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braxlrose · 10 months

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silly and weird tom hcs

a/n: the last ones got deleted for some reason so I'm making a new one!

• this mf steals your food all the time. hes always munchin on something so if you have something that looks good, he's taking it. especially if it's watermelon. he loves watermelon 🍉

• he doesn't tell anybody, but he gets his nails done. he gets pedicures and manicures and loves it so much. you found out one day when he kept going off and not telling anybody where he was going. so you followed him and saw his finger and feet soaking in water 💀

• when you walked in you were trying so hard to hold in a laugh and he was so fucking embarrassed when he saw you. you thought it was extremely ironic because he always called mani-pedis "girly"

• now you two go all the time, and you're way better at making excuses than he was.

• he got high on edibles and thought his feet weren't attached to his body anymore so he started screaming 💀

• over indulges on gushers when he's high

• you guys know those Chinese finger traps? Idk if that's what they're called but you put two fingers in them and they're like really hard to get out of. he LOVES them for some reason, he thinks they're so much fun

• he loves the snow so much, and especially loves snowball fights. it's so much fun, and he also gets to wear extra layers of clothing because of the cold

• during the winter, he gets a bunch of different kinds of hot chocolates and when anybody asks what he's drinking he swears by it that it's black coffee 💀

• he loves watching futurama and says that he strives to be bender 💀 (have yall seen the new episode? I actually really liked it, ik a lot of people said they didn't but I did.)

• gets on his knees while begging (not sexually 🤨) and will even fake cry. he's a master manipulator 💀

• when you guys go to the beach he's always asking you to come play in the water with him

• for any reason if you guys happen to be at a hospital, he goes and looks at all the little newborn babies. they're so cute and he gets all smiley just looking at them.

• he loves romance movies. mf will deny it till the day he dies when anybody asks but you've seen his collection of vhs tapes and dvds. plus bill even admitted tom cried during The Notebook.

• he tries to balance random objects on his head while walking to see it he can do it. he'll add on a object every time he does it.

• he's weirdly amazing at solving Rubix cubes?

• he loves making balloons animals and he always makes the sword ones. he will literallt sword fight with anybody.

• he eats bowls and bowls of cereal so he can get to the prize at the bottom of the box. (I full-heartedly believe he's a little kid at heart)

• he tries to make home-made pizza but ends up burning it 90% of the time.

• he's extremely ticklish on his armpits, stomach and feet and will literally die laughing if you tickle him

• he also loves kids cartoon movies like fox and the hound, Anastasia, Mulan, James and the Giant Peach, etc.

• he loves slap bracelets and has an entire collection of them.

• it wouldn't be the first time you've caught him dancing and singing to Britney spears.

• tom loves everything bathes. on camera he says he prefers showers but in reality he likes bathes better. With candles, dimmed lights, bath salts, face masks, etc.

• do you guys know that episode of Friends where Monica convinces Chandler to take a bath and he ends up loving it and shit? he's just like that. if you don't know what I'm talking about here's some clips.

clip 1

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• he tried on one of your thongs one time because you dared him to wear it the whole day.

• you also dared him to get his legs waxed and he ended up doing it and he was crying the whole time

• he loves those little stories where you add in words to them. I can't remember what they're called but it asked you for like an adjective, plural noun, verb ending in ing, etc. etc. (I hope yall know what I'm talking about, I think it starts like a m or something someone tell me please 😭)

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misc-obeyme · 2 months

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I give random acts of kindness to my friends because how else do I express my love for them?? I would give barbatos rare tea or tea I know he's running out of. I would also give him a little gift maybe it's a new watch filled with my blood or a snake hair pin because there is no way those uneven bangs don't get in the way. Maybe both.

I would keep Diavolo company while doing paperwork or help him escape the castle. I would give him a ring or pen filled with my blood or something. (I probably gave him driving lessons because there is no way they taught him to drive. Why would he? He has barbatos plus others right there. Maybe a fake tattoo set because barbatos and Lucifer do not approve of permanent ones) Maybe all of them. Who knows.

