#the only one who respects me

[transmascissues]

today, my coworkers’ refusal to see me as a man put one of our patients in a position where they felt unsafe for the third time. i’ve been at this job for less than two months total. i don’t even care about getting misgendered anymore, i just want the people we’re supposed to be taking care of to feel comfortable around me.

i work at a hospital where we have to supervise our patients in a lot of vulnerable situations. there are safeguarding rules in place for certain things that male employees aren’t allowed to be present for when it comes to female patients. and yet, the people training me and telling me what to do have repeatedly put me in situations where i’ve been forced to do things that the female patients aren’t comfortable with me doing. and because they have repeatedly failed to teach me the rules for doing my job as a man, i have no way of knowing when i’m crossing one of those lines unless one of the patients tells me.

i’ve had to watch a victim of SA stare at me in abject terror as my coworkers asked her to strip naked with me still in the room. it took several minutes for her to even be able to speak enough to ask if i could leave the room. i found out after that she broke down crying the moment i walked out. my biggest regret is that i didn’t realize what was happening fast enough to leave before she ever had to say something, because she shouldn’t have had to say it. i never should’ve been allowed in the room in the first place, because that’s not something male employees are supposed to be present for. but i didn’t know that yet, because i was training and i thought surely, they wouldn’t train me to do something that directly violated their own safeguarding rules. that moment was the first time, and it’s haunted me ever since, but it wasn’t the last time. not only did it happen for the third time today — it almost happened for the fourth, and would have if someone hadn’t spoken up to say they should pick someone else. i care for these people so deeply, it’s why i took this job, and i’m so tired of hearing the fear in their voices when they have to ask me not to do something i never should’ve been told to do.

i’m very used to the personal discomfort of being misgendered. i willingly deal with it a lot at work as well as in other situations, not because i’m in the closet (at this point in my medical transition that would be impossible), but because it’s such a frequent occurrence with my coworkers that we would never get anything done if i took the time to correct them every time. but to see it get to the point of causing such visceral discomfort in other people? people i’m supposed to be taking care of and keeping safe? that’s something else entirely, and i’m fucking exhausted.

and after all of that, some of them still look at me like i have two heads when they tell me what to do and i say “i can’t do that, only female employees can” because i’m learning now. clearly i’m already seen as a man by our patients, but my coworkers would still rather put them in an unsafe situation than just train me as a man.

#to be clear it’s four different things they’ve asked me to do that im not supposed to #as soon as i find out about one rule they ask me to violate a different one that i didn’t know about #i will never ever forget that girl’s face and i’ll never stop being angry for her #for all three of them but especially her #i hate my coworkers for a million different reasons #the patients are the only reason i didn’t quit this job after the first day #i just want to do right by them and sometimes it feels like i’m the only one working there who does #it kills me because the patients who know im trans have been so great about it too #most of them know nothing about trans people but they’re so willing to learn and so respectful and we’ve had such great conversations #they’re getting fucked over by someone else’s transphobia when they themselves don’t have a single transphobic bone in their bodies #i hate this place because i care about the people in it too much to stand by the way it treats them and it’s killing me #transandrophobia #transandromisia #transmisandry #virilmisia #virilphobia #anti transmasculinity #transmascphobia

[otaku553]

I have an agenda.

Long hair teenage sabo.

#one piece #sabo #you cannot convince me that he did not have a long hair phase #like if he grew out his hair to hide his scar he has to have tried more to hide it more thoroughly #I found a fic recently that followed sabo’s growing up in the revolutionary army and it was really really good #I want to see more amnesiac teenage sabo acting awkward around his peers because even back on dawn he had only two friends #more of kids being insensitive and asking about his scar which even he has no idea how he got #and koala and him being antagonistic towards each other #and them slowly becoming friends #anyways I’m so. I tried going onto YouTube to see if there were any good video analyses of sabo #and like yeah I can see why sabo would be a divisive character #but I also completely forgot that there are one piece readers who have not an ounce of media literacy #or respect for female characters #something something ‘sabo is like an oc insert because he exists so distant from everything and just in time to replace ace’ SHUT UP #or ‘favoritism towards sabo because he has a hot girl following him around and more hot girls in the revolutionaries’ I AM GOING TO GO INSA #KOALA IS HER OWN CHARACTER AND AN EXTREMELY INTERESTING ONE THAT DOES NOT EXIST JUST TO BE EYE CANDY OFF OF SABO’ ARM #SABO IS AN AMAZING CHARACTER IN LINE WITH THE THEMES OF ONE PIECE AROUND FREEDOM AND EQUALITY

[queerprayers]

i want to say first of all that i fully respect a community's/denomination's/culture's right to have closed practices. i am not entitled to other people's traditions, and when i am a guest in a space i understand that everything is not automatically for me. and i know i do not have to understand to respect.

and also! when i go to a catholic church and can't receive communion i want to fall on the floor weeping. what do you mean i can't have him he's right there. sorry my baptism was the wrong kind of baptism. i'm hungry and you want me to become someone else before being fed.

