#im sorry they cannot have me back

[naomistares]

also! to whoever gives af about my personal life, i start uni next week, and it's been like this constant looming danger over my free time to draw, however, because i failed so many subjects last year, i had the opportunity to make my own schedule. and let's just say i am not going anywhere..... for now, the propaganda persists.

#i made it so i only go 3 days a week. #im sorry they cannot have me back #not when im finally enjoying this #also i am smart #i failed for reasons! #im smart and sexy

[surreal-duck]

master artist and his number one fan

guy who is being so normal about the new additions to their profiles. i think abt midoris initial infatuation with his art slowly developing into appreciating yuzuru himself as a person and idol to the point he worries about how he sees him (ex: a bit of home party and in workplace survival rules) sometimes thats a lie i think about it a lot. and yuzuru learning to enjoy art just for the sake of drawing!! seeing the lets try diy story where he doesnt even refute drawing on midoris desk and was only worried that his doodles might cover up the mascot design compared to how discouraged he usually would be in earlier ! stories. everything to me i adore their dynamic if that wasnt obvious by *gestures to basically everything*

and happy pride month 🏳‍🌈

#sorry for that last bit in the end (im really not) #minicomic tag #duck scribbles #enstars #midoyuzu #midori takamine #yuzuru fushimi #yuzumido #ensemble stars #ive been wanting to draw this one out for ages now or2 finally somewhat free #i would have typed all that out in the tags like i usually do but this commentary is necessary #was going through my old art and wow its been a while. redrew a few stuff from a bunch of them too for this :'] if you can spot them #kinda a fun look back on how ive improved over time too... thank you for giving me a drive to draw like no other #it cannot have been that long. was so sure my energy wouldve died off maybe a few months in but unfortunately it shows no signs of ceasing #also appreciation specifically for my beloved ducky for letting me word vomit a lot of my ideas to him LOL ily #ive drawn them so much now that theyve joined the ranks of my most used tags that pop up as suggestions when i start to type. wtf #was supposed to only work on this on the side between sketching up merch designs but i got too into it. i never learn

[introspectivememories]

god i know i said i was tired of making eveerything sad but just imagine timber those first few months of reconnecting and they're both drunk on tim's boat, laying on the deck staring up at the stars and bear turns over to look at tim, his eyes are sad and wet, and he reaches out to touch tim's face as if to make sure tim is really there and not an illusion and tim whispers, "bear?" and bernard smiles a little brokenly and goes, "so how long do i have you for this time?"

#tim fully sober now: what do you mean? i'm right here bear #bear still drunk: i got you for almost a whole year last time. how long before you leave this time? #bear: 2 years? 6 months? #tim sadly: you can have me forever bear #bear laughing: i don't even get you that long in my dreams #bear smiles reaching out to poke tim's face: don't worry tim! anytime you want to come back‚ i'll be right here. #god tim who's constantly leaving and bear who knows but cant help letting him comeback into his life again and again #you cannot tell me that bear went to that first date in urban legends expecting tim to stay #he went to that date expecting to get his heart broken again but he loves this boy so he goes anyway #tim who always leaves and bear who waits patiently everytime #sorry im like sobbing in the library #bear is so 'right where you left me' coded #bear who loves tim so much he'll let tim break his heart again and again #head in hands head in hands #dc #tim drake #bernard dowd #timbern #timber

[3416]

i'm still here........ and convinced he thinks mitch might disappear if he takes his eyes off of him for one second. what a ridiculous series of images, i'm so so......... SO obsessed with them

#1634 #like. he is jsut.. LOOKING #L👁👁KING #and cannot stop #any other normal human being would not be like tjfkdlszxnj #like whats he waiting for.. is there some inside joke here #did mitch have to leave n come back for some silly reason n hes like. waiting to see mitchs reaction like #the cute dedicated puppy he is. #ik we talk abt mitch being puppy coded but like. what is all this then. JKFLDSLFK #devotion and love knows no bounds it really doesnt #the way 3 seconds of footage will keep me fed for hours-to-days like im sorry but its just. #auston matthews #mitch marner #there is no way around... whatever the hell this is #adn their joy abt getting to play hockey and be near each other #its one thing to hear abt these commentators n insiders talk abt them as a pair in a lot of ways. n know those things bc they get to see #them behind the scenes all the time #but the glimpses we receive.... ohhhohohoho boy #its a new year. new teammates. but always them #every day i convince myself mitch is such a significant reason austons still here and every day i prove myself correct #psychoanalyzing clips of them to DEATH.

