#i'm too neurodivergent for this shit

[hussyknee]

Your "non-confrontational" choices not to communicate hurt the people you don't confront btw. You're not a martyr for keeping everything inside and then running away when other people don't know what's going on with you. You just decided avoiding rejection and sparing your own feelings was easier than being honest and giving them the agency to respond and make their own decisions. You chose to hurt them so they didn't hurt you. You think your feelings are realer and more important than their own care and love for you. You were always just waiting for a sign to run.

"If they cared about me they would have–" did you tell them that? Did you let them know how you feel? How much importance you place on those requirements they don't know they have to meet? This secret criteria and secret signs for your secret feelings? Or are you making them play a game they don't know even exists?

Your choice not to communicate isn't cute. You didn't run because they didn't feel the same for you. You ran so you wouldn't have to risk rejection. You chose to prioritise your own self-protection over their trust in and love for you. At least own that.

#vent post #i'm having enough of non-confrontational people in my life atm #im tired of paying the price for their emotional cowardice #i'm too neurodivergent for this shit #either spell it out or fuck off #nice to know how much all my love and care and loyalty is worth #personal #knee of huss #relationships #toxic relationship

[campredmoonofficial]

For Sydney

What do you think of EVERYONE at the camp? (And I mean everyone.)

Oh god- everyone?

hmm.

Adam (C.) - Love you <33

Rose - platonically love you <33

the campers - Eh. Depends on the day.

Sam - Love them but they need to go.

Simon- Same as sam.

Adam (S.) -die.

Pappion (is that her name?)- Pretty cool! Only talked once and it was about Adam though.

Kyro- I've never seen him do his job. nice to know we have a guidance counselor though.

#sydney cicirega #camp red moon #oh god that's too many people #i'm too neurodivergent for this shit #The best camp director ever #go follow my main

[cassowariess]

Literally blocked someone because I'm tired of feeling like I've done something wrong for engaging with a post in a polite and genuine manner and then having my comments deleted. If you hate my presence so much you should block me. It's okay I've done it for you.

#grumpy tbh #glad I have dog life drawing later #for reference I was not arguing with this person at all #I was agreeing with them #but whatever man #also this has happened with more than one post #i'm too neurodivergent for this shit

[gay-otlc]

yeah it is a thing. it is weird to me too, but from what other people told me, sometimes people just want to vent out their emotions and get advice later. or maybe they already know what to do, but still need to get the emotions out.

before offering advice, i just ask if the person wants any tbh

I'll start doing that, then.

#interacting with people experiencing emotions is too confusing #i'm too neurodivergent for this shit

[toriistorii]

Masking my detested

#i'm too neurodivergent for this shit #this shit being work and responding to things like everyone else

[hotmonkeelove]

Tourette's Syndrome Doesn't Equal Coprolalia

I was diagnosed with Tourette's at age 8, in 1987. While I've experienced other vocal tics, not once in my life have I cussed uncontrollably. In fact, the majority of people with Tourette's don't suffer from coprolalia. But go ahead, keep making your stupid, cheap jokes that were frankly tired back then. I just thought things would've changed by now.

#tourettes #neurodivergent #coprolalia #tics and tourettes #tics #i'm too old for this shit

[dollypopup]

I think it's real obvious that if you actually like Colin you don't belong in the Polin fandom. y'all are all so ableist about him and think the absolute worst of him and a huge number of the posts and fics are romanticizing Penelope straight up abusing him

we should make a new tag because this one is NOT it

#polin #bridgerton #penelope featherington #colin bridgerton #there's a fun new trend in fics where instead of 'just' emotionally and mentally abusing him Penelope is now hitting him too #and the narrative justifies it and colin thinks it's his fault she hits him and everyone cheers in the comments isn't that great? #oh did i say great? i meant fucking awful #you can tell this fandom is painfully tradwife levels straight because they think women who do this shit is cute or harmless #us queer women who have been abused by other women know damn well fanon penelope is the kind of girl you run away from with a swiftness #but colin's just a big stupid dummy for 1 (one) comment and not assuming her feelings for him so he needs to be slapped around i guess #i hate it here #burn the whole fandom to the ground and start from scratch #and we're SURPRISED there's an anti-polin blog? WE'RE anti-polin ffs #everyone and their mother knows 'Polin' actively hates half their ship #and are incredibly hostile to anyone who doesn't slobber all over penelope's shoes as she mistreats her supposed love interest and friends #and yeah i'm bitter about it #also i'll say it: the way we talk about Luke Newton is fucking unacceptable too #he's a neurodivergent man and some of the shit y'all say is DISGUSTING #this fandom is actively antagonistic to nd peeps

[mayathescientist]

I don't trust people who are obsessed with cleanliness and personal hygiene and rely on their feelings of disgust to make a moral judgement or form an opinion about a person.

I don't trust people who make conclusions about people very easily and like to claim people with one or two words they use to define this person's place in their eyes.

