#im sleeby tho

[rapidhighway]

Illness: leg hurts when i lay down

#i can't sleep i guess this is as good a reason as ever to write fanfic hmm? #Im sleeby tho

[vaisaur]

Orville Pecks rodeo was a fun ass show

#im sleeby tho #vai says #goodnight everybody

[actual-corpse]

Got a muh fucken TV mote on my phone.

#i dont really like Roku #but its the only TV OS that actively advertises a remote #i prefer Android OS but #eh #also #Roku remotes are so fucken small #i could like #smuggle it in my vagina (it would fucking hurt tho bc I have an inch wide cyst and it hurts when pressure is applied to my insides- #I ONLY know this because my second ultrasound hurt every time they went deep. first one didnt hurt... So I think its the cyst-) #kinda mad I'm not tipsy #i paid good money for that slushie #and it was alcoholy #im sleeby tho #so imma take a nap #and dream about hot boys #omg i have to work tomorrow and Devin will be there and I hope my brain can be normal bc jfc please god no #i should be good since my period was normal but idk #fingies crossed

[modmad]

IS RGB CASTING DOUBT BC THAT'S GENIUS

I really need to make a 'PUN SPOTTED' gif like a really obnoxious one with glitter and shitty clipart

#if anyone out there wants to you're welcome #im going to bed tho im sleeby #anyway #PUN SPOTTED

[lesbianfakir]

I could write a three hour video essay on tutu and gender but I really love how a show in a genre that’s primarily targeted towards girls explores how expectations of masculinity can traumatize young boys.

This is shown with Fakir especially. While the text never explicitly attributes his behavior to his gender, his arc over the course of the show is quintessentially informed by toxic gender roles. This got long and I have a lot of thoughts so I'm gonna put it under a readmore:

Fakir has one unchanging goal for the duration of the show: he wants to keep the people he loves safe. But outside elements twist this motivation into an identity. He is suffocating under the weight of a person he has never been and can never be no matter how hard he tries to mold himself.

Much of his personality is likely a direct result of circumstance. We are shown multiple times that when he feels in his element he’s inclined to a gentle disposition (ie how he acts with Duck as a duck or with Raetsel). As a young child especially he appears earnest and naive, his already innate desire to protect blinding him to the cruelty of the world. However, this sweeter side is near overwritten by the cold, domineering personality that characterizes his early appearances in the show.

We can infer that without the trauma inflicted on him by the story Fakir would have retained much more of this gentler personality as he grew up. Instead, his desire to protect others is twisted and warped by fear, becoming a desire to control.

Even before having his life upended, Fakir wanted to to take the weight of protecting the entire town all upon himself. He sees a true hero as someone who stands on his own without help.

So how does this tie into gender? Fakir deliberately crushes his "weaker" side--the earnest, sensitive young boy in the favor of a tough persona. He particularly views emotions as a weakness. It's notable that in one of the most iconic scenes in the show, Fakir has a breakdown over someone seeing him crying. This simple display of human emotion is enough to completely shatter the image he has constructed for himself. Fakir's harsh, impossible standards for himself are rooted in toxic masculinity, in the idea that men--real men--are never visibly sad or scared.

Immediately after losing everything as a child, Fakir was given a new source of hope and pride: the role of the Knight. He, of course, built his whole identity around this role. The Knight, like the Prince is expected to protect others without fear. This can be read as analogous to how men struggle under the expectation to be the protectors and the breadwinners, expected to take pain and hardship upon themselves so those under their care may live a comfortable life. However, the story's knight is doomed from the start: a failed protector. Fakir is growing up under literal impossible standards. He's meant to give everything and crumble under that weight without achieving anything.

It's worth noting that the Princesses' roles are meant to revolve seeking affection from men while the men's roles are colored by violence. Contrast the Knight and Princess Tutu who are both destined to accomplish nothing and be forgotten: while Tutu gracefully dissolves into a speck of light, the Knight is gruesomely torn apart. Here, masculinity becomes inextricably linked to violence in Drosselmeyer's world.

For as long as Fakir tries to be a knight worthy of the story he is confined by a toxic gender role. A protector relies on the idea of a weaker subset of person--the protected. Even without malicious intent, this strips agency. Fakir ignores Mytho's wishes all for the sake of "keeping him safe." Likewise Duck doesn't' want Fakir's protection. In several episodes she begs him to give up on fighting and search for peaceable solutions.

