#they had twenty four years…

[fan-kingdoms]

god i wish we had gotten more of twelve with river song. he just meshes so well with her and since their time streams are finally (almost) synced up you don’t feel the imbalance of maturity/knowledge that you get in a lot of eleven’s time with her, and less general timeline “where are they right now what the fuck is happening” fuckery to sort through. just a husband and wife who have lived so much together and know it’s coming to an end very soon so they have to relish it (even if river doesn’t have the knowledge of her own death the way the doctor does, she knows it’s almost over because her diary is running out of pages). and i love watching this older, less theatrical, more rough-around-the-edges doctor with her because it develops their dynamic and the passage of time for the doctor so well. he's not eleven, trying to hide the pain and damage anymore. he doesn't spin off lies and deflections. he wears the hurt and is comfortable in it, and river is there to bring the joy and wonder out. they just have a more mature, beautiful relationship to me.

more thoughts and elaboration under the cut bc i care for your dash <3

twelve and river were such a delight to watch because (this is getting into hot take territory here sorry) once capaldi took over from matt smith, the show basically gave up on the whole “the doctor is very attractive and all the women want him” narrative that it pushed for eleven. of course it was there with ten but i think it got Egregious with eleven. moffat really wanted us to believe matt smith was the hottest man in the universe (and he’s not unattractive! i admit i thought he was attractive when i first watched doctor who years and years ago! the writing was just over the top with it!) twelve is not some young whimsical prettyboy anymore— he’s abrasive, blunt, and old. the show doesn’t treat him like he’s supposed to be attractive, which makes him and river’s relationship feel so real.

first off i want to point out that river is still very much attracted to the doctor in his new body which was so exciting for me because how often to we get to see romance and desire and (sexually) intimate relationships in people past the age of 35??? hardly ever! how often do we see a beautiful woman expressing desire for a man that’s not young or conventionally handsome NOT because she has ulterior motives or we’re supposed to believe he’s actually the sexiest man alive but because she simply loves him? how often do we see relationships where no matter how much change they go through, even when one of them has turned into an entirely different person (figuratively or literally), the love stays steady and unchanged? especially when these changes involve aging? there isn’t nearly enough. and seeing it is kind of healing for me, just a reminder that you can have love and intimacy and passion even when you’re not “young and beautiful” anymore

twelve and river’s relationship is just charged with so much shared experience and trust and i wish we had gotten to see more of it. in conclusion i want a special that recaps the 24 years on darillium thank you and goodbye

#they had twenty four years… #all that time to just live and be husband and wife #all that time for her to learn all the ins and outs of the new him #and all the ways for him to work through how he can express love in the new body #as twelve rather than eleven #and getting to see that she loves him just the same in every form #idk i’ve been thinking a lot about aging lately #i know im young but i have a bit of a fear of it because of how society pushes the whole ‘past your prime’ narrative #especially for women who are taught that they lose value once their ‘youth and beauty’ fades #like i said seeing relationships like these is healing #doctor who #twelfth doctor #river song #the husbands of river song

[lotus-pear]

i think you guys are onto smth..

i unironically got invested in this HELP

#WHERES THE FIC AT IF SOMEONE WRITES THIS I WILL PAY THEM A HUNDRED DOLLARS😭😭 #kunikida serving the country while dazai's serving cunt😔 #dazai was born to malewife but forced to manipulate and i think that's the greatest tragedy of bsd #anyway some facts i would like to share abt this au thay i came up w while drawing!! #takes place in 1939 (start of wwii) and there was a mandatory draft that required one male over eighteen from each house to serve #both of them are still twenty two and had been engaged for abt two years before getting married that year #newlyweds! unfortunately kuni had to go fight and they were seperated :( #before the war kunikida was a math teacher at the local high school and dazai obviously managed the household and didn't work #he's hopeless at cooking and meal prep even w recipie books so they either get those prepackaged meals or kuni makes dinner when he gets ba #so like when he's making lunch for kunikida he normally just packs a basic sandwich w raw fruit #kunikida always appreciates the effort even tho hes probably sick of having the same thing everyday but he won't complain abt it #when kunikida joined the army he was relieved that the mess hall had better food than dazai #he was the only one in his platoon that never complained abt the food so his fellow soldiers assumed it was bc he came from a tough bg #when in reality he was just used to being poisoned on a daily basis from his dumbass husbands cooking and was hardly fazed from army ration #they write to each other although its more dazai sending and kuni receiving bc hes off fighting and doesnt have time to write back #dazai talks abt life on the homefront and how he has to grow a victory garden (everything is DYING HE CANT EVEN RAISE TOMATOES) #and kuni writes abt his fellow soldiers and how the war is going and when he thinks he'll be home and how he misses sleeping in a bed #ANYWAY yea thought i'd share sry for infodumping in the tags again #this post is for like the four ppl that care abt this specific flavor of knkdz so hopefully this gets four notes at least #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #kunikida doppo #doppo kunikida #kunikidazai #knkdz #lotus draws #bro sry for posting at two in the morning i couldnt sleep until i got this out of my head they have infested my brain