[pansyfemme]

kicking my feet twirling my hair etc

#pride month. off to a good start #jude posting about his boyfriend time again sorry. i uh. hm #im. normal im normal im normal #i . #im. fucking gay im gone its over its fucking over its fucking over dude im gone #its over for me im dead im gone #im not coming back from this every. time we talk for four hours straight im like i can be normal about this and then we say goodnight and i #like have to cover my face with my hands and roll around in bed a little because im so. into him #its. great its fine its going so good #i am. sorry #because for years i would hate when people im following with partners would do this shit but now. im doing it sorry to ppl in the audience #who are single. i relate to you i lvoe you its ok. im just. i cannot help this behavior dude its humaliating but i feel. great

[04tenno]

So, uh...

Mine lived(?)

How Are We Doing.

#yakuza #like a dragon #yakuza 3 #yoshitaka mine #mine yoshitaka #masayoshi yokoyama #kson #I THINK THE STAFF MEMBER IS SANTO. LIKE 90% SURE IT'S SANTO but i don't have the video clip and cannot identify him im so sorry #i included the “preamble” to make it clear he was talking about mine and why but i'm just obsessed with the whole conversation honestly #kson having the opportunity to go up to yokoyama and say “do you think mine is out there somewhere.” living the dream #yokoyama's character arc not particularly liking mine back in the day and falling for him later on like me too bro #also he literally does just straight up say mine is alive. with zero ambiguity and even with an explanatory tone. #i ADDED what ambiguity there is because i don't want anyone to--as the tweet says--expect too much #anyway that's the end of the normal tags the rest of this is just going to be overwrought melodramatics #i hate the entire ending portion the transition and effects are godawful #not what my vision was at all #this is my first time actually editing and it shows. but it'll have to do. #i'm also nothing short of embarrassed of the timing and the missing words #but i really did do my best. i really did pay to have it professionally transcribed. #and part of me certainly wonders if this is all a mistake and irresponsible to put out there. if i'm giving people false hope. #if the extent of my understanding just isn't good enough to know better #yet if there IS something there... then what good will it have done to keep it to myself #original #my clips #my translations

[tubbytarchia]

Embarrassing idea I don't have the capability to visualize the way I imagine it (maybe in the far future lol), but Tango deep in the Decked Out Castle, lights out, mobs frozen in time and him staggering on his feet as he feels the air leave his lungs one last time

"You're still here? It's over."

He fights the need to close his eyelids but as he inevitably does, he finds them weightless afterward, opening them back up with ease, sunny rays greeting him from behind Jimmy's silhouette over him. He says something with a concerned look, holds out his hand and Tango takes it as Jimmy guides them back to the ranch

"Go home."

#harkening back to the ending of season 9 of course teehee. I just cannot stop thinking about the dl “you're still here?” dudeeeee arghh #I attempted to draw this a few times trust me I did. I'll just have it here like this then. Might attempt again someday #I'm also just very tickled by the image of the hc builds all dimming and getting frozen in time with all their glory on display #trafficshipping #rancher duo #Im sorry for being so ill about them

[harvestmoth]

more rejuv things but its. its just this guy again, im sorry shes all i can draw

#everyday im like i wanna draw :] and then i just end up with this thing on the page #i refuse to draw hands holding. because i cannot and im too lazy to figure it out #oh yea a couple of these i havent posted before because theyre lame to me but ill put them here for now #anyways!! #i was gonna say something about a couple of these but i forgot #oh well #pokemon rejuvenation #does she. lose her ribbon in blacksteeple. i forgot #she still has it to me.. #to me her c15 hair tie is a torn part of the ribbon #anyways again. yesterday i finally figured out what the rejuvrp is. very cool stuff im so incredibly intrigued by it #i have no idea whats going on! but it looks so cool ill try to read it more later. #oh right again about the rejuvrp thing. the character designs ive seen are so so so cool i want to draw them so bad #i think i have to ask about that first though and there is! no way i am going to do that!!! i do not want to bother them #and i think my heart would explode from the fear of it all before i even typed the message. #that and im very lazy! theres a very good chance i wouldnt even draw it in the first place #anyways unrelated but i think if i get another comment from someone on something i Will Actually Explode. #i see someone said something and it kills me on the daily. what is happening... thank you.. i appreciate it very much... #sorry to whoever read all of that. um. hi youre really cool and i hope you have a good day/night #i think being on twitter has done something to me i have to leave it immediately. anyways back to twitter #wait actually i should go back to playing rejuv. im still in the grove from when i first posted the gym leader melia au. im afraid to leave #also play pokemon rejuvenation no i will not stop saying that everytime i post one of these

