#im obsessed sorry. theyre horrible

[dayurno]

thinking about nest trio dynamics makes me so insane because what do you mean the first thing riko said to kevin at kathy’s show was “you’ve gained weight.” what do you mean in older drafts kevin’s hair was long because riko liked it that way. what do you mean riko’s final straw to hurt kevin permanently was because kevin and jean spoke french to each other. what do you MEAN jean was forced to be in kevin’s shoes when kevin left but he was never expected to be as close to riko as kevin was. literal deadbeat husband (riko) attic wife (kevin) and family dog (jean) dynamics. fascinating and definitely freudian

#its insane riko is insane #QUITE LITERALLY ATTIC WIFE AND FAMILY DOG #my special princess i abuse out of love and this fucking beast #😭😭😭😭😭😭 #im obsessed sorry. theyre horrible #txt #kevin #riko #jean #perfect court

[wizardfvcker]

feeling righteous fury every time i think about people saying dankovsky is selfish or uncaring for trying to develop a vaccine because that means he doesn’t care for the people who are suffering. hey girl that’s not how fighting any disease works. he’s doing what’s suited to his strengths and is actually invaluable work for people who would otherwise get sick. what is anyone fucking talking about

#.txt #SORRY NOT TO REHASH PATHO DISCOURSE IN THE YEAR OF OUR LORD 2023 #im just thinking about how skewed people's perception of dankovsky is. and like he can suck but he is not unfeeling or uncaring #i keep thinking about that one quote from the devs for the marble nest where they're like the bachelor is too obsessed w his fight against #death to care about the people sufferinfg around him #and im just like. did yall play your own game #SHAKING THE BARS OF MY CAGE CAN ANYONE HEAR ME. DANIIL TRIED SO HARD TO HELP AND LITERALLY NONE OF IT FURTHERED HIS OWN GOALS #how it all shakes out in the end is a different story but also like. you understand how he gets there even if its horrible #(in classic that is) #wish i was better at words but you get it #'you only care for the living/healthy and not the dying' THATS ALSO GOOD?? ACTUALLY?????? #i do also genuinely feel that the devs do not understand their own character they made because every time i see a quote from them about him #theyre like oooo this totally selfish uncaring asshole #and like besties. you all made a sympathetic caring character actually. you did

[strwbrymlkshake]

I feel like there's an obsession in me waiting to burst out, but so many horrible things have happened due to that, it's rotting in there. I'm worried.

#mine #yandere #yandere vent #im not even sure if i WANT to be obsessed. its all clouded up in my head nothing makes sense #like my immediate obsessions have migrated from all of them being romance to all of them being plain admiration #which is way way way way WAY better because then no one will think its as creepy. im not a creep. for the love of god #he was such a fucking liar. made me feel safe and then ripped everything out from under me. #OK ANYWAYS thats not the point of this post . i literally cannot tell what my feelings for anyone are anymore. i cant differentiate them #im just waiting for someone to ask me if i Like Him because ive been acting so attached to him but i couldnt give a straight answer. #i dont even know ! yes this vent is caused by a minor inconvenience. ok well its technically bc i wouldnt be able to hang out w him #i dont fucking want to be dependent on him i dont want him to influence my emotions this shit has happened so often it has to be over #still thinking abt the 'you think hes in love with you?? he doesnt even like you' post 💀 #i dont know what my feelings ARE but i know theyre bad ausuaufjfjf i dont wanna be overbearing #im 'less annoying' in the sense i try to barely message him at all. like he doesnt care lol. he probably values me as a friend ig #not sure why im so torn up over this. i doubt we are compatible in the first place but i have the horrible obsession again #i dont feel a particularly strong emotional connection to him ig. like he is nice he is fine but im not insane yandere abt it #more just distressed dere about it –_– i mainly just want him to talk to me and tell me about stuff like thats IT #just respond to my annoying questions. its so sad that im desperate for the bare minimum :/ #genuinely dont know if its a romantic attachment? i feel wrong if i imagine stuff like that. i dont want to be thought of as a freak again #i just want everyone to feel sorry for me!? but no one is gonna wanna hang out with me if im begging for sympathy all the time !!! #i just like his voice and his vocabulary etc a funny guy . but hes my friend so i feel fuckin dirty imagining even mildly romantic things #last time i did that i got called a creep <3 im physically unable to think of that anymore! it feels so disgusting! #im happy because i wont have delusional one sided romances anymore but also upset at the fact i cant imagine situations to make me happy #thats what regular teenagers do. they daydream abt crushes they have. but i cant do that. it feels so horrible #i wanna be like 'omg i love him<3' but i dont know if i do. i really dont know. i cant distinguish love #all my 'crushes' feel like broken watered down messes. they dont make any sense. i want clarity. i want to be healthy for once #i dont know if any of my feelings are real or long lasting ^_^ and if they were they have a 0.0000001 chance of being reciprocated #im not going to lose my mind over this strange feeling again. its happened so many times w so many different people #i ought to be used to it by now! i dont know if i will ever be able to truly be IN LOVE again. im not sure i ever was #💿

[00nine21]

turning tumblr into my little art safe space 

first concept art  of an OC from a story that maybe someday will be written down and it wil be cool and there will be bamf gallies as MCs and gays and anything thats lacking in most fantasy books im reading :/// 

its called The Last Descendant and it sounds pretty cool if you ask me teheheh

The hottie on the pic is no longer a part of the story because she got replaced by a hotter more badass bitch that girlbossed a little too close to the sun :(((((((((((

theres also good plot and content for a whole trylogy and sequel and spin offs 

did i mention gays?

