#it was my first goal after getting out

[jklpopcorn]

So.. this absolutely wasn't meant to be posted AT ALL as it was supposed to be just another short doodle but

well.. um

yeah

have an additional sketch as well

#my art #felix #ocs #artists on tumblr #this was completely self-indulgent #this wasn't actually done with my normal set up but instead with a cheap tiny tablet and krita on another laptop #which was not meant to be used for a full piece #but i guess i got used to drawing on it after 200 doodle layers #but still i am highly unfamiliar with the program especially when it comes to coloring #but still! came out quite good ignoring all the things i sped through because again #wasn't meant to be posted #anyway this was inspired by a song i found like two days ago and to keep my motivation to finish this i listened to it for 3 hours straight #while drawing #it worked #also yeah it's the catboy he's the victim of my wrath atm #the context of this is that a hero had overworked his sidekick and a villain took advantage of it by lowkey mindcontrolling them :v #miraculous style #his temp theme is being eepy #in their villain arc the first thing they did was f*ck off for a month and get some proper rest #goals ngl #also the catboy keeps rotating his prononuns like rotisserie chicken and i think at this point i should just give up and go for any pronoun #this thang wasn't made to contain gender #and i keep writing catboy bcs catperson is a little bit awkward i think unless you're literally describing them #also catboy is funnier

[dreamyeyedrose]

you won't believe half the things I see inside my head wait 'til you see half the things that haven't happened...yet

#akeshu #akeshu edit #taylor swift edit #ravi rants #my edit #ravi oc #I've been trying to do more things that I want to but that intimidate me #especially after matpat's video about saying yes and failing at golf #this is the first edit I've ever done like this #it's not going to be the last simply because I have loftier goals for learning how to edit #I'm pursuing a lot of scary art things #digital photo editing and play direction and.... #well it was pointed out to me by a gift of a friend #by a new member of the bestie squad #that....cinematography would be a good meld of those two #and i think i could be good at it... #but that means i have to get good at editing #and also of putting my work out there #because if I don't the main person I'll disappoint is myself #and no one else can be disappointed because they don't know what I'm capable of #......and truthfully I don't know what I'm capable of either.... #so I want to take it upon myself to find it out #and let people see me along the way #regardless of how...... fundamentally terrifying that is as a mere concept #let alone an execution of decisions and choices that i have to commit to #......because i deserve to find out.

[gaypiratebrainrot]

the good news is: i finished the first draft of one original writing project and immediately started writing the first draft of another original writing project, and am currently cooking with gas on it. (this is very good news)

the bad news is that it might be a while before i write anymore fan fic. i will definitely write more fic! but yeah, might be a while.

#i now have two different first drafts that can be edited and rewritten #gonna take those to the printer this week and bust out my good ol red pens #i am on track for my writing goals for the year #technically they were my writing goals for last year #but if i can crank out this new draft and one more after that #and get rewrites on all of them #i will be in really good shape #hell i'll be in good shape with three first drafts #the first draft is the hardest part #i do wish there was a novel draft in the mix #but i'm writing scripts faster than i can write novels and that is also Good News #novel can be next year's problem

[skeletalheartattack]

"BLJ" actually stands for Biden Long Jump <isnt sure if youre aware of mario 64 speedrunning technique backwards long jump

and if joe biden was put into half life 2 he'd do an "ABH", as in: Accelerated Biden Hop

