#today has fucking sucked

[bandit-prince]

*incoherent screaming*

#why #just why #why am I here #just to suffer? #this is #mostly just for the lols. HOWEVER. #today has fucking sucked #and I 100% on calling out tomorrow #*and I plan 100% on #just #*slams head against a wall* #gaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhggh

[skylieclearwater]

ooc

So...

My dog’s ear bled again today. Same as last time.

It’s what we initially feared. He has a tumor in his ear canal. It’s pea-sized right now, that we can see. It could be deeper. Due to his age and the meds he is on, surgery is not an option. All we can do now is keep him comfy and happy. 

It could be months, or a few years. We don’t know. But my heart hurts. This dog, my Vinny, has gotten me through so much. He helped me through the loss of my mother and sister. I’m not ready to even think of saying good-bye. I try not to post too much about this, but sometimes it does help to get it in writing and work it out that way.

Anxiety disorder plus ADD/ADHD makes this worse. Cause now there’s that wretched fixation. And it’s VERY hard to break. I apologize in advance to everyone following who may be sensitive to this sort of thing. I have it tagged, kinda? But if any of you know of better tags, PLEASE let me know. I will tag it appropriately. 

#animal illness tw #ooc #today has fucking sucked

[strawberri-syrup]

someone found and turned in my airpod case which is cool i guess. dont exactly have the energy to be happy about it

#today has fucking sucked #top 10 worst days #its been so bad #i cant pick it up until theres an ra on duty because that room is locked and my ra is busy #and the other one is runnign an event in an hour #and i just want to cry but i cant even do that #i wish i could cry

[sunchyld]

The only bad thing about the death of twitter is that it was my premiere place to rant about the current curse of my existence. I liked being able to do it as a thread

#instead I do it here #today has fucking sucked #between buses not showing up not being able to get to work without relying heavily on my partner and not realizing I didn’t go in #until fucking noon and not knowing how to get into a specific account that could have made the whole thing sick a little less #I also managed to have a ptsd panic attack because I triggered myself by thinking of a thing that I thought I was okay with #(truly I’ve never been okay with it but I was okay with pretending) #I am now incredibly strung out tired and feel like I’m gonna be sick and I don’t get to leave this place until after 8 #gods kill me #anyways

[khaire-traveler]

Ok, I'm burnt out, pretty grumpy, and having a really hard time, so I'll be turning asks off for awhile. Posting will be more sporadic. I know I don't have to announce things like this, I figure I'll let people know so they don't think I'm ignoring them or anything. I'm just having a shit time, y'all.

Take care, everyone.

#personal #blog post #sorry for literally just coning back from a posting a break and leaving immediately after #shit just really fucking sucks today #I've been having a shit time throughout this entire move #but the moment we got on the road and the moments after have been fucking hell #i didnt sleep well most of these nights either #as I've been sharing a bed with my mom #and she's used to a bigger bed so she keep stealing blankets and kneeing me in the side #I'm just having a shit time #even spirituality has veen difficult lately #i haven't been able to feel the presence of any deities and that's been reallt hard #because it feels like I'm praying without reason sometimes #but i try to push through those feelings #but i also just feel bad that i keep asking and asking for hwlp without being able to give offerings atm #i just don't feel well #and there's not much i can do about it

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

fuckfuck fuck i need to make more physical crafts i need to create tangible things that i can hold with my two hands and put it somewhere i can See It and think Wow. I Made That.

#finished my little rudimentary earring holder & one of two arm warmers #MORE!!!! MORE!!!!!! I NEED MORE #maybe... maybe ill go get myself a new little plant and a pot to decorate. a little guy for my windowsill #ohhh i could uh! i could make like a little scrapbook thing and put in there all of my favorite things that ive drawn.... #a little egotistical Perhaps but!! on days where i feel like shit and like my art sucks i could flip through that! #and say 'huh. not too bad actually' #plus it just sounds like a fun craft. i could get stickers and stuff. washi tape. glue flat objects on. add teeny doodles #i just. i need to create more i think thats whats wrong with me lately #i feel such Peace and Joy when i make physical things #i wonder if id like book binding... #no no thats for future me who has a job and an Income to get interested in #that would be fun tho! ive always wanted to try it. #and if i do i'd Really want to do that thing where people take a fanfic and make it into a physical book #that would be so fun... #i could have my favorites on a shelf! with permission of course! #absolutely unprompted #yk when i start to feel that Despair i really just gotta think about what physical things i could create #what art things i still have to discover and attempt and enjoy #today has sucked But! i will take the car tomorrow and by fuck i will do Something #a new plant friend. yeah. i need something alive in my room #and this weekend ill go to michaels and get myself washi tape so that i can secure my posters to the walls #bc my poster tack Is Not Working! #i wonder if our printer can work on cardstock... i wonder if its been Set Up yet i havent seen her #maybe ill make some more tiny vases today. i have clay still... #OH OH i could make small amigurumi keychain things... #*spoken with clenched fists and gritted teeth* there is still so much to discover and delight in in this life #the walls in this house are bare and cold but if my stepdad allows I Can Spruce It The Fuck Up #ohhhhh crochet tapestries... i could probably do that too... #i cant wait to pick up crafts get bored two days later and drop em and i say that sincerely!