[lightningbig]

gnawing on qpissa purgatory vibes. it's the perfect scenario for a role reversal, for them to see each other in ways they never have. qphil left without his armor, both literal and metaphorical - he doesn't have his backpack his wings are out and unkempt his balance is fucked he's losing his mind and spiraling, the island is getting to him in ways quesadilla island never did and at such a rapid pace. and then qmissa finding his footing in purgatory, embracing the harsher parts of himself that he never showed to phil before - the mean side he has, the bitter fierce need to survive above all else. do they know each other when they see each other again? do they recognize the person they love? despite everything it's still you. broken down to the worst parts of myself do you look at me and see me do you love me like you did before now that you know.

#sorry im having a moment #i have about three different drafts that all went different directions yelling about them and none of them are coherent #something about people being in love in death games rewires my brain it makes me a little concussed i think #its about i would kill for you but i didnt want you to see me do it. i cannot touch you with bloody hands. how do we go back after this #can anyone hear me #block game #qsmp ramblin

[welcometogrouchland]

YOU want canon superbat because you want to see them kiss. I want canon superbat in order to force Jon and Damian into a belligerent step siblings dynamic, ala Drake & Josh. We are not the same ///j

#ramblings of a lunatic #dc comics #i have a lot of thoughts about the damin and jon dynamic. like a lot #but i haven't reread super sons in a while so i feel like I can't articulate anything in a coherent backed up way #like #don't ship em cause of the (small! but personally uncomfy for me) age gap (in both eras of their relationship) #mostly just see them as good friends #but the pseudo-siblings dynamic appeals deeply to me as a reading of their relationship. i love it #i understand we're all sick of the over application of the siblings label to fictional characters #but i swear i have justifications this time (cannot back them up in a timely and concise manner) #also i put the tone indicator up but this is a joke!! i love superbat I'm not trying to be rude im sorry if it comes across that way at all #also I'm low-key picturing this pre age up. bc i can #that was when they were at their peak drake and joshness to me

[thwackk]

joy is stored in the extremely old superbat art i found on my ipad

#my art lol #dc #superbat #batman #superman #clark kent #bruce wayne #these were the original halbarry for me. back in the day (like two months ago) #i think abt them sometimes #mostly clark i adore clark with all of my soul i literally cannot emphasize that enough #i am sitting on the floor rn as i type #just got home from work. smh. im sorry art is so fucking slow #and yes i AM WORKING ON THE SIX FANARTS I PROMISE!!! IT IS just very very slow #i also have your requests in the askbox in mind do not worry

[sant-riley]

MW3 SPOILERS FOR WHO DIES //

Yk what ever fucking since I saw Soap die in front of me, I have not had one moment of fucking peace y'all, this is fucking insane.

#the alarm at my job has no battery so i come in and it immediately starts BLARING and the keypad is dead so i cant turn it off. #security place calls and theyre like are you okay and im already on the verge of tears but im like yeah im fine #and i tell her hey the shit is low i cannot turn it off its not taking any input #and shes like oh okay uhhh try this #it doesnt work so shes like okay ill have to send u to tech support #i get sent over #wait time is 11 mins #before they called i called and texted my boss like hey bitch what the fuck!!! #got no answer btw #so the alarm turns off like 2 mins into the tech waiting room and i hang up and finally go inside after my ears r bleeding #boss finally gets back to me and shes like teehee sorry i was getting alcohol #michelle my suicide note is gonna have you and your business in big red bold letters #kayla shut up

[hiveswap]

Parents will treat you like expensive vermin that theyre keeping around due to being mercyful but the moment you wanna kill yourself it's suddenly bad

