#the dysphoria was INCREDIBLE

[silverislander]

man. looking back at old travel photos and like... man i HATED that fucking choir uniform and anyone with eyes could tell hdjkGHFJD

#i thought i was doing such a good job hiding it but. no i was not 😭 the eyes really say 'help me' #they had gendered uniforms bought brand new that year and for the men it was these very fancy tuxes that they all hated bc warm/itchy #and for the women it was a satin gown with a ribbon necklace and i wasnt able to ask to wear the mens for So many reasons at the time #they were very elegant im sure but like. my butch ass in this red floor length gown lookin like a reject from jane eyre. #my hair was still short back then so at least i had that but. whoo #the dysphoria was INCREDIBLE #levi.txt #our regular uniforms were fine i loved those but these were the fancy ones and i Hated it #plus having the choir moms be able to tell how miserable i was and trying to fix that by telling me i looked so pretty LMAO #maam thats SO sweet truly but im not and never have been going for pretty the way you mean it. you are making it so much worse

[professorcalculusstanaccount]

last year my mum said I have the same round face as Tintin so I should cosplay him. unfortunately she was right. I'm even the same height as him at 5"6 🥲

I went to comic con with my mate @tenderlyhands! They're cosplaying Midas Papos, a Greek merchant from the 1961 live action film Tintin and the Golden Fleece. He basically shows up, seriously serves with his amazing button up, gets told his friend died then is immediately shot. guy deserves a break so he went to comic con after recovering I guess

#tintin is what my dysphoria tells me i look like and i guess i never miss #we have not found any bedbugs on the tube yet #tintin #cosplay #snowy #milou #midas papos #my mate embodies his swag so incredibly well lol #people at the con were commenting on how cool they looked despite having no clue who they were cosplaying as #midas shows up so briefly but he left such an impact on us #my wig was such a struggle tho i should never go ginger

[eve-was-framed]

still trying to find out what the fuck “feeling like a woman” even means. i have yet to see someone explain it in a way that actually makes sense and doesn’t just come down to liking feminine things. like if you were to ask me if i “feel like a woman” or if i “identify as a woman” i would say no because literally what does that mean. i don’t feel it, i just am it. that’s like asking me what it feels like to have brown eyes

#not saying gender dysphoria isn’t an incredibly real thing btw #however I think there is a difference between dysphoria and “feeling like a woman #because feeling like a woman is not a thing #but I do believe you can have an internal sense of conflict with the sex you were born as

[mechagic]

Marcille is trans, but since she's half elf and was mostly surrounded by elves she didn't really have to transition that much, since you know elves are very fem

Every time someone tells her "hey you look masculine" she would just say that it came from her human father's side (if shes comfortable saying that) or that the lion decided to fuck her over one last time (as a joke)

Extra ramblings in the tags bc why not 👍

#rambling #marcille donato #Marcille #Dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #Delicious in dungeon #Trans marcille <3 #Btw this is because elf societyis incredibly feminine #I wonder if different trans people in the different races experience dysphoria differently #There wasn’t that much dysphoria for marcille since all of her species looks incredibly femme #It was less how she presented (as i said earlier most elves are femme) but more around her genitalia #I say this because of how she views herself as a result of being half elf half human #Wow that was a lot #I might ramble about another characters gender later #Most likely laios' gender - you know how it is

[thermodynamic-comedian]

My silly headcanon is that Jonah didn't know that Elias was a trans man (without bottom surgery) when he did the weird possession thing so he just went "Wait.. Where's my dick?? Why didn't I know about this??" And the eye went "Dude don't be transphobic"

this doesn't really go against elias' canon gender presentation, but i do like it. it's fun.

#and its also added complexity to my already incredibly complex jonah magnus gender headcanon #(transfem genderfluid otherkin she/he/it + they/them sometimes. #mild gender dysphoria about her chest and hands extreme species dysphoria about its mind and how it works.) #so accidentally possessing a trans man would. further complicate her Gender Feelings(tm) #tma #the magnus archives #tma headcanons

[thepunkmuppet]

idk about anyone else, but i really do want to get to the point in representation and fiction where we can actually have a trans villain.

and they’d be allowed to be the villain; they wouldn’t seen as problematic / bad rep by the community and allies, and not used as an example of how trans people are evil and horrible by transphobes (and of course not written in either of those ways either)

they do a catastrophic time travel spell to rewrite their own history, they summon an eldritch god and sacrifice people to it so that it will give them their perfect body - do you get what i mean?? a trans character that would be complex and tragic and layered but, ultimately, the villain.

idk man, i feel like i’m gonna write this one day. trans people obviously are not evil, but wanting to be pretty or stay young or change previous is often a villain’s motivations - why not use that specific and painful trans angst??

