#today is gonna suck lol

[oathfeared]

My biggest flaw is trying to help out at work by volunteering to work 12 hours.

I've made a grave mistake 😩

#today is gonna suck lol #im so tired already #ii 。 out of character

[autisthottygoth]

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#today is gonna suck lol #maybe ill just sleep the whole day and pretend it doesn't exist #fucking hell

[rui-drawsbox]

Comm for @ CitrusCynical! Part one bc I'm working on a few more ♪

#talking about work. first i didn't do much outside sending a lineart today bc *turumrumrum* i got a pc! #yayy! clapclapclap! #still gonna use the laptop to draw since the cpu only has one hdmi entrance and i can't connect the tablet #buuuut i have a piNK KEYBOARD. literally my dream come true #i might be able to play genshin again♪ i might be able to download bg3 in my own pc♪ #I'll be able to use a paint textured brush bigger than 100 pixels♪ #he hehehe hehe #the wifi connection sucks tho. we'll have to connect it with a wire i think #downloading steam at turtle pace lol #rui draw smth #art commisions #commission #oc #original character #im so happy i was literally at the edge all day lsndmsmdm #I'll upload a photo in my twt probably. i wanna show off my pink keyboard pink mouse and pink cat-themed mousepad #I'm also! reclaiming to Clipstudio support for my product key bc i bought it in like 2020 and we lost the email with the code #i have a pirated version but it's old. and i also have enough money rn to buy the newest version but my mom tells me to get my own again #ñeñeñe

[garak]

i just remembered im allowed to draw whatever i want

#its gonna take a lot of wrangling and doing things i never do to get it to look right but im going to try. but not today #2000s moe style really not in my wheelhouse ive tried before but i suck at it lol. its the opposite of how i draw and color naturally #like a lot of airbrushing and glowing shit... it just does not come naturally to me as a flat color guy #living after midnight #rivalz.png

[dandelion-roots]

Hmm isn't this... kinda gay?

[ID: a digital drawing of Xie Lian sitting on Hua Cheng's chest and putting lipstick on him with a brush. Behind them are red curtains and under them are red sheets. They're lit up by a couple butterflies flying between their faces. End ID]

#tgcf #tgcf fanart #hualian #hualian fanart #tian guan ci fu #hob #hob fanart #heaven official's blessing #xie lian #hua cheng #took the pose from a photograph that reminded me of the lesbian meme pic #bcs i wanted to draw but today isn't composition day and i wasnt in the mood to do my regular memes #hence why they don't look how i usually draw them #i also wanted to make myself do some colours bcs i suck at doing colourss #i always say i need to do colour studies then never do lol #anywayyy if ure gonna look at anything here look at xl's hand #it came out amazing #ah to have to same knowledge of hand anatomy for other parts of the anatomy #but alas. i do not #i still havent finished that sequel smutty fic. but im not in a hurry #dan draws

[nuks]

gooood morning :D

#I’m gonna hang out with my bestie today!! #going to her house 💪💪 #she’s gonna teach me how to cook stuff #bc I suck at cooking LOL #love her #ooc. #I will be back later!! #I’ll be off and on answering messages and stuff c:

[gingerbreadmonsters]

not even panicking . idek what ur saying why would ever be worried abt this

#head in hands #trial practice for tap class is in about 20 minutes and im just about remaining sane #GAHHHH this is so stressful #they do not really speak english and i do not really speak japanese so this will be exciting #plus the class is like..... 2hrs long lol #BUT WE FUCKING MOVE OK IM BEING SO BRAVE #IM GOING TO GO TO THE CLASS AND SEE WHAT ITS LIKE #ITS GOING TO BE FINE IM SURE THEY WILL ALL BE NICE AND LOVELY #tap people generally are i find #i will go to the class and do some tap and not die of a stress induced heart attack because ITS SOMETHING I LOVE #AND ILL DO IT #and if it sucks and i hate it then fuck it. i never have to see these goddamn people ever again if i don't want to #hopefully i WILL want to. bc its gonna be great and im gonna love it #I HAVE FAITH #I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE 😭😭🥳 #i will update u guys when i get back 🫡 #if its fab i will recommend it #and if it sucks we will roast it mercilessly #either way i am being very brave today and i am sharing this bravery with u as well 🫶🫡 #the little gay people in my phone believe in me and i will not disappoint #just the same way that i believe in you too ✊🥳

