#religious traumaposting

[tonechkag]

Hearing the story of Abraham & Issac really fucked me up as a kid. The actions of the adults around me made it clear that they'd kill me if God told them to.

#bUt wHY wOnT yOu cOmE tO cHuRcH anYmOre #biblical literalism #sola scriptura #ex christian #religious traumaposting

[socially-reluctant]

woke up thinking about how I used to run across busy highways for fun when I was a teenager and wondering how the hell I never got turned into road pizza

then I think about how, any time I have suicidal ideation, its always getting hit by a car like the filthy vermin I am and it all makes sense

real possum hours ig

but yeah I guess I never realized what I was doing was literal suicidal tendencies because my mom never gave a shit about my mental health and I was always told to just think positive or pray about it

#mental illness #mental illness shit #passive suicidality #tw: sui ideation #religious trauma #traumaposting ig

[finalmoment]

strongly negative criticism of religion under the cut / traumaposting

the idea that religious beliefs and practices should be allowed to exist free of critique, an idea that rests on the concept of "sacredness" which marks certain topics as being exempt from mockery, criticism, and challenge...is very insidious. i can acknowledge that critique is itself does not happen in a vacuum and directing a disproportionate amount of it at, say, muslims at a time when global islamophobia is on the rise is a way of masking islamophobia under other banners (feminist / progressive ones, generally) - that indigenous religious practices have also targeted in this way as a way to proselytize christianity... that still shouldnt allow anything to exist beyond challenge.

there is no amount of marginalisation that entitles you to hold religious views that justify discrimination against other people, at the end of the day. and proselytization/conversion isn't the only vector of harm contained in religious belief, beyond even its effects on the behavior of people who believe. hinduism is the easiest example of what im saying. while indians, as racially marginalized and colonized people on a global scale, experience oppression, many indians also benefit from the caste system, which is an explicitly caste practice that has superseded hinduism and spread to other religions in india. brahminical hinduism does not convert or proselytize, however. it is an inherently exclusionary practice. that is, there is practically no way to "become" brahmin in an official, sanctioned sense. you are either born one or not, as with all castes. the conversion mechanism of hinduism is more accurately an appropriative one; it subsumes other religious traditions and practices into hinduism, and these communities are accorded a place in the caste hierarchy without their consent.

this is why, when people say that people should respect all religions, im inherently suspicious. what is "respect"? i do not believe what you believe. i have no allegiance to the things you hold sacred. nothing is inherently sacred. why should i accede to your beliefs about the world, simply to comfort you? why should i pretend it makes sense or that it's equally valid? what are you demanding respect for? is it something intangible and unknowable, in which case why should i care, or is it something material, in which case your rights entitle you to non-interference (i will defend your right to do as you please, in the same way that i will defend someone's right to do drugs or take hormones or wear what they like), or is it a practice that continues only because it always has, without consideration for what this practice signifies or who it leaves out?

religious people, in my experience w them, tend to be prone to a persistent fragility of thought. not only do they want to believe whatever it is they believe, they also want me to act like this is a sensible thing to believe and act on, and they're highly injured when i won't play along. like no, i don't want to do your rituals so you can pretend that we're homogeneous in our beliefs, so that you are freed from the inconvenience of divergence or critique. i don't want to act like there's a reason more sensible (or, "scientific") for doing these things than tradition, or that tradition is explanation enough. and i don't want to cede to the idea that i am the oppressive element because i don't agree with them, and that their attempts to bring me in line are neutral and even positive (god is totally real, and even if you don't think so you can still be religious :D)

there is no end to these musings. i just find myself often exhausted with religious people, and i have had to spend most of my life subject to their stupid beliefs and stupid whims and their panicked attempts at reinforcing compliance when i object to whatever is going on.

#notes #atheism

[worm-on-a-stringe]

me and my stupid fucking ptsd

#ptsd #cpstd #trauma #sa survivor #sa #exchristian #mental illness #childhood trauma #religious trauma #traumaposting #girl #coping

[sickteeth-archive]

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#voidposting #okay to rb #idk if this is good or even makes sense lol #tw suffocation #tw religious themes #poem #trauma poem #trauma poetry #poetry #traumaposting #trauma art #traumacore #vent #vent poetry #ventcore

[aquietanarchy]

the worst part about all this is how good indoctrination is at defending itself. i can't reason myself out of fundamentalist thinking; i was trained too well to be critical of intellectual arguments. i understand, on an intellectual level, that the doctrine of hellfire is based on very flawed theology, but i can't talk myself out of the primal fear i have of burning for eternity without god. and even this feeds into the mindfuckery: "perfect love casts out fear, right", so my fear becomes one more condemnation, one more indication of how far i've fallen, because if i was closer to god, i wouldn't be afraid. but i'm stubbornly digging in my heels, because i don't want to chase after god right now. i am too tired, too grumpy, too hurt to want to climb back up onto the straight and narrow. ad nauseum.

#traumaposting #religious trauma #rts #exvangelical #ex fundamentalist #indoctrination #yarrow speaks into the void #i am so tired #not having a great time currently

[tonechkag]

Woah hey! The proselytizing evangelicals need to read the room! My blog is not the place for you so scoot right along or I will smack that block button... but not nearly as hard as I'll smack you with a broom if you don't get the hell out of here with your nonsense.

#be gone! #this is an evangelical hate page #leave me & Mother Mary alone #evangelicals have done & said some really horrific things to me so i have no tolerance for them whatsoever #Christian witches Christopagans mystics & fellow folk practioners are always welcome tho <3 #religious traumaposting #ex christian #exvangelical #psa #dni

[socially-reluctant]

when will extremely religious parents realize that shoving your beliefs down your children's throats will not guarantee they stay in the faith

mine oppressed the shit out of me, policing literally everything I saw or did or felt, and now I'm an atheist, aroace transman that wants nothing to do with religion and has spent the last 10 or so years unpacking all the trauma I've accumulated.

just feeling really irritated and raw in this chili's tonight folks, there's more I feel like I need to say but I don't have the words right now.

also I listened to 'Sun Bleached Flies' by Ethel Cain and it hit me like a truck because damn that me

its just a bad day today

#religious trauma #reluctant rambles #traumaposting ig

[aquietanarchy]

sometimes, when trying to explain things, i try to point at Acquire The Fire as a more mainstream version of the cult i was involved with. and sometimes people respond with "i've never heard of Acquire The Fire". and every time i'm like. damn. Wish That Was Me.

#traumaposting #religious trauma #yarrow speaks into the void