#i'm way overthinking this lol this is how i have fun. complaining

[to-the-batcomputer]

i don't understand why they created one of the most compassionate yet still complex bruce waynes with the animated series and then turned him into an old bitch (/negative) in batman beyond

#'INGRATES' BRUCE WAYNE? YHE PEOPLE OF GOTHAM? THEYRE NOT THANKING YOU ENOUGH? BRUCE WAYNE? #i know it's not a big deal it just irritates me #lots of it annoys me but that particular line just sounded weird to even hear in kevin conroy's voice. INGRATES???? #they absolutely could've done this plot without making him all bitter and everyone having left him #the scene that starts with him eating dinner at his huge dining table all alone. what the fuck #i just wanna know what they had in mind when they did this. how and why would btas bruce turn into this #he's jaded well ok. could we have Not written him that way. who wants to see this future for him #i'm way overthinking this lol this is how i have fun. complaining

[chim-chim1310]

" Or it is us who's overthinking?"

With all due respect, yes clearly you are. You’re hyperfocused on something that you only know on a surface level and you’re hurt because you’re projecting big time. Being a fan is way easier when you don’t turn everything into a dick measuring contest. Jimin can handle his career all by himself, he doesn’t need us to act like vigilantes for his own sake when we actually have 0 idea what’s going on behind the scenes for real. What if Jimin wanted to follow the traditional kpop promo road? What if it was his own decision for Face? What will happen if he chose a different path for pjm2? What are you going to say? I’ve seen solos for literally every single member complain about sabotage, every single one, with receipts about so called unfair treatment, favoritism yada yada, even JK’s solos, how do you all explain that? Trust your bias and stop the constant comparison, you’ll feel better (and I say this as someone who almost went solo, my bias being Jimin as well).

I think you're right. We're hyper focused on all this. Being a jimin stan we're just feeling extremely protective over jimin.

But I know jimin is an adult. I've never seen jimin as a pushover. I know he's silent but deadly. He won't let all these things happen to him. And I think he might be cooking something.

You know what I want? I diss track from jimin dissing the hell out of hybe, scooter, and everyone who wronged him. But I doubt he'll release that lol. It's just a wishful thinking.

But you're right. We don't know what's happening behind the doors. One thing I'm sure of is if jimin had any problem with jk he would not tolerate him at all. But they seemed to be having fun in NY.

However I still strongly believe that jungkook has changed a lot. Like a lot. And in a negative way. The fame is getting to him. I can see it. I will acknowledge it and call him out on it. And I think soon the others will see it too.

I don't know why but as a viewer I'm getting a bad vibe from jk. So I'm not obliged to like him. And this is my blog so I can let my opinion out here. I don't give a shit if people think that I'm a hater. Idc. If I don't like something I will talk about it.

In fact everyone here is allowed to share their opinion.

I may not agree with some but you guys can share your opinion freely.

[eternalwritess]

Hello! I was wondering if I could get matched up with a Hazbin Hotel character (romantically) please if that's not too much to ask 🥺👉👈

• My pronouns are she/her and I am female

• I have a male preference (but if you match me up with a woman I won't complain vibes are vibes yk)

• I'd say I can be sort of shy with groups of people, but once l'm in a one-on-one conversation with someone I am fun and energetic. I always try to make people laugh, and I always have a lot going on in my mind, so l tend to talk a lot. I also get very anxious, so I tend to overthink things a lot and l often ask for reassurance that I'm not being annoying and stuff. I am also protective of the people I care about. Overall I just love to have a fun time and make people happy

• I. LOVE. MUSIC!! As in I am constantly singing all the time. There's a song stuck in my head? I am belting it out loud when I'm by myself. In public I will just hum it though. I also play the violin

• I am also a HUGE anime nerd, it's like the only thing I watch. I am a purple belt in judo (a martial art, like Ju Jitsu). I love reading as well, I have so many books it's basically a collection at this point.

• My favorite aesthetic is spacecore. I wouldn't say I really have an aesthetic but let's just say I look like I shop at Hot Topic (because I do lol)

• I am a Virgo

• I love puns hehe

I hope this is ok! Thank you so much!! 🩷🩵🩷🩵

𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕓𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕞𝕒𝕥𝕔𝕙𝕖𝕕 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙…

𝓐𝓷𝓰𝓮𝓵 𝓓𝓾𝓼𝓽!

When he first met you he was unsure if he liked you or not or if you would even ever meet again

It was mostly because you were in a group of people though and once he started talking to you like really talking to you, he found out that you were actually quite cool

He loved how energetic you were when talking to him and that it didn't feel like he was meeting a wall

It then occurred to him that he didn't really know your name as you never told him

"Oh uh, hey. I almost forgot... whats ya name?"

You both love having fun. I'd imagine that whenever you get together to hang out its always somewhat fast paced

Yet he also loves when you both have quieter moments and it was actually in one of those when he realized that he may have a (totally small yep totally) crush on you

"So uh hey- whatcha doin' later?"

He was trying to be smooth while asking you out... it didn't work. He kept doing a shifty eye thing out of nervousness

He doesn't find you annoying at all in fact he finds it surprising when you even think that you're annoying him

"Honey... you're talking to the walkin pimp... of course I don't think that you're annoying!"

