#in fact he got worse

[pheonix-inside]

Going insane over one of my OCs.

#listen. listen. listennnnn. #he had a chance to be good. to turn around and realize that what he was doing wasn't right #multiple times he was shown how horrible his actions were. and deep down he knew it too. #but he just dug his heels in and kept going #his mother tried to convince him. his siblings. his companion who had gone through thick and thin with him even had enough and begged him #but still he didn't stop #in fact he got worse #he let someone worse than the first to use and manipulate him. because this was something he was used to. being told what to do like this. #and in a final act of self destruction and desperation he made a decision that led to his death #and at the core of it all. he was just a kid who wanted approval. who'd been taught to look for it in all the wrong places. #he wasn't even 20 when he died. at the beginning of this story he's only 16. he is so young and already destroying himself. #and he thinks it's all for the greater good. he has to do this. it's his father's legacy. his kingdom's goal. he is now responsible for it #he has to go through with it #and as he dies he knows he failed. he begs for his enemy to let him die as she holds him in her arms and tries to help him. #he can't imagine a life where he has failed. if he had survived the battle he'd have probably found another way to die afterwards. #this self hatred and destruction is all he knows.

[redhoodie1723]

“Harry, however, had never been less interested in Quidditch; he was rapidly becoming obsessed with Draco Malfoy.”

I just KNOW HBP Ron was SICK and TIRED of Harry

#he’s got that empty look in his eyes #ron should be glad it isn’t his sister but the fact that it’s draco malfoy is somehow worse #ron weasley #harry potter #draco malfoy #drarry #harry james potter #reds art tag #draco x harry #im sorry im a drarry shipper and a dramoine hater #im also a book hinny shipper and a movie hinny hater #romione for life tho #harry potter fanart

[turnstechgodhead]

i think a!dave would be so so so stoked to have a little brother and he'd be very doting

meanwhile b!dirk/Bro's lil cal is getting more out-spoken

#homestuck #dave strider #dirk strider #bro strider #alpha bro strider #alpha dave strider #beta dirk strider #the fact that Bro's lil cal was occupied i think was smethign that seriously fucked bro up #imo cal is the reason he's so.... motions to all of him #and it only got worse as dave got older very quickly #by the time daves 9 or 10 he was probably 1 step away from canon #but at first he had at least some genuine affection for him #tsga #brogatory au

[peanutseagle]

sillies under the cut

#first time i actually like a melinda drawing i made?? #oh my god??? #tried out a this brush i never use but like damn........ its SO good #also sorry if i forgot to change the asks thing but requests are closed 🧍‍♀️ #my obsession with drawing my irl crush only got WORSE i now have 4 fucking double pages dedicated to him. please help me #aint helping that his mom is an absolute sweetheart and we get along super well #even tho we only met TWICE #and the fact that he indirectly called me SMART #nah i'm pathetic #spy x family fanart #spy x family #fanart #my art #melinda desmond #demetrius desmond #demitrius desmond #damian desmond #sxf #sxf fanart

[clownsuu]

Wally talks to his dad about his love life

Home I feel is a really good listener (maybe a little too good since he eavesdrops a lot on accident- very observant of his surroundings)

cw minor obsessive/possessive behavior on first photo under cut

I remember I freaked out years ago when I found out some bugs, specially some spiders, have lil beaned peets

#I will never get over that fact it’s the cutest thing ever #I think that’s what cured me from my fear of spiders LMAOOO #That and djmm #B e a n s #Welcome home #welcome home howdy #welcome home wally #welcome home home #howdy pillar #wally darling #wallypillar #howdydarling #funfact I was gunna draw some ship stuff for mob au with these two #Bbbbbut u h h h h h h #Every single time I ask anything relationship wise with mob howdy and Wally it’s like- #R e a l l y a b u s i v e JDHFHHDJDJDJ #I had a fic where I asked if howdy was married and he depressively said yeah #And I was like “why u so sad dawg isn’t married life supposed to be good specially with someone so powerful” #And he’s like “yeah but I’m just seen as another object- if anything the torture got worse afterwards-“ #And I was like o h #And I ran away with him LMAOO #But then later we got caught by Wally and Wally killed me rip JDHDHDDH #In “canon” mob Wally marrying someone who is a part of the “mob family” he would treat mostly gently #However when it comes to howdy he would still use him as a punching bag #Howdy rarely gets any sleep- and to then be bound by the boss? Who never sleeps and is incapable of doing so? W h a c k #Another funfact #Since Wally can’t sleep he would stare at his (current/possible) partner while they sleep #Very awkward

