#partial hospitalization

[push-of-a-swing-away-from-death]

php is really really fucking weird huh

#partial hospitalization #for the ~mental illness~

[froggos-are-superior]

Shout-out to this guy in my partial hospitalization group who, whenever anyone shared something sad or distressing in group therapy, would proceed to procure a kazoo and go womp womp woooompp on it

#partial hospitalization #psych ward #the psychiatrist would glare daggers at him but he was unbothered

[lilianade-comics]

Thinking about Danny Phantom but as found footage/analogue horror. Like, it works SO incredibly well and I'm a bit obsessed.

Inexplicably grainy FentonWorks lab footage? A ghost dissection video log that gets more disturbing the longer it goes on? Ambiguous morality? Distorted imagery? Something being very, very wrong with the Fenton's son?

The proto-portal test footage from the 80s???? followed by hospital quarantine reports describing what a fatal dose of ecto-contaminants looks like? Which is then interrupted by Ṽ̵͇͍̓̒̕l̷̛͕̜̞̬͒̔͑̾̊͊a̷̝̰͕̗͇̣̓́́d̶̢̬̳̗̻̖̄̒̓̈́͌̚̕ ̴̡̛̱̱́́͆͠ͅw̷͎̬̠͒̐́̈́̈̇̚ā̵̢̢̛͔͙́͒̚͝k̴̡̹̘̻̜͇̬̍̏̄͂̊̀͠i̸̙͋͗̄ṅ̸̢̳̻̠̦̬͌̍͐͐̅͠g̶͇̥̮̦̗͑̃͘ ̶̨̏̈́̆͠ṳ̷͉̩̮̙̄̇͜p̸̧̡̹̗͇͘ and turning the hospital upside down?

#analogue horror is really good at presenting The Horrors in ways that are so casual and yet so disturbing #and leaning into the horror aspect of DP is incredibly appealing to me in a lot of ways #Honestly there are so many routes one could go with this #lab trial footage from Vlad's cloning experimentation? #GIW case files? #Heck even a lesser focused on ghost like Nocturne (or nearly any of them tbh) could easily carry a couple of spooky videos all on their own #I'm particularly partial to something focused on Jack and Maddie's home lab though. #Plus exploration of their college days #show. me. vlad's. descent. into madness. via grainy VHS tape hospital footage. i beg you. #danny phantom #text

[chirpsythismorning]

I have been going over the seasons looking for all the evidence of the whole epic primary color theory connected to El, Mike and Will. And ngl this moment right here had me spiralling.

THE SAD PAUSE UPON THE REALIZATION WILL IS STILL MISSING AND THAT EVEN THOUGH HE HELPED THIS GIRL WHO WAS LOST IN THE WOODS AND HOPED IT WAS A SIGN, IT PROBABLY DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING. WHICH MEANS HE'S STILL FOCUSED ON FINDING WILL. LIKE WHY DID HE NEED TO TAKE THAT YELLOW CLIP WITH HIM UPSTAIRS?!?!? WHAT WAS THE REASON? WHY IS THE MF RAINBOW IN FRAME?!?! SOMETHING SOMETHING TOO MUCH YELLOW

#byler #st primary color theory #this is not your standard color theory #this is not color theory #st color theory #we make our own rules over here #el = red #will = yellow #mike = blue #willel = orange #byler = green #but seriously going back to the very first episode #the evidence is quite astonishing #the moment we see will he's in a dark blue plaid with red yellow and white lines #then he puts on his partially yellow but mostly orange vest #then el gets help from benny and he gives her something else to wear besides that disgusting hospital gown #and it happens to be this huge yellow shirt #and so they're sitting at bennys and we get this big yellow shirt juxtaposed with yellow and red all over bc of the ketchup and mustard #then mike finds her in the woods the exact same place will went missing... #'Mike: do you really think it's a coincidence--?' #I could go on for ten years.... #st color theory crash course

[fantasykiri5]

