#shits eating me up for no reason

[cerberin]

sometimes you need to cry. all day. for no real reason and every reason at exactly the same time

#i’m never coming off the pill again #that shit clearly made me numb #and that’s what i need in this dumb fuckin life #holy hell why am i remembering everything that’s ever happened to me #why do i feel like i never want to love again #AGAIN?? i could’ve just skipped the past four years if i was meant to feel like this #i already didn’t want to love i didn’t need a whole other person to show me the exact same lesson #lol #i’ve also been crying thinking about my brothers kids going to school and possibly getting bullied #or just being sad and stressed about exams and just life! #? #shits eating me up for no reason #lmao i could never be a mother the emotional turmoil is too much

[just-null-cult]

Fr bro I love your energy! Noritoshi is so pretty and so criminally underrated. Keep up the good work in making more of us lusting publicly for him. You've done amazing job! That boy well-deserved it :)

tysm!! I try to open the eyes of the public to his qualities. join my cult yall, Noritoshi is so good listen to me.

but on the topic of energy, whether you're high or low energy, Noritoshi loves it. the only difference is how he reacts to it.

Let's say you're low energy or prefer subtlety in your affection..

Noritoshi will initiate first! ..after a while... in his own way.... He needs to gather enough courage and collect his thoughts properly, then hes good to go! He prefers more subtle displays of affection too, but if needed he'll be blunt about it. He'll learn to adapt to slightly teasing remarks, going as far as to banter and tease back, moreover he's just very loving. So loving it can be embarrassing from time to time because of how intense the atmosphere can get.. the best way he can be described here is princely.

A small smile forms on Noritoshi's lips when he feels you're around. He turns to you, already memorizing each and every quirk you have so that he doesn't waste any time setting his sights on you again. His hands reach out to tug on your sleeve as he looks at you with a gaze so needy you can practically tell what he's about to ask. "May i hold your hand?" His voice comes so smooth that if you didn't know him, you would've missed the twinge of desperation it carried. You couldn't help yourself, you shook your head, a mischievous grin slowly creeping onto your lips at the sight of Noritoshi's pouted lip. Of course he'd do as you say even if it was clearly unfair, but not without some complaints. He clicks his tongue, a quiet mutter of "cheeky.." escapes under his breath. He knows you do this on purpose to mess with him, he was tempted to beg a little, but decided against it. it was an embarrassing thought to begin with. Seriously, how mean can someone be to make a guy think like this? ..Extremely, if the guy's pouting is cute enough! Noritoshi lifts his hand to his chin, thinking of the many ways he can try to get around this obstacle you cruelly placed in front of him. He leans in close, hovering next to you as he usually does when he thinks. He faces you as who knows what goes on in his head, his closed eyes not even giving you a hint as to what he could be thinking. "Ah, pardon me, I got lost in thought. I suppose i can keep my distance, so long as you keep looking at me with that charming gaze of yours." Ah, so he was just winding up for a pick up line. How lame, but.. get used to it. He's going to shadow behind you the entire day with more one liners like that unless you shut him up yourself. Wait.. was that his plan? The faint sly smirk tugging on the corner of Noritoshi's lips and the warm hue on the apple his of cheeks are all you need to figure out the rest.

If you're high energy or prefer more blunt methods of affection..

Noritoshi gets overwhelmed and flustered from such raw approaches from you that he comes off as a bit rude. It's only because you make his heart so full that he needs to shut you down or else he'll do something embarrassing!! He wants to impress you, of course he enjoys your advances very much, but it's not very slightly to see someone like him act like a crushing school girl!! or so he thinks.

