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simping4-2manyppl · 23 days

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HIIIII i just LOVE the way you write and i wanted to send you a request so here i am!

the band (separately) falling in love with fem! romanian! reader

like how will they react to all the traditions and the food and stuff and reader had this thick accent yk

and if you need more informations abt romania just tell me

thank you very much if you're gonna do the request!

Hii of course! And tysm! I appreciate the kind words 💗 @ma0ta thanks so much for informing me with the traditions and basically just the Romanian culture! i think its super fascinating! Anyways lysm! i hope you enjoy!! I also used some google translate, if its not correct please lmk so i could fix it! Maybe some errors btw!!

UNFINISHED

Bill kaulitz 🎤

LOVE THIS GIF OF BAE 🤭

When you first met bill he noticed your accent and asked you where you were from, you obviously noticed he also had an accent so you both decided to tell eachother at the same time.

Both being young kids you became friends quickly, eventually growing up with him. You would sometimes tell him things about your culture and he would always be so fascinated by hearing you go on and on, being able to listen to you talk about it for hours.

It truly amazed him.

That was something that you loved so much about bill, he was never disrespectful towards your culture and he always wanted to learn more about it, so much that you even taught him some words.

Naughty ones, of course. But obviously the basics such as, Buna ziua (hello) ce mai faci? (How are you?) and most of your words containing ‘your mother’. Which never failed to make him laugh.

After you and bill had gotten closer, he had learned that you celebrate ‘dragobete’ On the 24th of February, like your own kind of valentines day. And he, of course made sure to spend the whole day with you doing some of your basic family traditions and even going to dinner with your family!

But what he didnt expect was seeing how much family you had, he saw probably more than 10 family members all around, which he didnt mind at all, he was just a bit shocked.

He had met your parents a couple times before, when you were younger but never had the time to have a full on conversation with them.

When you went around and greeted your whole family he also greeted them, pulling out some of the Romanian that you taught him. He was super glad that he actually took the time to learn your language or else he wouldve just felt so out of place but your family made him feel welcomed and he appreciated that.

When it was time to eat, the table was covered with some of your favorite foods, such as, “Sarmale” (meat and vegetables in pickled cabbage and once in a while it is also put in a vine leaf) "Mici" (beef, cow, pig, etc) and "Mămăligă” ( basically an alternative for bread) and so much more delicious food.

You had served bill some of the food you thought he would like and he did! He was nervous about trying it since he had never had Romanian food before, he had only known some of the food since you had told him about it but he actually did end up enjoying the food which made you feel extremely happy that your best friend put in the effort to learn about your culture and basically all of your traditions, and especially learning to love the food.

At the end of the night, you two were outside alone, just talking about random things. After it got quiet for a while bill broke the silence and spoke up, “I had a really nice time tonight ___.” He said, with a smile on his face as he turned to you, you smiled back at him and nodded, “im glad bill!” You said, with a big grin on your face, now facing him. “He looked into your eyes as you looked into his, both smiling and blushing as his face was now inches away from yours.

He placed his hand on your cheek, smiling, “i really like you ___…” he said in a whisper. You blushed and started smiling, “i like you too bill..” you said, biting your lip, still with a big goofy grin on your face.

“___, i have been inlove with you ever since we have met. And i love the way youre so kind and your accent. Is just. Oh God i love it.” He said as you placed both your hands on his cheeks, pulling him in for a kiss.

the kiss ended as you placed your forehead on his and stared right into his eyes, with a big smile your face. That night, was the night you realized you had found the love of your life.

Georg Listing

They barely have any GIFS of my man 😔 but he looks so adorable in this AHH

When you first met georg you were walking out of the small coffee shop and had accidentally bumped into him, dropping his coffee on the ground, “Oh my! Im very sorry!” You said, apologizing.

Being the kind soul that he was he reassured you that it was okay, but you insisted on making it up to him with a brand new cup of coffee, saying it was on you.

He didnt mind as he thought you were stunning, so he agreed. You both walked into the coffee shop, getting him a new cup of coffee as promised.

You decided to sit down with him as you also wanted to get to know him better and because you werent really in a rush to go anywhere.

“Again, im really sorry! I hope the new cup of coffee makes up for it.” You said, “No yeah, its fine! Really, but i think getting to know you is better than anything.” He said winking at you, causing you to laugh, with a small hint of red creeping up on your face.

“Alrightt, well where are you from? i can tell you have an accent.” You said smiling, taking a sip of your coffee. “Im from Germany! You? I can tell you also have an accent.” He said, causing you to laugh.

“Thats amazing, and yeah, my accents pretty thick but it just makes a person so much more interesting.” You said winking, “Im from Romania.” You said shortly after, smiling up at him.

“You’re right, accents do make someone so much better and interesting, definitely more attractive too.” He said blushing, trying to flirt with you.

You thought it was cute and just giggled, “Romania huh? Ive heard it’s gorgeous over there, that true?” He said, sipping on his coffee.

“Yeah it is! How about Germany? Is it nice over there?” you said smiling. “I mean parts of it, yeah.” He said chuckling.

That day you talked with him for a while before saying that he had to leave. “Oh no, i didnt take up much of your time did i?” you said biting your lip with a worried look on your face, “no of course not! i actually enjoyed this, i was actually wondering if i could get your number? I really enjoyed talking to you.” He said, sort of blushing.

You smiled and nodded in response, giving him your number. “Well then ill see you around!” He said, as you both parted ways. After that day youd be on calls with him non stop, or together hanging out in person.

On February 28th, you had rambled on for quite a while about how you were so excited for Mărțișor. The first day of spring, one of your favorite seasons.

That night georg had told you to meet him in the same small coffee shop you had met him in you didnt think anything of it, but you gladly accepted as you were always down to go see him.

When you met him at the coffee shop he had given you a silky red-white thread that was tied into a bow, with a small trinket attached onto it.

You were surprised to say the least, but you gave him the biggest hug and kiss on the cheek which caused both of you to blush.

You admired it and smiled to yourself while he admired you, he was glad you loved it, even if he didnt know much about your culture he always tried to ask questions and search about it so he’d know more about your culture.

Expect that this one he had kept it a secret from you, wanting it to be a surprise. “I just thought id show my appreciation for you.” He said blushing, you looked up at him with a big smile. “Thank you georg, it really does mean alot to me..” You said, looking at the gift in awe, as you had a small tint of pink on your cheeks.

Gustav Schäfer 🥁

HES SOOO CUTEE AHH I LOVE HIM SO MUCHH 🙁💗

Im so srry you guys i rlly meant to finish this but i never got the time, but i hope yall still enjoy what i did write 😭💗💗💗 also im rlly sorry for the lovely person who wrote this request in they were amazing and truly a big help, i feel terrible i never got around to finishing it! And ty all for the requests aswell i rlly do appreciate it but my motivation is literally gone 😪😓 i still love tokio hotel dw!

#tokio hotel #tokio hotel x reader #tom kaulitz #tom kaulitz x reader #bill kaulitz #georg listing #georg listing x reader #gustav schäfer #gustav schafer x reader #bill kaulitz x reader

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walkingaftermidnight07 · 1 year

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Chain of Thorns: all my main thoughts

yes hello, i wanna make a large post abt this bc i just need to list everything out since i have A LOT of thoughts

MAJOR SPOILER WARNING

SERIOUSLY

DONT READ FURTHER UNLESS YOUVE READ THE BOOK

Things I Liked:

basically every moment where we got to see Will. I was laughing at so many things that Will said and I missed having that, since I will never get enough of Will's humor.

