#i made it so i only go 3 days a week.

[naomistares]

also! to whoever gives af about my personal life, i start uni next week, and it's been like this constant looming danger over my free time to draw, however, because i failed so many subjects last year, i had the opportunity to make my own schedule. and let's just say i am not going anywhere..... for now, the propaganda persists.

#i made it so i only go 3 days a week. #im sorry they cannot have me back #not when im finally enjoying this #also i am smart #i failed for reasons! #im smart and sexy

[yuurionviktor]

Gonna finish Gideon one soon, but for now you can have this Harrow

#the locked tomb #harrowhark nonagesimus #harrow the ninth #harrow the 9th #gideon the ninth #things ive made #idk man the 1page1day not going great and it’s only been 1 week #one week where I only worked 3 days mind you #(local holidays) #maybe I really wasn’t made for creating art jdhsjdjcbcj I see so many cool people online #where they’ve been better than me 10 years ago so where does that math leave me hm #for a person who’s really into bones herself (preceding my love for harrow ironically) I REALLY don’t know them #I mean you can always say that’s A Stylistic Choice but I’m also so lazy #like… just trace them girl

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

Expect clip posting to slow down due to irl nonsense.

Also from the 11th to the 18th I won’t have any computer access and very little internet access but I’ll schedule a couple clips beforehand for that week 🫡

#idk how often the posts will be. maybe 3-4 a week #12 hr workday + no real privacy in my room #means I could only edit late at night #or on the weekend #and it feels like such a waste of my tiny bit of free time #to be sitting at my desk pretending to do something as I wait for my mom to gtfo of my room #I think all the typing makes her suspicious idk man #it made what should have taken 45 mins take up to 2 hrs sometimes #so I will be attempting to do all my editing on friday/saturday and queue the posts #what I’ve been doing is scheduling 2-4 days of posts at a time #but like I said. doing it during the weekday is extremely time consuming due to being watched :p #on the weekends she’s less nosy and I can just wait for her to be asleep lol #if tumblr didn’t have an audio upload limit then I could just go all out for like 3 hrs and have a big queue lined up #it will actually take me less time to edit on a friday/saturday just cause I won’t be interrupted at all at nignt. lol. #tldr: I have very little free time and am interrupted constantly during the week #it will be easier for me to edit late at night on the weekend #and schedule the posts throughout the week #at the cost of no more daily posts (blame tumblr audio limit) #non voice post

[moophinz]

When they’re:

🥀 Mafia romance

🖤 He is obsessed with him/Extreme loyalty

♥️ Touch him and die

🥀 Revenge

🖤 Strangers to friends to lovers

♥️ Billionaire romance

🥀 Yakuza boss x right hand man

🖤 Mafia heir x Rags to riches

♥️ Morally gray

🥀 Jealous love interest

🖤 Sports (MMA)

♥️ Saving each other/Invincible by their side

🥀 Forced proximity

🖤 Fell in love for the first time

♥️ Tragic ending

#posting this to say that I hate booktok #yakuza #ryu ga gotoku #like a dragon #minedai #yakuza 3 #bookstagram and booktok are where you go instead of hell #I’ve been looking at the mafia romance tag on insta a lot because it’s entertaining in ways they don’t mean for it too #it’s just so. absurd #one day I was just thinking about how these two fit a lot of their watered down funky tropes if you breathed any life into them #the only catch is that they’re gay and not a 20 year old woman and a 56 year old divorced man with five kids who kidnaps her #there’s also no spice🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️ #one day I noticed Mine is very similar to these types of love interests with the bonus that his fucked up traits aren’t seen as okay #anyway this is the worse thing I’ve made this week and it’s only Sunday

[questionablealibi]

//Teaser hehe ^^ no tw!//

Ooooo new new new content gameplay! What's in store for our protagonist this fine October, hm?