In all seriousness though he finds it weird that you think that you're annoying. If anything he should be asking you if you're annoyed with him

I'd imagine that you'd have quite a few interactions with Val and he would definitely try to separate you two. Mostly because he doesn't want you beating up his boss out of spite and then probably getting harmed later

He tries to keep his work life separate from the one he has with you and will do anything to make sure that it stays that way

After a long day of work you typically help take care of him and make sure that he's okay. You actually try to stop him from going to work but he denies it

"Don't worry about it sugar... I've been doin this bullshit for a while now... its nothing special"

He tries his best to make sure that you're not overly worried about him or anything

Moving onto more light hearted topics he loves singing with you. He doesn't care what song it is or if he even likes it or not. A chance to sing is a chance to sing

He'll also dance while singing and sometimes will try and get you to join and loosen up with him. You both actually do this when either of you are having a hard day

Going with the topic of loosening up he tries to push you a bit out of your comfort zone from time to time (this is how you meet the hotel staff aka charlie, vaggie, alastor, husk, etc.)

He was actually quite surprised that you got along with them so well, surprised, but happy :)

"I'm glad you didn't find those freaks too annoying," ;)

You BET he watches anime with you. He also shouts either smash or pass whenever a new character comes up on screen... yeah have fun with that-

He doesn't read much but he likes watching you read. I don't know if you're very expressive when you read but if you are he giggles every time he sees you make a new face or fangirl over a character

He was surprised to find out that you did a martial art. That being said he trains with you as I'm sure that he also has some moves... that being said he will flirt with you if you pin him down-

"Oh, well y'know if you wanted me like this you could've just asked,"

Yeah he thinks he's being slick

I don't know your stance on more... sexual jokes but if you don't like he will try and stop them. But they will slip out from time to time

Once he found out that you played the violin he was FLOORED (like with Judo-). He instantly brought you new pieces and would ask for you to play them and then would try and play the violin himself

He stopped after the third try deeming it 'impossible' and saying that only you could possibly play such an instrument.

Also he makes puns with you all of the time :)

#match up #hazbin hotel matchup #hazbin hotel matchups #matchups #hazbin hotel match up #matchup #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel match ups #hazbin

[taihjj]

Wanna Date? Nah.

Megumi, Maki & GoJo| F!Reader | Tingle of angst

Summary: How they would reject your confession and their thoughts about it.

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Fushiguro Megumi

Hell no.

He might be blushing a lot and acting all weird but he has no intentions of having a date with you. No. Not ever.

Of course. He would have thought first of it as some sort of funny bullshit the gang pulled up on him. In any case, he took your seriously.

He is way too stubborn and "goal oriented" to be dating, let alone his classmate and partner in mission. But to be honest with you, baby boy just couldn't believe somebody loves him.

In his defence, "he doesn't want to mix his feelings and priorities"

"Thanks but I ... I don't think I'm ready for that-Sorry"

Lightly declines. But you can feel his observing gaze If he offended you in anyway. This man actually cares a lot for other people despite looking like a 24/7 sad salty boy.

You sort of knew this would happen so it didn't hurt that much. A light sigh escapes your lips before waving Megumi and laughing it off. The Fushiguro couldn't shake the feeling of having you hurt but he didn't say anything more to lessen the awkwardness and your stingy feels.

That night, he couldn't sleep a wink, he's very guilty but tries to brush it off. Maybe he should've thought about it? I mean you're really kind why wouldn't anybody date you? Is he being an asshole? Megumi is quite bothered. His sleep that day was full of overthinking and mixed feelings.

Zen'in Maki

Has thought about it at some point if she had a crush on you lol. She does like you in certain ways.

"I...uhh... I'll think about it"

And boy, when she went back to the dorms she called Nobara even if she knew she'll get grilled for some more details. Nobara was living and was shipping till the next world fell out if Makis lips.

"I don't have time for this..I just don't want to offend anyone and leave our friendship"

"What do I say to that idiot?"

Sighs

The short haired girl pinched her nose. God, what has she been telling you was all a lie? Did Noabar Kugisakis calculation were wrong? So did she give you false hope now?

The next day you were greeted by a nervous Kugisaki, avoiding your gaze while Maki nudges her to go out. The tall Zen'in blushes a bit and nervously puts a hand on your shoulder.

"I'm sorry. I don't feel the same"

Oh world has shattered. I thought Nobara told you Maki has a thing for you. Was it a lie?

You can feel Makis kind consideration, so you smiled and excused yourself like normal. Though, you couldn't help shake the feeling of betrayal, lost hope and effort. Maki can feel your gloom, especially after Nobara's confession for her mistake.

The classroom of the second year that day was full of sighs and blues.

Gojo Satoru

Ohh yeah

He does not take everything seriously. He tries to make fun of your for it but does he really feel something?

Well maybe his dick did but his heart didn't.

He saw it coming though. It was weird the first time Ichiji was nervous and always blushing. The two of you must've talked about your adoration for Gojo.

His eyes were blank, observing you through your strong curse energy.

When did your feeling even develop? He, truthfully, thought it was Nanami but his ego just told him it's him you like.

What a pain.

Laughs off lightly, taking his bigger hand to the top of your head, "not today, champ".

Gojo's smile is warm and comforting, but his words of rejection was full of barriers.

You can feel walls building in front of you by just those three words. However, you couldn't complain or anything. This was the nicest world he could say, though it stings.The sweet nickname accompanied with sour letters didn't just sit right.

Despite of his goofy self, he's still too focused on his goals of changing the jujutsu world. You're one of his players, he can't have you on his arms when he will be the one to maybe, someday, push you to war and death for peace.

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[elysianslove]

hi sal! i recently found your account and i'm so in love with your work! i seriously went through all of provided content in one day lol.

