#lack of interest in anything

[autobot2001]

Unloveable

Author: Autobot2001 Genre: Fanfiction Fandom: Transformers Rating: T Warning: Poor mental health Pairing: None Description: Crosshairs worries about Jamie's lack of interest in doing anything. Unaware of what Jamie is thinking. Continued from day 20.

@marchofpain day 21; unloveable.

Crosshairs isn’t sure if he should feel relieved he still cannot return to his duties at the base as he stares at Jamie’s back on the other bed. Although not new to Crosshairs or Drift, Jamie’s recent inclination to refuse to do anything has been absent for some time. Crosshairs understands it’s not ideal for Jamie to stay in bed all day, but he and the others dislike coercing Jamie. The concern it’ll be negative rather than helping. Crosshairs knows Drift will not like seeing this, but he will leave Jamie alone. Today is a day he wishes Jamie was an adult who would play with the figures she collects. Jamie only displays the open figures. I can’t get her to watch TV or play video games, I doubt I’d get her to play with the figures. Crosshairs sighs. I know we’re supposed to tell Rung about these days, but I think he just regrets not being able to help her as he notes this in her file. Crosshairs is unaware of Jamie’s silent crying, with tears rolling down her face. Her mind has her feeling unlovable.

#transformers #transformers fanfiction #transformers autobots #transformers crosshairs #bayverse crosshairs #Jamie (OC) #march of pain #marchofpain2024 #day 21 #unloveable #feeling unloveable #lack of interest in anything #worried friend

[rulesofdisorder]

with the atla live action trailer dropping i am once again suggesting that in season 2 they have jet and zuko share a little kiss on the ferry boat. it literally changes nothing about the plot but makes the tea shop fight scene so much more heartbreaking and emotional.

the betrayal on both sides! jet because this guy that he really admires turns out to be fire nation and he can’t reconcile the fact that the fire nation may not all be monsters, that he may actually really like one of them. zuko because jet is someone who sees him and understands him and someone he may be able to grow a relationship, romantic or otherwise, with and jet attacks him for seemingly no reason, endangering both himself and his uncle.

the betrayal! the angst! the prospect of what could have been if circumstances were different! if there was no war and no suffering! the added gut punch of the fact that zuko learned jet died via shitty play! come on guys!!! you see the vision!!!

#such a lack of love for jetko and i can’t stand for that. i must make my interests everyone’s interests #jetko #zuko #jet #atla #avatar the last airbender #natla #frightened to post anything about atla bc sometimes this fandom is brutal #but life is too short and my love for jetko is too large

[catacomb-rats]

ok filmmakers/game devs, repeat after me: the Abandoned by Disney creepypasta garnered such success because creepypasta itself was still in its infancy, and "thing that's normally for children is spooky now" was a new and exciting genre of horror, not the MOST POPULAR genre of horror. The world is different now. Step- step away from Steamboat Willie. Get back here. Put down the blood. No, don't black out his eyes and make his smile really wide, that won't help- I SAID PUT DOWN THE BLOOD *swats with newspaper*

#no you can't be Cartoon Cat. Cartoon Cat already exists PUT DOWN THE MOUSE #creepypasta #steamboat willie #horror games #horror movies #mickey mouse #abandoned by disney #i know it's too late already. but please god the lack of originality is the scariest thing here #if anyone actually does anything interesting with Steamboat Willie (horror or not) will someone please let me know. i actually do want #to have fun i promise

[thyandrawrites]

It's all about Nagi living alone in a tiny one bedroom, one bathroom apartment with zero personality and Reo having a whole floor for himself but still living surrounded by tacky-expensive home decor with no apparent traces of his actual personality, either. It's all about how Nagi's parents haven't visited him in 2 years nor taken an interest in his life since, while Reo's are content to live floors apart from their teenage son, only taking an interest in what value he can bring to Mikage Corp but being otherwise uninvolved in / dismissive of his actual life. It's all about them being surrounded by people and still not knowing how to form a meaningful connection with another person before meeting each other. It's all about them being so starved for genuine human warmth to combat their bone-deep loneliness that they both treasure memories of tiny, inconsequential moments where they were spending time with their parents. Something something it's this line,

and how it describes them both despite being said about Reo. It's them being awkward 17-year-olds who had never before had an equal who would just respect them as they are and unconditionally look their way. In this essay I will-