#Remember when i said “fully colored” or something along those lines #Yeah no i cant :'D #This is the best I can do 😭 #Want to finish this ASAP before exam AND before the month ends #Or maybe until first week of november #Not only that but things have been going on recently and i want it and everyone to calm down and gain bearings before i ah #Put this all out hehe #Please please please despite the fact that im not very frequent #You guys have been such a big inspiration and spirit-lifter (or something ^^;) #I love you guys so much /p /vvvvvvvgen #Things may not be in our control but in the end #At the end of the day #Its still you <3 #Still us even #if you prefer that ^^ #Its been a while since ive been in such an interactive loving and caring community #You lot have made me feel so at home ^^ hugs kisses and words of gratitude and affection all around! #Whichever of those youre comfortable with #Take care <3 #Alibi! #the stanley parable #tspud #tsp #tsp stanley #tspud stanley #art wip #wip #work in progress #wip stuff

[mariocki]

Patrick Troughton - billed as Pat - helps the stricken French nobility (and flashes the audience) as Sir Andrew Ffoulkes, a staunch ally of the title character in The Adventures of the Scarlet Pimpernel (ITP, 1955 - 1956)

#fave spotting #patrick troughton #the adventures of the scarlet pimpernel #doctor who #classic doctor who #two #itp #itc #1955 #I've had a nice rhythm going lately with pairing a 50 min series (usually The Saint these days‚ tho not for much longer...) with a shorter #25 min one to dip into when I've less time or whatever. with The Adventurer over (adieu and farewell Gene Bradley you insane #multi talented everything) i thought I'd change it up a little and go for a much earlier itc series for a different tone. so early in fact #that they weren't even ITC yet; the company was then known as the Incorporated Television Programme Company‚ ITP for short‚ but be not #fooled; this is in every way the Lew Grade led company that would come to dominate the commercial tv world in the decades to follow #The Adventures of Robin Hood is usually identified as the first ITC production but in fact it beat this series to the screen by only #3 days and the two shows were presumably in production simultaneously. Hood went on to be the making of ITC and Lew Grade and lasted #a whopping 143 episodes over 4 years; Pimpernel made it to only 18 despite being planned as a 39 part series (standard length for these #early itc shows). exactly what went wrong i dont know; Goring was heavily involved in production as well as starring and maybe that played #a part‚ or maybe the popular success of Hood meant this show was no longer affordable. idk im just speculating but from #what I've seen it's fairly fun. starting on ITV just a week after the network commenced transmission‚ it's safe to say this didn't capture #the public imagination like Hood did and it does seem to have been rather forgotten about. Pat is actually a series regular and these #pics come from a few different eps among the first few. he isn't in the very first (nor is the Pimpernel's other faithful companion #played by Anthony Newlands) and i do wonder if that was a pilot (it has Robert Shaw as the Pimpernel's right hand and to my #knowledge he doesn't reappear; he'd make up for it with a starring role in one of ITC's next series‚ The Buccaneers #but yes he's here and he's fantastic and gets to be dashing and heroic (tho never moreso than Goring of course). he's also the one of the #three heroes who best suits the powdered hair look (Newlands looks quite unfortunate). and of course i know what im doing with that #last shirtless pic.. you're welcome Pat girlies (gender neutral) #maybe I'll make another post after I've seen a few more eps but i wasn't going to commit to a Pat post for every episode im afraid

[deus-ex-mona]

yurusanta: the ✨gift✨ that keeps on ✨giving✨

#thank you cn lxl twt for your hard work #cn lxl twt: the only place with consistent high quality aiyuu fanart and the funniest of observations known to mankind #my birdsite dash is p much just ‘omg aiyuu necklaces’，[king yaoi (all 3 of them) lore]，[random fandom discourse]，’omg aiyuu necklace’ rn #that qrt i saw of the initial observation post with just the yurusanta lyrics made me laugh ngl #can’t believe we’re still getting samishigariya references in 2k24 though #maybe we’ll get to see them flirt in last stage??? i swear i’ll write an entire novel-length aiyuu fic if they become canon in last stage mv #yeah yeah tempting fate ikik they won’t become canon so easily anyway lmao <-has no faith in loserxloser #lxl is truly the only couple who could get married twice (nonfan and meoto) and still not be canon. smh. #at this point im just waiting for last stage mv so that i will finally have the motivation to update my kissmark tier list lmfao #i haven’t looked at it since the julieta album covers… hmmmmmm. maybe next week or the week after then #oh welllllll. time to go back to scrolling through king yaoi twts ig #i should really continue to read the o r v novel. why is yjh the og king yaoi when his ‘companion’ is the one who keyboard warriored for him #but mannnnnn. i also really wanna watch the final ll live dvd that came in a few days back… #so many things to do; so little time~~~~~~~~ #well. that sure went off-topic real quick. u m.

