#the live version is even better

[disguisedmermaid]

this song is so simple but it helped my anxiety sooooo much back in 2018, instantly calmed me down

#breathin is about..uh..breathing #spotify #the live version is even better #ariana grande #breathin

[quietbirdee]

being haunted by a person you’ve never met and never will, someone you’ll never actually be

but you’ve got people who love you, maybe it’s gonna be okay

#the owl house #toh #hunter toh #toh hunter #flapjack toh #caleb wittebane #sylphee art #when you get made in someone's image in order to be a better version of them #but you could never actually live up to however they were #the standards are impossible and you don't know the rules #and you don't even know if you count as a person anymore #but you've got those who love you and that's gotta count for something #anyway!!!!!!!!!! i'm incredibly emotional about hunter and flapjack!!!!!!!!!!! #flapjack loves hunter so much #and he had another person before but that doesn't mean he loves hunter less!!! #i am in shambles about them ;u; #toh spoilers #technically...

[project-sekai-facts]

How are we feeling about ensekai’s emu3 translation!!! (I’m mad)

(if you remember the 3 whole posts i made when asahi got de-gayed on EN you'll know i am mad too and that this is probably going to get long)

i don't like to be too cynical but it was so obvious that they were going to change that line, i had a feeling since the event first released on JP and after the incident with Asahi where I went through and tracked down multiple other examples of EN removing queer subtext it became clear to me that in no way shape or form was "emu-chan really loves nene-chan" making it to EN without getting changed. what i didn't expect was them changing Nene's line after Luka's comment, which actually makes this whole situation far worse than many of their other instances of toning down queer subtext.

for anyone who isn't aware of what happened, in chapter 5 of the current Emu event, there's a scene where Nene, Rui and the Virtual Singers are talking about what would cheer Emu up. The vsingers all talk about how much Emu loves spending time with Nene, leading to the following exchange

If you look for them, any fan TL of this scene will be something similar to this:

Luka: ...Fufu. Emu-chan really loves Nene-chan, doesn't she? Nene: Th-that's nothing special...

EN's official translation is this:

So what's the issue? I'll start with Luka's part. In the original text, she uses the word daisuki, which can mean to "like a lot" or "love". It's a word you will see frequently in the idol/idol-adjacent genre of games, due to its ambiguity in that it can be read as either platonic or romantic when used towards a person, and often will be used in ambiguous situations so that it's harder to confirm the writers' intentions either way. so here, fans of the emu/nene ship could view the fact that emu loves spending her time with nene as more on the romantic side, but people who don't like the ship could view it as platonic and move on.

while they didn't translate daisuki directly, Luka's line still works, and still contains the ambiguity that works as ship tease in the original text. it's a perfectly fine localisation that still conveys the original intent. despite that, there is something to be said about EN's consistent refusal to translate daisuki as love in most instances when it's not used on An/Kohane (but then again, EN has literally teased An/Kohane on their twitter account so is it all that surprising?).

Here's some examples:

Aibou no koto ga daisuki de / he loves his partner -> he cares about his partner very much (The Power of Unity chapter 7 when Kaito is comparing Arata to Akito and Toya)

HARUKA-CHAN, DAISUKI DAYOOOO!!! / HARUKA-CHAN, I LOOOOOVEEE YOU!!! -> You're the best!!! (Dear Me, As I Was Back Then chapter 4 when minori is at an ASRUN concert. this one isn't actually that great of a localisation)

Honachan no koto daisuki dakara. Kore de iinda yo. / I love Honachan, so this is fine. -> I want what's best for her. And this is it. (Leo/need main story chapter 14 after Saki tells Honami she won't bother her anymore)

Minna daisuki de - taisetsuna tomodachi na no / I love them all - they're my dearest friends -> They're all amazing, and very dear to me. (Leo/need main story chapter 17. this isn't good either)

What's particularly amusing about that last one is that there's a second official translation for it that I assume was done by JP staff (since EN never promoted doing the Journey to Bloom subs like they did back when they provided subs for Petit SEKAI) that actually keeps the word daisuki as love.

Yeah. I love all my friends - and they mean the world to me.

It's a better localisation than the official EN team one.

Questionable localisation choices aside, Luka's line is fine and is actually in line with the original. The issue with this localisation very much lies with Nene's part, because that is an entirely new line.