#ask #catboygirljoker #oh of coarse i know the mario speedrun tech #i was doing that shit when i was like 6 #i cant remember how we learned it but id have to imagine either before or after learning about gamewinners dot com #we used that site for like. everything. especially when we were trying to find blue coins in mario sunshine #speaking of mario. im reminded recently of something didyouknowgaming brought up in a mario 64 video #specifically that the 1-up hidden in whomps fortress's tower behind the breakable wall #and they were like ''oh this was found recently'' (as of the posting of that video) but me and my family knew about it when i was a kid #i couldnt tell you how we knew but. i remember breaking open the wall as a kid through my foggy memory #also as for hl2. recently been doing another run on my new computer. #specifically another gravity gun only run. this time on hard mode just to make sure its possible for me to humanly do #which. i got past the part i thought wouldve been an insane roadblock for me to get past #i have a lot of fun doing the challenge. this is like my 3rd or 4th time doing it. #granted the first few times i did it. it was more me trying to figure out the least ammount of weapons to finish the game. #which my goals with the first few times was like... me just playing through relatively normally without too much speedrun tech #which mainly avoided doing prop jumping. only because i thought it wouldve been much harder than it truely is. #i am a little sad that if i do happen to stream my go-through of the run that it may not be as magical to watch with me knowing what to do #i dont know if id feel confident in streaming at any point in the future. im hugely self conscious #but anyway thank you for your biden tech!!! :)

[mihai-florescu]

E4E (enstarrie for enstarrie)

#i told my classmates im going to the print station after class and they were all 'i know youre organized but you have the assignments- #already done and ready to print??' first of all every day is a struggle i am NOT as well put together as you all seem to think #secondly no im printing my enstars fanarts... but i cant tell you #it's not that im embarassed to tell ppl what im into it's just that i dont know them well enough to open up about my interests #they think im a well put together person?? in what WORLD #every day is a struggle i feel like ill fail and i have no motivation to get out of bed beyond fear of disappointing others #they all have some sort of dreams and goals theyre working towards i really dont #well anyway. i got stuff printed👍

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

I hope people know that when I say I really like Mori, I don't mean that I actually like him, I mean that I want to dissect his brain under a microscope.

Creepy mafia doctor man who has committed war crimes and would do so again without any compunction, but only for the sake of a goal. Why are you the way that you are.

#mori: *does anything* #me: fascinating (derogatory) #i understand why people get real uncomfy about his character (the whole elise thing) #but i think it's a shame he doesn't get a lot of in depth analysis #he used to work in the army #was he discharged after the immortal army plan blew up? #is that why he was an underground doctor? #does he have any relation to fukuchi and whatever happened in the war that started his terrorist plot? #why is he determined to carry out natsume's plan to protect the city? #i don't think we know the first thing about his character even up to this point in the manga and it drives me insane #bsd #bsd spoilers #bsd mori #i mean i have theories about the character but there's no way to substantiate it ya know? #all we know is: #he's the lesser evil to the former boss #he projected hard on dazai (which will never stop being funny to me) #my dude that is a child #believes that everything he does is driven by the most logical approach (which... i have my doubts but whatever) #fixated on two goals which were to create an immortal regiment and to become the boss of the mafia #has some undefined respectful dynamic with natsume #seems to place himself and genuinely believe he is a necessary evil #traumatized some children #anyways gonna stop now because this really long lol #storyrambles

[simplyghosting]

One day. One day I will complete my Oz series book collection. One day.

#ghost posts #I think I’m missing 4? #I’ve got 8 of them #which we got when I was a tyke #incredibly I don’t have the first one in the series #but my dad does so I can fish it out #I’d like to get the ones to match my paper book set #but those have been out of print since prob the 90s so not holding my breath #my goal is to reread them in my attempt to flex my reading muscles again #after I finish w Dr Jekyll

[orcelito]

I was so very good and finished my taxes and paid some things so I could reassure myself that I can put in my 2 weeks notice even tho I don't have a job lined up yet (I'm Working on it...)

I dont imagine it'll take me long to find Some kind of job, though it likely won't pay as much as I'm used to. But. So long as I have Something, I'll get by.

What matters most right now is getting out of this stupid fucking job bc it has been Killing Me.

