#thank you testosterone

[astillnight]

In the beginning, my hairline reduction was spaced by twenty-four weeks, then twelve, then six, then every two weeks. The last forehead inch gained today…was a week.

In four days, we could be seeing a new inch of forehead every eight hours until they are coming every four minutes.

#thank you testosterone #please leave me with Something 💖💖💖 #hairline reduction #baldness #bald #testosterone side effects #transgender #trans masc #Pacific Rim #ish

[rhinco]

twink death was the best thing to ever happen to me actually

#went to jupiter got stupider #i love being fat and hairy <3333 #also because i was at my twinkest when i had cancer #but anyway #thank you testosterone

[severalsmallwizards]

my jaw/face is getting more square :)

#oniongarden #thank you testosterone #my features r sharpening.. im getting beard hair.. im starting to look like ive always wanted to and i am so happy #AND my phone doodles been kinda fucking which is nice

[drivemysoul]

my morning voice makes me so happy

#taylor.txt #thank you testosterone #like it’s all deep and pretty and it rumbles in my throat

[dipterax]

every time I get a new belly hair another angel gets it's wings

#my txt #thank you testosterone

[feedingonthegoore]

i love being so hairy

#thank you testosterone #transing your gender is so fun

[mystrothedefender]

My throat is going through some shit rn

#thank you testosterone #the mannening

[certified-pretty-boy]

I am Very Suddenly Wet

Cis Men, Minors, and TERFS DNI

#thank you testosterone #truly doing the most to make sure I live every day to the fullest (horniest) #cis men dni #minors dni #terfs dni #non binary #they/he #nblnb #nblw #nblm #queer nsft #trans nsft

[letmeliedown]

wow okay so it took me a few years to really understand this but god damn i have a big ass. a bubble butt. junk in the trunk. a certified dumpy

you just don't learn these things when you can't see your own ass and don't have a photographer around to snap candid shots when you bend over. i'm going to use this knowledge for bad now jsyk

#thank you testosterone #this post should be an ass pic. but it's fucking 1984 #DM for proof

[greasyslug]

Erm just noticed my ass is getting hairy⁉️

#ramblings #thank you testosterone #t journey

[ajchip]

‘All Thanks To You’ takes the viewer on a journey through the artist’s life of trans discovery. Intertwining sentimental moments and revealing nostalgia. A tribute to what has shaped them into the person they are today whilst taking pride in their growth.

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#transmasc #non-binary #ajslens #trans artist #queer artist #trans photographer #queer photographer #hrt #testosterone #top surgery #transmasculine #All Thanks To You

[yawndogs]

today marks the day that i start my HRT journey. :) i can't believe that after so many years, it finally happend, and at the most unexpected moment, too. thank you. from the bottom of my heart, thank you to each one of my commissioners, mutuals, and supporters that have been with me from the beginning. it would've been impossible without your help and support and i'm eternally grateful for this little community that has always had my back here. i can't wait to see where this road takes me. thank you

#truly #thank you #my art #digital art #my artwork #art #furry #artists on tumblr #transgender #hrt #testosterone #transmasc #lgbtq #lgbt

[dipterax]

every time I get a new belly hair another angel gets it's wings

#my txt #thank you testosterone

[ransomdemands]

yknow sometimes the way trans women talk about testosterone and being on estrogen is indistinguishable from the way terfs try to convince afab people not to start hrt

this is not a criticism mind you, their experiences are their own and completely legitimate, it's just a matter of competing needs - they need a safe space to talk about their dysphoria and how testosterone makes them feel and i need to not hear about how i am destroying my body with hrt

ordinarily these things are pretty insular to transfem circles but since instagram has been feeding me transfem content i'm seeing it more and more and yet again the algorithm is fucking me

#ransomrambles #like a friend of mine in absolute genuineness told me how my skin was gonna stop being soft and my hair was gonna thin out #and she obviously wasn't trying to dissuade me from hrt .... but like ..... thanks for leading with that mate #with estrogen it's the - no downsides- people often say there aren't many downsides to taking e - save some erectile dysfunction #but when it's the other way it's - make sure you're really sure cause you're permanently ruining your body forever #like i get that - my skin feels so soft now - is an estrogen experience ..... but the reverse framing is not helping anyone here #that's just all you hear about testosterone hrt - a list of downsides you'll have to cope with #idk this isn't a fully constructed thought #like i said trans girls deserve the space to have that conversation #i just need to not be in that space cause it obviously hits me differently #but man the sheer volume of trans girls talking about the /damage/ t has done to them .... in dis tinguishable #the aside to this is also a lot of girls being like i realized i was a girl cause of xyzq #and the list is the same as the one my mother used to be like - see you must be a girl #so it's just tough #competing access needs are hard to manage #and that's why life is best on the curate your own experience webbed site