Even though neither Duck nor Mytho ask for Fakir to fight for them he feels personally responsible for their safety to the point his entire self esteem rests on his ability to protect them. Despite his guarded exterior, two of the three times he breaks down crying are because Duck got hurt --due to his own incompetence in his eyes.

Fakir can only grow as a person when he stops placing everything on his own shoulders. For all he clings to the sword his real strengths are found outside of battle. He only saves Duck by opening up to her in his first display of willing vulnerability.

By the end of the series he has entered a genuine partnership with Duck. Rather than a one-sided relationship where he sees himself as her protector, he writes her story and trusts her to guide herself through it. This is in direct opposition to the masculine ideals he clung so hard to. The knight and the prince --his role models--are both meant to be self-sufficient in the original fairytale. Instead, Fakir is able to be a vulnerable boy who gets scared and hurt--and doesn't need to hide it--but has friends he can rely on when times are tough.

Fakir's arc doesn't involve him becoming more feminine, necessarily, but it does show him breaking free of the standards placed on his shoulders by toxic masculinity. He was never meant to be a fighter; that was an unfair role he was forced into. At the end of the show Fakir was achieved his freedom. He isn't a knight. He isn't a protector. He isn't personally responsible for the lives of those he loves. He's just Fakir.

#princess tutu #i wrote this long before the barbie movie came out and 'he's just fakir' has me giggling so bad #hes kenough guys #i dont know how much this is genuine analysis and how much is me stating the obvious but ah well #fakir hater gang dni this isnt for you /lh #tho i want to be clear im not saying hes not responsible for the shitty things he did because wah wah hes under pressure #im saying he sucks BECAUSE man has got a deeply unhealthy relationship with gender #anyways if you read this far ily #now for the most important part of this post: #i raise you trans girl fakir #im fuckin sleeby if anything doesnt make sense im sorry #lea talks

[e-vasong]

i know that im ridiculously tired because i made myself sad thinking about colins title of skald being a homophone to scald, which not only means to burn but also specifically refers to injuries caused by steam and/or hot liquid. anyway guess what two things are most commonly used when u need help melting down a big hunk of cheese. like maybe, presumably, even a person-sized hunk of cheese. so. yeah.

#dimension 20 #the ravening war #colin provolone #i have not slept well this week and i can tell cause im really sad about this even tho #it is objectively a NOTHING thought #its literally pure chance that lou and brennan picked the word skald #but also im sleeby im allowed to be sad about nothing no one look at me

[soldier-poet-king]

hanging out with A Creachure*

*catsitting my friend's middle aged BEAST who i am *definitely not* allergic to

#the duality of fran #it's ok it's already ragweed season so im already poppin that allegra d 2x a day anyway #as long as i keep my pillow clear of cat fur and my healing tattoo covered it'll be alright #he is. so fat. and chill\ #just wants tummy rubs and lots of snacks and to sit with the balcony door open #gotta love that downtown smog i guess???? #im all settled and he has calmed as well #but now i gotta like. go get groceries #im SLEEBY and have a mild headache tho #there's a sbucks across the street. i can have a fancy coffee???? as a treat???? #ughh groceries requires meal planning for the next week and im in an unfamiliar kitchen idk what basics she has #will have to go digging. which she told me to do! i still feel weird doing it???? #my fave used bookstore is also less than 10 min walk away #and a bunch of thrift stores are maybe 15 min walk #tmrw after mass. oh u KNOW what im going to do

[happy-tori-friends]

girl who has slacked off the past few days and needs to work on inbox things really bad (me)

i did stream for 4 hours the day before yesterday and the final bit of endwalker was very stressful but i dont have excuses for yesterday :^) hopefully i get my shit together and get at least one prompt done.

in other news benchmark 2 releases today and i might just. remake all the conjurers in that when i grab screenshots of splendont n lifty (and edit shifty's hat onto lifty bc graphic design is my passion).

