#the nature being autistic inertia

[mochapanda]

i miss final fantasy so bad but i literally cant play it. bc of my nature

#the nature being autistic inertia #and depression

[donniesexceptionalmind]

hai :3 trade offer You get: art of your choosing I get: infodump about space cat/and or autism (/nf btw)

*smug smile* YES, PLEASE.

I have talked about executive dysfunction before, but have you heard about

Autistic inertia?

It is the inability to change task or focus.

Our autistic brains love to be fully & all-consumingly engaged in one activity & we struggle to retreat back from it/ take a break to do something else.

You're probably familiar with the term hyperfocus, which is (to the person experiencing it) a positive side of being focused intensely on (preferably) your special interest. You can't stop & you're consumed entirely by it & it gives you joy. PURE BLISS!!

Although I tend to forget I exist during these times...

For me, inertia & hyperfocus are two sides of a coin.

Inertia does not give joy.

It can lead to the frustrating reality of my body & brain working against my desire to do something nice & relaxing.

It's independent of any desire to do the other activity; unlike procrastination, where you purposely avoid tasks due to reasons.

Example: I absolutely love The Legend of Zelda & I was in BLISS about the newest game. So naturally, one would assume I've beaten Tears of the Kingdom at least ten times & that I've reached 100%.

The hard truth: I have not even completed the four main quests, nor have I achieved to get the whole map of the overworld.

The desire to play it is... low. (SAD DONNIE NOISES)

This is because my brain struggles to adjust from one reality (the game isn't out yet) to the new reality (the game is released). I was so in awe & excitement that my brain still hasn't processed that it's truly playable now.

As time passes, the inertia will go away - you just have to be patient.

Sadly, autistic inertia is often seen as laziness or procrastination - a character flaw, if you will.

But it is tied to how our brains are wired & function. It's not a personal failure.

It's just one of many aspects that make autism a disability.

I'm trying my best 🥺💜

#I apologize for my absence life is hard & I struggle to find a balance between shutdowns migraines and trying to exist #on top of that is the reality of a TRUE REAL CONFIRMED autism diagnosis that's just BOOOM #I did self diagnose for 3 years but having professionals telling you you're correct AND you know MORE than them - woah. /srs #donatello infodumps #donnies exceptional mind #turtle net #rottmnt #autistic spectrum #rottmnt autism #i love to infodump #donnies special interests #autism #autistic inertia #inertia #rise autistic donnie #rottmnt autistic donnie #autism awareness

[drdemonprince]

Hi - I'm having a really hard time figuring out how to cultivate community, and would love any advice!

I currently have two friends (one long distance, one who lives nearby) and live with my spouse. All of these people are also socially isolated. I spend most of my day alone in my home; I don't work because my spouse's income can support us both; I don't go out because my spouse is immunocompromised so we generally avoid being around other people; and I don't engage in online spaces very much (mostly following a few authors whose books I like or watching youtube videos about special interests). I'm autistic, adhd, and struggle with ocd, which are all things I learned about in the past two years.

I've tried to become more engaged in hobby-focused online spaces, but have found that I am not great at reading the social rules or am somehow behaving in an inappropriate way due to misunderstanding the way people were communicating. This happens both online and in-person. Over time, I've tried to become more observant, but this has led to a sort of social inertia as observer rather than participant, which excludes me from the connection-making experience so many people seem to have.

Based on some of what you have written, it seems like you put a lot of importance in community building and the work of cultivating friendships. I've seen you suggest seeking out identity-based groups (like autistic support groups or enby support groups) or seeking out hobby-based groups (like going to cons), and these are all things I've tried before but always felt unable to be a part of - like I have an invisible bubble around me that blocks me from really connecting.

I feel really frustrated and a little ashamed about all this. Like I should be trying harder or doing more in order to become more involved with the world around me. I guess, how do I do the work of cultivating community when it feels like most communities won't have me as I am? (not to say that I'm a perfect unchangeable person, but that in some core way I'm rejectable?)