In the original text, Nene's "that's just normal" or "that's nothing special" or however you choose to TL it, is meant to be her questioning Luka's statement, since all the things that the other vsingers said that Emu liked were pretty normal things like going shopping and playing video games with nene. To Nene, these things are normal activities for them to do together, so she gets embarrassed by the fact that Luka concludes from that information that Emu loves Nene. When I dissect it like that I think you can really tell what the writers were going for here lol.

"That's just us being friends" does still convey the idea that Nene thinks these activities aren't anything out of the ordinary and she isn't sure why the vsingers are picking these out as some of Emu's favorite things to do, but it's very different from the original line. "But those are just normal things we do together" is something I just came up with on the spot, but it's a lot closer to the original text and still conveys the same meaning. The fact they changed the line to "that's just us being friends" is, honestly, not even subtle that they're covering up queer subtext. The original scene was very clearly written in as ship tease, and EN mentioning "friends" for no reason, especially since the word nor anything close to it was not used in the original, is instantly a red flag because it's like the go-to for queerbaiting and censorship. This was intentional. There was no need for them to specify that the relationship is platonic, Luka's part is ambiguous for a reason so that fans can view it how they like.

Just to top all this off, here's Rin's original line just before that Luka+Nene interaction:

Oh, and! And! She said that playing games with Nene-chan is also super fun!

And here's Rin's line from the official EN translation:

That's not the same thing, but even more weirdly, the incorrect part (super fun->really loves) is a correct translation for the part changed in Luka's line. So, they can do it, they are willing to say "really loves", just not in the right places. Maybe because Rin's part is less personal than Luka's part? It's strange actually, this isn't the first time they've done this either. Off the top of my head I can think of an example from Shiho's Varied Kindness 2* story where they translated the word "suki" as really loves, despite that being much stronger than the original word used (and the fact that daisuki is used a lot in the Leo/need stories and it's incredibly rare if not entirely unknown for them to translate it correctly).

It's not subtle that they're trying to remove implications of the characters possibly being queer, they did it in curtain call and they did it in walk on and on, and multiple times before then too. And considering some of the content in this year's events and the amount of times they say daisuki alone, it's gonna keep happening. honestly i hate the fact that i keep trying to justify the translations in these posts. these translations are intentional. what happened in the curtain call translation back in october says enough. when a character who uses explicitly romantic language towards another guy passes as a straight character in the translation you know they're doing it on purpose.

oh and once again, it's only the EN server that has this issue. The scene in question was translated almost word-for-word on the TW and KR servers.

read fan translations. they're better than what EN gives us and people put a lot of effort into them.

#since the EN translation qualifies as a leak i am scheduling this to post when the event drops #asks #mod talks #i'm going to leave this in the tags because i don't want to make the post any longer #but something that's been really annoying to see recently on twt has been the gradual uptick of players saying that there's no queer #characters/subtext/etc in the game outside mizuki being trans. and i do wonder if EN's consistent habit of toning down #or outright removing moments of heavy subtext and other more ambiguous shiptease moments has anything to do with it. #that or people live under a rock because even EN keeps most of An and Kohane's relationship intact and there's still plenty of #moments that were impossible to edit or tone down due to being plot relevant or being part of longer interactions that wouldn't make sense #if part of it was changed. like the An wedding event. #eh maybe people are just ignorant. #but anyway it does bug me immensely that EN-only players are getting a censored version of the game. it's 2024. staff can do better. #also like i mentioned in the part about rin. they /add in/ things occasionally. so why the hell are they removing so much?

[soup-soup-soup-soup-soup]

to everyone doing their finals right now, remember: GRADES ARE TEMPORARY, SOUP IS ETERNAL

do whatever you can and treat yourself to some soup after :)

#gpa doesnt matter when youre dead #on a similar note if nobody has already tried to kill you over something dont go killing yourself over it either #live with the confidence of a mf who sees nothing wrong with what they do and the audacity to not care even when they do know #soup #am still gonna cry over this essay though #if i get the chance later i'll see if my prof will let me make a better version just to satisfy my desire to elaborate #finals week

[lawchan89]

“Well yeah, of course it’s not going to be as good as the original show!”

Then why?

Why does this thing exist?

Why does it need to exist in the first place?

This “defense” is not the flex you think it is

If you can’t remake it better

Why remake it at all?