[starry-bi-sky]

my body's aching like a knock-down drag-out

and my poor heart is an open wound A Childhood Friends Au snippet that very briefly delves into Danny's life post-accident. CW: Mild Mentions of Blood, Violence, VERY mild gore ig. Danny briefly recalls getting impaled during a fight.

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What they don't tell you about being dead is that it hurts. That it can hurt. That it can hurt more than when you were alive. That when you die, the emotions you die with stick with you like a leech that just won't let go. That emotions are ugly little thorns that stick their barbs into you and grow beneath your skin; or, at least, whatever’s left of it. 

Danny is familiar with anger. It kept him warm in Gotham, when his parents weren't home from work and he and Jason were crowding Crime Alley with their presence. It kept him warm in Amity, when the fresh sting of moving was still needling into his heart and he wanted nothing more than to rip and tear into the closest person next to him.

He's familiar with violence. With fights. With death. He's seen people die in Crime Alley probably every day. From overdose, from gunshots, from stab wounds; anything that can kill, rest assured he's seen it. He's familiar with getting his own knuckles rough and bloody when other kids turn and bare their teeth at him and Jason; they're all just starving dogs stuck in a fighting pit, primed and ready to rip out each other's throats. 

Black eyes, stomped hands, bloody noses. You name it; he’s had it. Gotham is paved with the blood of her children, and Danny likes to imagine that when he was born, the doctors handed his mother a file and told her; “Take it. He’s going to need it for his teeth.” 

Danny’s mom (and dad, for that matter) was too busy trying to keep him and Jazz fed, so Danny stole the file from her drawer with Jazz’s help, and did it himself.  

He’s familiar with anger, he thought he was getting better at it these days. It doesn’t come to him as easily as it did before. Of course, that was before Jason died. 

Danny is less familiar with grief. Caring kills and Gotham kills the caring, so Danny cares very little about other people. Or he tries to. But grief hurts. His grief hurts. It hurts too much. It hurts like a bug trying to crawl out of his chest; like a rat chewing a hole through his heart. Some days he wants to dig his hands into his hair and split himself down the middle. Some days he just wants to scream. 

He’s dead. He’s dead. He’s dead. 

He wants the whole city to hear him wailing, some days. It sticks itself in the back of his throat like bile, and Danny is one wrong retch away from letting it loose. It sticks in his lungs like all the tar he’s smoked in since he was nine. It pushes and aches at his temples, in his head, like his brain is trying to swell out of his skull. His thoughts becoming so loud they threaten to commandeer his tongue.  

He has no mouth, but he must scream. 

Something they don’t tell you about being dead is that it hurts. That it hurts more than when you were alive. Something they don’t tell you about being dead is that it’s violent. That it’s bloody. Or as bloody as it can be when everyone has no blood. 

Another thing they don’t tell you about being dead, is that it’s a lot like Gotham that way.

With no threat of death, Danny’s enemies forget death itself. Blood comes easy, like water, and teeth are encouraged. Bring your own fangs to the fight. Dying is something you can just walk off. 

Danny’s been dead for three months. He can’t say he’s been walking it off easy. He’s perfected the art of turning his nails into claws since his heart was still beating, but he can’t say he’s perfected fighting other ghosts. 

Scrappy is just not enough. 

He feels like he’s back in Gotham again. Back in her death-shroud alleyways, fighting someone bigger than him. But there’s no Jason to watch his back, and Danny has to get himself out of there alone. Or he might just not get up at all. 

Black eyes, busted lips. It’s familiar to him like an old scent, Danny isn’t quite sure that he’s missed it. It’s more familiar than his fights with Dash. 