#NOBODY!!! WANTS!!!ME!!!!! #my mother thinks im soulless or something and always want to hurt them #my stepfather and i hate each other thats fair i hate him too #my grandmother lied that her and her partner are attending a funeral in a different town on my graduation day #(my mother called the cemetary. there were no funerals that day) #my father and his girlfriend claim to want me around but theyve got a baby now and lmao he didnt want me as a kid either #and they were like. noo sorry cant come to your graduation we'll be out selling karate merch at an event #mfers are doing this self employed. like damn who is going to fire you of youre not both there.......... #i just moved out from the dorm im still going back for exams but after that i'll no longer live there #i'll probably drift apart with the roommates i had for 3 years sooner or later. i feel like i cant prevent that #maybe just my abandonment issues though #then theres the guy who just started introducting me to his family as his gf. i love him but i cannot rely on this guy with my emotions #not because of him but because im not throwing my baggage at people out of nowhere like it's a basketball it's a cruel thing to do #thats everyone in my life rn i have two other friends but theyve been out of the picture for about half a year due doing young adult stuff #tw suicide joke

[stormyoceans]

There's a comment on youtube which said along the lines, 'puen read tun's diary, he must've known about tun's unrequited love for tess, so by saying puen is gonna live tun's life to the fullest could also mean that he is indirectly fulfilling tun's wishes of been with tess too' how come this never crossed mind! Even though puentalay didn't explicitly state to others in that universe they had feelings for each other, pretty sure their friendgroups understood the signs. So to think when Tun comes back and find out that the people in their bodies had loved each other and were happy he must've felt a sort of happiness. Because even though tesstun's situationship related to the first switch between universes, their comeback had very little to do with each other. They switched back solely because of puentalay and them realising they are each other's portkeys. Thoughts monica?

MY THOUGHTS ARE THAT THIS SHOW NEEDS TO STOP BEING SO GOOD IT HAS LITERALLY RUINED ME FOR ANY OTHER SERIES LIKE HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO MOVE ON WHEN NOTHING EVEN COMES CLOSE TO IT AND INSTEAD OF GETTING TIRED OF REWATCHING IT I KEEP FINDING NEW DETAILS THAT MAKE ME GENUINELY FERAL AND IN DESPERATE NEED TO CHAIN MYSELF TO A FENCE LIKE A WEREWOLF DURING A FULL MOON ✋😭

honestly i’ve never thought about puen fulfilling tun’s wish of being with tess specifically (WHICH. SCREAMING BTW), but i did think a lot about puen and talay trying to live tun’s and tess’ life to the fullest and being able to achieve all of their dreams while doing so. it’s hard to say if this was necessary to make them switch back, because im convinced that ultimately that’s due to puen and talay learning the lesson the universe thought they needed, but it’s also not a coincidence that they were given those specific bodies to inhabit, so i feel like they wouldn’t have gotten to that lesson without living those lives to the best of their abilities

idk how to explain this in a quick and coherent way because i have way too many opinions about portkeys and fate and choices and identity, but. like, everyone agrees that talay and tess switching back to their respective universe is all thanks to talay’s efforts (because tess literally did NOTHING), but i’ve seen a lot of people wondering if puen and tun switching back is due to one or the other. to me it’s clearly due to puen, not only because it happens at the culmination of his character’s journey (accepting himself and being finally ready to tell his name to talay), but also because tun, while obviously not ruining puen’s life LIKE SOMEONE ELSE DID WITH TALAY’S [SIDE EYES TESS], did not make it better either. when he comes back, puen is still alone. when he goes back, tun has achieved his dream of becoming a famous screenwriter and is in a relationship with tess. by using a stratagem like the travelling between universe, i think the show actually did a great job in showing the different attitudes someone may have towards life, not just your own, but other people’s too: you can live selfishly (tess), you can just survive (tun), or you can live life as best as you can (puen and talay). this is also why i get very annoyed when people watch vice versa and say stuff like ‘the concept was interesting but why they were making a movie rather than explore the fantasy part’, because THE FANTASY PART IS NOT THE POINT!!!!!!!! THE POINT IS WHAT YOU CHOOSE TO DO WITH THE LIFE AND THE TIME YOU’RE GIVEN!!!!!!!!! THAT’S THE MESSAGE OF THE SHOW AND THE GENERAL LESSON THEY ALL HAD TO LEARN BUT THAT ONLY PUEN AND TALAY REALLY UNDERSTOOD!!!!!!!!!!