It started as a qpr Fabriz thought but y’know what it extends to the rest of the bad kids: I think it would be really funny if they had a complex web of platonic marriages just to reap the financial and governmental benefits. Like “if one got seriously stuck in a hospital the others would be able to visit because they’d be considered spouse and/or legal family” style, y’know? In a “benefits on tax returns and few(er) questions if Fabian (or the cig figs if they make more money?) decides to share a larger amount of money with the others because they’re considered extended family” way, and a “easy to put on emergency contact forms” way. Half their parents are already dating each other, it wouldn’t even need to be a very large friend-marriage-web! Idk man I just think it would be funny

#Kiri rambles #I was thinking about how many legal benefits there are to being married (in relation to how fucked over you can get from NOT being married)- #-and was reminded of the immense comedic potential of ‘make the relationship web EVEN MORE FUCKED UP with like six platonic marriages- #-because taxes and professional adventurers surely frequent hospital visits’ #are there probably also laws allowing registered party members some similar benefits?? #I would hope so and knowing Brennan either probably or they’ll tackle that next year but IN CASE THERE ARENT I think is would be funny :D #the reason it wa spriginally and Fabriz thought is just because I’ve seen a couple very funny posts about them being platonically married- #-for various reasons but then I realized that A.) Riz would honestly probably REALLY benefit from that financially and B.) I actually- #-forgot my second point but my first point still stands #Fabriz #<- mostly for the blocklists frankly #the bad kids #d20 #d20 fhjy #fhjy #dimension 20 fhjy #should I tag all of them? it’s about them all but only partially mentions two… #fuck it why not #adaine abernant #Kristen Applebees #gorgug thistlespring #fig faeth #fabian aramais seacaster #fabian seacaster #Riz Gukgak #kristen chilis applebees #<- her fucking middle name.. you go girlie franshice names

[silverfoxstole]

@crystalromana ‘s post yesterday got me thinking about what might happen if Liv and Helen decided the Doctor deserved a hug too.

#this got finished because i only had two hours’ sleep last night waiting for my family to get back from the hospital #i was wide awake until about four am #my art #doctor who #eighth doctor #8th doctor #liv chenka #helen sinclair #look i actually drew a partial background #on some of the panels anyway #been a long time since i last drew the tvm console room

[aropride]

i think my dad and i are the worst people to be in a groupchat with during an emergency

#text #IT WAS FUNNY THOUGH #also my dog is fine now :D we r still keeping a close eye on him and he has to have 4 small meals instead of 2 normal ones #but hes doing good :D we thought he hurt his shoulder so he had 2 go 2 the hospital AGAIN but it was a partial siezure which #is not GOOD per se but he has a seizure disorder and hes had partial seizures before so we know its not anything new #anyway my dad would not stop texting me bad puns during the whole Fiasco. i think its his way of coping with stress #its okay though. i understand him #dogposting

[fazgoo-connoiseur-1987]

Is this gay sex

#yes #blood #partial nudity #violence #bills like stab me bro im immortal and cant die and then smash cut to him in the hospital #henry emily #william afton #helium #im not giving this the fnaf tag actually #too embarassed #fazgoodles

[flamboyant-king]

Hey babes, sorry I've been dead, but I coulda been literally dead if I had not gone.

I didn't hurt myself and we're still figuring things out. I would love to share but I've already forgotten what I've learned. I hope I get more guidance and time for healing and learning on how to lead my life in a better direction than where I was. But that takes time and effort.

I hope to get some rest, get some support, and get it together. But right now, I don't think it's healthy for me to worry about art in the way I do now. I may not express it here, but trying to maintain my art endeavors/projects while there's so much bullshit going on backstage is not helping me. Especially since I'm not even obligated to do so. But trying to force myself to do something I am currently unable to do will just make me feel worse. I'll follow my dreams and passions one day, but I've been putting off the healing process for years.

So I guess it's better to get better now so I can get the ball rolling again. Why drive on a flat tire?