#lutheran alert but will NEVER understand closed communion. i respect it. but i do not get it #none of us will ever be holy enough to hold jesus within us but we do every day anyway. and so we are #communion is what brings me to god. to put a barrier of entry on that. to say you have to believe certain things or be in a certain state? #idk it doesn't sit right with me. #again i respect it i have catholic family ik the beliefs/history/good intentions. #but i need to come out as an open communion fan #roman catholicism didn't exist yet at the last supper. jesus said do this in remembrance of me. #everyone who does this has already fulfilled the requirements to be present at the table #i think that was the only hard part of my grandfather's conversion. that he could break bread for me at the altar but couldn't give it to m #i would give anything to watch him preach one more time (he's retired/sick now) #but more than that i would give anything to be fed by him again. to eat with him as our lord commanded #just once. #i will have to be satisfied with the foretastes of the feasts to come that i have received from/with him. we'll have that again

[bericas]

isaac & scott / mason & theo | sometimes all i think about is you

#twedit #twvid #scisaac #mason x theo #twrarepair #back on my scisaac masontheo parallel bullshit btw #back on my masontheo is just scisaac if they were True enemies to lovers bullshit. btw. if anyone was wondering. #like of course scisaac and masontheo get paintaking scenes. its enemies to lovers. ofc mason calls theo a bitch its FULL enemies to lovers #for clarity the hands at the rave and the masontheo hug r parallels to ME bc its touch with an excuse for it #scisaac can brush hands when theyre holding a needle between them and theo can hug mason when its a means to an end #the rest i feel r fairly straightforward but i wanted to share the vision for that one #mason hewitt #theo raeken #scott mccall #isaac lahey #tw #oh also the last shot is the last shot of isaac and theo respectively. if that wasnt clear. #like how isaac and theo both nebulously sort of Gone from beacon hills #and the theo shot also to me looks like footage from The masontheo ep 618. btw. which just brings me joy #actually i have more to say. hi. masontheo r just so. #you know how isaac kind of has. he has the awkward tenderness of someone who has never been loved and is forced to improvise #theo doesnt even have THAT!!!! scott holds out a hand and isaac takes it with an awkward fervor #mason keeps his hands to himself because he doesn't trust what theo might do with it and theo can only help when its helping himself #bc the tenderness will be TOO AWKWARD. so isaac says he wont leave without scott and theo says we need to find him so i cant leave you #so isaac grabs scott because scott makes him feel safe and theo can only grab mason when its part of a script bc thats how he feels safe #HELLO. IS THIS THING ON. DO U GUYS HEAR ME. SCISAAC IF THEY WERE TRUE ENEMIES TO LOVERS!!!!

[incorrect-bridgerton-family]

Gregory: Anthony will come up with a solution.

Anthony: I will try, but despite what you all may think, I am not Superman.

Eloise: Was anyone seriously thinking that?

Colin: No.

Benedict: Never.

#bridgerton #incorrect bridgerton quotes #bridgerton incorrect quotes #incorrect quotes bridgerton #incorrect quotes #anthony bridgerton #eloise bridgerton #benedict bridgerton #bridgerton siblings #colin bridgerton #gregory bridgerton #bridgerton family #source: stargate atlantis #Gregory is the only one who gives Anthony respect #and that’s funny to me

[seventh-fantasy]

- 你这个人最大的弱点就是喜欢当英雄。一个剑客不该有弱点。 // 李相夷是死了，他的剑没死。横扫天下容易，断相夷太剑不易。 - 我与他十年前海上一战，赢了他半招，他却死了。这世上再无对手啊。 // 李相夷，你我之约无人可以替代。

