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forsaire · 5 months

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Welcome home (Ghost x Soap)

Ghost begs Price to be allowed to re-join the 141 after leaving.

Chapter 45 excerpt from Don't Let Me Go on ao3.

The door at the end of the hallway felt intimidating as it loomed over the two of them, making Ghost feel small and insignificant. The truth of his future was behind it.

Ghost paused in front of the door, hesitating for a second.

Soap linked his hand with Ghost’s and squeezed it reassuringly. He looked down at Soap who offered him a small and hopeful smile of support.

Ghost couldn't believe how stupid he’d been. Having gone so many years without Soap by his side, Ghost couldn’t fathom how he’d made it this far in his life without him. Nothing made sense without him. Now Ghost couldn’t picture a future in which Soap wasn’t a part of it.

Continuing to go on missions until their bodies gave out. Leading their own teams. Retiring from service and getting civilian jobs. Getting a small house by a lake to live out the rest of their days.

In everything, Soap was there, always by his side.

It was the little things too: waking up with morning tea, watching a movie together, going on drives to seemingly nowhere, texting each other about groceries, or celebrating another year around the sun.

Soap was his future.

Ghost squeezed Soap’s hand back and turned his attention back to the door. He raised his hand, took a breath, and knocked.

“Come in!” Price’s muffled voice called out from behind the door.

Ghost turned the knob and apprehensively pushed the door open, the two of them stepping inside. Price casually glanced up at them from where he was sitting. Upon seeing who it was, something shifted in Price’s eyes that Ghost couldn’t quite place. Price put down the folder he was looking at and swiped his glasses off his face, placing them down on the desk.

“I thought I’d be seeing you soon,” he said with a level voice, standing up.

Price slowly walked around until he was standing beside his desk. He crossed his arms tightly across his chest and watched them, a cautious frown on his face. His eyes didn’t give anything away.

Ghost clenched his other fist and gathered the courage to speak.

“I… I wish to come back…” he said with quiet certainty.

“Price, I know th-” Soap started but was quickly interrupted.

“Quiet,” Price ordered. “Let him speak.”

Soap shifted on his feet and shut his mouth.

“It was a mistake to desert the team. I broke the protocols and withdrew myself for selfish reasons. I’m sorry. I accept full responsibility for my actions, there is no excuse. So I will respect whatever decision you make and whatever you think is best for the team. But I’m… I’m asking to be allowed to come back…”

Price remained silent.

“I understand that I have broken your trust. You have my promise that it will never happen again,” Ghost continued, the final plea escaping his lips in desperation.

Price continued to watch him, his steely eyes appearing to look right through Ghost. He pursed his lips slightly as the growing silence continued to eat away at Ghost. He just needed an answer.

Price then flicked his eyes to Soap and down to where their hands were still clasped together. His eyes softened for a fraction of a second before he raised them to look up at Soap again.

“Leave us to speak,” he said. “Alone.”

Soap hesitated for a second, looking up at Ghost with uncertainty. Ghost squeezed his hand and gave him a reassuring nod. Soap also squeezed back one final time before reluctantly untangling their fingers. He slowly turned around and started to make his way to the door. He stole one last look behind him before he left the room, the door closing quietly.

“You understand the ramifications of your actions?” Price asked gruffly.

“Yes.”

“On everyone in the team?” Price’s eyes briefly flicked to the door as he said this.

“Yes…”

Ghost felt a rising wave of guilt build up inside him again for lashing out at the only person who’d ever believed in him. He’d regret how he made Soap feel that day for the rest of his life. He hoped he’d have his whole life to try and make up for it.

“Why?” Price asked. “Don’t bullshit me.”

Ghost dropped his eyes shamefully.

“I… I was scared,” he said weakly. “I was scared and overwhelmed. I was scared of what we had and the future and-” Ghost sighed. “I hurt him, and I was terrified of doing it again. I was trying to protect him, but it ended up being selfish and cowardly… I didn’t think anyone deserved that. Deserved me.”