[minatalks]

cried while doing my physical therapy, but i got through it. how i'm gonna be able to do these new exercises 3/4 times a day is beyond me, but i'm done for today. yay or whatever

#i thought this shit was supposed to get easier the longer you do it #feels like fucking torture #i feel so frustrated and useless not being able to do such easy looking movements #but ig that's the point #them being specifically made to strenghten parts of my body that are fucked #idk man it just sucks going through this 3/4 times a day and once a week with a pt #acupuncture two times a week #and regular therapy once a week #my chronic fatigue and chronic paint can't handle this pace i've broken down three times already and it's only been two weeks of this #that's on top of regular life shit and other doctor's appointments too #god i'm just so tired #*mina.txt #health cw

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#there's something really beautiful about experiencing the weather patterns of a new place #where i live now. its not like where i grew up. not like the foothills of Appalachia but its more familiar than the Chihuahuan desert was #when i go home to ohio everythings so green. so green. unimaginably green and the towns are in the woods. the hills roll #and trees billow deciduous and packed so tightly the treeline is like a wall of plant matter. here there are trees but they are tall and #evergreen. patchy in places like shrubs in the desert. the grass grows green but also pale tan and dead. houses are routed in valleys #between mountains. they're made of wood and not stucco but they still look strange and the landscape is crumpled together tall. and there's #water. it rains. days can be dreary and gray with drizzle. i forgot what thats like. when a single low stratus cloud blocks out thewhole sk #and fog clings to the trees. my school bus used to drive by a lake where thr fog was so thick i didnt kno how the driver could see the road #but somehow i forgot how much joy suspended water vapor gives me living in a place where when it rains it pours so hard the streets flood #and the greedy ground drinks the landscape dry. but there are new things as well. here smoke rolls up over thr mountains and gets stuck in #the valleys so that the weather forcast reads: Smoke for days on end. im used to tornado warnings and heat warnings and dust storm warnings #but ive never expected Smoke as a type of weather. and im sure there's more to experience. ive only been here like 3 weeks. its not as gree #as home. the storms dont seem to get quite so violent. the woods are so full of bears that its an active threat. but its not the desert #and while ill miss the shapes of desert plants and little lizards. when i look up at the pine and spruce trees i feel like i can breathe a #little easier. well see how i feel once the long cold winter sets in haha #but i dunno. part of me still longs for a violent thunderstorm. one where u can feel the temperature drop and u csn feel it building all da #one that bends the trees and smells like ozone. it was never like that in thr southwest and im not sure that happens here #but maybe thats just a desire for chaos and violence as a product of my pathological internal control. i cant be spontaneous so let nature #bring the fear to me. some of my favorite memories are watching lightning strikes #so it goes i suppose #unrelated #listen. is it fucked up to have ohio nostalgia? maybe so. but in my defense i grew up in the pretty part of ohio lol

[jattendschaton]

holding back tears when your 47k fic hits 80 kudos but you cant like celebrate with anyone because thats literally not even an accomplishment but you thought it would never actually reach 80 kudos and you're being an emotional little baby :') :') :')

