#to be close to ppl my age w my interests and have a relationship that lasts is that asking too much what if i never see them again

[cryolyst]

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#so like i have one girl i was friends with at a very young age that was a little weird and i was Very Normal about #and permanently changed me as a person #but i am remembering now the other two girls i had close friendships with at the time that i was also Very Normal about #and idk . it's just weird to think about! #one of them i remember thinking so highly of and thinking she was so nice and pretty and smart #and we called each other on our landlines all the time but i was just always so awkward and quiet #and my mom put it in my head that i wasn't pulling my weight in the friendship and wasn't good enough for her #and it made me pull away because i was scared #and the other girl went to a different school so ppl always made fun of me for talking about her #ough.... auughhhhh... im losing it a lil #being 20 is so bad for my health <3 #of course i do not talk to any of them now. which is typical i guess. like how many ppl maintain friendships from childhood into their 20s? #but it still makes my heart hurt. idk! i was trying to reconnect w the second girl in hs. we did some stuff together the summer after grad. #and i knew the third girl became close friends with my best friend's sister and i knew we kept similar interests #im just sad and lonely. but i have a whole different thing going on with like. struggling to form relationships rn #they speak!

[upgradebitch]

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#i’ve never hated being a broke bitch more than now i just got an offer for this gawjus place w this cool person and its over my budget i wa #want to bang my head against a wall sigh #literally why do i search for love like this #this could’ve been great really great i cannot i was this close to signing something else aswell WHY #to be close to ppl my age w my interests and have a relationship that lasts is that asking too much what if i never see them again #am i being delusional i think so but idc my heart hurts things never work out the way i plan ugh #but atleast i will be leaving the shithole i’m in rn #it could’ve been great #i can get more great things although not now and it feels like a fresh wound rn i’m just starved for love ok i need a hug i’m so serious #it was in the PERFECT AREA TOO #it’s okay it’s okay atleast it’s still london and not a town in essex where u cannot get a taxi unless u want to wait 3 hours #count your blessings girl call down #shit i’m sad i’m so childish fuck #literally i just want a solid circle of companions and maybe that wouldn’t guarantee it and maybe where i’m going can be the path to my happ #happiness but i’ve been miserable for too long idk if i can even be loved because i will just fee like i’m tainting them #everyone in my life is held at a safe distance and i don’t want that anymore i want someone CLOSE who doesn’t get repulsed or bored ha #this interaction has sent me plummeting into the depths of hell i feel ridiculous #my chest hurts so much

[aroacesafeplaceforall]

sorry in advance for the vent :)

so i'm aspec, not sure where on the spectrum, but some degree of aroace, and the other day an acquaintance confessed to 'liking' me. my first thought was 'damn i hope so', followed by a 'wait what' bc my dumbass brain doesn't comprehend attraction. anyway, this person already knew i was aspec before this conversation and i had made it very clear that i wasn't interested at all in romance/relationships. the whole encounter made me v uncomfortable (to the degree that i don't really want to talk to them ever again), compounded by the fact that they are 26/27 and i'm 19. i feel like they've just offloaded their problems onto me to make themselves feel better, bc i don't want to deal w any of this, but idk if i'm just overreacting (i really don't get allos sometimes). also this person was one of the first ppl i've come out to outside of close friends and family, so i feel kind of betrayed. anyway, i wanted some opinions of some other ppl, esp aroaces, to check i'm not blowing this out of proportion (don't feel pressured to respond tho)

ps: i know this person bc we volunteer at the same relatively small charity, would it be extreme to ask the volunteer coordinator to put me on different shifts than them? i don't want to affect their relationship w the charity if i tell them why, but i would need to in order to justify it

pps: also, fun fact, this person (cis guy) said their celebrity crush is kristen stewart, so i'm seeing a trend here (i'm afab, but imo pretty visibly queer)

[answered by noah]

Okay first of all, YOU'RE NOT OVERREACTING. That sounds like a perfectly acceptable reaction to what's happened. From what you've said, you've told them you have no interest in romantic relationships, yet they confessed anyway? Rude, not respecting your identity or boundaries at all.

It's very understandable that you don't want to talk to then again (especially since they were an acquaintance and where told you're aspec) if that happened to me (spoiler: it has) I definitely wouldn't want to talk to them again.

If you do feel that way, then asking to be changed to different shifts sounds absolutely fine to me (I mean it's not like you're asking them to get fired or anything).

Also I know age gaps are okay to a certain extent, but that's pushing it a bit in my opinion (especially when one person is only just an adult).

Overall, if it really bothers you? Tell the volunteer coordinator to change your shift, I'm sure they'll be understanding :)

#asks #ask #aromantic #aroace #asexual #aro #ace #aspec #arospec #acespec #aro pride #ace pride #pride

[banhtet]

HAYAMI RAMBLE POST

hii. been busy here and there so all ive done is rewatching unfinished anime series and dealing w both asthma and acute laryngitis and depression 🤡🤡

but ive been thinking abt hayami whenever i listen to mitski so. I Have To make a post abf her

this will be hcs mostly.............. 💀 some hcs/interpretation will be ooc as i need to rewatch the anime + reread the manga and the korotan series. but it physically hurts me sometimes bc i get too excited, then ill spiral into hatred for the series. ALSO MY INTEREST IN IT HAS BEEN DILUTING? THATS NOT GOOD!

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- i think hayami straightens her hair for the majority of her middle school final yr. bc in the manga, its shown in the manga that she still has curly frilly hair but to separate herself from Irina, its tied up and straightened

- which leaves me to think shes those cases of blonde suddenly turn brunette as they grow older but in her case its like hella obvious. I dont think her mom would let her dye her hair so the dying hair thing is out of the question for me

- this mostly stems from the ova where she has blonde hair + some ppls interpretation of hayami in which she has brown hair and i think thats so swag

- i think hayami has hazel eyes.. just bc it just seems fitting that she does yk. and also brown hair + hazel eyes combo hayami ? God Bless

- how others see hayamis eyes can depend on the lighting.. like when its sunset it appears more brown to others or when its morning, it appears more green. could even be gold in a very specific moment

- its mentioned that hayami is more expressive in the beginning of assclass and gets more stoic later on.

- And then i think abt how matsui tried to box hayami into the tsundere stereotype even tho it just makes me see her more as a person w communication problems and issues handling her facial expressions

- i think hayami naturally just has like an angry face (furrowed brows and all that)..