I don't think you need to try "harder," just that you need to keep trying. There are a lot situational reasons why you are so isolated that it sounds like you're very well aware of, so try to keep those factors in mind to check your own feelings of brokenness/rejectability/underservingness when they occur.

You don't leave the house much. You don't participate actively in most online spaces. You don't have many opportunities for organically meeting people. No wonder you have so few connections in your life *and* feel so self-conscious and awkward when you do make an attempt. Anybody would in your situation. You need like hundreds more hours of attempts, potentially, for it to start to feel more natural and less panic inducing. That's a big part of why the first tip in my advice column on the subject is to know that this process takes years, it did for me, and to not take that as a reflection of who you are as a person.

The research on how people form friendships says time and time again that we build relationships by being in proximity to people numerous times and with consistency. That's it, and that's all. There is no magic juice or essential quality that you lack. Among neurotypicals, research shows people are more likely to be friends with people who have last names that are closer to their own in the alphabet, because those people are/were more likely to sit next to one another in class as kids. That's really how arbitrary this shit is.

We befriend the people who are around us a lot, who we interact with a lot. And so, you'll just need to be around the same people a lot (does not have to mean literally physically around, it could be in the same zoom room or discord call), and interact with them a lot. It sounds like a lot of the online spaces you've attempted to be a part of so far are not quite social enough -- I would say do not consider social media to be socializing, it's more like social snacking (tho there are some exceptions).

instead try to identify some online events or groups with meetings / synchronous forms of communicating. Watch parties, online game playing sessions, online writing groups, support groups, meetings, etc -- ones where you have interactions with a handful of the same people, where they get to know your name/handle and become familiar with you and interact with you multiple times.

You can also try asynchronous forms of communication, but they have to again be really specific and personal. Things like exchanging letters or having a pen pal or playing correspondence chess with someone -- not posting on say instagram or reddit or whatever. It has to be a form of interaction where you get to know a specific person, and they get to know you, and you navigate some of those interpersonal conflicts and insecurities that you're talking about.

Maybe you are rubbing people the wrong way sometimes, that's okay, being annoying is not a crime. don't give up. Maybe they are just dropping off the map on you sometimes for their own reasons or not being super enthusiastic and you are reading that in a negative light when it is in fact a neutral cue. Keep at it. That's really the only way to get better at it, i'm afraid.

[musashi]

Sorry you're getting ableist nonsense in your ask box.

So about your "Manfred did less harm to Franziska than Miles did" post, specifically the bit about overworking yourself. Being autistic as well, it hit home for me because I hadn't even considered that overworking myself in high school and college was self-harm. But in retrospect that's very clearly what it was. So, thanks for making making me realize that.

And I agree Franziska probably subconsciously internalized the same perfectionist and workaholic tendencies her papa believed in. It's something Manfred, Miles, and Franziska all suffered from to varying extents.

oh yeah lmao for me it was once i got a job that appealed to the autistic brain. this is from the script for a yt video i've yet to post, about many things, but mostly about franziska:

The idea is, when we’re younger, we tend to feel kind of useless for all the ways we can’t keep up. But then, we grow up. We get a job that is great for the autistic brain—like factory work, where you can sort things all day. Or distribution, where you can sit in a warehouse and listen to a podcast and just put stuff in boxes without thinking. For me, this was retail—electronics and video games, to be exact. Organizing shelves and backrooms, infodumping about nintendo games to curious parents, and most of all, being a phone tech, solving complex problems for people with tangible results.  Naturally, we excel at these jobs. And if our workplace is any good, we get praised for that excellence. For the first time in our lives, we are not just good at something, but extraordinary. That praise becomes addictive. The work becomes addictive. The inertia itself becomes addictive. And so we go and go and go and go, and do not stop, even when we should. At one point, I had 80 hours of PTO at my work, and over 120 hours of unused sick time. Autistics do not want to be told that this is a way we slowly kill ourselves. But, most of the time, we need to be told.  