Price continued to carefully watch him, a million complicated expressions flashing behind his eyes. It was silent for several excruciatingly long seconds.

“Despite what you may think, Simon,” Price said carefully. “More than one person was affected by your actions. Not only did you damn near almost break Soap, but the entire team struggled as well. We had to pick up the pieces you left behind and try to move on without you. And it wasn’t easy. For anyone.”

“I’m sorry… I’ve never really felt like I belonged in most places my whole life, but the 141… I was proud to be a part of it. I was proud of everything we’d accomplished. I should have considered how everyone would take my withdrawal. But I didn’t and I regret that.”

“Trust is hard to build and even harder to re-build,” Price said, delicately choosing his words. “So you understand why I wouldn’t want a liability on my team… You have responsibilities, not just as Ghost but as Simon as well.”

The words weighed heavily on Ghost and he couldn’t form any meaningful sentences. So he remained silent.

“But… I…” Price said, struggling to find the words for the first time since their conversation started. He briefly glanced over Ghost’s shoulder at the door again then back at Ghost. With a deep sigh, Price uncrossed his arms, letting them fall to his side. “I’ll have to put you on probation…”

Ghost immediately felt the tension in his shoulders relax as he let out a relieved exhale. Like a tidal wave crashing over him, Ghost buzzed with ecstatic relief.

“And I’ll have to set up bi-weekly checkups with me and Laswell,” Price continued. “And I’m thinking of putting into place-”

Price stopped abruptly, as if losing the words. His face softened and his eyes shone with a touch of sympathy. In any other case, Ghost would have hated the pitying look. But he’d take it a million times over if it meant he could stay.

Stay with Soap.

“But none of that matters right now…” Price muttered quietly under his breath.

Price walked closer to Ghost and stopped in front of him. He looked up at Ghost, a glint of mutual understanding between them, and he put a hand on Ghost’s shoulder.

“Welcome home, son.”

Full chapter a03.

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jennifersminds · 6 months

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can’t wait for sam’s throwing up and crying era next season

#no bc i need this man GROVELING #sam x emma #i love them pls they’re just going through a small divorce era #gen v

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halforcdad · 2 years

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Really loving how the show is exploring the beginning of Kate and Lucy's relationship and all the insecurities that still lurk in the shadows of honeymoon bliss. There's a lot to love in 2x02:

Kate blurting out, “I want to tell my boss we’re dating,” and Lucy being completely thrown off. It’s Kate’s version of “I want to be intimate,” and Lucy pointing at the coffee shop and going, “Here???”

Lucy being a supportive, stabilizing force for Kate only for us to find out she's equally as freaked out and worried later in her own time (says it to Jesse and then, as pointed out very nicely here, she punches her girlfriend's boss's arm then tries to recover by nervously complimenting his corny apron).

"No, no it's not fine, Lucy... You make it look so easy," is giving "You're always doing nice things for me... I just wanted to show my appreciation." (Both of them feeling like they're not doing enough/doing it as well as the other and trying to do something big to make sure they're reciprocating properly, resulting in them making "mistakes" they feel the need to apologize for.)

2x02 is likely an intentional callback/parallel to 1x07 to show how far they've come:

Kate hesitantly whispering in a dark corner about being compartmented after Lucy invited her out in front of people vs. Kate, in public, outright saying she wants to introduce Lucy to her boss and coworkers and inviting her to the barbeque (and wanting Lucy's input)

Lucy being all hush-hush with Ernie in the empty hallway vs. Lucy rambling loudly to Jesse about her girlfriend possibly losing her position because of conflict of interest concerns while walking down that same hallway (and then the bullpen) now full of coworkers

Kate not wanting anyone at work, especially Lucy’s team, to find out about them (”Ernie’s not people”) vs. Kate jumping at the chance to ask Jesse for advice despite him giving her an out (in general, Jesse, who labelled Kate 'the Mean Girl™️' in the pilot, now watching her lament over her own incompetence because of a silly misunderstanding all while making silly faces and asking him how to not piss off his teammate/little sister/friend)

"You make it look so easy." "We don't have to do this today." "No, no, I want to, it's just—it's a lot for me,"

is a less combative version of,

"I'm trying to do this your way, you know, be all expressive and smiley, it's just—it's hard for me to be-" "Human?" "I'm trying here, Lucy."