[francy-sketches]

The age difference between tommen and myrcella bothers me way more than it should like sometimes it's 2 whole years sometimes they're the exact same age like grrm wanted to make them twins but he forgot. Girl what is the truth

#.txt #grrm has a loose grasp on numbers unfortunately #in agot myrcella is 'not quite eight' and in affc she's 'not quite one-and-ten' ok so she went from 7 to 10 in 2 years? #and in 2 years tommen went from 7 to 8 uhhh if she's almost 11 he should be 9 at least right #maybe he is 9 but everyone just forgot his birthday lmao #BUT in the agot appendix it say's she's 8. which makes more sense. if she's 8 turning 9 instead of 7 turning 8 #but BUT the wiki (my best friend and worst enemy) says she was born in 290. bc they take the 'not quite 8' thing as fact #which. ok after pacing around the house talking to myself like a madman that's not possible. it has to be 289 ☝ I think. um #I don't fucking know man I also don't have a very firm grasp on numbers. but something's not right here #idk grrm definitely fucked up some ages in affc bc it says joffrey died at 12. damn he died so hard he aged backwards 😔 #btw this is the second time I've gone insane thinking about grrm's bad math today. and that was only considering time #imagine if I also thought about space too hard...thank god my understanding of distances sucks ass

[tautozhone]

can argue to death with me about how age restrictions on youtube are necessary but i will be DAMNED before i say Hinds Hall deserved to be age restricted. average american child on youtube can listen to H*rbu D*rbu (censoring in hopes to avoid algorithm engagement with the song) which is IOF praising genocidal propaganda, and- big fucking shocker- its not age restricted. i’m 100% sure the only reason Hind’s Hall was restricted was to deliberately suppress and avoid the spread of the song.

#tauto talks #i know damn well that it doesn’t matter that it’s songs in different languages shit in arabic is not free from age restrictions just because #it would not take a kid much leg work for someone to find an english translation if they wanted it #pop culture has an inseparable impact on the public perception of so fucking much and it sucks to say but i bet some people hadn’t had #everything delivered in a way that made them care #macklemore has a weird history of social activism in his music i apologize every day for making fun of him in highschool for thrift shop #like his song kevin does a lot to tackle americas overprescription to addiction to jail or death pipeline #it is sympathetic to the experience of an addict in ways a lot of people generally in society are not #this song did a bit to turn perspective to industries at fault and not the individual suffering #so watching hinds hall be age restricted? feels deliberate. as every move of suppression has felt #feeling particularly full of grief and hate today because i graduate soon #i can only think of every writer like me who did not get to see the stage like i will and it aches #stories the world will never see because it removed the chance #it’s almost like the youth of america are some of the most vibrant and opinionated and energetic parts of the population. youth affords time #change spreading like wildfire cannot be put out as fast as it grows #keep burning #free palestine #palestine #gaza genocide #free gaza #eyes on rafah #eyes on sudan #eyes on congo #eyes on darfur #liberate the world #hoping a swift but painful death to colonization

[babybluebex]

Tom Grant making you laugh after and awful day at work ❤️

ugh tommy yes my baby i had a shitty day today too so this is therapeutic for me lol

You sighed as you stepped into the trailer, setting your bag down heavily on the counter. The day had been a lot— not much had happened, but a night of bad sleep and a persistent bad mood had dampened the day and made every inconvenience all the much worse— and you wanted nothing more than to settle yourself in bed and ignore the world for the rest of the night.

Thankfully, though, your boyfriend had other ideas.

"Baby," Tom started when he got home, seeing your foul mood immediately; he was good at that sort of thing, sensing emotions and moods. "What's the pout all about?"

"I'm not pouting," you told him, fiddling with the blanket across your lap as you watched television. You couldn't look at him, knowing that, if you did, you would start to cry from your shitty day, and you clenched your back teeth as Tom leaned down and kissed your head.

"Looks like you're pouting," Tom said softly, his lips against your head. "Move over, let me get here."

You sighed and scooted over to allow Tom to sit right up next to you, and his arms went around you as he kissed your head once more. "What's wrong?" Tom whispered. "You've got a sad face."

"I don't have any face, Tommy," you told him firmly. "This is just my face. I'm just watching telly."

"No, no, you've got a face," Tom said, his eyes sweeping your cozy frame, all bundled in one of his shirts with the blanket over your legs. In an instant, he had scooped you up into his arms and settled you in his lap, and he popped a quick kiss on your cheek. "Tell me what's wrong. Please?"