(not sure if this was requested but) i was wondering if it would be possible for you to write reactions of jujutsu kaisen characters to their s/o (or someone dear/close to them) having a hard time eating (not necessarily a full-blown ed but some disordered eating habits)?

if you are not comfortable with it/don't write this sort of stuff or simply don't want to, it's completely fine! but if you decide to do it, then i'm leaving to you to decide which characters you would like to do.

thank you in advance! 💛

hi baby!! thank you so much i’m so glad you enjoy my work 🥺and don’t worry, i don’t mind writing topics like these. i struggle a lot with food, not for any particular reason, i just have terrible habits, so this was nice to see in my inbox. i only did three characters, but if you’d like more, let me know! 

i do wanna put a Trigger Warning, though, that even though this isn’t a full blown eating disorder, it still can trigger some. they’re small headcanons, but please be careful if you choose to read this! i’ll put it beneath the cut just in case! <3

fushiguro megumi; megumi is crazy perceptive, it’s honestly a little scary. he would pick up on your habits and the little patterns pretty early on, but i think he’d be a little too worried to approach you about it, most likely because he doesn’t want it to seem like he’s overthinking or reaching. he starts to hyper focus, watching what happens when you go out to eat, when he asks you if you’ve eaten all day, when he asks you if you’re hungry. when he does notice that something really is off, he starts to feel a little guilty, for not recognizing it sooner, for not being able to take care of his significant other. is very kind about it, and very subtle too. asks you to share a meal with him, so you don’t feel overwhelmed with the amount of food, gives you small snacks like fruits, maybe some biscuits or pretzels, and makes sure you balance it out with water. he won’t ever approach you about it directly unless it starts becoming a little too dangerous of a habit for his liking, but until then, he encourages and motivates you in his own way. but he remains hyperaware of you from then on, and builds the habit of constantly checking in you in regards to eating. i think megumi would also be the type to turn to research, and the research might really scare him into one day freaking out over you and just yelling at you begging you to eat. he just wants you to always be healthy, and he tries to make sure of it in every way. 

itadori yuuji; not as perceptive as megumi, but definitely picks up on it really quickly. different from the boy above, he does approach you about it, over time, in intervals. every time you decline to eat, every time you tell him you’ve forgotten to eat all day, every time you skip meals, every time you binge at night, he asks you about it. at first, he doesn’t think much of it. it’s normal to occasionally have your appetite fluctuate, and it happens for different reasons for different people. but when he finds it a repetitive habit, he starts to get really concerned, and he’s unafraid to show it too. he asks you, “what do you mean you haven’t eaten yet? it’s 9 pm,” with the saddest, most confused face ever. he doesn’t understand it much, but that doesn’t lessen of his worry at all, in any way. to help, he makes you a lot of home cooked meals, in hopes that it’s slightly more appealing. he calls you when you first wake up and asks you to go to breakfast with him, encouraging you to order anything small. he comes over in the middle of the day with some bento. he asks to share tea and a small snack before you go to bed. he definitely considers just forcing you to eat so much, as if it could possibly make up for the past missed meals, but he realizes just how much this could backfire. he’s really gentle with it, with you. he becomes your personal alarm if you have a habit of losing track of time and not eating for hours, and if you call him complaining about how hungry you are despite the fact that it’s nearly 4 in the morning, he tells you the recipe of a light meal on the phone, something that wouldn’t upset your stomach, leave you too full for breakfast the next morning. like i said, very kind about it. 

gojō satoru; he’d immediately notice and pick up on your habits. and he scolds you for it, jokingly, trying to hint at it lightly, but i actually think he’d be as subtle as megumi, if not even more, when it comes to helping you. he takes you out to eat often, even if you’re just strolling around food stands, and if you decline his offer to let him buy you something, he’ll simply shrug and say, “okay, have fun watching me eat then,” but then he goes ahead and buys so much for himself, and makes you try a little bit of everything that it’s almost as if he’s tricking you into eating a full portion by yourself. it’s not against your will or anything, he just makes it very appealing for you. he’s honestly very understanding about it as a whole, and is very open minded. he will approach you eventually though, sit you down and tell you he needs you to talk to him, and if it’s so bad that you don’t even realize your habits, he’ll make them clear for you, and tell you he wants to make it better for you, wants you to take better care of yourself. but like i said, he’s very understanding, so if you really don’t have much of an appetite, he won’t make you eat, but he’ll buy a drink, like some juice, a milkshake, anything that energizes you and gives you some sort of nutrients. if you’re working, he’s there by your side feeding you tiny pieces of fruit. he just does his best to make it that you’re healthy without making you too uncomfortable. 

#jujutsu kaisen x reader #jujutsu kaisen headcanon #itadori x reader #itadori yuuji x reader #fushiguro megumi x reader #megumi x reader #gojo satoru x reader #gojo x reader #tw bad eating habits #tw eating disorder

[battlinghurricanes]

DEIPHOBUS TIME!

I'm honestly not entirely sure how I got such a deeply involved concept for his character and motivations, but I definitely did. I just feel like he fits into an especially interesting place in everything and that there's a lot of great potential with him.

Shout out to @petalveinedwarrior for enabling me and also I'm very sorry for being incredibly long winded. My bad.

Also DISCLAIMER! I am NOT an expert on the Trojan War and all its surrounding mythology lol. This is just for fun, based on my own fairly limited knowledge of the myths (though I think I pretty much cover everything that’s relevant to this). These are just my headcanons woven with some details from various myths. Sorry if anything’s missing or inaccurate!

SO!

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First and foremost, I headcanon Deiphobus as the oldest of Priam and Hecuba’s children after Hektor.

Hektor calls Deiphobus the dearest of his brothers, and to me, this is why. They are the closest in age and they were the closest growing up, best friends when they were young. They also get the closest to being on equal footing which means a lot to Hektor, who often feels distance between him and his other siblings because of being heir to Troy.

Despite the relatively equal ground and Deiphobus treating Hektor with a very casual familiarity, deep down, he idolizes him. Deiphobus adores and admires Hektor, ever a younger brother in how he looks up to his strength and intelligence and reliability but close enough in age to not feel the same envy as so many of their younger siblings.