But there’s no one else who can do it but him. Not Sam, not Tucker. He can’t lose them too. He can’t. He can’t. He can’t. His heart can’t take another break, he already feels like he’s going insane. 

With no threat of death, Danny’s enemies fight like death themself. He learns why when Technus puts a street sign through his stomach one day. It pins him to the asphalt like a moth pinned by its wings. 

Danny claws at the metal like how an animal caught in a trap chews off its leg, and every move is blinding pain. He thinks he was howling, but it’s hard to tell. He couldn’t recognize the sound of his voice. 

He bleeds green. It mixes in black with the pitch blackhole in his heart, which throbs and twists and cries in time with his reckless panic. The finger-choking terror of dying again strangles out the air he doesn’t need. His blood evaporates, only to reabsorb into him. It just bleeds out again, cycling like a snake eating its own tail. 

Danny breaks his nails clawing at the metal, and eventually gets it in his mind to pull it out. So he does, and the end drips ectoplasm green as he gets to his feet. In red-vision, Danny sends the sign back with snarling, vicious fervor. The pain is irrelevant in his rage.

Only after the fight does the hole the pole left start to close. Danny doesn’t shift human until it’s gone. Unlike other injuries, a scar stays behind. Ugly; mottled, it aches for a week with every twist and stretch his body makes. He hates it. 

Being dead is agony. 

Every part of him is in pain. Every step, every word he speaks, everything he does, it is prerequisite with pain. The body is temporary, but the soul is forever, and death has carved into it with its freezing green hands and left him with never-ending heartache. It has torn from him and stolen what of him it could, and in return it’s left him with sorrow. 

His pain is his grief, and he’s sobbed in the safety of his room more times than he can count. It’s still as fresh as the day he heard the news of Jason’s death. He knows, instinctively, that it will stay fresh forever. 

In his room, Danny shoves his hands over his mouth and shrieks in whatever, muffled way he can into his pillow. It’s not enough. It’s never enough. He needs to be louder. He needs to be heard. He refuses to be. 

Being dead hurts. 

#tw mild gore #cw mild blood #cw mentioned violence #dpxdc #dp x dc #danny fenton is not the ghost king #dpxdc crossover #dpdc #dp x dc crossover #dead on main #dp x dc au #dp x dc fanfic #cfau #cfau danny #obsessed with the fact that danny just has the WORST fucking time after jason dies and baby i can make it worse #*kills you and makes you a banshee and puts you in an irrevocable state of grief* #delicious angst. danny is having the wORSt time ever lol. lmao even #was originally meant to explore the idea that danny can survive lethal injuries as phantom. which briefly got mentioned. #but i got away from myself. leaning reaaal heavy into the fact that danny's a banshee. At 19 he's got a pretty good handle of himself #but imagine being a fresh out the gate banshee. usually they get time to themselves in the zone to cry until their heart's content. #sorry danny. you have school tomorrow and family sleeping in the bedroom next door #kinda proud of myself. you can kinda see how Rath would've occurred here. #danny is going through it rn #was gonna add a snippet about the city's thoughts on phantom but couldnt fit it in

[weedle-testaburger]

not to talk about the james somerton thing for the 284837627th time, but I'm surprised no one has pointed out how stupid his 'queer women have it easier' take is considering the fucker literally makes it harder for them by erasing their persecution and even the repercussions they face when making media

#personal crap #hbomberguy #james somerton #like he really said 'queer women get to represent themselves look at su and she-ra!' #hbomb rightly called him out for misgendering but also su and she-ra got a lot of network hostility for being so gay #how does a supposed queer media analyst not know that? there's articles and books discussing it you could steal james! #not to mention straightwashing becky albertelli because he didn't like love simon that's just gross #though the fact hbomb pointed out he did that in 2022 makes it even worse bc this was after she'd come out #(and after rebecca sugar and nd stevenson had been out as not cis women) for years

[shadebloopnik]

Debating whether I should make Alastor a cannibal in my angelic Alastor Au. But also bc if I did i'd imagine conversations go like this

Lucifer: YOU'RE A CANNIBAL?!?!!??

