#i am very unlovable

[notdelusionalatall]

It's even more painful listening to their excuses, like honey, I get it. You have your priorities, it's fine.

I don't mean anything to anyone. :)

#meme #memes #painful #i have no friends #no one loves me #i'm terrible #i hate myself #everyone hates me #i know #breakups #betrayal #when your friends make plans without you #“friends” #yeah #sure #gtfo #i'm unlovable #actually #i am very unlovable

[dragondawdles]

Sp did you ever figure out what was up witht he noodle dragon?

oh anon I'm ill about it

#totk spoilers #<-(for real this time wow!) #totk #light dragon #the light dragon #totk light dragon #link #link totk #loz #tloz #zelda #id in alt #dragon doodles #dragon answers #anonymous #do not worry about spoiling me I have very beaten this game LOL I am mostly worried about spoiling anyone else that's why I get to be coy #bit more spoilery thought: playing this I was like INVESTED in the story I was going to save zelda REGARDLESS of the script I was DETERMINE #think link would very much feel much the same way. hand in unlovable hand but like in the opposite direction if that makes sense #anywho. wyrm my friend wyrm I like to see my friend passing by

[made-nondescript]

I’m imagining that Hermes was an accident. Like Sausage and newly-a-god Joel were hanging out late at night, probably partaking in some food and drink, and Joel starts bragging about all the new shit he can do. Like he’s tall and can lift hella stuff now or whatever and Sausage is like that’s cool but like just a normal person could do that. If you’re such a god you should prove it by, I don’t know, animating that armour stand over there? and now they have to play divorced dads with an armour stand child

#empires smp #esmp #this is not to say that hermes is unloved or unwanted though they are very loved #sorry but not really for all the hermes related posts i am thinking so hard about joel empires and also jimmy empires rn #nondescript post

[sophiethewitch1]

www!reader WILL call batman a pussy for not killing on her private twitter. she does it like every other day. its cathartic

#sophie speaks #series:www #all of the batfam: i have a very complicated relationship with the idea of killing as i follow a code that i know has caused thousands of- #lost lives and hurt people. but i still follow it because i know its the right thing to do #reader and jason: what like a baby??? #i actually wrote www!reader to reflect all of the guys like... worst traits #shes obsessive like tim ignores her problems like dick is completely consumed by vengeance like jason and just generally petty like damian #hand in unlovable hand #and you havent seen readers more petty side yet but believe me you WILL #her and damians interactions always crack me up because they're just so. #genuinely miserable around each other but both too stubborn to concede any ground #damian: i think ur here to cause trouble and steal things #reader: i am literally working at a soup kitchen. ur only allowed to bitch if u help #which of course he does hes a good boy but the soup kitchen definitely has a weird vibe when the two of them are around #u dont have to worry about ur own problems look at these two obviously emotionally incompetent people bickering with eachother #anyways what was i saying

[freebooter4ever]

Yikes i read the article and there are SO MANY terrifying sentences. Girls if your self worth in your twenties is based around looking down on and degrading 'older' women in their thirties....that is a slippery slope.

Also the author talks as if her tiny window of experience is universal. Most of my friends who are in true partnerships are happy in their 30's including the ones who have kids.

"I had high breasts, most of my eggs, plausible deniability when it came to purity, a flush ponytail, a pep in my step" like wtf this woman sounds as if she's stuck in a bridgerton episode???? Like her nubile body is being presented at cotillion to the highest bidding elegible bachelor. How are we not past this feeling like a requirement as a society?????

#Jrnlsht #Life is a gamble and just because some of us picked one path and lost doesnt mean the other path was better #Am i alone and realizing that because of the economy and gap in wages i will probably never be able to have kids as a single mother? #Yeah #But marrying young to someone wealthy is also no garuntee of happiness i have seen that crash and burn with my friends too #In one instance a friend who gave up everything for her wealthy boyfriend only to have him suddenly turn her out of the house after a decad #Of living together #Meanwhile my bff and her husband with their two kids have been together for over 14 years and are still happy as pigs in mud #And i have plenty of friends with no kids and a career instead who are very happy #The thing you dont want to end up with is me: 35 alone unlovable AND no career hahahahahaha my life is great

[cybervom1t]

loving me always ends with you wanting to die

#wordvomit #I’m sorry but it’s a sad reality #I am unlovable and you will try very hard to love me and it’ll make you sick to your stomach

[lastoneout]

how to explain to people that the tags and replies of positive posts by strangers are not an appropriate place for them to vent about how much they hate themselves

#I am very sorry that you're going through some mental health and self worth issues #but pls stop making me read paragraphs about how gross and unlovable you think you are #on my posts that are not about that sort of thing!!