Seeing Jesse interact with the Merry Thieves. It made me so happy and I love seeing Jesse's dry humor mixed in with the Merry Thieves; he fits in with them so well.

Just human Jesse in general. Everything about him made me so happy. He was so kind and brave and quite funny.

Getting to see more of Anna/Ari. During the first book we got almost nothing of them, partially because of Ari being poisoned but also because Anna was kind of not in the main circle yet.

Christopher visiting Grace and them getting to know each other. It made me so happy that there was someone who could see past what Grace had done and could give her a second chance, and their bond over science was so sweet.

Thomastair. That's it. No explanation needed.

Ghostwriter I thought was pretty well done, but the whole "them kissing would cause Lucie to see demon stuff" was kind of unnecessary.

Jem being there for Grace and talking to her to help her through

The Watchers were a really cool plot twist I wasn't expecting

honestly the james turning on the lamp on pg 127 caused a lot of pterodactyl screeching which was fun

the Herondaisy scene in chapter 23 hehe

Effie every time she opens her mouth

Also Bridget who is my queen. she is my love, my life, my star.

Eugenia Lightwood just existing was fabulous.

Esme being the most random plot thread ever which caused a lot of unexpected laughter

"Alastair why are you so stupid I brush my teeth dont tell anyone" LMAO

Alastair with the baby

Again, Thomastair.

Matthew's eventual acceptance of Alastair into the group

Cordelia outsmarting Lilith with her deal

Belial having a weird obsession with being crowned prince of London or whatever

Also Belial's weird bird demon friend made me CACKLE

Bridgestock blackmailing Charles. if i'm honest, i think it was a great part of the plot bc it did kind of give Charles a slight redemption (but also him being kind of outted is also really bad) but i think it was great in kind of allowing Flora be able to accept Ari without fear of Maurice

Lucie and Cordelia talking abt Cordelia's boobs lmaooo/The Wicked Queen Cordelia

Grace's entire arc through this book

the different meanings behind "cordelia ran"

Things that made me sobbbb:

Will becoming a sort of father figure to Jesse

The Merry Thieves helping Matthew with his drinking

Cordelia and James when they finally confessed for real

Matthew's entire arc with his drinking and telling the truth

Christopher's death

"you are my unfinished business" IM SOBBING STILL

Christopher's death

The scene where they see that Kit's dead

Kit being dead

Intermission: Grief

the fact that kit was in fact dead and not going to come back at the end (i was in denial for the entire second half)

Matthew and James while in Edom

Thomas coming out to his family

Alastair telling Cordelia that he's always afraid for her with her being the wielder of Cortana

Again. Kit's death. (i cried a lot ok its been an emotional couple of days)

Things I didn't like:

The whole love triangle. I still don't think that Matthew truly loved Cordelia and i never believed it would be an actual love triangle

the fact that the truth about the bracelet had to be kept secret for so long. it felt kind of unnecessary. there were other ways to draw out the plot than that.

the fact that tatiana exists

Kit's death. I feel like it's so unfair that of all people, he's the one to die. it didn't feel well written, it felt like it had to happen bc she couldn't kill the queer characters and Kit was the only main character left that she COULD kill.

Grace's entire plot being kind of left without an ending.

The lack of mourning/a funeral for kit. (since we didnt get enough mourning, i think im going to write it bc i want to suffer for the purpose of completing the loose ends)

the pacing. the entire plot felt so oddly paced, and it wasn't as much of a mystery like choi or chog.

again, why christopher? i feel like matthew would've been a better choice, or perhaps sona.

magnus kind of getting written out so early

though i love our gay couples and their accepting families, it is a little bit unrealistic. i get that the point is that this particular batch of the families are very kind people in comparison to what their families become a little farther down the road(ie Robert, maryse, etc), but it still feels a little bit unrealistic.

i felt like the whole lucie and cordelia struggling with their friendship thing was a little bit too much to add into this already very full book. (although i loved the wicked cordelia reveal that was fun)

i feel like we didn't fully get the wrap up at the end that we needed. we didn't see enough of them after the battle, as they came to terms with their losses and their wins and how they would continue their lives.

also we never really got to see jesse meeting his cousins/aunts and uncles and i wish we'd gotten that.

Questions I still have:

bridget? whats going on with her? theres a throwaway line in the coda mentioning something is odd abt her, but thats it??

grace. what is going to happen to grace? i wish we could perhaps see her and figure out if she's alright.

im still confused abt the lightwood line. i guess they're trying to say that alexander is going to continue it? (that actually kind of makes sense, genetics wise tho, cuz alexander looks like cecily and alec and izzy are supposed to inherit that)

will we ever get a revised family tree?

blackthorn line???

Rupert's ghost?

fairchild line? am i correct to assume that its going to tie into charlotte's pregnancy reveal at the end?

I'm sure I have more thoughts but I can't remember them at this present moment and I didn't write them down but these are all the ones I wrote down.

lmk what y'all think abt this book

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tulipscomeinallsortsofcolors · 1 year

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i was just talking abt that with my friend. like yeah i get wanting content, but all these people abandoning the fandom bc theres no new content and making it a big dramatic deal would never have survived bbc sherlock or homestuck. also like im still in several fandoms for shows that are 100% never getting new content and have been finished for 5+ years. no new content =/= dead fandom. and the people that suddenly turn on thomas for it and start posting abt how hes actually fake and they hate him (yes i have seen several people do this) need to get over themselves. its ok to move on or be annoyed, its not okay to act like that. sorry lil rant over 😅

I KNOW its so wild to me as someone who grew up with webcomics and on fanfiction.net, where updates could take years, it was not unheard of for authors to return to unfinished wips more than A DECADE LATER and we were all just as ecstatic! i have been in the tolkien fandom for FIFTEEN YEARS and people are jumping ship over a two year hiatus ??? WITH silly little happy bonus contents every once in a while????? its unfathomable to me

hell, i see people complaining about a return to serialized shows that air once a week because they can't binge watch it all in one go, its unhinged. where is your patience. arent you tired. dont you get exhausted being fed a 24/7/365 stream of soulless mass-produced content beamed directly into your limbic system?

and don't get me wrong, i LOVE writing fic for yall - i couldn't do it if i didnt love it, and i write so much because i have so many ideas, i would write more and faster if i physically could because i have so many

but when i AM tired and when i DO want to take a break, i can't lie and say that the tendency of modern fandom to demand constant updates and new content doesnt stress me the hell out. i agonized over the 2 month gap between chapters 1 and 2 of every chance to get it right in case people considered it abandoned, a real thing i have seen people claim after a couple months of no updates on multichapters.

so yeah its just weird and upsetting to me lol. not to go all millenial on you dear zoomers but please for the love of god slow down for your own sake lol

#makes this unrebloggable so nobody gets stupid

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sollucets · 10 months

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16, 19, 23? 😚 Also, my favourite poem... Mary Oliver makes me feel a lot of things okay-

hiiii dear ej, thank you for visiting ;u; <3 (list)

