#ok not crying anymore

[aroacehanzawa]

sick and tired of people being judgmental of my natural biological sleeping and waking rhythm that i have minimal control over. like i have had it to my limit i have had ENOUGH

#i don't think my schedule is 'fucked' i think what's fucked is a society that does not accommodate for differences and expects everyone #to conform to a rigid schedule at the expense of their wellbeing and which causes extreme stress and chronic sleep deprivation to uphold #i'm gonna cry for real #also i know my best friend meant this lightheartedly so it's nothing to confront her about i just need to rant about it and move on. #because yeah my sleep schedule probably appears messed up to someone who is used to waking up no later than 9 #and is from a family of people who wake up at 'normal' hours #compared to my family who has no problems with when i wake up as long as i get enough sleep. and wake up on time for resposibilities ofc #what upsets me is the wider context of it and how people in general are so unwilling to be understanding #and assume that going to sleep late and waking up late is some kind of laziness or irresponsibility :/ #ok not crying anymore #like i'm pretty sure i have some kind of delayed sleep phase syndrome because even if i try to maintain a regular bedtime #i physically will not be able to fall asleep at progressively later times #until i have to forcibly reset it by pulling an all-nighter. and the cycle continues

[yashley]

It’s about this time, another voice pushes into your head, like a bat out of hell. 

#critical role #cr lb #ygifs #cr3 #WHAT IF I CRY #jester #imogen #sensory overload imogen Finally getting her own jester sending as jester is firing all her slots to talk to her ok girls........... #jesters like ok ok ok so I can’t send anymore messages but I was talking to this really cowboy girl fjord do you know her and he's like #she was talking about lake umami and jester makes eyebrows and jester immediately tries sending again and gets psychic coldcocked again #but do you think about how hard imogen woulda fallen for this bubbly tiefling had they known eachother cos I sure will ok fine #LAURA GETTIN EMOTIONAL GIRL ME TOO

[carebeardean]

the strongest hero of all time in bnha has a chronic illness & chronic pain. btw. also he has so so much love in his heart.

#bnha #this post is about ALL MIGHT because I LOVE HIM do NOT DERAIL !! 😤👆‼️❌💥 #mha #my hero academia #all might #toshinori yagi #boku no hero academia #idk what if there was a guy who destroyed his body saving people’s lives & thought he had no purpose anymore. #& then he realized his purpose was loving people. like. ok. guess I’ll cry.

[ducksdoughnuts]

Yuta and Yuji just watched their teacher die right in front of them, poor Shoko has literally lost everyone she loves and cares for and when Megumi comes back he’ll face the worse pain knowing Gojo was killed with his shikigami……….I am literally sick, fuck you Gege

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #gojo satoru #manga #jjk 236 #jjk spoilers #ryomen sukuna #fushiguro megumi #yuji itadori #yuta okkotsu #screaming crying throwing up #I honestly don’t want to read or watch it anymore #I’m so sick #crying my fucking eyes out #ugly crying #I am not ok #Gege akutami you fucking bastard

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman. #there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind. #the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

[raindrop-plop]

in honor of juno steel and the sixteen tons part 2

#more like juno steel and the episode that made me cry #no its not the sleep deprivation i swear #i do not want to see you anymore????? #juno steel #juno steel fanart #the penumbra podcast fanart #tpp fanart #the sasssss #ur honor they are not ok #if they dont end up happy i will never recover #aaaaaaaaa #ritas cackle is my favorite #balls?

[rawliverandgoronspice]

behold: my least favorite string of words in the entirety of Tears of the Kingdom.

