#ok enough overthinking

[itadore-you]

It's almost 2am and I overshare past midnight lol

I'm going to ramble about my irl crushes now

OK so remember the rlly hot college crush I was paired with for placement?? Yeh um so I found out around December that he has a girlfriend so I moved on.

I do not wish to jinx current crush but here is a summary - I'd always see him around campus (bc he also does med ) and think to myself mmmm he has such nice curly hair I like him. but we'd never talk ?? Then over time we had way too many mutual friends and we got close from January to March

Ngdhshssjdjs I've always loved a friends-to-lovers storyline but I think if I tried anything it would make the friend group dynamics so awkward

#ok enough overthinking #i stay up regularly bc the second he messages me im opening that message 😩 #this crush is very different to the first one i talked abt #bc im not as obsessive or weird around him since we r friends #but i act like such a MAN i am literally only mean to him 😩😩😩😩😩 never have i ever treated my friends like this

[royalarchivist]

[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]

Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?

[ Transcript continued ↓ ]*

–

Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.

Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!

Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.

* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.

#Pactw #QSMP #Pac #March 18 2024 #As much as I love keeping people updated about Pac / the other Portuguese-speaking creators #I think I might not make as many transcribed posts for their clips anymore #I just don't think I'm qualified enough to be transcribing things for a language I don't know #like yeah we have the Qlobal Translator and Aypierre's translators to rely on #And I'm always upfront when I'm not 100% sure about a translation #but I've been thinking about it a lot and it kinda makes me feel a bit icky. Idk. #I might be overthinking this but I just I don't want to spread around translations I'm not super confident about #esp. since I know a lot of people cite my clips in analysis posts or link them to other people as resources #and 90% of the time I'm like ''Hell yeah I love seeing people getting a lot of use out of the archive'' #but sometimes I get a bit anxious like ''Did I do a good enough job translating this'' #''Am I ruining someone's entire perception of a conversation or character because I left one word out or mistranslated something?'' #And like I said that's normally not a HUGE concern since if I'm not certain about a translation I just won't post a clip. but you know #idk it might just be the anxiety talking but I really really don't want to spread bad info #Happy to hear other folks' perspective #I'm really grateful for people like Bell and Pix and others who translate clips and I always try to reblog those #but we don't have a ton of people posting clips & translating things on Tumblr since we're so English-centric #which is part of the reason WHY I like sharing clips of the non-English-speaking CCs #but at the same time I want to do an accurate job representing what they're saying #Maybe I'll just start posting things and give a TLDR context of what they're talking about but not a transcript #that way native-speakers can hop in and add translations if that's something they're comfortable doing #and if not then well. at least I'm not sharing something that isn't super accurate #idk I'm just thinking out loud a bit in the tags #But I'm open to hearing other people's thoughts on the matter #Anyways giant rant aside. q!Pac is NOT doing ok rn

[teeth-draws]

Ohhh but he used to think nothing of it…

Torturing my fav RO again from @shepherds-of-haven

#shepherds of haven #halle beren #trouble alder #it’s hard to be in love with your best friend #clued in just enough for it to be awkward when it wasn’t before #overthinking n there’s steam coming out of his ears #posting this at a bullshit time bc all American time is bullshit lmao but I will be free of Texas soon #haven’t been able to sleep so I doodled around with this #first time animating sooo please be kind #if games #fanart #because drawing a background killed my family - okay??? #lov u trouble pls let me in #where’s her shoe? dw about it. #who let you in here anyway #trouble’s hair is just a big shrug emoji I don’t know ok he gets fluffy today i don’t want to talk about it

[rotisseries]

Haunting

Will Byers + Strangers by Ethel Cain

@bylerween2023 | Day 1: Ghosts & Hauntings

unfortunately, it's not looking like my fic for bylerween will be done in time to share today, so I'm sharing the graphic that would have gone with it! strangers is one of my favorite songs, it's very haunting and very will coded, and I felt that it fit for the theme lol. the larger fic idea is that will did die in the upside down, and when mike goes to visit the now abandoned byers house, he sees will's ghost. hoping I can finish it by the november 22nd deadline🫡

