#i normally do 3 but i didnt have enough creativity in me to make the 3rd one LMFAOOOO

[sephvroth]

“i really am the strongest! hey hey hey!”

bokuto koutarou | fukurodani’s ace - haikyuu!!

@animangacreators alphabet challenge | Letter B

#dailyanime #anisource #hq!!edit #haikyuu!! #hq!! #mine* #gfx #bokuto koutarou #bokuto #i normally do 3 but i didnt have enough creativity in me to make the 3rd one LMFAOOOO #my brain literally went blank trying to come up with it #satisfied with what i have tho #especially the first one

[tysonfurybattlepass]

Heard you were looking for some anon hate, so here's some that I've thought about over the past few years 😉

Your art is pure garbage. Your shading is so basic and yet it looks worse than the drawings on wikihow articles, and your colors are an abhorrent mix that looks like neon puke. Literally one of the first tips beginner artists get is "don't use the airbrush". And what do you do? Airbrush the fuck out of your markings and shading! Your older anatomy and character designs were far more superior while the newer ones are a bastardized version of their former glory days. I'm younger than you and I can actually paint and pick good colors lmao

You haven't improved at all in 5 years. You actually got worse! You're drawing the same snarling cat 20 times a month instead of working on your backgrounds, shading, anatomy and compositions, and their jaws still look crooked with displaced teeth Every. Single. Time! I wonder how strong their bite force is when the lower jaw is at a 45° angle from the upper one?

All your characters look crazy and deranged and like absolute psychopaths. It's not a good look for your "brand" <3 And their torso takes up 90% of their body. How are they supposed to be strong beasts when their stumpy legs can barely hold the weight of your bad stylization? And you call that an improvement instead of godawful anatomy!

And then, and then!! Y're constantly making new characters, drawing them a bunch and forgetting about them! Algernon, Jarith, Lucia, Geneph, Xiaoya, Bailey, Jicama, Utah, Felin, Civen, Afryea, Thyodore,.Tyson (Aster's pet Inostrancevia), Donnie... And you have even more that you haven't even posted about? How does it feel to know that someone knows your characters more than YOU do? Talk about being an irresponsible artist

You're not even creative enough. "Here's a species that looks exactly like a cat but trust me guys it's not a cat, see? it has two extra arms!" "Here are 20 smilodons that are yellow-brown and have spots, but I love all of them and can differentiate between them!!" "Here's a leopard seal who's bigger than the natural ones and is a made-up species (who's supposed to be part bear and I definetely didnt forget about that) even though nothing is different between her and a regular anthro seal!!!"

I hope you give up on art. It won't take you anywhere in life, just like your autistic interest in paleontology won't help you. You didn't even get a superior education, so it's clear you'll live your life working minimum wage jobs because you're not qualified to do anything better. You’re lazy as fuck and you have no excuse for how weak you are.

You say you have 1000 followers but you barely pass 10 notes on your art and even less on your vents, and whenever you demand people to send you asks daily, nobody says anything. So not even your followers like you. They're just observing your every move and are laughing at your pain. The only thing you're good at is being daily entertainment for me and hundreds of others like me.

All your "female" characters loook like males regardless of what they identify as. It's as if you're incapable of drawing women.

Hooray for making all your best characters trans since you seem to be allergic to normal people. I'm glad you confessed that you support the mutilation of middle schoolers / transing gender non-comforming females (Azure).

You call yourself a "he/they" but you're still competing in the women's category cuz you know you wouldn't last in a fight against real men. You're such a failure that even your step father calls you his daughter publicly. (Your parents surely are disappointed in what you've become. I wouldn't be surprised if you were the reason for their divorce)

Only a few years back you were a proud tomboy girl, but I guess you hate yourself so much that you project your self-misogyny through self-identification and an atrocious art style.

You even chose the name “Tyson”, like that troon Chris Tyson. Considering the recent controversy, that’s what people will associate with your name, not whoever “Tyson Fury” is, and truthfully you deserve it.

You're so fragile being called a girl when you look, sound and act like one. Girl. Woman. Female. Dike. Lass. Lady. She. Wahine. Kaikamahine. Did this make you cry some pathetic manly tears? 100% sure you look like the soyjak in the soyjak vs chad meme right now. Can’t wait to read your breakdown on tumblr, if you’re not going to outright delete every account you have to escape me

Typical white girl starving for attention online behavior lmao.

You boast that you are "hot" but you are objectively ugly, not even mid. Your undercut is shit and your face is so damn bland. Your fursona is strong and beefy but you have a thin female body with stick arms and visible breasts. Talk about projection and an inflated ego. You're oozing with narcissism, and I wouldn't be surprised if you got diagnosed with it. It would 100% suit you.

Your "girlfriends" are still lesbian women, but you’re not one? “Transmasc butch lesbian” my ass, you absolute pooner. It’s not that hard to be a regular woman. Pretty sure you're not even dating them, you're just friends who haven't even held hands. And you’re still a virgin lmao. No bitches? 🥺 And you have not one, but two, because you're insecure in your feelings and can't commit to only one person since you need that external validation. I'm sure they're cheating behind your back because they know you wouldn't check on them.

I hope your sleep apnea kills you in your sleep. You deserve it.

L + ratio + you’re a loser + cope and seethe

Don't bother blocking and reporting me, I said all I had to say, I don't plan on interacting with you anymore and I don't have this level of hatred against anyone else.

Now, have I stalked your accounts until their beginning, or have I followed you for a really long time? Or a secret third thing (I stalked you for a really long time)?

the color thing is true but you should get a job

#bro doesnt know who tyson fury is :( #fake fan

[waterberry-strawmelon]

finally watched rottmnt movie! i’ll put my thoughts below the cut lol

so basically, i...just kinda thought it was okay? nothing great, unfortunately? it obviously had some great moments, but i think the arc of the movie as a whole was hindered by a couple key things:

1. it was kinda just Leo: The Movie. and i didnt really dig that. i think it would’ve made a much stronger story if they’d had ALL the turtles grow in some kind of way, but all of them stayed static except for Leo.

2. and even if people WERE clamoring for a Leo-centric movie for some reason, his movie arc is LITERALLY AN OBSTACLE HE’S ALREADY OVERCOME IN THE MAIN SERIES. IT’S LITERALLY A POINT OF GROWTH FOR HIM TO STOP BEING SO ARROGANT ALL THE TIME AND WORK AS A TEAM. THEY ALREADY RESOLVED THIS?!?!?!?! ASJHCFJKNHKGMH. just...why????

3. i’ve heard people saying that the creative team was pressured to make this as appealing as possible even to tmnt fans who maybe didnt actually watch Rise, but in the end it that means we lose a LOT of what made the Rise characterizations and writing so great in the series itself. the writing isn’t as snappy or quirky; maybe these writers are just more suited for writing serialized stories instead of a feature-length story, and that’s fine! or maybe they felt the need/were pressured to tone down some of the more Rise-specific narrative style, if that makes any sense. (small example that i feel reflects this vibe: the moment where they finally call themselves the teenage mutant ninja turtles. it was a running gag in the show to never actually claim that name for themselves in that exact order, and so when they finally do, it feels almost inauthentic, because i think that running gag helped re-inforce the whole theme this series was going for in terms of separating this iteration of the Turtles from the past iterations and really stepping out and making their own way. that’s the joy of the Rise series, honestly, is how unafraid they are to make their OWN world with these characters without diverging completely from the source material.) And i couldn’t help but feel the stark absence of the typical Rise running jokes/catch phrases/references in the movie. that’s something i love so much about the show: the careful attention to detail in maintaining continuity and continuing/resolving past gags. they literally only said “hot soup!” twice in this movie. and i feel like that’s really, really indicative of the whole vibe of it, honestly. it just lacks the explosive energy that makes the show so great. :(

as for a couple key things i did like:

the animation was obviously gorgeous, just as it is in the main series, too. seriously, rottmnt has forever spoiled me for tv series animation. and i did really like what they did with the Krang! THIS part certainly felt like how the series normally runs—taking a traditional TMNT concept and breathing fresh, new life into it, making it take on a different form so it’s unique to THIS tmnt universe. i love it!!

they went out of their way to devote time to donnie’s softshell! ahhhhhh!!!!!!! i love it!!!!!! (tho i think a majority of donnie’s dialogue was missing a little.... je ne sais quois. the donnie-ness, if you will. his snark often felt either too dry, or not quite witty enough—never in the sweet spot that it’d hit in the show. but maybe im just being nitpicky and other fans didn’t really find a problem with it!)

the escape pods just as a general concept were fucking GREAT. (tho here’s another negative, oops: i feel like donnie’s tech didn’t feature in the movie NEARLY as much as it does in the show, precisely because of how this was trying to still have watch value even for non-Rise fans. i mean, the number of times donnie’s been without a battle shell and just called one to him remotely, and yet somehow that couldn’t happen this time? am i missing something here or.....?)

all in all, it was definitely enjoyable, but i’d say it has MUCH lower re-watch value than the show does for me. i think what’s the most telling, though, is how i teared up and had goose-bumps for the entire final fifteen minutes during the Rise series finale, during the absolutely GORGEOUS Shredder fight scene—which was even better than the final battle in the movie, imo (though the fight scenes in the film still looked fucking amazing). i truly loved the emotional catharsis at the end of the movie, and mikey’s big savior moment was well-executed, too (huge shout out to the movie soundtrack which really helped drive the tension and emotion in critical scenes like this!), but all in all, i guess i’ve just got one thing to say to sum up how i’m feeling:

i never thought i’d prefer leo’s odachi over his katana.

