#idk how she feels about cats

[wellthatschaotic]

i want a cat so bad

#maybe a dog but doggos seem like more work #idk if i could like. keep up with one #cats seem much more chill #theyre just Guys yknow #alas. my aunts definitely will not let me get one #im staying over with my mom rn (hence the posts about her) and thinking of moving in with her but #idk how she feels about cats #+ she lives in an apartment so theres pet rent #but im pretty sure if the creechur is registered as emotional support you dont need to pay it? #and i think i have enough mental illness to register a creechur /lh #but i dont want to burden her with a creechur esp if i end up not living with her full time yknow

[robotsafari]

i havent even watched legacy yet but that fucking kh world did some.. unexpected things to me

#beep boop you want fries with that #kingdom hearts #re:kh #re:ddd #sora #quorra #tron #riku #was trying to redesign rinzler’s helmet bc god. its. kinda fucking boring. leaning into the beast more #also teh helmets eyes are supposed to look angry when its down and sad when its up. bwaaa #i heard rinzler acts like a cat. thats soemthing to look forward to when i watch the movie. grins. #the three dots are supposed to be the classic t. btw. #theres four you just cant see the last one. #made sora look more liek his space paranoids look because he needs to retain the 80s swag. #this reads like a change log. #and my good friend quorra. idk if i’ve even posted that redesign b4. #yes im making her quote the ur my pockets eddie post #i think she needs to chew on things. maybe she should maul clu with her fucking teeth. #shes so unorthadox girl to me. do you see my vision. #also dw about riku falling or paralelling tron or anything hes fiiine. #speaking of the falling art. its old. so its inaccurate to how i draw riku now #before my brain was huge basically. #its so funny how i drew this much art for legacy like. i love tron 1982. i havent watched legacy yet but i feel like im gonna hate it. #the kh world was okay but it had a lot of potential and. uh. made me a BIT insane at the last part in sora’s story (EXPLODES) #also this post is tagged re:ddd for. reasons. dw about it. #ANYWAY GN ITS 1 AM. RUNS AT MACH SPEED.

[cerealbishh]

"You're pretty new at this whole relationship thing, huh?"

"... Yeah."

#outer range s2 #outer range s2 spoilers #outer range 02x01 #maria olivares #rhett abbott #isabel arraiza #lewis pullman #rhett x maria #um... idk i love them #again not quite done with the show #but why would they do this to me? it's gonna sting so much when they break up #her teasing him is my favorite thing #but also her calling him ''wonderful''? my god the squeal i let out... #the smallest little smile and the way he looked at her before he said ''good'' after she said she likes how she feels when she's with him?! #now i'm rhett going ''don't do this'' but instead of with his truck it's with the show #my biggest gripe is that she doesn't help him that much with his broken arm... except maybe to help him shower? /hj #i get why he was the one to get the snacks... it was for the impact of the scene but still #it's great to see them laughing and smiling so much! love that! #i think she smiled at least once while her poor boyfriend was getting freaked out by cats #he could not keep a straight face for that long after saying ''what does that leave me?'' #i wonder what he was gonna say before she said she liked how she feels when she's with him... was he giving her an out? #he has NOTHING pleasant to say about her not even a ''thank you'' after being called wonderful smh /j #tw: food? #my girl didn't even say ''bless you'' when he starting sneezing :( #i switched the last picture because i like the way they were smiling at each other when he got onto the bed

[werebutch]

My mom getting a new place is kinda making me anxious I think she thinks I’m gonna move in w her instead of my dad 😭 and I’m not sure why I don’t want to. Cuz she’s way better. But I don’t. And I feel responsible I think and plus my sisters will never favor my mom over my dad… so we’d live apart. but I’m 20 years old I can live whatever I want. But. But but but