#natla #atla live action #avatar the last airbender #i mean i know why it exists #it exists the same reason all live action remakes exist #because the showrunners hate animation #it’s ‘kids stuff’ #clearly WE can do better because this is the ADULT version #it’s live action and we start off with a full blown genocide #OOOOO look at us #we’re the dark and gritty ATLA #even though everyone looks like they’re cosplaying from the cartoon and it’s really fucking jarring #also literally no one was asking for a 1:1 remake #that’s what the idiots who were pissed off about the percy jackson series wanted

[strawberry--scribbles]

ive got to admit, it's getting better! (a little better all the time!!)

#it cant get much woorse 🎵🎶 #this was supposed to be a doodle of an oc w an outfit i wore one time. what happened. #strawberryscribbles #art #ibispaintx #I FORGOT HER EYEBAGS. EXPLDOES #its fiiine its fine. this is her if she lived to 22 and was happy. idk if shed still be using she/her exclusively if she was happy though #'beware the pipeline' and its 17 yr old evie she/her -> 22 year old evie she/they #newly fixed cherry they/them -> pre rr cherry he/they -> 43 year old cherry he/him. and he just gets happier and happier. #lyrics from getting better by the beatles off sg peps. not reflective of the character just seemed like a requirement for this one #im just yappin at this point #does anyone even read this far.... on this blog....... #hi hello for the love of god hello #go listen to oingo boingo i am the walrus and thank me later #wooo hooooo #the beatles #< for blacklist purposes SORRY #oh aaaanfd full version in the rbs #eyestrain

[hedonists]

The Grey The Grey The Grey The Grey THE GREY

#nemesestext #don’t mind me #just having a casual mental breakdown over this #if you see me punching a wall and chewing on drywall look away #I can’t even make gifs of this because it’s too painful to look at him #LOOK AT HIM #I’m fine really I am #I’m not #sobbing whimpering screaming actually #but it’s fine #The Grey live version better be on that album you're making Davis or I'll come for you #bad omens

[rolandapostatize]

cannot get over how theodore 7th time loop is written actually. 13 year old's suicidal tendencies resolved by having polite conversation with the person he loves most and whom he was doing all that for, and who has never before in his life clearly communicated with him at all, and who due to his own emotional immaturity decided that the best way to protect his desperate younger brother is to never talk to him and act as terrifying as possible around him. one unwell child eliminating another unwell child's problems, that he was contributing to, in a single conversation

like i cant get over how quickly the conflict was introduced and resolved.

#v*ncent n*ghtray is crying in my brain as i write this #not to say that that was his exact situation he just lives in my brain so that subplot reminded me of him #i just wish 7th time loop was more fucked up and better written. like arnold is gonna commit patricide in a few years #youd think thered be some atmospheric tension regarding the complete absence of his father in the plot (when we know hes right there in the #same palace) #im just imagining a version of it thats more fucked up and better written and also with less generic alternate-europe worldbuilding #generally when i fing myself wishing a story was more fucked up i do stop to consider that maybe thats my fault and im expecting it to be #something it isnt. and that fair on its own #however the writing IS bad - disregarding my own preferences #and i suppose its just that when im thinking of how it could be better my preferences affect my ideas #however if i WAS well written - just not to my tastes - my brain would not be complaining about it #also the economics in this show are so nothing. like again no effort put in. i struggle with understanding money related concepts #all the time but even i can see that

[mintharasthrone]

if orin was a man she would be so much more popular and given the most empathy

#orin the red #orin #and not met with the misogyny or people not acknowledging what she is a victim to. she's faces violence and the only person #she's been groomed into “loving” is a man who had her by raping her own sister he wants to rape her or for durge to rape her and abuses her #i loathe that a character who is a woman who has faced things that are part of really graphic serious subject matter as a joke or to mock #like if people look at orin and go haha stupid evil crazy woman larian should have done better and not made light of this #the fact that people think she's the least sympthatic is pure misogyny #how tragic that i will never see her turn her rage violence and chaos at the men who abused her groomed her and used her #and she dies so some fucking man can live and get a new life #if you're gonna yell at me about this post i will not respond #even dare i say the most popular villain? if there wasn't durge/gortash? even larian panders to any fav male characters she gets no love #ketheric is an abusive selfish father and the game and fandom see him as some sympathetic character....orin has zero autonomy thinking #ketheric is not even sympathetic but even saying gortash has it the worst more than orin is pure misogyny and your blind thirsting #she has even more trauma than any male version of her can have because misogyny but that's the irony #she would get the empathy if she was a man & female characters in general would be more loved/popular/defended if they were men lbr #those essays an energy women and fandom only put into expressing empathy for tragic men

