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#no wrongs were committed and i dont hold a grudge against the guy it was just me being confused and compheted
jorvikzelda · 1 month
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today i had this Vivid memory flash through my mind of kissing my ex boyfriend (this was like 2018) and i felt so viscerally fucking revolted and I gotta say. it is truly impressive that I didn’t realise I’m a lesbian sooner than fucking half a year ago
#z talks#like the misidentifying as ace was Inevitable i think. that was due to repression that realising i didnt like men would not have fixed#(context: id’d as bi ace like. i wanna say 2016/17-2021/22 sometime and then went into ace and Questioning)#remember the time i really solidly settled on being aro because ‘romance has never not felt like a chore and putting on a facade’#babe no thats because your most recent and also singular long term relationship was with a Man#and thats the only one youre looking back on#its so funny how i dated a guy and it was so thoroughly Meh that i just didnt feel like pursuing anything romantic for a very long time#(A REACTION I HAD NOT HAD AFTER MY PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIPS WITH GIRLS)#And DIDN’T somehow consider that maybe I just Didn’t Like Guys#its nothing i grieve or feel sad about dw its honestly mostly funny to look back on#no wrongs were committed and i dont hold a grudge against the guy it was just me being confused and compheted#(…which is also a weird word to apply because at the time i identified and was out to my friends as a trans guy Binary.#This Was Also Wrong.)#was a weird time man. a truly weird time#anyway. all is well i have now been on 2 dates with a really cute girl and she gave me tulips <3#as part of a Care Delivery bc i had a Migraine and No Painkillers Or Snacks#get well flowers <333333#and now i dream of kissing her under the moonlight#With the uh. Hornetposting lately it May seem unlikely but yes I DO interact with real women! Romantically!#They coexist Wonderfully <3#Anyway. I’m gonna go to bed#Realising that im a lesbian solved all my identity problems including my fucking gender which is just fantastic#I am very happy and whenever I think of being a lesbian it grounds me to reality a little bit stronger and i go yeah. Yeah.
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versadies · 2 years
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HELPP I LOVE HOW YOUR SO OPEN MINDED ABOUT SHIPS I was literally expecting at least a 1 rate from one of them when I saw the post in my home feed, how do you feel about chaeya, kaebedo, jeanluc, and diluc x zhongli though?? (I dont ship them but I wanna know how you’d rate it)
i honestly see no point in being against ships if they didn’t do anything bad— and rating a 1 would be too harsh no? unless the ship is wrong in a lot of ways (child x adult for example) :00
chaeya - 8/10
an interesting pair tbh — i never expected those two to be shipped but im not super surprised. i can see why you guys ship those two together since they have a lot in common (charisma, attitude, etc.) :DDD
they also seem to be the type to use each other for their very own benefits, but then ended up falling in love with each other in the process hehe. not to mention the fact that those two can easily deal with one another :>>>
overall, a very amusing ship with amusing characters :DD
kaebedo - 1029293839/10
PLSSSSSSSSS I KEEP LOSING MY SHIT WHENEVER I REMEMBER ALBEDO’S VOICELINE ABOUT DRAWING KAEYA 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 and for that reason alone, i give it a lot of points 🥴🥴🥴
their voicelines about each other rlly do be 👀👀👀👀 and i can see why the ship exists. they have a lot of potential together and i hope mihoyo will eventually give us more scenes besides the apple archipelago quests when they interact with one another again 🤝🤝🤝 (omg imagine subject two and kaeya interacting one another and tease each other AWOOGAAAAAAA)
albedo is honestly the type to be unphased by kaeya’s flirts and teases, which gives kaeya all the more reason to be interested in the alchemist <<333
overall, a very very potential ship that makes me excited to see how itll grow once we see those two interacting more.