#it's literally only gotten 5 kudos and 2 comments since it updated a week ago so i know this is what it's going to cap out at #and i just didnt think it would actually make it to 80 kudos and ive been very emotional the past few days so i'm just #actually holding back tears this is so fucking stupid akdsjkld #other actually good writers are like wow! look my fic hit 1k kudos! #and that's such a cool accomplishment but like. i will literally never write something that gets that many kudos #so if i waited until i hit real accomplishments i would just never celebrate anything! i'm sorry i'm so bad at things 😭 #so anyway clearly we are not made of the same stuff and you folks are all lightyears ahead of me in terms of ability #so i will politely take myself out of your airspace because i am not worthy to be around y'all #but i will privately celebrate my stupid little milestones :') <3

[tearfest]

mini life update in the tags bc i need somewhere 2 rant < 3

#u can ignore but! #in the process of secretly prepping to cut my mum off bc shes got total financial control over me (im 26) #i got a lot of money when i was 18 from an accident n shes basically in control of my assets bc she made it that wah #*way #if that makes sense #like i can only access my money if i go to the bank with her. she lives in a house i boyght her free of charge #sje bullied me into biying another house in wales so she can rent it out as a holidah home n use it as a free holiday spot n said i would #get an income from it but shes given me nothing in the 4/5 yrs weve had it #she put her name on the deeds to all my assets #so i have money but it is inaccessible #i need some bc i need to fund my phd next year but sje wont help me #anyways! thats lowkey besides the point #my dads got a brain tumor n my mum doesnt know i still see my dad bc she thinks i havent spoke to him since je left like 3 yrs ago #but i helped hjm leave bc she was abusing him n had been since i was like 9 #n now im stressed out bc my dads not well and i feel like um running out of time with him #but hes in the hospital at the minute after having a siezure a few weeks after his brain surgery #so ive visited him like 3 days in a row n he remarried this year and my stepmum/sisters are so nice #its like having a real family #and it makes me feel guilty yo say that abt my mum n sister #like the guilt of havi g a bad parent is so real tonight fellas im just gonna sit n cry for a few dags #tbd. #if u read this far i love u .. whats hr zodiac #but yeah! this is why im so inactive #n bc im doi g my masters degree but . that pales in comparison rn

[mattodore]

was truly out of my mind for not considering the fact that taking a screenshot at 5744 x 3201 would mean that editing the screenshot afterward to share to tumblr would be the biggest clown moment of all time.......

#river dipping #the details all get lost if i resize it down. tears out my hair. #you just have to laugh like what as i thinkinggggg #i experimented with a ton of new editing stuff and you can't even make any of it out....... #i made the lighting and shading all from scratch!!! i drew blood and tears!!! used RAW screenshots!!! #i'm actually in so much agony .. #friends and lovers the theo birthday edit is just gonna look so bad on here <3 #it's a little funny tho like i spent all my free time the last two days editing and then only at the last second did i go. hang on. #what are the tumblr dimensions again....... #clown nose squeaking rainbow handkerchiefs spilling outta my sleeves #the edit isn't anything crazy tho like yeah i tried new editing stuff here but bc of how messed up my body is rn i didn't have it in me #to like. build a whole set and all of that like it's just a solid black background with sims posed in front of it it's really nothing crazy #the quality wouldn't be so bad on here if it weren't for the fact that the screenshot was taken far enough back to get full body shots #but it's fine it's fine #what matters is that i managed to finish it only two days after his birthday... leagues better than the week it took me after matthias's #sorry buddy

[autisticlee]

sometimes I think about how when I went to college for a year before I dropped out (basically failed out,) the counselors/dean told me they can't help me at all or give any accommodations unless I have an official autism/adhd diagnosis. that might sound logical at first, but when you think about it more, it's actually quite fucked up. if someone is struggling really bad, what's the harm in helping them? why do they require a paper to get even the smallest amount of help? people who don't need help aren't going to be failing miserably without help! even NTs could benefit from some adjustments to the horrible school system! (but changing the entire system is a whole other conversation that the school system isnt ready for)

but even if you do agree to jump through their hoops, you realize it's even more fucked up that the diagnosis process requires YEARS in most cases (in my case it took 4 or 5 years, can't recall exactly now, for autism/adhd diagnosis, which would have meant i finished school before getting it if i managed to mot fail out, or i wait that long before going back, which is a whole struggle itself) and they also tried billing me for THOUSANDS of dollars because of insurance issues!!