#Blue lock #Blue lock spoilers #Mikage reo #Nagi seishirou #Bllk thoughts #This chapter was sooooo good #Gosh. Just as I was grumpy about epinagi getting boring without all the emotional deep dives that made it so interesting in the first place #They go and give us this bonus chapter. What a feast #I wish every month could be like this #This gave so much perspective to why they are the way they are #Most of it is not new information but I really loved all the foiling in this omake #Truly drives it home how both get their drive from their partnership bc they crave meaningful connections #Like. I had a whole post about how they're both each other first friend #And even then it couldn't have prepared me to the reveal of reo living in a whole ass empty skyscraper by himself #Did you also notice the distinct lack of soccer paraphernalia in his house or was that just me #Heck there isn't even a single soccer ball in sight... #And he calls Nagi's room void #Gosh they're both so fascinating #Of course they're bored out of their mind before meeting each other. Imagine being that understimulated and that lonely #I'm surprised they're this functional tbh. If anything they should be More mentally ill #I sure would lose it after a week at Reo's place #At least nagi owns mangas come on

[jacarandaaaas]

hot take (or not idk)

People who complain about the encanto fandom being “dead” are annoying. Encanto isn’t a huge fandom anymore but it’s still active and by forcing the narrative of “nobody likes this movie anymore it’s forgotten” is just dead wrong. Encanto being forgotten sounds hilarious because everytime ppl mention modern disney it always pops up in conversations like ALWAYS. We need to stop thinking that just because not as many ppl are interested because it’s been 2 years now means that nobody cares. Also the people saying this primarily ignore the fanarts, hcs, fics etc! People are talking about it but you’re too busy complaining to notice it!

#encanto #encanto disney #disneys encanto #like it should be obvious it’s not as popular because of lack of new content need or basically anything and the fact it’s been 2 years now #ppl argue other disney movie fandoms but let’s remember most of them have had content #anyways ppl need to stop complaining because of u keep acting like that nobody is gonna want to talk about encanto #it’s still popular it’s just not as huge because time has moved on #also someone mentioned this before but some fan content is actually great! #ok rant over does anyone else have any thoughts because I think a discussion would be interesting?

[uncanny-tranny]

I've been thinking about modesty from a specifically trans lense lately. I was taught that modesty indicates shame, that modesty means you're simultaneously ashamed of being human and having a human body, but also that you are "purer" because you adhere to a hegemonic idea of modesty. Frankly, I just don't agree with this, and it was very much steeped in the idea of specifically christian ideas of modesty.

Before I transitioned, I felt very unprotective of my body because it never felt like mine to begin with. I didn't really care what happened to it, and while I was modest by other people's standards, I certainly didn't feel it. Once I actually started transitioning (and especially on testosterone), I've found that I'm so much more "modest" because I've become protective of my body. There's this stereotype that trans people start "showing themselves off" after transitioning, but I honestly feel the opposite. I'm possessive over my body and exactly how it acts and appears because I actually like my body, and it finally feels like mine. I'm honestly kind of selfish about it, and I think I've earned the right to be.

I made this post because I think this is an interesting topic, and I think it's interesting the ways in which we internalize the influences that be. It's also a reminder that no matter how you feel about things like modesty, you should adhere to what makes the most sense to you and what you are most comfortable with. There are pressures to be modest in this way or that way, but what truly matters is what you decide with your body and yourself.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #modesty #like i was looking into swim pants to wear under my swim trunks because i don't want people to be able to see my legs for example #like... they're MY legs not yours. get your own legs dammit 😡 (joking) #and i found i have no shame about myself since being more 'modest' because i do it out of self-admiration #and personally i have no ties to the hegemonic christian sense of modesty and what i was taught living in a *heavily* christian area #that's not to say i have an issue with christians and what they feel is modest but it's more specifically the shame surrounding modesty #the idea that being modest indicates that you're a 'better person' than those who sin (wearing short shorts or swearing) #that's not inherent to the religion from what i understand but i don't agree with it personally #and i do not believe that modesty (or lack thereof) is an indication of ANYTHING about a person #it doesn't tell you anything about their personality or their interests or what they think #it only tells you how they feel most comfortable existing or behaving and even then you often won't know the complexities of that comfort #i have an issue with the ideas about modesty but i use the word because it is easily understood and it is the language i have available #if there's a better term or word for sure let me know but i haven't been made aware of it 👍 #ANYWAY. i just think it's interesting #and if you're experiences are different from mine i genuinely respect you for it and platonically love you #and i hope you feel beautiful/gorgeous/handsome/cool and i hope you are comfortable <3

