#i dont remember how far i got

[comas-are-for-sleeping]

was abt to be surprised u know abt the cw dc shows but i shouldnt be tbh they're one of the good bits of it SARA LANCE QUEER PERSON BACK FROM THE DEAD OF ALL TIME? my family spent YEARS watching it but then when they started becoming more overtly queer and a little bit boring we had to stop so idk where it's going now 😔 but oh man those shows were fun times. SPECIFICALLY the flash and the arrow bc they were simply so fun

YES FR OMG LITERALLY IN LOVE W HER

my family RELIGIOUSLY watched the flash and supergirl ages ago until the season where barry is like. obsessed w the future and not killing iris or whatever. (they watched arrow too but said it was too violent for us rip. LOOK AT ME NOW)

but then over pandemic school i started watching all the shows that were on netflix… to the extent that i was watching them during class um. and then i just?? stopped? like i looked up the order to watch the shows and it got very very. hmm what’s the word idk. couldnt binge any series bc they would just randomly converge and you’d have no idea what was going on anymore so i stopped. (also bc netflix has like. maybe four of the arrowverse shows)

#OMG I TOTALLY. I WAS SO OBSESSED W THE ARROW. I WAS LISTENING TO PLAYLISTS #i decided that sara’s sister only listens to hard punk and cowboy music #what is her name oh no??? #i dont remember how far i got #middle of the season that we orignially stopped at w the flash tho rip #he is BEYOND annoying in that season but i love wally so much i might start watching again #DID YOU KNOW THAT IRIS’S DAD WAS IN THE ORIGINALCAST OF RENT????????? INSANE #when i learned that i combusted #ask #soryasongsaa #pen and ink

[raredrop]

maybe now i'll finally finish the darkest faerie....

#i dont remember how far i got #i think to like altador? #i remember the funny staircase #but my friend also had the game so #i cant remember how far i got and how far she got

[sluckythewizard]

these are A BIT OLD but uhhh here check out these aggio doodles i did forever ago. still VERY happy w my colors :3

#this was back in uhhhh jan 2023!! hot dog!! and its still perfeclty good to eat! #i think kian and chip would get along. they could talk about feelings. kian could give chip the therapy he needs. maybe kiss? who said that #jay and rand could also get along i think. smoke buddies. cigarette fans. i bet they could play dnd together. or build a contraption togeth #also WAUHG the way i colored in kira here is SO PERFECT.. SHES SO SPARKLY N PRETTY. ALSO THAT HOOORNN i remember bleeding for that #shading is HARD lighting is HARD drawing a crazy unicorn is HARD but SOOOO WORTH IT I SITLL LOVE HOW IT LOOKES..... #waht else is there. oh yes the prime defender doodles #i love mark so much.... i miss being crazy and strange abt mark winters... i need to draw him killing more people someday #anyway i gotta go to bed soon to keep my sleep schedul on track but I DONT WAANNA!!!! recently relistened to bitb. that might release spore #im also chippin away at that am i in heaven animatic between workin on commissions. I GOT RLY FAR!! i think that i could finish it within #like. 3 or 4 more inspo waves. it wont be unfinished forevcer..... its so close... just 4 more full scenes to rly fleshh out #so basically another 2 years. YEAH BABy. in the meantime i have a backlog of things i can poast. i got plenty o drawings and doodles to sha #alrigh thats all the ramblin im gonna do for now. sleep well everyone hope shool or work goes easy on u in the coming week

[gardenofdelete998]

if i could change one thing about myself it would be to not hate seafood. cant shake the feeling that somewhere in the future i will be stuck in a situation where this will be a huge detriment. like being stranded on the ocean

