#it's not exactly the goal

[just-kateblr]

I spend the majority of my time in boy mode, so each time I dress and do my makeup, I end up having a bit of a surprise with the results. I've done it enough so that I probably shouldn't be surprised, but it still happens.

Of course, this goes with decades of negative self talk. Over and over, the voice in my head would remind me that I would "never make a credible woman." Then I get made up, see my reflection and think "holy shit, that's ME! And I really don't just look like a guy in a dress."

It ends up being a very grounding experience for me. There is something very calming about it and it gives me some hope. Then, of course, I go back and look at the pictures over the next few days, happy with the results and telling myself I really should get unstuck and start HRT.

#and yes i know i shouldn't care about passing #it's not exactly the goal #but it would make life a wee bit easier

[jessepinwheel]

there’s a thing I think about sometimes when I’m writing that I call ‘the rabies condition’

by which I mean: there are no contraindications to getting the rabies vaccine for post-exposure prophylaxis.

every other vaccine usually has a few contraindications like ‘don’t take this if you’re allergic to it’ or ‘if you’re pregnant discuss the risks and benefits with your doctor’ or ‘don’t give to children below age 6′ or something, but not the rabies vaccine. if you’ve been exposed to rabies, there is literally no medical reason that can justify not getting the rabies vaccine--you can be deadly allergic to literally every single ingredient and the correct decision is still to administer the vaccine, because if you don’t, you’re 100% guaranteed to die of rabies. even the life-threatening allergies are a step up in survival rate (especially since anaphylaxis is something that can be managed, even if there are risks associated with it)

which is to say, the rabies condition: if a character has been ‘exposed to rabies’, aka, in some impending absolute worst-case scenario, like the apocalypse or some death curse or the destruction of their entire city via demons or whatever, then that character has to take action and the consequences and risks no longer matter, because literally any other outcome would be better, and 1% chance of survival is still better than 0%. that doesn’t make those actions necessarily good, the same way that injecting yourself with something you know you’re deadly allergic not a good thing to do, but it’s still better than dying horrifically of rabies. desperate times and desperate measures etc

and then, after your character’s prevented some horrible thing by doing some almost equally bad thing, they should absolutely experience the consequences of those choices.

#I thought about this a lot when I was writing dielectric #runner too come to think of it #I write about this kind of thing a lot #because it's about being pushed to the absolute limits #to the point where you can't even ask what you're willing to do #you don't have a choice in the matter you just have to live with it #when you have exactly one goal #you can basically do anything #so long as you don't care about what happens afterwards #or what the price might be #it's a scary thing to think about

[curapicas]

This is dungeon meshi. "I don't want the meal you're offering" might be the cruelest thing a character gets to hear.

Well. Maybe second most cruel...

"I won't offer you food again" might be worse

#dungeon meshi spoilers #tfw you didn't want his gross food but ate anyway bc you feared exactly this #kabru triggering himself for his goals to suffering the pains of open communication pipeline #dm has a rule and it’s simple: meal together = desire for connection #dungeon meshi #I like senshi is also shocked here. 1st bc of course he is and 2nd it keeps laios from being too much the butt of the joke #after all he just learned he didn't actually make a friend! #this too is labru #labru

[uncanny-tranny]

Another bonus to learning a fiber art is being able to speak to others in a Lovecraftian language that nobody else understands...

...and also being able to read things like THIS:

#art #crochet #fiber art #described images #image description in alt #used a crochet pattern for this because it's just INSANE #see i can recognize some of these stitch markings but i haven't done them all yet #i actually kind of prefer the diagram pattern because it actually shows you the shape and the way stitches compliment the piece #with a 'normal' pattern (e.g. 1 dc in fifth ch from hook ch 2 4 dc) i understand it sure but. it isn't the same. #i was reading somebodys recommendations for tapestry yarn and understood all the abbreviations and what they mean #plus i feel like diagrams can be a great way to teach you not only how stitches look but how they contribute to the larger piece #one of my crochet proficiency goals is to be able to look at a piece and know instantly what made it #*cue me at the store analyzing a crochet piece so i can replicate it for 5× the cost* #if you're selling a crocheted piece for like $20 then it's my imperative to replicate it and not buy it 🫡 #i think that has the same moral implication as like... 'proplifting' #did crochet as the example because thats what i do as a fiber art. if theres a similar thing for knit/weave/ect then DROP IT BELOW I BEG YO #i want to learn all the lovecraftian languages of the fiber artists <3 #i feel like describing the image in exactly what stitch marking indicates what would have been too much so hopefully the explanation as to.. #...what the diagram DOES and how it visually indicates a pattern was helpful <3