#my art lol #oc #tld #digital art #original art #art #artists on tumblr #cant wait to post more about my little story tehe #sorry im obsessed #i love my babies so much shame theyre gonna die horribly #or not

[thedogslegart]

Q and Lester moments Q and Lester moments

#when im sad and even if im not babygirl im getting lost in Q and Lester love #idc if hes a chrcater that shows up for 7 minuets in a shitty movie from 2005 hes my oc now and hes obsessed #with this weird stranger who is equally obsessed with him #and they love their daughter and they love each other theyre the worst theyre the best and theres no line between #love and obsession...q and lester love for ever litrally my favorite love story honest 2 god ♡ #sorry joanben shippers 😔✊️ #oc: jaquerabbit sadler #lester #im having a moment. which i do regularly. i do thinka bout them at least a day for these past like 18 months.... #true true horrible love thay destroys all but themselves #Spotify

[crushedsweets]

Hello! I hope you are well!

Do you think it’s possible for you to go into Jeff and Nina’s relationship please? Like are they together or is like Jeff taking advantage of Nina liking him so much?

Sorry if you’ve already done this! I love your writing, you’re so talented 🕸️ x

its actually crazy to me that i havent actually written a thing about jeff and nina oh my god. thank you by the way you are so sweet. of course tw for manipulation, abuse, etc

OK BACKSTORY

nina is a year or two younger than jeff, and was only around 12-13 when she found out about jeffs murders and rampages. since she was like 7, she was always obsessed with horror movies, gore, eventually true crime and stuff . . just awful things that kids shouldnt have access to but thats what the internet does

she started behaving incredibly weird after her obsession with jeff began (though she was always odd). just really creepy true crime fan behavior in school, acted completely rebelious and eventually cut a shallow smile into her cheeks. her parents were livid and sent her to her to live with her grandparents in Mississippi.

eventually she realized jeffs brother moved to alabama, a state away. she was 18, at the lowest point in her life, and there was now speculation that jeff died after his most recent murder in the arkensaw household in tuscaloosa, alabama.

SO SHE MOVED. stole a ton of money and jewlery and stuff from her grandparents, barely managed to secure a dingy apartment in tuscaloosa, and she went On The Hunt.

she's constantly spamming fangirl rhetoric on creepy forums and catches jeffs eye. dunno exactly how, but he ends up meeting up with her, where he realizes she was just. perfect ? like, he found her annoying from the getgo and knew she was a weirdo, but he knew how easy she'd perfect to manipulate, how much shit he could get from her, and she immediately was like 'COME HOME WITH ME ILL MAKE U DINNER' . so he does. theyre about 19-20 here.

okACTUAL RELATIONSHIP

they never actually date in the traditional sense. neither of them asked the other out, jeff doesnt even touch her if he doesn't have to. he does not love her. but nina truly, fully, completely believes they're together. she swaps between calling him her boyfriend and fiance. she tells all her coworkers about how 'oh my boyfriend finally proposed! im engaged guys!' and 'ohh we're thinking about kids..!! he said he wants a girl:)' and all of that. which its all lies, she just lies and lies and lies all the damn time about how great jeff treats her and how in love they are. she does it to all the other creeps too for a period of time, telling toby and nat about how kind jeff is to her and they know shes lying.

jeffs not really mean to her most of the time. she'll make him food, do his laundry, she's lied to the police for him, she's probably been an accessory to murder ... definitely actually since she's cleaning and bleaching his bloody clothes... so he's Nice (?)

by nice i mean like. he'll let her sit and rest her head on his shoulder, let her hold his hand, let her say she loves him. he'll joke with her sometimes, play video games with her, bring her on walks or whatever. wore a bracelet she made for him once. (emphasis on once). he tells her she's pretty if she asks

but again, he's using her - just for a place to stay, some extra money, and he'll even send her on runs to go get weed or something from dealers that give discounts to pretty girls. he won't hug her, won't buy her things, won't help clean up, etc.