[mokutone]

your art makes me wanna start testosterone

i can't read tone well, so this is either an incredibly touching ask, or an extremely funny one, and in the absence of confirmation: both!

i'm in a chatty mood, so i'll share some thoughts about testosterone and my art.

i liked being on testosterone a lot. i had an IM injection every two weeks (on tuesdays!) and because that's a sizeable dose every 14 days that slowly disperses, it can cause some mood fluctuations (every other friday i would have a crisis about not feeling like the world had a place for me in it) but even those were far more manageable than the ones that would come with my previous and current monthly hormone cycle (every month i spend a solid week thinking the world will never have a place for me in it)

It gave me a patchy little bit of scruff on my chin and a whispy mustache under my nose that still struggles on, despite adversity!

It redistributed my fat a little bit, but that's long since gone back to pre-T shape.

it lowered my voice! that hasn't changed :^)! even if i never go back on t, that won't change. it was the thing i most wanted, and its the one i'm most grateful for. Pre-T, I didn't speak much. I'm getting better and better at talking and getting more and more comfortable communicating with people because of it.

having been off t now for 3 years, i don't pass anymore—not as a cis man, or a cis woman, certainly not as anything approximating straight. if people look at me and see anything, i'd hazard a guess that they see me as A Queer (the noun—for all it's complicated connotations).

i'm not surprised that my art might make somebody want to start testosterone! a lot of my art was made out of the aching grief that came with being kicked off of testosterone, and how neatly that loss of autonomy over my own body knits in with yamato's loss of autonomy over his own.

how my body started doing things i disliked, how i didn't have the support necessary to access the healthcare i needed—how my inability to give myself what i needed made me feel as though i were trapped inside of myself and abandoned (by both myself and the world at large)

when i write comics about yamato as a trans man, i don't take away his testosterone, because that hits a little too close to home for me. for Ninja War Town Reasons, he has plenty of access to all the HRT he could ever need and nobody questions his need for it—instead, i project my own horrors onto the way Danzō defined his identity for him as a child, the way that Kabuto and Obito dehumanize him as an adult in their war efforts, and reduce him to the thing his body holds (the Mokuton). I give him a kneejerk compulsion to dehumanize himself (out of a feeling that he has a duty to his community to do so) and I give him a slow-growing resistance to that impulse (which comes out of a feeling that the people he loves would frown upon seeing him reduce himself like that)

it's dysphoria! it's not gender dysphoria, but it's a loss of self, and a need to reclaim it. it's a war between the hollow shell of a thing he thinks he has to be, and the vibrant and messy person beneath it that he is. it's a desperate need to say "this is who i am—only i can say it"

I enjoyed HRT a lot. it was a really useful tool in helping me feel like my body was my own, that i didn't have to fight it, that we were the same entity. It's not the only tool, but it was a really good one, and one day I hope to use it again.

(as for the being off of it—it's unpleasant, but i'm enduring! being somebody who now doesn't really pass as anything has put me in a weird and interesting position, where I'm constantly having to declare myself to people, because nobody knows what to make of me on any front. they don't know if i'm a man, a woman, nonbinary, nor even what age i am (Augh!!!!) it forces me to be brave and vulnerable more than I'm comfortable with—if I tell somebody I'm a man, there's no way that they will believe I'm cis, but I'm not about to recloset myself��and I don't think I could at this point anyway.)

(there's something fascinating about the position i find myself in, and while i'd leap back on t the moment that an opportunity presented itself to do so, i do feel like i'm experiencing something interesting and important in this weird zone i find myself in)

#yamswers #anonymous #dysphoria discussion #q slur — only because i literally use it in the noun form most associated w/ dehumanization #i love that u asked this on a tuesday. thank u for asking this on a tuesday #happy testosterone tuesday to all who celebrate #i also got top surgery a while ago—which is responsible for about 50% of my average suicidal idealizations vanishing #because my chest was my second biggest site of dysphoria after my voice #it was far less painful than i dared imagine. and far more satisfying. i had an excellent and lucky recovery #my results aren't perfect but oh man. the joy of being able to press my hand (flat) to my chest (flat). #the way that a binder mimics the exact squeeze around my lungs that a panic attack stimulates— #not feeling that when i'm out in public? thank you modern medicine. thank you. oh my god. no more false flag panic attacks #i had to fight my insurance for two years and all the health providers i contacted told me the hoops i was being made to jump through #seemed utterly ridiculous. and it was still gobs of money but i got it. so grateful u cannot even imagine #a lot of people describe their feelings post op as “relief—finally i could see myself” #but i experience...more delight than relief. joy. is joy the absence of pain or the presence of happiness? can i tell the difference? #on my worst days i can lay a hand on my heart. and i can lay a hand on my heart. and i can lay a hand on my heart. and i can lay a hand on