#(and obviously that goes for all their weapons from the show: #raph's tonfas; mikey's kusari fundo; and ESPECIALLY donnie's techbo. god i missed his techbo SO FUCKING MUCH IN THIS MOVIE!!!!!! #the techbo and the battle shell (and i guess his mystic goggles) are pretty much the defining pieces of donnie tech throughout the entire #Rise series!!!!!) #i think it's also really telling that the brothers never switch up their little nicknames like they do so often in the show #no Angelo or Leon in sight. sigh. #but yeah! overall i'd say i did actually like the movie #i know this post seems more negative than positive #and i think it's only cuz i went into it expecting to be blown away #and so in the end i just came out of it more disappointed than i'd hoped for. but that's okay! #all in all it's really not bad at all! it's good even! just not the most id' wanted out of a rottmnt movie. that's all. #anyway go watch the series if ur looking for a new show to get into! it's on netflix + paramount plus #it's got great humor and beautiful animation #all around good chill vibes :) #doesnt take a lot of investment (im here more for the character interactions and outstanding character writing than the plot anyway. #the plot can often (tho not always!) leave a lil something to be desired but its not the end of the world!) #mine #rottmnt #tmnt #just some thoughts

[certified-anakinfucker]

hey bestie 10, 12, 16 😌

HEY BESTIE <3

(choose violence. the hornets are bored)

10 - worst part of fanon // CONTINUING ON. aside from people trying to assert their fanon as canon, normally i really try to respect creative choices because hey thats how you make fun in these hellholes. and then i see people willing to die on a hill that is so comically wrong. my brother in christ you are consuming the same content as me and you somehow got 2+2=fucking purple or some shit. or when i see people, who are clearly speaking out against something. doing that exact thing and no one says anything to them. like yall saw that or

12 - the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them // indulging swtor for a second. i wish we could see more appreciation for the minister of intelligence. yeah im still an imperial agent kissass but even if you play the most bloodthirsty, darksided, horrific agent known to man the minister STILL admits he cares about you. that yeah he fucked up he handled some things wrong and he didnt have a strong enough backbone but he is sorry. even if you constantly snub him again and again and again he is sorry. i think people need to give this guy a chance

16 - you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc) // maybe this is bc its a popular thing on my feed again but i still cant wrap my mind around people who cant choose between jedi-bashing/anakin-sucking and anakin-bashing/jedi-absolving. neither party is wholly innocent. there were powers outside of both of their controls. heads clashed. shit happened. irreversible horrors occured. whats so hard abt this i really dont get it

#cheeri inquires

[pinkseas]

[parasocial bestie] I HAVE TO BE FRFRFR WITH U IT TAKES JUST AS MUCH PRACTISE. AS WRITING I THINK. altho with my current experience in Writing thats not walls of texts of Ramble and Self Indulgence i be thinking writers wud have it harder esp vocabulary.... like man how u words how do u get the pacing right YOU DID GOT IT SO RIGHT HAVE U ANY IDEA REREADING UR TWO SILLY FICS + VIOLENCE FIC STILL GETS ME IN TEARS or i am just that of a sucker to specific emotions in general SKDFJHSDKJFH LIKE IDKKKKK like holy facken shit it took u a decade and my first attempt at just Writing even 500 words it felt like forever...... turns out intense eyeballing on chunks of words in great fics do not work like i do to improve in art nods nods [takes notes] yes that is my only way of even Understanding how art works LMAO

"words of someone who would KILL to be able to accomplish this tone and such in So Many Fewer Words but who does Not Know How To Do That so ten hundred billion words it is" HAHRGKADFKSDJH I WONT STOP UUUU ALTHO ITS A BIG BEEG STRETCH I WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YEW WITH MY LITTOL ANON HANDS SHIELD U WITH MY COOL ANON SHADES....... in these cases u shud not stop someone from burnout by blocking da way u shud JOIN THEM AND PUSH ON TOGETER AND DAS A MOTTO

NO BUT THAT SILLY GENUINELY MAKES ME A LIL SILLY A LIL UEUEUEUEUEUE i didnt expect that extra comment like srsly cus like UHUHUHUHU IM GLAD U THINK THAT WAY and i honestly think its either a natural response to me or not cus me with my own circle of close friends we'd always support each other in ways it's on equal respect depending on what need to be treated like yknow?? altho by default we're all nice to the other its always a main thing not to let another person's slip ups slide, bad moments carry them away or get our egos inflate so hard so that sort of morals we had tgt kinda ingrained on me to treat any other person like dat like its normal... im nawt gonna lie to u i used to be Way more insensitive and impulsive before and our exchanges coulda been wildly different if it werent for my own besties and it helps me gather!! more besties out of my safe space!!! LIKE YEAHGHHHHAHHHH KDSJFHSDKJH AND IT GOT ME TO U!! AND I WANNA BE GENUINELY NICE AND SUPPORTIVE TO U WHEN I CAN EVEN BEHIND THESE LIL ANON SHADES!!!!!!!!!!! cus its always been. a normal human thing 2 do. like yknow. and i am not gonna keep contradicting myself when dats something id want to influence on my stories and silly lil brainrots too anyways i also got a lil silly but idc ilysm <333333333333333 AND U DESERVE ALL DA KINDNESS FROM ME AND ALL UR BESTIES TOO :muscle_arm: x2743573495 cus i am sending this ask thru pc sob

vocabulary 🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿 my bestest friend my worstest enemy im so srs it is Everything to me and also i cannot stand it. horrible. awful. beautiful. perfect.

YOU CANT JSUT TELL ME YOU RTEREAD THEM ILL FUKINGCCG EXPLODE OH MY GODFDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD i need to write violence fic part 2 and maybe even a part 3 where its not the same little world and the violence is scaramouche himself hunting dottore down ohhhhh that'd be so lovely but also i dont think im good enough or creative enough with gore to do that thought justice im gonna be SO fr. YOU CANT JUST SAY THEY GET YOU IN TEARS I WILL FUKCVINFG EXPLOFDE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dies. dies. dies. anyways. i will never forget being like 11 or 12 years old and roleplaying warriors cats on my kindle <- genuinely my introduction to writing for fun outside of just school stuff. i wrote for YEARS and then i all but stopped writing for Also Years to the point where i genuinely thought i just. couldnt do it anymore. gone. i barely managed anything no matter what i tried and i got sooo frustrated and also just didnt really enjoy it? but thats bc my mental health was fucking horrific and the better i started doing the more i started really writing who would've thought LMAO no bc like 2?? years ago ??????? id basically given up !!!!!!! and then there were a couple tiny fics and then photosynthesis and i was like oh. i Can still write and i Do still have so much fun with it. and now i am unstoppable amen

writing is weird bc reading fics CAN help but i think reading books helps better? and its this constant state of like. ive heard with art that tracing genuinely helps, ofc you cant claim it for your own or anything but there's that sort of muscle memory and learned proportions and the practice of doing the same thing over and over again i think is a good thing? i think ??????? and in writing you rly cant copy anyone word for word and get anything out of it, it doesnt teach you anything it doesnt get you any further there's no sort of muscle memory connected with it. but what ive done a lot is looked at writing i rly loved and been like. okay so if i wanted to do this how would i accomplish it? i cant guess other writers thought processes but i can figure out how id reach a similar end goal ig ?? and in my own writing if im failing to accomplish what i want its a matter of ok, what DO i want, what if i change pov, what if i change the setting, what if i change the circumstance, etc etc which i think you could probably do the same thing in art if smth felt off or wasnt looking right ?? maybe ??? idk at this point my writing is a massive patchwork quilt of countless other authors and fic writers and a surprising amount of my own experience and ive noticed a lot of repeating elements in my own writing whether fics or original content and i dont really know How i got here but here i am. and ON TOP OF THAT actually seeing fanart ALSO helps my writing because ill see an expression or design or setting or anything that i really love and immediately start thinking of how to describe it in words yknow ???

im literally rambling so much today this is so fucking awful. awful day for the pinkseas community or at least pinkseas herself god help me

JOIN THEM AND PUSH ON TOGETHER............ UR LITTLE ANON SHADES............................. crying shaking sobbing bawling ily so fucking bad :((((((((((((( /pos we r pushign forward Togehter...

my rly close friends and i are the same way its SO so so lovely, having that constant respect and support and helping each other grow and learn its soooo. dsfmgndfmgfd. and trust me i also used to be a lot more insensitive and impulsive than i am now but ive learned sm and my own friends have helped sm and !!!!! we are soooooooo handshake emoji rn 10 million handshakes for us

UR SENDING IT ON PC AND IM ANSWERING ON PC </33333333 no bc organizing my thoughts on my phone is the worst ever but on my pc i dont have a bunch of heart emojis to spam at my fingertips its so sad....... sometimes when i rly wanna include them ill save as a draft and just put the emojis in and post it on my phone LMAO

#parasocial bestie tag #I WAS GONNA DELETE LIKE HALF OF THIS AND THEN REMEMBNERED WHAT U SAID ABT DELETING STUFF #and like this isnt rly writing thoughts or ideas or anything so idk if it coutns but #i am Strong i will Not delete my silly rambling i will simply press on

[doebt]

also ik i be answering asks on here and stuff and acting normal but i am super isolating myself in like actual intimate friendships rn and i feel like crap so bad abt it...just bc im answering asks and being funny on the internet doesnt mean im not SO depressed...i hate things being expected of me 

#any time anyone says anything to me i hope they say it with the expectation that it might be 3 yrs before i respond #im ddoing so bad right now bc i havent left my house in almmost 4 months and #because of the way my dad is i feel like this will never end even when covid is over for good #especially bc he keeps saying itll never be over and i better get comfortable with this lifestyle #and i think abt the future and ik i wont be able to do this forever so when i finally do leave im going to be essentially kicked out. AGAIN. #as if it didnt hurt bad enough the first time...so by the time i cant handle this extreme isolation im going to need to #be financially stable and ready to move out for good. which is hard bc i cant get a job bc that would mean breaking quarantine...so i feel #like im goign to be stuck in this miserable house forever...as much as i love the opportunity to #work on all my creative projects and spend time with my family and my beautiful pets and nap whenever i want.. like i love it i rly do #but it is so miserably lonely. any local friends i have will have moved states away for college by the time im 'allowed' to leave the house #but bc of the way my family is i know i cant do anything about it. #when my grandma or grandpa accidentally make contact with the outside (like touching the post office drop box) #my dad forces them to stay in our spare house twenty minutes away for two weeks before they can come back #its the former crackhouse and it is disgusting and not in a great neighborhood and theres like nothing but #a bed a fridge a microwave and a really gross bathroom #and i cant deal with that i know i would handle it so poorly...i would probably sleep outside bc it is too reminiscent of my childhood #idk what im saying im basically just having an extraordinarily difficult time with this and none of my friends understand bc they all have #comparatively 'normal' families that arent plagued by severe mental illness at least in THIS scenario #not that its a contest i just cant make anyone understand why im acting the way im acting and it sucks bc no one is really understanding #if i drop off the proverbial face of the earth for however long its not freaking personal its just im having an insane hard time rn #You know. bc i havent left the house. IN ALMOST 4 MONTHS. does anyone have any idea what it feels like. It is miserable. #i drove around w my dad once and i wanted to cry jsut seeing the outside world and not being able to touch it

[cuteconsortboys]

Hewwo!