#also when i was a gradeschooler my parents did this thing where they didnt let me leave the table untill i finished the meal which often led #to me staying in the kitchen well into the afternoon propably crying and if i told them how i cant physically force it down it keeps coming #back my mom just said if i vomit into the meal she will make me eat the vomit back up too. i dont think this ever happened but i think ther #were a couple occasions where i vomited and got a new portion the size of what was left of the previous one #my mom denies it to this day that any of this ever happened luckily my sisters remember it too #my parents were pretty much allright parents but this is deffinitely a fucked up thing #then one time well into my teenager years she did this again and i was feeling too old for this kind of shit so i just packed the whole meal #into a couple of napkins and fling it out the window. i was aiming for the roof of the house across the street but couldnt throw that far so #it sploshed onto the building's wall and it was winter so it froze there and i could see the petrified remains for years

[dottores]

ahhhh the sudden awareness of where you stand with people my beloathed </3

#never fails to hit hard but #i am glad that it happens #i must go do my readings for tomorrow #i shall see you all in the morning or after classes #i will say it doesnt hurt as much as it used to nor do i feel like angry or anything — is this me actually finally fully maturing? #ur little miss cat is growing as a person guys #remember when i used to throw tantrums on the dash when i got upset #actually dont remember that LMFAO #no but for real i think its crazy how much my general mentality has shifted with the start of law school #i think i became chronically online while i was stuck home for a year #jk lol but honestly its changed so much of my perspective on things way beyond just legal matters #i rmr so many people telling me that law school fundamentally changes you as a person but i did not believe it #but here i am a month and a half in fundamentally changing as a person #one thing that will never change is that i shall always make a small post with a million tags dissecting all of my inner thoughts #sometimes i wonder how many people read to the end #comment the number 7 if u got this far #LMFAO

[silversiren1101]

It's Friday let's fucking gooooooooo

[Has a fever, can't breathe through nose, choking on mucous, and immediately threw up as soon as I got up]

#im so sick wtf #i zonked out in the middle of raid last night i dont even remember how far we got #one min i was doing my rotation and the next i was in bed

[the-trans-dragon]

Y'know it was REALLY goddamn evil and nefarious that the oil fields gave my mom (a single mom working 3 jobs to raise 2 kids) a single $5,000 check in exchange for her signing a nondisclosure to never complain about them.

Of course we fucking took the money. Even with her working 1 full-time job and 2 part-time jobs, she barely made over $1,000 a month. Of course she took the money. We though about moving but we still couldn't afford it. She was so frugal with it, though. It did give us a sliver of financial security for years.

But goddamn. $5,000 is table scraps to them, and they bought her silence with it because she couldn't refuse the chance to slightly lessen the weight of poverty on her family.

#sorenhoots #i remember i was like 11 or something. she didnt know if she should sign it. and its not like we had or knew any lawyers. she had ME read it #over and even i was like “this is a nondisclosure and it means you cant ever talk about anything they do even if they do something terrible” #i recall being very proud of myself for knowing what a NDA was. lord knows where my middle-school self learned that from. she did eventually #have a lawyer of some sort look over it and they said the same thing but.... $5000 #it wasnt an option for her. that was more money than wed ever had or saved. she had two kids who would need cars bc we lived so far in the #country. she knew i wanted to go to college. i dont think i ever saw her buy herself clothes before then either. it was money for emergencys #and necessities and birthday presents and road trips and... i often wondered about the person who offered us that. i wondered where they #lived and wondered how much their clothes costed and wondered if their kids got to have art or piano lessons. i wondered if their home was #over 80 degrees in the summer and under 60 in the winter and if they lived in a house that wasnt filled with dangerous spiders (we had nice #spiders too but we did also have Very Dangerous Spiders) and id picture him in his office in a button up and slacks and it would break my #heart that my mom couldnt have all of that. we just had a $5000 check and a vow to not complain. #she still feels earthquakes from it. less nowdays but still. and sometimee it still smells like a jar of hot petroleum jelly. and the attic #smell is worse than ever and the tap water smells like sulfur and wet mold #goddamn what the fuck? jesus christ. she should move.