[pansyfemme]

not to be a late 90s power pop fan on main again but theres one fountains of wayne song (yes. the stacy’s mom guys.) that fucks so incredibly hard but its literally. only available. on the soundtrack cd for ‘scary movie’ which is not available for streaming because who the fuck other than me is listening to the scary movie soundtrack. but its also beloved enough by fountains of wayne fans that there are like six cd rips on youtube but all of them sound like absolute pure shit and usually that doesnt bother me but i’ve heard it in better quality so im spoiled and im gonna SCREAM

#im just gonna have my dad see if he can get a better rip off our cd because i cant live like this #and if you’re like ‘oh how does a band that has like a 35 track obscurities album not have it anywhere else I DONT KNOW #theres also TWO OTHER hyper rare fow tracks we found because my dad bought a fucking. japanese import of a german single and there was just. #a random alt version of one of their rarer tracks on there.. #and theres also one im not even sure how we found i think it was on some comp or something #i need to talk about fountains of wayne every once in a while because it is genuinly the band i know the most about

[bylrndgm]

happy 2023 byler tag!

✩ thank you for an amazing year! - e.

#byler #byler edits #mike wheeler #will byers #will x mike #mine #mine:gif #dec. 31st is never kind to me; because i just sit in my room and think about how much of a failure i've been during the year #it has never been. i choke on memories and truths i held back and regrets. #i always begin the year without any new year's resolutions because for a person like me who didn't think could live past 17... #... they are useless #but this year #here i am - and i look back on 2022 and i realized how incredibly kind and soft it has been #in the first half i fell for the light #and in the second - i joined tumblr again and with each day passed here; with all the amazing friends and people that i met ... #... i feel like i've become a better version of myself. i started feeling a part of something again after years of flying solo. #so thank you for making my 2022 a lot better - i hope i made yours even just a 0.00001% better #so here is a shitty edit i made to celebrate the ending of this year :D #enjoy!

[mishy-mashy]

Julius is just a Hard Knock Life orphan on a path called Julius's Terrible Horrible No Good Very Bad Day

#hes so optimistic that i know i cant be that forward-looking #i say that as an optimist #dude's parents died and he thinks he just has to keep moving doing his best and such #he had his name eaten and just keeps a journal so he can grow from the experience #his parents are dead his life was upheaved and considering the flash flood a lot of his friends probably died too #and he consistently makes terrible first impressions because of misunderstandings #with joshua ferris subaru and even reinhard calls him out on it #but hes still. forward looking? with his life id ask WHY #an optimist full of insecurities that nonetheless wants to become a better version of himself than yesterday #that wants others to grow #that wants to be someone who can respect his parents' sacrifice #and is willing to play the villain without ever explaining himself to save his own image #id think his mental fortitude is off the charts #rezero #re zero #re:zero #julius juukulius #little orphan boy living a goodly hard life #i can understand it but at the same time its incomprehensible and i dont know how to put it into words #life keeps kicking him #like footeball #and ottos the kicker right now #ITS A HARD KNOCK LIFE FOR US-

[capelizabeth]

taylor’s worst sin MUSICALLY is putting the best songs on the deluxe edition because from the bottom of my heart what the FUCK was that???????

#taylor swift #the tortured poets department #jack antonoff when i catch you jack antonoff #get AWAY from her #they’re not doing anything interesting together anymore #like i was listening to the regular version and it was like this is goddamn elevator music #like god this might be worse than midnights even #the only songs that stuck out to me were loml and the smallest man who ever lived #i can do it with a broken heart was pretty fun and i did like the florence feature #but daddy i love him is quite literally one of her worst songs ever i’m so serious #not just bc it’s about ratty healy it’s so bad #i was giving the album maybe a 6.5/10 then i got to the 2am tracks #with loml and tsmwel rating a lot higher but still #but god aaron CARRIED these 2am tracks #the theme is still there but it’s like a completely different album it’s so much better #why is it like this???? #who’s idea was this???? #bc the main album kinda sucks #jack antonoff ur dead to me #i need relisten and get some sleep before i have a ranking #bc rn i do think the 3am tracks did fall off a get a little dreary towards the end #anyway it’s 3am i need to go to bed #ellie chats