Noritoshi yelps in surprise as you snake your hands around his waist from behind. He doesn't push you away or even move for that matter, he's frozen stiff. Is he still alive? Like any good lover would, you benevolently press your ear against his back to listen for a heart beat. ..You didn't hear anything until the sound of Noritoshi sharp inhale came through. That was unexpected, but it works. He squirmed a little, seemingly trying to shrug you off but quickly giving up, accepting the fact that you've got him trapped. "You imbecile, e-enough of this!" he scolded, though he made no actual effort to stop you. Noritoshi remains stiff for the most part, but looking at the back of his increasingly flushing neck reassures you that he is, indeed, alive. He's just being stubborn! Not turning or even a greeting, just rude name calling again! You raise one hand and place it over his heart to hold him tighter in your embrace. As expected, its practically pounding against his chest. He swats your hand away and finally turns back to you with those cute furrowed brows and rosy cheeks. "You're such a bully, you know that?" he huffs out, any semblance of sternness failing to take effect as his jutted bottom lip quivers. Mercifully, you finally let go and spare him by not pointing out the quiet whine he let out. He stumbles forward and turns around to face you fully, trying to keep an eye out for any more of your stunts while he catches his breath. He felt so dizzy from being in your arms, if he were held for a moment longer, he surely would've melted right then and there. Noritoshi's hands trembled as he smoothed out his clothes, his mouth opening and closing as any and all words died in his throat. He wanted to yell at you for being so forward, for giving him no chance to prepare, for letting go of him, for a lot of things..! Yet he just pouted as he tried to calm the flush on his face. His hands instantly whipped up in front of him when he noticed you took a step towards him. He can't handle another display of affection right now, he'll go weak at the knees! But how can you hold back when he's just so damn cute?

The most likely outcome is a mixture of both with a heavy leaning towards one. Either way, you're very right!! He's extremely pretty.

#noritoshi #kamo noritoshi #noritoshi kamo #noritoshi x reader #kamo noritoshi x reader #noritoshi kamo x reader #ezralva #cw: shotty writing from an amateur writer who is desperate for you to see his vision and why hes frothing at the mouth over a guy #could you feel the yandere undertones. i couldnt help myself. sue me #basically you give him enough time to gather his rizz if youre low energy but jumpscare the fuck out of him if youre high energy #and you know how he handles jumpscares according to this cult #heh #oh and you got me kicking my feet and shit bro #lusting publicly for him.... i couldnt word it better myself #thats the entire reason for having a cult and indoctrinating the public. ty my beloved cult member #BUT YEAH. LIKE I HAVE TOO MUCH ENERGY AND BRAIN POWER DEDICATED TO THIS MAN #I GOTTA INFECT OTHERS CAUSE HES SO. RIPS OFF MY FACE #TYSM FOR THE COMPLIMENT. I EAT THOSE UP MORE THAN ANYTHING. I LOVE YOU BRO #GOD HE *****DOES***** DESERVE ALL THE LOVE AND ATTENTION FUCK. HES SO!!!!!!!!! //PUNCHES MYSELF

[weirdmageddon]

sorry for liking davejade in 2023 btw its in a cool way though

#hs #davejade #like that one person said bi4bi cool silly girl and her lame ass court jester bf who enjoy each others company a lot #“its boring” well not everything has to be conflict sometimes it can be two people really vibing #and being good foils to each other and just sort of being like a lock and key #i dont dislike davekat but i felt like they bickered too much which is Funny dont get me wrong #but i like davejade for different reasons #in that i feel like dave is at his most heartfelt with her #bc jade doesnt do anything to warrant snarkiness. she doesnt make him uncomfortable and that earns his trust like a lot #ppl say its boring cause its a mf ship and they dont get them like i do #and my answer to that as an agender person is who the fuck cares #i hate ppl dismissing mf ships out of hand like…hey bi ppl exist. and even if they were straight they still got a good dynamic #of care and interest towards each other #hes not her knight in shining armor bffr. she has uhhh fucking GUN #they are Equals #jade slaps the shit outta people on more than one occasion lol #they infodump to EACH OTHER and they both listen #remember when jade wanted to infodump to john about physics remember that #dave would eat that up like oh damn that so dope and tie it back to time or whatever. special relativity #since space and time are fundamentally related #sorry im running on fumes rn i didnt sleep last night #ALSO THEY HAVE MATCHING ALCHEMIZED OUTFITS #jade’s dead shuffle dress and dave’s four aces suited both use a midnight crew poster as ingredients #i should draw them together in that mspa style #maybe theyre not even romantic. who said ships had to be. its short for relationship #well theres multiple kinds of relationships. what if they were queerplatonic

[donnatroyyyy]

Dick and Jason fighting:

Dick: you’re nothing but a scummy, worthless piece of shit! I hope you die again! You should’ve never come back in the first place!