They're both self-deprecating scenes for Kate. She admits she's embarrassed by herself in 1x07 and we see it in 2x02 after she confesses that this is the first time she's ever introduced a girlfriend to her coworkers. In 1x07, it's like Kate's begging Lucy to see her and understand her. In 2x02, it feels more like deep shame (especially when she looks down at "It's a lot for me") over disappointing and failing Lucy again after saying she’d do things differently this time. Lucy, who’s the most amazing woman she’s ever met, who’s crazy about her, who’s still trying to reassure her when Kate can’t even do something as simple as correct her boss when he assumes she’s dating a guy.

A big difference is that in one, Kate knows she hurt Lucy and is delivering a necessary apology after a disagreement and in the other, Kate thinks she’s hurt Lucy, even though Lucy's tells her it's fine. Kate still insists that it's not, is quick to say “it’s my fault”, and is stressing out big time over a small mistake. It also feels like the difference between the two Kacy scenes is this feeling of Kate “has to” vs. Kate “wants to”. S1 Kate is sharing because she messed up and is trying to cling onto the potential this relationship has and S2 Kate already knows the pain of losing Lucy to her own bad choices and wants to be better (1x07 ends with Kate in that state because she was prompted, but in 2x02 she starts the episode already having decided on her own that she wants to involve Lucy).

In 1x07, Lucy’s hurt and upset, so even when Kate’s being vulnerable (after Lucy offered up some vulnerability first) and turning her assumptions on their head, she lashes out. Ernie’s advice earlier in the episode is light-hearted ribbing, but also coated in the fact that maybe Lucy was wrong to make assumptions from her own insecurities. She can’t be sympathetic towards Kate just yet. Eventually, she recognizes the effort Kate’s putting in and agrees to terms that’ll make her the most comfortable. Kate’s asking for a lot of things in this scene: forgiveness, understanding, another chance, time.

In 2x02, Lucy can clearly see Kate's distress and realizes the big leap Kate's trying to make for her, for them. Sees the workplace stakes 1x07 Kate might have been worried about and spirals a little too before Jesse course-corrects her. When Kate admits how new this type of milestone is for her, despite it being something Lucy's wanted since s1, she prioritizes Kate's comfort and says they don't have to do this today. It's only when Kate makes it absolutely clear that this is something she wants to do, something they both want, that Lucy switches the type of support she offers.

Kate puts herself out there, lets herself be vulnerable, and Lucy meets her halfway: in 1x07 when she agrees to being a secret and in 2x02 when she's supporting Kate's decision to be transparent and open about them.

The first is a compromise in the dark, in the closed-door break room tucked in the corner of the office, after their coworkers have gone home. Lucy flirts and teases, but she walks away, leaving Kate to chase after her. It obviously means a lot to both of them, but they don't say that out loud, instead choosing to be all coy about it and deflecting. They probably spend the night together, Kate showing her appreciation in the comfort of her own home.

The second is a reminder and a promise that Kate isn't alone anymore because they're in a serious, committed relationship. Lucy reaches out, leaves no room for doubt as she links their hands together, and tells Kate earnestly that she's right there by her side, that she's here to stay no matter what. In the light of day, out in the open, on their way to meet Kate's coworkers. Then, she walks with her into the bbq, stands by her the whole time, and uses that Lucy Tara charm on everyone. And Kate repays all that by being brave, by being openly sweet, loving, and affectionate with Lucy in front of everyone.