-bows for barb

I think both of them would greatly appreciate any gifts you gave them! Though I'm wondering about the blood situation. I mean, someone's blood is probably a pretty potent ingredient for spells or potions... I wonder if it's something demons can use somehow? I just think that would be an interesting addition to such a gift. Like yes, this is my blood, but I'm also aware that you can use it against me if you wanted to, thus proving that I trust you not to do that... there's just something super romantic about that to me.

Anyway, I'm sure Barbatos would be perfectly happy to receive tea of any kind. I like the idea of you bringing him tea he's running out of. That's a gift in multiple ways. Not only does he then have more tea, which is always good, but you've also spared him the task of going to get it himself. It's like gift giving and acts of service combined!

I also love the idea of a hair pin for his bangs. Now I really want to see some art of him with his clipped out of the way! I think the closest we've ever had is the one with the handkerchief? Which is incredibly cute, of course, but that snake hair pin sounds like it'd be even better.

I am so here for you giving Diavolo driving lessons omg! He probably has a whole bunch of fancy cars at his disposal, too. Or maybe he only has one, but it's like a really nice one. I'd be like okay maybe we start in something a little less fancy lol. Just because can you imagine if you were teaching him to drive in some empty parking lot somewhere and he accidentally ran into something?

I think Diavolo would be so excited to learn from you. That has the potential to be really cute. Though I'm sure Barbatos and/or Lucifer would want to be there to observe, just in case. Okay now I'm imagining them both in the backseat, Lucifer clutching onto Barbatos in absolute terror while Barbatos backseat drives lol. You have to kick them out eventually because they're stressing Dia out so bad he can't focus.

#honestly that sounds hilarious #obey me #obey me nightbringer #obey me barbatos #obey me lucifer #obey me diavolo #bows for barb anon #misc answers

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aprillikesthings · 2 months

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OKAY I meant to start earlier in the day but I know once I start it will be difficult to stop lol

but I have some tasty pasta to eat let's go

(how much do you want to bet EVERY EPISODE after this is a two-parter due to the sheer amount of plot bumping into tumblr's images-per-post limit)

s4 ep11 beast island

They're talking about their plan to go to Beast Island and get Entrapta--and side note, the ship goes about as fast as an airplane, judging by the clouds/ocean's movement

will she tho

(I actually don't know! This is one of those plot points I forgot in part because I marathoned the last season and change of the show almost four years ago lol; like seriously from this point on I can remember random specific scenes but not which order or why they happened; it definitely doesn't help that a couple months ago I watched a bunch of She-Ra humor videos that are all, like, just clips from s5 in no particular order)

(seriously if you're a She-Ra fan they're great, they're especially funny if you're high as balls, which Daci and I were when I was like "hey you have to watch these with me they're hilarious")

the globe map is throwing some kind of angry alarm and Swift Wind's senses are tingling

They hit....something!

points to whomever designed that, it looks really cool, and yes, vaguely menacing

okay but you were ALSO told that Princesses were all evil soooo

They find Entrapta's mask and a Horde-made skiff and Swift Wind can hear some kinda weird noise

the ship did call it a Hazardous Materials Disposal Site...

anyway a bug-robot-thing starts to attack them--and Adora can't transform to She-Ra here!

OH HEY so the droning sound Swift Wind keeps hearing that's super fucking creepy is a Shepard Tone! (more info via wikipedia of course)

("April how do you know so much random shit?" I have ADHD and an internet connection. Also in this case specifically, Alex Hirsch once did an AMA in character as Bill Cipher, and he linked to a Shepard Tone and said it was his favorite song.)