#idk I really like our house too. it’s great. it’s exactly my style. I would miss it LMAO #but again my mom is just.. she’s so much more organized and she and my stepdad actually get stuff done #and take care of themselves. living w her would be more like we’re roommates and not how it is w my dad #who needs to be taken care of and doted on like a child. my sisters too but I don’t think they’d survive living without me at my dads 💀 #or they’d be really pissed at me. at the least #my dads house is constantly horrible so messy so so so bad no free counterspace anywhere can barely walk thru the house and cat vomit #everywhere. unless I take care of all of it. I can’t have company over unless I know a week in advance so I can make it look like a normal #house. and at my moms it’s never like that. it’s messier than average sure but it’s never disgusting like that #people are always telling me not to do anything and let my family learn to clean up after themselves but if I don’t it will just get worse #and worse. they’ll wait weeks before doing anything. it’s embarrassing. and depressing. if I let it go long enough I am miserable every day #after being homeless or on the verge of homelessness for 10 years my dad can’t even appreciate the fantastic house we have 😭 #he has to fuck it all up. it’s not 100% his fault bc my sisters do fuck all but he DID teach them to be this way. the only reason I do #anything is because I snapped out of planning to kill myself and realized that I needed to be there for my sisters. so I started being like #their parent more and more. but they still never learned to unload the dishwasher or take out the trash without screaming about it. #I’m just very overwhelmed and nervous about this move. I also feel horrible as if I’m disappointing my mom if I don’t move in. I don’t want #to disappoint her any more than I already have.. #she is soooo excited about giving me a room the basement so I can have my bunnies there..

[marsixm]

i also think the fact that i had such a stunted and isolated upbringing and now that im an adult all my friends are on atypical life paths (and honestly even my friends as a kid were like this too) means i find things that are usually very common life stages really interesting. like knowing someone who has a house and a wife and 2 kids (with that wife) and a job with a salary feels like meeting fucking paul bunyun to me. or hearing the kids i work with talk about graduating high school and going to college and being on a real path with that stuff is neat? or even sometimes knowing cis/het people who are like going thru that coming of age stuff that i never really experienced the way you see it in the movies bc of transness/queerness/neurodivergence. its like woah they said the name of the thing in the thing. do u know what i mean???

#this actually reminds me of one of the girls at work whose been here for 2 yrs so i feel like im watching her grow up #shes graduating hs this year and shes really smart and she always asks questions like this #like picking ur brain about your life like 'what did you feel like growing up how was your family' etc #its kinda cool #she already got a degree bc of dual credit courses and an internship lined up and im so proud of her #and theres another girl her same age who came to me last night telling me her situationship just broke her heart #and they were both talking all about their prom dresses and all that stuff and were so excited last month #like idk i guess i just find it endearing #i think part of it is also that while these specific paths are thought of as common/default #there really is so much variance in life and really truly so many people not on those paths for so many reasons #which actually does loop around to making it seem strange #like truly how many people do you really know anymore who stayed at 1 job until they rose the ranks #who got married and had kids with that person and now they live in a house in the suburbs with some dogs and cats #like who does that anymore #meanwhile i think its just cool seeing kids actually experiencing growing up but in retrospect and not as a peer feeling confused & jealous #like woah youre a girl buying a dress and getting her hair done and texting a boy thats so wild ive never done that #or woah youre taking courses to prepare for college and know what degree youre going for #i no longer feel resentment that i felt left behind during all that shit when i was a teenager #im just happy for them and proud of them

[dailyshidou]

Day 51: shdou

#daily shidou #milgram #i drew this at a cat cafe #i dont rlly liek it #bc i derw it at a weird angle #oh well #i showed it to my mom and she said 'oh he looks likes he's smilign a little this time' #i infodumped to her about shidou last time i drew him on paper #idk how she feels about me being obsessed w a depressed 29 year old man

[funnyscienceman]

i think one thing i'm never gonna get over about the movie is that the memorial wall full of art — some of the drawings are of shadow nimona. i can't get screenshots right now but like. shadow nimona smiling. beaming. getting hearts and smiles and hugs, from the kids, from other shadow creatures. it's just. it's so sweet. like it's the kids who drew that taking all that raw hurt and vulnerability from the final act and giving it the hug and empathy and solidarity it needed. and it's like, look at nimona's line after the kwispy incident, look at the cereal ad, the board game billboard; look at gloreth being taught hate, and then look at the drawings. and i just lose it every time i think about it

