#id be anxious about it

[florida3exclamationpoints]

Hmmmm I think I might change my url

#ik i said that recently and then didn't lol #a tiny part of me wanted to wait until m&gs were confirmed or denied #bc even tho the chances were below zero anyway #i would be anxious that if i changed it.... what if she wanted to meet me..... but then couldn't find my blog...... #so she didn't know where i was sitting........ #chances go from below zero to EVEN WORSE #i mean . ill make a redirect page and make it clear and stuff but still #id be anxious about it #now i dont have that to worry about anymore 😏😏😏 #the only thing left is what to change it to #it'll either be a clm lyric or a debut thing #but idk!!!!!! idk

[nordidia]

having a very rough night so raph doodles needed to be made

when in need, mash two interests together

#i love him so muhc ghghgh #and uh please stop sending me asks straight up demanding me to draw more /nm #if u've sent me an ask just regarding art before pls dont feel anxious this is about people actually DEMANDING like im some sort of machine #im absent due to my work/mental health situation going up and down #tmnt will ofc always be special interest but right now its in the back row #theres little time for anything but work and meetings and thinking about work and.. well.. monster hunter escapism egsfkhjhh.. #but yeah i promise im still here #and i want to draw him when i can #but stress is high right now and drawing takes too much wrist stamina to do often now #i hope u understand #sorry if i worded myself badly im very tired and stresed n its ... oh its 5am great. wellp. goodnight skafklgsjdklfnshh #my art #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #nordidia art #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt raph #id in alt text #also one would think my art style is easy on my wrist but #i gorilla grip my pen and when i learned to write as a child i held the pencil jank #and it stuck like that #so its really rough on my hands #sadly

[astrobreaks]

forgot to post these little guys. autism creature tartaglia as a bonus

#genshin impact #chiscara #scarachilde #childe #tartaglia #ajax genshin #scaramouche #wanderer #scribbles #sanrio #does anyone want to be my person for writing alt text / image id i get so anxious and self-conscious about how to do it :')

[comradekatara]

and that's all i'm gonna say about that!

#id in alt text #avatar the last airbender #atla #memery #barbie #katara #sokka #katara&sokka #art #mart #i know i just said that sokka is barbie but he IS katara's ken. she is his raison d'etre ergo he is her ken #and if she gets herself arrested he WILL support her #but that doesn't mean he's gonna be happy about it!!!!! #i keep seeing fanart of sokka smiling in the mugshot or katara looking anxious and that's so fucked up to me #sokka is an obedient eldest child who is so afraid of getting in trouble w authority figures #meanwhile katara has literally gotten arrested on purpose before and loves pissing off anyone in charge of anything #including but not limited to sokka #did not put any real effort into this one bc . i did not want to #but still. i had to speak my truth ok

[pseudepigraphon]

the saga; or, weird uncle, weirder kids (id in alt text)

#hollow knight #hk gijinka #quirrel #hornet #the knight #some cooldown sketches because i hadnt used this kind of painting shading whatever in a while (in ref to the first image) #then i got carried away with the bit #newt art #newt comics #i fucking guess #id is in the alt because of the amt of images; i always get anxious about making long posts lmaooo

[giddlygoat]

life is short post willace were-rabbit angst on main

#FOUR POSTS IN ONE DAY i was so scared i would forget to post some art if i didn’t do it Now #ANYWAY. let me explain this comic #first off i hc wallace still transforms every full moon bc he deserves it. as a treat #and he just has a big ankle chain in his basement lol so he doesn’t go on a rampage and cause a ruckus #and they think willard oughta know about this sooner or later so gromit takes him down to meet were-wallace on a full moon #and willard just gets overwhelmed. it’s a lot to process and the newness of the situation makes him extremely anxious so he freaks out #he feels bad about it the next day bc ultimately he doesn’t give af if his bf transforms into a giant rabbit monster on the regular #but it was just a LOT to process at once and i think wallace would understand sndfwuhilvwirughth #WHATEVER MAN I JUST THINK THEYRE NEAT #apple pie with cheese #no id #giddly’s art #chicken run #wallace & gromit #willard tweedy #cotwr #were-wallace #between me and pant-eater we have drawn so many comics where willard ugly cries HSJSHDBSJSJ #what can i say. i love me a sopping wet paper bag of a man 🫡

[malwarechips]

the "he would not fucking say that" jokes are really funny and ive made a few myself but like i get really anxious about that actually

#i really really really want to write more #and id LOVE to actually release my stuff SOMEWHERE . #even if thats just shoving a google doc link into a tumblr post #but i always get really anxious about mischaracterizing characters. #even though i think really literally no one actually cares that much #and if they do they just. wouldnt read it #but yknow #the need to please everyone even though thats impossible blah blah blah #you get it. #lev.txt

[ribelleribelle]

my friend @euphoniouspandemonium galaxy brained and noticed that copia from the imperatour in 2022 (with the leather waistcoat) looked like izzy hands, so now i present you with the most historically inaccurate and self-indulgent crossover ever