[toss-a-coin-to-your-stan-account]

y'know if the "I like geralt platonically and with great effort" line was meant to try to convince the audience that jaskier didn't pine for geralt in s1 then I feel like it really backfired bc being like "ugh i didn't even like him 🙄" is one of the top three things people usually do when they're embarrassed bc their crush ended up going really fucking badly

#'ugh i dont even like him' babygirl you told him he had a lovely bottom and followed him for 2 years and wanted to run away with him #jaskier #mine #geraskier #the witcher #witcher #wait not 2. fucking 20. TWO ZERO. TWENTY YEARS #. FOUR TIMES FIVE.

[druidonity2]

I looked at my fanart of War Crimes with Anduin holding himself dying with Chromie, and I decided I wanted to draw more Anduin trauma with dragons...(wip)

#world of warcraft #anduin wrynn #onyxia #Do you think this man has ever had a therapist? #I think hes stubborn and goes to the one required visit he was mandated to go to and tells her hes fine and then stews in it till he dies #He likes to be a therapist he does not like when someone talks therapy at him #at least I headcanon #'none of this matters because ive got work to focus on' twenty years later he sees mawrats in the corners of his eyes still #The moment someone SHOULD be talking therapy at him he runs away and dissappears for three...four....five years? by the end of Dragonflight #bRo dont talk to NOBODY he is NOT letting them know he hallucinates mawrats #anyway i think he focused so hard on his dad being home that he pushed all his onyxia trauma down for it to fester later in his life #Its the snow which beings the snowball that idunno does something later in life who knows #I think too much about a fictional man's mental health and not enough about my own #mayhap a reason he is thy comfort character

[beeduoo]

HELLL NOOOOO

#beeduo #OMFG i saw this tweet the other day of this girls mom eho unknowingly bought her the black version of the dino hoodie when she already had a #green one i was like WHAT THE FUCK #Like i saw that first thing in the morning my jaw DROPPED i was like NOOOOO WAAYYYYY😭😭😭😭😭😭 #in rhe year of our lord and savior TWENRY TWENTY FOUR Oh my god that was crazy #sorry i wanted to share #cbeeduo #ctubbo #cranboo #cbeeduo fanart

[ghost-proofbaby]

good morning babes i’m going to the store to pick up some twenty four hours blurbs/one shots — y’all want anything?

#this is my really really really stupid way of asking if yall have any requests for them #i’m just missing them extra today #ive been stuck on their first proper date one shot for like a year at this point and just had an idea about how to rewrite it #anyways #let me know if there’s anything yall wanna see #twenty four hours #eddie munson

[ghostwnby]

I'm 99% sure that spending 5 minutes with Renault Nano would cure my depression

#ive had a shitty day and the only making me happy rn is this little gremlin 💙 #hes so goofy #also i just found out he was TWENTY FOUR YEARS OLD when i was born 🤠 #i was genuinely shocked LMAO #formula 1 #ferrari #renault #fernando alonso

[vienna-salvatori]

It's been 10 years since 1x07- The Hub first broadcast (Nov 12 2013)

So, in honour of an episode that's been playing on repeat in my head for a decade...

Here's my theory on what's actually going on with Victoria Hand, and why she's actually a paranoid-but-clever strategist, not as petty and incompetent as she comes across as.

Ah, series 1. Those were the days. The HYDRA reveal hadn't happened yet. Everyone was happy! They trusted each other, mostly! Sure, Skye's allegiances were questionable, but they got over that eventually. May might've had that whole "secret line to Fury" thing, but they sorted that too. Coulson might've had his head messed with, but it's not like that caused serious problems with his judgement until series 2.

... that we know of.