#totk critical #totk #tloz #gerudos #when will my brain return from the imprisoning war.... #I just stumbled upon it again doing research yesterday and.... #there's so many layers as to why it aggravates me #that it's spoken from the perspective of a masked woman as to embody all gerudos while removing her own identity #in the context of her loyalty to rauru as well #that giving birth to a bad man makes you responsible for his actions (he's not a toddler anymore he's an adult ok) #or more metaphorically that your initial conflict with hyrule makes you Sinful and cursed and you must Feel Bad Now *shame shame* #that she's passing on that ageless guilt with no expiration date onto the shoulders of *a teenager* and it's considered GOOD??? #(wind waker shaking crying right now) #ALL OF THAT to prop her up to swear her loyalty to the people planning to go murder their ancient king (sure he's a Bad but still???) #using some sort of weird ass original sin scenario that is arguably not any gerudo's fault but Ganondorf's #(or if it is then it's not shown so ???) #the vibes are so so so off I just really !!!!! don't like #this is stuff like this that makes me reject that it's a good story about alliances being formed in good faith #because this is just manipulative #maybe the alliance angle everyone's stronger together was the intention but the execution is another story entirely #gerudos never benefited from ganondorf's actions also #so it's not even a case of making reparations for the way you benefit from systemic oppression due to your ancestor's actions #gerudos won literally nothing in ganondorf's war #apparently he even subjugated them if they weren't on his side (like.... a king would.... not to excuse it but the double standard here) #so it just instrumentalizes the ageless sin of motherhood + suffering under a bad monarch billion of years ago for war #so uhhh.... yeah that's not... that's pretty bad imo #the gerudo girl could have went “hey girl this man used us and still hurt us to this day let's kick his ass once and for all” #and this would have been a different story entirely #a little cheap but not.... That Bad

[xiaq]

Was just checking my book's reviews on Goodreads, as one does, and there was a relatively scathing review of Like Real People Do that actually made a lot of excellent points, highlighting things I'd do differently if I was writing it now.

But one point I found funny and would not change was something along the lines of "The Tumblr references were excruciating and made it read like 2015 fan fiction." Which, close, it was 2017 fanfic, but also I had the option to take out the Tumblr references and I didn't on purpose, even though it dates the book. Tumblr helped me write this book. We're paying homage to its origins. Will I do that for every book I publish? No. But the first one? That I only scrubbed and queried because my online friends told me it was good enough and I should try? Those we keep. Also, if you read a book and the dedication page says it's for fanfic writers, it's your own damn fault if you don't enjoy it because it reads like fic and has Tumblr references.

#no guilt in my pleasures #author things #so the good news is i'm not crying over bad reviews anymore #now i'm like ok points A through C are valid but D is shit #insert growth meme #which this reviewer would probably also find cringe #lol

[snailsea92]

good girls have psychic forcefields

#fanart #umineko #when they cry #shannon #all ive got in me anymore is boring anime fanart. OK? #Im trying.

[oatbugs]

my research partner and i are huddled in a blanket in paddington waiting for a too-late train i already miss you and you and you

#he keeps falling asleep almost on my shoulder and waking up and readjusting but i want to tell him its ok weve seen a lot #of each other ive seen your brainwaves you called me crying a few nights ago. research partner right now is a potentiality #friend is a certainty. i met a banker passionate about finance. he said his advice made the lives of others better and he likes the numbers #more than he likes anything else. on a high rise near canary wharf the view was wonderful and the people even moreso #he said i loved her but i spent 33 grand on her and i cant do this anymore. his voice cracked talking about her. he did love her. #and she talked softly she grabbed my hand she bought me a pack of Marlborough gold she told me to snap #the russian menthol cigarettes of the tortured polish man near us with my teeth i kept staring at her teeth #bright white and sharp. i couldnt find her heartbeat but i did find warmth and i did find her lips and i did feel #how she felt pressed against a wall. a pretty boy held my hand and i gave him my number. i couldnt stop smiling about her no matter #how many runways youve walked on how many collections youve designed how many students youve taught. senior lecturer teaches me how to do #very unethical things ethically over a double shot of vodka made by the half-persian with broken farsi. she talks softly #and she says her eyes are hazel but they appear a shade of red. pure gold on her hands and leather on her back and her fingers on my lips #(she talks softly sees through me she says something i cant hear but i wont forget the way she flies) she talked to my research partner #about the possibility of moving to sunny dubai with the rest of her family and my heart felt pierced. on her arm i traces a tattoo of a #knife passing through a rose. she told me she thought there was romance in severing so i kissed her some more. #he sat me down and asked me what i loved and i told him and he said no romance no person no tragedy will take that from you. #the room was filled with a collection of people in love with something that wasnt a person and i kept looking at her. #red eyes bitten jawline beautiful hands. it is 3 degrees Celsius my head is on his shoulder i miss my friends #we walked out the lecture hall with arms linked a photo of two years ago and we both said #jesus christ. i miss you all. and i miss logic metatheory lectures. im glad i get to stare at the depth of your eyes #i wish i had met you years ago. #crushposting

