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chiaki-c · 7 days

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tagged 1000 years ago by @defeateddetectives thank you sm!!!!

do you make your bed? never

what’s your favourite number? i often use the number 30 in internet handles and such so lets go with that

what is your job? currently looking for one that might make me want to kms only half the time

if you could go back to school would you? also considering this buuuut so far im verging on a hard no

can you parallel park? i can barely drive dont ask me to park too!!!!

a job you had that would surprise people? nothing weird sorry :(

do you think aliens are real? sure

can you drive a manual car? as opposed to? (jk but yea manual's the standard here)

what’s your guilty pleasure? soooo many at any given time i am obsessed with media i am way too ashamd to evn speak aloud. still very much working on the whole feeling shame and guilt about existing thing :')

tattoos? none but i want to at some point

favourite colour? red, blue and black mostly with a special mention to orange

favourite type of music? for a few years now ive mostly listened to bands and artists from the indie italian scene (altho indie should probably go between a few quotation marks i guesssss)

do you like puzzles? not really

any phobias? SPIDERS :(

favourite childhood sport? mmh i remmeber trying tennis in school when i was very little and liking it but other than that i hated all sports

do you talk to yourself? who doesn'tttt come on!!

what movie(s) do you adore? for comfort movies i'm seconding pride & prejudice (2005) and the digimon movie!! i also always love to revisit ritchie's sherlock holmes(es) and master and commander. oh and xavier dolan's "matthias and maxime" <3. movies i adore that aren't comfort i wanna say portrait of a lady on fire, moonlight, and then we danced just to name a fewww

coffee or tea? i enjoy both!!

first thing you wanted to be growing up? i think a veterinarian

very low pressure tagging some recent mutuals? take it as a generic friendly poking, no need to do it at all <3

@inarcadiac @hesbianspock @zaegreus @thefffuckening @saintirulan @nigesakis +anyone who wants to i guess!!

#useless posts #meme thing

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bewitchingbaker · 6 months

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✵ {opinion then vs now ship meme <3 Jess/Andy}

Joe's Diner.

A rather retro space hidden within Arizona's neighborhoods. Opening at 11am and closing...whenever. Serving all manner of delicacies from breakfast, lunch dinner, and some mysterious fourth meal that no one ever ordered. Their waiters often having a high turn around time, ranging from local college students to some of their classmates (the local Goth's often offered extra coffee to the Luna's thanks to Jess's side business)

A perfect hangout spot for the clique of the Luna and Riley teens.

Jess Luna's head rested on her recently manicured fingers, soft brown hues staring at Andrew 'Andy' Riley.

For once, it was just the two of them. No Chris nor Beth in sight due to the two of them having a mass of assignments due. Though if you asked Chris, he'd flat out tell you he's giving them some space cause they're graduating soon. Plus, she promised he could keep their skateboard if he gave her time to 'make kissy faces at Andy'.

Her brother may have been quiet, but he could read her like a book. Jess Luna didn't fall for alot of people in the desert city, but that Andy had a charm about him. He shared her sense of humor and love for a younger sibling in a tough family. Being easy on the eyes helped alot too.

Their first impression of your muse:

"First impression?" she echoes. "Hmm, he looks like has a stick up his ass. What's his ass doing in a skate shop? Shouldn't he be with the other jocks? But then I saw you had a little lady clinging to you."

A small smile spreads across his face.

"He must be alright."

Current impression:

"As of this moment, you're a sweet, mostly mature dweeb who I like spending alot of time with. Even if he complains about my little...side business with totally legal substances."

A pause.

"With his head up his ass."

Are they attracted to your muse?:

A coy smile spreads across Jess's face, an inquisitive tilt of her head following. Those size 9 Vans mess with Andy's leg for a moment.

"Maybe," She hums. "I might think your hair is cute and you're pretty easy on the eyes. I don't exactly mind seeing you in your swimsuit, if anything it makes me glad you have that pool in this hot ass city."

Something they find frightening about your muse:

Her smile falters a bit, leaning in her seat. The older Luna takes a sip of her drink as she thinks of her answer. While she hsd her fair share of anger issues, it was nothing compared to Andy's anger at the Admiral. Understandable considering the old fucker's treatment of Beth.

"I wouldn't say it's frightening," Jess begins. "But you're anger is...concerning. I mean I get it cause I have my own issues with the Luna's, it just feels like it'd be hell to be on the other side of that anger. But I understand and trust I'll never be on that side."

Something they find adorable about your muse:

"What don't I find adorable about you," Jess asks with a laugh. "I guesssss if I had to narrow it down to one thing. I'd say...your smile. When you make a good play or when you get to drive that cool car of yours, you get this bright smile."

She smiles as her foot messes with his, hands holding onto Andy's.

"Seriously, it's like you don't have any pressure on you for once."

Would my muse sacrifice themselves for yours?:

"Sacrifice? Like...in Left 4 Dead?"

Jess asks with an inquisitive tilt, feigning some confusion at the question before playfully smacking his hands. Another laugh escapes her lips before takes a sip of her drink.

"I would like to hope that we never end up in a moment like that. I don't have the capactiy for that like our siblings do." she sighs. She looks out the window for a moment, brown hues flashing purple for a brief second. "Chris always seemed brave...in moments like that."

A pause.

"But if it came to it, I guess. Knowing you though, you'd be pretty pissed if I tried to sacrifice myself."

Would my muse go on a date with yours? platonic/romantic:

"...Riley, I would hope the past few years would give you a clear answer," Jess replies. "I'm not including the ones with Beth and Chris, maybe our trip to the water park and we...ya know."

She blushes as her hands gesture to the resteraunt.

"I mean like when me and you went to the movies. Or the time we saw them light the tree in downtown Sedona. I'm saying all this to say 'yeah I'd go on a date with you.'"