#ncis hawaii #ncis hawai'i #kacy #lucy tara #kate whistler #does it ever drive you crazy just how fast the night changes #im choosing to see subtext in 'you make it look so easy' dont fight me ill win #im gonna lose my mind if i think any harder about these two eps #theres layers to this!#these episodes are best friends do not separate them #im now obsessed with 2x02 all the kacy conversations + jesse were so good #these two are truly so so cute but also so so stupid how do you not see how in love yall are #like whistler of course lucy is crazy for you shes been down to clown since the beginning #and lucy the woman who grovelled at ur feet and serenaded u isnt going to be scared away by all you can eat breakfast buffet #i love curtis but he really was there in the thick of it for 1x20 and didnt get a gay vibe at all from either lucy or whistler #truly the type of straight man who would unironically wear a flavorful bbq ingester apron and obsess over tongs #can you tell 1x07 is one of my favorite s1 episodes

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sketchy-scribs-n-doods · 1 year

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the way i wish there could be more good faith analysis and fic about billy having adopted racial prejudice from his dad and then learning to properly recognize it and grow past it in order become a better person. i wish there was more posts and fics that tackle the bullshit lucas has had to deal with as a black kid in small town indiana because the duffers never even considered it. but the sheer puritan black and white thinking and performative activism or moral virtue signaling or whatever the fuck that is so pervasive in this fandom means that even the few posts and fics that dare to try and actually tackle racism tend turn it into either a punishment narrative, are depressingly shallow about it, make it about hating and liking the 'right characters', or miss the mark entirely

like i get it, homophobia/transphobia is easier to explore and talk about for most fans. it's complex and multi-layered just like other types of oppression, but so much of fandom is queer and dedicated to shipping and labels that yeah, i can see how talking about it is just. easier for a lot of ppl. also a lot of fandom is white. and lots of white gays get weird about discussing racism in their spaces. y'know the deal, but i digress. from what i can see, very few ppl want to explore how racism affects our favorite characters and the stories they live in. i know some ppl are probably afraid of getting it wrong, or they don't know anything about it and don't feel like they should. it's like, my blorbo is queer and so am i, so why wouldn't i talk all day about that? i get it. but it honestly just means a lot when someone tries earnestly. i have read beautiful fics about trans love through hardship by cis authors and such genuine fics about connection in the face of racism's poison by white authors.

there is just SO much untapped potential in exploring lucas and max and billy and patrick and argyle and all the other characters directly and indirectly affected by bigotry and racism within the narrative that never got the acknowledgement it deserved. plus it's super weird being used as a 'gotcha!' by white fans that hate billy (as if poc fans of billy aren't capable of seeing it for the bullshit it is) or seeing lucas' treatment in the show get brushed aside like it's nothing or how argyle gets sidelined an awful lot in the fandom (and don't even get me started on how messy the classism in this fandom can be, the borderline erasure of eddie's poverty and its effects on who he is as a person in fic is insane sometimes)

anyway. idk if any of this makes sense, but i can count like maybe 3 good fics and maybe a dozen good posts about billy that actually address this in good faith and only maybe a dozen more for every other character i mentioned. and i desperately want more. i am brown and queer and i want healing and love for all of these characters and i am going to have to start churning out more of it myself at this rate.

#the dozen or so good posts are all by my mutuals at this point lmaoo #and 1 of the like 3 only good fics is ALSO by one of my mutuals #oh actually i forgot about TOWNIE make that 4 good fics and 2 written by my mutuals lol #billy hargrove #i cant tag any of the other blorbos bc then ppl will start acting stupid in my notes #i may already be playing fast and loose bc i mention my man argy #this is super incoherent bc its late for me so im not in the mood for clowns #it's rly mostly bc either billy is painted as horrible bad racist who is either forever so or needs to grovel and suffer to redeem himself #OR ppl who like him dont rly know how to tackle the obvious racial prejudice in his actions and try to toe it aside #like yea i love him but that boy isn't gonna magically free himself of any bigotry without some in depth introspection #or some very specific headcanons about what he got up to in california and what was motivating him when he treated lucas like he did #and even then you gotta acknowledge it #idk man maybe im just picky like no one is obligated to write fic this is mostly me bitching #except for the overt racism and classism n shit in this fandom that im being deadass about #but yes TOWNIE + Spin Me Right Round + Yourself or Someone Like You fic supremacy #if you have recs. hand them over pls. i have a Need.