Anyway they're attempting to fight the bug and losing

:D I KNOW WHO THIS IS :D

He scares the bug off with magic!! (Shadow Weaver did say he was a powerful sorcerer...)

dun dun DUNNNN

okay so I was confused as to how Glimmer was gonna get in there and duh SHE CAN FUCKING TELEPORT ffs

anyway Light Hope is a computer program and you're not the correct input??? you can't just order it to work pfft

YOU'RE NOT SHE-RA lol

Anyway King Micah hasn't been around other people in a loooong time and is bad with things like "personal space" lol

they're asking about Entrapta and I love that everyone in this show just Knows that Entrapta is like. Into robots. Sexually.

(I'm not looking right now but SOMEone has to have written a fic of Entrapta just making, like, really wild sex toys or fuckable robots, right? Right???)

LOL THAT'S HER ALL RIGHT

Entrapta apparently went to the center of the island but Micah is discouraging them from going. The sound Swift Wind keeps hearing is a signal of some kind from the center--

Apparently the signal is enough to draw people in and drive them mad.

poor dude

Also he thinks Glimmer is still a child and asks about Angella, and Bow and Adora just do a 😬

But they promise to take Micah with them once they find Entrapta and leave

I dunno I think it's kinda cute

Anyway as they keep walking both of them start having moments of borderline-crippling self doubt

Glimmer's killed the spiders that the Crystal Castle sets on intruders and is still trying to harass Light Hope into talking to her:

Apparently yelling that she wants to use the Heart of Etheria was the right thing to say

Back on Beast Island, the signal is getting stronger, Micah is trying to get more information about Glimmer from Bow and Adora, and also they're being hunted by critters:

There's some kind of distorted speech in the signal (which still mostly sounds like a Shepard Tone), and Swift Wind is frozen in place by it and this is happening--

CREEPY AS FUCK

Adora, trying to convince Micah not to give in, blurts out that Glimmer is Queen, oops

oh god there's a flash of light and Adora relives Angella kissing her forehead and telling her "take care of each other," then a bunch of moments of her and Glimmer, then:

"I won't give up, not on my friends, not on Etheria,"

--and she transforms into She-Ra :D

NICE!

The blast frees everyone of the vines and they're back to being themselves

"It wasn't the signal stopping me from being She-Ra, it was me. I was afraid Glimmer was right,"

"But I promise I'd take care of her--take care of everyone, and I will"

(actually you promised you'd all take care of each other, but whatever; like, this is part of her whole character arc)

Side note, She-Ra is taller than Micah by like, half a head minimum

The scary critters all run off because some huge monster shows up, the monster opens its metal jaws, and

and I've run out of images with three minutes to go pfft okay hold on

#april rewatches spop #beast island

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beeindaclouds · 2 years

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Okok hear me out,

First i loveee your writings, theyre really nice, yes

Second, thinking about how would the boys react when you learn how to play a cute song, or wrote a song and sing to them on valentine’s ^-^

Haha, *insert I Do Adore* (thats a really nice song btw)

So yeah, you can save until valentine’s to write or write whenever you want

Again, your works are amazing *chef kiss

I've been keeping this request for like almost a month now- ok probably less than that, but still-

"I Do Adore" is such and adorable song, aaw

But yey, I can finally get to it!

Hope you enjoy <3

VALENTINE SPECIAL : DSMP reacting to you singing a cute song for them

Pairings: Dream, Georgenotfound, Sapnap, Badboyhalo, Quackity, Karl Jacobs, Wilbur Soot, C!Technoblade, Nihachu, Eret, Punz, FoolishGamers × Reader

Click here before requesting, please <3

Ok, first of all, this is how I imagine the scenario

You were streaming a "Valentine Special" where you're asking chat for song requests for you to sing live

When your DSMP partner joined the call and jokingly said "hey, serenade me as a valentine gift"

You quickly accepted the request, which they weren't expecting

[The song can be any cute, sweet, lovey Valentine song you want]