You looked at Tom to find him looking at you with his dark eyes wide, his eyebrows furrowed, his lip pouted dramatically. His begging face was usually able to get you to confess whatever he wanted you to, and something stirred in your chest at the sight of it today. Your lip wobbled, and Tom started to speak before you whimpered and let your tears fall. "Today just sucked," you gasped as you cried, and Tom frowned as he held you closely. "Can you just hold me?"

"Of course, baby," Tom told you, and his arms tightened around you for a quick squeeze. "What happened?"

"Nothing really," you started. "I just slept like shit and I've felt like shit all day, and-and today was such shit."

"I'm sorry," Tom mumbled. "Do you wanna go to bed early tonight, maybe? Try to get some good sleep?"

"Yeah," you sniffled. "Can you make dinner tonight too? I-I mean, I can do it, but—"

"Of course I can," Tom said. "Are you hungry now? Maybe you're hungry and that's part of the problem?"

"Sure," you sighed, and you went to wipe away your tears, but Tom was quicker than you, smoothing away your tears on your cheeks with his thumbs. "You can start dinner now, if you want. B-But if it's gonna be too much, you just got home—"

"It's not an issue," Tom told you. "I'm hungry too."

When he stood up, he seemed to get an idea in his mind, because he hastily grabbed his phone from his shorts pocket and started to search for something specific on it. After a moment, some tinny music started to play from his phone, and Tom turned to you and started to move his hips and shoulders in time with the music. That goofy smile of his spread across his plush pink lips, and his hips began to gyrate as he pointed at you. "Can I see a smile?" he asked over the music, and you bit your bottom lip as Tom began to mimic the guitar in the song, strumming his hand along his stomach as he scrunched up his nose.

"Tommy—" you started, but he shook his head.

"Nuh-uh, baby," he said. "I'm not gonna stop until you smile. Even a fake one, just a smile, babe. Please?"

As Tom continued to dance around like a goof, you couldn't help but smile at him. Your boyfriend always knew what to do to make you grin, and you giggled as Tom held his hand out to you, inviting you to dance with him. You stood up and threw your arms around his firm middle, and his arms enveloped you as you two slowly swayed to the music. "Thank you," you whispered into his chest, and Tom rubbed his hand along your back as he pressed a hard kiss to your head.

"You're welcome, baby."

#bex answers #heyndrix #tom grant x reader #tom grant #make up 2019 #joseph quinn #joseph quinn x reader #today has sucked and it's not even over yet #the various events throughout the day have helped me get by but like. today has fucking sucked #where is my sweet soft boyfriend that cheers me up

[steorransaluki]

welp. fuck.

#talking #veterinary tw - #just like.... general tw for negative dog health stuff in these tags #I had my step mom take cooper to the vet for me while and I was at work #and he's...fine. for now. #hes got a lot of fatty tumors which we knew about #but one has been weird so thats why i got him the appt #and they didn't aspirate it today (my step mom wasn't sure if i wanted them to) but the vet is highly suspicious it's malignant #so thats fun. #I'm okay personally bc he's not showing any symptoms but i mean.... I cant imagine he's got very long just looking at this thing #its flat “pancake shaped” and about the size of my hand on his ribs #I know hes old. i knew something would be coming. but fuck. #this sucks

[kimtaegis]

“future’s gonna be okay” are we actually sure about that. are we

#today was my breaking point lol today I couldn’t hold back the tears anymore #I literally can’t handle another setback or my mind’s gonna get on total lockdown again as in 2021/22 #how are you supposed to find meaning in ANYTHING when you’ve always giving your total best and it has never gotten you anywhere. how #how are you supposed to stay strong and optimistic #I feel so fucking helpless at this point I just want to scream #everything just sucks

[rosyjuly]

i was about to make a post about how i'm not fit for human society and then i remembered i have forgotten to take my meds two days in a row.

#:I #sorry i know i've been making a lot pof posts about how life is hard and terrible #a lot of shit has been going on in my life and they suck individually too but together? ohhhh boy #i'm on a mental health break from work and i'm just rotting away #fucking skipped my art class today to clean my flat before i travel. you think i cleaned anything? nope #i was looking forward to showing my stuff to the teacher so obviously had to shoot myself in the foot. #nooooo idea how i'm going to get back to work next tuesday and get through literally six hours of meetings #including a feedback sesh. like at this point i genuinely hope they fire me. i can't deal with this kindness man

[sagehaubitze]

Today has been better, I got covered in blood and dirt (gardening), improved my mood and self image. Decided I would commit to the TDOV selfie after forcing myself to pick out things about my body I liked. I like the dark circles under my eyes, I like my scars.

I fought hard to get those scars, I better like them.