#nimona #it's 3am so idk if im making any sense but #all this abt the memorial wall #plus nimona doing more shapeshifting outside of combat and crimes #nimona is a girl and a boy and a rhino and a bird and an ostrich and a whale and - in her words - a lot of things #she is also the shadow creature #and just seeing that acknowledged w the memorial drawings…. #it's acknowledging all the parts of nimona. every one you can reach. this is her and this is also her and this is also her #and all those parts deserve love too #idk i just like seeing the movie i guess 'normalize???' (for lack of a better term) nimona's shapeshifting #like doing it without objective purpose or functionality or combat or what have you #just chilling on the train eating a pizza. as a gorilla. because those are her vibes right now! #scurrying thru the trash as a cat because. why not. she couldve been a racoon or a rat or anything else but she's a cat. because she is #and then i think about how kids are getting to see this movie and i just feel so much *hope* #im not good at articulating myself sorry i hope this made sense

[dolokhoded]

mel c magdalene made me realize what was missing from my magdalene design and it's that she's not fucking jacked. it's crucial to her character

#🧅 #literally my takeaway from jcs2012 was mary magdalene's arms. yeah those guys were there too i guess #i think hers might be my favorite portrayal of mary #like. not just because she's jacked i just really liked how jc2012 worked with magdalene #she felt more fleshed out. and i <3 yvonne elliman in this role i always will but lets be so for real in the 1973 movie mary was a sexy lam #character except instead of sexy she was like. sopping wet cat lamp character #i mean i think she was also sexy. but that's beside the point this post is not about how attractive i find yvonne elliman #or mel c #well it kind of is about how attractive i find mel c #whatever. my point is it was the 70s and she was a female character. so like. you get it ! #and i feel like a lot of the time magdalene is very girlbossified in a way that makes her very one dimensional #without EVER her appearing masculine of course because god forbid the one female character does not appear to the male gaze #(well originally female character anyways. today genderbend casting is a thing and it fucks) #it's either she's a Girl Disciple (no further elaboration) or she's like. a girlboss stone hearted biker gang leader leather jacket queen #(no actual further elaboration but her one 'ooh i love this man and i dont know how to show it' solo tricks you into thinking there is) #while 2012 magdalene somehow seems much more well rounded to me. #they let her be herself more. idk. that's how i interpreted it at least. in my mind. #it's like. i feel many other marys i've seen are described by how they treat jesus (and sometimes judas) #but this one still feels present even when jesus is not around. or he is but she's not interacting with him. #again this is a very specific interpretation that clicked in my brain im not saying that jcs2012 like. did some groundbreaking feminist #portrayal of magdalene. but yknow ! #she also didn't acknowledge judas' existence once while he had created some weird one sided beef with her which was. very funny to me #literally did not waste a glance at him.

[lesbeid0u]

#Methinks I may be cupioromantic #I was talking to my friend after we got back from aniboston and somehow the topic of conversation changed to our orientations #And I was explaing to them how I don't think I've ever actually like. Loved someone romantically/been capable of loving someone romanticall #But I still wanna be in a relationship and they were like #'King I think u may be on the ace spectrum' #And then I fell victim to the 4am Thoughts and started doing some reflecting/research and damn #Wouldn't You Fucking Know It #Hoenstly tho it feels so fucking freeing knowing that there's a name for how I feel #Bc I thought I was like. Broken or some shit for the longest time bc no matter how much I tried #I could never manage to force myself into having feelings for someone irl #And idk maybe I'm not actually ace/on the ace spectrum and I'm just falling victim to the 'you haven't found the right person' mentality #But like I genuinely do not/could not see myself falling in love with someone yet I do still want to feel loved romantically #Anyway #These are 4am thoughts at 5pm so I'm not gonna dwell on them too much #If you've made it this far in the tags and have any words of advice about this shit lmk #Thanks for reading. And now it's time for the breaking news #My mom has beef with one of the stray cats in out backyard bc she thinks he's a bad influence on his children #Also one of his kids looks Just Like Grim Twistedwonderland and I'm getting making that his Halloween costume this year hehe

[autisticaradiamegido]

I need more Destiny Chainsaw in my life

day 285

AND SO YOU SHALL HAVE IT!!!

heres babby destiny!! pre-catgirlification, pre-vampirism, pre-magical girl college. just a lil guy! trying out the blue hair for the first time, too.

