#volume control in life

[spitblaze]

Gold and Silver are good kids and Gold likes to show up unannounced to Lance's house post-game to bother Silver and Silver is like 'ugh great just what I need a loud annoying weirdo' but they are neither loud nor annoying while they hang out they just quietly sit on the floor reading magazines abt pokemon or playing video games and sometimes Gold will shove something in Silver's face like 'WHOA CHECK THIS OUT' and Silver will be like 'can you quiet down. What stupid thing could possibly get you that excited' as if he wouldn't also be equally excited about the very cool article about Sharpedo Gold just found

#spitblaze says things #i just thing gold and silver are two different flavors of neurodivergent #gold has the overactive adhd kind and had issues w volume and impulse control #silver has the quiet (traumatized) autistic kind where he basically makes his way thru life by playing 4d Social Expectation chess #v good at masking. unfortunately his mask is aggression #gold doesnt care hes hot garbage with social cues too but makes zero effort to mask or compensate #its fine tho they both have the same special interest. Pokemon #(also gold makes a very good compression stim. silver will just be like 'will you lay on me please' and gold is like 'sure thing buddy :)' #and theyre just like that. on the floor. like cats. clair doesnt really know what to make of it but silver doesnt seem bothered #so its probably fine) #pokemon #preciousmetalshipping #(i mean i guess lol. either way they are Best Fwiends) #trainer gold #rival silver #idk why im so invested in these two. johto isnt even in my top 5 #pokemon gsc

[breelandwalker]

Grouchy Coworker: UGH, the new hires are so unprofessional!

Me: -only halfway paying attention- How so?

GC: Well, back when you were hired, there were rules about decorum. And they just...don't seem to apply anymore.

Me: What, like no jeans unless it's Friday?

GC: Like rules about personal appearance. No colored hair, no facial piercings, no visible tattoos. It used to be that you couldn't get a job in this industry if you had those, but I guess they'll hire anyone now.

Me: -holding back the eye roll- Times have changed since then, I guess. Lots of people have different self expression now and the company is a lot more concerned with skills than appearances.

GC: Well I think it's unprofessional. Back when I was hired, we weren't even allowed to wear pants in the office!

Me: Well, lucky for all of us, things have changed. But I'm pretty sure it's still frowned upon to diss your coworkers for their appearances.

GC: -goes back to work grumbling about UNPROFESSIONAL YOUNG PEOPLE-

My 40yo Petty Ass: -immediately makes plans to have hair colored and get a new tattoo-

#Bree in real life #The worst bit is...she has no volume control and EVERYONE CAN HEAR HER. #Talk about unprofessional. #work woes

[starheirxero]

The theory that Eclipse screamed "where am I?!" during today's episode in the middle of the bleeps does some next level cocomelon shit to me. It makes me want to start saying some absolutely atrocious, violent shit about that man <3

#xero says things #[gripping the table so hard im leaving claw marks] scream louder. cry with all your heart. beg for your life. #i hope you are filled with such a dread that you can do nothing but yell and yell until your voice box fizzles out from the volume #are you scared little machine? are you lost? are you spiralling out of control? #let me see. show it. show it. /show it./ #AHEM. straightens tie. #ANYYYYYWAYS. #tsams #eclipse #angst #I GUESS.

[dennifreeman]

HL Gordon and HLVRAI Gordon would have lame ass convos like

HL: we're sort of the same guy, but our voices sound completely different.. I never thought I'd hear someone else coming out of my own mouth!

VR: I never thought I'd have to destroy my coworker's passports.. OR get my hand cut off!!

HL: Wait, your HAND?! Then how's it back on?! Wouldn't you just have.. nothing there??

VR: No, no. That, uhh.. that guy in the suit, I didn't get his name.. he just put it back on. I have a pretty big scar around it. Looks cool, I think. It's better than having a minigun as my arm!

HL: A what. Minigun?? On your arm????? Don't.. don't give me answers, I'm gonna be so confused.. Not even gonna try and make sense of it, just taking your word.

#dennipost #half life #gordon freeman #hlvrai #gordon feetman #hl gordon having shit volume control for his exclamations so his yelling reverbs around the room LMAO

[storm-of-feathers]

Trauma looks like that sometimes. A lot of the time. It was never going to be Ruby sobbing and asking for help it was always going to be her lashing out because she's traumatized to a point she still doesn't think she should ask for help. And based on her outburst it's also that she thinks she shouldn't have to.