#speculation nation #i dont say that lightly btw this job has been. ugh. #ill miss the mundane administrative duties. as strange as that is to say. #i like feeling productive and valued. #but it's been coming at the cost of my health and happiness #the stress would kill me by 30. and thats assuming my goddamned ankles didnt give out first. #continuing my work on the Unfuck My Life resolution. maybe after i get a new job i can try to get on adhd meds #and also Maybe do smth about my probable fibro. i would love to not be so fatigued all the time thank u #and then . going back to school. i logged into my school email for the first time in too long #i need to actually email my advisor soon. tell her whats been up. maybe that can be a goal for next week. #i also wanna get a haircut. short hair. chop it all off. new hair new job new me. #it's. it's a lot. it's really scary actually. but im working on it. im trying to get to a better place. #ive been suffocating for too long. i want so desperately for life to not feel like treading water at the threat of death. #so. we'll see. whatever happens im going to pull through.

[vargaslovinghours]

They’re like inspiration cuckoos

#💟 #Digital art #Art #Edgar #Scriabin #Does this count as a crossover? Not reallyyy?? #Just consider them cameos lol it's not like they do anything #This always happens with Big Fixations I go to put them down and they just bounce right back in with new ideas and inspiration #I've only recorded 3 in the past 15ish years and Vargas is the latest - literally can't put them down if I tried - I /have/ tried lol #They're cuckoos! They push out other muses and get fed the ideas I have to literally intentionally redirect certain ideas to different ones #Surprised ZEX and DAX didn't make it into the Muse Box this time around lol - I think when I started this I was still in the Spamrot #And I'd been rereading the first chapter of Lost and Found so Duster #Gosh I need to get back to Mother 3 I just need to get enough items for the Mecha Drago fight - I know it's early on I just jfldsajfd #I lose focus when Duster's not on screen lol I miss him already #Birdo back there <3 Love her <3 <3 I'd drawn her fairly recently too ♪ #And then the broccoli lol anyone here play Pajama Sam? My first was PJ Sam 3 and I love Florette and Luke and I /want/ them to be muses lol #Goal-building! #Not that it makes much of a difference when I just keep filling up page after page after /page/ with new Vargas ideas lol #I do love them ♥ But I wish my brain would chill a Bit lol #All this to say I'm going back on hiatus :) It was a good season! Requestober was rich with ideas and the fallout (positive) was really fun #But I am gonna at least try to fill my Muse Box with Something else emphasis on try lol #I'll be back as always for the next sketchdump :3 And if I get another inspiration burst haha #You know I can't stay away for long 💕

[outeremissary]

Poll about creating characters for a game really has me thinking about my methods because while I don't usually situate a character in the world/create a full backstory beforehand I feel like I need such a strong sense of who a character is, how they behave, and at least the skeleton of why they behave like that that I usually get bored and feel like I'm playing some flat nothing when I don't have that. I guess that isn't the same as having a fully rigid concept, especially since I'm happy to change things radically in conversation with a game when it's going well, but it's still enough of a distinct Guy Who Already Exists In My Brain I couldn't call it a loose concept. And usually when things go well for my looser concept characters and I develop them during a playthrough I just hit a point partway through where it's like... cool! I have completed the concept for this character now, I can stop playing and relocate them to a Real Story. They almost never feel like they fit right until they're in something where they're starting from that state, haha. I'm like this with tabletop stuff as well. I'm not always the ten page backstory guy but if I'm not at least coming in with some needlessly complex portrait of personality the character is not going to stick for more than a oneshot. Just doesn't interest me to play! I don't feel like I'm seeing through their eyes yet. Can't get in the right zone mentally. I think that's what it's really about for me- a loose concept is rarely immersive, and without that immersion I just struggle to feel like the actions are coming from the character instead of me and come together into a cohesive story about the character (rather than one about me pushing buttons).