[saltpepperbeard]

hi everyone how are we doing i personally am listening to run from me and sitting at my desk dry heaving and tearing up from the implications <3

#OFMD #OFMD Season 2 #OFMD S2 Spoilers #if that’s genuinely the song at the end of episode 2 #THENNNNNNN UH #I AM VERY WORRIED ABOUT ED #AND IT IS GOING TO HURT SO SO MUCH SKDJSJD LIKE ARE YOU KIDDING #because this to me sounds like him feeling like he’s past the point of no return #and that he’s unlovable #now of course i don’t know if that’s the context #BUT IT SURE SOUNDS LIKE IT #SOOOOO IM CARTWHEELING OUT THE WINDOW BYE

[ginkovskij]

explaining people that most times there is not A Reason for something, but rather A Series of Small Reasons that All Together are Overwhelming and Stress-Inducing

#like every time it's the same story!! #when i say i will very likely not find a romantic partner people are like but whyy #well yes beauty isn't everything and humor isn't everything and money and a good job isn't everything and sex isn't everything #but when i have nothing of that plus i hate sex plus i have at least three mental problems that i am currently aware of #let me just tell you i don't think everyone is out there hating me but that's a lot to make work #and makes me feel overwhelmingly unlovable #notes of a countryside dandy #deleting later

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

and this

THIS ONE

#this one is my favorite out of all the hozier songs you've sent #he's basically just being like im warning you don't love me if i love you back ill never let you go ill be stuck to you forever won't let #get rid of me ever #“don't let me in with no intention to keep me” ow ow ow that hurt #also i am scared to assume what you meant when you said these songs are uscore but uhm. #this is the most us song ever to me #you thinking you are unlovable whereas in my mind you are the easiest person ever to love it takes no effort to love u and once it happens #it's impossible to stop believe me ive tried very hard but i am powerless i really am like a dog or a wolf whatever he's saying im not #leaving your door ill keep howling begging for us to stay together #okay bohot zyada keh diya but not backspacing it sorry not sorry #vio love

[transmasc-malewife]

I wanna be in love with someone so bad it's eating me alive.

#i love my friends very much but it is making me insanely insecure the older i get without ever having been in a romantic relationship #am i that ugly? that unlovable? always the 3 wheel? #ugh #ignore this sorry #vent #vent tw

[awarmshrine]

Self harm tw

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Last night I cut myself for the first time in...I think years. I also sliced a bunch of my hair off lol. I just had to feel something good. The emptiness is so, so huge and I feel enormously, terribly alone.

#I am so irrationally disappointed that the mental health ppl I was referred to #have been sooo incredibly unhelpful and invalidating #and I feel very far away from E and it feels like it's taking increasingly large effort on my part just to coordinate a video call #half the time they don't pick up #and they're travelling with someone else atm who's staying in the van with them #and I feel replaced and unwanted and unloved and idk how to say that any more than I already have #my words matter #self harm tw

[creativebrainrot]

Since RP is becoming less and less scary ive been considering Maelgwyn AUs that dont include major story characters and one that also doesnt include being an Elonian Sylvari.

I'll start with the second one because, I've thought about it less, since the game encourages non-pale tree sylvari through Malyck's existence.

I'll keep the abnormally large part of his design because it contributes to his own expierence with himself. (?) His stature, coloration, and generally creature-like traits contribute to his selfhate and how much he despises being seen as a monster. Which is his primary motivation for why he Does That One Thing that starts his journey. Being seen as a monster is why he becomes a bounty hunter. So if he's not in elona, what if bandit syndicate leader? Except, these ones are grey morals and tend to help out those in need by picking targets who have excess and will for sure be fine after the attack. People who can EASILY replace lost shipments. Thats an easy enough replacement for the desert beast thing.

undercooked tho because im pretty sure no one would be tooo mad about a Single Elonian sylvari. My main answer for Maelgwyn's desert tree not being involved is usually, the tree never recovers. He's the only one that's awakened, and rather than healing slowly and stabilizing, the tree dies a few weeks after he wakes.

The first AU is much more interesting to me because Maelgwyn starts pretty grey morals BUT. If he never meets Trahearne,,,,,,,, he gets worse. Because Trahearne is also a grey morals guy but after being pact marshal for so long his morals have shifted to be a lighter shade, which rubs off on Maelgwyn. But if he never meets and stays with Trahearne then his friends would likely be fellow bounty hunters and contacts in the trade syndicates that get along with The Desert Beast and i think thatd make him much more willing to do shit like say. Raid a syndicate hideout with his buddies for nicer drinks and such. The syndicate doesnt LIKE him ANYWAY, and they ARE too close to his turf SO is it rEEEAAALLY THAAT BAAAD. cmon man. its JUST for some better alcohol and theyre only gonna do it once. or twice. when they feel like it. its not like the bandits need the stuff anyway????????

and shit like that. If he never meets Trahearne he also doesnt heal. Not as much anyway. Because falling for your fucking client/charge was a FLUKE and NOT THE PLAN. Maelgwyn was still very much not ready to actually love someone again but thats what he THOUGHT he was. He stumbled across the right person, and fell in love with someone safe and understanding enough, who loved him BACK enough, to see through his difficult tendencies. So his self hate, self doubt, fear, and just. ALL of his mental health issues around falling in love and being vulnerable with other people sticks around. Because he never got a chance to organically unlearn any of it. Because he IS NOT gonna be the one who goes looking for love.