[hella1975]

thought about my old house for more than two seconds and almost cried so i did the smart thing and looked at the pictures of it on rightmove to see how the new owners (they have lived there since 2015) have completely ruined it (they redecorated) to the point it's unrecognisable (got an extension) and im literally ugly sobbing about it. they let my mother's garden die

#YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THERE USED TO BE CONIFERS THERE AND I REMEMBER CLIMBING SO FAR UP THEM #AND MY GRANDAD SEEING ME THROUGH THE BRANCHES AND SMILING AT ME AND SAYING 'HELLO' SO SOFTLY #BACK WHEN HE WAS NICE AND I REMEMBER THERE'S A BACK ALLEY BEHIND ALL THE GARDENS ON THE STREET #THAT YOU CANT SEE IN THE PHOTOS AND ME AND THE TWO BOYS NEAR ME USED TO SPEND HOURS AND HOURS #RUNNING ABOUT AND GETTING DIRTY AND BREAKING INTO THE NEIGHBOURS' GARDENS AND GETTING IN TROUBLE #AND NOW ONE IS IN A MILITARY SCHOOL BECAUSE HIS PARENTS GREW SCARED OF HIM #AND THE OTHER GOT INVOLVED IN GANGS AND GOT CAUGHT WITH A KNIFE IN SCHOOL BUT I SAW HIM AT THE LOCAL A FEW MONTHS AGO #AND HE'S STILL ONE OF THE SOFTEST BOYS IVE EVER MET AND HE SMILED AND SAID HE WAS GLAD I WAS DOING WELL #AND I REMEMBER RUNNING UP THE STAIRS WHEN MY MUM WAS ANGRY AND I REMEMBER RUNNING DOWN THE DRIVE #WHEN MY DAD CAME HOME AND I REMEMBER MY OLD DOG AND HOW MY MUM EXPLAINED THE NAMES BEHIND EVERY ROSE #I REMEMBER BEING SCARED OF THE CELLAR AND I REMEMBER LEARNING TO PLAIT MY OWN HAIR ON THE STAIRS #BECAUSE MY SISTER REFUSED TO TEACH ME AND I REMEMBER HOW COLD THE ATTIC WAS #I REMEMBER SLEEPING IN MY MUM'S BED AND I REMEMBER THE CAT DYING #I REMEMBER CLOSING MY EYES SO TIGHTLY BECAUSE I THOUGHT ID SEE SANTA AND THAT MEANT HE WOULDNT COME #I REMEMBER CRYING IN THE BATHROOM WHEN MY SISTER TOLD ME THE EASTER BUNNY WASNT REAL #I REMEMBER MY MUM BRUSHING MY HAIR IN THE KITCHEN BEFORE SCHOOL AND I REMEMBER HOW WE PAINTED THE WALLS #THAT'S MY HOUSE IT'S BUILT FROM ME AND NOW I CANT EVEN RECOGNISE IT #THAT WAS THE LAST PLACE I WAS TRULY HAPPY NOTHING BAD HAD EVER HAPPENED TO ME #AND NOW IT'S FOREIGN TO ME #im about to start dry-heaving this is evil and sick and twisted childhood homes come with their own ache i think #hella goes home #<- not quite but v much fits that tag

[darcyolsson]

percy jackson is perfect rep because neurodivergent kids truly will find out they literally speak zebra and their only thought will be "look at me. i can't even speak lion. probably means theres something wrong with me again :("

#im doing a reread! the plan is to read both pjo and hoo but well see how far i get #ive been wanting to finish hoo for like. ten years but i never did bc i wanted to reread pjo first #twas the right call i dont remember ANYTHING from these books lol #really interesting to read this as a 21 year old instead of an 11 year old bc percys 12 year oldness is palapable in a way it wasnt before #not in a bad way but more that i realise now how well rr got into the brain of a 12 year old kid w adhd #because the tone is so different from books im used to reading these days #also ive been diagnosed with both dyslexia and adhd since first reading these lmfaooo so thats fun too #personal #pjo #chb