❝ Dream ❞

Just like when he's flirted with he'll go all stuttery and shy

He's quiet throughout the entire song

And when you're done and chat starts to wonder what Dream's reaction is

He'll try to talk, but is just random words and stutters all over the place

He later comes into your room to give you a kiss as a thank you

And also hide into your arms forever out of embarrassment

❝ Georgenotfound ❞

Because he's live, and chat can see him, he'll make sarcastic comments after the song

Like "Oh, I was so touched, that was sooo sweet"

But he is genuinely thankful

And later, when you actually ask him if he liked the song, he'll go all shy and mumble that he actually loved it and wouldn't mind hearing more

❝ Sapnap ❞

He gets cocky on stream

Just going on and on about how good you are at singing

But the second you and chat start asking for his opinion

It's just quiet, super quiet

So you, with the excuse that your going to the bathroom and that he should stay and entertain chat, go to secretly check on him (cause he had his cam off)

And you see his very red face

"CHAT HE'S BLUSHING-" "WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY ROOM?! GET OUT-"

❝ Badboyhalo ❞

He'll get bashful and giggly

Throws a lot of "aaww" 's cause he doesn't know what else to say

Comes to your room to give you a big hug and thank you for the sweet gift

He'd also cry a bit cause he was very touched

❝ Quackity ❞

He'd act all happy on stream

"Look! Look guys! That's my partner!"

But the second the stream is over he's squishing you into a bone crushing hug

Whispering "Te amo" 's and other praises out of pure happiness

❝ Karl Jacobs ❞

Gets very red and giggly

He tries to hide his face with everything he can

Slides off his chair to hide under the desk

Then you go to his room and talk to him quietly under the desk, because he got to shy and hid there

And all of this while still streaming lol

❝ Wilbur Soot ❞

His touched at first, cause he's usually the one singing

Then half way through the song he joins you and you two have this cute little moment

That will be remembered forever since it was clipped :D

❝ C!Technoblade ❞

Different scenario for Technoblade

You're singing for him to relax him on valentine's day

He enjoys it very much and melts into your lap as you sing and play with his hair

After you're done he'll look at you with the most loving eyes ever and lean up to kiss you

❝ Nihachu ❞

Niki will just admire you as you sing your heart out to her

Clap her hands happily and tell chat to send in a bunch of compliments for you

Then she'll make a quick run to your room to leave a kiss and then go back to streaming

❝ Eret ❞

Eret will find you absolutely adorable

They won't say much on stream other than a heartfelt thank you

But after the stream is done they're all over you and repeating "I love you" and "you were amaizng" over and over again

They're on the moon rn, just super happy

❝ Punz ❞

Definitely spends the whole day bragging about you singing to him

He saves a clip of it and post's it on all his social medias, just everywhere

And he'll also genuinely keep on complimenting you for the enire day

"You're amazing" "I can't believe tou did that" "Everybody should be jealous, cause you are mine. HAHA"

He's very proud of you

❝ FoolishGamers ❞

He'll get shy on stream

But can't stop thanking you for this special moment

Once the stream ends he's just like a puppy that follows you everywhere

He wants to do something for you too, so he'll stick to you to come up with an idea

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fanficsandfluff · 2 years

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A New Miracle - Bonus Vignette 1

Occurs somewhere between Chapter 17 and Epilogue

A/N: So.... it's been, what? Like, four days since I "finished"? I just couldn't stay away from these characters for long lol. I'm weak! Anyway, enjoy the little bonus content of our favorite rat boi Madrigal!

Fandom: Encanto

Character(s): Bruno Madrigal x OC Alexa

Bruno was giddy today. Too giddy, if Alexa was being honest. All through breakfast, he was smiling to himself, even while he was chewing. Normally that wouldn't bother Alexa. But she knew what he was smiling for.

Bruno brought Alexa into the yard after breakfast, and the two took seats in the grass.

"Okay," Alexa said with a big sigh. Bruno was still smiling, and now it was creeping into his eyes so they were crinkling.

"I thought they don't like, like, sunlight," Alexa tried to reason, reaching up to clip her hair away from her eyes.