[raiiny-bay]

wip

#hi. i think this edit is almost done #well. no. it IS almost done. probably gonna finish it tomorrow #i really want to do some writing today but will i? #i think i need to join like. a writing group or something bc i suck at self motivating but #idk. sounds scary. so. probably not. #i wouldn't know where to find one anyway & if i did. i probably wouldn't interact much. #i'm one of those doesn't speak unless spoken to people tbh #n e way. i've been really into my plants lately lol #my lil round cactus is growing fruits!!!! #it's never done that before so i'm hoping to save the seeds & try growing them myself. gonna set up a terrarium #& my haworthia is looking significantly better than it was before #it was all sunburned & sad but now it's very green!!! & happier!! i think i need to water it today #my desert rose however....... needs work. i don't think i know how to take care of it very well. #i looked up care instructions & it said to keep the soil moist but also to let it dry out completely so??? idk that's a lil confusing #i'm gonna put it in a more gravelly soil & see if that helps #i also propped my bunny ear cactus bc it was getting all droopy & heavy so #now i'm gonna have baby cacti!! so exciting #rainyrambles

[kimtaegis]

“future’s gonna be okay” are we actually sure about that. are we

#today was my breaking point lol today I couldn’t hold back the tears anymore #I literally can’t handle another setback or my mind’s gonna get on total lockdown again as in 2021/22 #how are you supposed to find meaning in ANYTHING when you’ve always giving your total best and it has never gotten you anywhere. how #how are you supposed to stay strong and optimistic #I feel so fucking helpless at this point I just want to scream #everything just sucks

[toasteaa]

Sorry I went so hard and turned this into an oc x canon blog. Do you wanna hear about my oc? She's my wife

#toast talks #Good morning beloveds I'm sick 🫠 which means I get to go nonstop about my ship today LOL #I still talk about all my faves but Neuv and Eclair are like. THE ship of this blog now oops #I need to make a ship name for them. Neuvilair sucks. Eclairette? That sounds weird too UGH #The second my cat gets off me I'm gonna work on Eclair's TH profile and fix my pinned so that she's on there #because I think everyone should see her and because I love her and no I can't shut up about her #I'm gonna keep yappin and being annoying about her!!!

[stabbyfoxandrew]

guys i've capped my inbox for now (i probably won't reopen it) because i have 12 asks in there right now. here's the numbers though in case you're curious!

angel neil: 4 arson neil: 5 mafia front: 2 vampdrew: 1

#sighs. christmas is gonna suck enough i don't wanna be freaking out about these asks then too :')) #lol i have lots of sadness about christmas. and as it stands i'm probably gonna be working on these till at least Saturday #if i can keep this motivation train going #i love wipw when i'm feeling good but... some weeks it's Hard. #i'm doing alright today so let's see how many i can do before my back starts killing me! :D #diaerie

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#i was looking through old photos today. they where from wjen i was like 1 and it made me so sad #bc my mum would have been like only a year or 2 older then i am now and she looked so young #and now she has an abdomen full of tumors and blistered hands and feet. theyre prob gonna hsve to remove her bladder #but shes still very pragmatic abt it. but she grew up in a house where no one really cared about her feelings so she made them small #and now her mother calls and doesn't ask how her grandkids are doing and doesn't ask how her daughter is doing. im cursed with terrible #grandparents on both sides but i resent my mothers mother worse. though my dad said i probably wouldnt have survived his upbringing #and hes right. my nana has like zero empathy and cant cook for shit. idk how my parents r so normal but the fact i had a good upbringing is #probably the only reason im still here. and thats the other thing that made me sad abt the old pics. just looking at this little baby with a #fucked up head and thinking: in 25 years that kid is gonna b so broken down their not gonns kno what to do or how to fix it. idk whats wrong #with me. ive always been some stage of miserable but i used to b able to get things done. and now i cant seem to force functionality #and it sucks. bc im home now and i still feel like im cringing around this open wound in my chest. but whatever #as of today ive started taking ab1lify. hopefully it helps in the long term but in the short term it triggers my 0cd. which is not fun #its so frustrating. whatever. i also found out my eyes used to not work together. not enough to have a lazy eye but it was hard for me to #read and apparently my eyes were tracking at like double the speed of a normal person. wtf is wrong with my brain? also also my mum was like #yea i never would have guessed bip0lar but we thought it was something. autism i could see 100% but yea didnt see that coming. ao i guess #i brehave like a bit of an oddball. ans my nana would bother my dad to try to make me participate in church and my dad was like no. she #clearly don't wanna b here lol. ay. they did the best they could which i appreciate #unrelated

[semiotomatics]

lol, new fear unlocked: disappointing my therapist when i have bad days -_-

#this has been an original post #personal spewage #clouds gets therapy #like idk. i told her this week was gonna be tough for me bc of my period #but i also said last week was better than expected and she was so happy for me #and we were both so hopeful that this week would be better too #and then it. wasnt #well it wasnt all bad #but yesterday and today have sure sucked lol #im just so. mad #like. this is so unfair #i have a concert tonight that ive been looking forward to _literally all year_ #technically since last year #but i have cramps and i couldnt sleep and its pouring out and i dont have rainboots and i just. cant #or dont want to. whichever #and i know its okay. i know ill get another chance to see him live (tonight wouldve been my 4th time seeing him anyway lol) #but i still just. want to go #i wish i wasnt in pain and exhausted and depressed and just. like this #i wish i wasnt like this #edit: was just reminded that this is actually the SECOND time i had tickets to see him live this year but couldnt go #fucking sucks man #at least i did get to see him live on my birthday #that was. the best

[arolesbianism]

Sier? I haven’t even met her! Laugh.