[bangcakes]

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#personal #keep being like. if Only i had talked to him sooner. if Only i had been Friendlier sooner. but its like #Realistically.... probably wasnt ready. and also like. itd have to happen after school was over anyway bc 1. um i need to focus on school #and 2. how Awkward if i asked him out n he said no. or say we broke up or soemthing #like there were weeks i saw him every day. aint no way... i could handle the awkwardness of that #so ok ok ok. everything is fine JFJFJKFKFKFMFMFMFMFMF #i just have to remember not to get in my own head about it #like if i wanna message him i just should..... #its just..... hhhhHHhhhhh whyd this have to happen to me at 29. i could have been a happy spinster thank u NFJFJFJFJJFJFJFJF #but now ik what having an actual crush is like and oh wow is it painful. but also beautiful n fun. i just...... and lets face it this is #more than a crush. like its definitely Like like but i dont wanna say the Real L Word bc it seems..... idk JDJDJJDJD #but ive definitely um.... fallen. ya. ew JDJDKDJKDKDKDKDKS #but im just gonna follow my gut or whatever the fuck has been guiding me bc things have worked out so far #and like it wouldnt have without his participation. like ya.... #im just like... what if he Forgets about me or like everything fizzles out #but then its like i Know if i see him again itll all come back. #bc in the summer i tried so hard to get over him (and kinda succeeded)... only to see him again in class and be like oh fuck oh no and the #n That Dinner. that was the final blow. i was so overwhelmed i got lost on the way home #which... the restaurant we were at is less than 10 mins from my house so you can imagine the uh Overwhelmingness #i cant even remember the original point of this but. i think we'll find a way ....... i say we but i should say 'i' bc until he tells me #that he likes me im gonna have to like Not Assume. hhhh #it doesnt help either that ppl were bringing up 'hes just not that into you' on twt bc Now im like #oh God. am i in that kind of situation???? i doubt it tho. i think hes just reserved. GAH. whatever happens happens

[mistninja]

watched the black clover movie. Mereoleona yuri moment >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

#the best part by far #like hellooooooo 'maybe if you had been alive in my time i wouldnt have felt so alone' SHE WAS LONELY CUZ SHE HAD NO ONE AS STRONG AS HER #like no i dont remember that womans name but her and mereoleona were the highlight of the movie #honestly it was like that meme 'yaoi for women' #what if we were the only people strong enough to fight each other. and we were both women #soooo pissed we didnt see the final part of their fight but what we saw was so good #and dont get me wrong we got soooo much mereoleona #the animation was wild too ugh when she activated her mana zone i SCREAMED #mereoleona is genuinely the best black clover character babygirl i would watch anything for you #i was worried we wouldnt get much of her BUT NO. SHE CAME TO SLAY #like the others had to team up to fight the wizard kings but not her baby she came to beat ass #cant even say it was a case of 'designated girl vs girl fight' #cuz noelle and vanessa were helping fight that other guy and noelle almost killed him #and also. this fight only made clear how superior mereoleona is like. yuno + yami + fuegoleon + nozel had to team up to take that other wk #but mereoleona? no baby she can go 1 on 1 #anyways. it was good for a non canon movie the fights were insane and the girls did amazing #7/10 #SOOOO funny we didnt get a full flashback of the main villain tho i really was waiting for it #but they said 'no. only random fragments with no context' well i have to respect that

[marsbotz]

i had a dream i had a beautiful loving friendship with gus fring to match the one where i was besties with mike. im so broken take me BACK!!!!!