#莲花楼 #mysterious lotus casebook #cdramanet #cdramagifs #asiandramanet #dailyasiandramas #cdramasource #cdrama #cheng yi #xiao shun yao #dihua #lhlgifs #jielin's edits #my posts #do you ever just think about how nobody in this whole world knows huahua better than dfs does and you cry #the two times dfs saw through him became the two deaths he died as lxy and llh respectively #the first time lxy understood what dfs said to him only after he died #he said didn't you tell me that my weakness is that i liked being a hero and so now i am no longer #the second time llh chooses death because he took what dfs said to heart and etched it in. #dfs told him to let go and he did. the irony is that dfs ended up being the one who couldn't #he recovered lxy's broken sword. somehow. and kept it close to him #the irony is also that he never really understood what lxy ever needed in life #and that what he himself needs (lxy/llh to be in his jianghu) #is fundamentally at odds with what lxy/llh needed (to be gone from jianghu) #so he's gonna spend his whole life grieving with his sword at rest #(tl mine. took liberties bc i have no clue what anything is called in en like 相夷太剑 lol #and i'm aware that line doesn't go with that specific yearning dfs but it's short enough to fit :p #ideally it wld have been 明月已获沉西海 悲风何处催八荒 but i used that alr and too lazy to tl)

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

Thinking again about how “you kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath” has driven so many of Taylor’s relationship, even with Joe to a certain extent, and she seems to have finally realized that oath is no longer worth keeping because it’s actually a curse she’s finally broken 🙃

#that’s too many allusions #what I’m trying to say is she’s been treated like a dirty secret #even by men who were supposed to love and respect her the most #and I feel like she’s finally starting to break free from a lot of that past shame #and realized how hiding herself in those past situations #only benefitted the other party #the tortured poets department #will never shut up about how kept me like a secret kept you like an oath is like one of the thesis statements of her discography #along with give me back my girlhood it was mine first

[nientedal]

call me crazy but i really think if you haven't actually watched something, loudly hating on it and posting about your massive throbbing disappointment in the tag is pathetic. hilarious bullshit nonsense. form your own opinion instead of just swallowing what's fed to you.

it's not "Megamind 2," it's a show for ages 6 and up. give it some fucking grace or leave it alone if you haven't even had the decency to watch it for yourself.

#megamind #megamind rules #megamind vs the doom syndicate #it's fine to watch some of it and decide it's not for you. the pilot is paced kinda weird #but the show itself is honestly quite cute and good #there's plenty of people who didn't like it who did watch it but i actually have not seen them screaming and tearing their hair #just quietly acknowledging their disappointment #which! is fine! #i just think it's hilarious that the only people shrieking their fool heads off #are the ones who've unquestioningly swallowed YouTube's hateboner lmao #the fastest way to lose my respect: calling the new material Megamind 2 #tell me you know nothing about it without telling me you know fucking nothing about it

[rythyme]

"supernatural is the most unhinged media experience." okay. okay. sure. you can think that. but did jensen ackles or misha collins ever find gay erotica based on them and go "you know what i should do? bankroll a TV adaptation and star in it." and then actually do it? did they spend millions to show their bare ass on screen and moan another man's name during a gay sex scene. did they let their costar give them a footjob in the name of gay romance. did they.

#mile phakphum continues to make me lose my mind. like he did all of this AND it was his debut acting role. what the actual #anyway #kinnporsche #lgbt drama #mile phakphum #thai drama #fuck it i'm tagging the spn stuff bc while i respect them i need them to know that they're not the only ones who can get insane fandom shit #supernatural #spn #100 #500 #1k

[faerygardens]

I’ve seen a lot of people saying “the only one I feel bad for on that sub is the 19 year old” and while I definitely agree how awful and tragic it was that he was pressured into something like that which ended the way it did, I also feel that, after learning more about him, Paul-Henri Nargeolet deserves a lot more sympathy than he’s gotten

#fae.txt #oceangate #titanic #i say after learning more about him because I didn’t know who he was before listening to a news report about it earlier today #and it’s a little infuriating how little respect he’s gotten in this situation #they had his friend talking on cnn and it just made me even more angry #they keep trying to label everyone on the sub as ‘explorers’ #meanwhile PH was the only one on the sub who ACTUALLY was an explorer #he’s also a major reason why we know so much about the titanic today #death

[callibones]

#rhythm heaven remix #rhythm heaven #breaking bad #i dont know how to make visuals (yet) #so this is audio only for now! #but... maybe ill figure it out #soon #i hope #in the meanwhile. um #i thought ppl might like this #i looked it up and i couldnt find anyone whos already done it? #which really surprised me #maybe i just didnt look hard enough idk #i spent hours on this #but i spent the most time on the you are not the guy section. because i tried like 7 different minigames #wanted to pay my respects #oh and its all rhythm heaven fever cause thats the only one ive played LMAO