but yeah a huge part of my 'i genuinely don't think manfred abused his kids / was anything beyond kind of a toxic role model' is that i just don't think the dude was home very often???? like it just makes the most sense to me that he worked long hours and probably weekends.

i think franziska and miles just fucking loved him, wanted to be like him, wanted to make him proud, and so they were like. ok well we can see what he's doing. let's also do that. and then proceeded to work themselves to death for the next several years.

but i don't really picture him looming in the background like its me your evil dad how dare you even think about taking a break to eat and all the other shit i've unfortunately been subjected to in fandom fdhfg i just think he was less than proactive in trying to combat these ideals in his kids. which isn't good! but it's a mistake i could very easily see an otherwise decent parent making.

#wendy answers #Anonymous

[myautisticpov]

There's something kind of heartbreaking in being an author whose identity defining book series only has twenty fanfics on AO3

Like, despite this blog, I'm not naturally a poster, this was born of a special interest and kept alive by inertia

But I'm expected to post for marketing purposes, and the easiest thing to post about as an author is your influences

Except that requires those influences to be ones people have actually heard of and have an attachment to

And even if you take the marketing aspect out, there is definitely something kind of grim when you're trying to make this your living to know that the work that inspired this, that absolutely formed a fundamental part of you when you were young, simply isn't remembered like certain series I could name from the same time period

And it's not like I've not been aware of this for a long time - I remember searching out the author's blog when I was a teenager writing my first novel and even being autistic as I am, feeling the sting through their polite response to "will there ever be a movie made?" in their FAQ

Idk, I guess I just went back to the audiobooks and it's making me slightly feral that this series doesn't seem to be remembered

#I'm not naming the series because I'd rather do that in a more positive light #I'm not sure how I would feel if someone named my books in a similar post #But I want a TV series of this series so bad

[geekysciencemom]

Struggling

My husband clued into something last night that really hit the mark. I am not running on fumes after burnout set in, I am running on the inertia left over from running out of fumes all together. I am that disconnected from my own level of burnout as my body and mind try to cope with everything that has been happening.

On top of all the stuff that is a regular part of my life, I am dealing with an upcoming shoulder surgery plus the recovery time when I don't have access to adequate pain management options. I am allergic to narcotics and any opium derivatives. This means typical pain management options are not available to me.

Part of my Complex-PTSD involves multiple medical traumas with my last surgery 19 years ago when I was in the hospital for four days. That is when we found out about my allergy. Having had pelvic and back surgery including having one organ removed and two inches of another organ removed plus a bladder neck sling installed while also having various segments in my spine tightened and then being told to take Tylenol for the pain was absolutely torture.

This particular surgery was an attempt by my doctors at the time to repair damage sustained from pregnancy complications. My pelvic floor collapsed at 21 weeks and it took my organs and lower spine with it. After four months of bed rest being essentially in labor, my son was born healthy at 37 weeks. My body never fully recovered and I am still bleeding internally 20 years later.

Prior to this medical trauma, my gall bladder become infected while I was pregnant with my daughter. Four months after she was born, my gall bladder had to be removed due to being completely full of pearls. My gall bladder decided it was an oyster. What was supposed to be an outpatient surgery resulted in two days in the hospital due to bleeding problems and the fact that my bowels shutdown from the shock of the surgery.

I have a looooooong list of injuries and have been though physical therapy 11 times for different joints, tendons, and ligaments since I was 14 years old. I have had problems with my right shoulder subluxing since high school and it has finally started to detach, like, literally, detach. Between the long SLAP tear in my shoulder, the rotator cuff being chewed up, and the bursitis and tendonitis plus impingement of my right shoulder, my arm has become rather useless.

Suffice it to say, my anxiety over this upcoming surgery is REALLY high, but I still need to function as an adult with responsibilities. This is resulted in what my counselor has called my "natural pain management system". I become disconnected in order to keep functioning. My counselor has suggested that I stop trying to fight it and let my body do what it knows how to do and that is to protect me.