so you put a ton of time and money into this, and then get told the only accommodation they are willing to give you for autism and adhd is "a little extra time on tests"

....

my test scores were the best part of my whole class experience. that was NOT what I struggled with!!!!! those tests were all online and could be done in the comfort of your home where you can accommodate yourself and have plenty of time left over when you finish them because you are comfy in your own space, (and also, no one was stopping you from having your notes/books/google open to find the answers,) and you don't even need a time consuming, expensive diagnosis for that!

SO WHAT'S THE POINT!!!!!!!

#mind you this was over 10 years ago now. it *could* have gotten better but id be extremely shocked if it has #autistic #autism #actually autistic #adhd #neurodivergent #audhd #school #school problems #yes i know theres rules or maybe even laws for this and its why they are like this but its bad and should change #if they offered smaller classes with less sensory overloading bullshit and other things i needed it would be great! #but they refuse to accommodate your actual needs and make up useless accommodations to legally say they help disabilities #ND people (not just audhd) and other disabled people that graduate with no useful accommodations are so strong and cool. proud of you! #ones who had to drop you youre also cool for not dealing with their bullshit snd allowing yourself to not suffer for a sheet of paper! #(though i know it can feel bad when everyone around you makes you feel bad for needed to drop out or failing out and not going back) #i completely stopped going to my psychology class because i started a week late due to scheduling issues and #suddenly we are told theres a paper due in 3 days and need to hse the textbook i didnt have yet as the source for it all #and it was in the syllabus i didnt get because i was a week late and didnt know we got one. the professor didnt notice me out of #the 100 other students in that large lecture hall. that room was also a sensory nightmare hellscape #too many students made things noisy and distracting. multiple fluorescent lights were flickering constantly and never fixed #the professor used a mic to speak to us and it had a constant horrible loud buzzing. it did that loud mic screech noise randomly #without warning. all the time. the quality of the sound was horrible so it was hard to understand her. on top of that she had a very thick #accent i wasnt familiar with so that on top of the horrible buzzing mkc quality that also cut her out constantly was auditory processing #disorder HELL. I dont know how ANYONE survived thst class but i seemed to be the only one struggling. everyone else turned in their papers #and i gave up and stopped going. was too late to drop the class to get my money back so i wasted probably a few thousand dollars #and THATS what i mean by give me reasonable and useful accommodation. test time would NOT make that class better at all #fix the mic and light issues at least or give me a smaller class with more attentive professor or something! #offer smaller classes for struggling disabled people! if the issue is not knowing who needs them then offer a switch to those struggling! #i got called onto a dean/counselor meeting because a professor noticed my horrible grades and stuff so its possible to catch us and help! #THESE SCHOOLS JUST NEED TO START BEING WILLING TO. dont make us do all the work to accommodate ourselves and expect to do well in school!

[simptasia]

i had a great day a comic con today!

highlights include meeting emelie de raven

annnnd getting my first tattoo!

#it's the x-men logo on my left bicep #i hadnt planned this at all - i didnt know you could get tats at cons #but i saw it. and liked the look of it. and something just clicked in my head. didn't get it right away tho i met emelie first #so i had all the time in the world. and while the photo with her was being processed - i got the tattoo #it turned out perfect. not gonna show it off because its been bleeding quite a bit and doesn't look so nice now #but when its all healed up and cleaned up i'll get some pics #but yeah. holy shit i have a tattoo. i drink alcohol and got modification on a whim? oh yes. im a wild girl now kjhfdskjh #anyways. its my first convention since 2018. and my first one without mum of course #i found out about it a week beforehand and it just felt right. which feels like a step in a good direction for me #i made the day of it. and spent the birthday money mum gave back in september. and then some! #nothing at comic con is cheap so i was like. fuck it go ham #i got lotsa merch. i think my favourite purchase (other than stuff with emelie and the tat) is a silver star trek ring i got <3 #i like merch with staying power. like clothes and jewellery #oh oh speaking of which i wore my star trek voyager comm badge brooch today. i'd never worn it before so that was nice #one day im gonna get myself a voyager trek uniform to go with my badge and my pips. and i'll wear that to a con #i've gone to several cons but i've only cosplayed once! ...it can be tricky to get organised. but i'll do it again someday #so yeah great day! my feet are fucking killing me! but im so happy!