gamer from birth tho. gba sp my beloved

#day 285 #year 3 #destiny chainsaw #my ocs #idk how much ive gotten into her backstory on this blog i feel like ive ranted about it a little #shes born half angel/half demon #she later awakens magical girl powers and goes to college to major in Magical Girl Studies #the magical girl powers give her the pink hair streak and eye #before she gets there though she is bitten by a passing radioactive cat who catgirlifies her and also becomes her familiar #you can tell its radioactive because of the eye searing green color #somewhere in there she starts dying her hair blue. idk. theres probably Spells for that once she gets her magical girl powers going #shes canonically a brunette though do not get it twisted #also idk somewhere in there a vampire bites her she gets vampire powers #i decided this recently because i personally am in my vampire era. and i think she deserves very cool vampire powers #cw eye strain

[lightningwaters]

#mapleshade #thunderclan #rogue #dark forest #purple eye mapleshade supremacy #and an alt with her usual eye color #i headcanon she has some of the longest claws of any cat #also she has the bloodstained forepaws #or at least that's what I was going for #honestly idk how i feel about her #her story is interesting but ppl try so hard to defend her it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth #giant kitty

[dockaspbrak]

A big thank you to my mutuals who like my nervous breakdown 2-4am posts. You're the backbone of my blog

#its like im not completely alone #idk #what losing a cat does to a woman i guess but #lets be real i was like this before #im just a sad person who laments more than takes action and #i think ill be sad forever probably #in that way some people are #i feel like im one reality over from where im supposed to be yakno? #i used to have this image id hold onto of leaves in the sunlight when i was a kid and i kept waiting for someone to talk to me who #would take me wherever that was #maybe thats the nature of never fitting in u get too in your head and then #reality doesnt feel like home #yeah ive heard people say shit like that sbout books #sorry im not wearing my glasses #lately days blend together and i feel like i cant hold into time #and people talking to me (when they do) sounds miles away #takes ages to get to me if it does at all #oops! sounds like im dissociating hahahahaah oh fuck #when u write it all out. stares at ya right in the face #if im not doing something it feels like my anxiety will latch onto anything #like. rn i feel like im gonna throw up bc of like 5 different things about my car #car insurance. registration. trying to find a job #then it spirals into what ifs. and how thatd suck #constantly this shit. constantly! the only reprieve is going to hang w my grandmother who is 90 and talking about death a lot #😵‍💫 #but shes my best friend so ???! fuck! #man idk. im so sad. idek what to do abt this. work out #maybe get a new actor to have a crush on #what makes people happy? idk

[bodega-catto]

Well, that friend I had a fallout with texted after a month. I was worried, though I did suspect she was taking a break. Didn’t mind it, of course— but her message is extremely dismissive and I have been laid off as a friend. “I appreciated” “you were always” and yeah all too familiar.

Can’t help but feel a bit betrayed despite it being me the one who sparked the disagreement we had. I didn’t do it consciously, I was stupid and rash and should have taken her feelings into consideration. And I am deeply hypocritical thinking she should have given me a heads up. Now she’s a month ahead into dismissing me— and I feel it.

I feel really sad about this, despite everything. It was a short friendship but she was a smart, sweet girl and I appreciated her beyond fandom shit. And fuck fandom. And fuck it for real. But she has also frustrated me in the way she handled it. I suppose I didn’t deserve a second try and it’s fine. I will respect her boundaries.

But to say “if you wanna get it off your chest” don’t you? She worried about being immature and what if she was sometimes? I never cared. I never cared about her being sensitive and letting herself feel. I never give myself space for that. What exactly is being immature in her mind? It was refreshing to see someone so attune to what they felt. Come to think of it—I am immature. I am immature writing this now and complaining about everything to no one and always rationalizing everything. And I will be a coward in not replying because everything I say sounds dismissive and framed as a farewell. And I don’t wish for it.

Anyway I’m just all over the place about this. I’m just ranting and victimizing myself. Look away.