#i was in there for a week and ill continue partial hospitalization for a few weeks #i hope i learn more and i hope i get specific help to my issues. because whay i learned there didnt directly pertain to me #but having structured daily life felt nice. but it wasnt all relaxing because there were still responisibilites on the outside world #tapping on the window or calling me on the phone. chose the best time for a meltdown. i have taxes and credit card bills to take care of #but if i stress about it now ill jsut be going back to the ER and thats no good. the hospital was so cold dude im glad im home with blankets #this is mr octopus again. im glad i broguh hom to work. i went straight to er from work and if i had no plushie with me #i probably would have stayed longer or be even more mentally unstable and distressed. its good to have comfort items #i dont think i want to know ehat if be like without some kind of companion or grounding item with me. i dont want to imagine me without em #its okay to have a little friend with you. i would be so distraught. everyone loved me there #the nurses the patients the residents yhe social workers the students #mr. octopus made them happy because of his big smile and mine too. the people there did not expect the mass amoutns of stress and depression #in this bubbly happy baby witb a happy pink octopus. one of the patients thought it was the meds the happy pills they gave me #no im jsut naturally like this. or artificially like this. i still dont know how to express or understand my feelings #if what im showing is real or not because i know ill be the happiest in the room wherever i go. maybe its a front or a mask #but when im like that kinda hard to know whats really underneath. they always ask me if im okay but i turn to myself #and its nondescript like ive put a blanket over how i really feel. its weird. the bubbly energy is blinding. #words #mr octopus #mental health #doodles

[boag]

I will never stop doing my makeup like a girl who just came back to school after getting the James Charles palette for Christmas 2018 . It’s simply who I am

#even tho I did not go to school anymore at that point #I was in partial hospitalization <3 #and then dropped out in February

[ghost-bard]

Theres gotta be something in my water bc why i am i, like a good two years post tma brainrot, writing a genloss/tma fic statement style

#tma #tma podcast #the magnus archives #genloss #generation loss #the social experiments #its a charlie statement btw #i think gl ran either stayed dead or is like comatose in a hospital #gl sneeg is charlies roommate i think #anyway i think its partially bc i got into tmp lmao #copying gl charlies speech patterns is like weirdly easy #anyone else notice that or am i just a lil freak LMAO

[sailforvalinor]

My theater professor, about my monologue from Antigonick that I'm performing for her class: "I think you should consider having Antigone sing during her monologue. Like a lullaby or something."

Me: "Ehh, I dunno..."

Me, at 1 am the night before the performance: *sits bolt upright* "WHAT IF SHE SANG 'SWING LOW, SWEET CHARIOT'"

#hang on hang on REWORKING EVERYTHING #also i'm low-key panicking because i thought the performance/exam was next week but nope it's tomorrow #it's fine it's fine i should be fine i just have not rehearsed all of this week hehe #i'm beating myself up about it a bit but also i DID have to go to the hospital so like. i do have a partial excuse

[noecoded]

I know generally ppl see levi as a reptile fish sort of thing but i need ppl to start seeing asmo as an arachnid snake type. Like yes he is the jewel of the three realms the most elegantly sculpted beautiful creature u have ever seen but he is so poisonous too like hes got so much venom his bite would probably kill a full grown man in a couple minutes and he wld giggle abt it …. he is so black widow + king cobra + deathstalker scorpion promising the frog he wouldnt kill him in exchange for a ride across the lake and killing him anyway …

#i think hes more arachnid but im partial to the idea that ​asmo can do that snake trick where u put theirfangs over the side of a cup #and it fills with venom #asmo able to fill a shot glass with venom in under a minute just by hooking his fangs over tje side🥰🥰🥰 #he asks u to drink it . just to see what will happen. he says his venom isnt even that strong anyway #hes sooo cute and making little doe eyes at you so like the lovesick (lustsick?) fool u are u take it and down it in one go #next thing u know ur waking up in devildom general hospital. #u just had ur stomach pumped a blood transfusion and multiple organs replaced #asmo is giggling snd clapping

[trans-axolotl]

have been free from institutionalization for 6 months this week <3 has been a hard year but the past couple months have been really beautiful in a lot of unexpected ways and I think that this feels new for me not to always be afraid in the ways i used to be. the four months i spent institutionalized this year were really fucking difficult in so many ways i don't even have words for and at the same time i am so proud of the life i am building despite it all. going to try to make it through the summer without getting forced back to a ward but i actually believe that might be possible this time. there's been a lot of joy + healing that i could have never expected when I was locked inside for those 17 weeks.