[peri-shambles]

transistor was released ten years ago today... this is your sign to go play it

#i finished this up a month ago exactly (i'm scheduling it right now)...my goal is to actually replay transistor by the anniversary LOL #transistor #red transistor

[stil-lindigo]

craters.

a comic about a love story between two girls who only have each other, and take a chance on it.

Buy “Soliloquy Down To Three”, an anthology of blood stained sapphic comics (including this one) here.

#cw: implications of suicide #comic #lesbian #sapphic #lgbt #original art #this is the last sapphic comic i have in my tank #for this anthology i mean #lord knows ill draw comics of women being in love until the day i die #but this closes out the set i planned for soliloquy down to three #and i couldnt be prouder #this came out exactly the way i wanted it to and im very happy about it #i dearly hope at least one of you felt a pang of emotion reading that last line #it was definitely a personal goal to make at least one tearjerker out of all of these #i love these two girls #their names are painter and muse #personally i think they jump and escape without a scratch #and then they live out the rest of their lives together peacefully #but thats just me #once again thank you for your support #and of course #thank you for reading #stillindigo art

[tiger-balm]

number one rookie supporter <3 | stars @ avs | may 11 2024

#this is sooo sweet !!!!! #AND #two goals for each of them exactly exactly 🥰 #logan stankoven #tyler seguin #dallas stars #stars lb #* #scp24

[ohitslen]

College (uni??) AU catering to my own interests as it should always be hehe :)

#projecting my major on Vash because them mfs who have changed from the med field majors to that one have some tragic things to tell #and also because I think that Vash would be such a wonderful designer I don’t know why it’s a gut feeling #Nai the law major because of course he would have you seen the guy #he would be a personal injury lawyer because lore #fun fact Nai rested for a semester after the incident with Vash while Vash took two.He never told Nai he would be changing majors #so it was a big big shock for him. they fought again but yk I’ll explain more on that if anyone is interested #as to Kni and WW I thought it’d be funny if they shared a common subject that required a lot of team assignments #and they can NEVER work out together. being an absolute nightmare to the rest of their group #separately they are great to work with. even if Kni can come off as too bossy sometimes he is actually a great leader #and WW would always deliver things on time exactly as it was asked from him #but Kni and WW just never really matched. Kni was too rude at times when WW made a mistake and WW would always clock him if he passed a line #like insulting his reasons for wanting to study security #one day Kni tells him at the beginning of a new semester where they both have unfortunately landed on a shared subject again #“you are not suited for that sort of job Wolfwood. you should simply give up and why don’t you go play role model to your little kids’’ #then WW beats him again and then is like hey yk what you’re kinda right. and changed majors and he feels so much more at home studying #education/teaching than security. he fucking hates some things but the end goal makes it worthy #Trigun Uni! AU #because I don’t know how differently a college and a uni work #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun stampede #vashwood #trigun fanart #wolfwood #vash #Nai saverem #millions knives #lenssi draws #pen!

