#jesus fucking christ im down so bad

[ghost-of-you]

#5sos #5sosedit #michael clifford #my edit #soooooo #this was not why i turned my computer on and this is actually a terrible time to post a set #but hey he exists and my brain goes brrrrrr #id let him ruin my life and id say thank you after #like for real i blacked out for a second #jesus fucking christ im down so bad #i kinda wanna say more shit but that would be inappropriate #like straight up what the fuck i dont know how to feel anymore] #the arms up #the to the moon peaking through #the blue shirt #did you see him???? are you seeing this??? #remember when i said that i wanted that budapest calum set to be my legacy #i changed my mind #i want this one #this is the most important set ive ever made #he is the love of my life and i don't care #yeah #anyway love a good reminder that i can swerve all i want but he still owns my ass aoskaoskaoskoaks #im gonna stop talking in the tags i feel like I'm about to reach the tag limit #im sorry to anyone that clicked see more on this #mc #5 seconds of summer #myedit

[orchidyoonkook]

Hi. This is for my mental health.

SoiknowwehateAIandwedontcondoneitsusebutiwasshownthispicturebykatyandithasnotleftmybrainsinceandineedtoscreamaboutitsohere

I won’t use tags aside from my page tags for organizing and my thoughts but AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#literally has taken up residence in my mind by force and will NOT leave no matter how many eviction notices I issue #please someone write about this so he can leave I just. #look at him. I’m wet. I’m sweating. I’m red. I’m on my knees begging him to tell me what to do. #HELP. ME. PLEASE. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. #you know its serious when im swearing but like FUCK ME man #jesus christ im so gone. im so down bad. I would literally do anything he asked me to no hesitation. #I’m so weak. #myg

[the-knife-consumer]

I feel like im.about to vormit 💔💔💔💔

#this school year the absences policy is so strict.... mom says if i feel bad then i shouldn't go but even if its excused they can just. #take away my credit if im sick too many times. so im tempted to just go and if i throw up than whatever i guess. #god but the speech they gave to justify cracking down on things out of people's control.. #like. 'ever since covid hit we've seen a huge spike in absences and skipping school will not be tolorated 😡' WOAH! craaaazy bro! #i womder WHY there could be a huuuge spike in absences... Crazy! hey while youre at it. #maybe you could use some context clues! are there any CONTEXT CLUES in the scentence that you JUST NOW spoke. do you hear yourself. #jesus fucking christ. nightmare school. #im considering getting a ged bc. ive already used two of my nine allowed absences for the entire year. fucker #etemophobia tw #nooo and then the 'we are one big happy family and our wonderful students mean so much to us 🥺' right afterwards. #okay. then fucking act like it.

[speedydestinydream]

Oh look! The exact moment where Jake was reckless and made possibly the worst and or best decision of his highschool life!

I'd say this is one of my favorite scenes of episode 1 but honestly I love most of episode 1 soooooooooo

#jake simp jokes may be a bit annoying to me but dear god he was so fucking down bad for this girl jesus christ #i dont mean that in a bad way im just pointing it out #tmf #the music freaks #the music freaks rosyclozy #tmf rosyclozy #freakblr #jake tmf #tmf jake #daisy tmf #tmf daisy #rewatching after the season 1 conclusion is insane

[emi1y]

MY BOOOOBS I MISS MY BOOBS I HATE LOSING WEIGHT‼️‼️‼️ 🤬🤬🤬😭😭😭

#EVERY DAY MY BRAS FIT WORSE AND WORSE. im down to one that has been too small for me since MIDDLE SCHOOL and now its nearly too big. SOBBING #living alone is so bad i neeeeed to get a fucking handle on feeding myself jesus christ im in HELL #emily.docx

[puppydoggraham]

Writing the ficlet based on that scene from fromage aka I have to stare at this atrocious Will fit

the fucking vest over the long sleeves lookin like a damn extra in high school musical or some shit

#will pls im begging what the hell #that’s how yk Hannibal was down bad #bro Hannibal truly is the strongest #not only did he have to hear will talk about kissing Alana #but IN THIS FUCK ASS OUTFIT. #Jesus Christ bro #hannigram #hannibal #nbc hannibal #will graham #❄️💋 #BRO AND. WILL CALLING THE SONG OUR SONG ABOUT HIM AND THE OTHER KILLER #NAH WILL YOURE SO FOUL