[derpinette]

i have this "alter ego" that only exists in my head where essentially i am a fat sloppy drunk old fisherman with no loved ones living in misery & isolation & i often imagine myself as him especially in moments of patheticness

#& he is always a fisherman not a farmer not a fisherwoman either ( too badass... ) #past life ?! caus my ♯azn side was all fishers & stuff like my grandfather ETC but like all of them looked anorexic instead of fat so #also i imagine the guy as kind of vaguely mediterranean looking so maybe not because that side of my family are mountain farmers #when i read the old man & the sea ( i hate hemingway BTW ♯NotPete ♯ActuallyMikey ) ( uhm sorry about that... ) #i was like this is my life/future if it was better... 🚬 But that was a good while after i was already thinking of myself like that #closest thing i felt to a kin moment is when we analyzed miss brill like wow me & i am not even old that is genuinely just my life #as a (at the time) seventeen year old. & also carol ledoux from repulsion literally 100% only i am an ugly freak instead of beautiful #i pretty much never think of myself as myself in my head & actually never when i was younger up until age 9 i remember vividly #& i just had this thought while making my lazy “bite sized” onigiri ( bowl of seasoned rice +tunamayo +vache qui rit +avocado +spoon ) #but even when i make the non lazy version i get so overwhelmed & irritated & SLOPPY i feel like a drunk old man with nothing to #live for #anyone else feel like this sometimes... #if any of you weeaboos judge my terminology by the way i will kill myself just FYI #IDCCCC about the actual name you know what i mean. quasi poke bowl but each “component” has its own dish. whatever OK...

[soldier-poet-king]

U know when u reach that point of mentally unwell that it's like, u realize it's stupid and dumb and your (mal)adaptive coping mechanisms and inbuilt trauma responses aren't helpful and aren't logical and you're complete aware of this and yet can't eradicate it and it's so frustrating and in some way you're more upset about not being able to force ur brain into being normal and stop being Like That, than you are upset about whatever thing happened in the first place

#the duality of fran #anyway yes yes i know im tired and stressed and its winter #and all these things mean all my bad brain stuff harder to cope with #and all my yucky bad maladaptive mechanisms come back #and its stupid and dumb and i cant fix it overnight. or really ever. and YET #im just. gonna throw myself into reading and video games i guess. keep myself distracted #i could have healthier routines but its really fuckin hard to be consistent with anything #when im living with my parents and not much is actually within my control #when it comes to routine and living arrangement and such. its uh.... #real difficult to assert autonomy and control and break hurtful patterns of behaviour when living in the space #& w the ppl who caused those problems in the first place yknow #how can i stop hiding and ppl pleasing and acting like a hollow shell of a fake person #when all of that was developed specifically to protect myself emotionally from these ppl #did it work??? NO. sometimes it feels like it didnt even preserve a tiny core of me #whatever the me that existed before. or was supposed to exist. just. is gone. never was #ik ik dont think of unlived lives theyre not real theres no alternate version of urself #but maybe...there is....and that fran is so much better

[deus-ex-mona]

ok but. looking at yujiro’s nonexistent a(.)b(.)s(ecret), i think i could take him on 1v1 ezpz

#never have i ever felt such a strong urge to throw a fictional guy across the room #i haven’t trained in over a year but i think i still got it!!!!!! meet me outside yujiro i can show you ✨the world✨ #i’ll whip you over my shoulder so quick you won’t be able to even get to the ‘c’ of your abcs #but hm. this kinda makes me feel better about my own growing muscles. i think my biceps are getting kinda fire ngl #guess carrying 18 litre tins of solvents at work makes for a good workout after all~~~~~~ yeayyyyyyyyt #ok but. while i’m blabbing on about absolute nonsense… my (a.b.)secret is… that i’ve never been a fan of techno im sorryyyyyy #y’seeeee it all started with my father’s cd filled with nothing but track remixes of this song called 老鼠爱大米… #and track 5 of said remix collection was a techno version of that song. it made my head pound so bad i got nauseous i think #so that’s what techno reminds me of ngl… sadge. sorry a.b.s. i gotta add you to the lxl dni tracklist along with nonfan :( #anyways live love laugh maNIFEST MEOTO MV PSPSPSPSPSPSPSPP L S #染BODY ONCE TOLD ME—