One word my muse would use to describe yours:

"Hmm," Jess ponders. An eternal second passes as she thinks about Andy. Sweet. Brave. Dumbass. But the older Riley was her dumbass. As much as Jess messed with Andy, she appreciated him in her life. Not just hers but Chris's. Really the Luna's lives.

Not a lot of boys would go along with a magic family dealing with tragedy.

She finally finds the words for Andy.

"Angel."

Would my muse slap yours if they could?:

"No!" Jess replies instantly.

A sly smile spreads across her face.

"Unless you're into it." she laughs with another hand on his.

Would my muse hug/kiss yours?:

Silence. For once, Jessica Luna is at a loss for words. She forgot how Andy had a way of leaving her flabbergasted. Such a simple question had her cheeks ablaze with a blush. Her eyes take a moment to stare at the eldest Riley sibling.

She smiles before laughing.

"Does this answer your question?"

With one swift movement, she presses her lips against his. Her hands resting on his cheeks for a moment. Getting lost on their kiss before finally breaking it to press another one against his nose.

"...Now are you paying for our last date as high schoolers?"

[ @brooklynislandgirl/@tarnishedhalo ]

#brooklynislandgirl #ic #; Jess Luna #lovingSpoonful!Verse #Dance Until Dawn : Jess and Andy #Words as Clear as Day: Jess Luna

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jamesbuckybarnes19174 · 2 years

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message to james: *sends a picture of myself pouting* i love uuuuuu, am pouting now so u HAVE to say ur cuter :) <3 also LOL who taught u to say lol… hope it was me :D i misssss uuuu times a millionnnn :) <33333 hehe thank u for thinking am prettyyyy :) i loveeee uu!!! i LOVE. UR. PICTURES!!! i get all smiley and happy and i just want to teleport through the screen and hug n kiss u!!!!!! <333 i can’t wait to see u soooo soon!!! i love u sooooooo much :) <3 i love u forever n ever and EVER! <3 *sends a mirror selfie after a shower again, cupping one of my breasts, then a sleepy selfie in bed*

voice message to james: i loved y-your video james… i w-wanna touch while i w-watch it… but i also wanna film myself for you… *giggles* hmmm hard choice… i guesssss… i could do both… *giggles* mmm i’ll do just that! *snorts* i just… i dunno… *pauses* i-i just… i r-really n-need you… w-want your t-touch… f-feels so good when you t-touch me james… *hums softly* b-be back *giggles*

message to james: *sends a video, blushing deeply, filming at a different angle, rubbing through my folds* j-just f-finished watching y-your video… i f-finished… i w-wanna c-cum again for you… b-be a g-good girl… *kneels on the bed so u can see me from behind, looking back at the camera so u can see my face, slowly rubbing my center, moaning softly, biting my lip* j-james… j-james i n-need y-you… *whines softly, pushing a finger in, slowly moving it* i l-love you… you m-make me feel so g-good… i j-just wanna c-cum for you james… over n over… *whimpers as i move my hand faster* i l-love being yours… i’m y-your girl forever james… i love you… *moans loudly as i finish, giggling and cutting the video off after*

voice message to james: hi baby… *chuckles softly and pauses for a moment* i umm… g-god… *chuckles* i h-hope you’re having fun n feeling g-good… that’s what i want… that’s w-why i’ve been sending you those pictures and videos of me… *chuckles and then giggles* i umm… i d-dunno, i guess i just… i’ve just really needed you… b-been needy… and this is as much as i can do so… voila *chuckles* d-dunno if it was moreso neediness than confidence *giggles* mmm i miss everything too… miss the sweet stuff… ‘specially after i touch… miss c-cuddling with you after… all your s-sweet kisses… *hums* i love you so much james… y-you really are so important to me… y-you’re my love… *giggles* the teddy bear picture you sent is so cute… am glad it’s keeping you company… i got alpine and… your pillow… *snorts* you know i think they sell bucky plushies *laughs* i could invest in one of those for when you go on missions but… nothing will be as good as the real thing… cause get to hold you… while you hold me… play with your hair… kissies… nothing will beat the real thing… *hums* i w-won’t leave your side either… i promise! i miss you so much… miss your kisses… god i love you… *giggles* and i miss giving you kisses! when your face gets all blushy when i give you lots of kisses on your face? god, so cute! *giggles and hums softly, smiling to myself* i love you james… can’t wait to kiss you… and you make me so happy james… get me all smiley… *giggles* am happy i make you happy! i wanna make you smile and happy every day forever and ever *giggles* now i know that’s an impossible goal but… i’ll still work everyday to do it… because i love you so much… and you have me forever… and i have you forever! i’ll take care of you baby… *giggles* mmmm the butterflies kind of tingly… because my heart just… i just love you so much! *kisses my locket a couple times* kissies for james… i love you… i miss you so much but in a way, isn’t it really lovely that we have something so important to us that makes it hard to say goodbye? i think that’s so special. *yawns softly* can’t wait to be in your warm arms… and feel safe… n cozy with you… *yawns again* i love you……

message to kitten: I love you too. Yeah, fine I’m cuter. I still think you’re very cute though. I loved your pout. think it was you or Sam who I’ve seen use lol. Probably both. Lol. I miss you so much baby. Oh of course. You’re the prettiest baby. I love you :) I’m glad your liking mine too baby. Need to hug and kiss you. You’ll see me very soon. Love you always baby :) you look. Very hot baby. I love you. *sends a picture of me laying my head on the teddy bear and then another of me smiling, resting my hand on my bulge*

voice message to kitten: you know baby you’re really fuckin’ lucky I got my own hotel room *chuckles* ‘m glad you liked the video…I watched yours…the n-new one…’m uh…’m so hard baby…I really need you too…do you wanna touch me baby? I’ll uh…fuck…I’ll give you another video, one second.