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keii · 7 months

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Bellamy in the goblin camp is my favorite version of him so far, I love choosing options that supports him being a fucking menace LOL

#also threatened the lil goblin girl...#encouraging everyone to drink more...#also boo'd who's that guy... volo?? LMAOO I BOOED HIM OFF THE STAGE LOOL #I LOVE BEING MEAN AND DOMINATING AHHH #he's a cleric but... that man lived off the streets!!!#THAT LIL GOBLIN ASKING HOW IT FELT HAVING THE OTHER ONE KISS MY FEET??? ALL THOSE FUCKING CHOICES ARE MAKING ME SCREAM AHH #BELLAMY'S FACE MY GOD WHY IS HE GRINNING LIKE THAT #THAT FREAK!!! LOOOL #you aren't going into heaven bell... like... no matter how many prayers u send...#not me choosing the option to kick the corpse and then asking what did he do to deserve that #and then afterwards telling the kid that it's deserved that his parents are dead LMFAOOO #when lae'zel told me not grovel at the feet of that goblin... yes my queen...#i won't let him disrespect my name and your choice to follow me!!!#so far astarion likes me the best surprise surprise... bc i'm mean #but also want lae'zel to like me more AHHH #bellamy #bg3

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book-a-bilia · 6 months

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Alessandra Davenport would max relate to Taylor Swift's Tolerate It and you can't change my mind on that

Like-

I wait by the door like I'm just a kid,

Use my best colours for your portrait

And also-

While you were out building other worlds where was I?

where's that man who'd throw blankets over my barbed wire?

I made you my temple, my mural, my sky

Now I'm begging for footnotes in the story of your life

Drawing hearts in the byline

And the most Alessandra coded lyrics-

You assume I'm fine, but what would you do if I

Break free and leave us in ruins?

#That song is so Alessandra coded #I'm reading King of Greed #And just happened to listen to this song #And it made me immediately think of her #Poor Ale #Dominic needs to get his shit together and beg for her forgiveness on his knees #I'm feeling feelings #And this song just accentuated them #I love a grovelling man #king of greed #ana huang #Books #Booklr

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starsparklez · 1 year

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Sonic Prime is like, prime stuff. You know?

#this show #sonic prime #sonic the hedgehog #sonamy #knouge #great animation #man of action #netflix #Shadow #sega #i love it #more please #beg for more seasons #go ahead and grovel

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urbanbirdbud · 1 year

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it’s been. a very rough afternoon

#fun to know that even while in the midst of my worst disassociative episode in the past year I can still cobble together a good meme #anyways um. about to tear down literally everything I ever derives joy from in my room and put into storage and never speak more than needed #to my dad. I am. so so tired. every time I think things are looking up and I can relax in my own home something has to happen #and then I need to slowly rebuild any safety I felt beforehand. I hate knowing my stuff was looked through and I dont know to what extent #anyways yeah. yearly deeply oversharing personal post over. gonna go hide literally half of my mortal possessions in a box somewhere #personal #no rblogging etc etc #edit: having another breakdown bear w me #I’ve scraped myself down to nothing for peace in my family I grovel and shut up and bear it fucking all and even then #they have the fucking audacity to ask me more? to put away the few reminders I have of people who love me things I enjoy #and the friendships Ive held onto like a dying man does to water?#they say they care about my mental health and how the devil affects everyone insidiously. I think they should take a long deep look #in the fucking mirror. open their eyes to how fucking close I was to just. giving up while I was suffocating under the veil of religion #and no before anyone asks I’m not gonna do anything stupid. I’m not one to live for spite but I trudge on hoping to get somewhere better.#just gonna have a short cry before bottling it up and dealing w it ten yrs down the road. not gonna go thru another ‘check in’ to lose more #oops forgot my little tag ->#ubb chirps