[thanotaphobia]

emizel tucker and shilo bathroy are sosoososos perfect in my mind. not like, morally, yknow, but they are two perfect characters to compliment each other.

emizel's a kid raised on the streets of LA by his gang brothers and he forced his way up the ranks by being brutal and unforgiving and not showing weakness. he's powerful because he refuses to doubt his own capabilities, and pushes himself past what he should be capable of, because he's cocksure and drowning in hubris. and then he gets turned into a vampire and all of the sudden he's in the middle of a brand new society and it runs on violence. and emizel knows violence! he's good at violence! literally this is all he's ever known!!! he's got this, he thinks he understands how to climb the ranks but in reality, he doesn't get it. at all. vampire society is this strange mix of posh old money and a violent underbelly and to really survive in it you have to manage both ends, but emizel only knows the violent underbelly.

and then shilo. shilo, who only knows the opposite: the grand old money, the power, the manipulation. and he's okay it at- he's better at it than he thinks he is, and he's way out of his depth when it comes to vampire LA. he grew up sheltered from the violence of vampirism- sure, death isn't unfamiliar to him but the really gritty stuff, the blood, even the point of not being able to feed without it being served to him has been withheld. but he knows, theoretically, how vampires are supposed to work. he's not at all confident in himself which is such a detriment because he is a manipulative little shit at his core, and if he wasn't so overwhelmed all the time he'd be pretty good at the politics thing. he's smart! he's personable! the reason he fails in LA like he does is the fact he doesn't understand the violence-

which is where emizel comes in.

they are literally perfect for each other. twin brothers, two equal sides of this fucked up vampire world, and if they worked together (and with arthur, i think arthur is key here for them not losing their humanity, y'know) i 100% believe they could take over the fucking world.

#jrwi #jrwi the suckening #jrwi emizel #jrwi shilo #emizel tucker #shilo bathroy #like.............. they're two sides of the same coin #it's beautiful #i'm really hoping afte rthe end of episode 7 that this is the direction their characters are going #the fact shilo Politicked with edward twilight and then he and emizel now have this common goal #of getting rid of him #i think like. with this goal and them both coming into their own a little more #i think they might fall exactly into this dynamic #and it's going to be glorious

[whenthegoldrays]

Yu Ji-hyuk: Well, Jiwon was murdered in the first timeline, but now that she’s back and armed with knowledge and has my help, she can definitely avoid her fate. I have zero doubt of that.

Yu Ji-hyuk: But I am a lost cause who can’t escape the fate of dying in the future in *checks notes* a completely avoidable car accident. She’s better off with someone who’ll be alive in 10 years.

Meanwhile, Ryu Sun Jae: I’m going to die in 15 years? Protecting Sol? And it’s already happened in three different timelines?? It’s my HONOR. Also I just found out that Sol likes me back and that I have a whole 15 years to love her :D

#I just noticed this while rewatching mmh #like jihyuk. dude. #jiwon just asked him what his goals are and he hasn’t considered that avoiding his own death is a viable plan??? #meanwhile Sun Jae who knows exactly what kills him and that Sol hasn’t been able to change it despite many attempts #is like that’s fine with me. I’d do it again and gladly as long as I get to be with you #oh sun jae yahhhh #marry my husband #lovely runner #elly's posts

[booksandwillowtrees]

I don't see why people are upset at the IH/TBK for how the ratgrinders ended up. They TRIED to redeem and connect with the RG it never panned out. They are playing a game and telling a story. If a path doesn't pan out they have to move on.

If TBK try and fail to connect with the RG and then the world is going to end in 1 hour, they might kill them (not always permanent btw!) in pursuit of stopping the end of the world. And you know what. They might be assholes about it, because the RG are also assholes about it. Like IDK. I like the RG. But also like if you're upset when the performers are excited about having defeated their enemies in a battle-game-based show, like I feel like you're setting yourself up for disappointment.

#SORRY BIG LOTS OF WORDS. I KNOW I CAN IGNORE COMPLAINTS IF THEY MAKE ME SAD. YALL ARE COOL!!!!!!! I AM JUST. IDK PUTTING OPINIONS OUT THERE. #but like being disappointed in the narrative direction makes sense #or like brennan who is making the decisions of what paths pan out #idk the vibes have been bad here since the last episode guys #or rather theyve been bad on twitter #and like super valid complaints #but also like are you having fun????? #bc my goal number one is have fun #and idk #guys i feel like some expectations are making you guys not have fun #idk just like #im aware that this show is by nature not exactly what i want it to be #but like #im not gonna be surprised about it #but also i think its more fun to be able to appreciate the parts i like #sorry #like the show is going to be luck-based and combat-based and be more game than story at times #if you want a show thats all story no game #thats not this show #AND LIKE I WISH THAT SHOW EXISTED TOO #d20 but only story would be MY FAV THING EVER #BUT LIKE thats not what D20 is trying to be #if you guys are actually like having fun with this discussion and still enjoying the show literally ignore me #i misread the vibes #fantasy high #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #dimension 20

[mythtiide]

its maid day so heres a little falkler! 🍨 + speedpaint !