message to kitten: *sends a video, setting up the camera then sits in the chair facing it* hope you can see all of me…you showed me fuckin’ all of you. *moans softly as I stroke myself* a-and cummin’ twice for me? fuckin’ hell…you’re such a good girl, kitten. Can cum as many as you can…*moans a little louder, stroking myself faster, rubbing my thumb over the tip* kitten…I need you too…w-wanna feel you doin’ this to me…or you uh…on top of me…I love you…I love you so fuckin’ much….fuck I wanna make you cum over and over…I will baby…*groans, biting my lip* all mine…my girl always…’m always yours…fuck *whines slightly as I finish on my stomach, chuckling breathlessly then wipes it up, turning the video off*

voice message to kitten: hey baby. *hums* y-yeah havin’ fun and feelin’ good but…would be better if I was with you…t-thank you for sendin’ the uh…pictures and videos…I like them *chuckles* I love them…I hope you’ve been lovin’ mine. ‘M gonna guess you have cause…you came twice to the video I sent you so…*chuckles* needy hm? I know baby…I need you too…mmm maybe ‘s a little bit of confidence too *snorts* I miss everythin’. I know…’m used to…feelin’ good with you then…cuddlin’ and kissin’ and…makin’ sure each other are okay…j-just get real comfy for me okay? I love you too baby…you’re my love always. I hope you like the new teddy bear pictite I sent *chuckles* yeah…’s my company…but I want you…you know that *sighs softly* a bucky plushie *snorts* sounds…interestin’ *chuckles* if you want that to keep you company…by all means…*laughs* I know baby…w-wanna be with you so badly…take turns holdin’ each other….fuck I miss you playin’ with my hair…I really miss that…I miss holdin’ your hand…I love you so much my baby. *chuckles, humming* ‘m blushin’ now just thinkin’ about those kisses…I love you too scout…I’ll kiss you so much when I come back…I know you’ll make me happy…I’ll get you smilin’…I’ll do my best…*chuckles* may not be possible to be happy every single but…I know I got you through anythin’…and I got you too…I’ll always take care of you and do as much as I can to make you happy. I love you…love you forever baby…*kisses my locket a few times back* kisses for scout…I love you too honey. I miss you. Yeah baby…you’re right…our love is really important…and ‘s really strong yeah? And…you know I’d always come home to you? I always will…we’ll be cozy and warm soon baby…I’ll keep you safe…I promise…I love you so much…I love you…

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0bianidalas · 4 years

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so carlos c tomé whoever the fuck he is is the absolute goblin i have to hate for coming up with bland tasteless carm*el nightmare

#thanks for nothing i guesssss #elite #anti carmuel

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songofsunset · 3 years

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guesssss who got part 1 of a covid shot thanks to Biden widening the federal guidelines for qualification and CVS looking at those qualifications and saying ‘well we’re using federal money and vaccines right now, so we’ll give it to people under the federal guidelines’ and then everyone else using federal supplies followed suit even though the FL governor still wants to literally just give it to people over 65 and barely anyone else not even schoolteachers under 50 EVEN THOUGH SCHOOLS HAVE BEEN IN PERSON THIS WHOLE TIME, I KEEP HEARING OTHER STATES TALK ABOUT SCHOOLS MAYBE GOING IN PERSON AGAIN ONCE TEACHERS HAVE BEEN VACCINATED AND NO, FLORIDA TEACHERS HAVE JUST BEEN DOING THIS SHIT WITH NOTHING THIS WHOLE TIME, ITS ABSURD, ITS HIGH TIME THEY GET ACCESS LIKE WHAT THE FUCK Anyways, I went to a federal mass vaccination site and after 2+ hours in line and going through 5 processing tents, never have I been happier to see a giant tent of people in camo

#and then i sat in an allergy observation tent for half an hour #the little barcode sticker they put on me so they could scan it and process me right away says VERY HIGH RISK in the middle haha #lori chat #still doesn't seem real and i expect it wont #but there is a little needle mark on my arm under the bandaid so i guess SOMETHING went into my arm #oooh now its a little sore when i push on it oooh its real #OH the advantage of the mass vaccination site is that no appointments were needed which is why I was willing to wait in line

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nautiscarader · 4 years

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I’d like to thank all of you, who were sending me good vibes over the past few days. I was EXTREMELY stressed, and it turns out... for nothing. That real life thing came and went WAY smoother than I thought.

longer explanation below, feel free to skip it.

everyone else buckle up.

So, the thing is, I was, for the first time, SUMMONED TO COURT. In front of a judge and all “TO BE QUESTIONED”.

And the case was kinda important, as it was about inheritance including the house I currently live in. Long story short, a person in my family died, and there were only two possible heirs: me and my utterly random aunt that is kinda like evil mirror universe Marry Poppins. Now, said aunt actually said she doesn’t want any of it, so I was kinda in the clear. Except, two months ago we had a row to end all rows, and I was fully expecting her to turn 180 and wanting me to become homeless and all. I possibly was overthinking it, but here’s the thing: you cannot be sure with her.

And as much as I’d like to tell you a story about her, arriving with a team of cyborg Atticuses Finches, fighting me with mental capacity and demeanour of caveman lawyer from SNL, a battle of logic versus bureaucracy where the little guys won like in all the movies from 80s and 90s.... the case itself was fortunately utterly anticlimactic.

She didn’t show up (because I was the only heir, so she didn’t have to), the “questioning” was supposed to last whole ten minutes on the timetable, and it lasted exactly ten minutes, and so, an hour later I was free.

“Now, hold on”, you might say, “the math doesn’t add up. If the case lasted 10 minutes, what took the other 50?”

I was trying to find a pen.

You see, call me crazy, but I would like to have a proof that the whole ordeal took place. On paper. And it turned out I had to file a special application to get that thing sent to me next week via mail. So, first of all, I had to go to office number 1 to get blank form, then to office 2 to buy a special stamp, cos why would it be free.

And then I had to fill in the bloody thing.

And here’s the problem: because of Covid 19, there were no freely available pens

the

entire

building

the

court.