Deiphobus is aware that he is next in line to inherit the throne of Troy after Hektor, and the possibility of that is more real to him than to the rest. He doesn’t envy or want the responsibilities Hektor has to bear being the first son and admires him for it rather than resenting him. He never wants the weight of Troy on his shoulders.

Additionally, as close as they are, Hektor confides more openly in Deiphobus than the rest of their siblings. Consequently, he has a more realistic idea of both the burden he bears and also the ways he struggles to manage it like any human would.

Deiphobus holds Hektor in the highest regard- he means the world to him. It is a strange and unique combination of relating to and understanding Hektor exactly as he is and then loving him so dearly for how remarkably he seems to do in all of it, all that Deiphobus adores and strives to be like.

Hektor calls Deiphobus the dearest of his brothers, but Deiphobus would never need to say the same of Hektor, that much has always been obvious.

Deiphobus himself is ferociously loyal, boastful and fiery proud, wild and energetic, and always quick to smile and laugh with a sharp sense of humor. He’ll defend his own with tooth and nail, Hektor first and foremost, and they make a well balanced pair. Hektor’s level headed sense of responsibility softens many of Deiphobus’s rough edges, and Deiphobus’s enthusiasm breaks through many of Hektor’s more anxiously formed reservations.

Deiphobus would do near anything for Hektor, to a concerning degree in the eyes of some, but Hektor, by his nature, isn't overly controlling. He doesn't want Deiphobus to change how he is. Mostly, the only place Hektor truly pushes him is on moral grounds, for better rather than for worse.

Deiphobus hates to spend time overthinking anything, which benefits him in some ways, but also frequently has him following the example of those around him without considering what might lean towards cruelty. Hektor never tolerates hurtful and needless rudeness or otherwise, and their friendship doesn’t spare Deiphobus his reprimands.

Hektor's needling, though, has him step back and reexamine his actions and the second look is generally what he needs to correct his missteps. Admittedly, he’ll sometimes act better in some way solely to please Hektor, but far more often than not, he’ll come to recognize why it’s best with time and continue that way from his own compulsion.

(He grows and his conscience sounds irritatingly like Hektor.)

Deiphobus is actually one of the best of his siblings at not holding a grudge. He might for drama or humor’s sake, but once a squabble is past, he’ll easily set it aside in favor of having fun with whoever he fought with.

Regardless of his flaws, Deiphobus is amiable and of the opinion that it’s never worth passing up a good time over some pettiness. He’s never one to ignore the value of little joys, no matter how fleeting they are.

Before the war, when he is still younger, there is Antheus. He’s the pretty son of Antenor, and both Deiphobus and Paris are quite taken with him. Paris’s involvement rubs him the wrong way, but he elects to ignore it as best he can. It doesn’t sit right to consider policing Antheus’s actions. He can hardly demand he stop seeing Paris while still insisting on his company, after all.

Besides, he can’t really complain. Antheus favors him with his presence often, laughing at his jokes, stealing off his plate when they share meals, tumbling with him when they wrestle. And when Antheus lifts his hand to idly toy with his lower lip as he smiles slyly at him, Paris is the last thing on Deiphobus’s mind.

Hektor teases him sometimes when he turns up ruffled from some exchange turned overzealous, but his flustered frustration pales in comparison to his excitement, so Hektor gets away with it. Oh, he loves Antheus and the feeling is so heady, better than the most potent wine.

Then it all shatters when some men rush into the palace with Antheus’s limp body carried between them. He was in the gymnasium with Paris, they learn. One throw from Paris with a warped discus and Antheus was gone. Deiphobus stares at the blood soaked in his lovely hair.

Deiphobus is ready to rip Paris apart, but when his brother is guided in after, there’s just no room for it. He’s in complete hysterics, shaking all over as he hyperventilates, and screaming would have gotten through to him no more than their family’s vain attempts to calm him down.

Paris is inconsolable afterwards. He retreats in on himself, though without any attempt to defend himself, first to give himself the blame. He makes for a pitiful sight, and at first, Deiphobus can’t stand being in his presence at all, to take his anger and grief out on him or otherwise.

It doesn’t take that long for Deiphobus’s anger to grow more painful than cathartic anyway and, well, it is hard to lash out at someone acting exactly how he feels. He feels the same heartbreak and pain he sees in Paris and he can’t find it in himself to rage against him when he’d rather just sit and cry himself.

Paris does take it upon himself to face Deiphobus after a time and claim responsibility for what happened that day. Deiphobus doesn’t forgive him, doing that feels... off, but he manages to convey that he won’t turn on him for the accident with Antheus. He thinks that might make Paris feel better but he can’t truly tell.

It all still hurts then, even as they try to get things to settle. Nothing but more time can do anything more to heal those wounds.

And time passes and then Paris returns from Sparta with Helen, and, well.

The brewing war doesn’t drive a rift between Deiphobus and Hektor, but it does force a new distance between them. The pressure on Hektor spikes and never eases, and the time he has to spare becomes exceedingly rare.

Much of the time the two would have spent for themselves together now shifts to working together to manage the complications that come with this new conflict; Deiphobus has new responsibilities to shoulder himself. More work, less play, but the mutual affection and respect between them remains just as strong as before.

Deiphobus can’t help but feel a certain bitterness over having the casual companionship of his brother taken away from him, but he does all he can to set it aside. He refuses to let it be another source of stress for Hektor, so often too caring for his own good, and he doesn’t hold it against him anyway.