jeanluc - 20/10
i literally thought those two are dating when i first saw them in standard banner together 😦😦😦 and my inner jeanlisa died 😔😔 but then it got resurrected when i found out that they werent dating (while my inner jeanluc died) 🤪🤪🤪
in the end, both my inner jeanlisa and jeanluc were back from the dead after seeing so many scenes of them 😍😍😍 i find it really cute that both jean and diluc have pet turtles, i won’t be surprised if it turns out that those two were childhood friends back then :>>>
i also like how despite jean is a part of the knights of favonius, diluc doesn’t hold much grudge against her (at least based on my observation) and his voicelines about her are just about how her responsibilities and trifling matters are stopping her from finding her true calling.
as for jean, i really like how she understands that she can’t do anything to change diluc being critical towards the kof because of the past and knows that he also commits a lot to protecting the city. they give me right person, wrong time vibes :((
then again, the ship also gives me childhood friends to lovers vibes and i just wanna scream how they look so good together 😭😭😭
zhongluc - 9/10
again, another unexpected ship that i didn’t know exists. idk why people ship them but at the same time i can see why 😌😌 those two seems to be the type to deeply understand one another without saying anything and would stare st each other like they’re the universe when the other isn’t looking at them <<333
they give me friends to lovers and they’d probably meet if zhongli’s the one visiting mondstadt and drinks with venti in angel’s tavern while diluc works there (they became connected when they find out that that the other can’t deal with venti’s bs 👽👽)
overall, a random ship but in a good way :DDD
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herakosmos · 4 years
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matchup for @ioveworm!𐐪𐑂
“Hi!! my general info is: im 5'8, kinda chubby but not big in the boob area, (sobs), i have semi long curly black hair with brown front strands! i use she/her, im a virgo sun, sag moon, pisces rising! my personality type is intp-t. im pretty snarky without realizing it, also can be too blunt/straight forward around someone im comfortable with! i have a RBF so some people say i look angry/intimidating but in reality its just my social awkwardness which somehow feeds into that + the fact im awful at speaking with strangers, if i don't have to speak to someone i definitely wont so people need to take the first step in taking </3 im a huge empath and can sympathize with a lot of people but aso can hold grudges/ know how to stand my ground if i REAAALLLLY need to even if i am literally shitting myself LOLLL. i also cry very easily during movies, if an animal dies even if its just in the background i WILL break down into tears. im also super self conscious bc of my weight so 9/10 times i will be trying to make myself as unnoticeable as possible. i can be pretty sarcastic and retort back but if something someone says rubs me the wrong way i can tear up and cry easily haha.... i LOVEE dogs!! music/making playlists, horror movies/game play throughs, pubg/gaming, anime and learning abt animals! i can handle people who are quiet/dont talk much pretty well as long as they reassure me that im not being annoying or bothering them!! but if we can both talk about stuff we like together it makes me super happy and i'll always hear them out!! im pretty bubbly around people i'm close with and giggly but if i'm around other random people im still quiet/neutral... I HOPE THIS ISNT TOO MUCH !!!🥺😞”
hi!! and also dont worry about it i love longer descriptions bc it gives me more ideas on what to put in matchups! <33
this honestly took me longer than it should, but it was because i wanted to give myself a challenge and be more diverse with my options!
i really hope you enjoy this 🥺
i match you up with . . .
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kenjirō shirabu!! 𐐪𐑂
✰ ok this pairing went through a lot of rollercoasters when meeting, BUT HEAR ME OUT 
✰ the sorta tsundere x lovable girlfriend trope in this is 🥺🥺🥺🥺
✰ your first encounter with shirabu would be sorta rocky i’d say. he has this thing where he tries to mask his real feelings with insults because he honestly doesn’t know what the fuck are feelings
✰ i feel like the reason why he fell for for you was mostly because of how everyone perceived you to be this mean and b*tchy person when you’re actually the opposite
✰ one day you just couldn’t handle it anymore and started to release a few tears from each eye
“do you hate me that much?”
✰ honestly this line broke him :((
“you’re not annoying to me kay? it’s just…never mind”
✰ the more you two actually spent time together though, you guys do warm up to each other bit by bit
✰ him asking you out would probably be the most awkward thing ever JBAKHBXKHXB
✰ poor boy is new to all of this mushy feeling stuff
“weprobablymaybelikeeachotheridontknowbutwouldyougooutwithme..?” 
✰ you would probably be like: ???