4 floors, no pens.

You know those stations with pens on those coily strings? yeah, all fucking gone. because of bacteria and viruses and stuff. There are stations with the antibcaterial dispensers every ten meters, so you could drown those pens in them BUT NOPE

THERE WERE some pens lying around on the guards’ table, but guess what: I CANNOT USE THEM

There were pens available on the neighbouring window in office 1, but GUESS WHAT

Because that window was delegated to DIFFERENT TYPE OF CASES THAN MINE I COULDN”T USE IT

ALL PEOPLE WERE TELLING ME “THERE ARE PENS IN THE WAITING AREA, THERE ARE PENS IN THE WAITING AREA ” NO KATHLEEN, WE HAVE NO PENS.

So, I ran outside, and there, on the other side of the street I spotted a stationary shop. And I fully wanted to buy not one, but TWENTY pens and just throw them around the whole court guerilla style as a present.

BUT GUESSSSS WHAT

THE SHOP WAS CLOSED BECAUSE THE XEROX MACHINE BROKE DOWN

FINSALLY

Finally

There was an attorney next door, and they allowed me to use their pens. They looked at me as if I was an idiot with horns on my head, but they allowed me.

And after I filled the form, I had to go office number 3 to actually file it.

Now, I am going to show you EXACTLY how I felt. It’s a scene from one of my favourite movies, 12 Tasks of Asterix, and you WILL feel my pain

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yeah, this is EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED.

For a certain definition of “exactly”

Oh, and before that, on the way to the bus, my shoes disintegrated in the middle of the street.

Yeah, cos I went in suit, stylish and all, and I wore black shoes that I haven’t worn in three years, since the funeral of said dead person from paragraph one, and it turned out I forgot to charge them or whatever, cos they just destroyed themselves on the way. It’s like fucking Thanos snapped them, piece by piece, no joke here.

it’s a good thing I left home a good two hours earlier, JUST IN CASE SOMETHinG LIKE THAT would happen.

So yeah, I headed half-barefoot to the huge shopping mall where I knew there is a shes stall.

The stall has been closed down.

So I had to go to another store (on the way there the second shoe ended its life), so I was essentially just a moustache and hat short of looking like Charlie Chaplin in Tramp. But I bought them, and so far are whole.

SO YEAH

I had a bit of a day.

Thank you for listenining to my OHGODWTF talk.

If you read the whole thing, you deserve one (1) free cookie.

Also have a cat

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seinelee · 4 years

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siya pa rin (pt.2 of i k a w -Legolas X Reader!Soulmate AU)

(Hi! I have moved to another blog. If you would like to see more of this content, feel free to follow me there and visit it! @ceinelee Thank you so much!)

(Soulmate AU where you and your soulmate have the same words tattooed on your wrist. This is Part 2 of 'i k a w', might make a part 3 because I thought of a good title for it *yes I know great reason* and thank you so much for the likes, reblogs, and comments they made my day T_T this is still angst I guesssss)

Part 1 | Part 3

"It was you?"

There were no words that desired to escape your lips. So you settled with a nod.

"I showed you mine!" he exclaimed, holding your wrist tightly in his hand in anger. "You knew I was your soulmate! And you chose to hide it from me and withdraw from me and leave me to think of what I must have done to you for you to avoid me."

You stared at your feet, wishing for it to be over.

"Tell me, did you find it amusing to make me wait?" Legolas asked, his loud voice suddenly turning into a whisper. Hurt seeped through his words and you snapped up your head to look at him.

"I did not know you were my soulmate until that day you showed me your wrist," you said, unwilling to be the one at fault. You would not let yourself be accused of something that was not true.

"Then why did you not show yours? Why did you not tell me you are my soulmate?"

Your voice broke. "Because you told me you were happy without one." A deep breath. A quick exhale. "Tell me, do you now find it amusing to question my actions?"

Legolas froze and you took it as a chance for you to pull away and distance yourself from him. You cradled your arm to your chest, closing your eyes to prevent the tears from falling.

"Do not accuse me of making you wait because I also waited. I also looked for you. I also hoped to meet you," you said. "But how could I show my wrist to you when clearly you loved another? How could I show you when you had given up? How could I, when you admitted that it was no longer of importance?

"You are not the only who is hurting, Legolas. For years I have been trying hard to forget so I hid away from you. It just so happened that whoever decided to bind me to you found a way to finally let you see my regrets."

Legolas turned his back on you, clenching his fists. He regretted raising his voice at you and blaming you for his pain when he had caused you trouble as well.

"Goheno nin, mellon. I should not have let my emotions overwhelm me," he said sincerely.

"There is nothing to forgive, Hîr vuin. Only feelings to forget. Please excuse me."

As you quickly turned on your heels to leave, Legolas turned back to face you. You did not call him your friend anymore, and it broke something in his heart. With regret and sadness, he watched you walk away.

You ran to your room and locked yourself in there. But your hurting heart did not let you have a moment to let you place yourself on your bed. You slid down to the floor and tears started to run down your cheeks. Yet no one from the outside would notice your despair, for you were used to crying silently.

While you let yourself drown, you felt a slight tingle on your wrist and out of habit, you ran a hand over the scar that crossed out your curse. But to your surprise, the word was replaced.

siya pa rin

For some unknown reason you understood what these words meant and you let yourself scream in anger. Because no matter how many times you build up your walls and fix your shattered heart, and no matter how many times you cross the words out, you will still find yourself looking his way.

