#im trying to find answers in life

[angsty-raccoon]

Hey.

What do you think Lylla meant when she said, "There are the hands that made us, then there are the hands that guide the hands."

How did you interpret that?

Does that phrase impact you as much as it does me?

#i need some more perspectives. #im trying to find answers in life #gotg3 #gotg 3 #guardians of the galaxy #rocket raccoon #gotg lylla #gotg rocket

[thankstothe]

The real plot of season 7

#house md #james wilson #lisa cuddy #screencap #s07e01 “Now What?” #s07e05 “Unplanned Parenthood” #s07e017 “Fall from Grace” #he was trying to cheer cuddy up but im 100% sure hes also serious #this mf sees a window goes “is anyone going to climb through that?” and doesnt wait for an answer #girl that is always aware of the exit points #or entrance #multifunctional! #escape artiste #theres metaphor in here somewhere #something about wilson still finding a way into houses life even when front door is closed and even if it in unconventional manner

[absurdumsid]

If you still taking requests can I have some error x nightmare?

ABSOLUTELY !! errormare cant kiss ? errormare cant hold hands ? NO, I. WILL ! MAKE !! IT !!! WORK !!!!

Error! Sans belongs to CrayonQueen/LoverofPiggies

Corrupted! Nightmare belongs to jokublog

#when theres a WILL theres a WAY #error will make nightmare a doll of him to keep in his office <- he has one of nightmare #also haphephobia ? rendering them unable to hold hands ? WRONG error intertwines their pinky fingers with his string <- no need to touch + #somehow it stretches when they get apart (they can find each other) + its cute + nightmare can feel what error is feeling better <- it is a #+ direct link to error i WILL. KILL. I WILL MAIN #MAIM ** #errormare #IN YOU FACE !!!!!!! #error sans #corrupted nightmare #nightmare sans #sanscest #sans au #GOD i love errormare #<- the fact that theyre both ? falling apart ? physically and mentally ? but thats literally theyre thing so its actually completely ok ?? #<- i fucking. i need that. i need that in my life #ERROR IS LITERALLY CRUMBLING PIECES AND NIGHTMARE IS SOME HUGE BUNDLE OF GOO #IM SOBBING THEY ARE SUCH FRAGILE BROKEN VESSELS FOR SUCH BEAUTIFUL PEOPLW #also like. whiteboard decided to make me redo this twice (i was trying to move down but it fuckigng REFRESHED and it WASNT SAVING) #anyway teehee i love errormare #sid answers #sid art

[wooriwoo]

the complete eri guidebook (2023) full version under the cut ♡ pdf ver. happy birthday @xiaojuun !! &lt;3

credits. with the help of: meg (@hozierbyrne) // brina (@aquablues) // aléks (@possession1981) // vianey (@souladies) // lili (@ninqz) // aweks (@awek-s) // miha (@jaebeomtual) // rachel (@gnanii) // mare (@dongkwan) // ro (@sunghanbin) // rosie (@kimjiwoong) // lulu (@fushigojos) // sofi (@yukuz) graphics: gift boxes // broccoli // orange fruit watercolor // lip print textures // notion-style scribbles // healthcare vector icons // human anatomy icons // film cutouts pack // 3d travel icons // drinks vector icon set // coffee outline illustration pack // baby vector icon pack

#*mine #oorieri #genuinely thank you SO MUCH for participating @ everyone who did . and if i didn't contact u ... im so sorry i probably didnt fully realize #that u were friends with eri um . sowwie #thank you for finding the time to think about this and . for those who did . for sending in your answers i lob u this is only possible beca #because so many people agreed to help... #a note to meg!! specifically!! because you did so much (from being my first interviewee and my lab rat to responding to the few questions i #had . to suggesting people to include and offering your help with contacting some people (although it did not work out in the end as i said #i really appreciated the thought!!) #note for meg (2): i ended up not being able to use indesign at all... it was too big for my poor little tablet skjsk i got rlly excited abt #n downloaded it strategically for the free trial to expire today or tomorrow but. had to uninstall right away... sighs) #special thanks to lili for being so sweet . i think we became a bit closer through the messages we exchanged in between this project <3 #special thanks to rachel and mare who i know are both really good friends with eri but who aren't exactly familiar with me... i was really #nervous messaging you both so thank you for being so sweet and for participating despite life not exactly helping!! #note for rachel: im sorry i ended up casually calling you rachie in my head the past month or so .. forgive me #special thanks to lulu for being willing to participate #a big thank you to everyone for opening up #and thank you to gabi and sarah who did try their best to find the means to participate #big thank you to gimp for crashing so many times while i was making this & to myself for overriding one of the most important files acciden #accidentally. good job #and finally. the BIGGEST thank you to OUR BELOVED ERI who. clearly. is just the biggest sweetest sunshine & the bestest friend to all of us #thank you for everything always ... i hope you're sleeping well by now #and of course: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! i truly wish you all the best today. and this month. and the next year and the next one and the next one an #i love you. <3 i really do #and so does everyone! clearly!!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Hello Hi! I’m alive and I saw DnD au.