#I think it's also not true for me that rigid concepts are less likely to click correctly with a game's tone than loose ones #my most successful PoE1 run had a loose defined-as-I-went character I quite liked who developed swiftly into someone who sucked for POE1 #she just did not fit the game at all and it was hard to interact with the world through her. and she was made by playing the game! #her whole concept emerged from early game dialogue! #but partway through it was like hmm I gotta pull kiryana out of this she doesn't belong and right now she can't tell a good story here #felt hard to RP her in that game. #she's a success story though I couldn't tell you anything about half of my dao characters they were totally unmemorable for me #maybe the winning sauce for the loose ideas is that I need to find something specific to keep building on very quickly after starting #for kiryana it was her intense romanticism. for kasander it was a stubborn and radical (but not naive) optimism. #for my brosca it was the gap between her dreams of heroism and rough lived experiences. #when I think about it the thing all of these have in common is games that provided early opportunities for interaction with personal past #the origin in dao. the talk about goals and reasons in poe1. the emergence of durge... durge-ness. #makes it feel grounded without needing to do all the grounding. anchors a character. starts the conversation with the game properly. #(although I've also had plenty of dao and poe1 characters who still didn't inspire enough to feel anchored...) #you guys who do multiple playthroughs to iterate on what was only the lightest concept at first are so strong lmao #I can't do that. not in the same game. if they weren't compelling to me in it the first time there will absolutely not be a second. #this is a TRUE rambling post good god. just wanted to get thoughts out of my head and procrastinate on getting out of bed for Tasks #rambling

[jils-things]

pkmn soulsilver babbles c:

i have reached the tag limit writing my thoughts help. im not even done but ig ill just leave it at that AHAHSHSHSH

#since i collected all johto/kanto badges my next goal is to start grinding extra harder for red + #my decision to try to catch as much legendaries #so the first thing i did was make sure that poliwhirl and misdreavus actually evolved - so i went around to find the stones #along the way i happen to find a dawn stone - i frowned thinking like. man if only i could use this on kirlia > gallade #i went to goldenrod to buy some tms and as i left the city i accidentally walked on grass (speeding up the emulator lmao) and FOUND RALTS #i was so shocked because AYO RALTS? IN JOHTO MF #it was male even so i was so excited to grab it - i did and then later i was like “would be cool if i could get a gardevoir too” #“maybe i can breed the ralts with a ditto' #“but I don't have a ditto :[” #AND THEN I WALKED ON THE GRASS AGAIN TO FIND A DITTO RIGHT AFTER THAT AKSKSJSJSJSJDJSSK #i caught it IMMEDIATELY #i was like. wow this is too good to be true. i kept walking on grass again and then i found a female ralts. #now the ditto wont be necessary anymore but i was happy to get one #my next concern was like - 'aw man they're hella underleveled tho - oh yeah! daycare. where's that dayca- #LITERALLY JUST 3 STEPS AWAY FROM ME. THE DAYCARE. BECAUSE DUH. IM IN GOLDENROD CITY THEY'RE NEXT TO EACH OTHER FLDJFKFLFKDKDK #I WAS JUST MADLY GIGGLIGN TO MYSELF LIKE GIRL DAMN EVERYTHING CAME RIGHT TO ME RGRGDHDH #so yeah my other side quest is to get both gallade and gardevoir. probably super obvious but yes they're my fav lines aksjsjsj #there's also another bit i discovered where once i collected all 16 badges - i have to visit the sound designer in celadon's apartments #he gave me a Gameboy device that plays the entire game out but in the Gameboy ver aka the og games and #idk i just... really appreciate that bit? you can tell so much love was poured into this #i enabled the device for a bit too simulate how it would sound like if i played the gb versions. it's so cool #immediately jumped to pallet town and new bark town's ver - it's so sweet sounding #i really appreciate that small bit! as someone who didn't play the og games this one is just a nice way of giving me a tasteof it #anyway - right now im trying to level the team the best i can + evolved with stones and im also trying to look for the other gym leaders #to get their phone number to rebattle (and level up again) #.... i was flustered to get morty's number first... #at the bellchime tower of all places???!?!?!! damn. damn. in the pretty autumn trees smh morty are you setting me up.. slash ro- #EITHER WAY I GOT A LIIITLE EXCITED OVER THAT SMDNDBDBBDLFLF anduhhhmayhapsfunneideasgrgfgf #hi sarahdontlook at meee HEVDVSVEBSBSBD #i forgot morty pops up there and. WHEW. kinda thankful i forgot my first gameplay its like I'm playing it again weheeh