- combined w her communication problems, hayami is pretty much just misunderstood by her classmates as someone whos difficult and irritable (one example is the boys group chat thing where okajima expresses that he likes hayami and in turns maehara is like "eeeehh... uhhhhh.. dunno dude shes kinda scary")

- its also Very Important to me that hayami has said tsundere-esque lines.. Like the infamous "Dont get the wrong idea" when saving itona and also her line in the popularity ranking ("Its not like im happy or anything" or smth of that nature)

- Ik why she said those but Why is she saying them specifically? like whys she trying to Stay Neutral/not opinionated abt her ranking in particular.

- shes so catcore. Hayami was a latchkey child from a very young age. we dont rlly have any info on hayamis life from her graduation forward aside from some in the korotan, the epilogue and like some meta info,,

hayami was relied on a lot and had to do others dirty bidding. i imagine her believing that it was some form of friendship, some way of maintaining their relationship (considering the absence of her father and mother and her chasing for validations)

i think her previous classmates were afraid of her at the beginning, but when realized that hayami had good intentions, they used her loneliness to benefit themselves

(UTTER OVERTHINKING) do you think that her being "sassy" or smth of that nature is to barricade others from getting too close in hopes of not being fooled/used for dirty works again, its also her nature in general But like at the same time, its prob one of the only approach of communication shes used to (knowing what happens after and all that). Do you think she has disorganized (leaning a bit more on anxious) attachment. Do you think that her communication problems already make her appear to be cold but her interpersonal difficulties drive it further . Why does she have such little connections to the girls despite being seen w them often. do you think abt yada, whos multitalented, jealous of hayami ,whos noted by others for mostly her sniping talent and the rest is ignored. do y

its so weird to me that hayami stagnated in her development? (her being a receptionist, the whole "she strives to be a coworker everyone can rely on" and also singlehandedly fishing chiba out of unemployment)

its great that shes honed her receptionist skills but in the end, its mostly just for helping someone else. and the fact that chiba isnt depicted as like being against it is kinda off.. hayamis known for her stretching thin of herself and chiba, being arguably hayamis closest friend, would. at least realize that she has a self-sacrificing tendency (seeing how observant he is yk)

?? apparently she singlehandledly handles every business and sales matters. insane. also,, ig its fitting that hayami chose a fast-paced position for her job but idk man. Idk its still insane to me that hayami is chibas receptionist..

on a lighter note she cut her hair at some point in the future so thats cool

demi hayami forever. shes 100% demi. i also think shes unlabeled, like she doesnt rlly care what she is tbh. others ask her abt it and shes like "idk up to interpretation" (ooc)

its so funny to me. that in korotan c, apparently she showed up to watch asano having a lil date w princess lea? bc it mentioned her name later on helping lea from the "bodyguards" (along w chiba too.. this makes their viewing their classmates from afar in the animated koro q funnier tbh)

hayami in the skiing club.....

i think her interest/reason for joining is mostly that she wanna try it and also bc i think she saw it on tv a few times and got fascinated by the ppl skiing/snowboarding

dunno where the clubs got the budget to apparently Go Fucking Skiing frequently,, or how the club would even operate (in Middle School no less). but i think itd be pretty funny if the club disbanded some time later and hayami joined a dance club instead (which would make more sense)

i think hayami had done ballet before. as a kid. Just a hc but she wanted smth to do rather than. Sitting watching tv bc no ones home

horrible horrible thought but hayami seems semi like those kids whose parents are on the verge of a divorce (projection) 💀

i think one of the reasons why i tend to read hayami as having avpd is. just the fact that she pays attention to 'the class dynamic and harmony and such'? im not 100% sure on the meaning of that sentence but that just reminds me of my experience w avpd and i Have To hc her as having it

as a final thing :

#anatsu kyoushitsu #hayami rinka #rinka hayami #assclass hcs #assassination classroom #assclass #miscellaneous #ramblings #ramble post #self indulgent #ive seen ppl making their fav characters their ocs #after like literal yrs of being in a fandom #me @ hayami tbh #me @ assclass in general #guilty pleasure : crossover universe of oc-ified medias #i might make a post abt #why i hc hayami rinka as having avpd

[dinoclawsz]

B4 I continue posting art of them I think I need to explain my whole thought process……so here’s some (not all) reasons why I think Pagan and Antón should and would kiss sloppy style 😊

-They share a lot of similarities! Most obvious being their jobs as ermm terrible dictators but more importantly their shared ‘guerilla forces ripping apart the country’ situations 🐡I think they would meet first in a purely diplomatic fashion ofc, to trade weapons and/or money in order to deal with their own respective resistances. This would also mean they have tons of preexisting respect and even understanding for each other, and also bonding over a mutual burning hatred of anarchists is a funny way to get close to somebody lawl. Also I know it would b out of character for Pagan to quit his hermetic lifestyle out of the blue to go visit some guy in the Caribbean but idrc I’m just trying to have fun :)

-Another similarity they have is their relationship to fatherhood and problems regarding it. While Antón never really wanted to be a father or have Diego and wouldn’t have if not for his cancer, Pagan DID want to be a father, but lost the only real chance he’d ever have at it, so I think upon meeting Diego he’d exploit it as a chance to be the father he never got the opportunity to be. I think they’d look to each other for advice; Pagan on how to be a good mentor for Ajay, and Antón on how to be a better and kinder person to Diego. Also I find the concept of Pagan being an estranged mom-type figure to Diego (without him fully understanding the extent of his relationship to his papá) very fun

-They have contrasting personalities :3 Pagan has a very charismatic, energetic, fun and self-absorbed personality while Antón is more cool, collected and down-to-earth and I think they’d get along nice and compliment each other well……opposites attract and what not and I think they would have an interesting dynamic

-I also think their age difference would play a part in them liking each other; Pagan trying to keep him up-to-date w current shit, explaining to him what Twitter is, showing him memes or whatever, while Antón would get to live vicariously through Pagan

-Theyd b into each other technically speaking….Antón has a lot of class and poise and we know that’s important to Pagan..also his type quite obviously includes men (and besides who wouldn’t be into giancarlo esposito), but regarding Antón, a lot of the properties found in the only person we know hes canonically been involved with romantically (Maria Marquessa) are also found in Pagan; charisma/big personality, work in publicity and media, their slightly manipulative tendencies, even down to their similar appearance. Ik this is like likening a filet mignon (Pagan) to Spam (Maria) but it’s for my point okay

-Speaking of Maria, one of the primary reasons her and Antón fell apart (according to the fc6 audiobook (listen to it pls and ty)) was differences regarding his ambitions and drive to become President. With Pagan these misunderstandings would be nonexistent as, once again, they have similair life experiences and an understanding of what it takes to do what they do