As always, Deiphobus remains aware that these tasks could easily have been his and, privately, he feels woefully inadequate in the face of that possibility. And truly, it just serves to make Hektor even greater in his eyes, handling it all with grace he can’t imagine. He knows he’s not perfect, yet still, it’s hard to imagine that anything could ever truly bring Hektor down.

And so, Deiphobus helps his brother in the ways he can and loves him as ever, always ready and eager to fight at his side.

Deiphobus leads a contingent himself, and does it well. It comes easier to him to manage a smaller group like that. He does as directed and guides his men through the fighting. One can say what they will about his ability to lead, but his capability as a warrior is undeniable.

Things shift between Deiphobus and Paris as well. Much of Troy turns on Paris, some faster than others. Deiphobus ignores the greater dramatics which, in his opinion, help nothing. Still, it is often tempting to berate him for his flippant disregard of the battles so he does, which is, admittedly, not entirely unwarranted.

However, Deiphobus and Paris share a mutual, unspoken understanding that they simply cannot focus on the war at all times. Sometimes it must be set aside. This is more often true to Paris than to Deiphobus, but that invites Deiphobus to keep Paris’s company when he can no longer bear all the stress.

In turn, when Deiphobus approaches him like that, Paris can trust not to be reprimanded as he so often is, as that gets ignored along with the rest of it. So there are times during the war where the two can be found together affably, chatting about nothing important. Their personalities can still mesh in such moments.

And, well, it’s shocking how steady things can stay over nine years of war, but they do. Death and loss become far too familiar companions, but they can do nothing but keep fighting through that, and things proceed much as they have been.

Until, of course, Achilles.

With all the cruelty of fate, it of course follows after they get the closest to driving away the Achaeans as they ever have. Such a brief, amazing hope. In his unmatched fury, Achilles slaughters their soldiers, butchers many of his brothers, escapes Scamander’s rage through the grace of the gods, and drives the army behind Troy’s wall with his advance, except for-

Then-

Hektor is dead.

Deiphobus tastes blood in his throat screaming at the sight behind the chariot.

In a way, it’s a blessing that it takes twelve days to get Hektor’s body and another twelve to bury it. With his death, command of Troy and her allies has passed to Deiphobus, and he could barely lead his own horse after losing Hektor, much less an army.

Deiphobus falls to pieces. He can barely process it, losing the one he held in the highest regard, held every confidence in, believed in to his core. Hektor was the best of all of them and now he’s dead, leaving him shattered. Deiphobus is hysterical, wildly heartbroken.

In this time is when Priam first turns on his remaining sons. He lashes out at them as he prepares to ransom Hektor’s corpse, degrading them as the most worthless of his sons. Still half blind with tears of grief he can’t hold back, he thinks that it’s true in the same moment he thinks of how he will now have to take Hektor’s place, worthless ruin though he is.

Most often, Priam refrains from speaking of his remaining sons after that, and in rare, fleeting heartbeats he almost seems contrite over cursing them. Neither is enough though to keep him from savagely reproaching them in unpredictable instances as Troy continues to spiral towards its doom. Deiphobus shakily chokes down his father’s abuse without a word.

Of course, he returns to the battlefield once Hektor is buried, coming to truly learn the crushing weight of his new role. How did his brother bear this? Every day feels like one failure after another; he’s not strong enough, not smart enough to do this. He tries anyway, each day more taxing than the last.

Deiphobus can hardly bear Paris after Hektor’s death. A large part of him hates him for it, desperate to pin the blame on someone despite knowing deep down that he’s not responsible. Though, even then, part of him is drawn to Paris, broken same as him, shaped by a sort of desperation to grieve for their brother with him. Misery loves company.

His anger burns hotter, but now he can’t bring himself to berate him even in the way he did sometimes before all this. He never confronts him with his hatred, such that it is. He simply avoids Paris entirely, knowing that if he indulges in the impulse to curse him for what happened to Hektor, he would fall apart at the seams.

Even now he can’t face the truth of what happened and keep going. It is all he can do to try never to think about it.

And then, with the aid of Lord Apollo, Paris kills Achilles.

The undecided limbo of Deiphobus’s feelings towards Paris topples into something like affection the moment he hears of it, connecting them once more. Paris has destroyed Hektor’s murderer, avenging him, and that matters to Deiphobus more than anything else.

That night, the two of them drink together until it half kills them, close enough to keep knocking shoulders as they revile Achilles with the worst profanities they know. It’s the only celebration they can muster after everything, but they’re both laughing for the first time since they lost him.

(When the night grows damnably late, Deiphobus’s attempt to laugh turns into retching and Paris collapses to the ground when he tries to get up to help. They suffer the agonizing morning together.)

They make a strange pair from then on. Friendship would be a generous word given the still unavoidable tension between them, but they somehow manage to maneuver around that and share a certain closeness. They maintain it despite differences that grind against each other. Sad as it is, it’s one of the only things either of them have left.

Paris and Deiphobus also weather Priam’s spontaneous tirades together. Usually wordlessly, but there is something to be said for the company of someone enduring the same pain you are. It is a quiet solidarity, but a significant one.

They talk of the war far more often now. Every day it devours more and more of their lives, always harder and harder to ignore or set aside. On rare occasions, they do still manage it. Those conversations make for a breath of fresh air, though that does little to stave off the feeling of drowning.

And then Paris takes a poisoned arrow and dies.

Deiphobus doesn’t wail and sob in the same way he did for Hektor. He’s too numb for it now. It hurts in an unnatural, distant sort of way. All he can muster is a ugly, stilted feeling of shame for letting himself come to care for him in the first place. Of course he would die like the rest, he should know this by now. He crumbles further.

After Paris’s loss, there's only two reasonable options for what to do with Helen. Either they need to return her to Menelaus or arrange a new marriage and keep her in Troy.