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hawnks · 2 years

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#uh oh I have a manwha rec 🥺😔#angst with a happy ending #ways of parting by amalillia #it was so good I was crying literally like two chapters in :’)#it’s very much an everyone is just trying to make the best decisions they can story #the premise is a guy waking up from a five year coma #he’s a photographer and got injured while covering an assignment overseas #and no one had any idea what happened to him until his return to Korea #only to find his lifelong best friend and lover has recently started seeing someone new. and tells the main character that he won’t be #breaking up with his new boyfriend (becuase he’s a good man and is committed :’) )#main character is distraught. he’s shy and kind of bad at being with people so he has no one else to fall back on really #enter new love interest: the new (and temporary) boss at the main characters old place of work #he wants MC back in the field. he also wants MC in general #however only on a no strings attached fwb deal #becuase he’s kind of a dick at first #but I do love it when they grovel <3

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kaxen · 1 year

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Sometimes I think I don't explain The Artist's insecurities very well in Cyberpink 1824, but on the other hand...

IT'S JUST THE RESULT OF BEING IN A PROFESSION SPENT 75% INSIDE YOUR OWN HEAD AND DEPENDING ON THE SUBJECTIVE REACTIONS OF OTHERS TO GET YOUR BREAD.

#cyberpink 1824 #I used to be confused as to why artists who could kick my ass 10 ways to Sunday just kept it as a hobby #but now it's like y'know what? that makes so much fuckin' sense #art as a profession can be rather rough on mental health #ESPECIALLY IF ART IS YOUR ONLY HOBBY #and some people can't afford having more hobbies than that #having a “boring” job where no one can emotionally manipulate you by calling you too dispassionate about your “life's calling”#is not a bad decision #*gestures at how much abuse there is in the games and vfx industries*#man plumbers don't have this problem #the leak is fixed or it ain't #“wow why aren't you giving 300% for the love of toilets?”#“wow why aren't you groveling to have this job for shit pay at this company that made your childhood?”#of course noncreative industries also have their abuses too *gestures at all the bullshit farmworkers go through*#but there's like a certain brand of killing yourself from the inside that comes with creating in a shitty work environment

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orcgoth · 1 year

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I'm not going to apologise for being trans and- yes- that includes apologizing for being a man

#sorry women making weird pointed coments #sorry boys who grovel to feel less guilty for being on 'the bad side'#i simply love being a man and nonbinary and transexual #orc.txt

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herembers · 2 years

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Hmmmm reaching a moment in this romance novel where the love interest isn’t groveling enough for my liking 🤨

#it’s SO GOOD so far lots of good tropes #I would marry the heroine in a heartbeat #her man tho?#i love the snarky banter but…sir you’ve realized the error of your ways #time to GROVEL

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violentdevotion · 2 years

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you and i fronting up the martha defense squad ...shes literally such a fucking queen <333

everytime I think about how she walked the earth alone while her family were enslaved to save the doctor and humanity and no one remembers any of it and it took all of that AND everything that happened before during the season run for her to gain the confidence to leave him and Martha Jones, Doctor and Hero, is still reduced to the one that had an unrequited crush on him. Killing 10 and the show runners with my mind

#rina tag #ameeras.got.mail #i remember when i was watching it for the first time w my brother and he blamed martha for the master bc dhes the one that told him abt the #watch and i think abt how many people must thing the same thing and i think abt how all martha knew was that the doctor was the last and #that he was alone. even w her he felt alone. that he was at his happiest as a human when he didnt know that deep lonliness. the knowledge #that he was the last and of course she didnt think maybe this incredibly kind and gentlehearted man whos trying 2 save the last of humanity #is evil she saw his actions and she saw that theres another man like the doctor and she tried to save both of them and it backfired but the #action was one of a deep love and empathy that the companions are just full of when theyre written right #AND THEN i think abt outside the show and the racism and abuse dhe faced and i think abt how thag must tie in w martha the unrequited one #and blonde hair rose as the one that got away. the true love and mickey. rose's mistreated ex bf and how martha and him were paired #together with seemingly no explanation and i want 2 explode all over again in new ways. she was so mistrested and if freema ever comes back #i expect the world to grovel

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ikuhara · 2 years

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