[captainofthetidesbreath]

I feel like it says a lot about the relationships between the major institutions of the Trust and the Consectorship's place in it that Spahr's role, the role of any Prime Consector, can be summarized as: show pony, attack dog, scapegoat.

#Jonas Spahr #Midst #Midst podcast #Midst things #The Upper Trust doesn't see anyone outside of their number as PEOPLE really. Just tools and agenda items. #That does—as Spahr is learning real quick—include the Prime Consector. He might AS WELL be a literal dog to them. #His entire job is to be pretty and do as told and attack who they point him at and take the blame. #The Company and the Consectorship obviously perpetuates its own harms and is a toxic institution in its own right. #(That is not up for debate and is not what I'm discussing here. I'm talking about the relationships between Trust institutions.) #The thing about the Prime Consector is that despite their rank they're strictly managed and have no real agency or power over anything. #Prime Consector is an interesting office in that its role is to distance the Upper Trust and the notaryship from their decisions. #The Consectorship does not truly make decisions. They carry out those of the Upper Trust and the Central Vault. #Do the dirty work and take the blame—to keep everyone else's hands clean. #To be the scapegoat for everyone else's mistakes and lack of foresight or inability to solve a problem. #(obligatory: I don't have a subscription so keep that in mind before saying stuff to me—I keep getting vague comments about upcoming eps)

[ride-a-dromedary]

I personally think a nice way to give us more chances to talk to Halsin in Act 3 is giving us the option to ask him for a new story from his 350 years of life, and we get a new tidbit of information that changes based on how high his approval is, or whether or not he's being romanced. If the approval is low, he shares little or refuses. I want a chance to hear about how much he studies, meditates, and hibernates and not just the salacious parts!

#BG3 Musing #Halsin Posting #halsin is very clear that he's lived a while and feels a lot older than he is #i want to hear more about high forest and the emerald grove #i want a way for him to tell me things about himself that don't involve me having to have a rendezvous that casually brings up a bad memory #yknow? #karlach asking him for stories and him immediately being like 'no one really cares about those they're only really interested in escapades' #and wyll being like 'do you actually do anything besides meditate council fight train and make love?' and halsin just nonchalantly #'is such an existence lacking?' i know thats supposed to be funny #but he sounds so put upon by it #like okay and..? #maybe im just a sap but i want to hear more general stuff #if that writer on twitter is serious about taking suggestions heres one #also this isn't an invite to bash on act 3 halsin - most of the companions are dead air after you do their quest #this is an encompassing larian issue all around where the companions sort of all fall flat midway through act 3 #but that's another point entirely

[sarahjacobs]

punk spot and goth sarah stuff 🫰

i also made playlists of the kind of music i think they'd listen to :') you can listen to spot's here. most tracks fall under the hardcore subgenre, but there's also a good amount of ska and pop. generally has a chaotic, garage, and/or dated kind of sound, really wanted the kind of stuff that scratches my brain in a specific, rough way

there's also sarah's playlist, which i'm less confident about because i'm wayyy more immersed in punk subculture and music. but. i tried! some gothic rock, mostly punkabilly and gothabilly. i feel like she'd be into music that has that campy slasher feel, so that's the overall mood i was gunning for