Alastor: Now now, in my defense-

Alastor: It's not exactly cannibalism if they're not my species now is it- I mean, they're demons not angels, and come on-

Lucifer: YOU LITERALLY TRIED TO EAT ADAM'S CORPSE-

Alastor: Ah HAH! Adam, my dear, is a HUMAN soul, SO-

Lucifer:

#let the deer eat his people :<<< #Alastor: Well it certainly cant be worse than becoming an becoming a misogynist #Lucifer: THAT ISNT- #Lilith: Nono. Deerie's got a point- #Lucifer: DO NOT ENCOURAGE THIS- #Lucifer will forever be haunted by the fact that he has the most questionable type- #tall and horrifying #he loves em tho #Angelic Alastor AU #bloopnik rambles #bloopnik writing #radioapplith #radioapple #appleradio #alastor x lucifer x lilith #alastor x lucifer #alastor hazbin #alastor hazbin hotel #alastor the radio demon #alastor #cannibalism #hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel alastor #lucifer x alastor #lucifer #hazbin lucifer #lucifer morningstar #hazbin hotel lucifer #hazbin hotel au

[journal-from-the-heart]

i think, for trauma survivors, especially those who were emotionally abused, invalidated, or gaslit, it is really important not to underestimate the significance of speaking bluntly about what happened to you. Forcing yourself not to beat around the bush, not to downplay what you went through with your words. say what happened, without any caveats, without any “but it could’ve been worse”, “but i might just be being overdramatic”, “but it wasn’t really THAT bad,” and so forth. sit with the discomfort until you can begin to let yourself realize that it WAS that bad, you WERENT being overdramatic, and even if it could’ve been worse you still didn’t deserve it. It’s almost like a form of reclamation, taking back your memories, taking back your life, even the difficult or gross parts, and refusing to let anyone change the narrative or tell you how you should feel anymore, even yourself. and it hurts and it’s scary and it feels weird and awkward and sometimes you want to convince yourself you’re lying, but i think sitting in those weird feelings and letting yourself admit that you really did go through trauma puts the power back in your hands to process things and be compassionate to yourself while you heal

#like. recently i’ve been reflecting a lot on this trauma i have with this absolutely godawful english teacher i had in grade 7 #he was an absolute creep and even though he never touched me i knew he touched other girls and made even creepier comments to them #than he did to me. and i never really had time to fully understand the gravity of the damage he did to me because i was #so focused on the fact that it could’ve been worse and he never even actually touched me or got that close to me save a few times #but yesterday as i was reflecting on this i finally got myself to admit. i was terrified of him and i was terrified for every fucking minute #that i spent in that class. and i was a child who never should’ve had to deal with that and it’s clear that i still have a lot of problems #from that whole event. and the more times i repeat that and get myself to understand it. the more i’m able to be compassionate to myself now #and patient with myself in the things i struggle with as a result of what happened #childhood trauma #trauma #cptsd healing #cptsd recovery #cptsdawareness #trauma survivor #trauma recovery

[quietwingsinthesky]

it ever hit you out of nowhere that castiel is living in a dead guy's body and the show just does not care. it does not care. jimmy novak might as well not exist the moment he or claire is out of sight. cas stole a guy's body and his face and his life, and we can't ever talk about it or discuss it in detail because of how fucking horrifying it is that sam and dean's best friend just walks around in a dead guy suit. there's not even a human soul in there anymore. it's just a corpse. stone-cold body snatcher indeed.