#also no i don’t mean something stupid like a trans woman wanting to kill all men because of her dysphoria #i mean like that recent episode of the magnus protocol #the woman doing horrible violent things to herself just to get her perfect face and body #i just need it to bad!!!!!! #like trans people are so complicated and the trans experience can at times be so incredibly hard #i just love it i LOVE it i need this character to exist so badly #text post #rambling #meta #trans #transgender #transsexual #lgbt #lgbtq #lgbtq+ #lgbtqia

[donttouchtheneednoggle]

realising you're trans is like realising you've been driving in a clown car all your life and infinite clowns of misery and uncomfortableness and dysphoria have been squished into what looks like a completely normal car and once they start coming out they don't stop

#me rereading a vent fic about chest dysphoria i started in 2021 #the same me who didin't accept i had chest dysphoria til this year 💀 #'oh yeah that was just a phase' no bestie you repressed it to hell #and once again i WAS trans in 2021 i was nonbinary i was just also blocking EVERYTHING out #mine #gender adventures with neednoggle #i need to be nicer to myself ive only properly known for coming up to 4 months #vs 21 years of not knowing #im doing ok #i think im still enby now as well #jus in different way #some of it is hilarious anyway #i mean how much transmasc fic can i both read and write over several years #feeling incredibly comforted by and connected to #in a way nonbinary fic did not make me feel #and not have something click? #just feeling like a bad enby™ #yeah all my transmasc fic? none of it was written with a jot of self awareness except half my bill and frank one #honeslty i think they were what tipped the scale 🤣 #ok enough outing myself for today lmao

[transmascvash]

Yknow what huge fan of projection makes sanji transmasc and hits him with the "women are perfect and good and everyone wants to be one so something is wrong with me" brand of dysphoria

#one piece #zeffson sanji #op sanji #black leg sanji #wanna make it clear that i am not tryin to take away from people who hc transfem sanji!!!! you guys r incredibly cool and i need to #hc characters w different pronouns than they have in canon more #i just hit all my favs w the transmasc beam and also this specific kind of dysphoria is something people don't rlly talk ab tbh #feelin like you're inherently lesser for being a man because you CHOSE to be one and not keep being a woman when women are perfect #its a weird as hell but rlly strong brand of dysphoria and i have to put it on one character I like

[tempests-bards-and-birds]

Adrien Agreste from Season 1 to Season 5

#as you can probably tell this is very self-indulgent #which is also why it is incredibly unoriginal lmao #anyway #was feeling like shit so being able to look at a collection of blorbo moments was my solution #adrien agreste is one of my go-to dysphoria cures idk why #ml #mlb #miraculous #miraculous ladybug #miraculous tales of ladybug and chat noir #ml gifs #ml gif #adrien agreste #chat noir #adrichat #mledit #ml edit #ml stormy weather #ml evolution #ml sapotis #ml the puppeteer 2 #ml gorizilla #ml glaciator 2 #ml shanghai

[officialpenisenvy]

Sorry if this sounds ignorant, but couldn't you just be non-binary or something like that? There are plenty of non-binary lesbians out there

i am nonbinary, in a sense! i definitely perceive myself outside the boundaries of manhood and womanhood, i identify outside of that binary, so by definition i am nonbinary, and i have used the specific label of "nonbinary lesbian" for a handful of years until very recently. right now im a person much less concerned with my interiority and individuality and much more concerned with the place i want to occupy in the world: the fact is i live in a society where it is impossible to exist as anything other than male or female, and as much as i hope to see that change within my lifespan, pragmatically i have to think about how i want to exist in the world, how i want other people to interact with me. i don't care how strangers interact with me, and i enjoy being seen as a man, but i also want to be seen as a lesbian by fellow lesbians, and i want my experience of systematic oppression to be as nonexistent as possible; in a society where i have been assigned female and have to decide whether to remain female or transition to male, being a masculine lesbian woman is the only thing that can give me a level of masculinity, a lesbian dating pool and as little transphobic oppression as possible. if any of these wants were different, for example if i was attracted to men or wanted access to a straight man's dating pool, i would very likely transition to male, simply because the transphobia alone wouldn't be enough to deter me.

so yeah, that's kinda where im at right now! as you can see this is all very broad, of course in real life everything varies with different people and contexts: many close friends know im nonbinary and understand that my outwardly womanhood is a matter of presentation moreso than identity (a sentence that could be judith butlered to hell and back), and of course in queer spaces i can potentially be as nonbinary and genderfucky as i want. i hope this is understandable enough, but do feel free to ask for clarifications!