Helen pleads to be returned to her first husband but Deiphobus competes with Helenus to be the one who weds her. Troy does not stop them. There is a quiet but tangible tension to the city and he doesn’t think their people would tolerate Helen departing. He competes with everything he has left and he wins. And they marry.

That first night, Helen stares at his back while sitting in her new place on his bed. She expected to be treated like a piece of meat, a feeling she's grown well used to through living her life under the eyes of men, but he's barely even looking at her. He fought for her hand with an undeniable, feral sort of desperation. What was it for if he doesn't even want her?

"Why?" she asks him. "Why bother going through every effort to marry me only to be so cold now? What do you want?" Her voice would cut razor sharp if only she wasn't so tired.

He turns to face her with bloodshot eyes narrowed in a glare, riddled with barely restrained anger and grief. "I'm not letting you leave," he forces out and Helen pushes down the urge to scoff because that much is obvious.

"It has to be worth something," he continues. "There has to be something we fought for. If we just let you go back, then it won't have been worth jack shit." He paces, not looking at her again. "I won't allow that. Don't think you can avoid all this so easily now that Paris is gone. There has to be a point. My brother is dead because of this shit! If you're gone, then what would be the fucking point?!"

His brother. He means Hektor. He means Paris. He means every last one of them, so many dead. He means Hektor.

Helen doesn't reply. There is nothing she can say to that. For all that it doesn't make a difference, what he's laid before her is something she knows well. She's spent so long now berating herself and blaming herself for all that's come to pass and she understands. She hates this, all she wants is to go home, but she understands him.

She knows that they both hate each other and themselves all in equal measure. What a wretched pair they make, Helen thinks.

Not that they make much of a pair at all. They're rarely ever together. Deiphobus camps outside whenever he can, and when he can’t, he goes out of his way to avoid her. Helen accepts it as the best she can expect from the truly miserable situation this has become. The war drags on, but the truth hangs in the air that Troy is losing.

Then the horse.

The people, starving so desperately for peace, bring it inside the walls. Deiphobus tries to be cautious. He tries to think of what Hektor would have done. He commands Helen to walk around the horse, calling out in the voices of the Achaeans' wives. If there's some wretched spy or invader, let them show themselves. He'll kill them.

No one answers. Deep down just as desperate for peace as them all, he breathes a sigh of relief and leaves the damn horse.

He hopes the Achaeans filled their mouths with blood, biting their tongues as hard as they must have.

Troy is burning. The Achaeans fill the streets with slaughter; they are everywhere. Reunited with her husband after so, so long, Helen tells Menelaus where Deiphobus is. And so, Deiphobus dies alongside Troy.

(Deiphobus and Hektor meet again in the Underworld and Deiphobus tries to apologize for his failure to keep Troy safe. Hektor will hear none of it, refusing any of the anger he has every right to put on him. Still, a long time passes where Deiphobus silently and anxiously wonders if that was a lie, if Hektor truly does hate him for what happened.

Hektor keeps throwing him tense, unsettled glances sometimes when he thinks he’s not looking, even though he never says a thing. Each one worms further and further underneath his skin and he starts to squirm under the conviction that he’s done something wrong. Something Hektor holds against him.

When it finally grows so unbearable that Deiphobus confronts him about it at last, Hektor flinches and doesn’t disguise his fear and upset. Deiphobus braces himself. But then, mangled in with confusing, ashamed apologies, Hektor recounts for the first time how he died.

Athena luring him to his death in Deiphobus’s shape, speaking in his voice. How he turned to face Achilles believing he had support. When he called for a spear from his brother, he was alone.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I’m sorry I think of it at all, I’m so sorry I let you believe I was angry with you because of it. I’m not, it had nothing to do with you, you shouldn’t have to know of it at all. I just- remember it sometimes. I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.”

Deiphobus feels nauseous. Hektor looks even more so.

“If I had actually been there-”

“No! Don’t do this. Achilles would have just killed you too.”

“We wouldn’t have died alone, then.”

They clutch at each other, these battered remnants of their souls, carrying with them the wounds of their lives.)

#the iliad #deiphobus #hektor #hector of troy #paris of troy #and misc others i wont tag lol #trojan war #greek mythology #my writing #goal: make everyone else have thoughts and feelings about deiphobus too #hes my randomly selected emotional support child of priam #and hes perfect for my favorite thing #weird little character studies #hopefully this was at least somewhat interesting to read #its been a long time since ive done a post like this #an unsurprisingly it is way too long lol #sometimes it really is just all or nothing with my headcanons #i also think about the version where achilles is going to marry polyxena and deiphobus grabs him while paris stabs him in the back #inchresting

[time-is-standing]

how to cheat the system

alias beating a huge struggle with studying & handing in assignments on time

I have always been the girl to start studying the night before a smaller exam, the one who handed assignments in late/on time but they were made last minute and never turned out quite alright.

and yet, here I am done with a 80 page assignment 4 days before the deadline. and I want to show you some of the things that has worked for me (a 23 yo mentally ill individual) and that were always displayed as "the wrong way" to study & write.

I'm hoping you'll learn something from this post, so here we go...

tips and tricks to help with procastination & "laziness"

1. the voices in our heads

are you always overthinking? are "the voices" in your head speaking nonsense all the time? or maybe you are just bouncing all over the place and don't know, where/how to start?

maybe you need to turn these voices off. I usually choose some music and plug my earphones in if I want to focus fully on the project I'm doing. it's great to choose something that will put you in the right mindset. a tv show/channel can also help if you can focus with all of the talking (and speaking from experience, there are days when it's the only thing helping)

maybe choose your favourite playlist and blast those happy songs. or go on youtube and search up one of those specific playlists for an undisturbed hour, like "POV you're having a storke in a well-lit room at 1:38 am"

I think this is my fav, if you're interested (sorry, it's mcyt themed).