anyway. not sure where i was going with this or if this makes sense but yeah i have way too many thoughts about this and all of them boils down to VICE VERSA SERIES OF ALL TIME PUEN AND TALAY CHARACTERS OF ALL TIME PUENTALAY RELATIONSHIP OF ALL TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i could honestly go on and talk about how tess and tun must have had mixed feelings about going back to their lives #because it wasn't really them achieving all that #and also how im convinced that portkeys are made and not destined and that puentalay CHOSE to be each other's portkey #like yes the universe gave them a nudge by putting them together but agan it's what you do with that chance that matters #but honestly what are words and also we would be here for the next week because i cannot shut up about this show so #im just gonna leave it at that #ANYWAY thank you for the message and sorry if it took me so long to reply to it anon!!!!!! #hope you're having a wonderful day!!!!! 💜 #vice versa #m: ask

[rainbowtvz]

*grits teeth*

i do not want to discourse here or anywhere anymore but it does kind of affect me as a transmasc bi person when i see shit that indirectly misgenders me and implies that bisexuality is an icky no good word and identity and you have to be bi and gay and bi and lesbian and bi and straight at the same time or support them or you're an evil stinky stinky terf like... hello where am, i

#it makes me feel othered by an otherwise inclusive community bc how dare i think that men aren't involved in lesbianism #or how dare i think that bisexuality is a whole and valid sexuality #or how dare i think that any and all nonbinary genders are included in every single sexuality by default #or that trans women are women so no fuckin g duh theyre included in lesbianism and if your knee jerk reaction to seeing: #men cannot be lesbians is to think of trans women then you are the transphobe here #or how i dare think that trans man and transmasc aren't the exact same thing #that genderqueerdyke person is also a transadrophobia geek and theyre buddies with genderkoolaid #which like. do i HAVE to say it? #IF U IGNORE THE TRANSMISOGYNY (WHICH U SHOUDLNT) THEYRE ALSO A ZIONIST HELLOW?? WHATS NOT CLICKING WHATS NOT CLICKING #OK IM KINDA MAD ABT THAT LIKE... SORRY BUT HOW ABOUT WE DONT PLATFORM IDIOTS NO MATTER HOW GOOD THEIR RHETORIC MIGHT SOUND #BC U WANT TO BE TOTALLY INCLUSIVE AND NOT GATEKEEPY #ive BEEN around the fucking block ive BEEN on tumblr when the resident terfs here coined bi lesbian #if you scrolled back far enough in certain keywords you wouldve seen that shit in the early 2010s being discussed in their circles #to mean lesbians who are attracted to trans women #you cannot reclaim that or recoin it #yes ive done the research too #i looked at every single piece of evidence of that label existing in the past 50~ years #its just bisexual women back when lesbian spaces also included them #plus like may i also fucking ssay that bisexual also used to mean being of two sexes (transsexual/gender and/or intersex?) #this close to fully believing that the pushback against bisexual being it's own whole and valid sexuality is some kind of psy op #i sound schizophrenic well Maybe I Am #i feel like im going to end up deleting this post bc i dont want to argue with people who disagree with me because there is no getting #through to any of you #tbd.

[scattered-winter]

anyone else up feeling utterly overwhelmed or nah

#not to overshare on the internet but. #idk there's just So Much to untangle and So Many mental habits to break and it feels impossible. how can i undo 20 years of this. #like yeah ive already made some progress just in the last few years but thats just the very tip of the proverbial iceberg!!!! #every single day i find something else buried deep that i have to try and root out!!!!!!!!!!! literally every day!!!!!!!!!!! #im just. hrghhgh #i dont want to be fighting this for the rest of my life man. im so tired. #i think. the worst thing about this is. it feels like they still have a hold on me. #which is genuinely the most bone-chilling horrifying thought i have ever had. #i DONT regret leaving but man. if i fall back in. because everything familiar is there. i dont think i could rip myself away again. #because leaving the first time was hard enough. i don't think im strong enough to do it again. #genuinely terrifying. i hate living like this #getting the fuck out of this state canNOT happen soon enough. i swear to god #winter speaks #personal #<- sorry its very late at night <///3 im getting introspective and feeling frustrated