im so sorry i get it now i really do, the gay angels have me shaking screaming crying at all hours of the day and night, they mean everything to me i am literally thinking about them all the time and what it would mean to love someone steadily and silently through eternity, what it would mean to love across the lines of a divine war of supposed good and evil, what it would mean to carve out a space for oneself and ones lover in no man’s land, in the grey and moral ambiguity when you were created to be black and white without blemish. god i love them so much i just
"Conrad's view has always kind of moved out - to think of bigger things and other people, to think of larger places. And in moving away, sometimes the things that up close are huge and horrifying, get just a little bit smaller, a little bit more right-sized, a little bit easier to manage."
good morning friends. hope y’all have a great day and remember that you’ll never be able to please people who committed to misunderstanding you so do as you please! 🫶🏾✨
*throws my love at the mod developers that made my favs for Skyrim,who worked so hard to make mods that I could never imagine modding Skyrim without.*
I feel like the mods themselves get a lot of love, but the mod authors and VAs don't get enough. They make these works of art on their own time, just so we can all enjoy our favorite game a bit more.
(i wanted to post this yesterday, but tumblr lagged on me and I was listening and vibing to Everybody's waiting so I decided to try and re-write this post)
I don't know if I ever told you guys, but I used to not like Vse Kar Vem (that changed after I heard it live haha). Not because it's a bad song, but because it reminded me a lot of songs I would listen when I was very bad mentally - in high school.
In HS when I had anxiety attacks and outbursts that I still didn't understand what those were (I mean, I didn't fully accept I had mental illnesses until uni so... yeah)
And this part of the song (I'm not talking about the lyrics) actually reminded me of songs from a particular show that I used to watch (one of my comfort shows that helped me a lot back then) and that's how I started appreciating the song?
But if we want talk about lyrics, let's talk lyrics:
No one’s ever gonna make it easier,
You’re the only one who can,
The only one
This is something I've always told myself, but each day it's getting harder to actually do it? It takes so much energy of me to get out of my bed, how can I even make my life better? It's really hard once you get stuck in the quicksand honestly... How do you do it?
Also please don’t take that last post as gatekeepy I know it kinda reads as “tch you wouldn’t get it” but by god do I want more people to get it. I keep trying to get people to listen to Will wood but they haven’t recently lost a pet or gotten trapped in an ouroboros situation with their own mind so it slides off of them. They’re not ready yet.
I'm pretty sure that Danny Phantom is like the world's gateway fandom. One minute I'm reading your average vivisection phanfic, and suddenly I'm in the crossover Danny Phantom DC universe, and then I read a fic where ghostking!Danny has the title "He Who Is Ruthless In Mercy" and from there I learn the phrase "ruthlessness is mercy upon ourselves" and suddenly I'm belting out showtunes at the top of my lungs from a musical about the Odyssey.
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Yeah. I know how I got here but that still doesn't mean I understand it.