Question about the au because I'm really curious about it: what are the qualities of the "perfect" harem/consort?

(Those put by the societry).

How do you think they change between Bnha/Naruto/Obey Me?

Sorry if it's a lot of questions but i didnt want to bother you with more asks.

Anyways hi and feel free to delete!

Hello!!!

Great questions! There's definitely a lot more than I have listed here, but I've put a few that come to mind first! Let me know what you think!

1. 'Perfect' consort qualities in the Naruto world:

Modest and chaste: Consorts should be a virgin when they get married, unless they are widowed. But widowed consorts are very, very rarely put in any position higher than general consort. The men should also dress modestly and refrain from too much physical affection with their wife in public.

Creatively skilled: This is a big one in the Naruto world that isn't as big in the other two. Perfect consorts should be very skilled in the arts. Poetry writing, embroidery, make up and drawing/painting are expected. Singing, dancing, musical instruments, non-poetry creative writing, acting etc. are bonus skills, so consorts should have a couple of these, but not all of them are expected.

Beautiful and put together: A perfect consort will always look his best, hair done nicely, clean and beautiful outfits, make up etc.

Passive in bed: All the worlds have some type of sexual expectation, but in the Naruto world, any man training to be a consort will be told to just let their wife take the lead and just be responsive and do as they're told. Sexual education for men in the Naruto world is not great as a standard.

Friendly with other consorts: In the Naruto world, consorts are expected to at least tolerate each other, but ideally get on with each other. Opening jealous and petty consorts might suffer in the reputation department.

2. 'Perfect' consort qualities in the BNHA world:

Good at raising children: Contrary to the other AUs, BNHA world consorts are expected to partake in raising children. There is an expectation for them to care for all the children in the harem, but there is special emphasis on consorts being active in raising their own children. In the other AUs, it's totally normal and acceptable for a consort to pop out a child and only see them once a week and leave the rearing for the servants and nannies, but in the BNHA world, this would be seen as cold and an unfavourable trait for a consort.

Willing in bed: There aren't really specific skills required in the bedroom department in the BNHA world. They are just told to always be willing. Sex ed is decent, but not as in depth as the Obey me world.

Beautiful and put together: A perfect consort will always look his best, hair done nicely, clean and beautiful outfits, make up etc. BNHA consorts aren't required to be as modest though. In fact, in some occasions, slightly skimpier outfits are encouraged.

Friendly with other consorts: In the BNHA world, consorts are expected to at least tolerate each other, but ideally get on with each other. Opening jealous and petty consorts might suffer in the reputation department. Same as the Naruto world. Obey me consorts can be petty af though and get away with it.

3. 'Perfect' qualities in the Obey me! world:

Well read: Intelligence is very prized in the Obey me world. Consorts are expected to either be bilingual, an excellent speaker, a literary expert, good at medicine etc. Parents hoping their children will become a high level consort will give their son a very, very rigorous education.

Talented in bed: So, this is slightly different to the other two sex expectations. In the Obey me world, men hoping to become consorts are told to study 'bedroom skills' to make sure they are talented enough to please their wife. The subject is taught through books. Yes, there is a 'sex for dummies' style book set that all young men are told to read.

Beautiful and put together: A perfect consort will always look his best, hair done nicely, clean and beautiful outfits, make up etc. Emphasis in the Obey me world is on dignity. They aren't anywhere near as modestly dressed as Naruto consorts. They are discouraged from physical training though, just because sweating and getting dirty is undignified.

#world building #empress au #fem reader #matriarchy au #naruto #obey me #bnha #mha

[bloodycassian]

anon asked:

ok hear me out, azriel x reader where reader can hear thoughts or something along those lines and she doesn’t know how to control it so she’s constantly hearing or feeling thoughts/emotions and it’s heats super overwhelming and az helps her through it <3

The headaches hadn't stopped for weeks. Rhys had even called over a medwitch from the continent to help, but there was nothing she could see that was wrong. They were all worried, but their worries just somehow made your head hurt even more. The whispers you could hear from them down the stairs of the townhouse were the worst part. 'Do they need a cleansing?' 'What happened to cause it?' 'Their body is doing this for a reason.' they went on and on and on, never answering each other. Each voice different through the muffling of the walls.  You were ready to scream. Pillow over your head wouldnt even block them out. You rocked in bed, hands over your ears. Nothing, no more silence ever. Just the ringing in your head of all the voices. Mor had tried asking her father if he knew anything about such subjects. Anything for help. Azriel swooped into the city streets, nodding at a few shopkeeps as he went. After being gone for the last few weeks, the welcome faces of his home were a sight for sore eyes. He held the bag of various salts and salves gently, just as he had his whole trip back. He landed with precision at the front gate of the town home. The familiar wrought iron fence squeaking slightly when he opened it. You felt his presence before he even opened the front door. The coolness of his essence seeping through the walls. The curling shadows that darkened everything ever so slightly. "Your condition seems to have...developed since I left." He set the tote down on the chair by the door, then closed it softly. The whispering became more intense, a pounding in your head that drowned out almost everything else.  "Oh-" He breathed as he walked in. A shocked look then he was grinning. "Leave us." He dismissed Rhys, who gave him a look before obeying. He took off his jacket, leaving him in a dark tunic that made his eyes look brighter. He cocked his head when staring at you, then took a breath. The shadows seemed to summon around him, making him look even more intimidating than normal. They slunk around his ankles like a fog. Then they covered the walls of the room, blocking off the light from the window entirely. The relief in your mind was overwhelming.  You choked out a sob, looking at him with wide eyes. The silence, the weight taken from your brain was like breathing for the first time. "H-how?" You panted, getting up from the bed. Sickness did not weigh you down any longer. The pounding ceased completely, alleviating your too warm temples. He came close to you, only too close because of the thin nightgown you wore. Really it was one of Cassian's old shirts that just fitted you like a dress. When you had taken his room due to your apparent illness you had found a few 'interesting' items of his that were left. "It seems your condition has...evolved since I saw you last." He reached a hand out to you, the siphons atop thrumming with a warm dark blue. You took it tentatively, your eyes slid shut -then there he was. His scent, his thoughts, his everything was in your mind. You scrambled away from it mentally, your heart slamming in your chest. He stroked a thumb over your hand. His mental voice was warm, yet rough and commanding. "Slow. Think, but slowly. I'm here, you're okay." The voice said.  His darkness seemed to follow him to your mind, coating it in a coolness that was much appreciated. "What do I do? What am I?" You took a breath, trying to center yourself. Your entire being was roaring at you to fight back against the intrusion, but he shushed you into not trying it. "You...are new. You're like me, in a way." He whispered softly, his essence drifting over you comfortingly. Like a soft blanket, cold but still comforting.  "How do I get it ito stop?" You sighed, wanting to bury your head in your hands again. He touched you then, slowly at first. Dragging a soft, textured hand up to your wrist, then pulling you in for a hug. His warmth was the opposite of everything else about him, those shadows did nothing against the core of him, his heat.  "You dont, you learn how to make it work with you." He said aloud, his presence rolling out of your mind like a thundercloud. He pulled out of the embrace, "You need to make the thoughts blend like street noise- like a crowd. Learn to select what you want to hear. "  "You make it sound so easy." You rolled your eyes at him, crossing your arms over your chest. Azriel may or may not have glanced at how it hitched up the oversized t shirt. Hunger opened up in the pit of his stomach at the filthy thoughts. He knew it was Cassian's shirt, recognized and scented it. It made him want to put his own scent on you in several different, creative ways. He cracked a grin and shrugged slightly, "It'll be like reading a new language. But you need to learn to speak it first." He wrapped an arm around your shoulders and lead you to the balcony, the shadows following you in a close bubble the whole way.  "All these people have their thoughts, their words and actions. My shadows tell me all about their outfits, their scents, their hair. Unnecessary unless they have a weapon." He gestured to a few fae males outside a townhome a few houses down. One threw their arms up in the air and stormed back inside." I can't keep them from giving me this information, but I do let it go. I dont even listen unless I detect a threat."  You let out a long breath, feeling the anxiety of him leaving already. "Please stay." His stomach dropped at the words. You grabbed for his hand. As if the open sky was demanding he take off that second. " I cant-" You kept your voice from trembling. "It's too much. Why me? Why now?" Tears threatened and you looked away. He couldnt bear to see you in such pain. He wanted - he needed to give you relief from it. He squared his shoulders and squeezed your hand back. "Are you afraid to fly?" he asked, flexing his wings. The shadows answered with their own wave. "I'm not the biggest fan-" Before you could give your list of excused you'd rather not fly, he was shooting into the air, the backs of your thighs rubbing over his deliciously warm skin. Your yelp of surprise was left behind you. You held on to his shoulders for dear life. "If you would open your eyes you might not be so scared." He laughed, his siphons glaring a bright shield around you that protected you from the wind. He flew fast, and far. His presence was the only one you felt, like a cool rain on your still reeling mind. He had sent Rhys an advisory thought before he took you, letting him know you needed some 'fun'. "If I open my eyes I'm going to vomit all over you." You said, squeezing your eyes tighter. You felt the laugh through his chest. His thumb circled the back of your knee, giving you goosebumps that had nothing to do with the slight chill running through the shield. The shirt was not nearly enough for an outing, and you doubted he was taking you anywhere with anyone who would mind. The thought sent a thrill through you. Alone. He wanted to be alone with you.  As if in approval, his essence drifted happily into your mind, caressing you as his thumb did. He flew lower slowly, enjoying your scent mixed with the cool smell of the lake below. The way the sun at this angle made your hair shine. He landed softly, setting you down only after you'd made him promise you were no longer flying.  "We're done...for now." He winked when you opened, marveling at his wind tosseld hair for a second before collecting yourself and brushing your shirt absently. He grinned wider, and the coolness you'd felt since he showed up in the town home receded. You felt...like you. Normal again, weightless in comparison after the weeks of buzzing in your head. And the view beyond his goofy grin was marvelous. A snowcapped mountain towered above, sloping to create the lake. Mixes of different rock lay everywhere. The scattered pines seemed like giants whispering in the breeze. "Listen to the birds, enjoy the silence for a while." He said, then began walking to the bank of the bright blue water. You stood in shock for a while, letting the sound of the wind and nothing else seep into you. You reveled in it, joying in the simplicity of it. Everything seemed so much louder than you remembered.  You sat on a boulder and watched him skip rocks, the short splats of them echoing off the mountainside. He skipped one after another, occasionally picking up smaller ones and pocketing them. You let your mind wander, trying to regain the feeling he had shrouded you with in the townhome. The solid wall he had put up around your mind for you. But he had said you needed to learn to let it blend in, to deal with it and not shut it out. It was an asset, not a hinderance. You shuddered at using the gift for much. You didnt care to know peoples ins and outs in normal conversation, let alone without them knowing. You attempted to summon that wall. It was like grasping at water, thick and heavy and impossible. The lingering remnants of control slipped away like sand through your fingers. You buried your face in your hands, letting the tears fall.  When he approached, you didn't bother hiding. He had been in your head, he knew what it was like. He said nothing, just wrapped an arm around you and let you cry into his shoulder. Holding you tighter on the bigger sobs that ripped out of you. 