Absolutely not, you tell this man you love him four months into a casual romantic relationship, he is having a secret panic attack and ghosting.

If he falls in love with YOU and realizes it. Bye. Ghosting.

He's so not okay xd

He's okay with friends, for the most part, but chances are, you're still not getting through to his honest self. Everyone gets The Desert Beast. If you get to see Maelgwyn you are a LUCKY bastard, this man masks and hides his real self SO MUCH.

#oc: maelgwyn (he/him) #ocposting #gw2 #also if he never meets the pact at all #he doesnt get a chance to see people who have personalities like him #fighting to change the world #having close friends and loved ones IN the pact with them #and he doesnt get that little bit of New Concept perspective change #so he doesnt get challeneged on his #'I am The Only One who will be left behind and unloved and I Specifically Deserve It' #self hate idea #hes a dumbass and i love him and im going to put him in his very own decorated blorbo pringles can #and shake him for 28438485783829273 hours #at speeds no blorbo should ever be subjected to #and also chew on him and bite him

[yay-depression]

the repressed neurodivergent experience of thinking “no one will ever love me with all of my neurodivergency the way i love them with their neurotypical-ness.”

#me my whole life: got made fun of for exhibiting ND traits among other stuff #me in middle school: well if i simply pretend i am neurotypical people will stop disliking me for being ND #spoiler alert: i was not very good at faking neurotypical-ness #me now: very very good at faking being neurotypical to the point that i am perceived as having very few distinguishable traits #my family my entire life: you are weird (aka neurodivergent) stop being weird #my family my entire life: if i simply do the thing that my child hates maybe they will grow out of hating it #another spoiler alert: no the FUCK i did not #tldr my entire life i’ve essentially suppressed most of myself to make the people i love comfortable bc that’s what they wanted from me #and in response they routinely ignore some of my most important boundaries and still try to act like they’re helping me #my therapist keeps telling me that one day i’ll get a family even if it’s found family #because sometimes found family is the best kind of family #but no one i’ve met is willing to actually put up with who i am as a person and not abandon me #every non-familial person in my life anytime i’ve shared deeply personal things with them: nope no thank you goodbye #and the deeply personal things were always just like ‘i’m actually pretty insecure in friendships and i feel deeply lonely’ #it wasn’t even traumadumping bc they always seemed fine with that!! bonding over shared trauma was like a group activity #and then anytime i was like ‘hey could i maybe get some validate that y’all don’t hate me?’ everyone would be like #no. why would you need that we never said we hated you stop being over dramatic #my dad pulled that last one all the time!! except he added the ‘how could you even think i hate you when i’ve been nothing but good to you!’ #come to think of it my friends did a lot of that too actually #anyways i have a core belief that i’m actually just unloveable and people just tolerate me and it’s been confirmed repeatedly

[backroadboy]

I am obsessed with my own blogs btw

#like they are me #and I'm actually starting to have fun on tumblr again #I'm getting more comfortable and posting my own stuff and curating things for my different blogs #thighholsterdean is kinda my fave in terms of fandom stuff because i love creating this little place about cas and dean but mostly #about love and how love will persevere #and I'm actually writing again and maybe I'll post it one day and i want to get back into art even tho life is kinda shit #and I've been in such a dumb headspace especially since a very important friendship of mine ended and i felt like i was so unlovable #and fucked up. i really want to find friends once who stay and i wanna be better and i am trying and i hope people will see that #anyway i'm talking too much #txt.

[thatgirlonstage]

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#I know I have friends I know I am loved I know amatonormativity is a hell of a drug #and that it SHOULDN’T matter that I haven’t had an s/o in years #knowing this intellectually does not change the fact #that sometimes late at night I feel very lonely and unloved #it’s. look I know this isn’t how people work really #but it FEELS like not being good enough to be someone’s closest person #I know I KNOW that’s not like. how love and friendship work #but it’s not rational #I just. I want to be someone’s first priority #that’s probably selfish but I just feel very alone #surrounded by people who all have their own partners and I just. don’t #and it feels like not being good enough to be someone’s Someone