Here's a couple facts: 1) The team are running worldwide missions. Despite this, in one season, they end up passing through The Hub on three separate occasions (The Hub, The Magical Place (I think), and Turn, Turn, Turn/the finale arc.) It's clearly a bit of a, well, hub, for SHIELD activity, and sees a lot of people coming in and out. 2) It's unclear exactly how long Hand has been in charge of the Hub, but we know from s7 that she's been in SHIELD a while. There's nothing in series 1 to suggest that her command of The Hub is a recent promotion. Coulson, meanwhile, was recruited by Fury just out of high school. He's been in the field for decades by this point.

and-

3) When Coulson first meets Victoria Hand in 1x07, he claims to know her only by reputation.

Yeah, no.

I think it's highly unlikely that he's never crossed paths with Victoria Hand before. They might not know each other well- I, personally, think it's best if they do, but YMMV- but I cannot envision a scenario where the two haven't run operations together before.

My assumption, then: they did know each other. Coulson's had his head messed with, though, and he's forgotten all about it.

From Hand's perspective: that dude she really doesn't like has just shown up. He was supposed to be dead, but whatever, they work for SHIELD, shit happens sometimes. That said, he's got the strangest team she's ever seen- Melinda May back in the field, two sci-tech kids who didn't even pass their field exams, John Garrett's antisocial protege, and an enemy agent. (We, the audience, know that Skye is clear, but Hand has no reason to think anything but the worst of her.) He's also pretending that this is the first time they've ever met, for some reason.

... Maybe it's a weird prank.

She decides not to engage with it, because she has a lot of very important work to do and she doesn't really want to deal with any of That Bullshit. Except, Coulson's acting really differently to how he did before- I don't think it's very controversial to say that pre-Avengers Coulson and AoS!Coulson are two very different people. Melinda May- who she knows is one of his closest friends- is... not calling it out, for some reason. Also, he does have a history of recruiting wildcard agents, but usually he follows protocol once they're in. This random kid he found in a van is just wandering around poking her head into things, and Coulson isn't stopping her even though that is against the system. Hand might not like Coulson, but she knows that he does his paperwork and follows the rules. He'll bend them completely out of shape, but he won't break them outright without very good reason. Or at least, he used to do that.

The whole situation is alarming on so many levels. So... she decides to test him- the stupidest, most obvious test that Phil Coulson- who has always been pedantic about the safety of his people- will catch instantly.

She'll "forget" to file the extraction plan.

He'll spot it, of course. He'll spot it instantly, and she'll roll her eyes and file the paperwork she's already filled out. She'll say that this is why they have procedures and it's important to follow them, not just turn up in someone's airspace with a team that makes no sense and ignore all rules and protocol.

Except, Phil Coulson does not notice. It takes his team members breaking protocol in front of of all of them for him to spot a problem in the mission paperwork she physically placed into his hands.

And that? That is not Phil Coulson. She might not like Phil Coulson, but she does know him, and he always looks out for his agents. That's not Coulson, and May is playing along with the imposter for some reason, even when she knows him even better than Hand does.

In the end, she just lets it all play out, because this is so far off what she expected she honestly wants to know how far it reaches.

If she tries to chase up Coulson's file afterwards, she'll hit the (canonically very weird) firewalls and restrictions around TAHITI protocol. If she tries to report the oddities to Fury or Hill, they'll brush her off- again, TAHITI protocol. There's something wrong with that dude and no one in her agency is taking her seriously.

So. Once the HYDRA reveal happens, and she starts looking for moles? Well, there's one really obvious place where standard SHIELD protocol is failing. The issue stretches to some pretty high levels, too- this isn't just baby-agent incompetence. That probably means Coulson's HYDRA. May must be too, if she's covering for him. Skye is, still, basically an enemy agent, Hand won't lose sleep over her. I have... thoughts... about the fact that Hand outright tries to shoot John Garrett out of the sky despite, or because of, their working history, but she's definitely suspicious of him, too. Ward is his agent and likely to follow his lead- when the Twist happens, Ward plays up how betrayed he is, and Hand buys it without question, which makes me think she did know they were pretty close. Simmons is already in the Hub, she can clear her separately.

Really, the only actual loss if she was to take that plane down would be Fitz.

Hand brings down the plane because she has legitimate reason to believe Coulson is an enemy agent, and so is the rest of his team. When she sends her people to storm the BUS, she wants Coulson alive, because he's probably the highest-ranking HYDRA member she can actually get her hands on. She wants some answers, damnit. The rest are acceptable losses if it comes to that.