I don't trust people who are popular, sociable and talk about others a lot. I don't trust people who measure everyone by how that person compares to them.

for no particular reason at all :)

#maya posts #talking to mia #vent post #Almost #I hate my roommates and the way they talk about other people behind their backs and how they treat me with discreet contempt when I'm here #and how they no doubt already talked so much shit about me when I wasn't there considering discussing other people is this favorite pastime #they're also friends with our class leader which no doubt shaped her opinion about me loooool #can't wait to turn into an exile in my uni class too hell yeah #they know nothing about my personality my interests etc and frankly they don't fucking care #as long as they see that I'm fat obviously neurodivergent in my patterns of communication and have poor hygiene and have to build self care #habits from the ground up after years of untreated mental health issues #as long as they see I don't go out as much as them don't have many friends or a boyfriend and don't rly have what's considered achievements #their judgement on me is sealed #and it would be fine if they just thought i was a loser because well socially I am and they think so too #they literally pretend I don't exist. like it's just the two of them living in the room. #all of the decisions are made without me. they cook for themselves I cook for myself. my attempts to even ask if I can move something while #cleaning are IGNORED. #all of my attempts to mend our relationship by giving them awkward gifts or clean the room every other day since I know how obsessed with #cleanliness they are #all of my attempts to make peace were IGNORED. #whenever someone knocks on our door it's always one of their friends looking for them #I'm a nobody #absolutely a nobody #I literally just don't exist. #also these girls are extremely lesbophobic and just bigoted in general I don't think they know anything about my queerness but they might be #just kinda able to tell #I literally wear boxers and flannel shirts and I own a shirt with a male cut and I have extremely short hair and wear exclusively trousers #I don't think they haven't noticed #considering the fact they cared enough to notice how often I was my hands

[fanvoidkeith]

"high empathy autism" this, "low empathy autism" that. you don't even know how fast my empathy can switch on a dime

(*update to this post before i even post it: the day i wrote this, i forgot to take my anxiety meds. oops. this still applies, though)

#void keith talks #autism stuff #it's like. i care so so so much. and then i don't like an hour later. and then i'm back to caring so so so much and th #i think my empathy runs on a spin cycle #or like. one of those wheel pickers like on wheel of fortune #i get so much secondhand embarrassment from everywhere in my life but sometimes i just couldn't give less of a fuck about shit that happens #i'm getting emotional whiplash. every day #and ofc it depends on how i feel. and how i feel rn is that i don't really care about anyone's problems #unless it's 1) a friend or 2) a fictional character. or 3) an animal #empathy is hard sometimes honestly. kindness too. and sympathy. and compassion #mental health stuff #neurodivergent stuff #huh. maybe my anxiety meds do more than i thought. even though it's a pretty low dose #anxiety stuff

[jasontoddssuper]

@ Pjo stans who think Annabeth is autistic but that Percy isn't:Just say you believe in the stereotype that 'nerdy jerk means autistic' and don't understand that we're a spectrum and go

@genderconfusedhellenic

#fr fr shit like that is why it took me so long realize i'm autistic cause i've always been a percy and never an annabeth #which is i firmly believe that percy is second only to nico on the 'most accidentally autistic-coded riordanverse characters' list #also this is just me being mean but annabeth screams allistic neurodivergent person who's annoying about it💀 #she tells percy to not reclaim the r slur even though she's never been called it and when he never uses it around her #and makes fun of his special interests because 'they're not intellectually stimulating' #percy jackson #perseo jackson #persephone jackson #annabecky chapstick #anti percabeth #sanju dont look #autistic percy jackson #black percy #latino percy #transfem bigender/genderfluid and bidemi as well #final note:luke stans and percy/gods shippers don't get any ideas your faves suck too #pjo #hoo #toa #rr crit #autistic girl summer #ableism #letters from summer

[viksalos]

ever since we figured out my husband, his sister, and his cousins are all autistic, the possibility that i married into an entirely autistic catholic family where all of the older adults are undiagnosed is kind of objectively hilarious tbh. everyone's autistic drives compel them to need a bunch of alone time but everyone's catholic cultural mores compel them to put family first and repress the hell out of themselves. no wonder they're all passive-aggressive as hell to each other all the time and got mad at me when i didn't pick up on how to do "family" that way. i literally did get catholic religious trauma-by-proxy lmfao

#text #ik i haven't been on here a lot lately but my husband's grandpa passed away on new year's day #and that seems to have like... clicked something in both my husband's and my MIL's brains somehow? #(not that i'm saying it's a good thing he passed away. everybody liked him including me; he seems like he was a remarkable person) #like my husband was like ''oh shit vik actually is right about this neurodivergence stuff'' both in himself and in his family #and my MIL actually seems like she might have taken it to heart when i called her out for acting like a grown adult bully lmao? #like she hasn't apologized yet or anything. but now that my husband understands his own neurodivergence; #HE might be able to explain to his mom how she likely has RSD and i wasn't actually rejecting her #i personally struggle to explain this to her without freaking out that i'm not masking enough for her and/or getting angry :) #but ANYWAYS she did not yell at me at the funeral which is a minor victory for now lol #and the funeral was literally the day after my thesis proposal so i am exhausted af #(the thesis proposal went well too btw. i passed & will defend my thesis for real in a couple months; so i'll FINALLY be doctor vik!!) #so that's all the updates for now o7