#i also want to add that i am incredibly unhappy with everything and do not find mine to be a healthy or optimistic approach #i am in a profoundly doomeristic rut and i think there is no hope for anything. my understanding of my own self reflects that. #also this doesn't explicitly touch on my intense dysphoria but it's very clearly there if you squint

[jaqdawks]

Landlord’s toddler, who is usually a very silent little angel, is letting all hell break loose upstairs and I’m sat here listening to the thumps thinking about my consultation to have my tubes tied next months

And like, I don’t hate toddlers. Shits wild man, I’d cry like that too if I didn’t understand why life is the way it is with my mere 2 years of experience. But idk, looking over the stuff for the appointment while this is happening feels poetic somehow

#fr tho I don’t have kids #I just don’t want to have one because pregnancy and the concept of being pregnant #is incredibly dysphoria enducing for me

[vyeoh]

Somebody please stop me from having crushes on queer girls who I'd never have a chance with

#take me out either way works #anyways 🥰 i keep making friends with people i tend to catch feelings for because #haha if you cant date them because you've got no game at least you can have some meaningful connection right lmao #and that happens to be incredibly competent queer people who'd 1) never date me (haha imposter syndrome) or #2) never see me as their boyfriend (imposter syndrome 2: gender dysphoria) #anyways. give me a few weeks to get over it. hopefully i don't fuck it up #vio.rant #asjdwjdkdkslsk

[cerise-on-top]

Mental Check!!!!!

How are you?

Have you drank water today?

Have you got 8 hours of sleep?

Have you ate today?

Please know your so loved by many!!!!

Hey there :3

I am doing great today! Yesterday I had some really nice gender euphoria! Nothing feels better than being a man, in all honesty :D

Thank you for checking in with me, I did drink water today, ate and had some good 11~ hours of sleep last night! So yeah, I am doing well, thank you c:

Hope you're doing well too, though!

#cherry chats #lovely moots hello! #hope you're doing well too! #My father may not be accepting of me being trans but we stay silly :3 #been having such nice days when dysphoria wasn't ruining everything! #I actually started working out as well! it makes me feel really masculine and good!! #Someday soon I'm gonna go to the gym as well and feel even more masculine :3 #I already have a vision of what I want to look like once I take T and I am actively working towards that already! #just thinking about being perceived as a man makes me so incredibly giddy actually!! so yeah lots of gender euphoria :3 #transgenderism is actually really good! I feel so free now!

[cloud-based-and-rainpilled]

Remember kiddos, people will put you on a blocklist and try to ✨slander ✨ you because they don't read your tags if you have a nuanced opinion about anything

Obligatory "I'm not a terfy-werfy, not a racist, I just like shitposting about gay angels and David Tennant's fabulous existence"

I got called a 'crypto terf' lmao does that mean I get free bitcoin now

#gets called a terf for agreeing that headcanoning the Gay Angels as nonbinary and gay men are both correct. unreal #anyway i followed this person but now i see they're mad at me #(I literally talked about my personal experience dating trans people and their dysphoria with PIV and I got called a terf because I added a #incredible #now i see why certain ppl's comments don't show up even if i get notifications that I was added (i've been blocked y'all!) #whatever people only followed me because like 4 things i've posted accidentally caught the Gay algorithm #ppl will see a gnc bisexual woman making jokes about sucking girldick and try a wholeass campaign because they can't read tags #i love this website #transphobia #trans #good omens #and it was a good omens blog and i liked them!! whatever you're lame lmao #so you can f-slur in your username can i call you a homophobe? hmmmmm #thnk u to @aqu-atic for showing me lmao I have like 2 followers anyway so idgaf #ineffable husbands #nonbinary #terf #tumblr drama #blocklist #next on my bingo is being called a zionist. never talk about the middle east but i can feel it in my bones #david tennant #ngl i'm more surprised i haven't been yelled at/accused of shipping DT&MS lmao #i commented on ppl who pretend to be gay for fun as well as if ppl weren't doing that to being bi back in 2003 like #zero sense of humor. i thought the boring Heroes left this website for the bird app years ago #find this later miracle aligner

[transsexualcoriolanus]

Paralytic States by Against Me! is such a fucking song. It’s the repeated “she” in the first verse. It’s the hotel setting. It’s “our waking life’s just a living dream”. It’s “our waking life’s just a living dream”. It’s “she spent the last years of her life running from the boy she used to be”. It’s “a fucked up kind of feminine”. It’s “in her dysphoria’s reflection she still saw her mother’s son”. I am not okay

#do you ever just listen to a song and realise just how incredibly transgender you are #against me! #transgender dysphoria blues #laura jane grace

[devon-the-fool]

Rejection sensitive dysphoria is one of the most infuriating, frustrating, and distressing things I've had to put up with as a neurodivergent. Like, oh yeah my friend let me know I was upsetting them and set up a perfectly reasonable boundary, without even using any angry or aggressive language. Guess I'm just gonna spiral and cry and bite myself and feel like a miserable unlovable pice of shit. And then like an hour passes and I'm literally 100% fine. Like. Can we just Not Do That? Please, brain?

#devon talks #rejection sensitive dysphoria #rsd #rsd is a bitch #its so incredibly frustrating