16. what’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever used as a bookmark?

social security card. don't @ me

19. Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?

hmmm,,,, lets go with where am i now & where am i going

right now, i have 2 standing unfinished stories (oe and oowu) that i still intend to do my level best to finish, no matter how long it actually takes. i've genuinely never finished a multichapter fic like these; the ones i did for myself usually kind of petered off instead of having an ending i was really satisfied with. even when i finished nano it's not like the stories were done! i just hit 50k. i don't kno why i'm like this, and i want to prove i can do it because im certain i can, i just have to really honestly commit to finishing them

then.. if that works out, and i prove i can.... there's a couple things sort of on the horizon, and the first is. how can i put this delicately.

sex LMAO

recently (e.g. in the last several months) i've been writing some bits and pieces of things i'd consider spicy. you, ej, are one of the extremely few viewers of.... uh, i'd not even call it smut honestly, but as close as i've ever gotten, and i've felt the desire to really try for it recently? or at least try more. i don't kno i'm ever going to be a really explicit writer, or if i'll ever be brave enough to publish it, but i genuinely want to try. but it's......... So....... AGH. lmao.

the other is that there's an au in my brain that i'm really honestly super enthusiastic about, and the plot is coming together, and i really want to try to actually write it, but it'd be... like. a genuine longfic, i think. with world building. and plot. and again, historically i cannot fucking finish these things. but i really want to try!! i've been noodling at it for like a month and i showed the notes doc to a friend and she got really excited and. it'll probably be so, so long before any of it ever sees the light of day if i ever commit to trying but.... if you all ever see me posting abt pirates akkaye this is why

mary oliver!!!! ohh, i've read this one before and it is so lovely. thank you <3

#ej beloved #rowan asks #ask games #mdni #poems

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sunliv · 1 year

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TELL ME ABT SONELISE IM SOOO INCH RESTED ,,,, THEY LOOK SO CUTE ,,,,,

AH YEAH i think they're so cute together!! I think the way they did romance in that game was super interesting too, I hear a lot of people thought it was too small and it may just me being very aro but i thought it was perfect tbh. I love the way it's so silent and in the quiet moments, it gets me i love them!!!

I like how they both save each other, admitedly, Sonic more times than Elise but she also does bring him back to life which defintely counts!! I also really like the.. intuition? thing she's got going on and how she FEELS him, it's super interesting to me, love how she uses it to save him, and how she uses it in the final cutscene of the game, which makes me super sad btw <3

ough i have so many thoughts abt the candle scene but they're sooo jumbled i'm not gonna get into that lol

I think they're sweet!!! People complain a lot abt how Elise constantly gets kidnapped and while I get that, I think it's SO cool to see how her relationship with Sonic changes throughout the story through how she responds to him coming to rescue her! Her initial "Mr. Sonic", her literal trust fall, and also like the last "if you have time to worry then run, right" which is SO cool and really shows how she's grown as a perdon and how Sonic and her got closer :]

Though the game being unfinished doesn't help, I wish some scenes were done better, like actually finished, i still really love their relationship :] The bit with her bandaging his arm ALWAYS gets me bc i think it's so cute afsjdhks

Also also also! I love how Sonic acts!! There's one post where the op said they thought it was the most in-character way they've seen Sonic be in love and I agree!!! He's really not very typical-romance and that's definitely how he comes across!! He takes her hand and runs through a grassy field, he compliments her smile and there's a single wink and that's like the max he does lol it's not very explicit but, to me, it still feels romantic enough. Maybe it's me being aro but idc i think it's perfect

Ooh there's the oracle too that says Sonic has a lot of conviction for picking Elise i dont know man something abt that........ loving with conviction......... ough.........

AND they can combine their powers????? Like to make a shield during a couple of levels, the forcefield gives Sonic stable footing to run through the desert (and isnt that SO COOL, together they can make it safe to travel, cmon tell me that isnt cute) the game says they combine their powers and i?? wanna know more??? They never explain this further, sega come back here what does this mean-

I have sooo many thoughts abt them, they make my brain spin like a mug in a microwave but i've already said a lot sldjfkfj so THANK YOU for letting me ramble abt this i really love them🥺 thank you Winter ily <333

#HI SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG #i spent thr entire day staring at this blankly without even knowing how to answrt skdnkfnfkf #BUT THANK YOU... THANK YOU FOR ASKING ME ABT THEM #i really do like them sm :) they make me so happy :)#THEYRE CUTE and their story is nice! so much stuff fills my brain for them.......#I LIKE THEM #ok ok im done thank you for this opportunity Wintet ily 💛💛💛#mailbox #scattered-winter #winter❄️#sonelise

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crouton-knight · 1 year

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My nerd(affectionate), my aquantence, my funny lil guy on a screen-

Tell me about your ocs

I'm spesificaly curious about your pfp (are they an oc? Self insert? Im fairly certain you drew them, but did you?) But also I wanna know abt any other lil fellas youve got! I want Refrence Images (if you hve any)

HELLO I'M SO EXCITED TO TELL YOU the one in my pfp is not an OC though, that's just Karkat Vantas as a trickster. I did in fact draw him! But technically he's not mine, just the design is.

I can post the full image below! Among many others.

Due to who I am as a person, at least some of the images below will be uh. Suggestive. Proceed at your own discretion.

Trickster Karkat

I've actually drawn him like three times but this is my favorite iteration.

OKAY OC TIME

I'll start with my homestuck OCs. These aren't all of them, just most of them. I still have some highbloods to draw.

Pommeh Granit and Pemlow Matahr (originally Pomelo Tomato) are a couple of minor characters in an old fic of mine that's been bouncing around forever. Pommeh doesn't get much if any screentime but in another world he'd be some highblood's sugarbaby, sweet to their face and an absolute terror to anyone else. Pemlow is much nicer, and the tattoos on his shoulder are meant to be symbolic of the system he grew up in (as he's not an Alternian troll, he's from a colony world.)

All the yellowbloods (Hanyak Tayana, Kimchi Spanch, Javila Kanyao and Praspa Tradam) are also background characters from various unfinished fics that I sometimes give their own lives anyway. Hanyak and Praspa are roommates, and very toxic for each other. Kimchi is the only thing keeping them from killing each other. Javila is just there for the ride, and to provide narcotics.

Maeleo is actually my first fantroll! He went through a bunch of redesigns though. I think someone once said he looks like a pokemon trainer? I think I might lean into that lol. Champion Fiduspawn player.

Tassit, Sazaly, and Lasusa are also some older characters who've gone through some redesigns (Lasusa the least, she's always been scrungly). The three of them are from the same fic as Pommeh and Pemlow, as maintenance crew (Tassit) and medical crew (Sazaly and Lasusa.) Hareer used to be a Beforus troll but then I made them an Alternian bounty hunter.

Yadmir is a smuggler who runs both cargo and people off locked down planets like Alternia. He only shows up in a couple scenes in one of my more recent (unfinished) fics but I think he's kind of charming, in a slimy way.

Claris is just horrible and I'm pretty sure she eats people. Like not even grubs, straight up people.

I also have Lilnas Rodey and Candra Somvar, both of which I need to actually draw myself at some point. There's more than these but... yeah, still no refs.