#azriel #azriel x reader #acotar #acotar fic #azriel fic

[obsessive-ego]

Disappointment

Musical BeetleJuice x reader

nsft content

masturbation, voyeurism you know the drill with me

sometimes things don’t go the way you want, beej spys on reader chan while jerking it, and things don’t exactly go as planned, reader cahn is okay with it, beej, not so much

i apologize for this mess

Recently the Deetz have asked you to "babysit" beetlejuice while they were on a vacation, the maitlands also pleaded this so they could have some alone time, you didnt mind, you enjoyed the demon's presence, and he yours, ever since you sucker punched him after a jump scare gone wrong, he became very clingy to you.

It's been a few days into having beetlejuice over, yes he has spent the night in the past, hell, he's stay over enough times to get comfortable enough to sneak into your bed as you slept, a fate you've just accpected. Despite a his glaring flaws, it was fun having him around for a longer period of time, movie marathons, videogames, messing with delivery people, it was really nice having someone around who could make you laugh as hard as he could, not that youd ever admit it you had a crush on him.

But it's been a few days since you've had some proper alone time, and having beetlejuice constantly hang off you, pull you around, and spoon you while you slept has left you in a pretty uncomfortable state down there, and with the ghoul around it was pretty difficult to fix said issue.

Until today, out of the blue beetlejuice hits you with the gold opportunity to quickly tend to your little annoyance.

"Its been awhile since I bugged some of your neighbors, I'm gonna duck out and have alittle fun, try not to miss me too much Sugar, Daddy will be home in a bit~" and with that he phased through the ceiling, off to do god knows what.

It was now or never, you take the chance and head to your bedroom.

Beetlejuice phases back into your living room, so his hunch was right, you were itching to rub one out, he knew you smelled alittle different, but couldnt place it. Hes been here what? 3 days? And you already aching for some 'fun', this was gonna be good, it's been awhile since he took care of business himself, and would just LOVE for his favourite little breather to provide some stimulus.

He snaps his fingers, camouflaging himself to you, and heads to your room, walking through the door, he's greeted by the sight of you slipping out of your panties.

"Oh ho, already getting down to business huh sweetness? I like a gal who doesnt beat around the bush" he chuckles.

You prop yourself up on the bed, quickly grabbing your bright pink vibrator, and the little bottle of lube, you quickly prep the toy, as much as youd like to take your time and enjoy yourself, this was a race against the clock, a quick fix, you can take your time once your alone for real.

Beetlejuice found your eagerness more then arousing, the fact that you were so desperate to rub one out, your excitment was contagious, the ghoul was already palming himself through his pants, standing at the foot of your bed, the perfect view of you getting yourself ready.

"You're a needy little thing, aren't ya? If you would a asked me I would have loved to help you out Sugar~" he purred slipping his hard cock from its tight prison. His hair an electric pink, buzzing with excitement, it's been awhile since he had the pleasure of watching you masturbate. Unknown to you, Beetlejuice was more then fond of you, he had quite the crush in you, he adored spending time with you, and joking around, but also deeply yearned to pound you into the mattress until you couldnt walk, to have you praise him for making you feel so good, but mostly wanted you to cling to him, to have his favourite breather stay with him.

He adored watching you tend to your physical needs, because one, it gave him a nice little show to help himself out, two, a map on exactly what got you off, which he WILL use on you when he gets the chance, but most importantly, three, you thought of him while you did it.

The first time BJ watched you play with your cute little pussy, he nearly screamed when he herd you shout his name. You were a coward with your feelings, he KNEW you liked him, but recognized you weren't ready to act on those feelings, that was fine, for the time being, he was fine with what was going between you two right now. Friends, close friends, and yes like as he was doing now, beetlejuice loved to spy on you, steal your panties for jerk off material, get pretty handsy with you, just to satisfy his desperate urge to be closer to you.

The ghoul was snapped from his thoughts with a slight groan from you, his attention was drawn back to reality, watching you slide the toy into your aching core. Reaching for his cock, the demon began slowly stoking himself.

You curse through your teeth, it's been awhile, the toy buzzes to life and you jolt, letting out a small moan, as you start to pump the toy in and out you couldnt help but be a tad more vocal then normal, panting, gasping, and groaning.

"What a beautiful sound sugar, I LOVE that voice of yours" he purred, beginning to match your pace.

You were already bucking your hips, pumping little faster, really focused on just getting it done.

"Whoa, whoa, whoa, there doll, take your time, enjoy yourself"

You stop,

"What's up babes? You didnt cum yet? Did ya? pretty anti climatic if ya did"

You frown, looking down at your vibrator, you click the button on the base of the toy, nothing, you click a few more times, still nothing.

You let out a small moan as you pull the toy out. Beetlejuice leans in to see what the hold up was, watching you unscrew the base of the vibrator, letting the batteries slide out, you sigh, leaning over to your side table drawer in Hope's to locate some replacements.

Despite this little hold up the ghoul was enjoying the view of you leaning over with that cute little rear up in the air, he wouldn't mind taking that for a ride.

You groan in annoyance taking Beejs attention back to you

"Nothing" you grumble, sitting back.on the bed proper you huff through your nose, after a few seconds of just sitting there you couldnt help but laugh. "That's how it goes I guess, it is what it is, guess I'll take care of this another time" you laugh to yourself as you head to the bathroom to clean off your dead vibrator and yourself.

"NO, doll, come back" the ghoul shouted, not that you could hear him, hard cock still in hand "you dont need a toy to finish, hump a pillow, use your fingers, hell just use the toy as a dildo, you dont need buzzing to get ya off! Get creative for me!" His pleas fell on deaf ears, his heart sank when he herd the rushing water of the shower.

"Great" he grumbles, plopping down on your bed, apparently you could just not finish and be cool with it? Not him, he needed to blow this load, now its not going to be as satisfying, yeah he could use a freshly worn set of panties, but being blueballed watching you quit mid way. Picking up a pair of black panties from the top of your laundry basket, wrapping his hand with the cloth he began pumping his cock, normally this would be very satisfying for Beetlejuice, but now? It felt like a down grade, jerking off just to finish the job.

Beetlejuice returns focus on his shaft, quickly pumping himself, it was rare for him to consider such an activity as a chore, but after losing such a great show his imagination couldnt compare.

The imagine of the disappointment frown you made when your toy died kept crossing his mind, making it harder to focus to get off, trying to shift his focus he grabs a shirt from your laundry basket and begins inhaling your scent, better, but not by much, no fantasy, no dirty mumbling, hell, even his hair had died down in hue.

After a few moments of quick pumping he came, using your panties as a cum rag, he tidied himself up and slid his soft cock back in his pants, not very satisfying, he grumbles to himself and heads to the living room to pout.

Bonus

"Oh hey, how did the scaring go?" You notice beetlejuice was back from his 'outing'.

"Fine" he grumbles

That was never a good response

"You're in a mood"

He huff through his nose "no thanks to you"

You knit your brows together, what was his problem? "Not satisfied with your results?" You sneer

"Doll you have no idea what unsatisfied even is" he laughs

#beetlejuice x reader #muscial beetlejuice x reader #nsft

[dolphin-enthusiast]

hello muffin!! 🌼☀💗 ahhh i apologize for writing so late,, i had a friend over for the night and things got quite hectic!! (it's 1:32 as i write this part) i hope your day went well darling!! please make sure that you're taking care of yourself for me since that is very important to maintain 💞 (1/7?)

