#like it’s always cold online

[hazel2468]

"UWU op defends Israel UWU"-

Have I not made it clear enough what I think of the Israeli government? Have I not made it clear enough that what infuriates me the MOST about all of this shit going on is that neither government gives a damn and civilians will CONTINUE to die because Hamas and Netanyahu are cranking that war machine for their own benefit? Have I not made it clear that I think what the Israeli government is doing is fucking horrific, a war crime, murder, a violation of human rights?

Why do I even need to MAKE that clear? Why is it that you can talk about LITERALLY anything else, any other country, and people don't rush to fucking accuse you of personally supporting the government when you discuss the wrongs committed against a people, but the SECOND you're a Jew you have to justify your stance about Israel?

Why is it that I cannot even be angry about the slaughter of MY FUCKING PEOPLE. Innocents. Civilians. Fucking CHILDREN. The slaughter of the Palestinian people. Innocents. Civilians. FUCKING CHILDREN.

Without one of you absolute fucking monsters deciding to slap some shit on an unrelated post about how "uwu op defends an apartheid state just ignore that"? Do you have to make it part of EVERYTHING I do? Do you consider everything I put out there tainted somehow because I don't support your joy, your cheering, your unrestrained GLEE at the murder of Jews? Do I need to publish a fucking thesis on my stance on Israel, Palestine, and their respective governments like a fucking disclaimer any time I want to talk about myself, my oppression, my experience as a Jew, or a disabled person, or a queer person, because you fuckers cannot for five seconds be NORMAL about Jews?

To decide to slap something about Israel and Palestine on a post I made about MY oppression, about how people will oppress you no matter who you actually are- it all depends who they think you are. It's a bit ironic, isn't it? Doesn't QUITE fit, but it's funny that someone would read that post, agree with it, and then think "Ah yes, THIS is the place to put some tags about how OP, a Jew who has been reeling for the last couple of weeks about the violence, who has been checking on their Israeli friends every day to make sure they aren't fucking dead, who is dealing with vicious antisemitism from people who they thought were friends, who watched as the people claiming to be progressive supporters of human rights on this hellsite and others OVERWHELMINGLY reply to the murder of their people with good they deserved it fuck you, is CLEARLY a defender of an apartheid state and that makes them a bad person because something something I don't know what nuance tastes like and I am a bigoted ass."

I am TIRED.

#antisemitism #i/p #seriously I am exhausted #fuck all of you #I can count on my hands how many people have actually been supportive and kind to me #I have LOST count of how many people #both online and IRL #have either been dismissive and cold #or outright HAPPY that Jews died and will continue to die #I have lost count of how many people here I thought were decent human beings #who I had to block because they responded with a resounding GOOD to what hamas did #and now you fucking antisemitic fucks are dragging this shit onto unrelated posts #and that's nothing NEW you've always been like this #but it is especially exhausting now #the fact that this shit is coming from like #other Americans too? #are you fucking KIDDING ME? #You LIVE here and you don't control everything the fucking government does #but oh every Israeli civilian is responsible and they deserve to be killed #just call me a kike and go instead of doing that shit #at least the Nazis are direct about how much they want me dead #although frankly I'm having trouble telling the difference these days #between you leftist fucks and the Nazis

[dezimaton]

My trust in social media/art sites has been dwindling for a while now

Witnessing dA steal a whole site's worth of art to train it's image generator, informing everyone in post- Knowing that twitter and instagram are likewise training their own generators- and now seeing tumblr implement an opt-out for training data

It's very disheartening to watch the internet communities I've found home bend and twist under the force of scraping for "AI" training

There is just so much bad, but making and sharing art is still one of my favorite things to do. I will still be drawing my freaks, but I'll need time to think about what to do with my personal work...