#signalis #signalis falke #signalis adler #maid day #AHHH i had to much fun w dis..... i got to draw a little parfait so im happy.... #i promised myself that i wouldnt miss maid day this year (i actually almost missed it because i completely forgot that it was maid day LOL) #BUT WEVE PULLED THROUGH!!! #honestly though this was a bit troublesome because i didnt exactly know what i wanted to do w the colors . originally i tried to do some Ac #-tual Rendering(tm) but i just . couldnt #my hand was startin to hurt itd been like 3ish hours already was just wuheurheuweiuweeruwuwe #im really glad i went for flat colors tho i think it fits real well :) #U can tell i got real fancy w dis oen cause i pulled out the watercolor overlay #yknow actually its been a pretty big goal of mine to use more decorative brushes in my art; just little things to add to the background so #hat it isnt just purley white with a bit o lace #of course simple goes a long way but idk i wanna add some pizzazz! #myth.art

[finngualart]

some drawings i did for funsies and for practise based on these photos

#norse gods #norse mythology #odin #loki #huginn #muninn #the other day i was thinking about how exactly odin sacrifices his eye and how he ends up with the sewn-up socket #i really like the idea of loki doing it and have odin sew shut loki's mouth later on and that'd be such a tasty little parallel #don't you think? #i wanted to sketch out that scene and when i saw the abovementioned photoshoot i knew exactly how :D #i wish i could draw like this from imagination but i cantt hahaha #idk how im going to pull off drawing an entire comic in this style without models :]]] #how to shoot yourself in the foot by having extremely ambitious goals and unrealistic standards: a fucking novel by saskia

[dimitrscu]

so apparently radahn has to be dead before you can access the dlc. wow i wonder why that is /s

#could this be vindication after all these years #you mean to tell me malenia didn’t go to caelid to fight big chungus cause she’s a petty bitch? you mean there was an actual reason #have the redditors been wrong this whole time #you mean both r and m are much deeper complex characters than what the majority of the fan base makes them out to be ?? #you mean they haven’t been these shallow one dimensional characters this whole time #alpha giga male vs virgin bitch female isn’t canon??? #i should stop i’m probably jumping the gun here #we still don’t know exactly what will happen #but i just think it’s funny that the stars have to be moving again in order to access the dlc #almost as if that was malenia’s goal all a long #miss blade of miquella the woman that you are #elden ring

[bandzboy]

god i saw this and a tear fell off my eye like FINALLY

#like finally working together no matter the fandom to reach a common goal like EXACTLY #tris.txt

[strawberrymilkshakeearrings]

tw: for israel/palestine stuff and war crimes.

fucking left wing brainrot on here has people unironically saying shit like "its not palestine's fault, theyre just trying to reclaim their homeland" after watching a video of armed men parading a dead woman around in her underwear on the back of a truck with their boots on her back. spitting on her head while cheering. the fuck is wrong with you guys. what piece of land is worth raping women and deliberately hunting and gunning down civilians over.

edit: this post is NOT pro israel. it's just anti-war crimes. im leaving for work but if i come back and there's any discourse in the notes about supporting israeli occupation or saying racist shit about palestinians as a whole, this post is getting nuked.

#faq: yes i understand that israel commits atrocities as well #reading leftist discourse about this topic makes me want to throw up. what is wrong with you guys #how exactly does raping women accomplish ANY of palestine's goals #source:me #negative #rant #if that makes me a dirty centrist then so be it #i think you can generally support palestine and still condemn this attack. like i dont think those two thoughts are incompatible. #2023 #politics #israel #palestine #ill get ready to get brigaded i guess. my punishment for wading into this mess of a discourse.