[jrueships]

if a journalist doesn't ask about jaylen and ants friendship imma fuckit and become one myself

#if i have to learn apa style i fuckin will #I NEED TO KNOW ABOUT WHAT LEVEL FRIENDSHIP THIS IS #how FAR BACK does it go???? #ant was drafted 4 years after jb..... #they r both from georgia is the main thing i hear tho so like #were they HOMETOWN HOMETOWN friends or are they 'same hometown? some hometown!!' #I NEED TO KNOW THE DISTINCTION MAY SEEM SMALL TO SOME PEOPLE BUT IT ISNT #for ME #literally like. does ant just seem jaylen as some big hometown hero so thats why hes always supporting him #OR WERE THEY BESTIES AND JB MADE IT INTO THE NBA FIRST ??? WITH A LITTLER ANT CHEERING HIM ON ALL THE WAY?? #cus that idea is really cute but also #i can totally see ant just kinda hearing one day that jaylens from georgia so hes made it his new goal that the moment he balls out frfr #he will make room to talk to jaylen and be besties just over the same hometown fact #and jbs just kinda like 'haha yeah haha.....um' #theres also some things with their zodiacs but #i dont wanna get into that rn... #i have to wait n see if they support my thots or not yet #idk #THEIR FRIENDSHIP IS JUST VERY INTERESTING TO ME!! i need to be a fly on the wall of their interactions #the black n white old vampire goth that hangs upsidedown in corners n his joth best friend who loooves chitchattin

[transgaysex]

amount of people ive had a hand in getting kicked out of a college gay club: 2

#wind howls #um. its not a goal of mine its just surprising that its happened twice #the first time was half for racism accusations and half for transphobia ? and also bc the girl didnt believe women were oppressed anymore ? #which is worrisome considering she was also in the feminism club. but not my business i guess that was like 3 years ? 2 years ago #but anyway remember last week when i was upset out of my mind and liveblogging racism live from gay club. #i talked to an admin and after they talked abt it with the other admins the person is likely getting the boot + theyre bringing in- #the schools social workers to make the rules against racism more strict (or at least enforce those better) #in the first case i wasnt the only one who witnessed it (a big argument happened in the messenger group and then miss girl decided- #she wanted to be transphobic towards me specifically so she got her ass kicked out after i talked 2 the admins) but this time around like #i wasnt the only one there ? but i guess im the only one who reported it or smthn idk. either way i dont go around telling admins- #'hey man kick this person out. heres all the shit they did and i want them out' i just tell them what happened and leave it in their hands #i guess im not used still in people actually taking me seriously and the other party actually like. gettinf a serious consequence #im always expecting them to just get a slap on the wrist. anyway #i hope this makes white people in the gay club more afraid of what theyre gonna say next when it comes to race ! #because im sick of them getting too comfortable ! you wanna act racist ? do that outside and stay there. anyway #this was just an update on that whole thing. leaving it to rest noe

[sk2lton]

we have a guest speaker in math class to talk to us about coping w stress as if this class isn’t the reason i felt like shitting myself this morning😭😭