#rwby #rwby spoilers #rwby volume 9 #rwby volume 9 spoilers #this is so much more personal to me than usual bc im also a quite angry traumatized person #and during some of the worst and lowest points in my life being angry was all i could be #bc it was the only emotion that came with the illusion of control #something ruby DESPERATELY NEEDS

[evie-doesnt-write]

Something something Junko using the Warriors of Hope’s abuse in order to take advantage of them. Something something everyone in Danganronpa 2 having from tragic backstories which makes them more susceptible to being taken advantage and manipulated by Junko

#dgrp anime doesn’t exist btw #hate it #twogami having no identity or family #nagito’s parents having died and his entire life being shitty due to his bad luck #gundham coming from a poor household (with his father implied to be bad) #fuyuhiko’s whole yakuza background #hiyoko’s grandma being controlling #ibuki… doesn’t have one but we also don’t know anything about her family #which is telling #kazuichi’s dad being physically abusive #mahiru having to take care of her father and grow up quickly #mikan’s….everything #akane having to take care of her younger siblings and get a job (where people sexualised her) #nekomaru’s illness #peko always being treated as a tool and not seeing herself as human (also if fuyuhiko followed Junko first she’d follow immediately) #sonia doesn’t have one like ibuki but also she grew up being pressured and according to standards #hajime wasn’t manipulated by junko but we have no mention of any family and he’s just very independent and reserved (so probably is distant) #and to hate yourself to the point you allow someone to do surgery on you also speaks volume #teruteru having to take on the burden since his mom was ill #danganronpa #super danganronpa 2 #super danganronpa goodbye despair #dgrp #junko enoshima

[note-boom]

Okay, I just read Volume 20 of the manga and I have a lot of thoughts...but one that I really want to spit out is about Akutagawa's death.

During the fight, he CONTINUOUSLY brings up Dazai. How he wants Dazai's approval. How he's going to LIVE and make it back to Dazai. How he doesn't have much time left so he really needs that approval before he expires. Basically, him (ironically) associating living and Dazai together. To get Dazai's acknowledgement is to live.

And yet.

And YET.

His death wasn't an accident, at least not entirely.

Even Fukuchi acknowledged that from the beginning, taking into account the space-time sword, Akutagawa's plan was to let ONLY Atsushi escape.

Did Akutagawa know he would be instakilled? I think he strongly suspected it considering how Fukuchi was doing his best to kill them.

Essentially, what I'm saying is that provided all that context, Akutagawa basically CHOSE to die when throughout the whole fight his only thought was to live, live, live (for Dazai). The arc isn't over yet (and I honestly have little faith this will happen) but I'm gonna hope anyway that this is symbolic of Akutagawa finally letting go of his deep desire to live for Dazai's approval and maybe starting to build something new...a new reason to live?

As in, him choosing death - choosing ATSUSHI - was his way of saying, "Okay. I see only one of us can make it out...I can't fight this man and beat him (which he did say). I won't live for Dazai's approval now. I can't. So I'll instead choose to die so that there is a chance Atsushi can save the world and clear the Agency's name."

Basically, I'm playing on the age old death and rebirth motif to say Akutagawa dying for Atsushi rather than living for Dazai's approval is his way of growing from his past obsessions and perhaps beginning to build a new reason to live (by dying for it heh...).

#look...i know im reaching #but all i can say is that this death didnt feel like the whole redemption by death trope... #and i think akutagawa will come back or something #and yeah i suppose we could also interpret this as aku realising the only way TO get dazai's approval was to die #but i much prefer the more dramatic death to an old view...new life to another? maybe that's just me being influenced by fantasy tropes #and i also want good things for aku #and you got to admit the way he kept on associating him living with dazai and then choosing death at the end was something #his whole reason revolves around dazai so let him pull a yosano @ mori and say 'nope. taking back control of my life bye' #idk what im saying i just know i really want the progression of this fight from aku wanting to live to choosing to die to mean something #that isn't specifically dazai related ya know? except for letting dazai go (this isnt me hating dazai btw. its loving aku) #also yes i only bought volume 20 cause that and vol 1 was the only ones they had. of course i bought the emotionally devastating one #maybe I'll post some of my reacts and show y'all how much i overthink things xD #anyway akutagawa and atsushi in vol 20 broke me bye.... #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd musings #character analysis #bsd akutagawa #bsd atsushi #bsd fukuchi #spitting nonsense #bsd dazai #bsd spoilers #bsd manga spoilers #manga spoilers