#can i draw any of them convincingly? no. will this have an audience? probably not. do i love making silly comics? fuck yeah #btw i think ed would be a huge ghost fan. it's theatrical and dark but has its silly moments. i KNOW he would love them #if anyone has the energy to add an id in the reblogs they would do me a great favor. otherwise i'll do it myself tomorrow #my art #ghost band #our flag means death #the band ghost #ghost bc #ofmd #papa emeritus iv #izzy hands #<- how bold of me to put all of these tags like i'm not gonna be anxious about people seeing this lmao #mine

[applestruda]

I think I honestly feel bad for having my asks open,

There are so many kind folks, questions, ect, and I just never know how to meaningfully answer so I end up putting it off and then never getting to it,,

Its not even that I don't like getting asks its the answering part of it

#sorry if this feels out of the blue but legit i get so anxious over my asks #wjjqjwjwjw #i remeber when my friends did some harmless jabbing at me and my asks and honestly they were all right #struda rambles #anyways #yeah #idk if id actually close them but i think about it

[good-beans]

Interest check/scheduling poll :)

Earlier I mentioned that I wanted to get braver and start chatting more with the online pals. It's become an official new year's resolution, so here we go: I'm going to set up a little discord server where we can chill and do art together!! You don't have to do art, but it'll be open for everyone to stream their screen so it'll feel like An Event rather than just an awkward phone call, haha. You don't even have to talk, you can just vibe. I'm not quite confident enough to do games yet, but I want to work my way to that 👍

If this was something others were interested in, I was wondering what times work for people. I'm making it a poll for ease, but feel free to reply if there's more detail. My schedule's pretty free so I can work with you guys. I'll try out a few different times as we go! I'm setting the poll for a week but I'll probably reach a conclusion in just a few days.

Time converter because I'm in EST lol

#this is open to literally anyone - i have a few different fandoms i vibe in but i have no cliques established or anything haha #my few in person friends have all moved pretty far so i dont really chill with people anymore ;___; (points to faye -- thank you pal!!) #you guys are really really cool and id love to actually talk ;-; #its so fun that you can share multiple screens on discord so we can draw together :D #middle of the night calls will likely be on the weekends but normal daytimes may be during the week! #im a bit nervous so please dont worry about being anxious too :') #rose rambles #polls

[notemaker]

Question for the neurodivergents--I might go to a nightclub tomorrow, which I've never done before because I'm a nerd, and I'm a little worried about the sensory bits--Especially with everything being pretty loud lately since I began heavy unmasking. So long story short, do you have any recommendations/tips not to end up a ball on the floor?

#this is not a drill #i never thought id see the day #On one side I'm curious and I like to try things #on the other I'm somewhat anxious because Ive no idea what to expect #I've never been really interested in going to these places #and I might not like it at all really #but Im genuinely curious about what the big deal is #still #neurodivergent talky talk #not an art post #note says things #but maybe some of you guys have anything I ought to look for #On the other other hand I AM looking forward to the dancing bit #stimming publicly? yes please #watch me steal a spot and move for three hours straight #aasdfsdf #neurodivergent #autism #adhd #autism things #autistic feels #autistic things #autistic life #sensory issues #sensory #adhd feels

[waterfallofspace]

A Word-Filled Update

that no one's asking forrrr~

Sooooo, hiya~ ^^

Realized I kinda dropped out without much word, and wanted to give a lil update to anyone who may care, (and specifically to all the unfilled requests that have been sat in my inbox for months now T~T)

Dropping it under a cut because it gets quite long~ but I'll also TL;DR it with: been a bit burnt out, trying to get back into this, I apologize for all the unanswered asks, and I will be trying to get to the ones I can, but I'll be focusing more on trying to enjoy the process of making content~ Thank you to anyone who's stuck around <3

(Tw for brief mention of mental health/neurodivergencies~ nothing in depth or dark, but just incase anyone wants to avoid that <3)

Nothing serious has been going on, mostly just burn out and a bit of drama in main friend group, combined with free time just being a lot more limited recently~ (not a bad thing, most of it is because I'm getting to talk more with friends I've gotten closer to this past year~)

That said, I've been trying to get back into content, making it, reblogging it, etc, without letting it become all-consuming. I find, with the way my brain works, mostly to do to some wonderful neurodivergent tendencies, I tend to fall heavily into 'all of nothing' mentality.

This shows up in my day to day life, (ie: can't wash the dishes for weeks until I suddenly do them all in one day) and I've definitely noticed it with content creation. Need to write and finish a story in one go, record a wav as fast as possible, always afraid I'll lose that motivation.

But honestly? I love making content on here! And I'm not a huge blog, nor do I care if I am (at least trying not to, if I'm being painfully honest~) but I genuinely love making content. Whether it's just for me, a request that I am hoping one specific person will enjoy, or a story I write with a community in mind, I just love creating~

So, I'm trying to ease my way back into this! Bit by bit, let it be fun, and enjoyable, with less internal pressure to produce as much as I can, as fast as I can, and make it be perfect.