"I convinced them to make an exception," Bruno answered easily.

"So, get them to come out, then," Alexa huffed. She was trying to stay optimistic, she really was. But the prospect of today happening kept her up at night. And now it was really, really happening. She agreed! It's not like Bruno was forcing this upon her.

Bruno adjusted himself and four rats became visible to Alexa. She cringed.

"Alright, here we go," Bruno was smiling wide as he offered the one rat in his hands to Alexa.

Alexa took a big breath, holding it, even, and she cupped both her hands, holding them out back to Bruno.

The minute she felt tiny feet touching her palms, she wanted to throw it away from her. But something in her kept her still. Her breath was still being held, and her face was starting to get red.

The rat was looking right at her before it went about sniffing its gross little whiskered nose in her hand and fingers.

"God!" Alexa exclaimed with a huge exhale of breath, keeping her arms stiff and straight out, to get the rat as far away from her face as possible.

"Easy," Bruno shushed her, watching the rat to make sure it wasn't startled by her.

"I don't know if I can do this, Bruno," Alexa spoke quickly and in a whisper.

"You can. How bad is this, really?" Bruno tilted his head to the side, "He's not doing anything to you. Look, put your arms down," he reached over and held onto Alexa's wrists, trying to pull them down to rest in her lap. Now in a more comfortable position for herself, Alexa looked down at the rat literally sitting in her hands.

When she got over the initial shock, yes, it wasn't like the thing was chewing her skin apart. It was just sitting and sometimes sniffing, squeaking once.

"Good," Bruno smiled, seeing her getting less freaked out, "Now don't move," and before Alexa could protest, he had reached over and put a second rat onto her shoulder.

Alexa squealed, hunching her shoulders up, "Oh my god, oh my god... Bruno!" she growled.

Bruno giggled. The rats wouldn't hurt her; they'd garnered enough from her aura by now to know she was uncomfortable with them.

"They're just sitting there, Lexi, not doing anything," Bruno took one of the other two rats still on his body into his hands and began petting it, "Pet him. Like this," he showed her how to just use her thumbs to do so.

Alexa was more freaked by the one on her shoulder now, who decided to sniff around her ear and neck, making her squeak again, "H-Hey! Bruno thihis isn't working!"

Bruno grinned, "You're fine. They like you."

Alexa tried to relax again, but now the random light ticklish sensations on her shoulder, cheek, neck, and ear, were definitely keeping her on edge. She watched Bruno pet and scratch the little rat in his own hands and she tried to mimic the motions on the one in her own hand. It snuggled deeper into her palms and got comfortable to the touches, lowering its little head. Okay, now that was kind of cute.

"Ah!" Alexa bunched her shoulders up again when the rat up there took a trip across her back to the other shoulder.

Bruno was sitting and staring at Alexa, a soft, dumb smile on his face. He was so smitten with his girl, and seeing her with his rat friends on her just made his heart swell. It was like the joining of his two worlds.

Alexa stopped cupping her hands and just let that rat sit in her one hand as her other went up and stroked along its back. The other rat on her shoulder seemed to get jealous and decided to skitter down her arm to get the same treatment. The movement made Alexa shudder and huff out a giggle again.

"Geez..." she mumbled, using one finger on each rat now.

Bruno put another on her knee and she glanced up at him, shooting him a glare. He was clearly getting a kick out of this.

"Youhu... You're so in trouble," Alexa couldn't help but also find the situation funny.

"Oh, this is making my day," Bruno chuckled, "Okay, one more. Where do you want her?"

"On the grass," Alexa made her snarky response.

Bruno merely shrugged, decided to put that rat right on the top of her head. Alexa sighed and Bruno let out a laugh, falling backwards into the grass.

"Evil," Alexa wanted to shake her head in dismay but she didn't wanna move the rat from the top of her head. She probably looked so stupid, now, too. Alexa tentatively raised a hand up to her head to see if the rat would want to come down. It had other plans, as it ran down the back of her neck and slipped itself inside her shirt. Alexa screamed and immediately full-body flinched, the rats in her other hand and knee getting jostled.