Jason: oh yeah?! Well you’re nothing than a big fake who doesn’t deserve to be here with the family or with superheroes in general! There’s a reason why you’re the one Bruce took the longest to adopt! It’s because you’re not worth it! You’re worthless and nobody loves you!

Dick: well at least I can get my own juice box from the grocery shop! But oh no I’m Jason Todd, the favorite child because I fucking died and I need to do everything criminally because I’m rebelling! Get over yourself you ass no one thinks you’re cool!

Jason: and people think you’re cool?! With your fucking mullet phase and need to over sexualize yourself?! Yeah fucking sure, stop blowing this out of proportion it’s a fucking juicebox!

Dick: and you’re just a fucking failure but oh look at that— Bruce still loves you for some reason!

Jason: what you’re sad cuz he doesn’t love you?!

Dick: and you’re sad because you never had a real mother?

*five minutes later*

Dick, in Jason’s doorway, has done this a million times before with all his siblings: I’m going to bat burger

Jason, was contemplating burning down Dick’s apartment, and also wanted to go ask Dick his opinion on some cargos but didn’t want to be the first to cave: I’m coming with

#they both canonically can and will rip someone to shreds for whatever reason they want #verbal abuse is their weapon 😍🥰 #but anyway this is more actually to do with the kinds of things that happen when me and my siblings fight than it is anything else #like we’ll be fighting like crazy. about to kill each other. punching and kicking and pulling hair. then we’re laughing cuz we can’t take #each other’s side eye srsly or something. or we’ll make up two minutes later when we want to order food or some shit. #dc comics #comics #batfam #robin #Jason Todd #dick Grayson #nightwing #Redhood #them after verbally destroying each other: do you want your fries jokerized?? #the answer’s always yes btw. ain’t none of the bat kids gonna eat fries without extra seasoning. more seasoning=more happiness. #except for Bruce and Tim those white “salt is spicy’’ ass fuckers.

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

ever since i was a small child the adults around me have treated any boundaries i set as me being a selfish bitch and i think that definitely did something to me

#vent #like when i first developed my lovely ocd (i was 11ish) everyone was very pissed at me because since i needed things in life #to be a specific way and i had no choice but to live with people and when they did things that directly interfered with how i needed #things to be i'd get upset and every once in a while ppl will keep complaining like oh we have to do everything you want you're so #selfish and rude and we're just expected to do what you want and why should we well fuck y'all if you want to stop working with me #on this then i'm literally going to make your life hell because i expect the BARE MINIMUM respect to not directly mess with my boundaries #which have lessened over time like literally i've been getting better i know it's been a long time coming but i am not nearly as distressed #by some things anymore but to these fuckers they just thing i'm being controlling and rude and i make their lives miserable because i #need them to not touch my stuff and i need to be driven places and i can only eat certain foods that i make myself and i cannot #help with some chores without freaking out and to them that just means that i'm a parasite that is being controlling and bitchy when they #decide that actually they shouldn't help me when i can't do something or that no they shouldn't respect my boundaries or whatever #like idk i know i'm not a super nice person but i'm not trying to ruin everyone's life just to stay sane and like. i didn't ask to be born #i didn't ask to be born into this family i didn't ask to be fucked in the head i didn't ask for any of this but my mother? she decided to #have kids and it's not my fault she wasn't prepared for them all to be fucked up and it's not my fault that she doesn't believe in mental #illnesses and she just thinks that being depressed or having adhd means you're just lazy or having ocd means you're just being controlling #and that you can stop anytime or that having autism (which there is a chance that a couple of us do) means that you're just acting #out for no reason and don't want to behave like i know she thinks i'm a selfish bitch (she was very vocal abt that today) but i think it's #also pretty selfish to help fuck up your own kids and expect them to turn out all right and when they don't you just get mad at them for no #being perfect. like she just wants us to be normal i know she does that's why she doesn't like mental illnesses/disorders and shit that's #why she's transphobic i get it she wants us to be normal but guess fucking what we aren't and her attitude doesn't help like i know she has #done a lot for me but even when she's helping she likes to threaten to take it all away she used to threatened to stop driving me to #school when i just got in college at 15 or so and threatened to send me away bc she thought i was faking my ocd and it fucked me up y'know? #like i don't like that her helping me is conditional on whether she likes me at the moment because a lot of the times she doesn't like me i #when i was very mentally ill or depressed/suicidal/dying from a fucking eating disorder like i know she's helped me i know she's done a #lot for me that she says she went farther out of her way for than she should've and i know i'm fucking difficult but still i don't like #being called a fucking selfish bitch for asking for the people i can't fucking get away from to respect what i need so i don't break down #like sorry if that's too much for you but i;m also not a fucking pushover and have never been and i know that pisses her off but whatever #and like i know i'm not totally in the right i know i'm not nice and i can be a bitch and i'm unhelpful and nasty sometimes but i'd rather #be blamed for being unpleasant than only caring about myself because i want to feel safe and yeah i can admit that often i do only #care about myself but that's because i genuinely hate some of these ppl sometimes and why should i care? they suck idk vent over