-I think they wld take good care of each other 👍Antón def needs someone to look after him as his cancer is slowly killing him which I think Pagan would do gladly. Besides the whole murdering people thing he’s a v caring person towards the ppl he loves. Pagan also needs someone to bring him out of his shell and show him he can love again which I think Antón could do. Once again in the fc6 audiobook Diego mentions that Antón gets uncharacteristically warm around the people he loves so imo it’s not too far fetched

-Final definitive reason: I like old evil man yaoi 👍and they should kill ppl together thats hot..thanks for reading like and subscribe 4 more

#far cry 4 #far cry 6 #anton castillo #pagan min #paganton #crackship #i can imagine anything

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

pinkmoonmutual i think i have come to u about my adoring fixations on older men before. I woke up from a dream where I was hanging out with this guy I really like and it was so wonderful and perfect and exactly what I want from him....a very nice dream to have, and it fits into what ive been working on recently which is human relationships and figuring out what I want and how to have it... its difficult for me because I love people SO MUCH often after a very short amount of time, this is especially true of older people because I crave sibling affection I didn't get growing up but it happens with people my own age too. and ah idk I'm never sure how to express it to people because love and intensity are things most people only want and expect from romantic attraction. and I'm not opposed to that but especially with older men this becomes difficult because the people I love are not interested in dating people 10 years younger than them and really it would be inappropriate (this guy was my professor! not gonna happen!) and i just end up feeling really creepy and weird and not knowing what to do with this huge adoration and affection inside me. so tricky I really wish you could just be /in love/ with someone and tell them and have them see it as a nice thing and not me trying to get sex or romantic commitment from them. i wish i was a little dog so i could just curl up at his feet and have it be simple. guuuuhhhhhhhh honestly i just wanted to tell you about my crush. I only knew this guy for like a month and a half so its a bit silly but hes so pretty and smart and cool and really inspired me to live and pushed me in the direction im currently going. its just tricky tricky im probably over complicating it but do you think there's more to love than the relationships that people in our world expect? I love people like theyre a god TT .. even talking about it here feels vapid compared to how it is for me. anyway nice dream thanks universe and i hope the pinkmoonworld is nice today <3

i understand u <3 it is a vary nice day in pinkmoonworld thanku for the wish~~~i know this dilemma tho sigh , my thoughts below..

i always felt like my admiration of people was extreme & consuming , i still do to a certain extent its a big part of the reason WHY i became a bit withdrawn like i struggle w how attached i get to others. i dont want to ask for anything in return but i feel shame when people find me creepy lol. And even then, that shame isnt rly the reason i've become untrusting with my heart, cold ppl r the least of my worries, i understand them.. moreso it's dangerous for me when i encounter someone who recognizes i am This Way & instead of being plainly disinterested or aloof they consciously decide to Use my affections in a sinister manner for their own advantage. that's what's mainly caused me to bcome distant even tho i want to love those ppl too.

so despite distance i still need some outlet for these loveful feelings so i guess i've spent the past 5-ish years working on ways to be overly compassionate in a safer manner.. And a big part of that is that i rly find the purest form of love to be platonic love, when theres not really any expectations or prize for being close to someone yet u still are, that kind of love speaks the deepest to me. and it's funny because really shortly after i surrendered my quest for romantic love, like completely surrendered , is when i met SLIMBO, and thru my efforts to be a really good friend to them we ended up falling sooooooo deeply sincerely in love like nothing i;ve ever known. if we had rushed into a relationship idk if it wld be the same , like having it slowly blossom over the course of a few years w no pressure, it's the foundation upon which we could be SO deeply sure we would always be together.

So the way u speak of loving ur crush, i'd say, just continue to act kindly towards him and everyone else u encounter, with no expectations of them.. people really need this like i think everyone needs to know what it feels like to experience a True Friend a selfless friend. it's rare! i rarely meet anyone who i feel doesn't want *something* from me that i cant give them. and i dont even want to hold that against them! im just saying, what U feel is rare so u should embrace it. allow yourself to exude love as much as u can and that frequency will return to u, just like how it did for me and slimbo...And other friends ive made along the way ^_^ Follow you heart.. maybe he's older but who knows what could happen. i've dated ppl 10 years older than me cus i have always acted like grandpa. sometimes ppl will just see u for ur soul.

and maybe ur dream is pointing u in a right direction, idk, i confessed my love to slimbo a few days after having a dream that we held hands. Ofc we had been friends for 2 years by this point so the time felt right, not every dreams mean u should confess, but i feel like having a sweet dream such as that can be a sort of telepathic experience sometimes.. show a connection between you and him on the astral plane. Take time to enjoy life n enjoy having a crush too cus it can be really fun to feel that crazy over someone :] thats my thoughts.....good luck with your heart, PMD9 out !

[tojisun]

sun sun! can u give me some advice? IF NOT U CAN DISCARD THIS IGNORE IT AND ILL UNDERSTAND!!!

how do u meet people and talk to ppl and go on a date or something w them? i sound like im an alien but im literally too socially anxious (im sociable and get along well w ppl, but struggle heavily with approaching), self-conscious, n inexperienced to know what to do. i wanna make new friends and potentially date someone :<

(also did u get my last message in response to ur reply? or did tumblr eat it like a poopyhead?)

my love omg i have no game whatsoever so i cant *really* help u. my confidence is the size of an apple which is already a lot for me tbh bc it has to contend with my anxiety so my days are a cesspool of “i can do this… but what if i cant” energy LMFAO 🥲

AND IM LITERALLY LIKE THAT TOO OMG like im sociable bc i get adopted by extroverts but i cant approach on my own. and if i do, i find myself having so little i can even talk about past the surface level questions :((

to add, my prev partners were all my friends so i never really had the experience of asking out people and then going on dates to see if we’re gonna work out 😭

although i started mimicking my extroverted friends! theyre not extrovert in the archetype way wherein theyre bubbly or just so energetic? but theyre so proactive in making the conversation going and cementing a bond!

since i think you and i are alike (wherein our issue lies on the approaching part), id let u know what i do instead of what they do!

i started pretending to have confidence in what i say. for example in school? my current school friend and i started hanging out bc i went up to them and went “hey, just wondering if u read the readings yet?” (and then we snowballed there teehee they did actually read it so thats cool as we were able to have a discussion about the topic but even when they didnt, i just end up steering the conversation to something ik we both know—the lecture! it was what started our friendship, but we also began to talk about other things until we were sharing our interests with each other!)

work? same thing! i start with work related topics (i work at a firm so it usually is always our clients hehehe) and then i’d invite them for coffee or lunch! im blessed to have coworkers close to my age which makes it a lot easier to poke on interests. i asked her if she’s seen this video on tiktok (it was something about that love surge couple i think) and she did so we were also able to expand our conversation out of work!

the highlight is that i bullshitted my confidence until it eventually started feeling normal :’)

im sorry that this isnt a sound advice :((

of course its still so important to stay true to yourself and im not telling u to be fake and to not be urself! but faking confidence i think is different bc, for me, its grappling with the hurdle (my anxiety) and training myself until im eventually used to it! im still not 100% the one taking the first step but when i do, im glad that i did :’)

(now for relationships… yea that i got nothing 😭 im so sorry)

but um yea! im sorry for the rambling. it just made me realize how much more work i need to put into myself too!

take care my love and i wish you the best and kindest and loveliest ever!!!