This blog will change to be fanart only & I'll put more time into finding a comfortable workflow for glaze/nightshade

#dezchatters #it takes my computer over an hour to glaze a tiny 500x600px image so i stopped out of concern over the long term effects on my cpu/gpu #having them run at full blast for over an hour on a regular basis cant be good #especially when its like 8yrs old now #hoping webglaze works out so i can spare my toaster #and do my civic duty to online art posting #as for personal work im mostly sharing on a friend to friend basis these days #my art make speed is slow as always but if you want a trickle of tive doodles n oc art in ur inbox I'm open to try connecting on discord #lastly- stay strong friends #the world may be cold and harsh but hope is a skill we train #there will be better times #we do what we can when we can

[rohirric-hunter]

I've been trying to put this into words for a while now and I think I might have something -- most of the time when people examine storytelling tropes, especially experts in a related field, especially historians and medical professionals, they are setting out to disprove the trope.

Even if they're not, once they find some evidence that the trope doesn't work in real life or isn't how it was done historically, they often expect that to be the end of the conversation. Historically, people did not go adventuring with two-handed greatswords strapped to their backs -- and therefore you should not have it happen in your fiction, and the conversation ends there. In real life, having a character get hit so hard on the head that they pass out for several hours would demand immediate medical intervention and likely cause permanent brain damage -- and therefore you should not have it happen in your fiction. End of discussion.

These people fail, I think, to understand the reason these tropes exist. It is not because people are just uneducated and think that's how things work. In fact, I would go out on a limb and say far more people are already aware of these things than these experts assume. The attraction of the trope doesn't come from the belief that it is accurate.

These tropes exist because it is widely agreed that they are cool, sexy, emotionally fulfilling, narratively convenient, or any number of other things that really have nothing to do with whether or not they are accurate to reality. I'm not quite sure what it is about most of these experts that makes them unable to understand that, or unwilling to play the game that the rest of us engage in, where we all quietly pretend that it does work because it's harmless and enjoyable.

Really the only people I've ever seen who understand that and try to work their own expertise on the subject into the tropes in a cohesive and satisfying way are Shadiversity on YouTube and blumineck on here. Both in the martial arts categories, which ties mostly into history -- I've yet to find a medical professional online who's willing to play the game.

#on a totally unrelated note #if anyone knows when someone has fallen into freezing water and is at risk for hypothermia #all the articles i can find online say to get them warm and change them into dry clothes #but none of them say what to do if you dont have any dry clothes #is it better to leave them in their wet things until you can get some dry clothes or take them out of the wet things #even if you dont have any dry clothes to put them in #yes i KNOW theyre probably just going to die at this point if thats what you were thinking then you have no sense of narrative tension #and yes i KNOW this is why you always take a change of clothes whenever youre going hiking in the cold #the clothes fell into the freezing water too OKAY #sorry if this is like aggressive but im so tired of hearing the same few responses that dont actually answer my question #do these people think im looking for actual medical advice??????? #im writing a story! the characters are going in the Situation whether they like it or not #im not planning for my own life just in case i ever find myself in this situation #the fact that i thought of it for the story ought to tell you ive already thought of how to prevent it for myself

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

July Haul, or: Wow, I'm So Good At Acquiring Books In Moderation, Huh.

#spoiler alert: I Am Not #books #book haul #maybe cold turkey ban months are also no good for me lol because then i do shit like this literally the next two weeks #I HAVE A DEFENSE IF ANYONE WOULD LIKE TO HEAR IT: #black helicopters and tindalos are books 2 and 3 in a series i really liked book 1 of #silence and home are from my first visit to my local indie IRL (never mind how much i've bought from them online) #garden was a preorder from A Long Time Ago (i forgot about it) #wake up was because i had to buy a birthday present for someone and i figured i could get one (1) impulse purchase also #i did have a coupon for HOME and SILENCE #and black helicopters is actually used!!! so that was nice #cheaper lol #black helicopters #the tindalos asset #caitlin r kiernan #always coming home #ursula k. le guin #feed them silence #lee mandelo #and then i woke up #malcolm devlin #a half-built garden #ruthanna emrys