[moinsbienquekaworu]

I don't know how I do that but I'm friends with so many trans people

#and for what!!!! #because buddy if i were trans let me tell you i would know by now #i've had years multiple trans friends of all flavours and 24/7 access to tumblr #i'd know #but here i am cis+ with just. an astonishing amount of trans friends for a cis girl #i don't know i guess it's cause i'm queer and weird?? #i'm not kidding btw there's like. what. 12 people on my list of friends right now? #okay wait let's push it to 15 just to account for the people i must have forgotten #i have about 15 friends #and like half of that have something up with their gender #it's official. i'm a magnet for people who had a shit school experience and also trans people i guess #and the neurodivergent/disabled crowd also. but i'm neurodivergent and i had a shit experience in school so. #it's both a very nice environment (cool queer people) but sometimes it's a bit hard to talk about gender #because i have trans friends who take me saying i want to wear waistcoats as me being trans. which. nope #like i am so not a guy. i wouldn't panic too much if i suddenly woke up with a typically male body sure #but like. i'm not a guy. i don't know what's going on here 100% but it's not that i'm a guy #i just want to wear waistcoats i'd love shapeshifting powers and one day i'll try binding #this is me being a curious fucker with a sense of style #if someone else implies there is an egg in me i should crack i'm going to snap #sorry apart from that it's fun having trans friends. cool people #i say that now cause we're 5 housemates total and like 2 of those are trans people #and a third has something going on somewhere near his gender i think. i think? probably. #and they're friends with more people who are doing a gender #so many trans people in my social circle.... #that and my two high school closest friends are also having fun with it #i'm the only one. i'm the only cis person of some of my friend groups! #wow i have a ramble tag now

[elkkiel]

crazy how autism/audhd isn't an excuse when it comes to dream or (potentially) George, but it's totally chill to use it to excuse your own actions

#explanation not excuses #as people who struggle socially we have a responsibility to take ownership of what we do and say to others regardless of intent #if i hit my brother for breathing too loud and triggering my misophonia i'm still in the wrong!! its hard to control but that's still on me! #holy shit take some accountability and stop minimizing the autonomy a lot of us audhders have. #its so infantilizing ugh if you're able to understand right vs wrong as a neurodivergent fucking own up!!

[xikoatl]

Just a reminder that having ADHD does not mean you're not allistic and that saying stuff like "that's so cringe" or "I'm neurodivergent but not that neurodivergent" when seeing autistics stim is ableist as fuck and you should rethink your life choices because you're just as bad as the people that wants us (ALL NDs) gone :)

#NOT TARGETED TO ANYONE HERE #i saw those types of comments on a stimboard on tiktok #and i got sooooo pissed because we're just existing within our own communities and they come over and say that shit #and like they go “ow but I have adhd I'm neurodivergent too” shut the fuck up brenda I will punch your teeth out one by one #xiko rambles #tw: ableism #i am so mad. sorry

[cistematicchaos]

Y’know, I thought this’d stay in my drafts but no: 

Full offense meant, the way some of you on here are so fucking desperate that no one sees you as mentally disabled is gross as hell. I’m not even kidding. The desperation to slide the “scary disabled neurodivergents” under the rug so that you personally can look like a quirky badass bitch or whatever the fuck is disgusting. 

Like, I know plenty of you are dealing with internalized ableism and external ableism and all kinds of shit. I know people are awful about people being disabled and I understand why you might be scared to be seen as disabled or admit to yourself you’re disabled or whatever the hell but you can deal with that and talk about your neurodivergence without throwing the rest of us under the bus! 

Like bitch, just ride on the fucking bus and shut up! No one needs to be sacrificed, just leave us alone, jesus fuck. 

#like keep our disorders and shit out of your mouth! #and YES that goes for referencing our symptoms too! #'at least I don't get DELUSIONS' well some of us do timothy #so sit the hell down! and keep your mouth shut #before i have to do it for you #ableism #neurodivergent #actually neurodivergent #actually disabled #disability #chaos is speaking #sorry for ranting #or well #no i'm not? it's my blog #but whatever some ppl just piss me off sometimes

[asteralien]

would it be petty if i didn't read a book i was really looking forward to because the author lists "catholicism/christianity" as a trigger warning amongst other warnings such as "murder," "gore," and "ableism"

#I GET IT I GET IT I GET IT but also. come the fuck on #not like 'christian bigotry' or 'religious trauma'? #just the whole faith? come the fuck ON #look i'm a queer neurodivergent person i GET it but like. sigh. #the worst bit is that at least one mc is autistic and it's a UF romance and it could have gone for a reading challenge !!! #but i just don't feel like fighting with the inevitable crisis that this treatment of faith will cause rn #mythtakes #silver lining: i didn't realize it was set in my least favorite century (1800s) in my least favorite city to read about (nyc) #so like. silver bullet dodged maybe??? #i'm going to start treating nyc-as-setting the way some readers treat straight or white authors like. i'm rationing this shit #and there is no time period with less sexy men's styles/fashions than the late 1800s soooooooooo. bye #'i could have done with your full-throated dismissal of my faith but your appreciation for muttonchops is a line too far'