#chant 𖦹 d’oiseau #‘what r things that stress u?’ THIS FUCKING CLASS THIS CLASS BRUH LET ME OUT OF HERE #I WANNA CRY CZ I GOTTA DO A STUPID FUCKING ONE ON ONE TALK WITH MY MATH TEACHER AFTER THIS SHIT AND SHE’S GONNA TEST ME ON SHIT #on the fuxking spot too. it’s like girl is it not enough that i finished ur fucking stupid assignment that made no sense #there’s literally videos there of me doing each fucking question too and i explain it while doing it #teachers who are like ‘i don’t wanna stress u guys’ then continue to fucking stress u the fuck out should burn i hare them #i js wanna watch the brazil vs switerland match #football is unfortunately my current hf if that’s not obvious and within the past week i’ve memorized most leagues and the teams within them #most players in these leagues. at least the notable ones. and it’s encouraged me to get back into football because growing up i really had — #— a talent for it but then my mental health came in and ruined everything #i was too anxious to do shit anymore so that’s such an L tbh but this isn’t meant to be depressing vent or anything i js wanna say i love fb #ive watched the wc and fb like since the day i popped out of the womb and i rmb the first wc i could rmb #i cheered for argentina so hard but got so upset when they were knocked out by brazil. now i’m cheering for brazil (argentina on the side) #so i feel like a trader to my younger self😭 little me would surely NOT appreciate me cheering for brazil #sk vs ghana was crazy cz i didn’t expect sk to comeback like that in the second half but it’s sad they didn’t tie. good game nonetheless #i’m so mad at team canada ngl cz we had good players but our defense was invisible😭 it doesn’t matter how good our midfielders or strikers r #as long as our def is shitty our team is shitty😭 that’s like building a house on poor foundation #it won’t last long and it’ll cause problems😭 davies goal was such a W and we have so many players from great clubs but i feel like— #— wasted them. i could go on and on and on and on about football #different teams. leagues. who fucked up by doing what😭 speaking of which… mexico’s fuckinf coach set them up idc #i rlly wanted to see lainez play. he’s a fucking game changer but mexico’s coach was like ‘how do i set us up…’ 😭 #mexico was robbed by their own coach.. canada was robbed in the canada vs belgium match jts crazy 😭😭😭

[kakusu-shipping]

How much icing do you all think is too much icing?

Another year, another attempt at baking a cake. Happy Birthday, Koro-Sensei!

#Emile's Arts #Koro-Sensei #Self ship #Self insert #It holds up better than last year at least! #I broke the layers again and the icing once again is too melty #AND the edges are TOO CRUNCHY how'd THAT happen??? #I'm going to keep doing this year after year (hopefully) #Until I get good enough to recreate the cake in the show #That's the goal! #We're two in gamers!! #Also this is TWO years together with Koro-Sensei sense I watched Assassination Classroom for the first time March 2021 #So anniversary AND birthday!!! #Irina's sweater is going to be the death of me but it's too late to change it the colors stay and I just have to be okay with it #I'm not but I have to anyway #first my first time seriously drawing Irina and Karasuma they turned out pretty good!! I'm happy about that! #Happy Birthday Koro-Sensei! One of these years I'll get it right

[whentherewerebicycles]

ran 33:30 without stopping :) my map app says it was only 2.75 miles but my missed-IUI-cycle goal was 3 miles or 30 min without stopping by 3/20 so I’m gonna count that as achieving my goal!!!!

#my first mile was 11:30 and then after that uh slower haha #but that’s not bad! #12:14 average pace per mile which feels about right for my level of fitness haha #also I thought I was only going to do 24 minutes but then I was feeling ok so I thought why not?? #only major complaint was I had a bad stitch in my side but it went away through the power of positive thinking (I imagined smoothing it out #with my mind haha) #now I am sitting down halfway up this big hill I have to climb before I walk 20 min home 🥴 #also still have to walk the dogs for an hour soon 🥴🥴🥴 #but yay I feel so happy!!!!!! fun to set an ambitious goal and work hard to achieve it!!!!!!!!! #i think I might try swimming laps tomorrow?? since I have the morning free #and then I may attempt 33 min again on sunday #I do think if I did it at the gym I have a pretty good chance of making it to 3 #bc my outdoor route has a lot of small inclines that slow me down/tire me out #but idk we’ll see!!! yay now I get to feel smug as hell all day