must be.

B) And yet, I'm still not cutting your papers for you.

#she didn't even *ask* #just 'you're going to take these and cut them for me' #no lady #no i am not #surely it exhibits a lack of common sense to not prepare the supplies you need #and simply expect that they will be magically provided for you #(this woman is constantly a problem and i have very little patience for her #but this is the first time she's outright insulted me to my face)

[cptnleviackerman]

am I the only one who doesn't want taylor to announce/release reputation tv tonight... like... girl... I'm not ready for that album right now... I need more time with 1989 tv before I can even think about rep

#rep my most beloved album in all the world #i am simply not ready for u rn #i need more time to prepare #pls🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏😩😩🫣 #ts #reputation tv #taylor swift

[anaalnathrakhs]

it's rlly fun how my parents just straight up. do not care. about the disordered eating. we had all this talk back when i went through a big suicidal crisis a couple months ago, i explained what was really difficult for me, eating socially, restaurants, not choosing my food, etc, and now it's like. okay it didn't exist actually.

mother i am not going to order you around, either you accept that i'm gonna have difficulty dealing with "normal people behavior" or whatnot and you stop looking at me like :/ anytime i am anything but ecstatic at the idea of eating anything anytime anyhow, or you adapt your behavior to avoid the results you don't like to see. i'm only doing my best to handle things from my side, and i am certainly not going to try measuring for you how important family social eating occurences are to you.

#''we should talk abt it uwu'' WE TALKED ABOUT IT. STOP COMPLAINING THAT DOING STUFF THAT I CAN'T EASILY HANDLE MAKES ME WEIRD. #EITHER YOU ASSUME IT'S GOING TO MAKE ME WEIRD BECAUSE YOU KNOW EXACTLY HOW AND WHY #OR YOU STOP DOING IT IF IT'S SO UWU HEARTBREAKING UWU FOR YOU TO WATCH #i'm not happy about how guilty i am too of that specific brand of ''oh this is so sad *continues doing nothing*'' form of ''compassion'' #they just want me to perform anorexia recovery for them #so they can feel okay we're doing a good job at raising a normal child #they don't give a shit as long as the compusive eating is my mom's meal at the dinner table #just like they didnt care when i had roughly the same problems but not as bad before i had a restrictive phase #i cannot compromise because then WHAT im just hurting my parents for a situation that doesnt make me any happier either? #i do not want to live with them. i do not want to go place or do activities with them. #i dont want to talk to them most of the time and im perfectly willing to handle the times it could be cool to. #but it's really hard to start developping a life of your own when you first of all need like two weeks of total life-reset #quiet at home #and ''at home'' there's your parents who will simply not stop trying to pull you into going random bullshit places #and i can't say no. because the places ARE interesting and time-limited. and it makes them happy. and what am i gonna do anyway? #keep doing nothing on the computer and wait for them to come back to keep doing only the shittiest parts of this unsatisfactory routine? #try to do some work in the house or go out. for them to see that something happened? #i dont know how to live like a normal person #literally not once in my life have i been able to think ''oh i need to do X'' and then just. do X. prepare what's necessary for doing X. #go out and do X. i have to keep stuck at this computer or in this room or with this book. #because there is a million different obstacles to every single thing i'm trying to achieve and half of them are parents-shaped. #everything hurts holy shit #broadcasting my misery #vent #ed tw

[the-trans-dragon]

I miss forums. I used to be able to find forums for specific topics, like sensitive skin, and find advice for what lotion to buy.

Replacing those with "review sections" was a terrible idea. The review sections are often moderated by someone selling the products being discussed, and that's never going to be trustworthy.

I miss when forums weren't so easily manipulated into being gigantic billboards.

#sorenhoots #i just want a lotion that has minimal ingredients for minimal risk of irritant. i would even make my own. i know a lot of *very good* things #simply cannot be marketed because its impossible to mass produce some things without adding preservatives or having to prioritize #shelf-stability over efficacy. i hubristically have been using garlic as bug repellant all summer and it literally works better than any bug #spray ive ever bought and actually keeps me from getting any mosquito bites but it couldnt be marketed because it will indeed mold once #i prepare it (adding it to petroleum jelly. this is not advice lol. dont do it just bc i am doing it). i would totally make lotion in the #same way if i had a decent recipe. i know theres like...oatmeal recipes? idk i cant find anything. ill keep looking but like. #its frustrating that i look it up and all i get is pages and pages of ads.

[mroddmod]

#submission #UMMMMM HELLO???? #ELIJAH?????? #okay FIRST OFF IM KICKING MYSELF IN THE ASS SO HARD BECAUSE I DIDNT SEE THIS FOR SO LONG #ghosting everyone i know has come back to bite me #ANYWAY #ELIJAH. #WHAT THE HELL #I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BRO!!!!! be prepared for me to dm u and rave about this for hours because. you are so sweet. this is so sweet. #i simply do not have the words right now oh my god #bro i am cherishing this <3 #putting it in my little treasure chest heart #i'm a little pirate hoarding my elijah art #NEVER GETTING OVER THE WAY YOU DRAW THE AMATEUR SUIT!!!! BTW!!!!! #ily bro <3 #moot tag :) #HAPPY BELATED VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!! #sorry i'm literally just. #do you guys realize that elijah is the best ever. like actually. #DO YOU GUYS EVEN KNOW.

[bumblebeebats]

The IRS LOOOVE to ask me questions like

Have you ever:

never not received dividends of a divisionary nature through the operation of a state or federal corporal mutual fund, and paid pecuniary expenses related to Article 805A(b).e, or

been gifted more than $2,000,000 cash or the equivalent in yachts or racing horses from a foreign monarch, and

not been actively involved in assessing fewer than two digital assets prior to 2021, or not more that two non-relational nontaxable assets after Jun 7th, 2022 (see Schedule 8, box 17a)

☐ Yes ☐ No ☐ Other

#& before anyone tries to recommend me some nice simple online tax preparation thing; srry but i am legally not allowed to #bc I'm a dual citizen living abroad 🙃 So I have to pay an accountant $500/year to fill it out for me instead #Hey Americans! Did u know if you ever permanently move abroad you actually still have to file US tax returns for the rest of your life? #And report the balances of all your bank accounts to the US government? With potential fines of tens of thousands of dollars #PER year PER form that you don't fill out? #Fun fact: this also applies in many many cases if you were born abroad to a US parent and have never even been to the US!!! #Fun fact: the US government doesn't tell you this! There are thousands of people all over the world #who are considered tax evaders by the US and stand to be immediately arrested or fined the minute they set foot on US soil!!! #Most of this is hardly ever enforced ofc bc the IRS simply doesn't have the manpower to do so #but it's a handy little sword of Damocles hanging over the head of every US citizen all over the world #so that if anyone ever steps out of line - whoopsieee! looks like you haven't been filing your FBARs huh? #Would be a pity if you were extradited and arrested for tax evasion :) #One more fun fact: apart from the US the only other country to require lifelong taxation and tax filing from its citizens abroad is Eritrea #a totalitarian dictatorship with one of the worst human rights records in the world #But thank god the America is such a paragon of freedom and democracy <3 🙃🙃🙃