[teamfortresstwo]

To be honest I think a lot of the horror of Elias comes from just how unlikely it is for someone to notice he’s missing

#He doesn’t have anyone close to him and the few people who do know him are only exposed to the casual smiling mask he puts #One that Elias could easily mimic or hell might even be close to the way Elias normally acts given that he has a similar propensity for #masking. Plus ogElias was never stupid. In fact he was known to be very smart. he just didn’t try to reach his full potential. also he didnt #even get high THAT often. he tried to be respectable and put some effort into preparing for an interview with James Wright #In fact the way he yearns for respect. the way he says he’s afraid of spiders. the way he is marked by the eye. hell even the implied #neglectful parent makes me read him as a parallel to Jon. #Which as we know acts pretty similarly to Elias #all things considered #Also Elias was ambitious. Sure he didn’t have the motivation to grab life by the horns as it were but he always thought he was meant for #something better. bigger. and that’s also part of what made his body snatching feel so cruel. #and o feel like a lot of these little tragic details are often ignored by the fandom #Elias Bouchard #original Elias Bouchard #TMA #the Magnus archives

[sweetlullabyebye]

They said 'hypocrisy who'

#jongwoo like 'u are NOT gonna approach this man that's calling me honey do u hear me' #jongwoo telling seokyoon to mind his business like he's not the one who's been snooping around from the start 💀💀 boy #'he's protecting him' the only way to protect him is to carry seokyoon out like a potato bag and run away from the city #meanwhile moonjo is just going wild #'how dare u do things like this we have procedures >:(' *proceeds to not respect any procedure* #yoon jongwoo #seo moonjo #strangers from hell #hell is other people

[erabu-san]

Hmm I apologize again for the rant !

It is not the first time I am doing it. I might forgot to put "please don't tag it as ship" under my drawing of tighnari cyno. Please, do not !

I love them as best friend, I love them as brother/found family, I don't mind the queerplatonic relationship at all

But their romantic side make me pretty uncomfortable. No hate ! It is my own taste.

Shippers are always welcomed and I am so glad you like my content 💕 but all my art concerning them (unless I tag the ship) are purely platonic. I just ask for some respect of my taste and not reblog my art with the ship tag.

I don't want to block, because I am genuinely glad you enjoy my work and as a young artist, it means a lot for me. Thank you so much 🙇 !! But as a human, I can't deny how uneasy it makes me feel.

Thank you for understanding !

#rant #I blame nobody #i am clearly not used to block ): I should tho but I know those who tag ship are not mean at all </3 #it is fine if you don't know. #but i saw people reblogging my art with shiptag even if i said “do not” #my art is like my only safe place please respect it #this ship is so popular and I clearly stop to interact with the fandom because of that #i clearly ignore when I saw one in my timeline /dashboard becausz I can't do nothinf against it except masking the account #but I beg you. not. under. my. post. #not in my DM #why i feel obligated to justify myself 😭 #but yeah !!! the ship is valid and full of greenflag !! wholesome !! #but I only enjoy them platonically !!! please respect 😭😭😭 I SWEAR I AM DESESPERATE WHY IT IS SO HARD FOR SOME TO RESPECT THAT OMG #gosh on twitter someone said me “ignore ??? what did you expect ??? it is the most popular ship” #I AM TRYING I AM LITERALLY NOT SEARCHING FOR FANART 😀 #feeding myself with my own food #that's why I am so grateful for people who support me. thank you. 😭 #and how could I ignore a comment under my post ??? interaction are so important for me I read everything #ANYWAY SORRY FOR RANTING !!! IT IS CLEARLY A /NOTMEAN POST !!! #next time I won't forgrt “do not tag it as ship” #but urgh if I do this I have to do in every post ???? 🤨 #and what if I draw tighnari cyno kaveh but I don't mind ship with kaveh ??? 🤨🤨🤨 (plz still don't) #tHERE IS PLENTY OF CYN0N4RI ACCOUNT IF YOU WISH TO SEE MORE CONTENT OF THEM !! Please support them <<3 mine are platonic ! #but clearly. imagine you are obsessive about two characters <<3 #but their popular ship is the one who make you the most uncomfy 😀 #so you decided to just stop looking at fanart and not bothering anyone 👍👍 #but it came under your post and your DM 😟 #AAA SORRY I AM SALTY I SWEAR I AM NOT USED TO FEEL LIKE THIS ):< #anyway plz take care ilove you mwah 🥺🥺🥺🥺💕💕