"Noho! No no no... ew! Bruno!" Alexa whined, "Get it out!"

"She just wants to be cuddly," Bruno tried to stick up for the situation, having been there before himself.

Alexa cinched her arms around her midsection to try and get the rat to stop moving inside her shirt, but it was at her back currently and she couldn't stop it. It would move around too quick for her to grab it or put an end to its movements. Plus, the rat didn't seem like it wanted to leave.

"Stohohohop!" Alexa snorted.

The other rats hanging out on her thighs and legs made their own move, it appeared. Two snuck in to each of her pant legs and the fourth one waited in the grass.

Alexa fell over onto her back, kicking her legs out with new squeals and laughs ripping from her lungs.

"Oho my gosh!" Alexa snorted again, her arms now simply coming up and her hands covered her reddening face. Maybe if she just stopped giving the rats a reaction, they'd stop. And Bruno was absolutely no help here.

Alexa tried to stop squirming entirely, her arms straight like boards at her sides and her legs extended straight out. Her whole face scrunched up in the effort.

"Lehexi!" Bruno was just giggling away happily, "Y-You're ridiculous. Admit it, it doesn't feel bad. It just feels tickly."

Alexa had her eyes closed. And it seemed to work. The rats slowly had stilled beneath her clothes.

But then...

That fourth rat who stayed in the grass made its move. Alexa felt a definite soft fluttery feeling of whiskers and the pushing of a nose against the bare sole of her foot. And yes, she came outside barefoot today. Big mistake! She realizes that now.

Alexa's whole body folded inward at that touch. Laughter wracked her body.

Bruno smiled wide, finally crawling over towards her, "Alright, that's enough," and he gave a small whistle before the rats scurried free from Alexa's clothing and left her feet alone.

Alexa laid in the grass, still giggling, "Nnnhnhn... oho myhyhy..." she cupped her cheeks in her hands, feeling the warmth from the experience.

"They really like you," Bruno said, laying down in the grass beside Alexa.

Alexa gave his arm a playful shove, trying to look annoyed with him, but she couldn't quite get there.

Bruno turned on his side and snuggled closer to Alexa, even brushing his nose against hers, "Thank you," he said softly.

Alexa smiled and tilted her head, "For what?"

"Trying something new," he shrugged.

Alexa pecked Bruno's nose with a kiss and she watched a rat poke its head out from behind Bruno's head. She grinned and looked at the rat, just saying for fun, "Now how about you give him a taste of his own medicine."

Bruno's eyes got wide, knowing these tricky little rats would turn on him in an instant.

"N-No! Wait, hang on! Lexi," he whined as he felt all the rats rummaging within his clothes.

Alexa was now the one looking on with a huge grin on her face. And just for fun, she scratched a few nails against Bruno's foot while he was busy giggling with the rats. And he kicked out with a yell.

Lexi watched for a short time, listening to Bruno giggling and emitting squeaks of his own as the rats ran about his skin beneath his clothes. She finally had mercy and scooted closer to him, draping herself atop her husband. The rats had ceased their squiggling and emerged from the clothing, now crawling their way over Alexa's back and over Bruno's forehead. Alexa laughed softly.

"Malo," Bruno cursed under his breath once he got it back.

"I think I can get used to them," Alexa kissed Bruno's cheek.

"Oh?" Bruno made eye contact with her and smiled wide, "Great! That's great!"

Bruno wrapped his arms up around Alexa and kissed her. He rolled them over so he was atop her and Alexa giggled. She pushed him over and they continued the pattern of rolling through the grass, the rats all sitting in a group on the grass watching the pair.

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fuggernautical · 2 years

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When I was a kid, and I got my first ideas about love... I decided coincidences were very important.