We don't know if this natural pain management system is a result of me being autistic or if this is something separate that I developed over time to cope with trauma. Either way, I have this intense stoicism that disconnects the pain and emotion so that I can continue to go about my day without anyone realizing that I am suffering.

I remember the day my doctor was going over all the test results prior to my last surgery and she was amazed that wasn't in a ball in the corner on the floor weeping. Instead, I was calmly sitting in a chair talking to her. She said I was the most stoic person she had ever met.

The stoicism has an important function, it does protect me, but it also creates a barrier when trying to get people to understand and believe the level of pain I really am in.

Picture the typical 1-10 pain scale that is found in doctors' offices. I have a daily functioning pain level of a six. I generally don't go into the doctor unless the pain reaches an eight or above over a period of time, say about a month or so.

I have been dealing with my current arm/shoulder situation for over a year now. This started in November 2021. Saw my doctor in January 2022 and was diagnosed with "Frozen Shoulder". Had physical therapy for seven months starting in February 2022. Finally granted an MRI by my insurance in October 2022 when I wasn't improving like I was expected to. The extent of the damage was finally determined and physical therapy was stopped. Had my orthopedic surgeon consultation in December 2, 2022 (this was the first available appointment). Surgery date set for March 1st, 2023 (first available surgery slot due to backlog from COVID-19).

By now, I have been operating consistently at an 8-9 pain level for over a year and won't have surgery for another three months. All without proper pain management options. I am supposed to alternate between taking Ibuprofen and acetaminophen every four hours along with Benadryl plus I am to use a heating pad. This is the pain management option my surgeon prescribed me to at least help me sleep (it works a little bit). I am also supposed to sleep at a 45 degree angle to get the pressure off my shoulder. Ya, not an easy thing.

Then there is the affect this all has had on my ability to exercise like I am used to. I have been a runner for 29 years. Running helps me self-regulate. It keeps my body strong, since my muscles are the only thing holding my body together any more (Elhers-Danlos Syndrome). I am not allowed to run right now due to the state of my current injury. My body is not liking this. Even walking is hard, because I need to keep my arm from swinging.

This brings me back to running on the inertia left from running out of fumes. I don't have words to adequately describe the level of exhaustion and lingering fatigue that I am experiencing. I don't know how I am still functioning at the level that I am. I got through all the Christmas celebrations and all I want to do right now is curl up in a corner and hide.

Our health care system in the U.S. needs a major overhaul. I have the privilege of having a primary and secondary insurance and still struggle to get adequate care. The effects of the pandemic will be felt for years to come. My doctor told me that it could be 10 years before the health care system in this country is back to where it was pre-COVID.

I am just sooooo tired and the pain never goes away.

#actually autistic #autism #ehlers danlos syndrome #surgery #pain management #anxiety #trauma #exhaustion #Complex-PTSD #medical trauma #injury

[teaboot]

Hey I just wanted to ask you something I don't know if its personal so maybe I'll start with me, my psychiatrist told me that I have asperger's syndrome and like my mom keeps asking me like what does that means because I think she sees people with autism as stupid and I'm at the top of my class so she feels like it's a mistake, I personally go mute for months sometimes except for like oral tests, and idk I forget about having a body and so I hit onto walls when I'm focused on something but *

"...*is not so exaggerated like I'm pretty functional I just forget that there are walls and doors and that I can't just transport me to the other room or so,I mean I feel like I'm just trying to find what my "weird or autistic" traits are to justify the diagnosis,I didn't asked my psychiatrist to elaborate on that and so I was wondering, what would you say that your autistic traits are?Also just in case,I know that autistic people can be hella smart and I think that you are really wise I admire you"

Thank you so much, that's very sweet of you to say!