[clownprince]

idk maybe i'm just mad people dislike my Special Little Guy but like... the way that jarley shaped cultural perceptions of joker as a character (read: established the idea of him as a domestic abuser (of his female partner) furthering the associations with gendered violence/general misogyny that were (primarily) started by tkj/tdkr) feels homophobic in a way that's difficult to articulate

#just thinking thoughts #i actually don't mind when people dislike him bc like. he's overused or like. just not personally interested in him #it's moreso when people dislike him bc of the things he's done in canon #and i can understand being put off by harmful actions performed by characters in fiction i get it #like certain characters give me the ick for that reason. although it has to be pretty egregious. (e.g. slade wilson. he freaks me out lmfao) #but it just. frequently seems to be the same ppl who equate fictional morality with real-world morality #just makes me cringe seeing ppl posting their violent fantasies of like. killing him (specifically Because of his moral transgressions) #esp in the sense of revenge/bc it's what he “deserves” #like... you guys realize how much his queerness is linked to his immoral actions right... #and especially to gendered violence #like you do realize that he's a token example of a queer-coded villain the Point of which is to y'know like #get people to associate immorality with queerness #and you're just eating that shit up... #idfk. anyway #joker

[pencileraser1]

it's kind of cool? interesting? that almost every time i've read a fic where neil gives todd a present for like his birthday/other specific event, if it's set right after canon (neil lives au) its leaves of grass

#and every time i eat that shit up for some reason #it's kind if mundane but it makes me unreasonably happy #neil perry #todd anderson #anderperry #dead poets society

[lunarrolls]

whenever i need a laugh or a smile i go back and watch the early bells hells episodes. like pre-bassuras was such an insane vibe for an adventuring party and the shit they got into? unparalleled. truly just a collection of guys doing shit and sometimes experiencing consequences. and then bassuras came down on them like the fucking sword of damocles. i hope that one day, when this is all over, bells hells will still travel, doing dumb shit and fucking around like they once did for lord ariks eshteross. i hope they find that peace once their questions are answered, but i don’t know if a quiet life is for them. i think they’d just continue on, continue to scheme, do incredibly chaotic shit for forever. just let them throw parties, root out government corruption and little shade creepers every once in a while, and pretend to be ghosts, that’s the proper bells hells post-campaign enrichment plan

#cr #cr3 #the idea of a level 20 party just doing dumb shit forever rather than accepting places of power in the world is so funny to me #and SO hells. the level 20 cleric is just a fuckin robot who meets up with his gun robot partner and they eat muffins together #and also the level 20 cleric’s best friend level 20 barbarian continues to get into bar fights for some fucking reason #and then their level 20 fighter friend has to go bail him out but also ends up getting drunk but in a fun way #meanwhile this werewolf blood hunter and incredibly terrifying fire druid lady have been cleaning out a local casino #and there have been rumors of a terrifying flower girl haunting the poker floor #a level 20 sorcerer and a level 20 bard have a nice little game of chess together #and all is right in the universe #so in conclusion fuck you ludinus da’leth you’re in the WAY of my HORRIBLE GREMLIN FUTURE