NONE OF THIS IS SHIPPING OR ROMANTIC LIKE ITS ALL REALLY SAD AND HORRIBLE. most of the creeps are inherently violent, half are murderers, almost none have any emotional regulation . . theyre just very . yeah.

which is why eventually, he kinda like, loses his shit - he starts screaming about how she's a dumbass who threw her life away for him, how he doesnt give a shit about her, he's shoving chairs around, knocking things off tables. eventually he stabs her, once in the side of her stomach, and leaves.

nina knows jane from the other creeps and calls her as she's frantically trying to fix her own wound, and jane swiftly gets her. jane doesnt like her but jane has morals and knows jeffs mistreating nina - but ninas losing her shit when jane mentions a hospital and refuses to go to the ER, so she ends up in jack's cabin getting stitched up.

theyre all kinda shocked that jeff didnt just kill her. its real weird for him to stab her once and leave, but jeff knew how far ninas devotion went and completely expected her to grovel at his feet and beg for forgiveness, and now he can continue using her just like before . but nina twisted it in her head and convinced herself 'oh its because he loves me! he didnt kill me because he loves me! BUT HE'S MAD AT ME AND I CAN'T FIND HIM AND WHAT IF HE'S WITH SOME OTHER GIRL I NEED TO FIX THIS' but literally nobody wants to help her 'get back' with him because like ...... why would they ?????

so she gets onto whitepages, finds liu, and ends up on his doorstep.

that's where my drawing of her crying on lius kitchen floor comes from

ive kinda hit a point in the story where like... this part is the 'current' plot ??? like this is where we are at in this very moment . so i have nothing concrete for the future...

but overall she does get over him, thats probably where ill put more emphasis on her friendship with nat/toby and her eventual little sister type relationship with liu... i just need to figure out how to do that without it coming off as like 'and she went to therapy and everything was fine !^_^'

i want jeff ... to be... vbery miserab;e....... basically.

#creeped #asks #tysm again anon #creepypasta #nina the killer #nina hopkins #🕸️ anon #idk if u wanted an anon tag but heyyy

[awakened-void-deity]

Hey i need to tumblr more um

Pokemon artdump GO

Most of these are my poketrainer sona cuz ive been insanely mentally ill now ive finally, after over 10 years, got a pokemon game...he originated in Hoenn, catching and training Rayquaza in that region who now is one of his most loyal partners. From travelling to Paldea, most of his team is new! He likes to have a new main "team" per region he visits, however he does most commonly go to Unova (hi, this is because unova was my first introduction into pokemon back when it was kinda pretty new, thats why). Second to last image shows how he looked back in Hoenn, he was definitely Rayquaza's biggest fan (sorry zinnia) but that didnt stop him yk. Doing what the player characters usually do. Last one was because god damn volo inspired me and yk my trainer sona isnt the Most sane...(his raidons and Rayquaza are his biggest support net, being almost service pokemon at this point...which he compensates for with lots of loves and treats the best he can). He makes different outfits for every region he visists, which is why his outfit differs so much from back in Hoenn- simply just for the sake of "why not?" (Also, im just really mentally ill over ol slither wing...im sane im sane im sane i). Oh yeah and the ball one with kommo-o is because in violet i set up a picnic and threw out the ball for enrichment because my pokemon may be pixels on a screen but i treat them as real animals should be and being couped up in a ball sounds Horrible And Awful and makes me Cringe so i let them out forever always and my kommo-o specifically targeted me with the ball, it made me laugh so i drew her being a little shit (affectionate). My trainer sona is about as human as youre gonna get from one of my sonas im gonna be honest with you, drawing a people without claws feels wrong.........

The pokesonas are also redesigns from way back when i first got into pokemon, theyre a good 9/10-ish years old now lol, im suprised i even remembered them...i did have a friend who indirectly reminded me of them though so i suppose that helps lolll

The charizard was just cuz i have an irrational dislike towards the charmander line but caught the marked tera raid 'zard for the sake of having all three. I do not like him <3

Also finally, N, the guy i am only a little obsessed with ever since i got into pokemon but uh idk that much seems obvious doesnt it? Hes so me fr forever and ever (this is a bad thing) (i should not relate as deeply as i do)

Anyway lore and art dump over bye guys see you in the next three months

#moth makes the arts #pokemon black and white #n harmonia #pokemon n #pokemon bw #yuh oh im invading the pokemon tags sorry folks #woe neurodivergence be upon ye !! whoopsies !! #natural harmonia gropius #whyd they name him that ghetsis what is wrong with you can i punch you in the face dont answer that im going to #these tags are a mess im half awake its middnight guys #no one even reads these what am i doing

[cringefaecompilation]

Is callowmoore abusive? Bc in this server im in ppl are saying that the cast is enabling abusive relationships bc Fearne hit him and tried to kill him and theyre letting her get away with it and forcing them to be together

short answer: what the fuck no. it sounds like they just really fucking hate fearne. that's a horrible thing to accuse them all of.

long answer which i'm gonna phrase very carefully to keep it out of any other shipping tags:

before they became canon i'd started shipping imogen/laudna out of spite solely because the people that hated them as a couple and kept saying they were abusive were a trillion times more annoying than people who loved them as a couple and kept saying they were perfect.

i deeply dislike orym/ashton and laudna/ashton as couples because most of the fanworks with them utilize my most hated trope of one's significant other being basically a therapist or obsessing over them both being "broken and fixing each other" which feels like it trivializes a lot of their traumas as easily fixable through the power of love and grand shows of romance. this trope also happens to be really popular in fanworks with dorian, both within ships and just in general. he deserves better than that.