#AoS #agents of shield #agents of s.h.i.e.l.d. #1x07 #aos 1x07 #1x07 the hub #Victoria Hand #Phil Coulson #SHIELD #HYDRA #vic has been my blorbo for like a decade now. that's insane to think about #I have entire AUs in my head to explain why she is the way she is #none of them are ever getting written but I like thinking about them #she's just. she's such a good character to rotate!!! #fourteen year old me had such a crush on her #twenty four year old me still has such a crush on her. #she's just so fun #she's a character on the side of the good guys who is only tenuously a 'good guy' herself and it makes her so delightful

[fanatics4l]

today i am sad thinking about how billy didn't have a single person in his life who cared about him or looked after him. we can assume that neil stopped really being there for billy after his mom left, so he most likely became independent and stopped asking people for help once he realized his mom wasn't coming back. he started pushing people away and getting tougher to please his dad, when all he really wanted was for his mom to come back and for someone to hear him.

he had no one throughout possibly ten years of his life and died with the knowledge that no one cared enough to save him. he saved his mom from his dad as much as he could but she still abandoned him. he saved a town he hated but ended up dying for people who would later on barely acknowledge his existence and what he did for them. like oh my goodness this kid was so selfless.

he spent his entire life looking after people who didn't care enough about him to look after him in return. every time susan looked away from him when neil hit him, he probably felt so stupid and little and worthless. billy was a kid forced to be a caretaker before he could even enter his twenties, a caretaker for people who didn't care about him.

#laugh out loud #billy hargrove #me when i make myself sad #i just have so many feelings about this boy #every time i think about how he died before even reaching his twenties #literally like four months after his eighteenth birthday !!!!! #im 😂 #he cared for all these people who never cared enough #he gave up his life for people who hated him #and didn't even try saving him 😊 #he got his strength from a memory from ten years ago #it shows that that was the last time he was ever loved #LIKE #😂😂 #he had no recent memories of what love felt like #girl bye #billy hargrove deserved better

[eddis-not-eeddis]

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#i don't really want to make a whole post about it because it was a very personal and very miserable time for me #but genuinely #the thing that got me wanting to move on again and LIVE after my life plans all fell apart last year #was sitting down and very seriously thinking about the kind of woman i want to be when i'm 70 #i hit that thing that a lot of people in their mid-twenties are hitting right now #where it feels like we've already wasted everything and not only are we failures now but we will always BE failures until we die #but right now i'm still in my twenties #and when i thought about what a good lifespan looked like to me #70-ish seems about right #and what do i want to have when i'm 70 #what skills will be useful and beyond that #what skills will be fun #i had gotten into a mindset of “too late too late” #learning to draw #or sing #or dance #or fix a car #or ride a motorcycle #they all felt like learning NOW would be pointless because *melodramatically* aLL my YoUtH HaS bEEn WaStEddd #but unless God has another plan i'm not going to die in my twenties #i'll likely live many more decades #my life probably isn't even half-way over yet #what do i want to be when i'm 70? #it doesn't matter that i don't know everything yet #i have more than four decades to work on it #that's more than the entirety of the life i've already lived #and yeah #i spent five years at a dead end job that finally drove me almost to a breakdown #but even that wasn't a waste #i saved enough to go to school and i learned a lot while i worked there

[pocketramblr]

IF THE CURSE OF THE FINGERPRINTS RETURNS I'M GOING TO

#'hey you have to redo your fingerprints they're more than five years old' THEY ARE NOT #THEY WERE DONE THE SUMMER OF TWENTY TWENTY #AND I REMEMBER BECAUSE IT WAS AGONY TRYING TO GET THEM IN WHEN NO ONE WAS OPEN AND MY FINGERS ARE RESISTANT TO PRINTING AND HAD TO GO #THROUGH MULTIPLE PLACES OF PRINTING BECAUSE THEY ALL GAVE UP #I DROVE FOUR HOURS TO GET THESE PRINTS YOU ARE NOT THROWING THEM OUT TWO YEARS EARLY!!!!!!!

[catboygirljoker]

IM GETTING A DIGITAL PIANO.....