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(i just checked and i received ur other ask!! im sorry, im kinda swamped rn so my responses have been going down the drain dhejjd but i’ll reply to it too! thank u sm for ur kindness and love <333)

#obs3ssiv <3 #babe whats a pen name i can use for u :0 #ask #THIS IS SO MUCH OF ME TALKING IM SORRY

[comradekatara]

okay wait please if you will elaborate on aang's non-katara dating history i am most interested to see what his love life would look like to you

omg ngl trying to conceive of aang at his full chad potential is v difficult for me bc in my mind he will just always be that cherubic little baby boy.. the idea that he will ever not be 12 is almost..... distressing to me? like i know that people age. that's how time works. but i also refuse to accept it!!!! put him back in that iceberg!!!!! quick before he grows facial hair!!!!!!!!!! (that said...)

i've said before that i feel like he would date one of ty lee's sisters, which is a very lovely concept to me if you subscribe to the theory that ty lee is descended from air nomads, and also just very funny to me because katara is terrified of ty lee and would have to balance being supportive so she doesn't seem jealous, while also strongly disapproving because any relative of ty lee is an enemy of hers!!!!

also i think if aang and on ji ever ran into each other again later on that could be really funny. like she rly has no clue that cute boy who threw the epic cave rager was the avatar. it could be cute if they reunited. sokka wasn't wrong; they had chemistry!

i'm also not opposed to teo/aang, but on the other hand they are such fundamentally similar people in terms of personality that i worry whether spiritually they would be boyfriend twins.... they're definitely really close friends though, and maybe they've made out once or twice. who can say

there used to be a (rly bizarre) debate in the fandom over whether aang should be celibate, because well, he's a monk (even though it's obvious that these monks fuck, like cmon now) or whether it was wrong of him to be in a monogamous relationship w katara bc he should be inseminating as many different women w those airbender genes as possible. i think either way these ppl just didn't like the idea of him with katara. but honestly, while the latter approach is also kind of insane (does he just have a bunch of kids he'll never know??? that seems.... irresponsible) i do think that him having kids with more than one woman is plausible (but like. a normal amount). the idea that when aang dies, tenzin becomes The Last Airbender is very upsetting to me. i think tenzin should at least have some half-siblings. not to mention even if aang's kids can't airbend, they still should be embracing that side of their heritage??? lok really fucked up wrt the exploration of mixed identity, and also just national identity in a postwar age in general... but i digress.

ultimately, i think both aang and katara deserve to have lots of fun sexy flings throughout their teens & adulthood bc even as kids they are both very charming and easily infatuated with random intriguing strangers and i want them to be able to explore that!!!! there are many different ways to be in love, and just because katara and aang will always want each other in some capacity doesn't mean they need to be limited by a reductive mindset of monogamous marriage that i (like to) think both of them would grow out of as they mature.

#beangods #asks #aang #postwargaang #aang&katara #aang&teo #on ji #aang&tylee #ish #lok crit #..ish #rly hard for me to think of aang as anything other than 12 years old ngl #he is my perfect baby boy. my little son #but yeah he is admittedly a chad in training #i cannot deny it

[1eos]

hello ms kendra! first off just wanted to say i hope you're doing well and i love your blog theme. also that i hope only good things come to you and those you love 💗

i don't know if you feel comfortable sharing, so please don't worry if you don't want to answer, but how did you know you were a lesbian? sorry if this seems out of the blue ahfjfkal but i've been kind of questioning myself lately and i trust your thoughts and opinions and i was just... looking for some thoughts/feelings i guess? once again please don't feel pressured to answer. thank you for reading 💗 have a sexy day ms leos!

omg its not too much at all 😭😭😭 how i realized i was a lesbian was obvious in retrospect but i was surrounded by so much comphet i didnt realize it was an option until one day i was like ohhhhhhh i can just like women lol

anyways when i was a kid i felt a bit left out bc ive always been a girls girl and only rarely found boys worth hanging out with but when all my girl friends were starting to be boy crazy i just had. no interest. none at all. when i was in elementary school the one boy everyone liked he did nothing for me but i started to fantasize abt him liking me so all the GIRLS would like me 😭😭😭 like i said obvious

but it didnt click bc i had crushes on 2 guys. one was gay so 😶😂 LOL and for a while i was like so im not gay bc i liked 2 guys but then i realized those 'crushes' were just how i am with ppl i like and want to be friends with. this all encompassing desire to be with them 24/7. i didnt want to do anything w my friends i just wanted to but stuck on them and im the same way to this day just toned down (scorpio vedic moon)

and then i started having intense and tumultuous friendships with other girls who similarly didn't like boys at all. and i would be consumed in wanting to be with her all the time and got jealous. it was how i was w close friends but even more intense bc it tended to be mutual. YOU KNOW HOW IT GOES. like i was in a toxic lesbian not relationship in middle school looking back

and then in high school when my mom left me alone at home i would runnnnn to the dvd player and rewatch the sex scene in monster's ball bc halle berry was topless 😭😭😭 i was kinda obsessed w sex but again had NO interest in the men? and if boys approached me irl i would just be like 🧍🏾‍♀️ what the hell did u want. and i was learning that u can be other things than just straight so even tho i was fucking sneaking away at my grandma house (we didnt have internet at our house) to scroll thru playboy and look at pics of half-naked WOMEN bc i didn't want to be desired by men i was like 'ohhhh ok so im asexual'