(also a LOT of laudna/ashton shippers are gross about imogen and dismissive of lesbophobia when they "criticize" imogen/laudna so like. i trust only two people with that ship and both of them love imogen and ship imogen/fearne.)

but these are just my opinions. i'm not in the right inherently because something makes me uncomfortable. i'm not going to go on AO3 and start interrogating orym/dorian shippers on their opinions on mental health to get a sick sense of personal accomplishment when or if they say something ill-informed.

just like how there are people who see the fearne/ashton ship as platonic or familial because they saw the shards and went "oh, so the emperor and empress are their parents and they're TWINS!" that's completely fine. they're allowed to want it to be platonic. but if someone said fearne/ashton was incest and went around accusing people of loving incest because they shipped it, it'd be gross.

this isn't the first time this has happened, either. people went out of their way to insist fjord/jester was abusive or forced or homophobic or bound to end as a dumpster-fire and it didn't. plus, in canon both ash and fearne need to come into their own and become emotionally ready for a relationship and no amount of cross-table banter is going to change that.

fearne does not know how to handle legitimate romance outside of one-night stands! ashton does not find themselves worthy of love and their sexual history has been incredibly traumatic! it's not going to be an instant thing and i think being gross about it because you hate the ship is just going to leave you looking like an asshole whether they decide to get together or just stay friends. i think everyone needs to step back and not let their opinions inform a total stranger's actions.

tl;dr if someone has that strong of opinions on a ship i think it might just be a personal thing with them. but no, it's not and it's completely disrespectful to outright state it is fact. sorry about jumping off your ask here but this has been bugging me for a hot minute.

#🍃 #critical role #critrole #abuse mention #i do not know how to tag this asides the obvious

[ardourie]

im sorry this is such a long ask i didnt expect it to be 😭 but im curious about your opinion/what discussion there is to be had bc i listen to a fair amount of rap but im not the most knowledgeable on the history and nuances of it all, and then of course im nonblack. but would you say the problem with white rappers in terms of gaining recognition in a genre not built for them carries over to other nonblack poc? because i think about it every so often especially growing up in a city with such a heavy nonblack latino presence, its like… complicated. because on the one hand the black american and latino-american communities have always been closely linked both with black latinos and nonblack latinos, like thats a whole other lecture on american racial identity, so i could see how many nonblack latino rappers are coming from a different place than the “i want to be somewhere i wasn’t already” place a lot of white rappers come from.

but at the same time i see the popularity of rappers like lil pump and 6ix9ine (not to mention how horrible they are otherwise) who so obviously want to pretend there’s zero difference between them and a black person, who have an obsession with saying the n word as if that somehow ever applied to them, and it just reminds me of the nonblack latinos i grew up around who would do the same (often influenced by those two even). thats not even mentioning less explicit versions of this, like when they had becky g rap for a (vaguely indigenous latin american) league character who they suddenly gave darker skin and larger lips wearing clothes and a hairstyle that originated in black communities. and then im not even going to start on ppl like kpop rappers or aquafina.

like i dont claim to be the expert on all this but it always came across to me as so off-putting and strange, and when these rappers pop up getting success (especially among other nonblack poc who also want to pretend there’s no difference between them and black people!) it just puts such a bad taste in my mouth so i could understand why even when it comes to the nonblack rappers who are usually more respectful and avoid shit like this the want might be there to just put the focus on BLACK rappers alone, the ones who so much of the time (considering like total amount of black vs nonblack rappers) get way less recognition than nonblack ones despite it being a genre they literally invented by and for themselves. again im sorry that was so rambling 😭 but im just curious if you have any opinions on it or anything to add to the discussion as a like… better voice to listen to then me and my vague thoughts LOL

ur fine dw! i love rambles but my feelings r just as complicated as urs im way more accepting of nonblack rappers who aren’t white but like u said the issue of some of them thinking that acceptance means theyre honorary black is very common and a lot of times nonblack brown rappers like 69 for example lean into portraying themselves as black and using the n word and its like . yes ur proximity to us makes u have a better understanding but that still doesn’t make u black, the problem definitely carries over but to a lesser extent

like i said b4 i think anyone can do rap but the further away from being black u are i think it makes it more distasteful, i feel like the distinction would matter less to me if antiblackness wasn’t prevalent everywhere but you’ll have ppl imitating black people and black culture while absolutely hating actual black ppl 😭 i think brown solidarity is important in general but until the root of the issue is addressed when i see nonblacks participate in hip hop it’s just corny like unless they r heavily outspoken about supporting black ppl etc it just comes across slightly opportunistic, its complicated tho

#💌

[slaythespire]

im sorry my tumblr followers who dont know me im mad rn, im just rambling mad under a readmore again thanksss

listen its not that i need to be dating someone im just chilling. in fact rn i would not want to date anyone.