2. getting started

this is the biggest thing in my life! like I mentioned above, I never knew how to start my projects. there is two ways I was able to get through difficult tasks, my mindset being the thing that it depended on.

a. just start at the very start and follow the tasks/questions as they come after each other. sometimes it's easier not to complain about certain parts but to power through everything.

b. choose the easiest parts, or the ones that you like and would love to do first. than make a new order in which you're getting them done. this is a bit dangerous, because you might leave the hardest ones to the end by accident, but never worry, the deadline is coming up and that will take care of the problem, lol.

actually you can start the project easier if you think of them as a fun activity, like timing the first session, which I'll talk in more detail about int the next section.

3. time management

just like an infant, I have no clue about time management. I have time blindness and I never know where/when I am.

so I made this technique to be able to predict the time a certain project will take. this is usually great for the bigger, more complex ones.

start by doing a little section of the assignment. for example, I had 10 parts to do in this essay. I chose a medium length one to start with and I measured the time I spent on it (of course with the length of the POV playlists). I multiplied it with 10, give or take the easier/more difficult ones and I could plan my sessions.

adhd + struggling with anxiety (at least I think this is the one behind this from the endless list of my mental diseases) makes it really hard for me to do anything if I have an appointment (even if it's in 6 hours or so). to deal with this, making a few alarms and knowing if you have enough time for a part of the project is enough can help to get work done even when it's usually not working out that way for you.

4. motivation / keeping up

I always struggled with the right motivation. I hated school through my entire life and struggling with mental illnesses didn't help either. I never really knew how to motivate myself, because "sitting down and just doing it" never seemed to work for me.

actually, it's different for everyone, but for me the things I love the most worked really well.

to be exact, circling studying for 1 hour straight, and playing 30-60 minutes of minecraft after it worked wonders. some days when I didn't have the energy for this, I watched a youtube video/part of a livestream instead, to relax a bit.

(if it was a really hard day, I actually started with minecraft, but maybe don't try this if you don't get bored easily/don't have as much self-control!)

I have no clue how I ended up doing my essay getting to a higher level of my educator career modell while listening to sad playlists & playing videogames, but oh well...

I hope these tips can help! stay strong, it will get easier.

actually I'm making a mental health awareness post to go with this, so stay tuned.

#mental health #mental wellbeing #studying #study tips #study tips for mental illnesses #adhd #time blindness #anxiety #overthinking #time management #study motivation #depression #self motivation #change

[hoom]

You re such a cool girl beatles fandom really need a cool girl lol.

Also I was just wondering something about gay and straight fans here on tumblr. The way straights see J/P is either fetishization, cute comfort ship or blatant homophobia.

Most academic research and song analysis has been brought by gay women (and we usually have the best humor lol) but I cant help but wonder if we do something that us gays do when we see a complex relationship that doesn't comfirm to the heteronomative standards, we project our feelings. A lot. So... I just think people shouldn't think about all this too seriously because at the end we all are having fun. (Expect annoying paul girs but oh well)

look, stop overthinking fandom. just stop. it's useless and unnecessary, and it ruins your fun and everyone else's. the only reason i posted that person's comments was because they were straight up being homophobic towards a man they consider gay vs. the guy they see as their heterosexual hero. other than that, i really don't give a fuck about how they enjoy their fandom space. i'm sure they're saying worse shit on their blog right now, but i won't see it so, why bother?

about the research and the analysis, there's definitely a majority of gay women on tumblr, but there's also quite a few of gay men, especially trans gay men, around! this "projection" thing (no one is ever gonna learn what this word means huh) is definitely true, but in no way limited to the "shipper" side of the fandom; just look at the ""drama"" that was going on this week (it wasn't drama, it was me complaining about homophobia, but whatever makes this conflict-avoidant fandom feel better): her fave is obviously Paul, which is fine, and she can't stand John or the adoration he gets, which is fine, so the most logical step is to "project" her love of Paul onto John, so he looks like the only one in love, but since she dislikes him, he's also incredibly pathetic and obsessed, which drops him to the psycho-homo level of adoration.

overall, i think it's valid to see parts of ourselves in the people we love. we may blow up these traits out of proportion, but they're still there; we focus on how much Paul loves John (and vice versa) because we love John, and try to disregard the huge amount of jealousy and resentment from BOTH parties because it's not exactly how we feel about them. if someone doesn't like John, they will not focus on Paul's obsession with him, and the same applies to John. i think any way to enjoy fandom is valid, so unless you're being a homophobic cunt, just do you <3

#ask #the fetishization part is kind of... huh to me #like people here complain about straight ppl like caroline and others talking about JP in sexual/romantic terms #and call it fetishization without having ANY idea of what it really means #didn't blink an eye at what that woman said simply because she has the Bisexual Card. fuck off #sure she wants to see them fuck and so does rob sheffield so lmao #except he's getting paid to act it down and she's not #also the amy dunneficiation of user stewy thank you

[imaginebeatles]

when I got to mclennon last may I didn't bother to remember writers of fanfics (back on wattpad lol) and for a long time I'd thought you and Chut were the same person - partly because of your writing style and also fics' "energies" lol, so i'm not surprised you are best friends for real. And to make it a personal ask, since you crave those today:D, how much are you and chut alike and in which aspects do your personalities differ? P.S. I sincerely love all the daddy!paul fics ideas!!

Oh that’s a broad and difficult question. It’s interesting, but I really had to think about that for a while (and talk about it with @chut-je-dors). This ended up being quite long, so I’ve decided to put the actual answer under the cut. 