#mike after being metaphorically haunted for years and now it's literal:😃😃😃 #strangers is not a song about ghosts but also it is. to the enlightened mind. I get it. ask me i could talk about it #hope this is ghostly enough for the theme #the background thing behind will also has ghosts if that helps. that's blue ghostly artwork #stranger things #byler #bylerween2023 #will byers #day 1 #ghosts & hauntings #tw implied death #also sorry this is more just a will thing and doesn't really have mike lmao. testing the limits on what is a byler post #saw bylerween rb a gifset that just had will though so I hope I'm correct in assuming it's ok if it's got a stronger focus #on only one of them #ok I'm done talking now I am overthinking this everyone enjoy i slaved for hours in picsart like a loser without photoshop #happy bylerween everyone!!

[stinkypeanutbutter]

me rn making an aiden angst fanfic and I’m literally dying over it I’m making him struggle fr

#I’m trying to add different interactions with everyone #He’s gonna have some cousin bonding 🫶🫶 #Tyden and Aidlyn moments in there too later on #It’s called “ If only huh ? “ on wattpad #Idk how to come up with good fanfic names I just type whatever might make sense #READ IT TOTSLLT !!!!! #The first fanfic is actually just a bunch of Aiden overthinking and then switching to “ what if I ate this “ at one point #I think idk I can’t remember #I really really really really want to make this seem accurate enough to his mentality and personality #Let’s say I was also really inspired by uhhh I forgot their name but they did an Aiden analysis and I lvooviodeed it soy much #Guys listen to gods plan and tell me if it’s totally Aiden or not cause I think it is ok I said this before but I’m listening to it rn just #There’s a SH warning just saying in case I decide to read !! #Eh all the warnings are on the front page anyway tee hee #Pleaseee tell me what you think about it #school bus graveyard #sbg #sbg (webtoon) #school bus graveyard webtoon #aiden clark

[softness-and-shattering]

Question for anyone who's had top surgery, or any emotionally similar kind of surgery, not necessarily gender-affirming surgery. Did you film your reactions afterwards, waking up, taking off the dressings, first time putting on a regular shirt kind of thing? Im sort of in two minds, because its always good to see people feeling joyful in their bodies. Feeling right, the relief. On the other hand, its always so intensely emotional that it feels like it should be private. And what about if its not emotional, if you're just exhausted or you dont have a very obvious external reaction or you're not sure - or are sure - that you dont like it actually. Has anyone made recordings and not shared them, just kept them for yourself?

What about taking before/after pictures to share with other (+-trans) people, other people looking into the same surgeon, that kind of thing?

And whatever you did or didnt do, how do you feel about it now? Would you go back and do things differently if you could? Including if you'd rather you didnt get the surgery done at all, Im open to a variety of perspectives. As long as you're not transphobic about it, which I dont expect but feel I should probably say to cover my bases. For context and transparency I'm just a person trying to figure out how I feel about it for myself, what I might want or not want to do. Personal reasons. Im not a journalist and I promise Im not writing some article I want juicy quotes for. (And if it seems weird that I would clarify that, I've heard stories of people asking to interview trans people as though sympathetic, and then twisting everything in publishing to demonize us. Its a farce of journalistic integrity and I wouldn't blame anyone for being suspicious of questions like this.)