[la-cocotte-de-paris]

okay but i miss the part of my childhood where i could go out into the garden and make up games and have fun running around barefoot playing out all my wildest dreams and create my own concoctions and makeup from the things i found around the green and swing wildly on the tyre roped to the big tree while the sound of bees buzzing in a nearby hive filled the air

#:/ :( #and in winter i can't even sit out there and enjoy the sun bc it's always cold wet and depressing #that was so much fun man #i acc am *this close* to dumping my phone i don't want this online shit other than for viewing and research #ALSO omg i found out apparently edwige would create her own makeup when wandering around outside too as a little kid #and she'd put it on her face and pretend it was real makeup #so between that and running away from home when i found this out i was like 'we so would have been besties if we lived in the same area wtf #idk if this was just a girl thing in general or a weird girl thing specifically but either way ICONIC #roacc

[eebie]

why do peopelt alk about personality types like that

#What if we were all just people!! #cos all that mbti stuff And the extent of a someone's persoanlioty is impossible 2capture #based on a 20 question online test That offers no context/reasoning behind the situations and answers it gives you #it just assumes why you chose those things u did and gives you a generalization that might be wildly inaccurate !!!!!!!!!!!!!! #but just because something is a whole load of baloney doesnt mean it cant be fun ^_^ heehee #it's silly sometimes. 2 see people describing The result i got like.. Ooooh .. they're cold unfeeling Machines... they're Evil genuis.. #and all coprrect Btw but not in the right way!!!!!!!!!!! #im an unfeeling machine the way im always on my grind and dont give a shit! And im an evilgenuis because im sexy and awesome basically #also thats all super minor stuff Personalitytypes shouldnt be 4 letters it should be about 4986534262357e^10 Letters #cos theres so much shit n overlap and basically its pointless To try n fit that into something as simple as that #Thtas like trying 2 put every color paint from every gradient from every hue and shade onto a single palette #simply impossible n you'll get paint all over yourself trying!!!! and the colors will all smudge together #and then you'll ahve to burn your clothes #but NOT if you have fun with it ^_^ #you don't wear a tuxedo while you're painting You wear that silly shit of which itdoesn't matter if it gets paint on it!! a colorful apron #basically trying to put anything in2 a binary In Sincerity is a waste of TIME but it can be fun !!! #NAYWAYS THIS IS STUFF PPL HAVE ALREADY TALKED ABOU IM SURE i just got carried away #*rubs the back of my head *Well.. heh #fuck how do u #do that thing anime boys do #where they do that. that thing i just tried to roleplay as #i forgot how #anyways this is not me being a hater Do whatever the hell u want ^_^ all tha power to u + i love u

[herearedragons]

making an outline for the murder mystery au and I'm already getting way into it

#herearedragons speaks #I am NOT going to Cold Water/The Breach it (writing everything at once and then posting) #and. actually. I think it could be kind of fun to have an ongoing thing that I update every once in a while like a normal fic writer #like. posting longfics only after they're finished is something I'm doing as Writer Stamina Training #for when I decide to try my hand at original fiction again #because. you know. you. can't really post an original novel you're writing To Publish chapter-by-chapter online #but the murder mystery au could be like a side project I do solely for fun #just dropping a new chapter every now and then. putting my favorite guys (gender neutral) in situations #also I've always wanted to write a murder mystery lol #I've watched/read too many detective stuff to not try that at least once #project: the hanged man

[silkjade]

it’s 3am so please enjoy my favorite painting in the world while i reflect introspectively in the tags thank u ♡