✰ THIS GUY IS TURNING SO RED NOW SEND HELP FOR HIM
✰ i don’t know why but he’ll be the type to just whip out his phone and try to type out what he was trying to say while you’re in front of him
✰ shirabu: go out with me?
✰ the two of you end up becoming a blushing mess together (AWHH)
✰ lemme tell you, once this guy becomes your man, all hard work pays off
✰ this man would take care of you. even though he rarely shows it verbally, he definitely does through acts of services
✰ shirabu understands your self coniousness since he tends to get like that too. to be honest he doesn’t really care about the way you look. he loves you just the way you are and it honestly makes him want to punch whoever made you feel the need to be super conscious about yourself
✰ the amount of cute puppy pictures he spams your phone just to cheer you up (AWHHH)
✰ he knows probably almost everything about you and remembers even the smallest details
✰ like for example he knows that you dye the front strands of your hair brown, so on his own he’ll buy boxes of hair dye for you and leave them in the cabinet 
“don’t use too much of it or else i have to get more”
✰ he’s so blunt omg and sometimes it may rub you the wrong way, but shirabu really does try to tone it down for you because he hates it when you cry. especially when he is the cause of it :((
✰ he’ll pull you close and kisses away your tears🥺
✰ dates can include going to dog cafés, the zoo or movie dates at home :D
✰ the first ever time you guys had a movie date this boy really thought of a plan to give you the scare of a lifetime by watching a super scary horror movie. little did he know you LOVED horror, so when he put it on you were unfazed and this dude was so shocked at you
✰ in shirabu’s mind: how the fuck is she not scared right now
✰ his reactions were so priceless and honestly he was kinda pissed you weren’t cuddling up against him right now for protection😭😭
“how are you not afraid of this”
“i don’t know either, i mean this is sooooo scary”
✰ shirabu turned to you immediately with a shocked expression. he learned two things that day, you loved horror movies and can get pretty sarcastic lmao
“thanks a lot for ruining my plans of you jumping into my arms for protectio-”
“what?”
“what?”
✰ shirabu was actually the one who suggested going to a dog café and the zoo afterwards. it really shocked you since he wasn’t really big with animals
✰ in actuality, the setter knew how much you loved animals and wanted to take you on an animal themed date for the day (even though he’ll never say it)
✰ the way your eyes sparkled and become so invested in the creatures honestly makes him so soft. no one makes him so soft like you, you’re one lucky girl🙈
“baby can we please get a dog?”
“no”
“pleeasseee”
“no”
“you can be the big spoon from now on”
“yes”
✰ KJDBXJBSJSJBNJN
✰ NO ONE KNOWS SHIRABU LETS YOU BE THE BIG SPOON AND IF ANYONE DID ALL HELL WILL BREAK LOOSE
✰ light giggles started to leave your mouth due to the fact he gave in so quickly because of that one offer
✰ shirabu soon started to mess up your hair and gave you a small smile🥺🥺
“i’m only agreeing, so you won’t have to have a permenant pout on your face whenever we pass a dog on the street baka”
✰ head pokes are a BIG thing for showing his “affection” for you
✰ making fun of him? head poke
✰ getting frustrated because of an idiotic character in an anime? head poke
✰ whenever shirabu plays a video game with you he’ll show NO mercy and try to beat you and when he does his cocky smirks start to show. he also tries to hold back his tongue to try and not tease you
✰ but when you win, omg he gets so salty. his face most definetely would try not to show it, but inside his head he’s raging SO MUCH
“tch you only won because i let you”
“sure babe, sureeee”
✰ becomes so salty he’ll probably start a pillow fight with you LMAO
✰ this guy definitely loves late night calls with you. he enjoys your soothing voice and would wanna hear you talk 24/7. he gets fairly busy juggling studies and volleyball, so your voice really makes him feel less stressed out🥺 sometimes the call would run on until the next day because you two soon fall asleep on call together haha
✰ i feel like shirabu wouldn’t have a lot of pet names for you, but sometimes he’ll call you “baka” “babe” and “darling”
✰ you being a virgo and him being a taurus you guys are a great match!