"you all have said lots of funny and creative things today, hmm?? also lots of sweet things too, which i greatly appreciate as always!! that matchup ask made me giggle, and i really got a kick out of that little photo you edited hehe!! my siblings liked it too 💕 and vogue? that's the dream!! i do hope i can make it there someday 🌠 (2/7?)

ahhhhhh and that mythology related ask really got me,, i love mythology so i thought that was a sweet little reference!! 🌺❤ (though if i had to choose between any sort of mythology, roman mythology is my top choice!!) oh and i'm very flattered by some of these comments~ i'm in no way charming enough to be a seducer, but it makes me feel nice to know someone thinks that haha,, and my friends really enjoyed seeing that ask for some reason!! 😅 (3/7?)

my sister and i were finally able to buy eyes of heaven today!! we haven't played yet since we're setting aside time tomorrow to start the story mode together,, but it's such a dream come true!! we got the digital version 85% off, which was amazing,, awaaaaa i really can't wait to play it!! (3/7?)

we also spent a lot of time playing the sims 4 with the friend that is currently over, and it was very funny!! lots of chaos and housefires,, but eventually she and my sister tried making us??? we didn't get to play that household yet (since we had to go upstairs eventually) but it was very amusing to me, they seemed to have a lot of fun creating us hehe 😊 (4/7?)

and i do in fact adore sinatra's music!! he's one of my favorite singers ever! my music taste is pretty mixed but mostly comprised of vintage music, songs my parents grew up with, my older brother's music/songs he's shown me, and opera,, it's pretty sporadic but i like it that way!! (5/7?)

oh stars, so much going on in so little time, i would normally keep writing but i feel my narcolepsy kicking in,, i'm gonna lay down in case my body decides to go catatonic,, i'll be back tomorrow love!! - with lots and lots of love, your faithful waifu xoxo 😳💋💌💞💗💖💕💓❤💘😘 ps (1): someday we need to play eyes of heaven together amore!! 😘💋✨ ps (2): i like to think that it wasn't just fate, but also the fact that your personality really charmed me, so i decided to stick around 💌 (7/7)"

Dear of corpse we would say u sEduCEd ur way into our void of a hearts that wholesome energy does wonders😩😩 i did also like that mythology comparison as well and i had a feeling u were fond of roman mythology as well esp since ur italian👁️👁️ and (as i said before) i just knew u liked frank sinatra too....my music taste is very much likely opposite ig consisting of (mainly old) rock, metal, punk and everything inbetween.....with a side of eurobeat for reasons🤪👊

Actually playing eyes of heaven is a dream alas i dont have a console and i tried emulating it before (since thats how we play most games we die like salarymen) and it didnt work so🗿🗿🗿 what i DID manage to get however was heritage of the future which is like a 90s jojo combat game just like eyes of heaven...well minus the fancy graphics and all but its got c h a r m rhdhhd

Im glad to see u once again had fun dear😳 as for myself i just watched some old animes again since i simply adore the 80s/90s animation style and the music and then went for a walk and c o n t e m p l a t e d jddjdj

And wow saying u fell in love in love w my personality is...wig? Like i have no words jduxnsns bruh do i even show my personality around here eye literally just meme/clown around all day long🤡✌️

#im S N A T C H E D bitch #i like to think my only personality traits are horni on main and chaoticness but...damn dear 😞👊 #it goes without saying not only me but the entire clown army as well fell in love with ur personality #thats inevitable #ALSO GET THAT 🅱️OGUE DEAR #the confessional

[shyung-shoes]

☕️ HI JILL!! hope you're doing awesome angel!! since i am still shoved up mx's booty 25/8 and i only just listened to pentagon's album yesterday, what are your thoughts!! i would love to know what your rankings for the album too :) love ya!!

MADCH HI ILY HOPE YOURE DOIN WELL

we:th... aoty and daisy soty.. (i say until svt comeback next week but shh)

im in LOVE with this album. and not even just bc im a uni and consume ptg content like oxygen. i think daisy is such a unique title track and all the b-sides show pentagons diversity, talent, and creativity

ok ranking time

1) beautiful goodbye. i think this is such a good example of pentagons ability to blend vocals and rap together. like vocal line is stunning and so expressive while rap line is killer and gives the song an edge so it isnt just another ballad. kino really snapped with this one

2) daisy. hHhHhHhHhH i love daisy sm. its so sad but also so fun and makes me have a million feelings. only critique is yuto didnt have enough lines. its a more mature pentagon song while still capturing the playfulness and expression that i think theyre known for. choreo goes SO god damn hard. the musicality? the formation changes? im obsessed

3) paradise. shes! so fun! every time i hear it imagine it being performed at a concert and get so excited. it feels a little bit like a fan song? its not but to me it’s pentagon and universes are each others paradise. i have a feeling this is gonna be the bside they perform during promotions

4) you like. this song is SO wacky and SO good. heard this song for the first time and sad “boy h u h??” but its so pentagon and so fun and such an excellent song to go driving to. i want hui to make a full song out of his beginning part

5) nostalgia. last only because i don’t normally go for this style of song. its still beautiful and an excellent song just not my cup of tea

send me an emoji and a topic and ill tell you what i think

#sorry this is so long #i had to cut myself off #thank u madch!!! #q&a reply #kyunsies

[foolishlovebugbaby]

stupid cupid | part 1

part 2 | part 3 | part 4

college!au / bang chan x fem!reader

Summary: bang chan is always complaining about being single since birth, so best friend reader decides to play cupid and sets him up. big mistake.

Genre: angst-y?? with some fluff later on idk you decide (a Lot of slow burn so idk how many parts this multi-shot will have lmao)

Warnings: none

college life, to summarise, was hectic.

multiple deadlines for multiple classes; pages upon pages of assignments and essays that needed to be done; hour long lectures almost every single day, and on top of all of that, a part-time job as a book clerk at the library that needed to be held down in order to help pay for your apartment rent.

needless to say, your days were filled with so much to do encapsulated in such little time.

thankfully, you were not alone.

you had your best friend Chan to hold you down through it all even though he had just as much struggles as you did

you had met him right before you started college on a website while looking for housemates in order to afford rent (you were drowning in student loans and so was he, so to you it was a match made in heaven)

to say your parents were reluctant to let you live with a male was an understatement- but after meeting him and realizing that he was a total sweetheart that couldn’t hurt a fly and that there was no other option, off you went. 

you two were very similar in many ways; for one, you both shared a deep love for movies and films and star wars, which is why you both made a childish pinky promise to always have movie nights on wednesday evenings and the tradition hasn’t been broken since

another thing you also shared in common was the fact that you both were completely, utterly, stupidly and perfectly single.

he, since birth, and you since the 11th grade when your first love became your fist ( and, thus, worst) heartbreak

bonding over these things and the fact that you both were endlessly passionate about reaching your goals allowed you both to develop a deep and meaningful friendship, enough to make you both realise that you were each others’ best friends

whenever he’d stay up and pull all-nighters to get his work done, you were always next to him on the dining table doing the same even though you didn’t need to, but wanted to keep him company just so that he didn’t feel alone.

and whenever you had mental breakdowns during exam season, he was always there with ice cream and flash cards in hand to help you get through it all

needless to say, even though the first two years of college were anything but a breeze, chan always made you feel okay.

so now there you two were, third year college students on your run-down, second-hand couch, watching re-runs of the big bang theory and catching up on how the week was so far.

“it makes me feel so lonely watching minho and his girl act all cutesy in class, i feel like the ultimate third wheel.” chan whined next to you on the couch and you rolled your eyes

“you’ve been complaining for so long about how you feel oh so lonely, why don’t you just find someone then? there are enough people all over campus pining over you anyway.” you said, scoffing at the brunette.

chan had been complaining for so long about how he felt like a deprived lovebug and how he was an utter virgin in everything that had to do with love, and you were getting annoyed with how often he complained

“but that’s the thing- i don’t even know where to start! how do you even approach people? how do you even know whether that person is a nice person? god, they should teach us ‘finding a life partner 101′ instead of the laws of thermodynamics, it’d be way more useful.” he rambled on

“you’re so whiny channie. you know what? let me help you. i can set you up on a blind date with someone who i think you’d like so that the filtering process would be shortened- how does that sound?” you turned to look at him, propping your elbow onto the  couch headboard and rested your head into the palm of your hand

suggesting this was your first mistake.

he looked at you quizzically, his thick eyebrows furrowed and eyes squinty

“you would do that? for me?”

“if it gets you to shut up then of course.” you grinned sarcastically and giggled, with him rolling his eyes at you

“oh haha,” he said and stuck his tongue out “forget i even said anything.” he huffed and got all pouty and exaggerated by crossing his arms and looking away from you. you could only laugh at his feigned hurtful expressions

“i’m kidding! you know i’m just joking- oh stop pouting you big baby.” you said, grabbing ahold of his bicep to get his to turn and look at you

his very muscular bicep

“i’m being serious okay! i want to set you up with someone so that my poor channie stops feeling so lonely all the time.” you mimicked his pout and patted his head

“alright, fine. i’m trusting you with this. if i get dumped i’m blaming you.”

“deal.”

you didn’t have to blink twice to agree to this whole ordeal or even to suggest it; you and chan were just friends- best friends at that, and everything between you both was completely platonic

or so you thought.

so there you were, in your literature lecture, spying on the one girl you thought would be the perfect fit to chan’s empty heart.

so far you knew that her name was Hana, that she was a screenplay major (and so, obviously, knew a good lot about film), that she was recently single and ready to mingle (according to people around campus), and that she looked absolutely gorgeous

jackpot

being your outgoing self, you immediately approached her all wide-eyed and hopeful.

“hi, you don’t know me but would you mind going on a blind date with my friend?” you quipped innocently

she looked completely shocked and dumbfounded

afterall, the only thing she knew about you was that you shared literature class together- and that’s about it.

reader you complete weirdo

“uhm, may i ask what your name is?” she said, looking bashful and flustered

“i’m y/n. and don’t worry, chan isn’t a complete weirdo- shit did i just say his name?? fuck i just took out the point of a blind date.” you mentally slapped yourself for being this much of a dumbass, but to your surprise, hana’s eyes flickered with interest.

“do you mean bang chan? as in cute-boy-in-the-physics-department bang chan?” 