day and the dawnstar by herbert james draper

#— 𝓭𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓬𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓼 #/// #this is meant to be like elevator music for the dash while you scroll past #…………….. #i love selfshipping it's vry fun but sometimes when i think about it too much or rather when i think about any scenario at all #i'm always like i want so and so to do this and this and this but when asked what i'd do for them it's like hitting a blank ) : #and i can’t help but feel as if i’m being…. selfish…. #selfish in the sense that i can so easily accept the love i crave but i don’t know if i'd be able to give the same back? #and this bleeds into my real life becus i suppose i just don't know how to make someone feel loved like... #i’m not even half as affectionate irl as i may seem online & i don’t have a cute or particularly loving personality. #the words i say aren't warm ; ironically they make me sound disingenuous lmao no matter how much i practice my cadence #& idk why it’s so difficult for me to imagine myself doing like.. domestic things for anyone without cringing at the alien nature of it #not becus there's something wrong with that but i just can't see ME doing anything like that and i just think 'what is wrong with me' becus #it's one of the simplest and purest forms of love i think ; \ idk maybe i've just never loved anyone enough like that... #but then i feel so..bad...because the real me is so apathetic boring cold #& not to make things sound transactional but why would someone want to stay if what they invest produces lackluster results ? #like omg ! even i can tell that it's totally unfair i'd feel like a leech #even in the painting above draper the painter says: 'to faint in the light of the sun she loves / to faint in his light and to die' #iz so me yearning 'n then dying from yearning becus i don't know how to express it #like when mitski said '胸がはち切れそうで' 'my chest is about to burst' i felt that #anyways i suppose this was good to get out before chinese new year lolz #i hope u did not make it this far honestly anyways i m going to rb a bunch of random stuff to hide this

[todayisafridaynight]

What was the occasion for Arakawa to be wearing a fluffy robe in the comic

it was that comic i was gonna do about jo takin cold baths that i mentioned during stream once LMAO

#snap chats #more explanation below since i prob wont do it. unless- #i wanted an excuse to draw jo's tatt lowkey. and arakawa in a bathrobe of course ANYWAY #the whole bit was that jo sits in the tub for like. an hour just brooding or whatever #every morning i take a cold shower i always end up having some emo monologue bout how i dont deserve warm water and so. lol inspo #and Because Ive Decided Theyre Living Together. or hes at least visiting this once idk #arakawa was meant to just be like... Hi... Its Been A While Are You Ok.... Can I Shower Now-- #that whole bit LMAO #anyway. bullying my school immediately my class WAS supposed to be three or so hours #but then the prof all like 'i promise at most ill keep you guys here for an hour and forty minutes' #SO YAAAAY IM FREEEEEE im gonna. videogame.... after i eat dinner. #SO FUNNY THO the prof was talkin bout the textbook we'd need and she's all like 'please try to get it cheap :(' #and this absolute legend from the back is like 'i found it online for free..' and it was a genuine And They All Clapped moment god BLESS

[dropdafawkz]

I know I make these every semester, but just a shout out to my in-coming US freshman and other college students--there's still a pandemic, a lot of things about the world are bad, and you're allowed to be tired and discouraged. Online classes suck. Teachers are burnt out. The government literally be havin' it out for y'all. And all that impacts you. It is perfectly normal to not feel okay. Your aged out humanities mom here to remind you to try and take a breath, drink some water, eat something, do something silly that makes you feel good. Have a juice box on me. If you're doing your best, that's all you can do.

#dropdathoughtz #had my first official online meeting with students this week #and had several say they were so relieved at hearing me say basic decent things #like that I knew that life just happens sometimes #and that our whole set up was weird and that we were gonna do our best this semester #my cold dead heart dont always beat #but it be workin for these students the past several years #yall really in the shit right now #and I see yall

[asinglesock]

H has covid and I might also have covid although a rapid test was negative and I'm so anxious about deciding not to go to class this week but I'm definitely not going to class this week

#a sock speaks #missing a brunch I really wanted to attend also :( #also not helping out at the cold weather shelter this week #if this is the responsible choice why does it feel like I'm being irresponsible? #on the bright side I only have to miss 2 classes to stay home the rest of the week #I can attend Hebrew online with permission and my Friday Greek class is always online #there's no help for 2nd Temple lit though. and that's the class I'd be the most hesitant to miss.