[weenhands]

im so upset i think im literally shutting down

#im just so overwhelmed all of a sudden because of this fucking course #i cant just relearn everything (i have the time and ability to do so) but it #just isnt fuckiny right and to get a min 50 on the exam #for a course thats known for a severe fail rate #im just. idk i feel frozen and bad and shitty idk how 2 study for this i cant just half ass understand everytbing #even if thatd EXACTLY what i did for my other exam??? #bc i Did remember some stuff #idk i think im overreacting i need to calm down #bc i am literally spacing out and i need to go home i dont wanna be near anyone im gonna buy some #food so i actually fucking eat and go home and like probably try to gather myself together #i think i just suddenly went down a bad mentsl path and dhdhhxhdhxkchdodruwiyfieud now im fucking stressed the hell out #i need to calm but iNeed to fucking study this goddamn exam is on mondsy u fucking idiot ans u didnt do #good on ur other exams because youre such a stupid failure jesus christ its stats you absolute fucking dumbass #god im incapable of ANYTBING i shouldve killed myself in december literally such a waste !!!!!

[silverislander]

prof said congrats for writing up a proposal so early i am going to get a good grade in. well this is literally going to be graded. but yk the meme

#i really hope its decent proposals are really hard for me to write. i never really understand how much im supposed to say #also i dont plan stuff in advance! i hate drafts and proposals why cant i just jump in and run w my topic #i dont Know exactly what im going to cover just yet can i get back to you once ive covered it #levi.txt #i spent One page just opening the two page proposal so. i know it needs some cleaning up #but the last time i wrote one of these i only got a 75 (not a bad grade but i could do significantly better) bc. and i am not kidding. #i wrote a several page intro abt the themes of a story i was super pumped to write. and forgot the /plot characters and title/ #a 75 was honestly generous. that prof already liked me and knew my work so i got very lucky #also i just think the guy im working with for my essay is so cool and i want to impress him bfhshsk #ive taken 2 classes with him before he is so smart and so enthusiastic. i was 1 of only 3 who was there for every class both times #everyone whos helped me has been so cool and very nice to me i want to do a good job and prove that im as capable as they think #and also jesus fucking christ ive worked so hard for this degree PLEASE #if i dont get honours im walking into the forest laying down and letting the fae take me as they will #side note: i have 1.5 movies left (its late and im finishing army of the dead tomorrow + watching evil dead rise)!! thats so exciting #theyve (mostly) been really fun and i feel like i have a really good general idea of where im going w my essay now #the movie eras are starting to kind of organize themselves into coherent themes in my mind #i think its smth along the lines of racism/xenophobia -> social change -> satanic panic -> action and militarism -> prejudice/bias #and i actually think were in smth of a thematic reckoning w zombies rn as a culture that im excited to discuss!! #for so long weve accepted that zombies arent people but weve really been starting to interrogate that since abt the mid 2010s #w tropes like searching for a cure (not just a vaccine) or movies like warm bodies or evil dead where you can truly turn back #and im really excited to see where the future takes the zombie genre!!

[leezuhh]