[sprinklethetangerine]

I think this is a pretty reasonable situation to cry in, right?

#ughhhhh #you know what becausd i hate myself (not really dw) this isnt gonna be a vaguepost #if youre reading the tags buckle the fuck up #so last week and the week before were spring break for me #and the week before was jjst full of studying and exam stress to the point where i couldnt attend my archery lessons #cause all i was doing at that time was either studying or feeling like shit for not studying #but when spring break hit actually THE VERY SECOND it arrived I had to go to another city about two hours away to visjt family #and guess what? I STAYED THERE FOR ALMOST THE WHOLE ENTIRE SPRING FUCKING BREAK #so i couldnt even do most of the shit i wanted to #and even there i couldnt enjoy my time #why? because ALL I DID was study. my cousin tutors me and I was failing these 3 specific subjects #so she was helping me withtgem and she wouldnt leave me be #and when my (undiagnosed) adhd made me shit at focusing and my mind keot wantering and i kept looking away because i was understimulated #i got shouted at which was not very fun #whats worse is she did it in front of people. literally in public. #then we come back home THANKFULLY and she comes with us. because of course. #and now all my time all of it except for one or two hours of the day is just studying #the only free time i have is when she sleeps #and school. literally never in my life have i been happy to go to school and yet id rather be there than here. #but what choice do i really have #its either this or fail the exams #it gets worse. on thursday i was really tired from school. i came back and PASSED OUT #and by passed out I mean PASSED OUT #idk if it was cause it was hot outside or school just drained my energy but i could barely exist at that point #then my cousin finds me on the couch sweaty and basically dying #what does she do? she wakes me up like “alright time to study” #so yesterday i did charity work and it involved carrying a lot of heavy boxes and stuff so i naturally came back drained and tired and she #STILL WANTED ME TO STUDY so the second we got back I just slept and i was practically comatose so she coukdnt even wake me up #i slept for 11 hours and woke up to MORE STUDYING HURRAY and then at 5 i went to archery class and we got back at 8 and she WONT STOP #i just want to go home. im so tired. physically and mentally and emotionally. i just wanna go fucking home.

[wherela]

one of those crying in the shower kind of days

#my 'best friend' stood me up today #and by stood me up i don't mean canceled last minute i mean didn't show up and only responded to my calls and texts after 45 min #why? she was hanging out with some guy (she met him last week. he's not a christian.) and lost track of time #she's also initiated no contact with me over the last few weeks #the explenation was she thought i was busy with my thesis. as if you can't check in on someone when they're busy #she also gosted me for 3 days (like a month ago??) cause she was asked to share at student group and i couldn't go CAUSE I WAS SICK #I'm just so tired of it at this point #but it's also made me realise i dont really have any close friends #i have lots of friends. sure. and i trust them too. but it's not the kind of close where i can write to them when I've got a problem #like maybe I'd tell them live if they asked me? but I wouldn't really write to them it would just be weird #and so who do I tell that I met S's parents yesterday and even though so many things have happened since then already thats the only one #I can think about???? or that he actually CALLED ME afterwards specifically to tell me what they thought of our church #or that his mom apparently asked him if our relationship was still weird and he said 'yes' and I've been overthinking it cause i thought we #were finally okay and normal and genuinely just friends? #or that his mom said my look is that i dress vintage and it made me SO HAPPY!! that's my look!!! that's how I'm recognisable!!! #the answer is nobody. i have no one to tell :( #mine #s #I'm sorry I guess I had to vent this prolly turned out really really long