DragonFable OCs!

I still need to draw most of them. But here's the ones I've already drawn.

Dave, a fan-child for Notha and Remthalas, cloned mostly from Rem's DNA but with a little Notha in there for variety. He's a menace and I love him. @oddeyesight and @valorousowl (as @justanothalyehr) are partially responsible.

Duroc, Elemental Spirit of Vivacity. He's a hedonist and a bacon-aligned spirit, and I mostly made him because I thought it'd be funny.

Somnarine, another abyssal elf. He's an old friend of Rem's who was away when the other abyssal elves got taken out by Kathool. Lots of headcanons involved in both his design and backstory. His skirt isn't actually that short, he ties it with his belt when he's on land. Right now he's traveling among other water elf settlements to try and gather as much of his people's history together as he can. Very much a lover not a fighter, and needs rescuing *often.* (Kind of a simplified sketch, will do better eventually.)

I've only recently gotten back into DF though so again, more OCs, not that many refs.

Puella Magi OCs!

I have. A lot of witches. Which I will not list, because I mostly use them for RP, and they die pretty quickly lol.

But here are some of my magical girls!

Chiyako Watanabe, my first Puella Magi OC. Rich girl, very polite and sweet on the first few meetings, but actually really intense and even a little violent. Has a pretty fragile ego, and a tendency to not ask for help until it's too late.

Tsukiko Usada, 18 or 19 years old, living on her own, and actually really shy and nervous around everyone. Has an interest in idol culture and fashion, but doesn't think she'll get anywhere with it, mostly because she's trans and still needs to get over her own internalized issues. (Her outfit was originally just blue but then I did the trans flag palette as a joke and thought it looked much cuter.)

This one's much rougher due to the situation around the image; a few people from the RP + myself wanted to make a manga but it didn't really get off the ground. Olivia here was one of the main cast; she's really cold and bitter outwardly but actually kind of a crybaby. Also half-Belgian, hence the name.

I have one more, but she still doesn't have any art; will hopefully get around to that sometime.

Non-fandom OCs!

Surprisingly, this Madoka-looking girl is for an original project that I've been pinging around in my head for a few months. Miko Sugihara, an unlucky magical girl who works for the Yakuza due to them holding her mascot critter hostage.

Knoell here is... something. He was abducted by Krampus and transformed into what he is now. Really I made him for smut.

Nikolai here is basically my self-insert! I do not own any of this outfit in real life, alas.

Hoo, that's already quite a lot, so I'll stop here for now. Might post more if anyone asks again. Thanks for dropping by! Feel free to ask details about any of them.

#my ocs #my art #puella magi madoka magica #dragonfable #original #homestuck #asks #asylumdream #fantrolls

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marwankenzarisgaylittleearring · 2 years

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(re: big boi post, bc I figure not rbing it again is less walloftext)

Capitalism Dudley McMahon :( :( :(

CROSSING HIMSELF. The thing wrong w/ Nicky is, as ever, Catholicism. hardcore is flagellation. Joe: LOSE then! Nicky: fuck you so much.

Joe screenshots and retweets a crop of posts w/ the caption ‘yeah, a bell jar’ and giggles out loud, so Nicky kicks him, bodily, off of the bed.

Wanting whatever the keane v yusufnicky is in this au to take place as a staple gun match now

All of the Andy shit. Chefs kiss. Also glory days Andy and her axe Making A Metaphor abt the og dyke flag…fuck… OH ALSO-ALSO, the black parts of the face paint in the labrys-shape

In MY mind palace Nicky and Quynh are the t4t of branch this polycule and she can compare him to all manner of mid-sized predators. All those hobby lobby ‘the fastest way to get to a man’s heart is through his stomach’ needlepoints, but instead it’s ‘u access subspace through the Gender.’ What the FUCK was I talking about.

Having an ‘I’ve connect the dots (I haven’t connected shit)’ re: Booker/Copley parallels, and Andy/Nile parallels. The former as grief as a wound needing to heal, the latter as grief, as infection, which needs intervention. But all of it abt maladaptive coping. Like, Andy needs to address w/e happened with Quynh. And mb the au version of Nile not seeing her family, bc I don’t like to kill them off, is her father’s death/career change/xyz causing her to pull away from them, & she has to deal w/ that.

Is this Copley v merrick then. & Nile coming in clutch w/ the kendo stick. & Booker, as ever, having his neck broken doggy-style (love how dramatic the announcing is)

Sdhjgkdlsq not the ‘lose then’ god their dynamic is just the absolute crème de la crème truly the epitome of like. Puts them in a cage together and notes down their behaviours. <- meant that in a labrat sort of way but hello nickyjoe cage match who says no

The reason this au is so fucking good btw is the combination of like. Actual violence and bodily harm. And also the bodily harm tht comes from kicking ur boyfriend off the bed in a mean and not so gentle way, but its ok bc u kno he can take both it and u, and also you’re doing it at least 25% because it’ll give you an advantage in ur next match. But only 25%. Maybe 30%

Never seen a staple gun match. Disregard the fact that I have 10 tabs open rn to yt videos of wrestling lemme open up a couple more. Agreeing even tho I havent seen one yet because like yeah I mean. yeah. In this situation is it a tag team thing or is it like one on one w one of the two running interference. Either is so fun . <- wait now Im thinking abt the implications of a no DQ match cause obv u can cheat in a no DQ match thats kinda the point r u allowed to bring in other ppl to fight ur fight with u … no idea. Love the idea of it tho.

Also also now Im thinking of a merrick et al v guardofblack blood&guts steelcage match. Of the cool hand ang covered in blood, mjf throwing Jericho off the top variety. Of the booker realises he’s fucked up and sorta refuses to fight back & just sits there bleeding perhaps throwing himself into the punaises (forgot the word) someone brought in bc its the whole ‘i deserve to suffer thing’ variety. Thatd be so annoying. Like the guard would be annoyed extra with him like stop trying to be a martyr a) you are so stupid b) get out of the way I am TRYING to do smth here

OUGH LABRYS FACE PAINT. SECONDING THAT. SO GOOD

“In MY mind palace Nicky and Quynh are the t4t of branch this polycule” obsessed w u. Giving this its own response to let it breathe like a fine wine Im sipping down in gulps.