#ok no more overthinking if i need 6 more qualifications or two less im just calling this good enough #real human on tunglr dot com #or is that what a robot would say #stop talking to yourself in the tags and give it some proper tags already ok #mine #top surgery #gender affirming surgery #bottom surgery #bc i think thats also relevant even if showing it off might be less public #trans #transmsac #trans man #trans guy #trans surgery #question #yeah that'll do #butch

[saetoru]

i’ve said this before but people who say “thank you for sharing this” in reblogs have a special place in my heart truly

#it’s like #i don’t think anyone owes me thanks for writing something #i do it for my own fun genuinely i do #and sharing it is part of the fun yes #but yeah no one needs to thank me when i do my hobby #but i think just. there’s something touching about someone enjoying something you made #sometimes spent weeks or months working on #overthinking and reworking and whatnot #and they like it so much they say #wow tysm for letting me witness this #and it’s just #it’s not that deep #jdsnjdskkdj #but it’s deep to me #it makes me feel good #i love ppl who do that and more than anything it makes me look at my writing and be kinder to it #bc if someone enjoyed it enough to say that it can’t be that bad #ok ramble over i’m gonna do beat some hilichurls

[1punch]

did the thing!!!

#didn't know what im doing tbh LMAO #especially with the lil boxes so i just added some good boys becuz i love them & saitama loves them so yes #some of these are subject to change ... #i didn't overthink this enough methinks #BUT THAT'S OK this was fun #⋆ ★ 【サイタマ】 : ̗̀➛ headcanon. #⋆ ★ 【サイタマ】 : ̗̀➛ study.

[justablah56]

hmm I think instead of feeling bad I will simply project this bad onto The Character . for funsies .

#just blahs #not gonna do anything abt it bcs idk how i could but ovuehncke sparrow with scrupulosity ocd <3 #just consider with me sparrow being terrified of accidentally saying anything wrong or offending literally anyone #and her completely accidentally saying smthin offensive and trying to figure out how to properly deal with that #without just making the whole situation about herself rather than the person she actually offended #bcs shes afraid that makes her a bad person who just didnt care enough to be aware of herself #gets a bit venty past this point but guys im literally pinky promising you rn I'm ok and ill figure it out please no one bring it up to me #and nobody think about the fact that im projecting rn just think about sparrow ok #this is my way of dealing w similar stuff w/o making it about me bcs ik that thats a shitty thing to do and i need to work it out myself #aughhncns literally every time goddamnit . i accidentally do smthin wrong and then someone (very kindly !!!) tells me hey that was wrong #and then i have a breakdown about it and feel bad and overthink it for the next like week #jesus fucking christ ok it's fine im being patient with myself and i know no one thinks im a bad person #and i know that they know i didnt mean it #and i know that i did say smthin insensitive and thats just something i have to be aware of #and the fact that i said it doesn't mean that im a terrible horrific irredeemable person #i'm trying my best now to be aware of it and be better and think abt whst they said and that's all i can do and thats ok #its fine . #anyways . #also hi cookies if you see this genuinely thank you for telling me tho like i do appreciate it and i am ok dw

[crowleyaj]

context: my main plan for 2024 in my journal was "figure out the future & what I'm going to do & where I'm going to live" thinking about summer maybe except last friday during a particularly bad work-related depressive episode I went, fuck it I'm leaving here and found a site and applied for cheap studios in cork and dublin basically in the middle of the night. when I got better I started wondering if I REALLY wanted to leave and may have acted too soon without thinking it through as usual but decided that, you know, what's meant to happen will happen.

then this morning when I was washing my breakfast dishes I dropped a bowl on top of my favourite (and very durable) glass and the glass just snapped in half. at first I was upset but then I laughed thinking, guess this means everything is going to work out and I'm moving out, thanks!! and when I got back from work I found out that not only did I get a place in dublin but my top pick at that. I cannot believe this. the fucking glass. and it was actually still stable so I glued it back together to use for a plant or something. I fixed it. I wonder what it means. anyway. looks like things will work out after all

(it's got a dragon and that's why it's my favourite. out of two. the other one I just use for measuring rice.)