but i HATEEEE HATE seeing people say shit like "You dont need anyone, you should learn to be happy without someone else in ur life! why do you need someone else! just be happy without that!" well damn sue me for wanting someone to deeply love me who i deeply love back!! why is that such a bad thing to want!! obviously if you cant function without being in a relationship that's not good, but people always say that shit to someone going "i feel unlovable and like no one will ever want me" and it feels so meanspirted!! damn!!

its been like almost a year since i got ghosted and i know its annoying to hear people complain abt the same thing over and over again. but its just HARD bcus i feel stupid, and used. i really thought my ex was like, THE person, we talked abt getting married and how we'd combine our last names, abt moving in together, supported each other through everything. when i was in inpatient this person called me almost everyday i was there to say hi and check in on me. i thought my future involved them and then they just dropped me without even an explanation. never in a million billion years did i think that would happen (outside of my bad brain telling me it would, which, well i was right so LOL) bcus they were my best friend of 8 years!!

and its scary bcus it makes me think there must be something wrong with me/"how could anyone ever love me when even the person who dated me for 6 years didnt". and people always say things like "you haven't met everyone who will care about you yet" but what if i have, and my one chance at having a relationship i was so happy in was ruined bcus the other person is a self-obsessed asshole who lied to my face abt so much for who KNOWS what reason. WHATEVER.

i feel like when i make posts like this i come off as an insane person in the "no wonder they broke up with you" way, but i promise im actually normal ive just been very emotionally ripped to shreds by a very bad breakup. barely a breakup bcus it was over TWITTER DM. whatever im just gonna be one of those people that obsesses over fictional characters so much i think were in a relationship.

i just rlly rlly wonder what their reasoning for doing this to me was and if they feel bad abt it. or if they think its funny, or if they just dont care. i also wonder if they think they can just message me one day and apologize and think itll be okay (i dont think this will happen, i used to but i dont anymore)

i lean towards they just dont care, i doubt they even think about what they did lol. i mean i HOPE they feel bad, but i dont think thats true. id be shocked if i ever heard from them again which is just, crazy. 8 years of knowing someone and it ends like that through no fault of your own. i wish i had a screenshot of the break up dm id post it in a heartbeat so anyone who actually read this far would feel whiplash like i do. (filled to the brim with "i love you so much" "i feel horrible for hurting you and i hate that im doing it" "i really care about you" "i hope you stay in my life bcus youre my best friend").

and it makes me really sad bcus OFC we would have stayed friends, i loved them so much that while id be sad abt breaking up i would still want them in my life. (WE EVEN TALKED ABT HOW IF WE BROKE UP WE ALWAYS THOUGHT WE'D STAY FRIENDS). but even in my fantasy world where they reach out after a few years all apologetic and guilty i just couldnt do it anymore.

one more but i don't understand what would compel someone to say all that knowing theyre lying and dont give a fuck about you, like it only comes off as evil and fucked up and cruel to me, so how else am i supposed to take that.

[bigassbowlingballhead]

wow. we’re almost done. what a journey we’ve been on together, jon.

just finished season six and i liked it SO much more than season five. if every episode starred may it still wouldnt be enough for me but im obsessed with the thought that she didnt hesitate for a SECOND to play a moody teenage addict, not to mention the fact that she ate and left not a single crumb. i picture bobby and athena talking about the situation and may piping up from the other room like “i could pretend to be addicted to heroin and infiltrate the cult that probably killed someone” without even looking up from her book. i would die for her.

also, i dont think ive mentioned enough yet how much i adore the couples on this show? so many procedural dramas fish around for plotlines by turning couples against one another, but this show always feels like the couple as a team vs the world’s problems. it’s incredible that they actually give us dedicated scenes to healthy marriages, and like, that’s it. theres no storyline being forwarded, theres no plot point to uncover in the scene. the editor looked at the episode and said “hey, whats the point of bobby and athena going for a run with one another? or this scene of hen and karen watching love island? what does that do for the show?” and the writers said “the point is that they love each other and theyre happy? there does not need to be another reason?” i love that theyre using the space that you get from a multi-season show to really flesh out the relationships in a nuanced way. one of the reasons i really soured on greys anatomy after the early seasons is because they double dosed us with angst and drama. in 911, the writers understand that there’s enough trauma in the jobs theyre doing. they dont need to drop bombs into healthy relationships to keep our attention; the SITUATION keeps our attention, and then the characters keep our INTEREST. if every element of your show is just shock value drama and horrible things happening to beloved characters, the audience gets pretty overwhelmed pretty fast. 911 is a rare example of a long running procedural not falling into the soap-opera pipeline. okay sorry writer rant over. i just really love well written stories.

here we go into season seven. i cannot wait to catch up and i cannot wait to watch evan buckley finally kiss a man! i’ll check back in once im officially done but im so psyched to watch live on thursday with the rest of you guys.

may is a real unsung hero of season six i think. She's so much fun.

the relationships really are were this show soars above the rest. I'm glad you're enjoying that part of it too.

have fun with season seven! the cruise is sooooo well done. I can't wait for you to meet tommy again!