I’m a very big DnD nerd and I want to say a thing!

1: I thought for a moment “no Howdy would be a martial Class” but you are so right, he makes inventions. So cool

2: WARLOCK WALLY WARLOCK WALLY WARLOCK WALLY (from a person who loves Warlocks this fills my heart with glee)

3: I am 5 seconds away from designing homebrew for them/building off actual subclasses for them. I am Actively trying to figure out how to Give Wally the Big House spell (which is an actual spell) bc it fits his vibe.

hello welcome back!

honestly i struggled for a Minute there w/ Howdy's classification cause yeah... four hands made for punching... but then Clown's response to an ask about what each neighbor would do in Splatoon said that Howdy would use some sorta bomb (i don't know the names/terms! i dont play!) so my brain went "ah! ranged attacks!" honestly most of my choices here are based off of that post.... its nice to know the Roles they would all take in battle!

ok im not a huge dnd nerd but like. im guessing 'big house spell' is the magnificent mansion, and isnt that a wizard spell? if you were willing to fuck with boundaries a lil, you could reason that wizard/warlock are juuuuust similar enough that either could use that spell

#though i wouldnt call it a DnD au cause im not strictly adhering to literally anything #bc i dont like restrictions or rules!! wildcard babey!! #i like playing it fast and loose. I Do What I Want style yk yk #its more dnd-Inspired high fantasy w/ some shared terms & world mechanics #but yeah warlock wally <3 #rambles from the bog #sorry if this response is a lil lackluster its very Late and im about to go to sleep #but i wanted to Respond before i forgot again #(also i Did try to find the og splatoon ask/answer but i cannot for the life of me find it </3)

[b1mbodoll]

repeating “jealousy is a disease get well soon bitch” in my head every time i block rude anons and delete hatemail so i can try to brush it off but i am not ur strongest soldier so can you all stop being mean 🩷 please

#♡.gabi barks #im okay i prommy (im crying rn) #like omg seriously what did i do!!!!! i dont do anything but mind my fucking business!!!! and talk to my precious little friends!!!!!! but #apparently i cant even do that bc no matter what i always get meanies in my inbox 🤞 #like im seriously not doing anything i just came back and im already receiving asks telling me to kms and deactivate like do yall realize #im a person too.. like im literally real and i have feelings and im not a complete ditz #like what is so hard about treating people with kindness!!!! #ive spent all morning blocking mean anons and deleting asks and trying to brush off the mean words i see and receive and it hurts!!!! #im just a girl #if u send hate or tslk meanly to or about me im assuming ur a LEWSER and have no life bc i dont even do anything fr!!!!! im coolin!!!!! #i was gonna post this with the jealousy is a disease get well soon girl meme but i couldnt find it #anyway im fine!!!! (as im actively texting my therapist) #no bc im so upset and so angry WHAT AM I DOING WRONG #what am i doing to deserve this like please give me a valid answer so i can fix it im so tired of being sad and mistreated and bullied :( #i know i promised i was gna try to be more active but my little heart is so heavy and sad

[unopenablebox]

far enough in the lace section that my golden autumn shawl actually looks like something

#sort of regretting not using more visible beads but it was hard finding something i really liked with this yarn #now im wondering if i should try a niebling doily next. the answer is no bc i should aim to knit something i can use ever #& not make choices that encourage me to buy even more $40 skeins of pure silk rather than using the many extremely nice yarns i have #but i do enjoy knitting mildly elaborate lace and feeling smug. #box opener #knitting #i'm using dyeforyarn laceweight tussah silk and it is SO nice i'm really loving it. was worried it'd be splitty but so far not much #very soft very pleasant fabric. this thing will probably come out kind of small given that i'm down to like 3mms to get a fabric i like #but if i wear it it'll be as a scarf anyway. and it's sooo soft so who cares. #look at that fun honeycombed lace netting between the floral motifs. what more can a man want in life

[soldier-poet-king]

Wahhhhhh

The tldr is my boss couldn't go to this meeting today so I got sent to represent our archive, and I was the only archivist there in a group of professors and PhD students (whose research is tangentially related to the contents of the archive) and I'm just ahhhh

On the one hand, it was great, sitting around a table talking research for a few hours over lunch, it's all the best parts of grad school seminars and I've missed having those kinds of discussions IMMENSELY and it feels like a missing piece of myself has been returned. Even just from mostly listening for the duration.