I WAS SO CLOSE TO THE TRUTH but comphet was fucking beating my ass bruh. andddd in college i branched out started meeting more girls like me (black and gay) and i was like oh ok. so im NOT abnormal there are ppl like me. met more men still didnt want to do anything w them. met more girls i wanted to fucking build a house with after geeking out after dragon age once. anyways i got a girlfriend...sophomore year and magically turned from sexless nun to disgusting horny beast and also i met this very sexy butch girl who i wanted to [redacted] so bad and wouldve if not for girl code. and it finally clicked that girls just do it for me 😭😭😭😭severely. all the romance and sex things i was all ick abt fell into place bc i finally beat the comphet. ofc i found sex disgusting bc i didnt like men and it put alllllllllllllll previous relationships into perspective

so for me what helped was to just not try to force myself into any label or worry oh what if im actually this or that? i just lived my life liked who i liked and slowly the reality that i want girls to [redacted entry] me very nastily fell into place!

and thank you so muchhhhh wishing good things on you too. good things and clarity 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

#*oldhead voice* as you get older it'll start to fall into place #and it may take a while and your identity may shift but thats good! #but for me it was a 'yeah looking back the signs were there moment' #😭😭😭😭😭😭ive just never truly had a serious interest in a man

[petewentzisblack1312]

hi i wanted to ask something but also share something personal as well. my q is: do you feel like your relationship w social media has changed? meaning, do you catch / notice when you are on it for too long and you start to notice, and then you say: okay let's take a break. for me, i have been online for a long time ever since i was a kid, and now my relationship to it is i only limit myself an hour to being on my phone. as an adult now i am no longer social media "obsessed". like, when i am in school i am not thinking about online, i am present when im at school. i feel like i am really close to just deleting sm tbh. it does not grant me happiness like it used to. now as an adult i feel this need to live my life freely.

i also wanted to ask what are ur thoughts on content influencers? to me when i see these ppl i think...i could never post about everything about my life, but then again understanding that it is just a highlight reel. no one is posting every sad / frustrating thing that happens in their life as influencer, only the "great" parts.

this is an interesting question! i think ive never really had a relationship to social media where i feel like i need to post constantly or felt pressured to share everything. while im definitely the most online out of my household, compared to a lot of other people im not really very present online. i dont like using twitter, i only really use instagram to look at and post art and occasionally post a picture of my cat or nature or food on my main account, i dont really get up to much and i never use facebook unless i have to. i hate it. even here on tumblr i dont post a lot about my personal life unprompted, and this is the social media site i use the most by far. i do scroll tumblr a lot, i do watch a lot of youtube videos (though almost exclusively video essays on politics and recently also artist vlogs) and i do notice myself scrolling a bit too much, particularly when im overstimulated but instead of doing something less stimulating im anxious and looking for a distraction so i like. scroll harder. but ive never been like doing something else and thought 'man, i wish i was scrolling right now'. i dont really know. i do have trouble putting my phone down, like when i need to sleep, but i have trouble putting ANYTHING down. games, books, art or writing or projects im working on, music im listening to, i dont think tumblr is special, its just another activity for me to be distracted by.

all that being said, i did leave social media for a while. i had a really bad experience in a fandom on tumblr (not the pwams incident. that led me to step away from bandom and move to another fandom) and honestly it made me realise that the problem i had with social media wasnt that i was using it too much, but that i had a toxic relationship with the communities i was interacting with on there. the nature of my relationship to social media was unhealthy, not the fact that i had one that was a large part of my life. i think when i wasnt using any social media i actually wasnt in a great place either, because i was isolated from people id cared about, especially since i had just undergone a very traumatic incident, and because of that became very isolated from my in person friends as well, even before the pandemic pushed me away from even the acquaintances i had made. i was worried about coming back to tumblr, but i think ive grown and learned in such a way that i know how i like to comport myself in cyberspaces, and that its been good for me in a way. which is weird, but. i think id kind of have to go in depth about my life and how the pandemic affected me and the specific nature of coming of age in st lucia and stuff. which i dont want to do haha.

as for influencers. i hate the concept. i understand it, and i dont universally hate influencers as a whole, but like. theres this specific kind of content creator where the thing they are sharing is just their life and there isnt like a specific thing theyre logging, like an artist sharing their creative process and how they manage their life around that, or a chef sharing recipes, and its not like theyre doing it just to do it, they have the goal of growing a following, and theyre not advertising anything but themself, like JUST themself, as a person-brand, and i find that so deeply annoying and repulsive. and like thats strong wording its a dog eat dog world and the girlies of all genders need to secure the bag like i get it. i get it. but its revolting to me. like. the vlogbrothers werent trying to get famous they were using youtube to communicate with each other and as an open video diary and people found them to be interesting personalities to watch. right. do you get it. annoyingly i gotta put myself out there if i want people to find my art and pins and stuff so i have to fuckin. make videos. sell people on me. the idea of making vlogs makes me dry heave bc im not important i dont want to have to sell myself like im important i dont want to put my face on a camera and implicitly say with every quirky performed statement i make 'i matter, pay attention to me, i need to exist so look at me' but unfortunately i might have to. a video essay i could do. thats me saying something. but a vlog? with the goal of people finding my stuff? good god. it sounds like poison.

#dils declares #my tripod is broken so im using that as an excuse to not vlog. #i can do shortform video. thats dispassionate. #thats 60 seconds of selling myself or more likely my stuff in a highly edited way #there is no veneer of authenticity. no kayfabe. #i can do that. #but a whole fucking vlog? nauseating.

[oceanblueeyesoul]

since you’re doing wednesday (2022) matchups, here’s mine ;D

my name is niko, pronouns are she/they/him and i’m pansexual + pangender. i’m filipino and autistic :D

physical appearance: i'm 5'5ft (167cm). my skin tone is a natural tan and my body figure leans a little bit over to the chubby side. i have a square shaped face, button nose and soft squishy cheeks :) i have lots of moles scattering my body. my hair is black, type 1c, is a wolfcut about shoulder-length and is dyed blonde in the back.

i could say that i have a citycore aesthetic w a touch of ghiblicore (you can search up dobochobo on insta & yt!!). i like wearing lots of neutral colours (beige, white & black).

personality & hobbies: i'm an istj and my hogwarts house is ravenclaw :) i wouldn't really know how to exactly describe myself, but a lot of people would say that i'm very (very) introverted and artistic. i can stay silent for long periods of time and you wouldn't even know that i'm there 💀 my online self is a whole other person though ;0 i like staying organised and stay in a daily routine to keep myself stable and i have extremely obsessive interests. close friends that i hang out with always say i keep talking about the same thing. i stay loyal to people i trust most.

i listen to horror game playthroughs or music to concentrate on my work ^^ currently learning japanese. lots of people know me as the girl who draws .. and i can see why. i've been drawing for all my life, and i can say that i've gotten pretty good at it (especially at someone of my age). i also play volleyball a lot ( う-´)づ

flaws: lots of people tell me that i sound and look rude, even if i'm trying to be polite. i doubt myself a lot, and tend to get insecure about almost everything. my friends tell me that i over-apologise (　；∀；) i'm a pessimist and i sometimes tend to think "black and white". i strive to be the best, and get breakdowns when i don't get the results i wanted.

likes & dislikes: <3 art, making ocs, anime, reading fanfiction, music (possibly a few others). </3 spiders and insects, dirt, staying out of my routine, loud noises, my mom, small inconveniences, bad hair days, unoriginal ppl etc.