#newsies #92sies #uksies #sarah jacobs #spot conlon #drawings #confession idk anything about uksies this is purely based on vibes bcuz the concept of a pinoy nonbinary spot has charmed me #anyways more nerdy stuff ahead i am so sorry >>> #i heart thinking about what characters would be like if they were punk it is so fun #i view sarah as punk usually so it's interesting to compare & contrast her and spot #like sarah i personally cant see modifying her hair or her body much. she'd mostly stick to diying clothes and jewelry #so while she IS punk she's not the kind of punk that most people auto think of #but spot feels like someone who'd /really/ want to lean into all the trappings of punk. being intimidating AND cool #so they're spiky all over. hair piercings jacket are sharp #sarah's battle jacket is a comfortable corduroy material. it's colorful and has random scraps of fabric bcuz the goal is #to make the original jacket last as long as possible #whereas spot's has more inflammatory patches and is strictly black and white and has the sleeves cut off #and has non fabric stuff attached like the spikes and studs and also soda can tabs #because they also strike me as someone who collects random odds and ends. hence the bottle caps repurposed as pins #i also wanted to play around with adding chains and safety pins onto their jacket but alas #ultimately had to prioritize readability #same thing w sarah i wanted to give her layered necklaces and more maximalist elements to her outfit but it ended up muddying everything up #anyways. im insane but specificity is very important to me for punk stuff just because i think #'punk versions of xyz' tend to water down what punk actually is by prioritizing the aesthetics of rebellion without being specific #in What they are rebelling against. which is why these headcanons lack inflammatory political ideas and punk bands #or like they'll just have the circle A sign and it's like ok but do you know what anarchism is and what anarchist praxis looks like #also spot would not be an anarchist tbh they read as more of a commie #they are not doing nonhierarchical based organizing iykyk

[ahalliance]

PEPITO IS A NO PRONOUNS USER BC PEPITO DOESN’T WANT TO BE REFERRED TO 😭😭😭😭😭 me fr fr

#qsmp #jay liveblogs #pierre and étoiles adore them already im so happy #LITERALLY a mini étoiles i adore PEPITO!!!!! #edit: no/any/all pronouns is the vibe i got from that #if pepito re emphasises pronouns or lack thereof then ill adjust accordingly but tbh i think pepito is more interested in being seen as #‘dark and mysterious’ like tio etoiles than anything else lmfaooo

[hauntedorpheum]

love these

#clivesdale cherry festival cancelled due to lack of interest aksjfhjkdl #nerdy prudes must die #re mamma mia: happy for bill. or sorry that happened. i ain't reading all that #npmd spoilers #barely lol #team starkid #you know it's bad when you're pausing so you can read props askjfjkdsjfhd #btw does anyone know if the pink papers that grace gives the audience during literal monster had anything on them? #my post

[moghedien]

i'm gonna say something extra spicy right now and I refuse to put it in the tags because I don't wanna antagonize people who like Mat and do actually feel this way but like

while I do get frustrations at not having characters around more and whatnot, every time I see people like "ah man they're messing up mat's characters arc" "they're changing mat's personality" my immediate thought is just "Mat had a personality before halfway through book 3? he has a character arc? he had motivations?"

#sorry I stay a Mat hater mostly because I find him just extremely boring and character RJ did nothing with #I'm more interested in show Mat if anything #at least he had motivations season 1 and his lack for fucking motivation is whats gonna get him in trouble this season

[a-sketchy]

the thing about yosuke’s shittiness around here (up close and personal, the campout) is that the vast majority of it isn’t doing literally anything for his character. i completely think yosuke’s shittiness is important to his character, but it’s by and large reflections of his own insecurities and flaws. he’s insecure about his masculinity and sexuality, he’s lame, he’s selfish, he’s obsessed with the idea of women, his mouth moves faster than his brain, he doesn’t like himself, and he cares way too much about the societal ideal of ‘normal’. but it’s really important that he’s self-aware! he knows when the things he says are shitty, he knows he’s lame, he knows he’s selfish, he knows he’s putting up a front of being carefree and normal. but there’s absolutely no self awareness here, there’s no recognizing he went too far and apologizing the next day, there’s no regret, there’s not even any self-deprecation, and there’s absolutely no compassion or empathy like he has in serious moments. a lot of what he says is just mean for meanness’s sake, in an execution incongruous with previous behaviour. it’s not even funny!