On the other hand. The sense of imposter syndrome not being a Real Academic. And the sense of loss and regret. Yes yes I didn't go for my PhD because health, finances, awful job prospects for classicists. But I LOVED grad school. I love my MA and learning and studying and being a student. I miss it terribly, even though I'm good at and enjoy my profession.

Even had health/finances not been a concern, I'd never have been able to decide on a focused research topic for a dissertation. My interests are too broad. They're not even limited to classics. I'm bouncing between life changing academic interests constantly, and each one is foundational and obsessive, in its own way. I joked to Atlas this week that I was supposed to be born a foppish renaissance dilettante, but it's not even really a joke.

I know. I KNOW. My unlived lives aren't real. They shouldn't haunt me. The me that exists is de facto the best version of me because it's the ONLY me that exists. And life doesn't have to be perfect it just has to be Good. And it is good. But also. Why can't I be a full-time student just learning, never having to publish, but also an archivist and information professional, but also a mutual aid volunteer and praxis oriented person, and Also have time for hobbies like crafting and novel reading and video games, and things like cooking and gardening and strength training.

I'm aware that harmonizing and coming to peace with the multitudinous aspects of the self is the work of a lifetime but also I want it to happen /now/

#the duality of fran #your probably asking. fran. can you got THREE DAYS without the navel gazing obsession with your own selfhood and realization as a person #and without obsessing about the purpode and telos and fulfillment of ur own existence #the answer is. no ❤️ #ahhh itll be ok im just. boooooo reminded of all the things i try not to think abt #life is so short! life is so long! #i am so tired. too tired for even a fraction of the life i want to live #yknow the usual typical person who didnt think they would live this long and would definitely kms before this #so now its like. i gotta learn to live. i have to find out what i want. and the answer is apparently. i want everything #yes its part pride and ambition #but its also wonder and joy and awe and curiosity #why do i have to pick ONE thing. where there is SO much out there #life is too short for all the marvels of the universe #and i am too much a dilettante for it all #oh it is a good world and good life #some days i am just. afraid of the hunger for it all

[mymp3]

trailer talk

#compendiumnotebook #i probably articulated a lot of my trailer thoughts better to my mutuals and friends i was dming the other day #but the tldr of it is that im kind of disappointed they only seem to be adapting mostly movie and portable stuff #not that i hate hate portable or hate hate the movies #but saying that this is going to be a faithful remake of base 3 and having only portable events and options available + adding movie stuff #feels like a big slap in the face to fes and manga enjoyers. and dont get me started on the hammy lovers. #and also is just straight up incorrect. wish they would say what they're adapting rather than saying its a faithful remake #damn im so sorry yall. especially because if they wanted to do a portable adaptation she should be here. #even if im not her number 1 fan i get how dirty it feels #but tbh i am leaning more towards femc as dlc rather than the answer as dlc now #bc atp it just seems like they take fes for granted and brush it off #bc its not as popular #just feels kind of mean a bit #“manga and fes are there. but portable and movies seem to be popular so we can do more of that!” #minato being able to work a job is something i dont like. he's constantly overworked in every other department of his life. #now hes gotta work too? #it seems like this hero is less chronically ill tired angry and like theyre trying to give him more energy and “wipe away his wrongs”. #iddkkkkkk #im sure I'll warm up to it in game #and find a way to work this into my reading #but for now those are my thoughts #oh! i like his mp3 player saying hi to him. thats precious.