[wanderinthedeep]

I hate sitting on the floor of the ocean by myself

#it’s dark and cold and there’s a lot of pressure #ugh #I’m just having one of those days where I’m sad no matter what I do #and it’s so frustrating because I’ve been doing so good the last couple months #and I always cringe at posting depression stuff online but like fuck #I just have to say it somewhere #I wish my friends would just listen to music with me until I feel better #text

[bigendershadowthehedghog]

I'm doing not so good right now but it's fine I'll deal (it's not fine but if I actually like sat down to think about it any deeper then my parents would try to get me sectioned)

#like the only person i can hang out with irl keeps on having to cancel because of family reasons #and I was stuck inside with a cold last week #and the week before that I was having the worst time of my life mentally #like being with the same 3 family members as always is. not hitting the minimum amount of social interaction #and like the thing is I cant go outside without going with a friend #and i cant admit to my mom that i only have like. one friend. that i know irl #because she keeps on asking me if ive talked to x yet or if ive talked to y yet and i say yes because i dont want her to make me do that #but she also keeps on making me cut off people and getting highly suspicious when my friend wants to introduce me to his friends #and i know she has. okay intent. but girl I have literally only left the house to go shopping #and she keeps on making desicions on what my limits are with my sensory issues even though thats really inconsistent and hard to #predict #and i have friends online but we cant hang out because of stuff like. the ocean. and several countries. that are in the way of just going #to their house #so I am just. Losing it. Just a little. Just like a tiny bit. like losing it in a completely sane way

[kaeyaphile]

my irl friend got me a green snake shirt and a jjk shirt because she checked my tiktok to see what i liked and also asked me what my favorite color was and knows i like snakes and idk it’s just so nice when people put in the effort even when you don’t share interests, you know? 🥲 also her fiancé bought me a cake and a $50 bottle of patron and also went out and bought us breakfast so 🤪

featuring apollo, murphy, and orion my beloveds 💗

#kayleigh.txt #no picture of the patron because it’s gone already LMAOOO #$50 only buys a small bottle and we drank a lot last night so 😂 #but yEAH it’s still cold out but the sun is out at least so we’re gonna go hiking ig #yesterday was arguably one of the best birthdays i have had in YEARS not gonna lie #i have that Sleepy Bitch Disease today but i am planning on going home and napping later #and then staying up all night playing genshin impact and/or the elder scrolls online and/or cyberpunk 2077 probably lmfao #i am so thankful to have irl friends that love me this much ahdjshdjsjfjs #i literally told her not to get me anything ahshsjdhsjd #but her and her fiancé were like “you do so much for us and also we love you” ugh #I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE A GUILTY MANIPULATIVE BITCH WHEN PEOPLE SPEND MONEY ON ME/DO THINGS FOR MEEE

[kitsunerokko]

you know how cats don’t want to go to the vet and will resist and whine and stress the hell out?

that’s me but the vet is grocery shopping

#uuuuughhhh why do i gotta be out of food AGAIIIIN #grocery shopping my beloathed #for all the stuff i like about my current town #one huge downside is how like augh the online grocery shop situation is here #for using your EBT card online you've got a walmart that doesn't even have a proper grocery section and all the slots are always full #and that's about it #you can shop online with cold hard dollars sure but guess who only has like $10 of such money #not even enough to cover delivery fee & tip

[beneaththegildedmoon]

I miss having a cold being treated as a valid reason to call in sick instead of being told that's TMI and asked when I'll be in. We should have kept that mindset of avoiding spreading diseases unnecessarily

#at least i can wear my mask i guess #but i have to go teach a room full of students for 2 hours #and its coming up on exam season so their immune systems are shot #id be shocked if nobody catches this stupid cold from me today #but noooo its just so important that i be there to physically sit in the room with them instead of running the session online #not to mention all the people on the train and bus #idk like obviously this was always an issue pre-covid but we all experienced the benefits of better general hygeine practices etc. firsthand #why are so many people willing to just let things go back to how they were before?? #and now fucking Sunak wants to make it even harder to call out sick even for serious things #the tory bastard #so its only going to get worse #i hate it here