And you will still find yourself asking what could have been.

siya pa rin

—(Filipino; Philippines)

Meaning: (It is) Still him/her

#legolas #Legolas X reader #Legolas imagines #the Lord of the rings #the hobbit #imagines #lotr

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unproduciblesmackdown · 5 years

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8:54am posts......man one wacky life experience i had? like okay, i mentioned it, but when ppl are Kinda Fat i cannot see it? like think, jennfer lawrence, christ prattt, it was Brand Spankin news to me when i first heard that ppl consider/ed them fat? (and like it pains me to mention either of them. but not cuz of being fat ever.) and that’s not to be all smug like oh i see everyone exactly the same Type Of Bullshit. i just like truly cannot notice it myself, that vague zone of ppl’s weight just all blurs into Average to me.

and why i mention it is cuz i guesssss circa being like 15 or 16? i forget? i was in that vague zone and the oooonly reason i was aware of this is because random fuckin people started making comments. you better believe this shit was entiiiirely unprompted b/c i wasn’t even seeing it, and because it’s not like i ever went around bringing that kinda shit up myself. but lets see off the top of my head you got shit like a semi-friend being like “you’re just.........a big person....” all Awkwardly-Nigh-Pointedly, some other friend saying something similar, you get my Terrible Father saying some weird shit like “i’m glad you’re not fat because i was afraid that might happen when you quit ballet” and i’m just like bitch what do i say to that? or the friendly college staff lady who knew me by sight or the nice friend of my mom’s being like “oh you look thinner/better :) have you changed anything” and me being like oh hmm i dunno! internally like, it’s the depression and increased sooicidleness, thanks. don’t congratulate anybody on losing weight if you don’t know that they personally have expressed a desire for this!

another thing that made this Hilarious was that my abusive-ass mom was like, the person who’d shut that down if it happened around her. idk i don’t think she was exactly skinny, so maybe she Related or whatever. obviously it’s not like usually abusers Act Like That 24/7 and sometimes she could be in act-like-a-damn-person mode, but this was so standout when she was otherwise really invested in me looking the ~right way~ and all. and not ever that invested in being decent to me or anyone, and usually mad judgmental and fatphobic, so, hilarious. too bad both my ‘rents are still Evil And I’ve Disowned Them like: who??? oh yeah h8 those bitches

anyways the point is that like? maybe this was the whole scope of a year in my life? and obviously it gets worse the heavier you are and so i really only had to deal with the Beginners Mode of people’s bullshit and then i got depressed and stressed and stopped eating as much as i should for that reason and added on more reasons thru the years and then uhh also added in being tight on money and homeless and nowadays i still don’t eat as much as i should by a lonnnng shot and who knows when/if i’ll be able to, that’s for another day, anybody else have that thing like If I Get To That Point Where Things Are Truly Okay, I’ll [Bake/Cook Some Specific Item]? for me my idea is a batch of choc chip cookies. i’ll eat that shit in one setting. cuz i like to eat and have no restraint. woops i meant one sitting. the setting is Easy Mode.

so yeah back to the point: i scarcely had to deal with that bullshit but it’s willlld how entitled and apparently Compelled people feel to comment on your appearance if you’re fat lmao.....like the weird awkwardness some ppl talk about it with, like, i promise YOU brought this up all on your very own lol!!!! and ah the possible contempt, another delicious flavor of This Shit I Promise I Did Not Ask For Your Opinion About But You Are Just REACHING For That Chance To Say It. and the supposedly-well-meaning commentary about oh congrats on how you’re feeling like maybe you wanna die now!!! when later on you’ve even more obviously got some shit going on when your all a’s/b’s/occasional c grade-having ass suddenly hits a damn wall? you KNOW all the adults are gonna ignore this and possibly react antagonistically and the only thing anyone will do is contact your abusers? mmhm. now this post has dipped into the realm of “when ur abused really there’s zero guarantee anyone will do anything and in fact it’s so likely that nobody will like, ever in your under-18 (and over) existence, and nothing’s in place to Truly Help b/c there’s so many ways parents can inflict terrible shit on their kids with no way necessarily to intervene. and my dumb ass was so isolated that a major turning point i had towards realizing i was abused was a movie i saw when i was uhh 17? 18? i knew i was real unhappy and i was Not getting along with my parents and a lot of it was Some Real Bullshit but i figured it was just Whatever and/or just my own fault or whatever and then all of a sudden it was like, damn hang on, my third grade teacher could’ve realized something!!! lot of people could’ve at least realized and maybe had no way to really do anything and yet could’ve told me some shit i had to go however many years before just slowly starting to figure out for my damn self

uhhh tldr uhhhhh people are shitty, trying to be less shitty is a great goal to always have in mind,

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zetina · 6 years

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hey i watched Venom and it made me wanna rewatch Kill la Kill

i had many racing thoughts after seeing it and i figured i might as well barf them all over tumblr instead of making a mile-long twitter thread. i’ll try to... write with proper capitalization and stuff now...

whut... It was a fun watch, which is why I probably give a fuck in the first place. But booooooy it takes its time getting there. I’d have... shrunk the whole introduction bit by a mile and used that extra time to make me believe that Venom and Brock have a bond which makes the former wanna save Earth.

Like, is establishing Brock’s previous happy life even needed? Who gives a fuck how cute his girlfriend is? Do we even need all that stuff about Big Bad Corporation? I guesssss it’s important in that... this is relevant to current society sense. But it took so much damn time. And because the plot is like “Hey, environment, but at the cost of being inhumane” or w/e, the “the two losers who bonded” angle doesn’t shine much.

Plus, not entirely... understanding the powers here... Does Venom have a “spider sense” or not? He can tell bad buys are approaching, but then he can’t sense other things. What are his limits in terms of controlling Brock?? His senses??? Also: “I know everything about you - I’m in your head. ...Who’s Annie?”

AND BOI THE SEQUEL-BAITING... I thought maybe they weren’t doing Carnage ‘cause it’d cost too much... But I GUESS IT’S ‘CAUSE THEY WANTED TO DO A SEQUEL OKAY. How convenient is it that Brock’s GF was compatible with Venom too? Or is that a statement on how compatible all three of them are? THREESOME? POLYGAMY? WHY THE FUCK IS VENOM GIVING BROCK GOOD RELATIONSHIP ADVICE WHAT THE HECK

and zet tried to write a fanfic

OKAY SO... Here’s what I thought could be another way to make a Venom movie. It’s nothing original, and it’s a lot of my bias talking... I’m just spitballing here.