[13eyond13]

Sometimes I still think about how sweet it was when that anon checked on me last year when I was posting overly dark jokes. Thank you whoever you were, that was kind

#i am so much better now but last year was a bad one for me #there was a time in the fall where i literally couldn't get out of bed just because it felt pointless #anyway my mom also forced me to make a doctors appointment and luckily my doctor is super kind and got me on a good medication #but it also was just from stuff like losing my job struggling in school and going through the hurricane etc #im just so glad that i was pushed through that by concerned folks because im enjoying life much better now and that wasnt that long ago #anyway if you're struggling badly right now pls know its not hopeless #reach out for the help youre given and try to see yourself as worth it to fight for #take it little steps at a time #celebrate the small victories like having a shower or taking a walk or answering a call #the best thing for me other than the doctor was just finding ways to be around other people more #instead of feeling defeated i had to think of ways i could fix the loneliness that was affecting me so much #i had to get proactive like i started volunteering and started a book club etc #also i just made myself be very honest with the friends i already had about my struggles and it helps with feeling closer to them #and less alone in it all #because its not that uncommon to have those kinds of struggles and it helps other people open up about their own or just know how you are #the hardest things to do were the most rewarding things in the end #volunteering gave me a reason to get out of the house meeting new people and trying new things and feeling good about myself and #i had to remind myself that i was able to offer things of value and that other people like having me around actually #like the book club is something my friend group looks forward to so much and made new friends through and i started that! #even though i was nervous about it and didnt know if theyd like it at all #other people need you just as much as you need them and thats the truth bby #p

[skunkes]

hi im gonna sadpost for a bit

#talkys #down here hee hee #anyway #i keep getting really sad about like. I'm Only Getting Older. When Will I Find My Person. #but its not even in a ''older = no one will want me'' way #its more like. i want them Now. we only have so much time on this earnth i want as much time with this person as possible and im missing #out on so much of it #literally that ''i wish id met you sooner'' post. with the carly rae jepsen lyrics and everything. #i dont even Have em yet and i already wish id met em sooner #i dont even have em yet and im already wondering how i ever lived life without em. bc im living out the answer right now #and it is‚ well. very miserably. im doing very miserably without em. #im optimistically jealous of future me #while also hoping this future me is very very very soon into future me #i want to be there Now. time is being wasted right now without you‚ wherever you are #(saying this as if its ever gonna happen again + as if i wont have to go thru heartbreak 50 more times before ever MAYBE finding a good fit #but whatever. im really trying to stay in the deluded ''im excited for it to happen'' boat instead of the Get Real Lmao. If It Had Never #Happened Once It Still Wouldn't've Happened/No One Is Around or In Line to #Date You Soooooo Get Used to Another Few Decades of Nothing and No One boat. wah #anyway. sad !

[ayydumpsblogs]

What does it feel like to be mentally clear?

This is a question that comes up more often than I would like to admit.

How does it feel to have fewer thoughts racing through your mind?

Sometimes it feels like a marathon, except that the bathon is passed to a thousand thoughts rather than the next one. How does it feel to have  every tab closed?

And I constantly question myself what it's like to be normal.

Is it attainable at all to be normal?

#questions that the heart holds #random thoughts #life #questions im trying to find answers for

[hyah-lian]

hmmmh I was trying to like. Be very online and do a big art challenge thingy but the Yearly Existential Dread/Weird Complicated Feelings are kind of grabbing me and shaking me like a floppy doll

#i dont want to commit to a hiatus bc i still want to try and things #but i did not anticipate/remember how strongly the ick feelings can be #and for the life of me i cant remember if it lasts long or if its just anticipatory dread until [redacted] #i know i am also having some Big Feels over Percieved Rejection (its not. its just needing to be patient and my adhd doesnt like that) #(and in the cases where the answer is No it is fully understandable and not a Never or a You Suck) #and just Other Things that continue to Be A Problem in the area I live in #today i am Having A Day. #i am letting the creature of my.spul create away from screens #i am eating when im hungry and trying to remember water exists #im taking a sort of caffiene break (1 caffinated drink vs the like 5 coffees etc just to avoid the caffiene headache) #im wearing clothes i find comfy and like #and im going to have some horizontal time with either music or a book maybe a movie bc last night was A Lot

[lixbf]

can my brain please stop thinking about bg3 ive been laying in bed for like 4hrs now

#im trying to sleep but then my brain just goes “okay but like remember how our tav could probably get wings in the epilogue technically” #“oh what class and subclass should or fav characters from other media be and would they multiclass” #“man i rly need to make some of my other ocs as bg3 characters” #“should my next playthrough be an origin playthrough. or evil durge. or just evil tav” #“will i ever be able to completely move on from playing as some kind of elven sorcerer and why is the answer to that no” #“ok so ik im still in act 2 But i cant wait to kill those annoying ppl in front of sorcerous sundries again” #“only have to do a liiiiiittle more and then i can respec shadowheart to make her subclass fit with her story hmmmm” #“i cant wait to turn down the emperor as much as possible” #“would my tavs dragon wings fit with that wavemothers robe??? i think they should....” #“oooooooh what if i imagine the post-epilogue life of my tav w astarion and imagine them being guest lecturers for gale” #“my evil run is gonna destroy me so much.... no karlach... no wyll... dead aylin and idk what happens w isobel...” #“i wonder if im gonna find even more places i never discovered in my first playthrough once i get to act 3 again” #like can you just Stop @ my brain

[amatres]

I know you have to choose the option but the farewell conversation that sticks most in my head in the Gallows is with Carver where Hawke can say something along the lines of 'This is how we're supposed to be, side by side' and he tells them they know it can't be like that forever.