#tbh i think the thing with kanji in the tent was the closest to being interesting #like by the end he’s warning against kanji leaving the tent #so clearly he cares about kanji more than he’s homophobic #he was straight up just saying that stuff to be shitty. knowingly! #that’s interesting! and the whole thing reeks of yosuke’s own insecurity in his masculinity and sexuality #he took it way too far and i deeply wish he’d quit it with the we statements #but if he had even a single line like ‘shit… i shouldn’t have said all that’ or recognized he was in the wrong at all #then i think it genuinely would’ve been an important moment for his character #everything else was just extremely shitty for no reason. the fucking swimsuits was pathetic but the gross guilt tripping was awful #he’s just lacking all of his usual self awareness. he’s lacking all of his good qualities and nuance #like it’s a fundamental misunderstanding of what makes yosuke’s other moments interesting or funny #this is just him being mean getting punished arbitrarily and not learning anything #on paper i get it. i get how these events could be continuations of established charateristics #but it’s just so mean and shitty that it becomes absurd nonsensical and unenjoyable #the stuff with hanako is just genuinely repugnant on the game’s behalf. it serves no purpose other than cruelty #definitely the worst part of the game so far #rambles #p4g posting #yosukeposting

[boyfridged]

i’ve been thinking a lot about what is so unique and appealing about 80s robin jay’s moral standing that got completely lost in plot later on. and i think a huge part of it is that in a genre so focused on crime-fighting, his motivations and approach don’t focus on the category of crime at all. in fact, he doesn’t seem to believe in any moral dogma; and it’s not motivated by nihilism, but rather his open-heartedness and relational ethical outlook.

we first meet (post-crisis) jay when he is stealing. when confronted about his actions by bruce he’s confident that he didn’t do anything wrong – he’s not apologetic, he doesn’t seem to think that he has morally failed on any account. later on, when confronted by batman again, jay says that he’s no “crook.” at this point, the reader might assume that jay has no concept of wrong-doing, or that stealing is just not one of the deeds that he considers wrong-doing. yet, later on we see jay so intent on stopping ma gunn and her students, refusing to be implicit in their actions. there are, of course, lots of reasons for which we can assume he was against stealing in this specific instance (an authority figure being involved, the target, the motivations, the school itself being an abusive environment etc.), but what we gather is that jay has an extremely strong sense of justice and is committed to moral duty. that's all typical for characters in superhero comics, isn't it? however, what remains distinctive is that this moral duty is not dictated by any dogma – he trusts his moral instincts. this attitude – his distrust toward power structures, confidence in his moral compass, and situational approach, is something that is maintained throughout his robin run. it is also evident in how he evaluates other people – we never see him condemning his parents, for example, and that includes willis, who was a petty criminal. i think from there arises the potential for a rift between bruce and jay that could be, have jay lived, far more utilised in batman comics than it was within his short robin run.

after all, while bruce’s approach is often called a ‘philosophy of love and care,’ he doesn’t ascribe to the ethics of care [eoc] (as defined in modern scholarship btw) in the same way that jay does. ethics of care ‘deny that morality consists in obedience to a universal law’ and focus on the ideals of caring for other people and non-institutionalized justice. bruce, while obviously caring, is still bound by his belief in the legal system and deontological norms. he is benevolent, but he is also ultimately morally committed to the idea of a legal system and thus frames criminals as failing to meet these moral (legal-adjacent) standards (even when he recognizes it is a result of their circumstances). in other words, he might think that a criminal is a good person despite leading a life of crime. meanwhile, for jay there is no despite; jay doesn't think that engaging in crime says anything about a person's moral personality at all. morality, for him, is more of an emotional practice, grounded in empathy and the question of what he can do for people ‘here and now.’ he doesn’t ascribe to maxims nor utilitarian calculations. for jay, in morality, there’s no place for impartiality that bruce believes in; moral decisions are embedded within a net of interpersonal relationships and social structures that cannot be generalised like the law or even a “moral code” does it. it’s all about responsiveness. 