✰ both can be quite sincere and devoted to one another. virgos like taurus’s strength and commitment while taurus loves virgo’s quick mind!
✰ shirabu is an ENTJ while you are an INTP which means another great match :)))
✰ ENTJs love INTP’s way of thinking, knowledge and being patient. INTPs love ENTJ’s enthusiasm for knowledge, straightforwardness and being able to take criticism well <33
bonus!
heres an anime relationship type gif that i just think you two would do 🥺
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kkukkung · 7 years
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"kiho is... fascinating rly" what do u mean 👀
their relationship dynamic is v fascinating and fanfic fuel.. lov the way kihyun... needs to win... and wonho kind of lets him........ but also they’re v tender idk LOV this photoset... ykh is always 100% serious when he attacks ??? but then he’s a very... aftercare guy.... bye
more asks under the cut (dated newest to oldest)
u kno that thing kihyun does when he has the camera where he like...tilts his head back a lil and shakes it a bit. it cute
hate 2 admit this but he rly is.... v c*te... v sexy 2 when he’s BEHIND the camera and he squints and grits one side of his teeth... ok ok ok ok alright alright alr
i dont rlly think hoseok is bi i think hes pan like if hes in love he doesnt rlly care what gender they are
mmm i use the two v interchangeably bc currently i don’t think there is a clear distinction between them? what u said is the traditional dictionary difference but a lot of bisexual people identify with that too and a lot of pansexual people don’t? like from what i’ve been observing, the bi = binary genders/more than one gender, pan = all genders thing doesn’t rly seem to help that much in establishing the difference btwn them? for example........ i usually say im bi irl and pan on tumblr just bc of the difference between levels of lgbtq understanding under varied contexts... but that obviously doesn’t apply to everyone... so yeah frankly i’m still confused abt the difference between them and i guess... just letting ppl fall into whatever they think is right for them is the only way to go? but like tell me if i’m getting smth wrong here lol. also i saved the url pansexualwonho shfjdkgj
hello bunny do u have a wishlist
no and get off my blog stinky
leave ur gf for me
what does it mean when ur gf has a bf and ur also kind of seeing kakashi hatake?? :/ are we all dating by association??
wonho looks like jooheon and IM sugar daddy in that picture or something....
jshgjfk i think this was abt the units teaser photo right? (x) tbh i feel like jooheon looks more sugar daddy here but wonho has a lot of potential... he’d definitely Spoil the person(s) he’s dating :/
I just checked and the members of that new variety show minhyuk will be in are all giants, they are all above 180cm, well besides actually minhyuk lolz it's kinda funny, but I guess he won't need to make himself seem smaller since he's the tiny one this time
my breath hitched when i read this ??? aaa ur right... tbh i don’t know how im going to... survive this show bc it’s... so blindingly... visual?? have high hopes for it i know he’s going to do so well... and ummmmmMM imagine him... making himself XXXXXXXXXXXXXS precisely bc he knows it’s going to b cute n like... tucking himself against eunwoo or smth i might die
YOUR TAGS MAKE ME SO HAPPY!!
THANK U?????? 💖💖💖💖💖 cute anons make me happi :’0
to reaffirm you as a wonho stan: you have 149 pages filed under wonho on your blog but only 118 under minhyuk. however i believe recently 3/5 of your posts are minhyuk posts.