[cheridraws]

see I often get conflicted because yes, I do want to watch things that will ultimately help myself, especially with an issue I have that I’m highly aware of. But also that fear of having the issue fixed is always there, and the issue is so convenient that I don’t wanna get rid of it, so,,,,, augh

#my rambles #this isn’t coherent bc I’m tired. sorry #but just. mmrggrb #related to the last reblog #I’m aware I have food issues that are not healthy. i shouldn’t be waiting until past 5pm to eat something #but…. it’s just easier #i rarely get lunch breaks at work. i don’t wake up early enough to get breakfast in the mornings. reminding myself that it isn’t healthy #just makes me feel like shit bc I feel like I can’t fix it #which isn’t true. i could. #but…. augh. again with the convienience. it’s EASIER to wait that long instead of waking up earlier. or preparing a lunch to take with me #and it’s cheaper too. i can eat whatever I can scrounge up at home after work instead of going out for food I can’t afford #I don’t know… I’m just complaining right now I guess #the last post just reminded of it is all #it may be one of the reasons I haven’t watched it yet despite my friends telling me to is all #ignore me #I’m happy for the people it’s helping. I’m just scared to be one of them

[front-facing-pokemon]

#bonus under the cut getting that snout facing right at the camera #camerupt #early 2000s animation cow‚ apparently. that's what someone just said about the bonus image. i honestly never understood this thing's name #i always thought it was pretty obviously a cow. but then its name implies camel. camel erupt. camerupt. is there a specific kind of #camel that just looks like a cow?? or. what. or am i just misremembering what camels look like #either way‚ i still think this pokémon is pretty cool‚ but i don't really use it ever in my own playthroughs. i don't think i *ever* have #not even in pokémon colosseum where i'm pretty sure you can get a shadow numel at some point. bc i already had a fire-type #not sure which one it was but it was definitely one of them. maybe cyndaquil? because of the dudes with the johto starters #that you fight near the beginning in pppp uuuhhh the PHENAC city i couldn't remember the name. for a second there. #i wasn't aware as a kid that their outfits corresponded to the type of the starter they had and also that you could only fight one of them #i think as a kid i was under the impression that there was only the one. for some reason i remember fighting the green one #oh wait they have the second-evos yeah. cuz he had bayleef. and the red one would've had quilava. not cyndaquil #ugh my memory is not very good evidently. i'm writing these tags after work. normally i do them right when i wake up but this time i just #do not have an excuse for not being able to remember shit. this is just on me. maybe it's amplified by the fact that i have yet to eat today #which i have a very bad habit of doing. forgetting to eat all day and not eating until like 5 and then that being my only meal for the day #i'm trynna get better about it but it is Not easy for some reason. for something that should be decidedly very simple #but my brain doesn't often let me eat until i've completed all of my silly little Tasks. so. idk. this will however post the day after i've #arrived back home from my trip which is nice. the first time future me will be sleeping in her own bed again. good luck again future me #you might need it

[deicide-doll]

trigger warning. do not read if you dont want to read something triggering.