“uh yeah i think so? cute boy? since when was channie known as cute bo-”

“i’m definitely in! i’m sorry for sounding so overly-enthusiastic, it’s just chan’s been quite popular these days, and i’m just a little excited.” she said bashfully

“don’t be sorry! just give me your number and i’ll text you the details soon!”

to say that chan was excited when you told him would be an understatement

“you’re going to love her, channie! god, i’m such a good wingman, you should pay me for setting you up this good.” you said, smirking, feeling proud of yourself

“don’t get too cocky just yet. but oh my god, i can’t wait to meet her!” he said grinning, completely over the moon, and your smile matched his.

wednesday evening rolled around, the day of their blind date, and you couldn’t have been more excited for him. you had arranged for them to meet at a cute little trendy café downtown- perfect for a first date- where they could just talk and get to know each other.

you honestly felt like a proud mom sending off her son to get married, and the happiness you felt for him was genuine- no if’s, and’s or but’s.

“do i look okay?” chan said, coming out of his room dressed in black jeans with rips in the knees, a black muscle tank top and his white denim jacket. he wore an expression of nervousness- a very cute one, at that- and you couldn’t help but let your gaze linger a little longer than normal with a little more affection than you’d like to admit.

“you- you look great channie!” you said, stuttering at first as you were taken aback by just how attractive he looked

you always knew your best friend was handsome- but something about the way his ruffled hair settled on his head and how his lips were flushed a deep red from biting them out of nervousness made your heart skip a beat

but of course, you ignored it.

this was the second mistake.

he was attractive, and that was that.

“you really think so?” he smiled bashfully, ears going red when he saw how your eyes gleamed after seeing him. it made him feel fluttery and giddy to have you compliment him.

“you look really handsome, channie- i mean it.” you said again, a soft smile dancing on your lips and he looked down and scratched the nape of his neck, suddenly feeling embarrassed by all the attention you were giving him.

“you should wear that really nice perfume you own!” you said giddily

“already am! i know it’s your favorite scent- i just hope she likes it too.” 

after a few more minutes of chan’s nervous questions and you telling him to calm down, he was off.

he didn’t know what Hana looked like- all you told him was that she would be sitting alone next to the window in a pink top.

so when he laid eyes on the girl you described, he had to do a double take to make sure he wasn’t seeing things.

she was a sight to see, that was for sure.

before he entered, he sent a text to you 

to stardust: u didnt tell me you were setting me up w a fukn model

from stardust: oopsies (✿◠‿◠)

he chuckled and rolled his eyes before entering the café and making his way over to her.

he introduced himself, as did she, and the night played on.

meanwhile, on the other side of town, there you were on the dining table, finishing up your last analytical essay on whatever the heck you had to analyse for your creative writing class

it was ten pm now, and you groggily made your way onto your sofa with your fluffy throw blanket wrapped around you like a burrito 

you flicked through the channels on the tv, being unable to find anything remotely interesting, until you realised something

it was wednesday.

movie night day.

and you were alone.

you felt a pang in your chest at that realisation. after 2 years of almost always spending wednesday nights with chan by your side, you suddenly grew increasingly aware of how lonely you were. by now you two would be cramped on the couch, debating over whether or not to put on a new movie or series or to re-watch some of your all-time favorites.

but there you were, staring into space, alone and cold on your couch, chan no longer beside you.

you immediately buried those thoughts away 

‘he’s happy and having a good time, and i’m so happy for him- he’s my best friend.’ you thought to yourself

your phone dinged, interrupting your train of thought

from solo: this is going too well, im buying u sushi next week to thank u

you let out a breathy laugh at that

to solo: hehe glad to hear that

from solo: gosh i love you

your breath hitched in your throat when you read that message. it made your heart suddenly pick up speed and made your tummy feel weird. he’s never said that before, you thought to yourself, your mind malfunctioning. you blinked yourself back into reality.

to solo: i know.

with that, you shut off your phone. 

you had to remind yourself why he said it. 

he was being thankful, nothing more. that’s all there is to it. 

i’m his best friend, nothing more. that’s all there is to it.

you had to shake of the stinging feeling in your chest and chose to distract yourself by watching the nature documentary that was playing on tv, even though it bored you out of your mind and caused you to just stare at it blankly for the rest of the night. 

soon enough you fell asleep on the couch, alone and cold, with the tv playing a show you didn’t like on a channel you didn’t watch with a dull pain brewing in the middle of your chest that you chose to actively ignore. 

and that was the third mistake. 

i’ll just end it here for part one. please reblog and like so i know you want this multi-shot to continue! also all my star wars babies- peep those references heheheheheheh 

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[judehayward]

lady gaga voice slowly fadin in: ju-Das juda-ah-ah… frankly i missed this ridiculous depressed little man so i’m gna try my hand at playing 2 charas again. the crowd grits their teeth in apprehensive nerves. it’s fine it’s fine it’s all FINE!!!!!!!!! also this is nai btw forgot to say. anyway. ahem. without further adieu.... his intro

he pinterest:

me in the voice of a card magician performing on the street: round up round up pick a pinterest any pinterest!

ta-da it’s aesthetics:

lead marbles instead of eyes, a stolen hearse careening down the wrong lane, wearing a faded smiley face sticker on your forehead while receiving a serious lecture, bags under the eyes that are so big they could pack enough clothes for a three week vacation, a cigarette wobbling from your bottom lip as you squint against the sunlight, passing out on a stranger’s rooftop, placing sunglasses over the eyes of a biology lab skeleton, gangling around the place like shaggy minus his scooby snacks, saying “fuck off” to inanimate objects

about tha Bitch:

ok to start w i won’t lie i’ve pasted in an old intro here bc i just hate intros i hate writing them i hate them................. bt it’s fine.......................... lets pretend this is all fresh n sexy n new....... bsically this is jst a disclosure tht this isn’t tht well written bc it’s old n stinky bt we’re all jst having fun here. bye

he hd to do community service bc he kind of… hd a bit of a breakdown before the funeral of his elderly neighbour who bsically raised him bc her kids rly didnt care abt her they jst wanted her inheritance?? so he… stole the hearse w her casket still in it n ws jst like… drivin around the place sort of… tryin nt to cry…..KJJFHSFKJGHKFG i mean. it isnt funny its actually sad bt :/ in a very bizarre n jude way. he gt caught n taken in fr questioning bt her son kind of realised hw… broken up abt her death jude ws n had a heart n didnt press charges. regardless he stil hd to do community service bc it ws like taken seriously even tho it ws his first proper offence. doin it rly exhausted n depressed him so when he wsnt doin tht he ws just hibernatin in his room……. this ws like 2/3 months ago nw mayb bt... just some fun lore fr u all

in a new development in terms of sexuality i jst am nt quite sure……. hes always thot he ws straight… fooled around w a 90s hugh grant lookalike once n ws jst a bit like :/ my rocks rnt blasted off? bt who knows wht the future holds… who KNOWS wht the future holds ladies n gentlemen

born in sheffield in england, bt they went back and forth between there n san fran a lot jude was an unhappy accident. his parents never rly used protection bc they were super Liberal n Au Naturel n believed in the pull out method bc… they were maniacs. bt then the ONE time they used a condom in an effort to b safety conscious it broke n hence…. jude was born

they just kind of ran w it bc they had such a passionate relationship tht they were like What The Hell…. may as well! itll be fine we’ll learn to be good parents n love him like normal ppl do

spoiler alert: tht didn’t work out

they were ok to him like they weren’t abusive or anything like that bt they just found him to be a massive burden n hindrance to their plans. they literally….. had sex all day every day n acted like a pair of teenagers. it ws a super weird environment for a kid to grow up in bc he literally had no role models or… guidance or…. anything rly. occasionally they’d joke around w him or pretend they even knew what grade he was going into but for the most part they just Didn’t Care one bit

they were both suuuuper into the arts. they’re both rly good sculptors bt they paint too n they actually own a successful gallery in san fran

as a result he grew up around a lot of creative n sometimes pretentious ppl. the friends of his parents were more present in his life than his ACTUAL parents bc they were always jetting off to diff countries to scout out new pieces fr their galleries n just have a gd time in beautiful places without…. the annoyance tht ws their son forcing them to b responsible n look after someone else. tbh some of his parents friends were rly damaging too bt….i won’t go into that just yet. it doesn’t rly…need properly explaining bc jude never talks abt it anyway n it….is rather triggering so i’ll jst….leav it for now tbh fgkhdfgh. basically they just were Not Nice n jude had a lot of bad memories he keeps repressed

bc of how he ws raised he has a p cultured taste. he luvs classic lit n p much anything artsy. he can play piano 2 n sometimes gets rly high n thinks he’s mozart level gd at composing. i mean he’s gd bt… Calm Down Jude. personality wise he acts out sometimes bc he’s so frustrated. he tried rly hard to be someone his parents wld care abt by doing wild or stupid things so he’d hav funny stories to tell them n tbh sometimes it works n he gets them to laugh w him but it isn’t a parent/son bond n it never rly wil b.

he’s rly sarcastic, sleeps around a bit, has an overflowing secret sketchbook n if he cares abt someone he’ll probably draw them n get rly defensive if they find out abt it fkjgdhfkj bcos he’s an Independent Boy without a sentimental bone in his body. or so he says. at heart he is jst a very Sad Boy w lots of repressed issues like depression genuinely just does NAT giv him a single break bt he plasters over this w wise cracks n never discusses his emotions ever. he’s actually p decent or at least tries to b. he’s kind of like tht bit in superbad where michael cera gets rly drunk n makes a toast to women. tries to b? a feminist bt sometimes fucks up n offends ppl n is like dam….. my bad fr :/

he has p bad insomnia so he like never sleeps fgjkhfgjkf he always has rly sleepy eyes n rubs them tiredly mid conversation. he smokes a lot of weed to try n compensate fr this n make him tired bt he still struggles a lot

ANYWAY that aside he’s at lockwood doing fine arts. he luvs painting n photography n philosophy n all tht. a pretentious fiend sometimes? maybe_so.gif. he isn’t rly pushy abt it tho n tends to like.... take nothing seriously bt at the same time acts like he is??? like he’s very deadpan in everything he does

ummMMMMmm honestly idk i’m blankin on what else to say. ull find him smoking weed reading an american classic or gnawing at his thumbnail n getting charcoal smudges on all his clothes. wandering the streets eating frm a cereal box without care in public. he’s p broody n scruffy n he’s mostly here fr a good time. o and he’s That Guy that would die fr morrissey (his vibe not personality bc i hc jude was depressed n shut himself inside all day when he actually found out what a dick he is dfjkfhg) and all that stone roses the smiths etc stuff music wise. HMU FR PLOTS!!!!!! i’m down fr anything

#radintro #depression tw #death tw #grief tw #neglect tw #trauma tw #jst implied bt never elaborated on #drugs tw #i think tht is all???