#personal #sighhhh #another day in my baka life #Idk what to reply at this point I will not #despite my throat constricting about knowing we will never speak again #I can feel it how she’s not interested anymore ando must respect that #she had these gego cat plushies coming in the mail and i was so excited for her #and now i also have to draft her birthday gift because we are both Leos #it’s whatever #idk why I’m so sensitive #Ig I let the whole ‘it’s not that serious ‘ façade fall for a sec and cared too much #oh well it’s the void #I like the void I like to speak my mind when no one’s watching

[figuerockfaeth]

would it be the worst financial decision in the world if i left two months early but kept paying my rent…. i hate being here so much which sucks so much shit bc i loooved this house but living with this random roommate is TORTURE i’m anxious 24/7 already bc of social reasons but that i could cope with except bc of the cat thing that happened earlier (roommate left our back door wide open then went to sleep and My cat got out) (i found her) now i feel unsafe because she’s leaving doors unlocked and wide open while we’re sleeping and now it’s 4am and i’m just laying here awake. i can’t move for at least two months bc i work at a school but after that i might just pack up all my stuff into a storage unit or smth and drive for an extended visit to my parents house

#she also smokes weed 24/7 which i don’t care if she does BUT i hate the smell of weed and it absolutely permeates the entire house #so i get headaches from either the smell or annoyance idk anytime i’m home #and she keeps letting! my! cat! out! she is NOT AN OUTDOOR CAT and then she’s SO nonchalant about it #i’m going crazy #i feel like i’ve been having one prolonged anxiety attack all day #i gave kevin (the cat) a bath when i got her inside bc she was in the crawl space under the house #and i have no idea how long she was outside (another thing making me furious) #and then i sat on the couch where i could keep kevin in sight at all times for the rest of the day #but sitting on the couch gives me anxiety now bc it’s a shared common space with this girl i Do Not care to share the presence of #personal #delete later

[rocaillefox]

the anime romantic killer does genuinely seem like just a tone shift away from becoming a horror show

#ramblings #only a few episodes in but if this happened i think i would bite somebody #maybe it is the lgbt in me but being forced into potentially romantic situations #AND HAVING PEOPLE MIND CONTROLLED INTO THOSE SITUATIONS? #seems Genuinely horrifying. i would not feel comfortable getting into a relationship with anybody in this situation #not bc of anything on my end but bc mind control . completely erases all consent #and like. forget about Informed consent eithrr if they dont know about the wizard #and a wizard thats intentionally taking away things that you find joy in ??? #instead of encouraging you to meet other people through those interests????????? #a wizard whos forcing you to wear more 'girly' clothes despite discomfort??? #like. actually wearing clothes that have cats on them is 100% fine! you can make that into a style! #and forcing you to wear makeup?????????????????? #sorry this would be literal hell on so many levels for me. im watching to see how horrible a situation it wiuld be for me #and also; shock that there are people who might adapt well to this #edit: NOT TO MENTION THE WEIRD MORALIZING ABOUT FOOD? #like yeah eating only chocolate isnt healthy but its her choice if she wants to do that? #but again: forcing someone to give something up instead of idk. Offering Other Options In Addition ??? #and also the stealing away her cat... #AND LIKE. she doesnt need to become dependent on a person. and taking away her comforts until she does is blackmail #like if a guy was unable to play sports until he got a girlfriend that would be obviously fucked up right #why is it suddenly seen as more acceptable and not abusive to take away everything relating to a girl's interests until she finds a boyfrien #ntm the literal destruction of property to organize the whole scenario wtf.

[the-cat-at-the-theatre-door]

When it comes to Grizabella, I am extremely anti-vilification of her character, but I am also extremely anti-"uwu baby did nothing wrong"-ification of her character.

#Over the years I feel like Fandom just have had a *really* #tough time treating grizabella as 'human' character #it's either she's this irredeemable monster or she's the broken woman whom all the cats hate for absolutely no reason! poor baby! #like no #the point of this narrative is that both parties did or continue to do things that are wrong towards one another #it's about perception and rumour and betrayal #while also being about selfishness and pride being greedy all encompassing monsters #that can hurt the relationships with those around you #the macavity reading? garbage - turns her into this somehow betraying pariah but then simultaneously forgives others for the same thing #but then you say but oh jemi that's a commentary on how society treats older women - yes you are correct! #too bad she isn't portrayed as older anymore !!! #that strips that meaning right away #women can be complex too yknow - women can be simultaneously hurt from betrayal but also have been the *cause* of their own hurt #anyway i feel like when the fandom talks misogyny they ignore grizabella which is kinda funny actually #considering that misses the whole point #extemporize back chat #anyway idk why i got riled up about grizabella