Honestly, I'm sort of in a similar situation- My parents' reaction was to say, "you're too smart to be autistic" or, "Everyone of ~your intelligence~ is a little weird in the head, anyways", and then. Expect me to live up to all the positive stereotypes without ever getting bogged down by the negative realities?

This might not be very helpful at all of me to say, but as an adult who grew up in a rather unpleasant environment, there really isn't much help for a number of things except getting old and independant enough to move out, and then just accepting that their perception of reality isn't open to negotiation. You can try debating it, or meeting them on common ground with scientific basis, but in my case....

....well. There's just some things I now know not to talk about at family gatherings.

I'm sorry, I know that's probably not very helpful or heartening to hear. 

As for my personal grab bag of symptoms? I tend to hyperfocus on personal projects. When I'm really invested in an art piece, I often forget to eat or sleep or drink, and the only way I've learned to snap out of that is that if my hands are shaking or I'm falling over a lot, I probably need to eat something and lay down for a while, because otherwise- and yeah, not the healthiest motivator- otherwise I might start fucking up my hard work.

I also get overwhelmed by overlapping noises- if two people are talking at once, even if one is on a radio or TV show, I can't hear either of them and it stresses the shit out of me. White noise, like in malls or assemblies, also tends to burn my energy pretty fast.

Things like leaf blowers, people whistling indoors, and emergency sirens are physically painful. Repetitive noises like a bouncing rubber ball, sniffling, dogs licking things, and low-frequency vibrations from massage chairs, earthquakes, distant bass music, and some fluorescent lighting systems are impossible to ignore, which ranges from irritating to distressing, depending on my headspace du jour.

I hate bland food with a passion. It tends to make me nauseaus. I like lots of spice, lots of sugar, lots of sour and hot and acidic. I love strong flavours, and if I'm cooking for friends and family I often have to remind myself to tone down the seasonings for them.

Some textures make me genuinely ill, too- most types of meat, fat, and other animal bits result in.... Bad times for all. Polyester towels suck ass. Microfiber cloth. Thick cotton knit material. Any fabric covering my forearms. Thin, elastic denim. Vinyl. Polar fleece.

On the flip side, I looooove woven cotton blankets. Cotton sheets, cotton bedding- cold, heavy duvets are good, too. Acrylic, so long as it doesn't get damp. I have.... Perhaps a little bit of a problem here, as I do... Maybe, possibly, get a little impulsive with buying rugs, throws, and blankets when I come across one that feels right.

All my cups and bowls are handmade out of clay. I'm OK with smooth ceramics, but stoneware feels happy in my hands. I think of it as a treat, like packing a bit of chocolate with my lunch, or eating a whole bag of popcorn by myself. Again, I.... May go a little overboard when I come across A nice-feeling piece of dishware.

Basically, from what I understand, a lot of folks on the spectrum are under and over stimulated by various sensory inputs.

Me, I gravitate towards taste, inertia, tactile sensation, temperature, and dark lighting, while I find myself avoiding, limiting, or minimizing sound, light, color, oral texture, and smell.

As for more stereotyped behaviors, I find organizing things such as legal documents, filing cabinets, paint swatches, hardware, coins, stones, or colors to be very soothing and almost meditative. I go through special interests fairly often, and have been 'into' things like animals, insects, natural history, and art since before I could walk. I can't explain why they're such alluring subjects, they just make me happy.

I didn't realize until recently that I do stim, as well- I rock, sway, growl, swish water around, hang upside-down, rotate my thumbs, rub fabric, twirl coins, and flex my hands. I also (rarely) seem compelled to jump up and down in circles very fast when I'm particularly excited, or flap my arms against my sides like a penguin.

When I'm overstimulated, I go.... I'm not sure if you could call it 'nonverbal'. I get the feeling I COULD speak, it's just.... Overwhelmingly difficult. Usually I find a dark space or a corner away from people, put a coat or something over my head, cover my ears, close my eyes... Sometimes deliberate eye contact is hard, or I can't say more than one or two words at a time, or I find myself relying more on a hum or a grunt to communicate that I'm listening.