Nicky & quynh is deeply underrated as a dynamic <- man who has never done anything himself to actually create a nickyquynh dynamic. Man who has always put Nicky with Andy and quynh with joe. Man who thinks he’s right on both counts because Joe and quynh also deeply underrated. Theres a (severely) unfinished fic in my drafts in which Nicky & quynh r rival wedding planners and Andy & Joe r their right hand men respectively and both couples start dating each other in shameful secrecy & then its like girl what were YOU doing at the satan’s prayer circle that is getting on ur knees to suck c— anyway where were we. Not important. Just saying all their dynamics are everything. ANYWAY YES screaming u access subspace thru the gender. Thesis statement of a very important b-plot somewhere halfway through this “”fic“”

Maladaptive coping is, to put it mildly, the only thing worth reading abt in fic. sorry. I mean I know I legit cant say that because Ive only written one fic of that variety and its not even on ao3 bc I abandoned it but I contain multitudes I can be a hypocrite as a treat. Yelling yelling yelling abt the wound/infection situation. oh. ‘we could fix each other’ ‘we could also fix each other but we are instead going to make it so much worse. Hey Andy where did u put the blinders Im going to fix them so firmly onto my head.’ & yeah I also think that nile’s familial situation can be like. She just travels so much and has for such a long time from such a young age (olympic wrestling first & now this) all over the country to where her family can hardly follow her around all the time & maybe she goes home a little less than she maybe should and maybe she lets her phone die on purpose sometimes . Maybe she feels shame about utilising violence as a form of entertainment instead of for a Good Cause like her father did. Maybe this shame is entirely unwarranted but she’s too scared to find out bc yk. infection. Etc etc

[takes my shirt off & points @ my hardened jaw at the wrestling function] I fucking love wrestling I love low blows I LOVE THE WAY EDWARDS COMES IN I LOVE PICTURING NILE LIKE THAT. AND I DO MEAN ALL OF IT. SITS DOWN 2 PUT THE KENDO STICK IN HER MOUTH. MAKES SNOW ANGELS ON THE METAL RAMP. NOW THATS THE HASHTAG VIBE.

#btw i see ur 'mutually assured destruction' challenge for me to make the moodboard & so u could make the playlist. Just U Wait.#wrestling au #also where do u stand on the bookersreligiousidentity uhm. i dont wanna call it debate bc its not that deep but yk whats the vibe for u #bc id love the parallels of nicky's catholicism thru wrestling hardcore flagellation but not as such that deep rooted shame #v booker with more of the shame and less of the catholicism but still experiencing the baptism by fire type of emotions #(i kno baptism by fire is a phrase which means a specific thing that isnt nec relevant here but ykw i mean. just general baptism by fire)

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spookyenderman · 2 years

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good evening i remembered taylor wrote a fic abt the time sheepard’s horns grew in abt 1500 words, non-graphic description of a character being sick

there was a distinct pounding in sheepard’s head when he came up from the mine. he’d had headaches before, of course, but never had they been this frequent and debilitating. sheepard gingerly rubbed his temples, wary of increasing the pain rather than soothing it, especially since the pain started around there and radiated until his head felt it was about to explode. at that point, he could do nothing more than hope a few sips of a brewed potion would help. more often then not however, he’d wind up curled in bed and suffering the day away until the headache passed.

they certainly had been getting worse, though. it took longer and longer to recover; he’d started out by being out of commission for a few hours, but the last one had left him bedridden for nearly two days. it was terrifying to be stricken with a terrible and unknown issue on a world without advanced medical care, only relying on potions he clumsily brewed himself. potions that he was quickly running out of, and fear of getting trapped in the nether realm with his head the way it was had kept him from renewing supplies.

a sharp pulse of pain brought him back to where he was stood in the entrance of the mine. the weak light of the early morning sun made him thankful he’d not stayed down longer. but the light would only grow stronger and he still had supplies to put away- smelting could wait. sheepard hurried across the grassy clearing towards his storage shed and slipped inside with a single button press and relished the brief reprieve from the sun.

the furnaces had been emptied before the trip into the earth to prepare for the next load of ore, and smokers waited for raw food to fill them up. the trip out into the surrounding savanna would have to wait, as there was just enough time to unload and grab a potion. he eyed the potion barrel unhappily, knowing the contents within without even having to check.

plenty of useless damaging potions, a pair of long duration water breathing ones and just one each of regeneration and health.

sheepard also knew the ingredients barrel was no better, but he checked anyway. confirming that nothing in there was what he needed for the valuable set of potions, he closed the barrel with a thunk and opened the other. he reached in and grabbed the two potions before making his exit, eyes shielded as he hurried across the grassy lawn once more and into his house. it hadn’t been far, but his head felt as if it was about to split open when he finally shut the iron door behind him.

blessedly, all the pets were outside, lanterns had been put out, and the jukebox was empty and silent. as much as he wanted to shuck his armor quickly, he knew the careless clanging would only make it worse, and he took his time. finally freed from the heavy armor, sheepard stumbled to bed. he set the two potions down on the floorboard and curled up under the covers. with a second pillow covering his head to try and block everything out, he did his best to drift off.

he tossed and turned, pain keeping him from any true rest. he had no idea how long he’d tried before he finally gave in and sat up to reach for the potions. he took a few precious, small sips from each bottle in hopes of easing the pain enough to actually sleep the misery away, but no such luck. sheepard had barely laid back down before a wave of nausea washed over him and his stomach revolted. he barely managed to lean over the side of the bed before he was sick, only adding to his pain. the foul taste in his mouth was ignored as sheepard flopped where he was, head on the edge of the bed. he didn’t have the strength to move anymore, consumed by pain.

time continued to pass as sheepard lay there in a haze of brain-melting pain. at one point, he thought he heard himself cry out for someone- anyone- to come ad help him. hot tears trickled down his cheeks as the pain reached unbearable levels, joining the puddle of sick on the floor. at some point his body just gave up and sheepard didn’t even realize as a wave of black overtook him. when he had a brief moment of consciousness again, he imagined himself in medical, being taken care of. the imagined relief didn’t last long and sheepard was quickly swept under again.

he woke up again some time later- he had no idea how long he’d been out. the puddle of sick had long since dried, and his throat was dry and sore, his tongue thick- it surely had been at least a few days since he’d been truly conscious. his head still throbbed, but truly the worst felt as if it had passed. for now at least. gingerly, as if afraid he’d start the horrible event all over again, sheepard felt around his forehead and found it dry and crusted. startled, sheepard pulled his hand back and inspected the dark reddish-brown he saw on his fingers.

it was strange. it almost looked like dried bl-

sheepard scrambled out of bed, his weak and wobbly legs almost causing him to fall on his face. by some miracle he stayed up right long enough to make it to the cauldron that acted as a sink in a corner of the house. he supported himself on the edge, terrified of what he’d see in the reflection of the water. he stood there like that for a few moments before finally gathering the courage to look, and then immediately look away as what he’d seen left him feeling faint.

it took longer for him to build his courage up again, and this time sheepard forced himself to make eye contact with his reflection. the changed eye color had been hard enough to deal with. this? this was downright impossible to handle.

his hand trembled as he raised it, tracking it in the water as it got closer and closer. finally, his hand made contact and his stomach somehow dropped further . they felt real, they looked real, they had to be real. sheepard leaned heavily on the makeshift sink, too overwhelmed to move or do anything else.

horns. he had horns.

they were just small nubs above his temple, but they were certainly horns.

had they been causing the headaches? no wonder he’d felt more and more fucked up, and he was grateful he didn’t really remember anything of the time spent suffering in bed. gently, sheepard washed the dried blood away and shakily returned to sit at the edge of his bed to assess what he could.

he was exhausted. his head still ached, and everything felt awful in general. all he wanted to do was curl up in bed and be miserable but a distant moo reminded him that he couldn’t. without knowing how long he’d been out, sheepard had no idea of when his poor animals had been fed, and they couldn’t feed themselves. casting his gaze downwards, sheepard eyed the potion bottles unhappily. after a few moments to steady himself, sheepard reached down, picked up the bottles, and reluctantly uncapped them. he forced a few sips of each into his empty stomach. there was a brief moment where sheepard feared he’d spew again, but his stomach eventually settled. it was doubtful they potions would actually do anything, but they were better than nothing.

the next few hours were horrible anyway. sheepard didn’t try to measure out how much fish and meat he fed the cats and dogs, and he struggled with a bale of hay before giving up and bribing a few of his horses to haul several out. it was dark when all the animals had finally been fed and sheepard was able to stumble back to the house. he was barely at the steps when a wave of dizziness struck him and forced him to sit on the steps until the lightheaded feeling passed. his stomach growled desperately as if to remind him that he also needed food- water too.

recognizing a battle he’d never win, sheepard slowly stood and shuffled over to his storage hut and to the food container within. something simple and plain that he could eat small bits of would be the best, and a plain bottled water from his potion ingredient barrel as well. as soon as he saw the food and water, it was as if his hunger and thirst increased tenfold. unable to wait a little longer, sheepard uncapped the water and took a few gulps. truly, the best water he’d tasted in so long, and sheepard felt the same about the bits of bread he tore off as he headed back to to his house.