So, let’s say we nick the sequel plans and just do a Venom vs. Carnage movie from the start. Reasons I believe it would work:

Riot’s boring - he looks just like Venom anyway who cares.

No time wasted on long-ass introductions for how the symbiotes got here. Spider-man 3 just had it crash randomly. What else do you need, really?

Contrasts Eddie with his counterpart, elevating his good traits and maybe actually resonating with people as the rise of a downtrodden underdog.

More time for Venom. Venom Venom Venom.

If you’ve read/watched Inuyashiki, you might know where I’m going with this. One loser gets power - refuses to let it run rampant doing evil and indulging desires. Other loser gets power - embraces the power to act on violent desires. (Except in Inuyashiki it’s not a loser who goes on killing.)

So while we get Carnage being... Well, carnage... We’d have Eddie trying not to be an arsehole. Eventually, Eddie and Venom bond as individuals as they did in the movie, but enough to potentially make me cry if Venom sacrificed himself (I wouldn’t buy it anyway). As in... I’d be able to understand why Venom changed his tune??? He likes Eddie...? Okay... I need more wholesome host x symbiote friendship, thank you.

I’d start the movie smackdab at Eddie’s lowest point - shamed out of New York, bumming around in SanFran, an ex who’s doing just fine without him while no one gives him the time of day. Something like that. Then the “6 months later” wouldn’t be needed either... Where Riot just got... really attached to being the old lady and hanging around in Malaysia that whole time, I guess.

Oh, and of course Venom would bite off the heads of bad, bad criminals lol.

Obviously this isn’t a full plot... I’m bad at that part;;;; I just like spitting out ideas and themes and scenes, but don’t always know how to fill things in.

Anyway, I think I got it all out of my system. I’m sorry if you actually read all of this and it was awful and boring, haha~

#venom #venom movie #rambling #purely zet #tldr it was fun but dumb and made me wanna see more parasite x host friendship #there was that YA abt parasites wasn't there #oh and i guess i gotta finally read Parasyte #yeah that's it #that's the one #remind me of more stories with this kinda stuff

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stray-tori · 6 years

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| 2017 Personal Rewind |

for two hours over here, actually. But it’s time for me to ramble about it! But I won’t make you scroll over it for an endless time, instead I’m offering you to read it by clicking keep reading ;)

FANDOMS

Okay, so fandom-wise, this year has been quite Cartoon-dominated. I think I watched like 10 cartoons, but only 2 anime. And that’s with someone who actually called cartoons out for how childish they can be and how they don’t fit my humour (I’m all about them anime-humour apparantly). So I myself was surprised when I noticed how many cartoons I watched this year:

Steven Universe I watched this one before 2017, and 2017 had the longest hiatus for SU ever, so uhhh yeah it wasn’t the best year but we had the Zoo and Abduction Arcs SOOOO yay? Like most, I have noticed a drop in excitement, but I still love this show for things it does so I can’t be too mad.

Star vs the forces of evil I am not sure if I watched season 1+2 this year or last (damn my memory), but I know I wasn’t too fond of this show. I didn’t think it was bad, it simply didn’t fascinate me the same way SU did. Even with battle for Mewni, I only liked the Eclipsa and Moon Parts and not much beyond that. In the new season I’ve grown to really like Tomstar for some reason, but I still think the episodes are too random at times and there is sometimes too little connection between them. But maybe I’m just too used to SU being slow-paced that I can’t handle how fast Star is jumping between events.

Voltron I'm not sure if S2 was this year or last year, but any way Voltron has been part of my 2017. I’ve had a phase where I really shipped Plance due to the Ouran High School Host Club Vibes it gave me back when I watched S1 and this year it decided to come back at me. Else, the material has been great! I love the series, and how serious it is and how it doesn’t focus on romantic love AT ALL. I really like that, even if I started this Section with saying what I shipped. I’m so hyped Matt is back and the Keith almost-sacrifice scene really got me like I actually thought they were gonna do it. They never get me with almost-deaths. NEVER.

Wakfu As Season 3 came closer so grew my expectations. When I finally watched it, I was blown away. I won’t sugar-coat that the Time-Paradox thing was 1000% Bullshit, but it won’t stop me from loving this season, even if it had it’s weak elements. But I just loved the rest too much and while I am picky with it, I can’t get myself to not enjoy it (which I’m really happy about because I hate it when some elements ruin something for me). If you wanna hear more of me rambling, go here for the post and here for the s3 tag.

Miraculous Oh I have a love-hate relationship with this show. I can see the potential and all, but it’s just too episodic for me, relies a bit too much on the cute love-square that changes progress every episode. The characters don’t always feel like what is established about them (for example, Adrien loved Ladybug, yet in the new season he KEEPS being overly nice to Marinette like dude sure you’re a bit oblivious but ughhh) and there are no conflicts present for more than one episode. I really don’t like how they lured me in with the first episode being story-heavy and then keeping nothing happening for like 5 episodes. The only episodes I can even remember what actually really happened were “The Collector” bc of the obvious Gabriel-Adrien-Drama, the episode where her aunt (?) visits bc I heard she’s plot-relevant, but I don’t see how tbh; the episode with the Owl because it actually went out of the usual formular for an episode and Robustus because it had some story I guess in the last few seconds. I really hope the season picks up soon, I’m like 10% invested haha.

Tangled The Series Holy fucking shit. Like I started watching it while doing other stuff and I started right before “Queen for a day” aired, so by the time I caught up, I could actually watch that episode and what can I say? The animation is beautiful, and you think it’d be a cute little series and suddenly there’s death and everyone’s hopeless and betraying and ??? WHAT HAPPENED. Varian and Cass are super enjoyable and I love the way the series is going! I’m super sad it’s going to end so soon! If you wanna know more of my thoughts, go here.