#box talk: weewoo edition #basil-bird

[davidtennantpussytulpa]

sorry im gonna send you another ask cos im Obsessed with you. now do star trek. um specially ds9 but also tng pls and thank you also i love you . And you can answer for tos too if you want 😋

KICKS MY LITTLE FEETS IN THE AIR FOREVERRRRR 🤭🤭🙈🙈🙈 YAAYAYY MUTUAL OBSESSIONNNN ❣️❣️❣️❣️ILYYYY

Favorite character: tos is spock tng is data ds9 is quark HEEHEEEE 🤭🤭🤭

Second favorite character: tos is jim tng is UHM. IMPOSSIBLE TO CHOOSE. BUT MY SWEET ANGEL WESLEY 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻 OR MY SILLY ANGEL WORF 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻 and ds9 i loveeee jadzia… 💙💙💙

Least favorite character: tos i dont dislike anyone on the crew so probably mudd bc even tho i really love his eps hes a good villain hes also a misogynist </3 tng is pulaski like SORRYYY to all the thinkpiece bitches out there saying its not feminist to hate her bc shes basically the same as bones its like. 1. okay so shes kind of badly written bc they just tried to rip off bones and 2. her thing with data isnt the same as his with spock bc spock was bitchy right back but data just didnt get it. so she was just being straight up cruel to him all the time and nobody defended him. YEAH SHE GOT ME HEATED. and ds9 i got distracted by so many other tv shows shes been on hiatus for a bit but kai winn booooo we hate your ass 👎🏻👎🏻👎🏻

The character I’m most like: now. Uhm. literally fighting one million years with myself to determine kirk or spock and i never fully decided so we will leave it at they are two sides of the same coin and that coin is MEEEE ^_^. tng is hard to say bc i love them all but none of them ever grabbed me by the throat and shoved me into a mirror like so many other shows have done. i think either data geordi or picard (minus his leadership skills) would be the closest fit for me. and well as those who were here for biquark url know. 😏🤭

Favorite pairing: tos is obviously spirk 5ever and always like it changed the world. they are the fucking blueprint for everything they invented gay people. tng literally everything is so fun i think everyone has huge chemistry such interesting dynamics with each other. deanna and riker invented t4t bi4bi love but then geordi and data invented my lovely robot wife but then rikorf invented silly boy and autistic boy love and then qcard invented me and my wet crumpled paper bag weirdo boyfriend. HOW COULD I DECIDE… 💔💔 and ds9 quodo is everythang… i love you sillies ❤️

Least favorite pairing: this has less to do with tos and more the crimes of other trek series using tos characters but. spuhura i guess you had some moments but why did they do both your characters the disservice :(( and tos chapel and spock was so nice and hurting like i love her she crucified herself for the right to love a stoic alien (girl i get ittt) and snw fucking slaughtered her. literally feel sick thinking about how horribly they adapted her. evil and sick and twisted. anyways. tng i didnt love geordis weird hologirlfriend and also barclay stay your ass away from any woman on board. ds9 whaaaleeeee i dont really hate anything at the moment ^-^ i guess when i swing back around to it i may have more to say…. 🧐

Favorite moment: OHHHOHHHHOHHH. WELL. tos pretty much anything with spock he is my beautiful angel. but ill say the entirety of city on the edge of forever its so insanely good and has me vomiting up blood. oh also i love kevin riley when he goes crazy and is singing to the ship :•) tng oh god when data is on that planet with the little girl hes pen pals with. ingrained in my brain forever. but there are honestly so many moments i could name like i think they might be my favorite crew ever like i said the chemistry between each and every character is so fucking amazing. and also horny. i love you deanna and riker 🫶🏻 and ds9 frankly im obsessed with quark and the undercover girl ferengi bc hes so bisexual with her in drag well um. who said that

Rating out of 10: 10/10 fucking all around forever theyre my three beautiful weed smoking girlfriends. We Dont Have To Talk About The Movies.

#alsoooo teehee in good omens when she calls crowley a good lad and he says neither actually #it reminded me of when sulu called uhura fair maiden and she said neither #LIKE!!! TEEHEHEE THEY SHOULD BE BEST FRIENDSSS 🤭🤭🤭🤭😁😁😁❤️❤️❤️ #asks #I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVAARRRRRRRRR

[mouthsfullofsharpteeth]

Sorry for repeated asks, but I just keep having more ideas regarding vampire polyhornets

Jay is probably hurt too, not just from Alex saying no and stopping him from going to other sources, but because who is he to say anything when he hardly ever spends time with Jay anymore?!

It's always Tim these days, always with Tim, like they're attached at the hip, and it's both infuriating and hurtful. He hardly has time for Jay anymore, so why does he get to dictate anything that Jay does?

Jay is horribly jealous of Tim in that regard. What's so special about God damn Timothy Wright and his stupid sideburns that keeps getting Jay tossed to the side when Jay was Alex's friend first? What's fair about any of that?

He's feeling conflicted in so many regards, Alex is leaving him behind, and he's scared of being alone. He's angry that Alex won't let him make decisions for himself. He's jealous of Tim for taking away his friend.