#Sheepard KTXB #idk if taylor's error checked this or not but by god if i dont remember to do it now ill never remember to post it #i also think she said she left it unfinished which is fine #im out here making lore jokes and taylors being the real fandom experience and taking my joke lore and writing actual fic abt it #i was going to post a couple more jokes but i found this instead

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catnippackets · 4 years

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have you seen/would u recommend pacific rim 2? ive heard some things about newt and idk lol

I feel like Im in the minority that actually did think pru was fun but that being said it ended SO abruptly and with like three separate plotlines completely abandoned that I was really frustrated for days after watching it until I had processed everything and had time to think deeply about it lol it just seemed rly unfinished?? it feels like it was deliberately made as 1/2 of two sequels and there needs to be one more to tie everything up. actually I’m gonna ramble abt this bc I have a lot of thoughts (obvs spoilers under the cut)

the thing about the second one was that I genuinely was enjoying it right up until it ended because I swear to god the moment the end screen went up I yelled "what the fuck, that's it?" out loud into my bedroom bc I was so SHOCKED that THAT'S how it all ended, because it just seemed so incomplete?? Like it seemed like one half of a story, that will only be made whole if there's a third one to tie up all the plotlines that they didn't go through with in the second and if that's the case then I will be completely fine with it but if it doesn't or if they dont have a third one at all I will stay so frustrated lol. one silver lining to this is that the vibe of this movie was so different from the first that it almost feels easy to separate it and just imagine it as an AU if you prefer which is sort of nice; usually if a piece of media I like does something bad I feel all gutted and anxious and terrible that this is the canon I have to accept, but something abt this movie just made it feel like it was sort of a totally separate deal. maybe cuz only 3 of the original characters were in it idk

to start off: I felt like there were a couple of plotlines in it that were just sort of introduced and then never seen through which was very ????? Amara & Vik's weird hate-rivalry thing was one of them; Vik instantly has it out for Amara bc she’s jealous, which is a very interesting concept, and then this prompts Amara to become hostile right back at her, which is also a very interesting concept, and then it never got resolved at all? like they couldve done something really cool with those two but it just never went anywhere. and then there was sort of a weird love triangle thing happening between Jake and Nate and Jules that felt so weird bc it had no significance to the plot at all and it felt like it was only thrown in there for the sake of having ~romantic drama~ idk maybe I wasnt paying too much attention and there was more to it than that but it really just seemed like they wanted to put romance in there and didnt want to bother to put any work into it

BUT the thing about romantic sub plots is that THERE ALREADY WAAAAS OOOOOOOOONE which brings me to the biggest frustration I have w this movie because--and DISCLAIMER, this was also my favourite plot point of the movie bc it was by far the most interesting, the biggest reason for me enjoying the movie at all, and the bit I feel like should have had WAY more attention--Newt and Hermann were like legitimately in love in this movie I swear to god I was watching it and thinking “this is GENUINELY the most blatantly gay thing I’ve ever seen in a feature film and I know that straight ppl are very talented at writing gay romances completely by accident so it’s possible that they just accidentally did it this way but also it is REALLY goddamn obvious oh my gooood?” (and then I did a lot of frantic googling and found out that I was right and Charlie Day & Burn Gorman knew what the fuck they were doing and I felt so validated lol), and yet despite this, the movie had them speak for the last time almost at the halfway point of the film and then spend the entire second half apart and not talking at all and even at the post-credits scene where Jake and Newt talked for a bit Hermann wasn't there?? not even behind Jake to give Newt any searching glances?? Nothing??

dude...Newt being possessed by the precursors is a HUGELY interesting concept that actually makes sense and I wish it had had more attention. I’ve seen a lot of ppl say that pru butchered Newt’s character and I don’t 100% agree bc like...being possessed will change you lmao so while yes I’m obviously sad that he wasn’t himself, I feel like it made sense that he had a slight personality change, because it...wasn’t him anymore. we don’t really see the Newt we all fell in love with in the first movie. we THINK we’re seeing him, but halfway through we find out we’re wrong.

my critiques with that plotline are basically that I wish the reveal had happened a little bit later on, and I wish that it had been a little more obvious I guess?? like, we definitely get hints of it (when Hermann excitedly asks Newt to help him with a dangerous unorthodox project and Newt says “dude why are you doing something so risky when we’ve already got a good plan in motion? just wait for that to be done, it’s fine” and Hermann IS us, he IS the audience when he reacts, because this is a completely insane thing for Newt to say. Newt, who, in the first movie, was so obsessed with finding knowledge that he went behind the marshall’s back to literally risk his life doing something incredibly dangerous just to see what would happen? being given the opportunity to do the same kind of dangerous frivolous act and refusing? this is blatantly out of character, and Hermann is all of us when he’s shocked, “what, you mean you...won’t help me??” which means it wasn’t bad writing on their part, it was purposefully supposed to stand out as something that was wrong and something that we needed to pay attention to. that was a really good scene to hint that something was Not Right with Newt), and I wish there had been a bunch more like it. I think the reveal should have been saved for the end of the second act; I think that should have been the moment that act 2 of a story usually has, that dreadful event that happens that leaves the main characters feeling completely hopeless and unsure what to do.

I also wish that he had managed to break through more than That One Scene, I think it would’ve been more dramatic if he’d had a few moments where he managed to take control for a second to remind us that he’s still in there and still fighting, and I’m sad they didn’t do that. I saw a fan comic that touched on this idea and I think it’s brilliant, even the idea of him suddenly getting a nosebleed and acting distracted to show that that’s the Real Him trying to fight through would have been sooooooooo good.