the xenophobia in genshin is crazyyy 😭

#likeeee within the own game world u have paimon being the stupid lil 'voice' of the player thats literally just used to say rude shit #that u cant even refute.... like the worst offenders is that she straight up says shit like 'theyre fatui u cant trust them' #or 'theyre eremites u cant trust them' #like thats crazy how the two groups we 'cant trust' are based on russians and middle easterners???? #anyways i like this game but i have SO many gripes about random shit like this thats bad #some really specific combat stuff annoys me #like umm why does yelan's hydro aimed shot cooldown at a set rate when not fighting but not while fighting?? why not just make it the same? #or why cant shieldwall mitachurls take damage from behind their shields if u shoot them FROM BEHIND?? the shot literally goes thru them #it just makes using ganyu super annoying bc i use her cryo construct skill to divert the enemies so i can shoot them but with shieldwalls #they turn away and then i just still cant do damage until theyre attacking?? even if theyre frozen?? #hashtag just combat mechanics that dont make sense #also why tf do you sometimes just randomly lose grip on walls ur climbing and start sliding down like ????? #i always seem to go off on the tags of my own posts and never in the post itself huh. i coulda just written all this #anyways this post inspired by zhongli story quest starting with - archeologist guy who paimon immediately goes OH NO A FATUI DROP UR WEAPON #like im sorry since when are we teyvats cop?also the dude literally isnt holding a weapon which he points out but the game still makes u go #'hes fatui we have to be cautious' when the dude is nothing but nice. imagine ur doing ur job and some random girl and her floating toddler #try to fucking arrest you for literally just chilling #anyways and then the dude is like sure you can come along :) for no reason when we were just a dick #bc they have no idea how to write meaningful/realistic npcs jesus christ #sure ppl are like 'who cares its a random NPC' i care its literally so annoying and doesnt make me want to play ur stupid game #also not to mention the pyramid quest in the desert where (worst npc) tirzad is like 'we cant trust these two (his bodyguards!!) - #- because they're eremites' and yeah its whatever disproven by jebrael and jeht being the most slayful NPCs in the game #but paimon still AGREES WITH HIM?? and at that point i was like ok so this sucks but whatever but then #as if that isnt enough after jeht joins the tanit later or wtv u have to go through a whole questline that literally ends w dismantling #their entire village?? its very much reflective of rhetoric like how jeht is the 'only good one of '''them'''' aka thinly veiled racism #like oh its fine because SHE is 'one of the good ones' no fuck you wth #and no having like 2 desert npcs in the archon quest be nice doesnt make up for some of the crazy racist shit they say in the sumeru quests #umm anyways. cant wait for fontaine where the number of characters with non snow white skin will once again be reduced to 0 #because they're french right and poc dont exist in france :( /s #this is probably the longest rant ive ever gone on for this game i literally paused the game to type all that 😭

[roaringheat]

Oh my fuckin god... the friend that deleted all his accounts and I was told was legit missing for this past half year is apparently in contact with my dad, who was the one who informed me in the first place, and neither him nor my sister bothered to tell me that this old friend that disappeared off the fuckin earth was actually alive jfc

#vark posts #GOD. #they can fuckin shit on me all they want but their carelessness let me go on this fuckin chase trying to hunt this man down for closure #i genuinely thought he was fucking dead #from my sister's phrasing it sounds like something bad did happen but fuckin hell why am i the one being kept in the dark #i get its not her info to share ofc but AT LEAST DONT LET ME THINK HES DEAD #fuckin hell #she only told me cause i asked her is she remembered his last name so i can fuckin check if there was an obituary #jesus fuckin christ #what the fuck is this bizarre ass fuckin situation #to be clear he was an online friend that was in this big server where we used to game and/or talk almost daily for years #so its not like i could pop on over to his house and check #fuckin hell man #im having some a huge swarm of emotions and idek how to handle it

[you-will-never-know347]

YOU WANT SOME GOOD FUCKING SHIT BOIS???

OF COURSE YOU DO

I AM BEING LAUNCHED INTO THE FUCKING STRATOSPHERE AT MACH JESUS

#JESUS CHRIST #FUCKING #HE'S SO DOWN BAD #I'M SO DOWN BAD #IM DOWN HORRENDOUS #ACTUALLY #GHOST #SOAP #GHOSTSOAP #cod mwii

[celestial-ringleader]

Love it when I'm trying to have fun in an rp server and then people have their muses just decide to be sexist assholes towards my (male) muse 😐

#literally when i said ic 'so i cant have opinions bc im a man?' they fucking said 'yes glad you understand' #how the fuck is that in any way shape or form okay #server rules say no discrimination of any kind and yet its fine when femme characters can put down a masc one #rant #vent #delete later #im just so peeved over this and i have so far seen no change and i reported it days ago #jesus fucking christ #im swearing so this doesnt go into the tags #sometimes the rp community is bad but at least i have friends who are chill #🙃🙃🙃 #he was rightfully calling out one character for being self obsessed and condescending and then it became about sexism out of nowhere #get off of twitter challenge #touch grass