#castiel spn #spn #this is not like a Castiel Crime (tm) to be clear. this is more me being (un)surprised that the show is Like This. #castiel is a horror story he is so much a horror story in the rapture #and then they just uh. never bring up again how horrifying and fucked up this is for another like 7 seasons #and when they do its to briefly go :( claire lost her dad :) but its okay! she forgives cas for it! #which!! NO SHE SHOULD FUCKING NOT!!! #but we can't have that discussion. we can't talk about that. because to acknowledge that it's fucked up would mean making cas kind of. evil #in a way that would vastly improve his later character arcs btw. if we had to reckon with not only this massive transgression #but with the fact that cas himself STILL DOESN'T SEE IT AS ONE. #that on a lot of fundamental levels. he is still functioning as he did in s4. a lot of that base programming is still there. #something something how cas never changes out of his suit under his trenchcoat #but it's like. jimmy said yes. so it's fine. that's what it is to him. #anyway. i wish they hadn't been scared of making all three of the boys more fucked up in later seasons. #thank GOD for dean being interesting in how he becomes Worse <3 because they were not bringing that for castiel. #again. good version of spn where jimmy's bloodline is an off-shoot of the lucifer vessel bloodline. explaining a) how lucifer Got In There #and b) letting lucifer possess claire later so that the two of them can have daddy issues together. #something about cas being the monster-not monster that jimmy let in that destroyed his life. #something about lucifer being the monster-not monster that castiel lets in later. the cycles. they are cycling.

[bachirasbodyguard]

blue lock as gordon ramsay moments (shoutout to one of the most legendary haters of all time🙏)

#it's the way these all might as well be canon for me #if someone showed me these lines and was like ' these from the new bl chapter' id be like. okay #the fact that isagi in like half of these proves how great of a character he is xoxo i love you. please only get meaner and worse #if isagi beckoned kaiser over and whispered ' fuck off ' in his ear kaiser would probably come in his shorts right then and there #anyway do you guys think i sometimes say weird stuff? am i like offputting? i cant tell. ily all #oh anyway btw I got a super cool blue lock sweater yesterday and im wearing it rn anyone wanna see #also i was making caprese for breakfast and i accidentally dumped the whole container of salt on the mozzarella so i had to #rinse wet pathetic slices of mozzarella cheese under the tap in the sink. it was so sad. anyway how was your day #thanks to my s/o for the m3m3 idea #blue lock #mine #isagi yoichi #itoshi rin #itoshi sae #alexis ness #barou shouei #oliver aiku #noel noa #gagamaru gin #ego jinpachi

[swagging-back-to]

every single time you stress out about your taxes, or your rent, or your debt, or your mortgage, or your car payment, or your medical bills, or climate change, or your stress over having to work and just do basic things like eating----- remember that if you have children, *you are directly responsible** for them feeling all of that suffering and stress and pain when they grow up.

#anti natalism #anti natalist #antinatalism #antinatalist #i genuine sit down and wish harm upon the woman who birthed me every single day for the fact she chose to keep me just to put me in foster #she did not need to make me or my four siblings. #she chose to. #she lived 3 minutes away BY FOOT to a planned parenthood. #she got rid of all her kids immediately after birthing them #she is nothing more than a factory to pop out suffering. #and i fucking hate her for that. #i would wish harm upon my sperm donor too but he already died #to think all ofthis couldve been avoided if she just did not keep me or god forbid used a goddamn condom #my entire life has been suffering. not even just with adult responsibilities #although those are definitely making everything worse #as in. im about to die on the streets homeless in a month or so. #bc i was born into poverty and abuse #all couldve been avoided if i was just never born

[kierancaz]

Some bitches will cry over Thorin, Fili, and Kili’s death scenes every time they watch them.

It’s me, I’m bitches.

#this is like the 5th night in a row #i don’t know witch is worse #tauriel after kili is dead and talking to Thranduil #Fili knowing what he was walking into when he told Kili to go the other way #or Thorins goodbye to Bilbo and bilbos heartbreaking cries after #or the fact that Smaug got what he wanted in the end #lord of the rings #lotr #the hobbit #bilbo baggins #thorin oakenshield #fili and kili #the desolation of smaug #the battle of five armies #bagginshield #thorin x bilbo #kili and fili #kili x tauriel

[filmbyjy]

anyways, ever cry at the fact that jay’s dad is so supportive of his son’s dreams?