[alsojnpie]

#i do not feel like sticking to this stupid new years wish anymore but i'm going to do it anyway. #my bad feelings are not the boss of me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #just gotta lie on the ground and cry for a minute and its never permanent yknow............just a bad feeling i have to let free #it even means i won't delete this stupid post either. but I'm ok now

[killerwithknife]

the parasocial relationship is hitting new heights this evening

#crying over Somebody else’s divorce Ok #Sure whatever nothing even matters anymore

[penaltyboxboxbox]

"A happy smiling cat...like Vasy is!"

Mikhail Sergachev and Andrei Vasilevskiy attempt to draw each other [x]

#MY MEOW MEOWS TRULYYYYYT #vasys drawing of misha is sending me 😭😭 fashion boy #when hes like UM THATS NOT MY FAVORITE BRAND ANYMORE....literally ok fashionista... #im crying and holding them...'my guys my guys #8898 #vasy #misha #mikhail sergachev #andrei vasilevskiy #tampa bay lightning

[gunsatthaphan]

I’m genuinely worried about them lmao??

#firstkhao #first kanaphan #fourth nattawat #geminifourth #gmmtv #safe house season 4 #i came across this last night and screamed dkljfglf #i did not notice this when i watched safe house #at least first is not alone anymore #lmaooooo #this is a real conversation that happened #you have no idea how funny this is to me #no but after rewatching that whole day of safe house im just so 🥺 #first is so gentle with the people around him it makes me cry so much #like the way he kept petting gem and fourth in their furry hats jdkhd my heart melted on the floor #calling them nu and everything #what a soft adorable weird little human he is #dkjghdf 😩 #my best boi #ok im done

[wow-ouran]

#made it to his ep in my re-watch. i have words to describe the feeling i get at it anymore #yall ever think about frames and painting and shadows and lighting and black and white coloring and kotatsus and found family and how tamaki #brings color and music into his life? and makes his brothers cry? just me? oh ok #kyoya ootori #ohshc

[jackobbit]

Fellas we’ve officially hit that point /lh

I called my mama because I was upset over something, after talking it out she encouraged me to ‘go do something fun’ because the situation really couldn’t be helped so I might as well move on and cheer myself up.

Her suggestion? “Go play with Sun and Moon.”

She was referring to my plushies but the fact that she SAID THAT??

I’m officially at a point in the fixation where my MOTHER, who knows nothing about video games or fandom or anything like that, is able to recognize that shoving these two celestial themed robo twinks in my face is going to make me happy. And that’s insane to me.

“Here kiddo, go play with your jester animatronics you’ll feel better.” And she’s RIGHT. GOD.

#shut up jack #and to think she was threatening to throw my plushies in the garbage not too long ago too #now she knows she can’t pull that card anymore lmao #god my mom doesn’t know about any of my interests so that’s how you know it’s bad #the only thing that couldn’t have possibly made it worse is if she mentioned a specific fandom version #could you image?? #‘hey I see you’re upset and I’m sorry to hear that :(( Sun and Moon show ok??’ #‘Solar Flare and Bloodmoon Sun and Moon Show. ok? no don’t cry harder- KillCode and Eclipse Sun and Moon Show’ #I’d like actually die /lh #‘thank you for reminding me about the cowboy au mom i was feeling real low’ #LMFAO