I also feel like it didn’t make any sense for Nate to be the one to subdue him in the end, I dont even think those two interact at all so like, why was it him?? it would have been so much more dramatic and heartbreaking if Hermann had been the one to confront him so they could’ve had a little conversation on the roof where Newt could once again break through for a second before getting taken over and then Hermann could like idk have a taser hidden behind him that he uses to subdue him and THAT wouldve been a way sadder and more interesting way to do it. I also think Hermann shouldve been the one to speak to him in the post credits scene, or to have him in the background behind Jake just watching him sadly so we can get a couple shots of intense eye contact like UGH I just wish there had been more interaction between the two of them after the reveal happened!! When the movie was over and I realized they never spoke again I felt so upset!!! they're soulmates!! they're literally in love!! this has been CONFIRMED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and segueing in from the soulmate thing, another thing that made me sad was that nobody came in pairs anymore :( aside from Newt and Hermann, they were the only ones gjdfk but in the first one every character had another character that they were paired up with, both for drifting reasons and just for plot reasons (except Chau and Tendo but I’m pretty sure there's actually significance to that too), and in the second one it just sort of felt like everyone was drifting with each other with no strong connection needed and that made it feel way less special. granted, the movie takes place ten years after the first one so in that time maybe technology advanced to the point where you didn't need a strong neural connection to drift anymore, but for the sake of the story it would have been way better if they'd kept the whole soulmates concept from the first one, it made it way stronger and more special

so yeah in conclusion I did think pru was enjoyable and I probably would watch it again some time but also it definitely pales in comparison to the first one and I’m desperately hoping we get one more so they can tie everything together and FIX THINGS KFGH it’s not too late!!!!! I wish I could write Pacific Rim 3 I genuinely think I would do a good job I love storytelling and I’m very passionate about these characters!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#ramblings #Anonymous #ask #this is really long but please interact I've been dying to talk about this for weeks now

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gazeboarcade · 3 years

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Where, besides Tumblr, can people find you doing fannish things? (Obviously only mention sites and usernames you actually want to be found at. Don’t expose your secret identities on my account.)

What other names have you gone by on these platforms, including Tumblr, if any?

When did you join the IT fandom? And what got you into fandom, to begin with?

What are your favorite ships, or characters, if any, and why? What do they mean to you?

In what ways do you participate in fandom? (ex. Posting memes, reblogging/commenting on content, writing fanfic, making fanart, creating fanmixes, etc.)

Do you have any in-fandom inspirations? Other members of the community that drive you? (And if you have the time/energy, in what ways do they inspire you?)

Name and link some of your favorite works, please!

Do you have any works of your own that you feel particularly proud of, or wish more people would’ve consumed? Please provide links if possible.

Have you ever participated in a fannish event (ie. IT Week, a fic Big Bang) or applied to be a part of a fanzine? If so, which ones, and can you please link them?

Without any form of bashing or lashing out, what is something you feel this fandom is missing?

GOSH this is a lot of questions, lemme give it my best shot.

1.) I sometimes still post art on my art instagram, but I prefer not to cross the beams of that and my tumblr so much. If someone rlly wants the handle tho, feel free to ask.

2.) If this means like...nicknames, too many to count. One of my first URLs was something like “pensword,” which was a reference to Percy Jackson!

3.) I was KINDA in it in 2017 when the first movie came out, but it didn’t hold my attention too much. In September 2020, I really got into IT, tho! I got into it because I realized it was coming up on a year since I saw the second one in theaters (during a wind advisory night in the city I go to college, on Halloween). For a couple of silly reasons (my ex belittling IT a little and me being weirdly internalized homophobic abt it) I was scared to enjoy it publicly haha

4.) My favorite ship in the fandom, ofc, is Reddie! I am kinda basic so I also really think Ben and Bev are sweet. I also really liked Patty and Stan together in the book... they were so achingly sweet together that the bath chapter made me cry for a HOT MINUTE.

Richie is my all time favorite character for reasons I could probably write like 50 pages on! Some of those reasons are like super-duper personal lol so I pull punches on just dumping them on my blog haha! I just really really related to him for a lot of reasons (the humor coping mechanism and the werewolf thingy, to name a couple) so it was only natural I latched onto that boy and went full send kinnie moment!

Eddie is my second favorite bc I love him and wanted the best for him (I don’t want to start disc horse on tumblr, but my gf and I have schemed abt who should have kicked it at the end and it ain’t him). I also have a soft spot for kid Ben in the book, bc I really thought he was a sweetheart (I mean, cmon, walking around whispering Bev’s name? Adorable! Hiding away in libraries? Relatable!)

5.) I’ve done a bunch of stuff! This blog has a ton of IT content. I have made a bunch of fan art (most of which hasn’t been posted sdjbvkdsjbvk). I have written a couple fanfics (a finished oneshot and one unfinished longer one that will...probably stay that way). I have a reddie playlist on spotify, too.

6.) There’s been a few people who’ve done some IT stuff I’ve really liked! Uhh @stitchyarts wrote some fics and has done some beautiful art to go with it that I really liked!! @skelesocks did some HELLA charming art, tho is now mostly Queen blog. No shade there, I have a Queen blog, too, lol. Ask for the URL if you want it. Both of them focused on the miniseries tho.

There’s a couple artists who have done Reddie stuff I have really liked, too, which is super inspiring. here’s a few of those: @trashcanprince @mxgicdave @meowsteryyy ..... tbh fave IT blog of all time tho has to be my gf, em, @dr-kaspbrakmd , bc she got me full swing obsessing and also it was a big bonding thing for us early into the relationship *pauses for crowd to say AWWWWW*

7.) Assuming this means fanfics, like I said, a lot of Stitchy’s works, especially Tinted Windows and TV Guides (which now i rlly want to re-read lol). I kinda have a hard time with fanfic reading bc im picky and sometimes it’s better to daydream my own stories. The other Reddie fics I’ve liked will make yall get the shepherd’s hook and yoink me off stage for public indecency for sure so I’m gonna leave that to ur imagination <3

8.) I feel positively heinous and pick-me trying to get ppl to read my old reddie fics that I wrote during the crushing weight of crippling lonliness so no. they r also not rlly that good so you’re welcome <3

9.) No actually! I have thought about it. I have also schemed the idea of starting my own reddie zine and being super choosey about who gets in but that’s just me wanting to curate content I like lollll.

10.) uhhh decorum, understanding of complex relationships/emotional situations, and the common sense not to fetishize gay men <3 that sounds rlly snotty but there’s some activity tm in this fandom that yucks me out big time. Also, I wish more ppl would have seen the miniseries/read the book but that’s just me being choosy.

Anyways, I’ve been running my mouth for WAY too long but I hope this answers the questions you had good enough!! Thanks for asking!!

#I am genuinely ill while writing this so it took me SO long lmaooo But all around this was rlly fun to look back on my history in the fandom #My interests have shifted a little into some other interests #But IT holds a special place in my heart and reminds me of meeting my gf #So like obviously the simp factor is off the charts now thank u for that #Good times tho gosh I feel like I just did a real survey lol #long post

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buttslapsmcgee · 3 years

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h’okay, so, i don’t think i’ve explained something fully, since in the past i would angwy post abt my dad, i ended up deleting nearly all of it bc he was really good at finding things online - he knew/knows my handles on most websites, but here’s an update.

so my dad is. not a good person. i’m away from him, now. on august 22, 2019, my mom and grandmother helped me get everything we could carry and leave. a few days prior, my mom and i formulated a plan that would lure him out around 2-4 hrs away from the apartment we lived in so we could do that.

information abt how we’re going to get the rest of my mom and i’s stuff out of the apt will be kept out of this since as i said, he knows my handles and shit.

so, it’s been a little over a year now since i finally got away from him, and since im not around him, my brain doesnt need to like... keep memories and other shit held back. he’s no longer gaslighting me so i feel like i’m wrong.

he. really, REALLY abused my mom and i. he hit her. he hit me. abused us mentally and emotionally, calling us names and bullying us. he did that to his ex wife and my half sister. he slapped my ass and called me pretty and was generally creepy towards me. i hate saying that so much i really really do because i had just. tried to forget it. thought it was no big deal.

it was. it is. and now im having to try and process all of these things. im seeing a therapist, now. my mom is helping me. i have friends who help me.

but i dont think ill ever be. fully ok... ever again.

i remember that i tried to raise money so i could get out. it never went anywhere because i was terrified he would find it. and i dont want to know what would happen if he found it. whatever money i got from that, i saved it and eventually used it to buy new things like some headphones or pen nibs for my tablet since he began to refuse to replace old and broken things.

the final straw that made me leave was this-

1. he kept me up a couple or so nights during one week - up until around 2 or 3am -just bullying me. just. verbally and emotionally abusing me. gaslighting me. wouldn’t let me go to bed.