#tori talks #im so sleebie tho

[wonderfulxhappiness]

vaniii hai hru i missed uu<3<3

hai eden !! i am. surviving............ howre u

#im sleeby as fuck tho #i have a meeting later...... but i need to try and beat the boss of ex-8 in the arknights event today...................... #augh

[peachcitt]

peach of the citt you are so epic you are so cool

anon of the ymous you are so sweet you are so nice

#anon #ask #great way to start my morning :’) #in other news MAN im sleepy. i slept TOO good to the point where now all i want to go to sleep #unfortunately wednesdays are my longest day of the week so fuckin goddamn #im sure it’ll be fine after lunch tho. but right now i want to put my head down and sleep through all my classes #students walk in and im face down at my desk with a sign scribbled on notebook paper saying ‘check google classroom’ #on google classroom there’s their assignments and an announcement from me that says ‘im sleeby’

[rapidhighway]

Oh they were right when they said that once you skip a uni class you're not going back xddfdn

#im SO TIRED TOT #I'm just physically tired i wanna go snork mi mi you know #wanna be sleepin #sleeby #tired #my body is literally refusing to cooperate lmfao im just exhausted dcdfhhvvsszdd #im not fighting it tho xd

[castielsprostate]

reboglel or smth idk

#okay i PROMMY im actually gonna go sleeby now #night night!! #answer my poll tho <3 #sjonnie does polls #also this is q based on YOUR beliefs!! not a specific universe/fandom tehe <3

[crowtechs]

hi. im super tired. ive been up for too long e_e buuuuut i also finally created something and actually did something :D

i wanted to do fake tweets again ^^ but never gotten the motivation to really do it until now! i wanted it to be selfship related too ;u;

im creating the accounts now its gonna take a while but i made mine / sonas account so here ! i wanna show you it because i think its pretty

i might edit it later but yay ...

i think it came out nice :D

#so sleeby..... so proud though...... i did something....... #i wanted an icon that matches her hair but i couldnt find any i really liked unfortunately :( #i was going to make the rest tho like with aes pictures but finding one for dave IS SO HARD so i may not do that #unless i find some that fit what i have in mind :] #i cannot think anymore im too tired #goodnight everyone in the world....... may the rest of your day / night be filled with love and whimsy........... #ashley talks

[no-dick-no-balls]

GUYS MY FRIEND SHOWED ME GUMMY AND THE DOCTOR RECNTLY AND I JUST WATCHED ALL THE EPISODES BUT I COULDNT SLEEP CAUSE I KEPT LAUGHING TOO HARD AT THE MENTAL IMAGE OF EDWIN SAYING "You know I had to do it to em'." SO I MASHED SOME PHOTOS I GOT TOGETHER AND WITH A LITTLE BIT OF EDITING I DID IT!

AND HERE IT IS WITH A MORE ACCURATE TEXT BUBBLE

Edit: here's how long it took

#yes i went through the effort to color match a text bubble #it was not fun #but i did it :3 #i am such a good editor #too bad i only do this for funny haha memes #id make a killing as a manga redrawer for translation servers. #but yea #i luv them #i will prolly make some fanart of them both! #tomorrow tho lol #im sleeby #gummy and the doctor #18+ minors dni #memes #meme

[fatestouch]

wassup, i had two interviews today and after that i have to drive up to turn in my equipment, but after that i’ll be around!

#ooc;; #might take a nap when i get home tho #im sleeby

[fox-guardian]

whata up with the time travel fic?

that's a very good question! *walks off stage*

#fg's answers #asks #listen. listen. things have happened in the nebulous outline i have in my brain void for this fic #in short it needs to be rewritten. not that much was written. idk maybe ill leave it #but ultimately. Ultimately. i am not primarily a writer. idk if y'all noticed. #i dont wanna put out a few chapters and then leave people hanging when i have a long fic planned #however. i also dont write very often. perhaps you see my dilemma #if i ever post the fic. YAY! but also if i don't. apologies for having hyped it up so much alsjaksjsk #also if this comes off as annoyed or smth thats my bad. im not upset im just Very Sleepy and am about to go to sleep lol so i might be Off #might change my blog header about it idk what id make it tho #edit: realizing this person may not actually know What The Fic Is. hm. #in that case: BASICALLY i had a fic idea back in 2020 made a couple comics about it said id write it #and then Never Finished It. or posted any chapters anywhere. #its at like 30k words now and it's barely started. idk if thats good or not. #anyway thats proof of how sleeby i am gn