#personal #sofi.txt #text #multiple thoughts in my head #if superstition then why does it work? #the funniest thing is that i overthink tiny things but make big life changing decisions on impulse but somehow they're right #it was so random too because the cork apartment (which i wanted but got declined) was available since may so that's the date i applied for #even with the others #so i'm left with may but 4 months is the perfect amount of time to find a job and still save enough money here to make the move ok #the place is basically a shed in a lady's garden the size of my current living room but it's extremely cool and has everything one needs #and more than i have here in some cases. a DESK #it doesn't look unlike my childhood dream home tbh #and. thinking of palestinians living in tents who don't even have the one room and how lucky i am to be able to have that #or leave this small town willingly for the sake of my own wellbeing and go elsewhere just like this & safe 😭 #dublin has all the major events though and i feel like i can do more there and actually join ipsc (

[decadentprincessstudent]

Ok so Hua Cheng always seems to be standing on xie lian's left side even though he is blind in his right eye.

And I saw soph on Twitter saying "it's perfectly logical as he has to turn his entire head towards xl to see him which proves to everyone else that doesn't care about them at all"

Like YESS soph! I literally see him walking around and other people trying to have a convo and he not moving a muscle in his neckk. And then Dianxia says "heh" or "mm"..or "oh?" Like the smollleest soud and this guy is whipping his head to pay the rapt attention like "you think so too Dianxia?" XDXDXD *cri*

#hc trusted xl enough to let him walk on the blind side #he may have his butterflies to keep him aware #but he's ok with not knowing if xl is gonna kill him or hurt him with the advantage of his VULNERABLE SIDE #am i overthinking this.. #he's literally the ghost kind i dont think he'll have vulnerability specially when come to his eye but ... #your honour i wanna think fluff #rambles #pay no mind to these please #tgcf #hua cheng #san lang #xie lian #dianxia #heaven official’s blessing

[to-the-batcomputer]

i don't understand why they created one of the most compassionate yet still complex bruce waynes with the animated series and then turned him into an old bitch (/negative) in batman beyond

#'INGRATES' BRUCE WAYNE? YHE PEOPLE OF GOTHAM? THEYRE NOT THANKING YOU ENOUGH? BRUCE WAYNE? #i know it's not a big deal it just irritates me #lots of it annoys me but that particular line just sounded weird to even hear in kevin conroy's voice. INGRATES???? #they absolutely could've done this plot without making him all bitter and everyone having left him #the scene that starts with him eating dinner at his huge dining table all alone. what the fuck #i just wanna know what they had in mind when they did this. how and why would btas bruce turn into this #he's jaded well ok. could we have Not written him that way. who wants to see this future for him #i'm way overthinking this lol this is how i have fun. complaining

[mistbow]

Okay I can’t say this enough but Sorey as the protagonist really embodies the themes and messages of Zestiria so well that it feels like you can’t truly like Zestiria if you don’t like him. He’s the narrative itself, he might as well be called “Tales of Zestiria” the character.

As an anniversary title, Zestiria puts emphasis on inheriting from your legacy and how to evolve and build on top of that legacy respectfully. From this you can see why the developers would draw inspirations from actual history, and since it’s the Japanese history they’re intimately familiar of, they went with it.

Japanese history has always been highly influenced with spirituality, that’s a fact that Zestiria also tries to bring up. We’ve come so far in these modern times, but that’s also thanks to the many eons of traditions that we’ve exactly come a long way. Think about it, the time we get to live is so short compared to how long the world has lived and will live (yet the world is also still young, it still continues to evolve), recorded in history or not. We’re all connected from the past to the future. If we forget about it and don’t show the gratitude, who will?

I’ve talked about “born Shinto, die Buddhist” but that’s how uniquely pluralistic the Japanese society is. It’s not even moving from one to the other, because both are still practiced, even though people in the modern times often think they don’t have time for things like these anymore.

On one hand, Shinto is really all about how sacred this world is, and that includes your life, so please cherish yourself as well. It is exactly because Sorey, as a mere human who really is not all that special in the larger scheme of things (yet he’s still part of this world, the only one he has), has pure appreciation for the world around him, excitement and curiosity for the mysteries yet to unfold, and the eagerness to pass this feeling onto others that he’s in tune with himself and conscious of the way of the 神. Living in harmony. On the other hand, death is an inevitability of human condition, and Sorey, as the 導師 (a word that also specifically means Buddhist monk for funerals in Japan, as mentioned before), has come to regard death as a way of salvation. Death is often seen as something so sad, so unfortunate, but he has learned that perhaps it can be a release for some. Life is beautiful, life is sacred, but life is also suffering. That is just being human.