[ohno-the-sun]

Monster designs

Been thinking of an au

#sundrop #fnaf daycare attendant #moondrop #daycare attendant au #they be cursed #body horror abound #tags for me to remember lol don’t read #they only look like this during the full moon and summer solstice respectively #also ice for moon and fire for sun #obviously lol #moon is less dangerous but transforms more often so danger in that #sun transforms only like once a year so able to hide but super duper dangerous #accidentally killed his mom cause he underestimated how bad it can get smh irresponsible #moon in orphanage sun in higher income house #meet later big stand-off lol #moon with some bad peeps who kidnap people for ransom and sun gets kidnapped #bag over head so neither realize at first #shenanigans ensue #omg bestie you’ve also been targeted by some weird cult ur whole life omg same!! #also poor moon he’s only had one caretaker at the orphanage that knew about the thing and still cared for him #but then they go missing uh oh #oh yeah they need the masks #or else no memory and also they become more dangerous

[swords-of-a-soilder]

I've sleep on it here's my beef

If you wanna log in to participate in a event that fine, I get for some CC's purgatory 2 isn't lore (I mean it clearly is, but some players are choosing not to involve it in their lore.) But when you've made the discussion not to take part in the lore you can't ask about it on screen.

I literally got confused when someone told me bad had a reason and to check there lastest reblog, thinking the book gave them the reason and apologising, this fully left me thinking that the residents where told to return home until I was discussing with someone else and realized I fully misread that (I need to wear my glasses more TBh)

But this play apart of the problem because what I except was a lore reason and I went looking for it, just to find out later there is no lore reason bad just calls himself vactionbadboy halo when he wants to log in.

Look I get playing purgatory for fun, I get wanting to log in to see your friends, Tubbo did it, and Pac did it; but the difference with them being they made up a reason to be there (the boat didn't leave) is a completely valid reason.

I can see them going home and then later being drag back to the boat by the incompetent egg Island workers, but jumping back and forth to the island in the middle of purgatory is problematic.

If you don't want to take part in the lore then don't, don't ask questions about what's happening lore wise (on stream he can always inquire in dms ) , don't do things on the Island that messes with other people's lore or breaks the immersion make it easy for the actual people who care about the lore; Ie: fan fiction writers, artists, role players (I am all these things) to pretend you're not there!

This sounds dumb but I genuinely, when lore is happening take note of every little the to go "how can I explain this in lore, how could I enhance this in lore" to help with my fan art or fan works.

Genuinely I have a list of game mechanics,(chat, tabs list, death messages) and have written ways to explain them in lore, so you can imagine my annoyance when someone who isn't supposed to be involved ask questions fresh of a lore event.

I think the confusion to add to it is that Phil has been trying to do more improv on the spot right now rp; like leaving cuucurhoo the notice of the eye guy and keeping his webcam on until a big event ( and I love him for that, genuinely I love lore so much because it feeds art and fan fiction)

But I feel like im being taken a fool when someone who isn't technically supposed to be there asks questions about something they're not supposed to be awear of and even bounces of it like they're in lore "yeah it looks like we're going to war with you guys." we who? You're supposed to be Vacation halo, you aren't in purgatory right, if so how did you get home?!

Get what I'm saying? It sucks because everyone else so far seemed to-do A decent job of staying out of lore if they want to visit some committing to not coming back to the island at all (cough* bolas *cough ) .

If you don't wanna take part in the lore don't complicate the already existing lore, it annoynes me greatly.

I don't mind the attenting events so much, it's the fail rping of discussing something you shouldn't know not long after it happened. (Metagaming)

#qsmp #qpurgatory 2 #bbh neg #this is why you dont fail rp #like ok i get it its not canon for you #but it is for others #and like you need to respect that #if some players dont have the option to call upon certain people because they been kidnap despite stating they wish they could #i need you to play along and pertend you're not here dont ask about the lore #ignore the image at spawn #is that so much to ask #-50k rp points #you can disagree innthe comments but please dont do it when they intention of getting me to respond and see it your way #i get that you want people to see things your way but let people have opinions #you can state “i disagree cause” but please don't start getting accusatory towards me i domt h #i don't have the time for this #let people have opinions thanks #also if any other creator did this i would be upset #it's not a bbh specific thing its the action that upsets me #i know for a fact to im not the only one who found stuff confusion evem others are saying they cant tell what's canon anymore #like please i need players to work around not wanting to lore #be a good sport please #qsmp discourse