#my bf is a fucking rapist #i told him i didnt want to have sex again because it was getting late and i have work tomorrow #and he usually takes a long time to finish after round 1 so i didnt want to stay up an extra hour #and he started manipulating me and pleading and saying he loved me and i dont know why i capitulated but #the fact that i said ok after 10 no's? #and i was crying #i was crying while i sucked his dick and while he fucked me #and he told me to struggle more because he found it hot #he thinks rape is hot #and after he joked about being a good manipulator and being able to get me to disregard my boundaries #which is true #but like he knows im an abuse survivor and have trouble with boundaries #the fuckdd up thing is he was the one who taught me to have boundaries #he told me to tell my mom to eat a dick when shes egging on my eating disorder #he told me i didnt have to stick around when my mom was calling me slurs for breaking dishes or failing classes #and here he is being proud that he managed to get through an abuse victims boundaries #he also joked about waking up to the cops at his door #which like shows that deep down inside he knows what he did is wrong #and if i wasnt such a cool girl i could get him into trouble #not like cops here persecute rape anyways but #i pretended to like it after the fact because i still needed him to take me home and i didnt wanna start a fight #but holy shit #idk what to do... #i mean im going to leave him fuck the trip #im shaking i dont even know how ill be able to go to work tomorrow #when this whole thing was over me wanting to get a reasonable amount of sleep on a work night #misiabear rants

[cuntwrap--supreme]

Why the fuck did 5 pro-anorexia blogs follow my main overnight? Like? I'm blocking all of you, obviously. Had a friend die from starving herself in middle school. I don't fuck with that shit. One of the blogs literally had a post like, "My mom is concerned about how much weight I've lost recently, but she's just jealous that I'm not the fat kid anymore and she still is. Skinny girls don't think about recovery." Like... Please listen to your mother. Holy shit. This is self harm and she's concerned. Your mother is not jealous that she's fat and you aren't. Stop. People literally die from this shit, and promoting an extremely unhealthy lifestyle isn't cute in the slightest.

#proana #block me #literally block me and all my blogs if you're cool with the proana scene #y'all are sick and know you are and will refuse any help #you're killing yourselves but don't even care because you want to look like bones #had a friend die from that shit. it's not cute. #she withered away and no one could convince her to eat. h #then one day she didn't show up to school and we found out she'd slipped into a coma and her organs were failing #literally because of the anorexia #this is the same behavior people with a bad meth habit exhibit. killing yourself but not caring. seek help. #help lines exist for a reason #nobody wants you to starve yourself to death. you can recover and be a healthy weight. #there's a fine line between weight loss because you're health conscious and anorexia #body fat is necessary for you to function properly #you can't build muscle without fat. your brain doesn't work properly without fat stores to pull from. #your body will literally consume nutrients from your bones if you're not getting them from outside sources (meaning: food)

[todayisafridaynight]

would it be okay if u told me why u like aoki😭/gen😭😭😭😭BEEN TRYNA LIKE HIM FOR SO LONG I JUST CANTT but i love ur art so much so i still consume it otherwise lol

i liked tohru adachi in high school and tbh i think that alone is enough of an explanation for why i ended up liking aoki

#snap chats #haha see i told you last post's tags were relevant #anyway vLKVJEVLKAEJVLKJ IM CRYING ANON youre so funny. this is the funniest ask i coulda got thank you so much #i dont know why i like him either <- yes i do #fine lets get Real Talk about it #well first off all i thought he looked hot rolling out the elevator and i was playing the eng dub and i think his voice sounds hot there #and thats like. not athing that happens to me ever <- literally thought sawashiro was hot two frames into the game but anyway #i like politician characters. or characters that are in a position of power ESPECIALLY if they have to act like they dont suck balls #like i very much love the idea of the power of charisma and that type of thing not to mention the 'strategizing' as aoki puts it #that comes with politics. LIKE HE SUCKS DONT GET IT TWISTED HE SUCKS BUT //shrug emoji// #like its why i love the mine rggo stories i like seeing mine's thought process and how he uses his intelligence #smart's sexy to me idk what to tell you but moving on #its fun watching him lose his cool too ESP IN HIS FIGHT LMAO HE STOMPIN HIS FOOT LIKE A TODDLER SHUT UP #i also really love the arakawa family in general and thinking of aoki's relationship with each of them makes my brain explode #especially him and sawashiro that shit is painful to watch and i love it so much #i also thought him going from goth to republican was the funniest shit in the world like i howled at that AND i was distraught #aokis so interesting to me from the notion that he IS loved by his family but he has so much hatred for himself it eats him up #and as a result he cant be happy no matter what he does- how hes constantly seeking validation even if it's nothing meaningful #his lil. Dog-Eat-Dog world world belief to ichi also appealed to my edgy depressed high schooler brain. sorry. #his speech at the lockers also got to me. unfortunately. sorry everyone i empathized too hard it got too real it wasnt funny anymore #like as much as i complain bout the very end the ending is what solidified me liking aoki if not also cause of ichi's impact in those scene #plus... analyzing him and the environment around him is so much fun too.... #idk reasons for why i like aoki also boil down to personal reasons. he still sucks tho so i cant be upset when people hate him LOL #i probably have more reasons or could elaborate more i love rambling but i mean. who really wants to read all that 💀💀 #maybe for a character that WASNT the worst but. aoki is so LMAO #thank you for loving my art regardless :) im sorry i have to be attached to the worst guys ever