Hi there, Niko! I really hope you like this a lot!

Wednesday (Netflix) Matchup

Your Wednesday (Netflix) soulmate is...

XAVIER THORPE!

The two of you would draw together as a couple because you are each other's muse in an art project in school and outside of school as well as drawing in class together.

He wants to squeeze your cheeks because they look adorable on you and also he just wants to protect you against the rest of the world.

Both of you guys would like to listen to music together as a team and as a fun thing to do; he could learn how to make a playlist about the relationship between you and him for your birthday or anniversary.

ISFP x ISTJ lovebirds!

Slytherin x Ravenclaw soulmates!

#oceanblueeyesoul #wednesday netflix matchups #wednesday netflix #xaiver thorpe #xavier thorpe x reader #matchups

[g0reoz]

GIVE ME UR XHAKA HEADCANONS RN ALSO RUWEI IF U WOULD BE SO KIND

of COURSE i would be so kind ^^

xhaka:

-tbh when u mentioned smth about him being like. some kind of mlm but also just using "queer" as a general descriptor i was like Yeah That Checks out. so. OUR headcanon ☭

-iknow he is probably cis. i know this in my heart. but also have you considered that Baby Trans-And-In-Denial Gavin realized that wearing baggy, straight cut pants and fucking w your posture makes it nearly impossible for ppl to read ur hip structure as feminine? have you considered that this guy saved me so much dysphoria. what if maybe he was transmasc and just fuckin killing it out there.

-listen xhaka and ruwei are best friends they are lovers they're a qpr they're dating they're in an unlabeled relationship. i don't even care. they are everything 2 me.

-mannn i wanted to see more interactions w him and shu in s1 :') dude was sooo desperate to battle shu and then the one time it happened was in s2 when shu was red eye and we rly only saw the aftermath :( more battles more interactions etc i think they had an interesting dynamic

-i don't really know or care enough abt shipping to have anything to say about a notp. aside from weird age gaps n stuff, it's kinda just whatever imo :)

-random headcanons: did you know he's a human space heater. now you do. not to project Too much, but if you're under the same blanket it's gonna be like a kotatsu lmao i also feel like he would be really into growing his own food; the dojo probably has a decent-sized garden :]👍 oh! and he has a nokia brick in 2022.

-ova. look at me. i think at this point you Know my opinion. for those of you who don't: i want to put him in the microwave. i think he would start sparking like when you put metal in there. this dude cracked the trans egg back in 2016 and has just sorta been rent free in my brain ever since. he's responsible for at least half of my outfit decisions at this point. he's not even that dynamic of a character he doesn't have any major arc or anything and yet..still one of (if not my absolute favorite) burst characters!! he's just like me fr (concerning)

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ruwei:

-i think ruwei is bisexual. not gonna ngl.

-he/him but in a gender apathetic nonbinary way. the same way you refer to a random animal u see as he/him. i don't just say nb ruwei because of the long hair, either--he just sorta has that vibe.

-already mentioned that above lol

-ok this isn't exactly a brotp, but i want to see him interact with free at some point. they both come across as like rly calm and laid back but then they're both kinda Actually Insane. itwould be interesting. we should just let them go in the woods and befriend the local wildlife or something.

-idk. once again what else r people even shipping. i do feel like it would be annoying to see ruwei paired with ana though, just because it feels compulsively straight in the same way valt being paired with shasa is.

-RUWEI LISTENS TO WEEZER HE IS A WEEZER IM SORRY. IT'S TRUE. IT HAD TO BE SAID. HE TRAINS WHILE LISTENING TO IT SOMETIMES. he also can't keep a houseplant alive for the life of him. he isn't aware of this fact bc xhaka's been paying really close attention to the one he has ever since it was brought home. his bones and joints are also constantly cracking, which occurs so suddenly and loudly that it scares anyone in a 15-foot radius.

-my general opinion is that ruwei is cool 👍 like, in the way where he tries to be cool and badass but ends up looking kinda goofy while doing it, which circles back to being kind of impressive in a weird way. maybe not one of my favorite characters from all of burst, but definitely one of my faves from season 2!!

#thank u for the ask!! sorry this took so long haha #.woof. #asks #ova-kakyoin #beyburst

[stregoniconiconii]

about the siblingification of friendships, sorry im totally about to make myself a stand in for steve here, but im an only child, i have felt v lonely, and i have this one friend who calls her close girl friends sisters,, and i just do not feel it, i love her, and she is one of my best friends, but i just do Not see her as a sibling. and i think steve would be the same way tbh, also my most sibling adjacent feelings have been for ppl around 5 years younger than me (just like Steve & the kids/teens<3) but unlike steve, i haven't had any intense trauma to increase the chance for sibling bonding.

idk i just think that it would take More for steve to feel sibling feelings for ppl around his own age or older.

i also think that when u have been on ur own a lot it's like, sure u want ppl around, but also u need ur space bc u're used to it, idk maybe thats just me lol. i also have an intense need for personal space and like my things are my things and no one better fucking touch it, (i mean u can but if u pick stuff up I'll be annoyed, sorry) but also i Crave physical affection, and sorry i think this is just a "why i relate to steve/things i project onto steve" list, oops.

but like i guess what i probably wanted to say is, steve is, as far as we know, an only child, and while i think we all want him to have good family times, i don't think that equals sibling type relationships with everyone, and i think it would be interesting if ppl took into account how living as an only child would affect him, and not only in the "his house was always empty so now he is filling it w the sound of his friends 24/7" way. like maybe its just me, and im projecting or w/e but if I had friends over All the time, even my very best friends(except maybe my best best friend<3) i would go insane i think

sorry for talking so much about myself, it's just things that makes me think about steve, and this is the best i could manage to express it at the moment <3

this just made me think of something very funny which is that Steve and robin DO think each other as siblings but because they're both only children they just. genuinely have absolutely no idea how siblings are supposed to act around each other and so they do things together that would make ppl sing 'sweet home Alabama' or go 'wtf' if they were actual real life siblings. like it genuinely is all completely platonic but it's still a line that siblings wouldn't cross lol (idek what kind of things yall can figure it out)