AND THAT HE ALWAYS GIVES HIM THE LOVE, ATTENTION AND CARE HE NEEDS (with of course his lovely mother who does her best. mama and papa park are the best❤️❤️)

#man #is this literally what it means when they say jay is for the girls with dad issues #urghhh #it’s the fact that my dad still cares for me #BUT ITS BC OF MY CHILDHOOD #you know how Asian parents usually will sit down and do homework with you? #yeah well my dad has made me cry a bunch of times bc of maths #well dad I’m sorry a 10 year old me couldn’t do maths😭😭 #not only that #his anger back then was way worse than compared to how he deals with my younger siblings now #BRUH I GOT THE WORSE😭😭

[dynjir]

Memory Lane

Part 1 of 2

[Next]

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Initially this was just going to be a series of really rough sketches, but the more I stared at it, the more it kept growing..?

I have no concept of reasonable project scopes <:'D

#dynart #castle of nations #law of talos #karl #rachel #unknown-person #unknownpsn #fun fact! I used to play piano when I was a kid and the flute in high school! #3/4 time actually isn't that bad #there's honestly much worse times out there you could be stuck with #but I do have memories of me struggling with it when I first encountered it on the piano #and this is actually how I got taught to get used to it :] #one thing to be envious about being a creature with no pain receptors though #is that Karl will never experience muscle fatigue #because WOW can practicing hurt your fingers OW #and therefore Karl can practice for literally as long as he wants #or at least until someone kicks him out for playing the same song 900000 times lol #also pls don't stare at the details too hard ok I really didn't plan on making this a Big Thing when I first made it

[angellic-critique]

Oh yeah, Angel Dust has a sister, her name's Molly, there are a bunch of speed drawings with her.

Anon I think you are the only fan of Molly as I have not sent her be mentioned outside of 2017.

Genuinely thought that Molly was like Niffty/Vaggie situationship because I had NO fucking clue what stance Molly even was outside of just looking at a distant glance over definitely not realizing that was what happened to the past 'Angel Dust Drag'..... The fact that it personifies into a woman that is barely mentioned [much like angel representing or doing drag in the first place], turned into fucking THIS????

I cant even begin to comprehend.... She speaks for herself honestly. You can tell that viv genuinely did not give a fuck about the implications here or the lazy design that is 'Hmm angel dust but pink girly'

I feel like she just became cut content considering there hasn't ever been a mention about angels' family besides his Arackniss

Kinda weird how angel is more focused and put down upon in the spotlight more with Valentino and less with his 1930s mobster Italian spider persona :/ Even attempting to make a different womanly character known as the sister of angel dust, she is still tied down to him and has nothing besides this rainbow vomit old design.

How could I not be confused over angels' stance on dragging while VIV can't even fucking make characters up for him without retconning over herself!

You want this mess of a character design to be made but not Baxter???? I'm baffled. Thanks for bringing this horrid 'writing' decision to my notice. Since viv doesn't give a single lick of sense about Molly I too did not realize that Molly was supposed to be the hyper feminized pink eyesore that was SUPPOSED to be Angel's DRAG PERFORMING CARICATURE???

Your ask has the exact same amount of punch as telling me that Blitz has a sister, they are underwritten to be one of the same since they're women obviously Viv just doesn't like writing women ! :/

#also she looks like she wouldve been hell to animate :/ #didnt even mention how turning a males DRAG QUEEN persona into an ACTUAL FEMALE REPRESENTATION is a horrible thing rlly #anti vivziepop #fucked up #trash askbox #helluva boss critical #hazbin hotel critical #anti spindlehorse #please stop supporting spindlehorse #thats like even worse that she was supposed to be his sister ugh 😑 #she looks more coked out then the character NAMED angel DUST #still #there is no characterization or bite to angel outside of his drag sona #im just baffled over arackniss and cherry bomb having more spotlight then the fact that angel is a drag performer :/ #i got into hazbin for angel dust because he made me realize i was transgender at a really low point in my life. #hence why the character USED to mean a lot to me alongside stolas but like wow im not excited over vivs' spark of hope for addiction #she can barely handle that stolas is a pill addict much less angel dust genuinely trying to kill himself through pleasures #vivziepop critical #please stop supporting vivziepop #spindlehorse critical #for a bit i thought they were the same fucking character #scopohobia tw #anti hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel criticism #leather with no mystique and lace with all the abuse blatantly written over :x