#personal #psych ward tw #has been a strange year! if u had told me in the hospital #that i would be feeling this okay and loved + happy rn #would not have believed #partially because it is incredibly hard to dream in confinement. incredibly hard and also #easy at the same time to want to be anywhere but there #so much of my life has been defined by like. violence. instituionalization. trauma #and i feel like for some of the first time im reaching a point where its like. its not like i'm in some 'after' where none of that affects #me anymore. bc it does. it always will. and its something i need + want to learn how to carry with me #but it doesn't feel like that's all there is anymore

[anti-ao3]

when people say "narcissist" i'm always like, "self-centered", "egotistical", "vain", "self-absorbed", et cetera are right there, and that's what you actually mean. use those. but using "narcissist" lets people pathologize and feel intellectual about things 🙄

i used to watch a youtuber who had spoken before about the demonization of various mental disorders, but then she used the phrase "narcissistic abuse" and i made a very polite comment, assuming the best, and was like "hey that's a really harmful phrase to use, especially when what you're describing has an actual correct term, emotional / psychological abuse, you wouldn't call something 'anxiety abuse' or 'autism abuse', would you?" and she then doubled down and said "well sometimes mental health professionals use it so it can't be ableist". as if no one in the history of psychiatry was ever ableist like?

ironic because she had also made multiple videos where she discussed people who used dated or incorrect language, were politely corrected by a fan, and then doubled down instead of examining themselves. and here she was doing the same thing :-/

Wow, that's very hypocritical of her. You can't call out ableist language and stigma, and then use a very ableist term. Worst part is, she didn't even apologize or recognize her mistake. Mental health professionals can be ableist, indeed.

I think that's what pisses me off the most about the stigma around NPD, even "progressive" people use narcissists as scapegoats. And very few mental health professionals DON'T demonize narcissists. Literally every time there's a discussion about abuse, people always bring up "narcissistic abuse". And it's like you said, they act like they're intellectual, "oh have you heard about narcissistic abuse?", and they pretend they know what they're talking about because they read it somewhere. And apparently everyone forgets that NPD, just like other Cluster B disorders, tend to develop due to childhood trauma.

I remember going to a partial hospitalization program, where they said "oh no judgment here, everyone is welcome". But then people were demonizing narcissists. I remember only ONE therapist there pointing out "hey you know NPD is a personality disorder and no one is evil for having it, right". But I'm pretty sure that was forgotten.

I may not have NPD, but I deeply sympathize with everyone who has it. We really need more people and spaces who treat NPD right, considering all the misinformation online (ESPECIALLY on TikTok).

#asks #ableism tw #the sad part is that i've never met someone with npd in real life #maybe they haven't been diagnosed yet #or maybe they don't talk about their diagnosis #bc of all the stigma around it #but yeah like #in this partial hospitalization thing #i wondered 'man what if there WAS a narcissist here?' #imagine them having to hear all that bullcrap #anyway yeah #i don't trust youtube therapists anymore lmao #ranting #ranting in tags

[wantbytaemin]

got the EGO BOOST of the century im still reeling

#this prof who we’re writing a project with but im only like one of the researches on it im not a lead or anything bc im a junior still #formally at least. but they still asked me to go over it and i did but only partially bc i just don’t have the time rn #and this guy called me to tell me he was blown away by how good i was and asked me like 5 times if i could please find the time to go over #the rest bc i ‘write like a senior scientist’ and they have a character limit for the application so he deleted some of his own stuff to #add mine in HEHEE he was like you are outstanding can you please find the time to help us #a dude who’s a member of a bunch of boards and the head of a hospital department etc etc #he was like people like you are very rare LMAOOOO GOD esp after what i had to go through last week this is sooooo so nice to hear #like i Know all this actually but it’s just nice to hear sometimes 🥲