Like, my Hawke at least spent so much of her life building her identity in service of her family. Hawke most resembles their father no matter what, and the family is shaped around them narratively (if you're a mage or not deciding which sibling you lose first and how that class effects how those siblings feel about themselves and their place in the family) and they shape themselves around their family in turn, exist for them, takes up the role of leader after Malcolm has passed. The answers of where Hawke considers home when they're asked never felt right, because they lived on the run for so many of their formative years, the true answer feels like to me to be their home is their family, the place never mattered beyond being allowed to rest and not look over their shoulder every day.

What happens to that identity when everyone you built it around is gone? Where would they consider home when it's all said and done? The Amell estate was something they got for their mother, one of the answers they can give to Varric in Act 2 on what they plan to do now is watch over their mother, Carver tells Hawke to look after her when the expedition separates them. Then their mother is gone too.

There's no final statement for this since it's just me rambling, but it's hm, sad to think about. Who is Hawke if they aren't living for the sake of another, when all those they lived for are gone and they never felt at home anywhere but in the people they surrounded themselves with?

#ama mumbles #dragon age #dragon age 2 #hawke #allyn hawke (oc) #im not writing meta this is just me rambling thoughts specifically born from trying to figure out allyns uhh problems lol #by act 3 the answers is probably their companions but eventually everyone leaves their side besides their possible li #so what do they consider home who are they when they are truly alone #my hawke is a mage which also shapes this perspective i dont know how it affects nonmage hawke #anyway carver was right and valid to want to find an identity separate from the family #bc like look how his sibling destroys themself trying to shape themselves around it #as for my own hawke id say she felt most content in lothering she briefly was feeling the same in kirkwall in act 2 but when leandra dies #part of her dies with her i suppose. shes the champion of kirkwall and its a death sentence bc shes a mage so she decides #to try and help at least make the world a bit more comfortable for any mage that comes after her #allyn and anders in act 3 shaking hands over being suicidal and throwing themselves into at least making it mean something #by helping ppl like them maybe having a better life #on that point the chantry explosion didnt feel like a axe to allyn it felt like a release. finally the hold of this place has lifted #if that makes sense lol. kirkwall was only for her mother now that shes gone allyn was waiting for an end to her stay there and it came #back to being on the run. something that felt more natural to her. maybe one day she will have a small farm again #or maybe she will live in a city with a garden if the people she surrounded herself wanted to live there #just somewhere that the noose of her family's ghosts were no longer strangling her

[bucket-of-amethyst]

If you’d want a Swedish dog breed for Iskall, I’d recommend either a Drever (short legged hunting dog, very cute) or a Jämthund (A huge softy with the fam). Coming from a fellow Swede, they’re the best breeds we got to offer

Ooo thank u! I'm not looking for a swedish breed in specific! Should made that clearer earlier jdjkskd But if it fits it fits! I just don't wanna back myself into a limited corner if there's another breed from somewhere else who would be a good match!

(Checked swedish vallhound in the previous ask!)

Drever i feel almost the same as the vallhound.. I think i do like this one a bit better looks wise tho! I realized I'm trying to avoid too many dogs with that husky/wolf look (category which Ren and Etho already fit, and Keralis who is gonna be a husky mix) because some variety is fun!

The thing is that I would like to consider a taller dog for Iskall first! Just feel in my gut dkdkj but i am taking notes!!!! It cute like a squished beagle!

Jämthund gets the wolf/husky look alike explanation above too

#im just afraid of drawing a bunch of too similar dogs #its pretty hard to find good refs for rarer breeds like these #and most differences are almos imperceptible or wouldn't be that apparent jn drawing form (like size) #i already got a person tagging my saluki wels as pearl so yea ill try to avoid too many look alikes dkdjjfkd #and who knows whats gonna come up when i get to life series and empires people #does that make sense?? skdjddkdj #bucket of answers #get doggified