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#i wish i had any form of chill lmao. #someone makes a comment about the mask? im wearing it bc i have avian flu but i need groceries its for you actually. :) #someone tries to make me feel uncomfortable about my work? girl im not a 'prostitute' im a HOOKER get it straight. &get your man out my dms. #someone tells me im 'brave' for never wearing makeup? ive looked like shit my whole life actually lmao theres nothing brave about it loser. #im not a fan of passive aggression mostly bc im not a fan of cowards. half my life is restraining myself bc i have no volume control #so i need to be ready for a Fight if im gonna say anything lmao. #so i try to live by the golden rule of 'if you have nothing nice to say dont say anything at all unless youre willing to get decked for it'. #i feel passive aggression is the exact opposite of that. #like im sorry you lack any form of self control but its kind of embarassing of you to make a fool of yourselt tiptoeing around the issue #bc youre too much of a bitch to be straight up but too much of a child to keep your mouth shut&play nice. #... i was raised in the islands where chill is worthless lmao only beating someone down ever did anything worth while for lessons learned #if a mutually respectable conversation was immediately off the table lmao.

[avionvadion]

I think one of the main reasons I like Ingo and Emmet so much is that I, too, have adhd, move my hands about wildly while talking, and lack volume control.

The more excited I am, the louder I get- and whoever I’m talking to generally has to make a hand signal thingy to tell me to quiet down because YIKES I am apparently shouting sorry, sorry. And shouting especially isn’t very good when you’re a severe asthmatic and can’t breathe afterwards, lol.

My grandma constantly makes fun of me when I’m telling a story and my arms are basically just flailing as I’m pointing or gesturing. Sometimes my flailing gets a bit extra and I accidentally smack my hand against the wall or a random piece of furniture. So sometimes I have to shove my hands in my jacket pockets to prevent that from happening or to avoid coming off rude. But then my jacket pockets start flying anyway because I’m still trying to move my hands. So it defies the purpose. Whoops.

Also when I’m like REALLY excited my hands start kinda flapping wildly- not quite clapping, but just… flapping. Sort of like a seal. Usually happens when I’m watching something and my favorite character shows up or something.

Anyways.

I love them.

ALL ABOARD!!!!

#submas #ingo and emmet #ramblings #thinking about them #and had a realization #I have lacked volume control all my life and it’s not getting any better lol #even when I think I’m being quiet I’m still too loud

[running-in-the-dark]

I just want to be like. a normal fucking 30 year old

who can go out and do shit and meet people and fuck people or whatever I don't know, things that normal people do

but instead I just have to fucking sit here and be miserable all the fucking time because my brain is a useless, broken piece of shit that won't even let me THINK about any of that shit without panicking and hating myself because I am bad, worthless, irredeemable

I literally hate my life so much its not even funny

if I fell off a cliff tomorrow I'd be fucking relieved tbh

#LIKE. I said fuck people. I wrote that. and now. I feel like a disgusting fucked up gross piece of shit that needs to like #bleach my brain or something to make up for that #because even THINKING that is not allowed. its not allowed I can't do that I need to be punished now #and I already #have so many bruises on my arm right now because I just. #sometimes I just need to bite. because I am bad. #and the meds have made the thoughts a little better yes but they've made my compulsions or whatever come back real bad #the counting the touching the tapping #the biting #not fun #maybe it's ok maybe I'll be ok if the volume is always the perfect number and if everything is symmetrical and if I stop eating again and #if I can control every aspect of my life again and exercise every day again maybe I can be perfect and good and enough again #maybe the thoughts would stop then #i just want it to stop

[our-reality]