It... Probably all sounds weird to a neurotypical who may be reading, but I'm perfectly happy with myself as I am. I wouldn't change it if I could, except perhaps to minimize some of the more irritating things.

Mostly, my biggest peeve is being treated like a cool new pet or accessory. "Oh, this is my person with Autism- they're great at cleaning, you should get one!"- yeah, that can fuck right off. I'm right here, I can hear you, I'm a person. A little respect goes a long way.

But, whoops, here I've gone on a ramble- you want the best advice I have, though? Become comfortable with the person you are. Accept and seek out what things bring you happiness. Don't get hung up on the negatives. Love your experience, if you can, and don't worry about validating anything- you are who you are, and the words we use to explain ourselves fall so, so short when faced with the complexity of our individual existence.

The way I see it, the day before your diagnosis is the same as today, you just have one more tool to understand yourself with. The decision of how and if you choose to explain this to those around you is entirely yours to decide! 

I know this kind of went off the rail of your question. My answers are a little limited. I hope I could help anyways! Good luck!!

#Long post #teaboot

[edengarden]

heyooo, could i request a normal BNHA matchup?

I’m a 5’2 gay male, black hair, freckles, green eyes, sort of on the chubby side? I sometimes wear glasses and either dress like a hobo, middle school boy, or femboy lol.

Anyways besides looks- I’m kind of,,, weird. I’m pagan, and I really like nature even though I’m kind of a germaphobe when it comes to being outside.I’m autistic so there's that, It’s usually hard for me to make new friends bc I come on rather,,, strong and hate the awkward first meeting phase. But when I do manage to make friends I’m always there for them in whatever they need and always do my best to help them through their problems (if they want) or just listen. I’m also selectively mute, but when I do talk I usually have a stutter, so I prefer to listen to other people talk. But when I do talk it’s usually about my special interests or something I'm into like Star Wars (a really big one atm), snakes, and the colour yellow. Speaking of snakes, I have a snake named Shigaraki and a tarantula named Princess :)

Some negative traits about me… I can be quite a jealous person. And I have these sort of sad episodes? I’ll kind of stay in my head and overthink waaayyy too much so that’s not fun. Oh another thing, I usually have a hard time telling when I should back off? Like I constantly worry about if I’m being ‘too much’ or if I should give my partner or friends some space. Oh and I’m reeallyy bad at bringing myself down and talking negatively about myself casually. And I’m hella self conscious lol-

Some things I enjoy,,, I don't do much besides work, but when I have free time I enjoy writing for my friend, story-based video games, and I really like cooking. When I have time to relax, I like to read manga and Harry potter, I don’t really read many new books anymore. Kinda random but I also enjoy knitting too lol. My hogwarts house is Slytherin, and I’m a capricorn :)

My music taste is… a bit complicated. On one hand, half of my playlist is Steven Universe songs, then I have stuff at every end of the spectrum like Dean Martin, Mother Mother, Savage Ga$p, Freddie Dredd, Corpse Husband, and a variety of J-Pop artists (don’t come for me, J-Pop is better than K-Pop), and a few random sorta indie songs scattered around my playlist. Atm my favorite songs are Verbatim, Escapism (from SU), Line Without A Hook, and Inertia.

What I look for in others, hmmm, I guess someone who can carry a conversation and is good at like, picking up on things ya know? Someone who can be really patient with me and stuff, someone who loves kids, oh and someone who’s willing to watch Star Wars with me, thats a big one lmao.

Something I’d avoid would be a disrespect of others boundaries, a really judgy person, like someone who hates on others or something they do for literally no reason, and someone who’s unnecessarily hateful to babies/toddlers/kids. Idk that one just bothers me a lot lol. And someone who gets frustrated easily, I grew up in a toxic and abusive household so thats a no go for me.