This ties in nicely with what he wants to do and what he needs to do. There is passion in both. The things he wants to do, it’s because he knows life has so much more to offer out there, and he has plenty of time and energy for all that! The things he needs to do, it’s because he took upon that responsibility himself, and with that he has to accept viewpoints and approaches he might have had a hard time agreeing with before, but thanks to those his horizons widened and again, death is an inevitability, it must happen. However, both of these don’t exist in vacuum, they’re both interlinked. Both of these are what make a human, human. The more you respect life, the more you respect death. The more you respect death, the more you respect life. A balance is needed here, and in the end, he doesn’t tip the scale too far in one direction, yet he doesn’t lose a sense of himself.

Then you have both Shinto and Buddhism teach you on how to conduct your own self, in relationship to your life, mostly. But you’re not alone, there are others, and they’re different, that should be celebrated! Precisely because there are others that you can shine more in your own way. Each of us has a role to fulfill, and that’s fine, let’s just all work together towards a better future for our successors. In both Shinto and Buddhism, the human is originally pure, yet life makes them be afflicted with either kegare or kleshas. There’s no way around this, that’s just another fact of life as a human, and Sorey accepts this, accepts that malevolence will always be there as long as humans exist, but they don’t and won’t get to define humans, ever. Humans are so much more than the malevolence; humans and malevolence might be inseparable, but they’re barely one and the same. Despite everything, everyone deserves their own chances to come to their own answers.

I don’t know I’m just thinking out loud how much I love Sorey as a character (and subsequently Zestiria as a whole). I’ve been saying this since 2015 but in my eyes he’s one of the most well-executed characters Tales has and I will die on this hill. Not saying it is without its hiccups, but Zestiria is really a thematic masterpiece to me. Everything fits together nicely like puzzle pieces; it starts with this one idea, expands, and then converges again to that one idea.

Just look at him. I love him so much I could combust. The legend that has become “hope” to me.

#mino rambles #mino talks zesty #i'm whelmed with FEELS and suddenly all these words pour out #sorey lovemail #zestiria lovemail #i can't stop thinking and overthinking and then falling in love again with this dumb little game #so charming and despite all the wordvomit #words still aren't enough to describe how MUCH i adore tales of zestiria #i really mean this with all my heart and soul without a lick of irony and i've been doing this since january 2015 #i will never take my words back #you will find me dead on this hill. or not. #because even if i die i will still through sheer will alone haunt that hill and protect it MY LOVE WILL NEVER DIE #EVER #and you'll be sure of it #i love tales of zestiria #ok shut up mino you've talked TOO much #i will stop here #over my dead body tho #also i said thinking but truthfully i think i'm always head empty i'm incapable of thinking properly #it's all about FEELING i guess to me #there's no overfeeling tho lol #this makes me sound insane but who am i fooling i'm indeed insane

[oscill4te]

starting to wonder if complex dissociative disorders are genetic in any way.

#why do only some people with adverse early childhood life experiences get CDDs #so MANY FACTORS muddy this up though. for example... CDDs are very covert in nature #so is it possible many many more people than we could ever think struggle with this? #oh and regarding my post about whether its genetic... #well trauma is generational so even if you see it in a family line.... #who is to say its actually biologically genetic and not just trauma racing down the generational line #because CDDs are formed from extreme trauma #and despite how much I struggled... i did have it easier than my parents. thats the ffunny thing #and i look at them and see how similar they are to me and think.... #wow. no wonder they are messed up. their own parents were shittier than even them #im high excuse this xDD nonsense. im gonna try to spend my day doing some self care n chilling #ok last thing on this topic: i thought of a study but it may not he ethical. its just an idea #what if you people w trauma take a test like the DES and have their parents and grandparents take it? #just to simply determine if dissociation is the response people w adverse life experiences have? #again idk if thats even an ethical test bc i overthink ethics and it woukd have to be WILLING participants interested in the topic #bc asking somone NO PROMPT or warning about this is messed up.. most ppl excuse or block out their traum #okay enough of this post my brain just goes in loops when high :u