to sum up, jay's moral compass is relative and passionate in a way that doesn't fit batman's philosophy. this is mostly because bruce wants to avoid the sort of arbitrariness that seems to guide eoc. also, both for vigilantism, and jay, eoc poses a challenge in the sense that it doesn't create a certain 'intellectualised' distance from both the victims and the perpetrators; there's no proximity in the judgment; it's emotional.

all of this is of course hardly relevant post-2004. there might be minimal space for accommodating some of it within the canon progression (for example, the fact that eoc typically emphasises the responsibility that comes with pre-existing familial relationships and allows for prioritizing them, as well as the flexibility regarding moral deliberations), but the utilitarian framework and the question of stopping the crime vs controlling the underworld is not something that can be easily reconciled with jay’s previous lack of interest in labeling crime. 

#fyi i'm ignoring a single panel in which jay says 'evil wins. he chose the life of crime' because i think there's much more nuance to that #as in: choosing a life of crime to deliberately cause harm is a whole another matter #also: inb4 this post is not bruce slander. please do not read it as such #as i said eoc is highly criticised for being arbitrary which is something that bruce seeks to avoid #also ethics of care are highly controversial esp that their early iterations are gender essentialist and ascribe this attitude to women #wow look at me accidentally girl-coding jay #but also on the topic of post-res jay. #it's typically assumed that ethics of care take a family model and extend it into morality as a whole #'the ethics of care considers the family as the primary sphere in which to understand ethical behavior' #so #an over-simplification: you are allowed to care for your family over everything else #re: jay's lack of understanding of bruce's conflict in duty as batman vs father #for jay there's no dilemma. how you conduct yourself in the familial context determines who you are as a person #also if you are interested in eoc feel free to ask because googling will only confuse you... #as a term it's used in many weird ways. but i'm thinking about a general line of thought that evolves into slote's philosophy #look at me giving in and bringing philosophy into comics. sorry. i tried to simplify it as much as possible #i didn't even say anything on criminology and the label and the strain theories. #i'm so brave for not info-dumping #i said even though i just info-dumped #jay.zip #jay.txt #dc #fatal flaw #core texts #robin days

[regicidal-defenestration]

Whilst the return of Doctor Who in 2005 brought lots of good things, including, for sure, the return of Doctor Who, I think it did untold damage to Big Finish audio stories

#like 'they got worse' is not an accurate statement - the quality imo took a gradual downwards turn but there were bad stories pre 2005 and #good ones post #however they seem to have gotten; for lack of a better word; more normal? more. 'regular fans and new people are watching this on the bbc #quick hide the scherzo before they get scared off' kind of thing #Time Works is ultimately a fairly good episode but it doesn't do anything. interesting (it was supposed to be in the Divergent Universe but #they stopped that when DW came back to TV). it feels like someone made a DW TV episode then rubbed out the visuals #compare that to Chimes of Midnight (2002); Zagreus and Scherzo (2003); Natural History of Fear and Caerdroia (2004) which are Proper Good! #this post brought about because I started listening to Master (2003) and I'm having actual fun they're doing Interesting Things #anyway yeah #doctor who

[timlucys]

the day the fandom realizes that chenford doesn't currently function within the confines of a healthy, communicative, adult relationship is the day i will know peace.

#like yes if the relationship you were talking about existed i'd be anti breakup too #but it doesn't! and those flaw-free characters you talk about don't exist on the show - they only exist in fic! #these are flawed messy and sometimes immature people with a vast number of communication issues #and a penchant for being the martyr (tim) and being the runner (lucy) #they're not automatically devoid of flaws once they're together. if anything their fear makes those flaws worse #their lack of communication and overt side-skirting of issues is prevalent from 512 to 521 without the rose coloured glasses filter #like step back from the pancakes and the 'dadford' and i promise you'll see two people with a myriad of interesting and complicated issues #and that people are allowed to think a fascinating way to handle this is to get them apart to build them stronger back together #YOU are allowed to think otherwise. but others can view this as compelling storytelling and put that above their shipper goggle lens #text