this felt like it was heading somewhere but the second half jfkhgsj i mean,,
do you know where that picture of kihyun and the join forces with communists or end star wars picture is from with his hand up on a bluish greyish wall i rlly like his hand there u know and I think that we sHould join forces with him and he's right we need to make a stand for it but anyways if u know where the pocture is from may u pls share it thnx I lov ur blog lots
@marxistkihyun
[nsfw text warning] i was reading this wonhyuk fic and thought of u immediately archiveofourown org/works/10314092 mostlytop!mh slight daddy kink mh takes extra care of wh :') enjoy
UH ANON................ HOW DID U KNOW....... EXACTLY WHAT I LIKE...... AND THIS LINE... THIS LINE... “He likes Hoseok, but he likes when pretty girls tie him up and sit on his face too”,,,,,,,, rly the best lmh characterisation i’ve ever read sdjkfgh gbye this was rly sweet and well-written and realistic and i think??? i lov u?? and i lov my poly + bi boyfriends :(((( thank u sm for the rec i rly enjoyed it
i'm east asian too and non-asian ppl keep telling me that "rat" and "snake" are racial slurs and i've never heard of such a thing until i joined kpop fandom (rly recently). if you want my honest opinion it's another one of those things where like... overzealous SJWs nitpick terminology and project on POC even tho they have never experienced it themselves... idk. i rly have never heard any of those terms used against asians before as racial slurs...i've seen other asian fans also question this
(regarding this ask) yeah lmao i mean............ the more i think abt it the more i feel like it was ??? just such a strange thing to have been told... and the way it was said as well... like “this is a racial slur so don’t say it” feels condescending ?? like, me, an east asian person, being “educated” abt racism against east asian people by an anon on the internet for a post that had zero connection to race and terms taken way out of context (that generally aren’t racially charged anyway).... ok lol
Wonho decided to change the title from ^give it to you^ to ^524^ I wonder if it's because of their debut date or something similar?
yes~ 5.14 is their debut date! it was also the time on the clock in the teaser :3c but it still doesn’t rly explain why he changed it? strange bc i thought the song would b emo bc of the changed title but it was kinda.. boppy?? sounds more like a “give it 2 u” than a “last page” hmm but gotta hear the whole thing first ig
I have the impression that Wonho is a sensitive person, he can get hurt easily (but won't hold grudges) and carry his emotions for a really long time. I think he tends to delve in his emotions and thoughts constantly and is thoughtful of when/how he should share them to not burden others. He's ALL IN for his members, trying to cheer them up and tying them all together [rmbr when he made JooHyuk hug to avoid misunderstandings or when he gave Jooheon the biggest sweet potato] in a subtle way.
yessssssssssssssss yes i don’t have anything to add here yes yes yes he’s just... the best guy :(
The Monsta X/GOT7 Psychologist ISN'T A psychoanalist. AFAIK Psychoanalysis avoid archetypes, because the patient can use it as a excuse. Also, to psychoanalysis there isn't a cure, there's only a savoir-faire which means you won't change your past, but you can change how you feel about it, sometimes being able to extract lessons from those painful memories. Psychoanalysis works with words, the way we phrase things is how we conceive reality. So don't underrate your literal analysis+observations.
aaa thank u sm.......... i rly learnt a lot from u thank u v insightful.... pop psychology is fun but ig we have to be careful to not... confound it with the Real Thing and hold mx to it?? anyway thank u sm for taking the time to type out all ur asks they were v helpful!
wonho has honestly tried to kill minhyuk an incredible amount of times but in the end always remembers he can't commit murder in front of a camera...........................
idk wonho choking minhyuk was rly the hottest thing ive ever seen jsfhg bye God I Wish That Were Me
in that live where u said minhyuk tapped wonhos bicep with his little alien claw was honestly was so c*te... especially the contrast btwn mh featherless chicken feet fingers and wonho thiccness..... wonhyuk are rly so comfortable and natural with each other like u can't rly see it but it looks like wonho let go of the camera with the arm that was being tapped to hold minhyuks hand/wrist..................................................c*te
uh put thi s on my grave...... i love wonhyuk sm i could die :( they rly lov each other sm jkdgfhsdjkgfhhkkdg
Hellooo!
henlo rabbit
maybe im just naïve but starship ent. is overall an alright company - with all groups they promote they seem to be fair and equal and overall supportive :/ which makes me rlly thankful my children aren't being neglected;;
ahh yeah i think on the whole they’re not bad with mx... apart from when they didn’t send members to the hospital after they were in a literal car crash??? and idk just not great promo times and minor organisational things.. bc they have a certain amount of faith in mx the investment isn’t too shabby. but with like... other groups... like boyfriend...... idk ?? they were just shipped off to japan and never heard from again? and even sistar i mean, the conditions they worked in at the beginning was appalling :/
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