[aemiron-main]

me 🤝 mike

trying to make ourselves like girls

#ih and internalized transphobia has an unusually strong grip on me the past few days I’ll be normal soon #anyway working on my current analysis…. the butterfly imagery around Mike makes me INSANE #the duffers really said ‘we are going to show that Mike is trying to make himself like girls & that other people are trying to make him like #girls by paralleling it to some stuff in one of the most horrifying ways possible’ like they rlly. did that #cannot wait to elaborate on this in the analysis because……. now that I Know what the butterflies mean for Mike…… head in hands #LIKE THE DUFFERS JUST COULDNT HAVE DONE IT ANY OTHER WAY HUH??? like it makes sense and it’s lowkey brilliant but. Jesus Christ that’s dark #I’ll explain the full thing in the analysis so this probably doesn’t make sense without the contex but just like. damn #like yes 99% of the time I love being gay but also…. we rlly do live in society…. and then medical transitioning is stressful #like I’m doing it but like. time. money. fear of surgery yk #don’t mind me ranting but like. the ‘trying to make urself’ like girls thing with Mike hits me like a brick every time bc while I Know #lesbians do Not have it easy & im not saying they do but growing up I knew that with where I lived etc while being a lesbian would’ve been #looked down on compared to being straight it wouldn’t have been seen as nearly as ‘bad’ as being trans yk #like that’s just the case for my circumstances and just. even trying to force myself to be bi and feeling like I Had to be into girls bc no #guy would ever take me seriously as a guy and that dudes were supposed to be into girls and if I wasn’t then I was just actually a straight #woman/not queer at all and just. a whole fucking mess like seriously I spent so long Trying to be into girls both as a girl and as a guy

[diomedrian]

I am not a social media person!! WHY do I have to come up with post ideas!!

#personal #ceo was like you are young you would know. my fair sir i would BURN down Instagram's headquarters if i could. #i haven't made a single post since 2016. i have 17 failed blogs. #and he was like its FOUR posts for THREE offices. so thats TWELVE POSTS A MONTH. #Jesus Fucking Christ. sit down do u HEAR yourself #the trials and tribulations of basically basil #im gonna disappoint him so bad LMAO

[meateater-lamb]

#vent in the tags idk #i hate my fucking life #i actually fucking hate my life. so much #i havent had something good happen since 2019. not one thing #its just gone downhill #which is insane bc it was already terrible 3 years ago but SURPRISE. IT CAN ALWAYS GET WORSE #fucking hell #im like 90% certain im chronically ill but its not like i can really go to the doctor. #i dont want to risk covid. #so my health just keeps deteriorating #i cant even breathe right at all anymore #the effort it takes to take a full. deep. breath. its so much. and it hurts. #and im so dizzy all the time. i can be laying down totally still and the room will be spinning still #im so isolated due to the pandemic ive genuinely forgotten how to interact with people irl #not that i knew how before. or that i wasnt already isolated before. but its so bad now #and my heart has gotten weaker. i can feel it. it pounds out of my chest and skips beats and shit at random. so much more than it used to #and i keep having panic attacks bc im afraid im dying and i keep having nightmares and holy shit i just want to be ok #is that too much to ask??? to be okay??? for life to get better for once??????? #and i dont even wanna get into the mental shit im going through or the highkey abusive situation im in but its bad and i just. jesus christ #god. #idk #i just needed to rant for a minute ill prolly delete this when i get back up. im going to bed.

[fleshdyke]

skkdjrjskkdnr

#ed warning #i made the grave mistake of putting my liked songs on spotify on shuffle #bc a song about anorexia came on and it triggered the fuck out of me #im trying so fucking hard not to idealize that and to tell myself no food is as harmful as an ed #but im falling into the want to be sick mindset again and im literally fighting for my life trying to get out of it #like. i dont want to go back but its so fucking hard to resist #its so fucking hard to hold out and stay on the right track bc being in the depths of it all was so fucking addicting #i remember thinking at first why people said it was addicting bc it just seemed unpleasant #and it is it’s so fucking bad. but jesus christ seeing the numbers go down was so fucking euphoric #i dont think i’ll ever reach that high again #im trying not to go into detail here to avoid triggering anyone but jesus fucking christ i could go on for hours #i could just keep fucking going about how incredibly addictive it was and i want to go back so fucking bad but i wont i refuse to #god #rambles #vent