Teen Titans I BINGE-WATCHED THIS IN LIKE 1-2 WEEK/S. While I had to study so yas. Well I have to thank Tangled for the short hiatus I guess, because I was like “Man I need something else to watch then” and was like “I could just watch 1 or 2 episodes of Teen Titans each Saturday, I wanted to start that for a while!” and suddenly I was 10 episodes in. I love the characters, I love Raven, I love Star and I love Robstar as you probably noticed. I was surprised how much plot the show actually had (and how brutal Robin could be if he wanted) and I never really found episodes annoying except the ones that focussed extremely on other teams or superheroes, I’m just not invested enough in the DC Universe to care about these guys haha. I thought S3 and S5 were kinda weak and it also bothered my how Characters sometimes really shift in their characterstics SOMETIMES to further the plot. But it never got to the point that it annoyed me extremely. Also it doesn’t even feel like “Stranded” happened at all in S5 cri hahahahaha. Also I don’t know where to place Trouble in Tokyo but I wasn’t too fond of the movie anyway so I guesssss it doesn’t matter. I liked it, I really did, but it felt a little too straight forward sometimes and depending on the placement to the seasons, it doesn’t fit a lot either. BUT that’s nitpicking.

So yeah, anime-wise, I don’t even know what I watched this year and what was last year. I just remember Akatsuki no Yona, which was fine I guess. Reverse-Harem for the win! Though it’s the first time I actually found the main love interest so unlikeable I ended up rooting for someone else completely even though I know who was going to be end-game. I’m honestly just sick of these man-ly, seducing men who play hard and are all like STRANGE honestly?? Like I wouldn’t want to be treated like he treats Yona. I ended up really liking her and the guy who looks like a girl (Yoon) together; I just loved how Yona influenced him and made him stand up for them on the boat and everything.

PERSONAL LIFE

This year, especially the second half, has been quite hard on me. My family has been horrible the whole year and I finally feel like it gets to me. I’m just... tired. I’m just numb. I’m so good at pretending I’m happy --- even to myself. But it tired me out and I finally start to notice it. I’m selfish, I know that, but I couldn’t even get myself to be sad - and that’s... an excuse. I know that. I just don’t want to actually be sad. I wanna enjoy my life, I don’t wanna drag myself down, but where did get me?

Anyway, on a more friends-based level, I guess it went good? It was a good year. It was one where I found new friends, deepened some other friendships... and feel like I’ve lost another one... Maybe some of you noticed the time when I got together with a friend for a short amount of time because we both felt like it was where we wanted to go. It went good, really good - at least that’s what I thought. It was slow sure, but for the most part I realized that what I really want is someone close, not necessarily a romantic interest.

More or less out of the blue that ended per text message. And after that, I half fell apart and half felt like it was no problem. And then I really began to get socially paranoid. I was paranoid before, don’t get me wrong. But suddenly I felt like everyone (especially he) was avoiding me, like they pretended to like me. And always when I wanted to express it to him, it stopped. It was like he was playing with me, but I know it couldn’t have been that, because he couldn’t read my thoughts after all. It got better in like November/December too and I hope it stays that way, and maybe one year to do in 2018 is to actually address my feelings -- even if it may end up making everything even more awkward and maybe ruining how good we have gotten.

On the bright side, I’ve gotten closer to two other friends and have made like 3 new friends this year whom I hope to grow closer to in 2018.

ALL IN ALL

I can’t say this has been the best year, especially the second half. There were too many self-doubts, too many crisis, too many thoughts I’d like to stop, too much school-stress and too much emotional garbage. But at the same time, there was many to balance it out. Most of that being friends, old and new ones.

#original post #tori talks about shit nobody asked for #tori talks about herself

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captn3 · 5 years

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putting this under a read more. its a vent. thing. im just feeling bad today. you dont have to read all of it or any of it at all im just putting it here cause i need to put it out somewhere otherwise im just gonna have a breakdown. its long btw. so. idk.

hm. sorry to vent but like. today’s been a shitfest. like. nothing has gone well today. at all. and it just keeps getting worse cause for some reason my mind just keeps bringing up shit that i dont wanna deal with but i probably should! and then it gets worse. fucking. god damn it. shit that.. i don’t know what to do about. like. i know that im a lesbian. been questioning for like. forever. but now i guess my brain decided today of all fucking days. a bad day. is the time to wonder: am i okay with she/her pronouns or do i wanna use she/they? am i nb? huh? and like. god fucking DAMN it i dont wanna deal with this shit. i THINK im cis. i think i am. BUT am i. am i? i dont fucking know and i dont wanna think about it when im a fucking second away from crying my fucking eyes out. i fucking hate everything. god damn it. god fucking damn it. fuck. i thought maybe making sure my about makes sense would like. fucking help me get through this but then i see the fucking “memo. she/her,” all that bullshit and then i just die! and then im also like “lmao you just wanna use they/them cause being cis is fucking Bad on tumblr people will think you’re a piece of shit” and like.. no. that’s not it. i really do fucking think i might be nonbinary. i fucking hate this. i hate this so much god damn it im so fucking mad. i know that if. im nb. wanna identify as nb because i am nb. am i? i dont fucking know. but if i am. everythings gonna fall apart. fuck, the way im phrasing this someone’s gonna call me out cause it sounds weird like im weird and bad and evil and shit but im just.. confused. i dont know whats going on. i dont. i dont i want to but i dont. god damn it i hate everything i just wish i knew what the fuck to do. i keep fucking. bottling up my emotions and thoughts cause i dont really have anyone to talk to. and when i make these posts i feel like a fucking nuisance and my followers hate it but i have to do SOMETHING i have to fucking talk about it somewhere. im sorry. yall probably arent reading this but just putting it out there somewhere helps me and makes me feel a little better. i dont know why or how but it just does. i dont fucking know. i feel like shit. i feel like if i say “im gonna.. try to use she/they” today of all days ppl are gonna be Suspicious. because. im having a bad day today. i dont know what the fuck to do i hate this i hate this so much. questioning my identity also reminded me of shit relating to my health condition and! basically i have to take either estrogen or testosterone because my body doesnt. really make any hormones. so! here’s a fun little fact that i fucking hate! i havent had puberty yet. at all. because of my stupid fucking health condition god decided to give me. so i have to take one of the two hormones in order to have it. but guesssss what. im uncomfortable with having boobs. so i dont wanna take estrogen. but i also dont wanna take testosterone cause i. know for sure that im definitely not masc. and would be uncomfortable with taking it. but if i dont take either. apparently my bones will become super fragile and i can break them, like, super easily! so you’re probably saying. just get top surgery if you get boobs!! duh!! but! im, according to my mom: a stubborn child. i dont. want to do that. i just dont wanna take either. and like. the situation hasnt been talked about too much lately cause its not like im gonna get super fragile bones so suddenly but.......... i just HAD to remember it now. sorry, if, any of that. doesnt make sense. it probably doesnt. i. hate a lot of stuff, about life. and.. 90% is cause of my health condition. and. im sorry. if you read this whole thing. but if you did. thank you, too. that you wanted to listen to my problems. again. im sorry. its pretty rough. im just gonna go back to making art posts and reblogging funny stuff soon. cause i know thats probably the only reason people follow me.