#text #selfie #tdov #trans day of visibility #I am going the brute force route of getting myself out of this body image issue hole I'm in #Today has been a lot better though #yesterday just fucking sucked massive amounts of shit

[orcelito]

Opening the local bubble tea store absolutely livid and shaking in rage and upset bc my bitch ass boss is too concerned about us sitting on the job to order the tea bags I requested Two Fucking Weeks Ago (it only takes like 4 or 5 days to ship) and so we're out and I had to hand wash the 1 reusable bag to make black tea and I have to strain the free floating tea leaves from the cold brew and I just KNOWWWW he's going to have something more to bitch about because he always does

Last straw on the camel's back, etc etc, I want to put in my two weeks notice by the end of this week. That's a goal for myself.

#speculation nation #i currently dont have a job lined up but im going to start applying Today #because i cant take this anymore. i cant fucking take this anymore. #i feel like im about to shatter from the strain of hos chokehold #8 years total under his thumb and for What? he doesnt appreciate me. he doesnt value me. #he's an asshole this place sucks and it makes me so sad because i really do care about the people here #but i cant. i cant fucking do it anymore. #im really glad im alone on shift rn bc ha ha ha. ill put up the mask for customers but i am #genuinely shaking rn. im so upset. #this being after he complained Again about people sitting on the job during the meeting last night like #shut UPPPP I DONT CAAAARE #YOU TRY WORKING WITH CHRONIC PAIN AND FATIGUE AND A JOB THAT DOESNT GIVE GENUINE BREAKS #'oh if you need to take a break then do it but just dont sit down on the job“ #WHEN DO YOU THINK I COULD TAKE MY BREAK? IM WORKING ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!+ #and when im.not working alone im working with trainees so i still cant leave the store unattended #im sick of him.im so sick of him and im THIIIIIIIIIS close to just breaking down here and now #i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i HATE HIM #negative/ #sorry for the vent i just feel like.im about to blow up and everyone's busy so ic cant. vent properly #im not even done opening bc im too busy freaking out and pacing and being angry #and hes gonna watch me sitting here thru the cameras and be like Ho Hum Look at you immediately doing what i said not to #like fucking STOP!!!! WATCHING US!!!!!!! YOU FUCKING CREEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #IM SO SICK OF HIM WATCHING US THROUGH THE CAMERAS. HE HAS NO TRUST IN ME DOING MY JOB #0 value for me as a person or employee 0 value for my to this day dedication to this company #i want to send my heel through those front windows. watch them shatter. wreck the whole place #because fuck this place and fuck him #i wontttt bc i dont wanna go to jail lol but the temptation is there. i fucking hate his guts. #im going to put in my 2 weeks by the end of this week. im going to start applying to places Today. just fucking watch me.

[blowflyfag]

I need to learn how to edit I need to make the Maxxine Dupri Speed Drive edit of my dreams.

#listening to it on my drive to work and haunted by tagz calling her a living Barbie doll #and she is #CAN SHE CAN DO FUCKING ANYTHING #I LOVE MAXXINE DUPRI IM MAXXINE DUPRIS BIGGEST FAN #IF MAXXINE DUPRI HAS A MILLION FANS. IM ONE OF THEM #IF MAXXINE DUPRI HAS ONE FAN. ITS ME #AND IF SHE HAS NO FANS?? IM FUCKING DEAD #bored on the clock #(not really I’m waiting outside of work tho so it counts suck my dick.) #also!!! 3 day hump!!’ I’m really proud of myself! like genuinely #there’s been a lot of temptation because everyone loves smoking with me but :3 #by the end of today I’ll be 3 days sober. not bad :3

[bmpmp3]

man in his mid 20s who says tee hee

#art #traditional art #watercolour #oc art #ocs #oc group: lia crystal darling #oc: bibi #I DREW THIS a while back u can see the date in the corner LOL but i didnt scan it because it was like #a tiny little drawing from a tiny little watercolour paper pad and i. lost it JHKDSDds i forgot i had it #BUT I FOUND IT AGAIN so i scanned it finally ~ #today i had a slightly wretched critique in one of my classes. kinda incomprehensible. oddly harsh with very little actionable advice #i think ive been really lucky in school with critiques at least post secondarily. most have been very useful and fun and interesting #even if i dont find all the advice useful usually i can at least glean something like a communication issue or something im having #but this one was wack as FUCK only advice i got was basicaly all the work u did sucked u should just redraw year old unrelated work instead #my professor seems to think im on the right track tho i think it was just the TAs who came out the gate swinging LOL #theyre like my age so maybe theyre just overwhelmed about trying to lead a critique like this i think theyre new at it #so i'll try not to be too discouraged but MAN.... so now. i need to post drawings of my anime boys to bring me back down to earth #look at my anime boy. he even has hair covering one eye <3