2. that same week, a couple or so days before i finally left... he threatened to slap me every time i wouldnt look at him while he was lecturing me like a fucking child.

i didnt want to get hurt any more. i was tired of it.

so now, im with my mom, my half sister is living down the street with her baby (im an aunt now! nice.) and no, he’s never seen the baby. and he won’t. ever.

my half sister actually said she went to visit him to get some kind of closure, without the baby ofc, and the apt was a fucking mess. HE was a mess. of course.

he regularly stalks all of my mom and i’s social media - whatever isn’t private -basically shit like twitter and instagram.

just thought any of my mutuals should know this - i know this is some pretty heavy shit for a funney humour bloge and i try to keep this kinda shit off my blog but as i said - i posted abt it in the past.

writing all this was definitely harrowing on me, but i felt like it was necessary. people need to know that even those closest to you or even people you follow on social media and appreciate could be dealing with some serious, heavy shit.

life’s a bitch. but things get better. eventually.

God won’t let me die, I still have unfinished business on this bitch of an Earth.

#oogabooga heavy stuff ahead. yaddawadda all that shit. anyways yea.

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unproduciblesmackdown · 5 years

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cockbiteproductions replied to your post: cockbiteproductions replied to your post ...

send owl city song recs pls

hmm apologies in advance for being too lazy to Drop Links but these r all gonna be on youtube i swear. here’s some Especial Faves

the hello seattle remix...this one’s long but i like it a lot

dementia. depressing title but it fucks

when can i see you again? depressing AND it fucks

if my heart was a house. ohhhhh my god. love? invented

i hope you think of me. a sorta unknown b-side that i like a lot

designer skyline

fuzzy blue lights

hot air balloon! THE most cheerful owl city song? maybe!

sunburn = soooooooo cute cute cute

dental care........pun time

cave in............

the bird and the worm! soooooo cute cute cute

vanilla twilight = another one that would come on the radio circa fireflies times. sometimes you listen to it and it’s like wow. this song huh...

thunderstruck!!! he says it’s about a ghost

can’t live without you = i just really like to sing along to it

rainbow veins :’)

super honeymoon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sky diver hghhhhhhhhhhhhghghghgh i heard this live i abt Flippped

the real world.........

honey and the bee! is very sweet :3

galaxies!!! some of his songs are more About Jesus than others (sometimes you’re just listening and a verse will just be snuck in there and you’re like, mister city that was in reference to The Lord wasn’t it!) so that can be funny but it oft still absolutely fucks. this song has killer energy

the yacht club! the lyrics!! and i freak out for the live LA performance version t b h

angels: unsurprisingly about actual angels!! but i think it’s cute and bops

kickflip - kinda an unofficial unfinished project but i loooove it

umbrella beach - i love the original but there’s a remix by long lost sun that i really love too

i’ll meet you there - there is a very Lilting Sighing quality to many of his songs that i love and you’ll find this in many more than just this one but i’ve put it on just now and im like “oh, the lilting sighing owl city sound”...i love it a lot

the technicolor phase

clap your hands - this is a song that plays for the credits of a Golf Video Game and it is such a bop lmao!!!! ppl occasionally notice that he can sure write an upbeat catchy little jam and sometimes ask him to do so

his Waving Through A Window cover (p&p asked him to do so)

beautiful times (lies down)

“wintering” is an instrumental he did for another project called color therapy and it is evocative af

june bug / in the dolphin tank / enchanted evening - all for another project called port blue

fiji water!! bop!!

montana is a fool if it doesn’t make “montana” it’s legal state song

cloud nine.........his cute love songs are SO cute!! i’m gonna snap

new york city - this one goes out to All My Friends (hehe thats another owl city song >:3 ) whom i would go on a road trip to new york city with if i could.

helicopter moon - honorable mention b/c Skye Rocket took this unfinished piece and extended it slightly + added vocals and some more instrumentals and it slaps

sleepwalker - vocals by someone else but this fucks!!!

youtopia - just Featuring owl city (adam young) actually and its by armin van buuren and there’s a couple different cuts but i think the slightly longer one is the one that goes a bit Off even more

miiiiight be forgetting something obvious and essential but hey i think this is a good start for More Songs To Check Out. wish that youtube had the little mic-test-esque clip of him singing “woke up with some cheese sticks in my bed again / i don’t want to put pants on or leave my house ever again” to the tune of “good time” but oh well

edit: here you go everyone

#cockbiteproductions #owl city #re: will i consider going to bed? i promise i Never Will Consider It

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maladaptedmeowmeow · 2 years

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Spiral bat thing, this ended up branching off into 2 different bat concepts that I’ll compile and format under a different tag as per usual. I just get carried away bc I find more species references and like, sometimes the colors don’t translate well when I start to finalise a design. Just because finishing a drawing usually means I start adding more realism to the anthropomorphisation and the simple markings don’t translate as well when I start coloring that in. Plus I have a reference photo of the bat next to me and so I start incorporating the species fur patterns which then ends up changing the design completely because new colors I add don’t work with the old ones and then I’m like no this doesn’t work well I’m changing too much should I just go back to the original ohhh but I like this new idea I have maybe this can Jsut be another design entirely oh but now I’m no longer happy with the original design so I’ll just try to make it work and then before I know it ive spent 1000 more hours fine tuning all the new ideas and just !!! It’s so annoying !!! I wish I could jsut leave things as they were but I can’t stop myself. Also like a couple weeks ago this was one of the only designs I was okay with posting like- it would have been top priority if I was sorting based on finality but now I’m looking at it like…. This sucks I’m not sure if I picked the wrong layer as the final or soemthing but this is just so ….. mid. the ear spirals don’t work they need to be simplified and the red and blonde side needs more work oh and the wings are … mid. Idk I think like just blonde legs instead of a half and half would make it better but ANYWAYYY I digressssss this is just the beginning!!! So who cares abt the state of it right now it’s unfinished !!

I also need to tweak the headshot btw! the ears and hair need cleanup and also I might chnage the facial proportions since they don’t read as a fruit bat as well as I would like them to. Like I just know I could make it better For nyeow though leave it here cos im actually not supposed to be working on this bat!! And yes it’s 2am lol my excuse everytime for an insane caption

#spiral bat #character design

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