(and good!! it looks like 2020 is gonna be the year of the daddy!paul fics for me and i’m not complaining)

Well, firstly, we both love writing and The Beatles, so that’s a really good start. We also have a similar kind of humour, even if there are still some differences. We make different jokes, but we always make the other laugh. We also share a lot of our values and ideals and we look at issues in ways that are very similar, which always makes for very interesting discussions. We never really disagree on important issues in any dramatic way. Even if there’s a different opinion, it’s more that we show the other a different side then that we fight about it. We also like doing similar things, for example when we’re travelling. We are also able to compromise easily, even though we’re both also pretty stubborn when it comes so certain things, so we don’t argue, like at all, unless it’s about stupid dumb things, which is more for the fun of it than anything else. 

As for differences... we kinda feel like we sort of completely each other, however corny and awful that might sound. We’re both organised but in different ways. so in writing, for example, I’m more into figuring out the plot and characters and messing around with sentences, whereas Chut is much more organised when it comes to timelines and floorplans and more realistic details. I mainly just focus on the more poetical stuff. She also loves to put a lot of humour in her work. 

As for non-writing stuff. I can get pretty moody and cynical and I take stuff very seriously, which makes me a hard-worker and a bit of a perfectionist, but also makes me stress a lot and overthink things. I can get pretty melancholy from time to time. Chut on the other hand, is much more positive and tries to focus on the happy things in life. She gets more excited about stuff and is a little chaotic, especially when it comes to her sense of humour and her taste in music and films.  She kinda helps me not stress so much too which is great and I really appreciate that.

Chut’s also more emotional -- or reacts with emotion -- while I think things through first and try to rationalize stuff. She is more impulsive than me and is more honest and forward when talking with others. I’m a bit more polite and reserved, and just get sarcastic and passive aggressive with people when they upset me or something. I just rant to her afterwards. When Chut is angry with you, you will know, if I’m angry with you, Chut will know. 

We are quite different personality-wise, but our basic values and interests are basically the same. I mean, we don’t have everything in common. There is still stuff that Chut likes and I don’t (marvel....) and stuff that I like that Chut isn’t that into (politics mainly), but we still talk to each other about that stuff and we don’t mind doing that. We kinda even the other out. As Chut tells me “we just match. like a really nice, easy puzzle for toddlers.” 

Thanks for the question, and sorry for the long answer. This was actually really interesting to think about.

#send me curious anons #personal

[particularemu]

um...hi? I just wanted to rant to you for a while. so long time ago i was writing stories and fics and i was really satisfied with my work because i was like 15 and I was writing about things I was interested in but then people around me saw my work and they just kinda started making fun of me and my style and I was so sad and hurt that I stopped writing and deleted all my works. its have been 3 years since I stopped and utill now I'm scared of writing anything I'm scared people would judge me:(

Part 2: I have those days when I'm feeling good and I wont to create something but then I'm starting to overthinking again and I'm just not doing anything + I'm also scared that since English is not my first language people will make fun of my and all and I'm like 😭🤡 I'm just so scared of everything. :(( sorry for wasting your time shsh

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OMG No you’re not wasting my time at all :3 

Okay, so 👏I was in the same boat as you when I first started writing, so I totally understand where you’re coming from. 💜

If you’re proud of your work and you enjoy writing, I think you should start again :3 

The only way to get better at writing is to write! 💚

Also, please remember that all the writers you admire now went through a bad writing phase too. 

They had the cringe-y dialogue, the bad storylines, the fics that made no sense, the horrible spelling and grammar errors — and I’m convinced they 100% had that smut that just screamed that they don’t know how sex works. I know I did lol.  

But over time you learn from your past writing and you improve. 

Don’t let the haters drag you down. 

I won’t lie to you… your writing is not going to please everyone. I still get people who complain about my cursing, despite the fact that I curse like a sailor on this blog. Like come on guys it’s not a surprise. I’ve also gotten hate about the way I write the boys and their personalities. 🤷‍♀️

But the nice messages in my inbox mixed with the hyping from my baes @jisungsjheekies, @channiesmixtape, and @backhugsforhyunjin mean far more to me than the hateful messages I’ve received. 💚

If you decide to take up writing again, please let me know. I’ll be there hyping you up every step of the way. 

[prinzessinpluto]

I know it's weekend so it's time to rest but I'm here to complain. Why is making decisions so hard??? I'm thinking of changing my class from movie making to acting but idk if I should or really wanna do it?? And I'm so stressed!! Anygays I'm going to Fantasy Convention with my friend tomorrow, so I'm happy! HIGH SCHOOL SUCKS!!! Have a good weekend ❤️

complain all you want honey that's what I'm here for💕

first of all have fun at the convention today!!

and I get why that decision is really hard (I'm thinking abt changing my major so I'm kinda stuck in the same problem lol) but I'm honestly not entirely sure how to help you :(

personally I make a lot of decisions like that v intuitively like I just try and think about what would happen if I want that way or the other and then go with what feels better. you could also make a list of pros and cons for each class and then see if that helps? idk man I usually overthink everything I do to the point where I just kind of go "fuck it" and go with my gut feeling lol

do you maybe have any way of trying that acting class without committing to it yet? just to see what it's really like maybe that would make it easier too.

high school does indeed suck but you'll get through it!! I'm wishing you the best of luck!! 💕💞❤️

#Also on another note I'm kinda jelly your hs even has a movie making/acting class like that's so cool wth #I would've taking that so fckn fast lol #but we only had this rlly weird theater class that was uh... interesting #I didn't take it but my friend did and what she told me abt it was so strange djskfj #ask #sharkie stay