[browngirl-inthering]

not a cursed child stan, not a cursed child anti, but a third, more pathetic thing (i've invested so much time and effort headcanoning and building the next-gen characters up in my head to the point that they feel too real so the idea of them experiencing any sort of harm makes me feel physically ill)

#tumblr user hazey-cosmic-jive finally makes a post that's (vaguely) related to the next-gen after months of silence everybody cheered #parasocial relationship with fictional characters go crazy! #it's so bad i remember i read a next-gen fic once where albus got hit with a really bad spell in the school corridor and almost died #had to be transported to st. mungos and everything #and i shit you not the stress purely from reading it made me almost vomit #i shed like 5 tears #couldn't eat couldn't sleep for the rest of the day #when i did sleep i literally dreamed that i was in the fic and i also died (due to unrelated purposes) and i met albus in the afterlife #and when we like “woke up” we were lying on the same hospital bed and for some reason ginny and hermione were there #and they were mad at me for some reason so they were screaming at me #mind you was albus being so fake #literally laying right next to me and didn't even bother to defend me as if we didn't just go through (literal) hell together 😒 #not vintage

[roylustang]

The rodents have been terrorizing me again for the last 4 nights. I regret to say I am no longer being nice about it.

#my humane trap NEVER FIRES IDK WHY 😭 #probably bc I’m using it in a car BUT STILL #and I tried peppermint oil and that didn’t work #so I guess it’s killing time #I’ll refrain from the Tom and Jerry style mouse trap #FOR NOW #not like it matters to them #I feel bad about it ngl but they’re eating all my food and shit and they woke me up at 6:30 #and I don’t actually think it’s a mouse (mice?) I think it’s one of those super tiny h chipmunks #so that’s even worse but it can’t be helped #he fit in my humane trap so he’ll fit in the new traps I bought #he has a 1/3 chance of being caught humanely #and if I don’t catch anything tonight those chances are going down to 1/5 #anyway after I get them I’m fucking LEAVING back to a place ik doesn’t have rodents bc I need a break jfc #please pray for me #I’m so tired #also it snowed this morning #the only reason I’m even slightly sane is because there’s 0 evidence that they’ve been on my bed #or near me

[alphagodith]

why did none of my fucking doctors tell me i can instantly relieve otherwise hours-long agony just by drinking a bit of baking soda in water...

WHY THE FUCK ARE ALL MY MEDICATIONS USELESS PREVENTATIVE TRASH WITH A MILLION SIDE EFFECTS WHEN I HAD ACTUAL RELIEF RIGHT HERE IN MY PANTRY THE WHOLE TIME

like i get that if you are experiencing abnormal pain you should get it checked out but IN THE MEANTIME i could have been treating myself, and even once i got seen they didn't give me jack shit for the pain!

#heartburn #acid reflux #health #medicine #GERD #legit so mad #i have suffered so much and have so much internal damage FOR NO REASON #oh sure let's make me coat my stomach with chemicals 3 times a day every day for the rest of my life #oh sure let's give me weird shit to inhibit my natural acid production and if i ever stop taking them it will come back EVEN WORSE #oh sure let's coat the FOOD i eat so it doesn't come back up my throat #BUT WE CAN'T POSSIBLY JUST NEUTRALIZE THE ACID ITSELF THAT WOULD MAKE TOO MUCH SENSE #important life tips