[technocipher]

Something I've noticed about Jack at Home Base in my most recent playthrough is that he almost always seems to be watching the Protagonist. I say this because every time I've passed by him, his idle animation has him turn to look. And maybe I'm reading too much into it, maybe I'm overthinking it, but it almost seems like he has to keep an eye on the Protagonist.

Where Jack stands by the objective board, he has a clear view of the steps. Here, his observation is more limited; he has Louis standing to his right, and the board directly in front of him. If he leans over too much, Louis will notice, possibly even blow his cover. The best way to monitor the Successor from his position is through furtive glances. Where Jack stands gives the illusion of preoccupation.

Right by Davis, Jack has a perfect view of the mistle. He can easily keep an eye out for the Successor of the Blood, and keep watching them if they approach the punching bag. He also can keep them in his peripheral vision if they're at Murasame's counter.

In front of Louis's desk, Jack can monitor the Protagonist from his peripheral vision. The pretense of business masks him well here, and they likely will not pay him any mind. It is a stealthier approach compared to his other positions.

His position by the curtain in the sanctuary especially permits a wide angle of view. Almost anywhere the Protagonist walks or runs, Jack can see them. From a defensive standpoint, his back is protected; with him watching the doors, any invaders -- Lost or otherwise -- will be spotted quickly. To keep a close eye on the door ensures protection for the Protagonist, as well. This way, they won't be taken from him again. He can proactively stop a threat far quicker than he was able to before, back in Operation Queenslayer. He won't lose them a second time if he can help it.

Even when he's seated at the farthest end of Home Base, he has direct line of sight. It isn't that he looks ahead; rather, his attention is focused more towards Io's post. He seems to closely observe when the Protagonist handles vestiges with their attendant. Fixes them, returning memories to those who desperately needed answers to long-forgotten questions.

Some part of me wonders if Jack wrestles with himself in that very spot. By way of what he thought was a mercy killing, Jack helped to bring that ability forth, perhaps indirectly. Yet at the same time, he placed the terrible burden of being a Successor upon them. Does the Protagonist fear an eventual transformation just as much as he does? Is this how he'll lose them again? Perhaps this is the reason why Jack's gaze is more intense here than in the other positions. His own tumultuous thoughts play upon his face, casting a gravity that does not show itself often outside of battle.

Another part of me wonders if he's monitoring the Protagonist's relic status. This is especially something to consider if the Protagonist is aiming for a Bad Ending run. With multiple Relics housed within their body, the risk of frenzy heightens. The game never quite goes into detail about how the color or shape changes, aura-wise, when Jack is observing the status of a Successor. If it fluctuates, shrinks, pulses, or even glows brighter. On a Bad Ending run, however, the Protagonist's aura must be horrific. Jack would have no other choice but to kill them again. His mental health may never recover, but when he has no choice but to bear another relic and sleep within the confines of a Crypt, he will not be awake to know much else. Perhaps in his fitful, tormented nightmares, he will once again dream of the Protagonist he could not save. A Bad Ending run destroys Jack far more than most may consider.

I also wonder if perhaps Jack keeps an eye on the Protagonist for fear of losing them again. What happens if they don't return to Home Base in one piece? They're not always going to have him accompanying them. Any activity around the mistle will draw his attention. We know that Jack is extremely attached to the Protagonist. (I suspect he has a habit of getting attached to his others partners in differing degrees, but that's a text dump for another time.) Valerio's vestiges show a man haunted and broken by the Protagonist's mercy killing. The Protagonist is someone he places in a high -- perhaps the highest -- esteem.