#i could FIX him #alsooooo jesse was there i think he like. helped save gus at some point idk #i was like god damn best episode EVARRRR. heartbroken #i dont rlly remember the details i kinda slept like shit so im a bit scrambled #but ik we were fucking around w like.. game code? to make a pet shop? #so fucking random #we made a starfish and fucked up dog. there was a pool. a guy tried to kill gus. OH #he got shot and i had to stop him from bleeding out until the ambulance arrived #also he called. and cus they were super busy he was like ‘i can provide information aboyt felonies. also i have been shot in the chest’ LOL #wtf mike got shot in my dream abt him too. why thats so random #there was also a separate dream abt ummm. idk some sort of puzzle thing we had to do as a team…? saul was there. he set a fire as a scheme #but the fire ppl wouldnt come until he said there were ppl inside 😭 #idk if i ever talked abt the mike dream here actually. #we were just friends…. besties… and he got SNIPED…….. and i tried to save him but he died #it was so sad the next day i was sad like all morning #feels similar now. miss u gus #^^^ EFFECTS OF ZERO FRIENDS #ummm anyway. more updates #i bought a meta quest like on impulse cus i saw they were cheaper now. the thing fucking sucks but vr is so awesome #ive been mostly playing beat saber cus my room is teeny tiny so i cant rlly safely turn #i started making my own map w a patricia taxxon song. SUPER fun i can see this becoming a new hobby #ive also been fucking around in vrchat a little. that shit is mindblowing #so immersive. its like unbelievable #ive only been playing that solo rn bc im shy and also testinb how well my laptop csn hsndle it LOL…. #but its so awesome. i feel like a little kid #i had to get a better headstrap and face pad bc the stock pne is So bad. like i camt wear it for more thsn like 20 mins at a time #so maybe when that comes i will muster up the courage to go into public worlds #best world i have visted so far. udons bird sanctuary. i think irs called #U CAN FEED DUCKSSSSS. WAAAAGHHHH #one day i want to make my own avatar too. im feeling the inspiration

[oflgtfol]

“But no one actually ‘looks’ through [modern telescopes]. Margaret Huggins lamented the shift from gazing at the heavens to squinting at tiny patches of light. Now we’ve gone much, much further. In today’s astronomy, photons of light from the sky, along with the celestial secrets they contain, are picked up by electronic detectors, converted into digital data and crunched through impossibly complex equations by some of the most powerful computers on the planet. In 2016, bricklayer-turned-astronomer Gary Fildes described visiting Chile’s Very Large Telescope (VLT) in his best-selling book An Astronomer’s Tale. Incorporating four mirrors, each 27 feet wide, the VLT collects visible and infrared radiation and can distinguish points in the sky separated by less than a millionth of a degree. Here, at the forefront of today’s attempts to understand the stars, Fildes was struck by the sight of scientists hard at work in control rooms, eyes glued not to their telescopes but to banks of screens: ‘They didn’t look as if they had seen the real sky for days.’”

- The Human Cosmos: Civilization and the Stars by Jo Marchant

#brot posts #astro posting #GOD this puts to words something i really felt #as someone who fell in love with the idea of astronomy as this awe-filled wonder of the vast universe #and then going to college and sitting in a fucking dark classroom at the brink of dawn fucking 8am and doing nothing but MATH !!!! #like - theres no judgment here #very very obviously we need these technologies and math techniques to truly understand astronomy #but like the whole thesis to this book (so far? im thinking) is that like #in doing so - you lose something fundamental #astronomy is one of if not theee oldest sciences known to humanity #but the way it was practiced for millennia upon millennia of human history is so incredibly different from how we practice it now #i got a whole ass Bachelors of Science in Astronomy and never once was i required to actually look at the night sky . #and i dont think this same phenomenon exists in other fields of science #like as time goes on we ofc learn more and theres a certain level of abstraction as you get more separated from the immediate knowledge #afforded by your immediate senses #but the level of abstraction for astronomy is just. not really seen as much or as bad in other fields? imo? #anyway i remember a while ago saying that as i got further through my degree the less magical space felt to me #compared to when i was younger and knew nothing at all #and i said yeah its nice to /know/ things now but i still miss that magic when everything was new exciting and real #but you lose something. that magic. that soul. when your astronomg experience is not actually stargazing #but instead sitting in a room doing math on paper or doing nothing but staring at a computer screen

[epicdogymoment]

! i forgot i was rewatching mushishi........