HOWEVER two only children who are very used to doing their own thing suddenly being very clingy with each other?? oh I just know there were growing pains. like they want to be around each other but also being around someone means Being Around Someone. they definitely had to figure out a system to make sure they dont murder each other lol

but yeah I do see what you mean about Steve maybe either not needing or necessarily even wanting?? a sibling relationship with everyone he knows (that isn't somehow a parental figure either lmaoo) the type of person I could see filling that sort of role for Steve might be likeeee an almost queer older sibling? like someone he meets in his 20s who takes him under a gay wing. I know ppl like to imagine Eddie doing that for Steve but that's definitely not a sibling framework with them lol and also Eddie's dead </3 but I can see it happening when Steve and robin move out of hawkins and get involved with the gay scene. or maybe him getting into a line of work that ends up forming these close sibling like relationships. idk lol

idk mostly im fine with Steve being an older brother to dustin and max you know?

alsoooo it's totally fine to talk about urself <333 it helps inform ur head canons!! I mean im the absolute opposite of Steve I have siblings and I grew up so close with my cousins they’re practically also siblings, so hearing the only child side of living Does make a difference you know 

#platonic stobin #steve harrington #robin buckley

[kidcooper02]

My whole thing with the making a canonical gay character ace (well in barts case Would Be Canonical If DC Wasn't A Little Bitch)is that its kinda homophobic? That age old thing of "oh oh its *fine* to be gay but you can't make a big deal out of it/its fine to be romantically interested but being sexually attracted to ppl of the same sex is gross" and it adds to the stereotype thru "gay men are inherently impure sexual deviants so this gay character who isn't that *must* be ace in some way!" Also being on the ace spectrum =/= having a complicated relationship with romance or sexuality. That's just. Part of being normal. Esp since Bart is very neurodivergent coded! And implying that normal experiences w sexuality = ace spectrum lessens the struggles ace/aro ppl face and pushes the harmful hookup culture we're stuck in

Not saying that you're implying any of this at all and I'm sure you mean well! It's just my opinion on things

I understand! And yes I meant absolutely no ill intent, mostly just trying to find a way to acknowledge a popular headcanon alongside canon!

But that's an interesting conversation to have, how Bart's neurodivergency plays a role in his relationships. What would be crossing the line? Of course, people can be all 3 (gay, asexual, and neurodivergent) but when it comes to a character and what they're meant to represent, a lot more thought should be going into it. Its important to have that balance of letting people see themselves while also not dipping into stereotypes. And this isn't me trying to say "but think about!" Not all, I'm just wondering how someone would go about balancing all 3 in a proper way

And for sure, I think I was getting into my own head about relationship presenting. Like hell, I'm the same as Bart when it comes to relationships yet I don't identify on the ace spectrum. And I wouldn't want to try to speak on the struggles a community faces that I'm not in, not having that personal information is what led to that sort of "assignment" and I'm very sorry for that! Because you're absolutely right, there is no "normal" way to go about romance

Thank you so much for your input! I'll be only saying Bart is gay from now on as that is what is "as close to canon as DC will let it." Everything else isn't my place to speak on

#dc #young justice #yj #bart allen #i think any other ask about bart's sexuality i will just post because i think my stance is shut n close rn #like i dont have anything else to add since i really can only say so much #if youd like to drop how you feel about barts sexuality interpretation please feel free to! #just because i cant be adding to the conversation doesnt mean i cant give people the space to explore it themselves #answering things

[cupioriot]

So this is a pjo oc I have and I wanna talk abt him coz I've spent way too long on him/hj

I haven't drawn in like a long time +this isn't my usual art style so bare w/ me here

So, this is Theophanes(Theo) King, son of Eros. He is age 17(after blood of olympus, I've been getting around to fully reading TOA so in his timeline, TOA just didn't happen.) And here's a bunch of stuff abt him! =]

Abilities

- Great at archery

- fluent in most "romance" languages

- can charmspeak

- can fly (I mean, obviously)

Weaknesses

- gets dr*g hypersensitivity syndrome very often. (His body rejects medicinals of most kinds, as it usually takes it for harmful substances.) This makes him a certified pain in the ass to try to heal

- Injuries to his wings have a high chance of fatality

- very weak bones. Not due to any specific medical condition, he just has fragile bones.

- afraid of big bodies of water

- quick tempered

Fatal flaw is hubris

Kinda an arrogant and vain prick to the general public, but isn't that bad when talked to individually

Positive attributes

Loyal to his friends

Clever

Ambitious

Personal weapon

His personal weapon is a bow called 'piercer', nothing too notable about it, other than his father gave it to him after he lost his sword in a quest. Didn't really matter much, the sword had no significance, and Theo kinda struggled whilst using it. Eros mainly gave him the bow because it was what the quest was for, he didn't have a need for it after he knew it was safe, and it was a solo quest so there was no one but Theo to give it to.

Relationships with other characters

Eros; I wrote Eros to be sorta a meh father figure, not the worst, because he doesn't actively hate Theo, and visits on birthdays of him and his siblings(most of them share the birthday of February 14th, just different years) and to give quests to him and his siblings, but not the best because realistically there are few actually good godly parents.

I don't really have more than that down for relationships with pjo canon characters, but I sure as hell have oc's that follow his timeline that I'll vaguely talk about until they get their own posts

Finn Moore, son of Dolos(god of deceit); Theo's love interest, who's he's very much in denial about until he just gives in and asks him out and shit, it'll be wholesome when I get around to writing more about their intimate relationship. But anyways, Finn sorta causes all the stuff to happen in their timeline by killing someone, but that's for another time. Long story short, Theo's murderer boyfriend.

Mikaela Thatcher, daughter of Eros; same age as Theo, and also has wings. They compete very heavily for their father favor, although he doesn't have a favourite out of the two. Yet everyday is still "I bet I can fly faster" "I bet I'm more accurate with a bow" "I bet you can't only speak in French for a whole day" and so much more.

Casper and Morgan Gatlin, twin son(casper) and daughter(morgan) of Eros; Theo isn't really close with either of them, but he's still their brother so he knows enough about them. They're a year older than Theo and Mikaela, and they're the calmer two of the cabin (Casper gets involved with drama and stuff, but not enough that it's an issue.