[shadowturtlesstuff]

again but better thoughts while reading

@polandbananas20

 so my spelling is terrible in this but you know i was more focused on the book than how to spell. 

Chapter 1) good intro and good starting tone. The lady next to her sucks. Good small establishment of shane.

chapter2)shane characterisation is still consistent. I like her two new roommates (will be best friends) . My guess is the boy in the kitchen will be pilot. Family means but not intentional. Has no confidence. I was right about the boy

Chapter 3) intro of pilot properly. He's good. I love the inner monologue of shane. Trying to keep eye contact, the surprise of having a normal conversation. It sets her character well. Intro to her blog which i would love to actually read (i hope there's at least one entry we can read) pilot is a musician but not. Business major. What crap. 

Chapter 4) i really feel like shane, she is just typical fangirl/ dork and i love it. Its weird being english and reading about the things that shock them like pasta in bags.i understand the watermelon.we do get to read ‘shanes writing’ but its her personal jornal not her blog.

Chapter 5) fun chapter. Intro to rome. Love the idea that shane is heavy handed and violent. Short, not alot happened other than small character establishment.

Chapter 6)intro to creative writing class which i want/need in my life.more beatles. Woman on plane works at starbucks, will she make more appearances? 

Chapter 7) the drama???or at least wht will be the drama. Pilot has a gf, called amy (wish it was me) (wait no, bc i know that plot doesnt actually like amy anymore bc he obviously likes shane. So i take it back. I want to be shane, i mean i basically am like her but oh well.)

Chapter 8) parents. Overprotective, think they know best. Urgh. guarantee one of shanes new friends fight back to her parents to support her life choices, that do not include doctor.

Chapter 9)gets an internship at travel mag company. Thats it…..

Chapter 10)rome. Looses purse. Pilot to the anxiety riddled rescue by telling his own life story about his wallet to help calm her nerves.distracts her. Basially he would do anything for shane already.re count of rome trip from her jornal again which is a good touch to further the plot. This is making me want to read dan brown (ish) all of two books i own of him

Chapter 11) the postcards are a nice touch that i hope someone reads???? Travel buddies..just saying.chad..hmmm,im like shane,well see if he is good enough for babe. Her GODDAM stupdi mean cousins being mean on her facebook, and babe seeing (best friend moment) about pilot and the whole teasing about having a boyfriend.

Chapter 12) he didnt see (but i think he did but istn sayin anything) paris i shappening. Babe is bff confirmed and i want her as my friend 

Chapter 13)angry birds addiction starts. Level three, weak, shoulder touching it romance confirmed.awwww pilot 100% waited to sleep so he could see shane safe in bed

Chapter 14) pilot with a french accent, enough  said. The flirtinggggg.  The plane woman  is back??in paris with them????

Chapter 15)pilots choices of the back in time thing are both wit shane. Its so obvious and i love it. Pilot as a fake fangirl about the eiffel tower. More flirting,kind of. Oh god chad no.he did it. Goddammit.nooo he wull run babe and shanes friendship and maybe her and pilot. ‘Assbucket’ indeed. Her an pilot are fine and i really believe her and babe will be because when she nearly gets robbed babe giver her a sympathetic smile. Not much to go on but i have hope.

Chapter 16)okay so, fav chapter, she finally spills her guts that she has anxiety basically, that she is premed with strict parents and this is scary whilst pilots lies in bed with her to relax her bc he heard her crying. He only ecoureges her slightly before going back to his bed and sleeping. My heart, i swear, soon the roles reverse and pilot will say why he is in london and all that.

Chapter 17)babe and shane bffs confired. Chad is the worst confirmed. Of course it wasnt  break up call. Of course she wants to vist. Of course pilot is to cowardly to break up and just accepts them going to paris together. Of freaking course.

Chapter 18) do not get over pilot, it wont work. Rugby guy nooooo!im team pilot how dare you kiss shane! Wow, city of glass mention. I want to make a list of every bookmentioned.

Chapter 19) pilot is not himself (obviouls) shane is worried. She is still lying to her parents an feeling bad about. Rugby guy is thankfully a no go. Pilot finds out about the kiss and guy and is clearly silently jealous. 

Chapter 20)aww shane! Im sorry pilot sucks currently. And a stupid guys trip with flat four. No. and devil chairs. 

Chapter 21)1)love the book talk.  The loneliness is kicking in, pilot man up for gods sake

Chapter 22)this red-head plain weirdo is back and going through her list like some sort of mentore. Omg!!! No. amy is here, i dont hatte her but can she not. Also, her dad…. No! (this is the stand up moment i was on about, i hope)

Chapter 23) i do not like her dad. At all. Nooo shane...no. they found out. And acted like assholes.

Chapter 24) n1!ahhhh no! Amy has her notebook. The end is nigh.im going to cry i feel like shane. 

Chapter 25) the family dinner-family outing. Niether of them manuped and shane is depressed

Chapter 26)back in america. Still hasn’t told pilot but you know it is a slow burn

Chapter 27) I, wait? Marry, some guy? Like no. I know it’s been what six years but no. I refuse.i don’t like this so called Melvin. It’s okay she doesn’t want to marry him. She goes to see pilot and finally mans up and tells him and asks if she made it and and pilot finally man’s up and tells her no she didn’t. They get stuck in an elevator

Chapter 28) the elevators doing something. Shane wants to re do London cuz she hates life

Chapter 1?) they are both back in London? Both having the same what ever is happening? 

  Chapter 2) omg. Plane lady took them back to staRt over and pilots mad about it (obv)

Chapter 3)so… they got mad but started over and I’m excited. 100%they won’t press the restart button. I’m calling it now. Cuz pilot knows he now has a chance to do the what if’s/

Chapter 4) they keep there distance but we all know it won’t last

Chapter 5) tipsy Shane? Shawarma

Chapter 6) babe thinksthere is something going on with them( again)

Chapter7)the story about fake pilot, and the kiss. Ahhhhhhg

Chapter 8)they found the button. Shane doesn’t want to go back. I do t want them to go back. They don’t go back thank god

Chapter 9) da Vinci code flirting somehow.. Shane tells him it won’t happen u less he breaks up with last Amy.

 Chapter 10) he will break up with Amy and laris is gonna happen. 

Chapter 11) so Shane is happy again, pilot broke up with amy. Shane tried to make peace with the devil chair.

Chapter 11) they are so adorable. Aswwwwewhwhehruysnwjw

 Chapter 12) Uwuwnfhueia we get more Shane and pilot flirting, 

Chapter 13) the opposite game is adorable. I like that they get to be themselves together without the awkwardness. The start of the move game. Thats my fav. 

Chapter 14) they still have the angry birds obssesion but unlike me and supercard they know when to stop.the dance ‘move’ ahh i love. The line ‘but you do.’ just shows how much they know each other and how pilot would do anything to make her smile. And the lost move (not really a move but totally a move.) once again proves their love. Also we had that plot moment where he talks about why h chose to go to london. I adore shanes rant (?) about the things she loves. And then pilot doing the same thing. Shane vs chair is my life, like i battle chairs too. 

Chapter 15) what is tfios? Ooohhh. Fault in our stars. (i googled it)i probably shouldve known by the whole always part. The dance move came back to bite pilot in the ass and now they are dancing together. Ew chad. Yes shane! That is what chad deserves. 

Chapter 16) they get intimate and gigly and happy and aaaawwwhww

Chapter 17) im glad shane still rememebers to be friends with babe and not forget her in her lovestick state currently.

Chapter 18) her postcard….the questions that haunt her so much. Sort of accepting them herself too. She finally got to do wrecking ball, they miss internship , oh no…. Start if a downall?? 

Chapter 19) shane and pilot have fallen HARD

Chapter 20) the article is off the table. Amy is there. What the hell. No. omg pilot no, you moron. THEY BROKE UP!!! Which is fair, a break is needed. They both get back on track and then try and find a balance. Hopefully. Oh her laptop….shit...the feels when all your work is just gone. Tries to reset bc she is so depressed bc she thinks she failed again. 

Chapter 21) she cant go back (thankfully) a bookstore is always a good haven to go to when your breaking down.

Chapter 22)the redemtion (?) time to try and fix everything and get back on track.the determination and the readiness to try and make everything better for herswelf, herself, and no one else is good. She makes friends with the people in her office and works harder than befire, try to get herself out of her comfort zone and experience things

Chapter 23) the confrontation with her parents. Oh god. I hope this goes well. Its going as well as it can go. Im happy shane is sticking up for her dream so she can be happy, uugh the whole dad speech of ‘i do everything for you, i know best because im older,’ i hate it. Ooohh she is making up with leo, talking ot him this time. Im happy. Leo is gay. Cool. i hate how he got broken up with becuase of his stupid family, it sucks. ‘There is no normal.’ perfect words. 

Chapter 24) her thing is in the thing!!!( also good job me with words.) her article got published (there we go)this is where she learns she can be with pilot and be successful because tracy is with a famous author and they make it work with harder schedules. Trys to talk to her parents. This time she will make there relationship work.

Chapter 25)urgh ‘you live under my roof,on my dime…’ blah blah blah. We hate controlling parents that dont see that overprotecting and controlling their childs life does more damage than good. Babe suggest self discovery trip. Babe is a grat friends. 

Chapter 26)the button thing will work…’im mad at pilot. Or am i mad at me.’ she cracked the code. She loathed herself because of her fear of failing, but because this time she worked on herself to make herself happy she no longer hates herself. Yet she still feels the same (ish) feeling that even though she worked harder and got further that she has no summer job when she gets back to the states, her parents still wont allow her choice of work.PILOTS BACK!!!!!!! She was about to press the button and he swooped in with his music.