So if Tim wants to take away his friend, fine, he'll take away Tim's. He's gonna cozy up to Brian, see how Tim likes it then.

Obsessed. This angst between jaylex, while timlex grow closer and closer over their shared supernatural bond, and jay and brian cozying up because they miss their friends and then realizing that theyre actually super into each other… mm. Timlex and Bray are my favs so im certainly a sucker for anything with them spotlighted lol

#asks #vampire alex kralie

[propalitetz]

what is going on in your PtH game?

hi sorry for taking a fucking century to get back to you, first i made my friends post some art and then i forgor

it's not my game its my friends game! im just obsessed with it.

also [HEY] everyone [LOOK] at [THE COOL ART] my friends have [DRAWN] for [THIS] game!! <- links to cool art

it takes place in this really prestigious university that's dubbed the 'crucible academy', and its about a band of students coming together as a team and having to like, learn to work together while horrible shit keeps happening around them

essentially, they have to seek out the shackles binding the grim majesties, to imbue them with light once again so that those queens remained sealed away! gotta delve deep in dens of darkness to find them. so far uhh no luck yet - so far it's still in it's 'setting up the main plot' stage, so interpersonal drama has taken the lead

mostly about how one of the player characters, kiandra, has a destiny intertvwined with a much more volatile and dangerous older magi-girl - the destiny says that they're gonna kill each other no matter what, and that theyve done this in their previous reincarnations. which is i mean enough to freak anyone out tbh kiandras goin thru it she tried to reach out to the other girl and its exploded

so far we got hana who is a weeb failgirl thats mostly unstable and not managing her social awkwardness at all, she's got a piece of her past life stuck in her brain and the much more ruthless, experienced magi-girl can take over when transformed so theres tension there

so my love plays kasimir , a polish exchange student severely into HEMA and music (in that universe hema is a big deal and he's on a sword scholarship) and he's like got this whole thing where he sees himself as a knight and a sacrifice and there to take any blows we love that (it's unhealthy) (an endless line of dead bodies in an endless line of wars!!). (he's got his shit together the most its tragic) hes my lil blorboman i love him soooooo much he'll charge at a bunch of scary monsters without blinking but play his music in front of other people??? NOT POSSIBLE

gwen is a babydoll who im also obsessed with shes like a super-rich girlie with HER OWN BUTLER who isn't light touched but they are like, sworn in on all that light shit, theyre a levelheaded person to contrast with gwen's bubbly girliepoppery. she has hidden depths though its kind of terrifying how she can switch from hiiiiiii omg hiiii into like raised-as-a-business mode. she EMAILS her PARENTS to schedule CONVERSATIONS????

speaking of emailing their parents to schedule conversations we have constantine who is another exchange student (greek, and old money loaded) who loves to plan his schedule weeks in advance in a terrifying efficiency that neglects to actually give him like, time to chill or relax. he's an introverted SNIPER MAN and hes a relatively new addition so im excited to see more of his particular brand of insane

and then we have mark who is also a late addition and hes full of secrets. i know the secrets bc im friends with his player but i forget how much is knowledge to the rest of the party (who follow me on tumblr) rn! so lets just say hes a silly goofy boy and fate will NOT let him be silly or goofy :')

#ask #thanks for the ask!

[mojaves]

tagged by @nuclearstorms @aartyom @faarkas and @cultistbase to do this tag game for some ocs!

not doing the picrew bc i can't make them all in it and it will make me insane but here it is for anyone else who wants to give it a try!!

FAVOURITE OC

SEBASTIAN VIDAL | 2077

it was a tie between him and alex. but i decided not to give alex special treatment bc otherwise he would be on here twice. anyway this isnt about him. this is about seb. the saddest wettest beast of an oc i think ive ever created. he can fit so much lore in him. he has the worst life. his now boyfriend once tried to kill him no less than 20ish times. his ex wife also tried to kill him. everyone is trying to kill him and he's just out here big silly and gay about it. AND he has great boobs. whats not to love. theyre so big bc theyre so full of the love he has for his friends and family. and im obsessed with him

NEWEST OC

VEGA | 2077

they are a bartender at a club. they have black and green hair. they love short guys and fast cars. theyre a menace. they were a merc once. they can down a whole can of beer in under 10 seconds. you want to he their friend so bad.

OLDEST OC

ALEX SHEPHERD | N/A

literally THE guy of all time who is SOSOSOSOSO important to me. he's gone through so many changes, appearance wise, story wise, even names. he is an amalgamation of so many old dead ocs i didnt know what to do with. he is THE babygirl of the moment and the moment is forever. he has existed in some form for 10??? years now. he CANNOT stay dead and it really shows in both his story and how many iterations he went through to get to this point. tall bastard man who im in love with actually.