Two of his lines when the Protagonist returns to the mistle speak volumes about his feelings.

"You're up already? Well, good."

"Hmph. Don't make me so anxious like that..."

I cite that first line because of its vocal inflection. His voice lifts up in an earnest, almost boyish manner. It's positively adorable! He's overjoyed that the Protagonist is back -- that they're alive -- and now he can return to exploring alongside them. The fondness he carries bleeds into his voice, perhaps without him even being aware of it. It's a line that makes me smile even on unsuccessful boss runs.

The next one offers a glimpse into his underlying fears. Jack is constantly worried about losing the Protagonist again. The game glosses over how long a revenant's reformation really takes. Where gameplay is concerned, of course it's going to be instantaneous! But since it took the Protagonist quite a long time to reform following Operation Queenslayer (at least eight years or more), they may be prone to longer reformation times. Jack must pace around the mistle, dragging his fingers through his hair, constantly checking the perimeter for any trace of particle movement. The stress of waiting must tug at his insides, rot him from within. This line shows a great deal of vulnerability, baring more of himself than most seem to realize.

His constant observation of the Protagonist at Home Base serves to reassure him. They're alive, they're back, and they haven't been turned to ash. They haven't frenzied and transformed into a ravenous monstrosity. He won't have to put them down; Jack won't lose them again if he can help it. This peace of mind is one he hasn't allowed for himself in a long time. Even still, he cannot completely let his guard down. To do so would be fatal, and the Gaol of the Mists is unforgiving of even the slightest errors.

A Normal Ending run does not show how he feels about the Protagonist assuming control of Silva's relic, but Jack may be far more unhappy about it than he lets on. The status quo is maintained in the manner Silva intended, but at the cost of any valuable change. The imperfect system will never improve. And on top of it all, Jack loses the irreplaceable company of the Protagonist. He can visit them at any time, but he can't converse with them. They'll never again smile at him, swap stories with him, or dance by him when the jukebox plays. What is left? An absence? I can't see him being pleased about such a loss long-term. In the end, all the Normal Ending offers is a different facet of loss.

During the Good/Golden Ending... he still loses the Protagonist. Though they're alive -- happier, perhaps, in some aspects -- but they're going. Drifting, even, far beyond the limited tides the Gaol of the Mists offers. He may not ever see them again. Does it truly please him, even then? Perhaps during the (infuriatingly) vague timeskip, Jack finally takes the time to have a heart-to-heart discussion with the Protagonist. Maybe they both clear the air and settle their unresolved troubles, maybe it's something a little more than that. I can't picture Jack being completely content about the Protagonist's departure... treading out into the unknown where he can no longer look out for them.

There is much more to Jack than the game will touch upon... but the nuances are certainly there.

#code vein #jack rutherford #i just had to get this out of my system #it's been bouncing around my skull for weeks #go figure i only pick up on this like three years later #ok back to lurking #i caught jack watching from the objective board #see he's a sneaky boy #not sneaky enough for my detail-oriented eyes #character analysis #rife with every ounce of overthinking I can muster #i have a stronger bias towards a certain pairing admittedly #easy to tell i'm sure #if only code vein's plot wasn't all over the place #i'll be complaining about it forever at the rate i'm going #oh look another archival edit #don't like don't read

[kaelooloo]

this whole chapter and conversation were so necessary.. i can feel everything molly feels this chapter its like too real

#how are they all literally the most real characters ever how do they do it #mollys perspective on everything was so needed i think.. #timeloop helping her live in the moment and stop worrying about the future like like like guys..huys..guys i csnt #rambling about literally nothing right now its kinda just what i do #overthinking things she cares about because shes not used to caring about anything or anyone #carefree slug overthinks gone wrong! she exploded! #i feel like after having a taste of that good awesome great friendship she just cant live without it #friendship has corrupted the poor slugs mind everybody! fri(END)ship!! OPEN UP YOUR MINDS!!!! #ok thats enough i think #bucketsbigyappingparty