#keese draws #oc art #oc #ocs #eternal gales #today has been a shit day but Im feeling a bit better now that I’ve drawn sier #long story short one of my friends is being harassed by their ex #so I’ve been in a blinding rage all day and combined with me not getting enough sleep and cleaning all day today quite sucked #but hey. I drew sier and made them a new mini ref so that’s gotta count for something #but yeah sier my beloved I’ve been thinking abt them all day they’re just so cute and I love drawing them #I forgive them for being a human character they’re silly and have shapes #I now have only 4 eg refs to go I think? which is honestly a lot closer than I thought I was I thought this was gonna be another year of #last minute refs for artfight and some that don’t get remade but honestly this is super doable #rly the only big problem is going to be fydd since it’s been so long since I’ve drawn him properly #the other three are just dodie tali and bloom which shouldn’t be too bad at all #now idk if the icons are happening but it’s definitely feeling a lot more doable now so idk maybe I’ll get to some of them #key word maybe I make no promises #thankfully I don’t rly have any other ocs that I feel pressed to make new refs for so I can take it easy leading up to artfight this year #I’d like to get some of them icons but that’s not necessary #hopefully sier will get drawn this year she hasn’t been attacked since her old design from years ago lol #but sier is also a character I’ve gotten other pieces of art of over the years so I won’t be heartbroken if they keep getting ignored lol #I don’t rly know who I’d like to see attacked most tbh #obviously I’m always happy to see art of any of my ocs but usually I do have a preference #so Im excited to see who gets attacked even if it’s only a few of them #I’m willing to bet teke will get at least one attack I believe in him #hopefully teka gets drawn too I love her dearly as well #anyways shower time and then sleep time gn gamers

[sparklingpax]

my method to successfully get through every day is like this meme, that I just made, bc thinking about my favorite (sometimes corny) truck dad helps, always

so anwyays, when in doubt, Optimus Prime

#my first day of school today #but on the bus i am not feeling dread #im watching g1 episodes and drowning my sorrows in my favorite fictional robots #especially Optimus #i hate school #at least its my senior year ✌️ #looking forward to absolutely nothing this year is gonna suck #oh well #for now im feeling better than I was feeling when i rolled out of bed this morning lol #thank u Optimus<3 #transformers #kuni talks #random #tf #g1 #optimus prime #<3 #lmao #maccadam #tfp #transformers prime #rescue bots #rb #g1 for the win ✨

[binders-and-beanies]

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#sry I need to vent more abt my tattoo pain bc I physically cannot do anything productive rn im completely and totally incapacitated #can’t read anything beyond short posts or texts. can’t eat or move at all #tried to sleep through it so it would at least Be Tomorrow so I can get medical help. but the jolts of pain make me like Jump #hence me being sent home from work early today like it’s not even that I was complaining I was just flinching involuntarily so much #and was unable to work or function at all. thank god I don’t work retail rn I remember the pain of tattoo infections in that context #it’s so Abrupt it feels like I’m being stabbed or repeatedly bitten #literally trying not to scream bc I have a roommate. but he almost certainly hears me crying and saying ouch #which sucks bc I barely know the guy lol he has no context. At least on my drive home I could scream as much as I needed #literally would go to the ER if I could afford it and that sounds so dramatic bc it is #it doesn’t feel like it can wait. genuinely don’t know how I’m gonna get through the night #I haven’t slept in like 60 hours and I doubt I will tonight. but it hurts too much to even tell if I’m tired #and I don’t have time for this!! I have so much I need to be doing. I hate that the only way I can have Time is to be Extra Disabled #in a way that leaves me completely unable to do the things I normally can fight through despite burnout #and I was just at health services yesterday asking them to do insurance paperwork that they couldn’t do #it’s embarrassing having to be like hey I was just there but can I come back #I have Another tattoo infection but I pinky promise I take such good care of them #and my artist is like the best of the best too. it’s like it doesn’t matter what either of us does to keep me safe #and I know if anyone responds to this it will be to tell me to stop getting tattoos #but that’s literally like telling me not to get top surgery if I’m immunocompromised n might have recovery complications #both are equally important gender affirming medical procedures to me I’m not joking #and I hate always having to justify this whilst in agonizing pain. I hate answering the same things every time bc still no one believes me #I say this as someone who lives every moment in baseline pain that would have your average person writhing on the floor and I ignore it #this is truly unbearable if I hadn’t been through it a million times I would think it was life threatening #just needed to get it out ig. bc it’s all I can physically do. until health services opens in 12 hours #PLEASE let them have availability tomorrow bc i have literally no option on weekends #this is just. so upsetting and embarrassing. I don’t have time or emotional capacity for this #personal #mine #vent post