#memo's ted talk #vent #negative #dont reblog #i think its kinda obvious but.#jic.#there's probably tags. i should put on this but i dont fucking know?? if there are please tell me #am i oversharing? probably! fuck it though i need to talk about this otherwise all my thoughts will be too much for just me to handle #but uh i updated my about if yall are curious! thats good

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shakenbaeky · 7 years

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4., 15. and 37. for the writing ask meme!!

Eyyy, thanks for the ask friend! :D Sorry I’m just now answering this ahh, I completely forgot I had it tucked away in my drafts!!!!4. How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Care to share one of them? Oooh, huh. I generally have a lot of ideas or scenarios that I like to think of but I never usually think about actually writing them ahaha. But I do have two ideas that are the most prevalent swimming around in my brain.

The first one is a Sam/Rafe fic I’ve thought about writing based on a conversation I had with @jilldrawblog wherein Sam and Rafe are A Thing™ during those two years together before Sam leaves and hecks everything up in the classic Drake fashion ahaha. But, idk…And the other one really isn’t an idea or anything, because I haven’t thought about a particular paring or fandom to go with, but it’s based off of the song Northern Lights by Kate Boy. I discovered it from Watch Dogs 2 and I’ve been obsessed with it ever since haha. It’s got some cool lyrics that I’d like to incorporate into a fic somehow. Or maybe a video, idk Colour in, colour outSee my breath and feel the ice-white heatPick me up, slam me down‘Cause my heart is hitting every beatAnd I follow blindThrough a tunnel mind we meetAnd it’s burning brightAnd I feel it cry for me

15. If you could choose one of your fics to be filmed, which would you choose? Oh god, most of my fics are horrible and wouldn’t do well as films omg. I guesssss my Climbing Class Until Dawn fic? Hold Me Close (Til I Hit the Ground) it’s one of the fics I’m most fond and proud of, as well as one of the most popular of mine! And at least this way Josh would’ve gotten a better treatment and ending than the game gave him (side-eyeing you Supermassive Games)

37.Talk about your current wips. So. Many. Wips. senD HELP. Ahhh I seriously have an entire list of fics that I’ve wanted to work on/have worked on/plan on working on/etc. Of course it’s stretched across many fandoms but still, some of them will probably never see the light of day. But I do have a few I’ve been working on lately. Or, I would and SHOULD be working on, that is. In truth I’ve done nothing more than open up a doc and stare at it for like the past month or so. I blame my depression it’s been quite the bitch lately. and the fact that I’m looking in to starting college, which is stressful and scary asldjkfasd ANYWAYS.

Untitled NSFW Harry/Nate fic - This fic takes place in the Istanbul Palace museum during the second Uncharted game. Nate and Harry get stuck in a rather…compromising position…and Nate has a serious case of Not Now Boner going on. He really hopes that Harry doesn’t notice… (spoiler alert he does). Smut ensues oops ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Untitled NSFW? Probably? Sam/Rafe fic - Again, this is another thing that I talked about with Jill, affectionately coined as the Country Club AU. Rafe’s dad owns a country club (go figure, am i right) and as such Rafe has to show up and make a good impression to his father’s business associates and mingle and whatnot blah blah, real boring stuff. Except, there’s a new towel boy (guess who ehehe) that was hired recently and he catches Rafe’s eye…And suddenly going to the country club isn’t much of a chore anymore. Essentially, Rafe gets a major case of Thirstitus wink wonk.

I still have a Sam/Rafe Fake Dating AU fic or two that I need to make, one of which is Sam has to painstakingly explain the whole Not-Dating (totally dating, you nerd) situation to Nate. Except he already knows. Well, he thinks he knows the situation. Miscommunications are had, exasperation ensues. The Waves Hit My Head (title subject to change) - This is actually the only fic on this list that isn’t Uncharted, and yet it’s still related to the series lmao. OKAY so, it’s an IronQrow fic about the animated show by Rooster Teeth RWBY right, and essentially it’s an Uncharted AU that takes place during the fourth game, starting at the prison. Being as it’s basically select characters from RWBY in the place of the Uncharted characters personalities are different and it’s pretty canon divergent and such. But like, it’s def gonna be fun to mess around with once I get it going haha.[Fic Writer Meme] I’m still taking questions for this if anyone’s interested in hmu just send some my way! :D

#electricitytrick #ask challenge #asks #my stuff #long post #writing

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