This ones kind of complicated but here’s my quirk!! I came up with it on my own so I really don’t know if someone has something similar,,,

Okay, so my hero name is Hallucino! Similar to Aizawa, my quirk activates when I look at/lock eyes with someone and the effect drops when I blink. So once they’re under the effects of my quirk, I can make them hallucinate and see any sort of setting I want. My signature setting/move is called Vertigo, it’s sort of a trippy LSD setting? So it makes the person nauseous and, well, like they have vertigo. I can create people in the hallucination, but it really wears me out and gives me a migraine. When they’re in that state they can't see the real world, and can faintly hear, but they can feel everything in the outside world. Anyways I think my quirk’s pretty damn cool.

(Wow thats so much I’m so so sorry-- also I hope it’s okay if I copy and paste this and request a Tokyo ghoul matchup? Your work is really amazing please take your time-- also sorry if it’s spaced weird I’m new to tumblr)

You can go ahead and copy paste for TG, yeah!!

Your quirk is AWESOME!! It sounds so cool 👁👄👁 I love it.

I’m matching you up with Mirio!

You got like, THE best person on your side?? An absolute ray of sunshine. He’s SO approachable, like even if he notices you’re a bit shy at first, then he’ll actively make sure that you feel comfortable around him. While buddy boy does that to everyone, he always looks forward to talking to you specifically. He LOVES when you start talking about the things that you love. He could just sit there, and listen and soak in all the information. And then when he reminds you that he WAS indeed listening by referencing to something, and your eyes light up? Mirio could cry.

I feel like this guy has little to no sense of personal bubble? I mean his quirk doesn’t exactly allow it, either... what I mean by this is that it takes a lot for Mirio to be scared off, so your autism? Not a problem, he’ll learn and he’ll be good to go. Your lack of ability to tell when to back off? He might never need to actually talk to you abt it, but if he does he knows exactly how to talk abt it in a way that won’t hurt you.

MIRIO INTERACTING WITH KIDS WILL GIVE YOU BABY FEVER I AM WARNING YOU. This guy is so sweet to kids and wowow- he’s so patient and kind and you see him at his best (and worst) and you’d fall for him so far, and sometimes you may find yourself wondering how or if he feels the same way towards you but what you don’t know is just like you’re watching him when his attention is somewhere else, he does the same for you. And if you could just see the lovesick expression on his face I swear- buddy is so deep in.

Songs!!! (Y’ALL ARE IN SOFT TERRITORIES BITCH)

- Love Like You, Steven Universe

- Sofia, Clairo

- Sad Song, Michael Barrow & The Tourists

- Soul Love, David Bowie

#mha #bnha #bnha matchup #mha matchup #togata mirio

[grelleswife]

Top five anime’s?

It’s quite challenging to restrict myself to just five, but I shall do my best!1. Death NoteThis was my “starter series,” without which I might never have ventured into the wonderful realm of anime and manga. I am fascinated by detective stories, moral ambiguity, and Faustian pacts, so it is little wonder that I took an instant liking to Death Note. Even after multiple viewings, the psychological cat-and-mouse games between L and Light still rivet me. The brilliant, inscrutable, unconventionally attractive, probably autistic and oddly endearing sleuth L currently ranks as one of my favorite fictional characters of all time. Although Death Note has its fair share of plot holes, messy writing (particularly in the second half), and unabashedly sexist portrayals of women, its depiction of complex ethical dilemmas and the battle between two formidable intellects make it worth a watch or five. I recommend the English dub; Alessandro Juliani’s L is pitch-perfect.