MEANEST OC

RUTHIE O'CONNELL | N/A

she's a girlboss but also a horrible person. she tried to kill her husband [after she died. ghost revenge] and eventually succeeded. and then tormented his great[?] nephew, alex. for so many years. until HE also died. bc of her. and now his [not] life is in complete and utter shambles. 0 remorse she just saw this baby and was like ok now how can i torment him psychologically for the next 22 years of his life. and then did it. and for what. girl thats a wholeass fresh baked infant why are you haunting him. go somewhere else.

SOFTEST OC

NOAH TALAVERA | 2077

he is just a little guy who is SO full of love despite the horrors. so gentle with literally everything he touches. the city could have completely changed and ruined him. he could have become angry. he could have become a merc to get money. and fall into that pit like so many others did. but he didnt!!! he didnt let that happen!!!! yes the city may have hurt him and left him with cyberware he never wanted but it will NEVER stop him from being kind. ever. and i love him so much for it.

MOST ALOOF/STANDOFFISH OC

XAVIER MASON | 2077

he is an arasaka plaything whose whole personality has been completely altered bc of it. he used to be welcoming and friendly and Kind. but bc of literally everything arasaka did to him, he's extremely cold and distant, and a bit of an asshole. he is well aware of this, and there is a little voice in him somewhere. begging for him to be kind again. just once. because while he won't ever admit it, he doesnt want to die believing everyone thought he was nothing more than an arasaka bootlicker and an all around shitty guy. he's a loving father, deep down in there somewhere, he just cant show it. and he doesnt know how </3 he'll figure it out again. one day

DUMBEST OC

LUCIANO VIDAL | 2077

it's funny bc he is actually really smart, his brain is a sponge when it comes to learning new things, he is a great listener, and will remember basically everything you ever tell him. however!!! when he started his job as a security guard at a club, he somehow didnt notice his own brother was also there working occasionally. for a whole entire month. [theyre both idiots there sorry seb] but then after that. he also failed to mention to his two sisters that he finally got in contact with his brother again after almost 20 years. it took. ???? a good handful of months for anyone to find out. and it was entirely by accident.

he's very stupid and his idea of what is and isnt important is Very skewed. but i still love him.

SMARTEST OC

LEON DELLO RUSSO | 2077

he designed his own cyberarm. the fingers are full of different sized screwdrivers for different emergencies. he once plotted out the floorplan of an entire spaceship by memory and sheer luck. he is very good at repairing things. he is a cybersecurity expert. he almost got killed for hacking into the wrong systems at work once. he contains multitudes.

OC I'D BE FRIENDS WITH IRL

MARCUS/RYAN/VAL | N/A

yes theres three of them theyre a package deal. marcus sees ghosts. ryan is a wandering soul trying to find her body back. val can read your fortune with eerie accuracy. if the three of them were my friends my life would never be boring ever again

#oc tag #HELLO HI. THIS TOOK FOREVER I AM SO SORRY. READ ABOUT MY CHILDREN #THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR STILL TAGGING ME EVEN THOUGH IM SO BAD AT THESE 😭 <33

[goremet-chef]

ramble (not really a vent? im not that upset about it, just system talk)

giving up control is so... scary? and its hard. because i know theyre trying to help but then the part of me that doubts i even have a system at all comes in like 🗣🗣📢‼ switching with someone who isnt as horribly sad as you means yr faking and yr not grieving artemis like how she is worth!! scum

like. OKAY... i know its not true but shit bro it still feels that way. its kinda weird, i ended up being a mixed part (theres ANPs (apparently normal part) and EPs (emotional part). ANP is like.. what the host IDEALLY would be and i did used to be an ANP but when an ANP ends up holding onto trauma, then yr a mixed part)

so in a perfect world, someone else would bear this pain for me (bob helped with that last time, but i didnt wanna bother them again) and id be at least functional. but i bear my own pain, making it really hard for my system to function because the one whos fronting the most is incapacitated with issues, sorry gang

i know its my fault on some level because i cling on to that pain like a lifeline. my therapist told me a long time ago, that ive been sad for so long that ive grown comforted by the feeling, and. YEAH, thats still true. its like second nature, that whole "oh i dont know who id be if i wasnt sad" type shit

BUMMER, but whatever. im not so bothered by it. but i recognize that yeah, im holding us back. i know i am. if jonas was our host we honestly might have a job by now, or at least wouldve started looking. if elliott was our host, our room wouldnt get so horrible, etc

but cuz im so insistent on feeling everything i can feel, i hardly leave front, and if i do its not for long. im almost obsessed with the misery i feel, cuz its like. its what i know, yknow? my own character is defined by anger and red and blood and WHATEVER, it feels like who i am yknow?

and its SCARY. its scary even if i just LISTEN to them. go at it with a can-do attitude? okay.. even if i looked on the bright side, even if i was happy to create art and started working with some good music, etc, like.. it SOUNDS good but. i cant just forget all my problems. i know they want me to, but its. hard. its so hard man im not done DEALING with them. i dont want them to feel that pain instead. we're stuck in a weird loop where like.. their job is to take the burden of trauma away or soothe me, but my job is to prevent them from getting trauma YOU FEEL ME? its so. INCONVENIENT guys we are not winning 💀