#ooohoohoho im going to be So annoying about this #blakeposts #for context ive been playing piano for over twenty years and havent had steady access to a real piano of any description for like #four years #im honestly emotional about this

[simplydnp]

i hate the medical system <3

#sooooooo tired of old men talking to me like a child #i have two fucking degrees my guy. and one of them is pure mathematics. #dont explain things like im four and then go 'mmm i dont believe you' when i answer honestly. #i promise you. none of whatever the fuck youre doing. has anything to do with my sudden onset nerve pain. i promise. #its also exceptionally cool to be like 'hey have you broken your nose its like really crooked' #and also #'did you hit your head as a kid' because despite the several xrays. and doctors. and chiropractors ive had over the years. #apparently ive got a thick skull (bahduhmtss) #and when i say no i havent had any traumatic injuries like that. hes like mm well sometimes you just need time to remember #bestie i am twenty three years old. that is not a lot of years to recall. ive never had a concussion (or even close to) or motor accident. #i promise you if it happened @ birth it doesnt suddenly just present as nerve pain with absolutely no goddamn trigger. illness or otherwise #im sooo tired of the fighting. so tired of explaining the story over & over & over again. so tired of forms & questions & no fucking answers #c.text #illness tw #medical tw

[mossflower]

loki season two has me screaming crying throwing up trying not to get dragged back into the mcu trenches

#i am stronger than this. i am better than this!! #by the trenches i mean consuming fanfiction at an unhealthy rate. fourteen year old me was insane i think i was on ao3 more than i slept #that’s not exaggeration. i was getting four hours of sleep on school nights and frequently went to bed at 5am on weekends #it is ONE good story. one. literally not worth it. i don’t even care about ninety percent of the mcu characters #i will ignore the little voice in my head reminding of the sheer amount of fanfiction. this was my pre-tumblr days #so my fandom interaction was like. youtube and ao3. maybe instagram posts sometimes. it was so much fun like. zero drama zero discourse #i was honestly living my best life. got less interested when i joined tumblr and went full doctor who mode #and after endgame i watched i think wandavision and loki and that was it. just didnt care anymore lol #i know exactly why this is happening tho. currently the thing i am insane about is my own damn project. which i am in the process of writin #for obvious reasons no fandom there. bc it lives in my mind twenty four fucking seven #i do wonder if i’m kind of growing away from fandom anyway? the closest i’ve got since toh ended was homestuck tbh #i want to feel obsessed with something again!! everything i’m into now - tma tlt and the like - i love them #but it doesnt hit like it used to. i don’t know it’s hard to explain #like video essays that i would have loved a few years ago!! the hour long ones about representation and queer media #they just irritate me now! i got halfway through one last week and had to bail i just could not care less #how did 2020 social media have me convinced that x character being gay was super important politically economically socially etc #ofc the answer is that i was a baby lesbian getting even less social interaction than normal #like representation is important obviously but also. sometimes it was not that deep #i don’t know if i’m making sense tbh but you get my drift #morganposting

[itstimeforstarwars]

Going insane about time travel stories again.

#chit chat #thinking about carbonite... #thinking about getting trapped in carbonite for 30 years. you had a son at home. now he's older than you #your wife has a new husband. everyone thought you were dead #you are the same person you were 30 years ago. everyone else has changed #even if they want you back in the family everything is strange and difficult #you are twenty four. you are still prone to whimsy and not entirely sure who you are #your darling wife. love of your life. she is fifty three #she knows exactly who she is. she is entirely different than who you knew #of course she is! she's been living her life for thirty years! she lost a husband! she raised a child! #the grief the grief the grief the grief #you mourn what you've lost. you celebrate what you still have. nothing will ever be the same #aaaaaaaah #im going insane

[one-time-i-jumped-off-a-cliff]

azalea lore moment so in sophomore year i decided it would be a good idea to make these very time intensive cookies for all of me and my brother’s teachers the week before finals. i was up until eleven pm every single night making these goddamned double chocolate crackle cookies and putting them in the stupid individually-constructed-michael’s gift boxes. i made six times the recipe and had two refrigerator shelves dedicated to dough and formed cookies. NEVER fucking doing that again.

#god the cookies were good but FUCK. we both had seven teachers that year too so it was fourteen fucking times like twenty cookies to fill #the fucking boxes. #ACTUALLY it was like times twenty bc i had staff too. #don’t mind me #the best part was that my math teacher that year had made a math problem like ‘if zaley makes three hundred cookies and blah blah’ and was #like. haha three hundred that’s so funny that would never happen NO #WOE FOUR HUNDRED COOKIES BE UPON YOU