Chapter 27) he still follows her blog and got help from babe. His speech, finished with lamppost. Where can i get a pilot?he uploaded their song. Working through the divorce thing again but it will be better because he has shane to talk to about it. Ahhh she got a job!!! Happy ending!!! My heart!!!eeeee…

epilogoue) she becomes a successful author. Her parents have accepted her and support her. Pilots a musician. He takes her to the weird plane lady and they gobe the locket back, then he makes the ultimate move. With pictures of where they fell in love he uses the beatles russain doll things to hide a ring and when she finds it she obviously says yes. And that its unfair cuz she cant top that move. 

sooo...thats it.

i really enjoyed this book. i cannot wait for her next book. this post is longwinded i apologize but oh well? again i will link my website and review as soon as its done. so far in about five hours all i have is a paragraph so it may not be as soon as i want it to be

#again but better #polandbananasbooks #frenchwatermelonnineteen #shane #pilot #shane and pilot

[quincywillows]

MAGGIE YOURE WRITING A BOOK????? WHY DIDNT I, YOU LOCAL YOUTH LIBRARIAN KNOW ABOUT THIS. Maggie give me all the details you feel comfortable sharing

if you’re able to or even want to share how far would you say you are into writing your novel like a few chapters or half the book or even more also are we allowed to hear like a quick blurb on what it’s about ?

well first let me say i’m so tickled that y’all are interested!!! seriously that makes my little writer heart very warm :’)

so actually if y’all have been around for a hot minute, you probably actually know a version of this story – it’s quincy willows, which long ago had its roots as one of my many trillion gmw aus. in fall 2018, i had written a couple of one shots for it and originally outlined it like a show (kind of like ambition or cotu), but the more i thought about it the more it felt like a novel / meant for prose. it also felt like… bigger than an au given that i was doing all this creative work and worldbuilding for it and the characters only had these menial attachments to their original source, so i scrapped it and took it all down and decided i wanted to try and do more with it.

flash forward to my graduation, where i knew i wanted to work on something that wasn’t screenplays considering i had just spent 4 years doing that and wanted to work with something fresh. i had been marinating the plot of qw, so in may i sat down and just… outlined the entire thing. story phase by story phase, beat by beat, and realized that i had the whole story right there in front of me. i had given it enough thought by that point that it was its own narrative and i knew like. okay. i’m ready to try actually writing this. so here we are, two months later! i’ll go into the actual plot under a cut because i know i’m gonna ramble excitedly LMAO

as for what it’s actually about… the narrative kind of takes on two main plots. the first is that our main protagonist, jonah lee anderson, arrives in the quaint new hampshire town of quincy willows because he was taken in by a foster family there after his abuela passed away. but even from the moment jonah is dropped off, something about the town seems… just a little bit strange. for example, his driver isn’t allowed to take him into town because it’s “private property,” even though they’re just surrounded by woods. only when jonah is left there alone with no service to reach his foster parents, he feels like… the forest is whispering. he’s always had an overactive imagination, but he doesn’t think he’s making this up. luckily his foster father moe arrives and helps get him into town, but he’s not going to forget that weird moment.

and the weird things just continue to stack up. for whatever reason, almost everyone in town seems to hate him or have this derision towards him despite not knowing a thing about him. people keep making weird comments towards him, like about his smell or how his mere presence is irritating or disruptive. the gang of white boys who all lowkey look the same take to bullying him because they can, because they’ve decided he’s different. and oh yeah, there was that time he was walking back from the cafe late at night and is 100% sure his snarky classmate turned into a demon and almost killed him. but everyone just tells him they don’t know what he could be talking about – and it isn’t until jonah stumbles upon what looks like some kind of demonic seance in the middle of the woods and thinks he spots their class president, cassie hatheway, participating, that he decides he’s got to figure all of this out.

of course, he’s not the only one interested in this mystery. another school outcast, xavier petrov, questions him when he starts digging his nose into things. and after a very strange confrontation with their student VP connor rose (and the “leader” of the white boy pack), xavier reveals that he orchestrated their fight to test one of his theories. and he thinks it worked – didn’t jonah see that moment where it looked like connor had fangs? after a chat at the cafe, jonah and xavier agree to an unlikely partnership to try and figure out what the hell is up with quincy willows that xav has been trying to figure out for… like, as long as he can remember.

further shenanigans aside, what we come to learn by the first half of the book is that the reason jonah sticks out like a sore thumb is because he’s not like everyone else in qw. because everyone in the town is a supernatural of some kind, and he is damningly and distractingly Normal, a “normie” whose internal clean pure energy is so imposing that it’s near irritating for the supernatural residents of quincy.

but that’s not the only reason they hold derision towards him. as the first part of the book unfolds, there are a lot of hints to how the forest that surrounds and protects their town (the one that seemed to be whispering, yeah) is starting to weirdly decay. and they all think it’s jonah’s fault, because this has happened in their history before. it’s a dark and twisted part of their town tale, and after xavier and jonah figure out that first mystery they get pulled into trying to track down what’s causing the forest decay to clear jonah’s name, save the nymph population and even greater, the town as a whole.

that’s like the very bare bones of the plot and doesn’t get into the subplots and all that, but there are some very key things i wanted to get into when writing this story. one is just that… fun slightly campy feeling of supernatural series we love (harry potter, twilight) but with a confused male protagonist. i wanted a boy protagonist to be the one who is the odd one out, who is clueless and lost, but also loves so deeply and selflessly and is searching for his own place to belong. additionally, while there is a few different romances in the story, the main relationship in the first book is the friendship ( / one-sided crush) between jonah and xavier. with the exception of like… trc, i can’t really think of a supernatural YA series where a healthy friendship between males is allowed to be the focal point. so that was important to me too.

but i really… i don’t even know how to explain how much i love working on this book. the characters are all so fun to write and exist so easily in this universe. basically all of the 8 core young adult protagonists are queer in some capacity, and ¾ of the main 4 are poc. xavier is canonically autistic. i think that YA has the amazing power to be inclusive in a way that a lot of “prestige” work isn’t, and i wanted to lean into that full throttle with this trilogy. i just… i love it. i love it! i’m really excited to share it with y’all as i go

i didn’t really talk about my process for writing it, but if you want to ask feel free because i feel like this is already so long FDJSKLJDLKGJDFL. but thank you again for asking, it means so so much to me

#project: quincy willows #i cannot express how deeply i love this project #novel talk #THANK YOU MADS <3 #madelinecoffee #ask and you shall receive #but long story short it's supernatural YA LOL

[fuckblizzardbearlover]

Now i dont normally toot my own horn but i did a pretty badass play right now.  Now i usually play at the second hardest difficulty AI. I find it means that we eventually get to win and playing well just determines how fast that happens. Even so thats the challenge. is working together through low communication, playing well , and working against the enemy, strategizing. AI arent as creative as humans and  you can take advantage of some of their glitching. However unlike most humans they have 1 ai, instant reflexes and perfect awareness. So in some ways AI can be harder to fight since they like to snowball , they can line up perfect shots. and while a human might not notice you immediately letting you get in a good snipe, AI are aware of you the instant they have vision to you.

I was playing Qhira, Heroes newest hero, a badass black woman warrior that is the games 2nd original hero. she’s an assassin that plays like a brawler. her main mechanic is that her attacks and abilities give a stacking bleed. and her W ability heals her for each hero X the number of bleeds they have. meaning that if she plays carefully she is pretty self sustaining, and if she can attack multiple heroes without taking to much damage she can get a LOT of healing

So here i am, only one to go after the objective, which is fine. Despite being a melee hero i was hoping to not have low health at the end so i was using my dots and trying to only take 1 plant to the face at a time

THIS is the moment apparently the whole enemy team decided to leave the front lines and make my life a living hell. Spoiler alert, what happens next meant my team was able to press to the core with no resistance. Which makes me happy

I got a little help from abathur who was doing a great job of giving me assistance the whole game. You can see on th emap the enemy team is closing in when i’ve almost killed the last plant monster to harvest peacefully

HOLY SHIT. 4 vs 1. I was saved by the fact during this whole fight at least 1 and sometimes 2 were trying to channel the plant. but normally i’d die in a few seconds.

See while AI have perfect coordination and perfect timing, if you have the right hero and know how ai works you can use it to your advantage. Them clumping up meant my AOE with the bleed component was able to hit 2 or 3 of them at a time. And i took advantage of Qhira’s E while allows you to spin around the enemy , untouchable. its mostly meant to reposition you and the enemy but since she’s invulnerable its a great escape that lets you damage the enemy(and interrupting their channel) while taking 0 dmg. And since i thought (incorrectly) that my allies were on the way i was just trying to stall.

Luckily this game i took the lvl 1 talent and higher lvl talent that boosts her auto attack. I saw an opening and tried to kill the weakest members of the team. i didnt care if i killed them i just thought doing so would get them to retreat. Genji has already retreated and malfurion is on my list

I’ve gotten rid of malfurion and genji. with 1 of them still trying to channel its 1v1, i got this...then Sonya arrives ready to fight.

but i focused my attacks on those damaged, using Qhira’s mobility and her talent that increases her attack and speed when hitting an enemy below 50%. And Abathur helped a bit to. i think might have saved my life by giving me health and shielding long enough for my heal to come back

Oh shit, stitches used his ult to CC me and try to take me away from the plant. luckily it doesnt last long and my med range and mobility helped me get back in time. Unbenownst to me my allies are attacking the core

As you can see on the kill feed i’ve succeeded in killing stitches (a very hard thing to do with his armor, health and healing) and Varian our resident assassin/bruiser

And as you can see this is the moment i was finally able to breath. “jesus christ” i dont think anyone but abathur noticed what i did.

I made sure i showed my appreciation. MVP with the tanks and healers on the enemy team it was difficult to get kills and avoid death but i kicked ass and was able to hold off the enemy ai team by myself guaranting an early win

Qhira is def one of the funnest characters in the game

#heroes of the storm #replies #qhira #blizzard