I think I'm gonna end off this post here, (coz idk if ppl will actually find this interesting :']) but this probably won't be the last time I talk about this.

Thanks for reading this far, have a good day <33

~Damien♡

[intearsaboutrobots]

3, 4, 7 & 22 for the meta ask thing?

3. What is that one scene that you’ve always wanted to write but can’t be arsed to write all of the set-up and context it would need? (consider this permission to write it and/or share it anyway)

oh gosh... this isn't exactly right bc i am actually very excited by the set-up i came up w i am just not good on a Long Writing Project, but i have a very good crossover WIP for Lymond Chronicles/Legally Blonde The Musical lmaoo

the thing is it is actually VERY INTERESTING how those two canons interact, and i would love to actually write the novel length fic that this would be but i am notttt an experienced Long Thing writer!!! but i will put some of my fav snippets i wrote for it at the end under the cut :33

4. Share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that you’re really proud of (explain why, if you like)

She tugged Daisy gently into her, settling her against her side. Daisy tried her best to relax, ordering her muscles to loosen. This should have been the easiest thing in the world, she and Basira should have fit together like puzzle pieces. They'd both changed too much thought, Basira growing sharp and dangerous, her angles digging into the places Daisy had been hurt.

this is from good sleep is hard to find, and i forgot how much i liked writing this dynamic ! what's more fun than two ppl who used to be incredibly close and now things have changed and they just. don't fit anymore.

7. What do you think are the characteristics of your personal writing style? Would others agree?

hmm i'm not sure if this counts but i write a lot of people suppressing reactions? not someone crying, but someone holding back tears or biting their tongue until they taste blood, yk? i'm not really sure if that's the right answer for this question tho

22. Do you reread your old works? How do you feel about them?

no aha not really... this isn't always true but for the things i didn't write in basically one sitting and put right onto ao3 and particularly for anything written on a deadline, by the time im posting it i have spent so much time editing it that i feel terrible and (esp if it was on a deadline) have possibly cried over it. so i post it and then never read it again ghslkdfhsf

(i am trying to write in a way where i don't end up feeling terrible tho ghslkdf it's a work in progress)

((also rereading old stuff for this meme has been very fun actually, it turns out i like my writing sometimes??? literally who knew))

brief context: the AU is that Lymond=Elle, Pippa=Emmett, and Margaraet=Callahan. because of the ages tho, lymond went to harvard to follow margaraet before pippa did, so he didn't have someone to help him get out from under her thumb. when pippa meets him, he's still stuck in a like, fucked up relationship w her where she is also his boss and absolutely wields that over him. also this is copied right from my drafts pls disregard typoes etc...

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It was past midnight when Phillippa spotted Lymond's fair hair coming out of the building. Hopping off the ledge she'd been sitting on, she dashed to catch up with him. He turned when he heard her coming. His hair was in disarray, his shirt still partially unbuttoned.

"Ah, Somerville comma Phillippa," he drawled. "I don't know why I'm surprised, you found a piece of personal business to stick your nose into so where else should you be? Well, I'm afraid you've missed the boat on this one. My relationship to Margaret has been the subject of campus gossip since longer than you've been out of diapers. I've heard some remarkable suggestions on what exactly is going on under the *bench at trials."

"Stop it!" she snapped. "You won't turn me off that easily."

"Turn you off, I wouldn't dare. Besides, that isn't exactly my field, is it." Every word was spat out like a dart, aiming to hurt. By his side, his hands were fisted, and his lips were tight and drawn. Phillippa stepped closer, standing up to her full height to glare at him.

"Francis Crawford. You are my friend," she emphasised the word, stuffing any feelings to the contrary into a box, "and I do not stand by and let my friends be hurt."

His face became a cold mask. She has misjudged.

"Consider the burden of my well-being lifted from you, then. Disregard any friendship you might have thought we had, Ms. Somerville. Don't you have a job to get to? Floors to mop?"

He hissed the last words, and turned on his heel to storm off. Phillippa didn't follow, frozen with rage and embarrassment.

---

"We can fix it. We can fight it-"

"Don't you think," Lymond hissed, "I've tried that?" He was angrier, Pippa realised, than she'd ever seen him. His fists were curled, white-knuckled at his sides, and all the muscles in his body were taut and pulled tight. "Do you think I'm some sorry slut, eager to roll over for my mistress? I have been trying for years, Philippa. For years, to get the evidence to bring Margaret down. But who exactly would believe me over her?

"I know exactly how people see me. I'm not in denial as to my reputation, I know what people whisper. Half the rumors are probably true. But I'm not, I'm *not* giving up. I won't let her win."

Philippa matched his gaze, trying to hide the quivering inside of her.

"Let me help you, then. You don't have to do this on your own."

"For the love of-" Lymond spun, throwing up his hands. "I don't want you to see me with her. I am not proud of what I have to do. I don't want you to see me like that."

"It won't change the way I htink of you." Her voice gained strength as she went on. "You'll always be the arrogant, cutting, rude, brilliant, charismatic man who kicked me out of class on my first day. And I want to help you."

---

Lymond sat on the edge of the curb, coatless.

It was a chilly night. They were still in midSeptember, but the weather was ready for the cold and wind of later in the year. She unzipped her coat and shrugged it off.

"You'lre going to get hypothermia."Lymond looked at the coat dangling from her hand, then back up at Philippa. She shook it slightly impatiently.

"Don't worry about me, I am from here. You're a California boy, I'm sure you have a very delicate constitution."

"Thank you for your concern," he said dryly. He still hadn't taken the coat. Philippa gave up on any idea of him being sensible and settled it around his shoulders herself. This close, she could detect the minute trembling of his muscles. He was not dressed to be outside in this weather, and she felt a little worried for him.

"Do you need a ride? I... well, I don't have a car. But I could call you one."

Lymond looked up at her, eyes crinkling. "Your chivalry is unmatched, Miss Somerville. But unnecessary. I do not have need of knights in shining armour, or any other kind for that matter."

"You should be so lucky to have a dragon. At least they'd warm you up before you start losing digits."

It had been the right response, apparently, as a smile crossed Lymond's face that was warmer and more genuine than anything she'd seen from him before.

"Is that what you are then? A guardian dragon, here to make sure no frostbitten layabouts turn into icicles?"

From behind him, she heard a voice calling. He looked up, then back to her.

"I'm afraid my little tantrum had better be at an end." He held her coat out to her, but she shook her head.

"Keep it for the next time you decide to go stand outside in the middle of the night. In case the next dragon is not so full of fellow-feeling."

#lymond chronicles #q answered #thank u!!!