#leologisms #dont remember how far i got. maybe like 4 episodes

[mishapen-dear]

okay so i tend to work out my aus best when i think about them like a story so Step One: where the fuck do we start.

jaiden's pov. ofc. maybe alternating chapters. i think it would be mildly confusing until the reader realized that Jaiden Rogue and Jaiden Weapon were the alternating chapters and they were getting alternate viewpoints- one of her Descent, and one of her Ascent.

the descent chapters would be her turning into the sort of person who would follow orders to hurt an egg. her being lead by cucurucho to the living weapon program and being "deceived" by it by fully knowing what it wanted from her. making that choice to drown herself and emerge as someone -something- new. these chapters would Also address the problem that is jaiden becoming so brainwashed that she does whatever the federation wants instead of what she would have wanted, and hurting an egg (probably something via kidnapping/accidental injury she doesn't give a shit about. classic federation egg opinions). also she would have a subtext feud with badboyhalo. it would be the fucking- the annoyance that keeps her connected. the feds dont want her to fuck with him but he keeps fucking with her mission so she's annoyed when he shows up. like she never does anything outward to indicate this feud but there's the Recognition and the aww man not this guy again. the proof that she failed to remake herself because even with mission success she's still like aw MAN fuck that guy. she's still, infuriatingly, more than a tool.

#qliving weapon au #ive got some work to do in a minute so i can't expand on the ascent chapters idea yet but #quietly thinking about this #rotating her #im going to have to put more thought into roier and his role because so far in my brain he's like #got his own mini storyline and acts as a narrative tool to deliver a cellbit complication #but i remember when he followed her and cucurucho #he wouldnt just fuck off #especially not if he was a living weapon too #mmm maybe he's worried about hurting her #but i dont want to really come up with an excuse he isn't involved i want to figure out what he'd DO #reasons are v different than excuses i wanna know his logic and then what action would come from that #part of the problem is ive started thinking about foolish and bad and how theyre so fucking silly #and how that silliness would be IMPORTANT for jaiden to recover #like the silliness is important for roier to recover #but she can't get that silly dosage from roier because he's a reminder of everything she has tried so so hard to forget #i think ultimately her anger is gonna be directed at the federation #not for hurting them or fucking them up #but for making them partners #for putting them together for bobby and then only putting them together again to kill #another avoidance tactic

[moonlitlex]

based on the dms i just got i am starting to believe the vote blue no matter who thing this time around is actually a psyop

#alexis.exe #i just got called a zionist sympathizer for saying i think genocide is bad....... #so like thats either an extremely stupid person #or theyre doing this on purpose #also for legal purposes im not accusing like any actual people of anything #i love (read: hate) how people are trying to drag everyone with even an ounce of morals #kicking and screaming into the far right #dont kill people isnt even radical or controversial statement its literally just basic morals #also @ dems yall NEED a better argument than 'but trump will be worse' #youre literally proving right now that dems literally dont even need to do anything even remotely reasonable ever #dems can literally do the exact same things that reps will do but less and yall will come screaming and crying #into unrelated random peoples dms #begging people to vote for them anyway bc they're not as bad as they could be #do you remember 4 years ago when the promise was #guys vote biden for damage control and then we'll make the democrats more progressive over time #genuinely astounding that someone decided to come into my dms and yell at me for saying its not insane to not want to vote for genocide joe #instead of like. trying to bully genocide joe into not funding genocide anymore #if all of you put your heads together and bullied him maybe he would have fucking stopped sending them #billions of dollars of funds and weapons by now. did you think about that. no the fuck you didnt