2. Shingeki no Kyojin (Attack on Titan)It may be a mainstream anime, but this is one of those rare shows that doesn’t merely live up to the hype but rather exceeds it. In brief, the anime depicts a bleak, violent world in which the remnants of humanity must live ensconced within the protection of massive walls in order to avoid being devoured by giants known as titans that mysteriously appeared several generations ago. When the outermost wall is breached, protagonist Eren Yeager can only watch in horror as his mother is eaten alive by one of these monsters, a tragedy that fills the fiery young boy’s heart with a thirst for vengeance against all titans. However, what could have proven to be a stale shonen story became a work of immense depth and power in the hands of mangaka Hajime Isayama, and these attributes translated beautifully to the anime. In addition to gorgeous animation and an electrifying soundtrack, this show also stands out for its character development. Almost all characters of narrative import are vibrantly human, with painful backstories and plausible, nuanced growth as the series progresses. Attack on Titan’s graphic depictions of violence and pathos-laden storyline are not for the faint of heart, but it is a must-see for any anime fan. Again, I prefer the English dub, mainly because of Levi’s and Hange’s voice actors.3. Kuroshitsuji (Black Butler)Specifically, the first half of season 1, Book of Circus, Book of Murder, and Book of Atlantic.I refuse to dignify the non-canon dumpster fire that was season 2.Don’t let the lascivious fujoshis scare you away; despite its unsavory reputation, the portions of the anime that adhere to Yana Toboso’s gorgeous manga are excellent. Though a mere child, Earl Ciel Phantomhive bears a heavy burden as the Queen’s Watchdog, responsible for keeping Victorian England’s sinister underworld in check. Luckily, he has the aid of his ever-faithful butler, Sebastian Michaelis…who just so happens to be a demon with whom the young nobleman has contracted in order to find and exact vengeance upon the unknown perpetrators who murdered the boy’s family and sold him to a diabolical cult. The series is called Black Butler with good reason– there are many dark and disturbing elements to the story, from the bloodcurdling child abuse depicted in Book of Circus to gory fight scenes with zombies in Book of Atlantic. However, the compelling characters, fire OPs and endings, and (in the more recent adaptations) beautiful animation keep me coming back for more. The complex nature of Sebastian’s relationship with Ciel, which simultaneously encompasses and transcends the dynamics between parent and child, servant and master, and predator and prey, is a glorious trainwreck from which you can’t tear your eyes away. Yet again, I have a preference for the English dub here– J Michael Tatum’s Sebastian is the stuff of legend, Brina Palenica’s Ciel is spot-on, and Daniel Frederick’s Grell Sutcliff restores my soul (to my ear, his voice acting beautifully suits a transgender woman who has not yet been able to fully transition). That being said, I’ve also taken a shine to the Japanese sub; Daisuke Ono’s voice has a gentle yet subtly sinister quality that suits this devil wrapped in silk quite well.4. Watamote (No Matter How I Look At It, It’s You Guys Fault I’m Not Popular!)This slice of life anime chronicles the hilarious yet heartbreaking misadventures of Tomoko Kuroki, an otaku who desperately attempts to curry favor with her high school peers in spite of debilitating depression and anxiety. Watamote is one of those shows that makes you hurt while you laugh as you watch Tomoko, time and time again, prove to be her own worst enemy as her blunders cause all her schemes to backfire. To an uncomfortable extent, I saw quite a bit of my high school self in her. If you struggled with loneliness, social isolation, and/or mental illness as a teen, I would highly recommend this show. It doesn’t exactly have a happy ending, but it’s strangely addictive. Plus, Tomoko’s Japanese voice actor is precious, and the OP is epic.5. Bungou Stray DogsMix a wide array of supernatural gifts, a plethora of literary references, and a vast cast of aesthetically pleasing characters, and what do you get? BSD! Chock-full of meaningful messages on overcoming past traumas, fighting against the inertia of despair, cultivating a sense of self-worth, and redemption, this anime does full service to Asagiri’s ongoing manga. From the zany suicide enthusiast Dazai Osamu to the weretiger/cinnamon roll Atsushi Nakajima, you’re bound to fall in love with at least one of the members of the Armed Detective Agency as they use their magical powers to fight against forces of crime and corruption that threaten their city. Excellent soundtrack, lovely animation, and characterization that progressively deepens, especially during the second season. I’ve only seen this subbed and thoroughly enjoyed it!Thanks so much for the ask!

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