I won't lie and say 'numbers don't matter to me', if I'm honest, they do. But I'm learning more and more how to let it be about the content, and to just enjoy the process~ (and if people like it, that'll be a wonderful bonus!~)

Wooo this is getting so long, I apologize sincerely! Last thing, something I've mentioned a few times previously but never really let myself get into... requests~

I'm so honoured that people care about my content enough to have asked for things, and getting any ask, request, praise, ask lists, heck even just a 'hi!' is honestly the best part of this blog for me!

Buuuut, I definitely worked myself into burn-out before with a "every request needs to be filled and fast" mentality, that led to just... not filling any.

So! I'm going back through my inbox, and deleting some older ones that I don't have a clear vision/motivation for. I apologize to anyone who requested them, though by now it's possible they're long gone~ But I think this will help me not only start enjoying the creation process without feeling so overwhelmed, but also start actually getting more content made~

There are definitely a bunch that I still adore, and am thrilled to get to test out, but if there's one you remember sending, and you really want to see it completed, please feel free to send another ask saying what it is you want done, and I'll see if I can get that going <3

And if you've stuck it out to the end here- uh hi! ^^ I'm sorry this is so long, I'm such a words person, but I appreciate you so much, not just for any support you've offered, but just bothering to read this <3 I genuinely didn't expect most to make it this far, so thank you so deeply <3 and I hope to see you guys around as I start reblogging stuff more!~

#waterfalltalks #waterfallrambles #more like waterfallparagraphs im so sorry hahaha #been thinking about making this for awhile- but always felt so anxious??? #idk why specifically... maybe cause i cant be short to save my life #or maybe because it feels like ive left it too long?? been promising so much and never fulfilling #but i am gonna try!! not to fulfill everything but- to start enjoying it again #i worry this comes off like i have an ego... i really dont haha~ i dont expect anyone to really interact with my blog or care #it was always meant to be for ME- and i just hoped to create things ID enjoy and that #if anyone else enjoyed it too that i could start giving back to the community thats given me so much content ive adored #anyways this is a LONNNGGG post and so are these tags hahaha~ #using this blog as a journal again i think! but its mine! so okay! im gonna let myself! #gonna add here too that i might be reblogging with shorter tags for a bit- i promise its not cause im not excited!!! #just trying to make it the least overwhelming situation so i can start really getting back into ENJOYING it~ #thank you to anyone who read this far and a huge thank you to all my friends from here and anyone who stuck around <3 #i appreciate and love you all so dearly <333 #not snz

[magioffire]

Sorry I haven't been around when I promised, this time I actually have an excuse:

My cat got attacked by a big dog on monday (he's fine, his fatness actually saved him though he might need skin graft) and I've been having to take care of him and just been super anxious about his recovery. I'll be trying to be here but yeah, that's why I dipped even after saying I would be here lol

#ooc. #tbd. #tbf ive been kinda keeping this to myself because ive been so anxious about it but i figured id tell #so you guys know whats going on #we are going to the vet again today for a wellness check. hes in a lot of pain so im hoping they will give him some ketamine #the bupe doesnt seem to be cutting it tbf

[cerealmonster15]

while im here. take my stupid dog son and also sebeks there too this time. i think i decided he is in fact a first year in pomefiore and ALSO on the track team w/jack and juice. let him run. set him free. ok bye

#twst oc #oc: fidel #ocs #cereal tries to draw #i think i scribbled this right after i drew him the first time #i wasnt gonna post it but what the hell ever this is my house #ive been playing with markers irl more lately it's fun #doin doodles and hiding lol #i did update my artfight with scorpius finally last night i think #but i still gotta add his lore later. i just need to add flannery #i could add dogboy for funsies i suppose #i made myself log out of tumblr for like a week a lil while ago #and now im just sporadically popping in to lurk or make a post or two and then run away #bc i keep getting really anxious about god knows what lol im stressin myself out #however the booping tethered me im glad i checked in last night #to see the start of the boopening bc id be bummed if i missed that #anyway im doin some type of soul searching i just dunno what it is im lookin for #anyway x2 um hits you with my paws i guess. look at my son. ok good bye bonk bonk bonk bonk

[fox-guardian]

ok gamers i know i tried to do this once before and Completely Failed (go girl give us nothing etc) BUT. i think i'll actually Make Something this time. so. would anyone be interested in seeing tutorials from me and if so, what would you want to see tutorials for?

#ramblings with major #i think what happened last time is that i wasn't sure how to do ids for stuff so i got anxious and then. forgor. akjsdhakldjh #but i'm feeling much better about it now!! #and i feel like i've improved in many aspects since then so i think i'm more Prepared to make tutorials now

[waddei]

im sorry if i dont answer asks or take a bit with dms i kinda need to be put down rn if im being honest

#ive been so terribly anxious these past few days i kinda dont want to be perceived rn #i feel like there are ppl talking about me behind my back and every time they post i see their icon and im like this person hates me #and thats my signal that woop i gotta log out forever and become normal again #so yeah #IDEALLY ID GO TOUCH GRASS #BUT I CANT SEE IT UNDER THE DIRTY FLOOD WATER!!! #vent ig