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#uhm i'm gonna talk about tmc in the tags sorry my brainrot is literally killing me rn #uhejmabsjd hiding the tags yeah yeah woo #// #ok so yk how i was like... talking about a mandela catalogue au cuz i've lost control of my life. #so basically. i'm ruined #but i was thinking abt who would be who... it's really fuckin tough ngl #I DON'T WANT RUBY TO BE ANY OF THEM... she deserves good things and good things only #ik ruby/java and python/swift are gonna be paired like how mark/cesar and adam/jonah are paired cuz #. yeah #idk which would be which though !!! #on one hand i think adam and jonah are more silly goofy than the other two and that makes me wanna put them as ruby and java #and i think... swift'd make a good mark and python'd make an ok cesar #but on the other hand jonah and adam's dynamic are like. verrrrry close to pre-humanizaton python and swift's dymanic and #THINKING ABOUT THE END OF VOLUME 2 AS THE TWO OF THEM???? literally so normal rn #but that brings me to like the. who would be who in the individual dynamics. #in a jonah/adam = python/swift au my head says swift's adam and python's jonah cuz their personalities are like... the same it's wildin #and the line in jonah and adam's argument where jonah's like 'i know i joke around sometimes but i am more serious now than i've ever been' #is like. pythoncore #BUT!!! there's another thing right #cuz i think python = adam and swift = jonah makes more sense when considering adam and jonah's character development in vol. 2 #LIKE i thing that argument i brought up earlier is a lot like. what would happen if python actually told swift that it was leaving skylight #to become a human #LIKE THE 'IF BY SOME MIRACLE YOU COME OUT OF THAT BASEMENT I DON'T THINK YOU'D BE YOURSELF' OR WHATEVER THE FUCK JONAH SAID????? #AND AND AND AND AND #python #swift #vysel #ruby #java #tmc au

[age-of-moonknight]

“Doctor,” Moon Knight (Vol. 7/2014), #9.

Writer: Brian Wood; Penciler and Inker: Greg Smallwood; Colorist: Jordie Bellaire; Letterer: Travis Lanham

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Moon Knight vol. 7 #Moon Knight 2014 #Moon Knight comics #Moon Knight #Marc Spector #Khonshu #ouch oof my bones #it’s the “you thought /you/ were in control of this didn’t you?” that really gets me #an unfortunate summary of Marc’s life #and a but meta considering the comic book trope of the protagonist getting his life together and swearing to do better #only for all of his progress to be wiped by the start of the next volume

[quaranmine]

op is ur digestive system okay

categorically it is Not since i have a chronic autoimmune disease called ulcerative colitis which basically means that my body likes to attack Any food i eat and form bleeding ulcers in my large intestine :)

it's in remission rn though, although the trade-off is being immunocompromised because of my meds

#quara asks #it's incurable unless you count removing my entire colon and giving me either an ostomy bag or a j-pouch #but that's an extreme last resort and mine is controlled via meds #anyway when i was like. 15 or whatever i lost HALF my volume of blood through these bleeding ulcers #and it's a very 'we dont know what causes this' sort of disease #some people find they can control it by avoiding triggers in their diet #but that never worked for me. didnt seem to matter what i ate #so at the end of the day immunosuppressants are my best buds for life probably lol #shoutout to azathioprine LOL

[ophthalmotropy]

#l33chsp34k #poll

[orangameelectronics]

Bluetooth 5.0 Noise Cancelling Wireless Earbuds - 30-Hour Cycle Playtime and Hi-Fi Build-in Mics

I am absolutely thrilled to announce that I have recently upgraded my audio game to the next level with the incredible Bluetooth 5.0 Noise Cancelling Wireless Earbuds! These bad boys come equipped with a 30-H Cycle Playtime, ensuring that I can enjoy all my favorite tunes without any interruptions. And let me tell you, the Hi-Fi Build-in Mics deliver crystal clear sound quality that truly elevates my listening experience to new heights! 

Not only do these earbuds provide exceptional audio performance, but they also offer the convenience of wireless connectivity, allowing me to move freely without any pesky cords getting in the way. Plus, the noise-cancelling feature ensures that I can fully immerse myself in my music without any distractions from the outside world. 

I can confidently say that these earbuds have become an essential part of my daily!

#youtube #earbuds holder #earbuds music #earbuds on amazon #earbuds volume control #earbuds android #earbuds bulk #earbuds that wrap around ear #earbuds with cord #earbuds 3.5mm #earbuds app #earbuds Bluetooth wireless #earbuds cheap #earbuds extension cord #earbuds hook #earbuds ebay #earbuds with wireless charging case #earbuds ANC #earbuds bone conduction #earbuds connected but no sound #earbuds long battery life #earbuds apple pro #earbuds battery life #earbuds gaming #earbuds comparable to airpods #earbuds earphones

[tomlinsins]

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#like why does my mom confuse shit and can't keep an argument straight to save her life #why are your debating skills so bad bro #and why does my dad have no volume control?????? #it isn't even about them #it's about an argument my dad had with his dad #😭😭😭 #and here we are sitting in silence in our room coz they are arguing in theirs #😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 #moi