There's a million people out there I *could* fall in love with. That's just how society and psychology and human empathy work. What makes a soulmate, if not the Fates?

And I found someone I had 100 coincidences with. And I was smitten. And I never forgot the coincidences that shocked my core, and made me think I found the one. I could still rattle them off now.

Years later, half a dozen failed relationships went by, and I found a friend who changed my mind. About a lot of things. And I fell in love.. quickly. Usually a red flag, right? But it keeps coming. Always.

And today, a year after we officially decided to try spending the rest of our lives together... I stumble upon this coincidence.

I know some people don't believe in them. Everything has reason and whatnot. And if you don't believe, then you can blame it on.. the subconscious, or the psychological effects of long-term relationships, or the universality of the message I'm about to talk about. But it shocked me so much, I want to share it, in case any of you strangers get a kick out of romantic coincidences too.

But this friend, he showed me one of his favourite movies before we even started dating. Watched maybe 45 minutes of it and showed me a bunch of random clips on YouTube. High Fidelity. And I remember him, drunk, excited, and rambling about how he loves the diner scene, it's one of the best, etc. Didn't remember a sentence from watching it. Anyway, life changes, we each grow, never fully watch the movie.

About 8 months ago, I have a dream about.. something emotional. Wake up, go have a smoke in my car while I think through my feelings. Realize that I want to spend the rest of my life with this man. We had had a fight the night before, and he was still asleep. But it didn't matter to me. If anything, it egged on the decision. But all at once, my whole being realizes that I'm done. Done worrying about "if" things are meant to be, if they're gonna work, if there's someone out there better for me, if being single is better. I'm happy with this. I'll take the shitty nights like Sep. 19th. I'll work on em. And this is how I want the story to progress. So I ordered a ring. An engagement band- which plenty of people have told me is weird for a guy- but when you work as hard as him and dress up just as nice as well, you want a nice band and the silver later.

So it came. Every time we fought, and things went back to normal, I thought about it sitting in its box. Reminding me that the fights don't matter. Not like the violent explosions and genuine incompatibility issues I've faced with significant others I never cared for. Several times, I've had an internal monologue about how happy I am, ready to settle and give up the fight for Idealistic Perfection. Focus on our own world.

So our anniversary rolls around, and I rent the movie. And I'm sitting here, already crying from the monologue at the bus stop, and 5 minutes later the diner scene comes. And what is his whole monologue? Well, if you don't know, it's the same. To be precise:

Rob: That other girl, or other women, whatever... I mean, I was thinking that they're just fantasies. You know? And they always seem really great because there's never any problems. And if there are, they're cute problems like, you know, we bought each other the same Christmas present, or she wants to go see a movie that I've already seen, you know? And then I come home, and you and I have real problems... and you don't even want to see the movie I want to see, period. There's no lingerie and...

Laura : I have lingerie!

Rob : Yes, you do. You have great lingerie, but you also have the cotton underwear that's been washed a thousand times, and it's hanging on the thing and, and they have it too! It's just I don't have to see it because it's not in the fantasy. Do you understand? I'm tired of the fantasy because it doesn't really exist. And there are never really any surprises, and it never really...

Laura : Delivers?

Rob : Delivers. Right. And I'm tired of it. And I'm tired of everything else, for that matter. But I don't ever seem to get tired of you.

And he asks her to marry him.

And that's just... he must have showed me hat scene and it stuck in my subconscious or something, idk, I like to leave things like that to the Fates. But that's precisely how I've felt since September. Since the worst fight we've ever had. Since... I decided this is what I want in life. I had that moment, and that monologue, and here he's been lovin it for years. Tried showing it to me once. Ugh. It's crazy.

Anyway, I'm not saying he feels that way about me, or I'll get my happy ending, or whatever. I dunno. I feel like we're in limbo. I don't think- I know- he doesn't have that kind of commitment to me. But I can say... I think I just stole it from his Top 5 Films. And I'll never forget it. ^_^

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