Astarion’s the ex-boyfriend who reluctantly let you go because he felt like he wasn’t good enough.
He’s the ex who took some time away to mature before he could face you and your companions again.
It was nothing you did—Gods, you were perfect. He just wasn’t ready for what a genuine relationship entailed. For what it cost.
When Withers reunites you, you secretly hope to mend things—and, secretly, so do your friends.
Your conversation is seamless as if you hadn’t spent all these months avoiding one another like a sickness.
He smiles more. Your laughter’s lighter now. He’s no less beautiful than he was six months ago. His touch still makes your skin prickle with static electricity despite its harmlessness. Still makes your heart stutter, and those dragonflies stir in your belly, and you’re a nervous little wreck, aren’t you?
You part ways with see you laters as opposed to goodbyes because the latter would imply you’re done for good. But fate has a tricky way of meddling with your lives and bringing you back together like driftwood returned to the shoreline.
Eventually, you become acquaintances, running into each other by happenstance throughout Baldur’s Gate.
Bumping hands whilst reaching for a book in the library. Encountering each other at the night market, exchanging familiar smiles and nods—Gods, darling, you’re still as terrible at scoping out a good deal as ever, he jests with that customary waggle of his hand.
Then, you become friends again. Close friends. And eventually, he becomes a constant in your life once more, showing up to your home each night with the promise of wine and juicy gossip—it’s all just a ruse to see you.
Though your breaths hitch in tandem each night you find him seated close to you on your settee—your thighs brush together, your pinkies graze, and his lips “accidentally” touch your cheek—you don’t want to ruin things. Don’t want to dredge up those old feelings. Fester those old wounds because, of course, you still pine for one another.
But you don’t want to muck up your rekindled friendship by once again rushing into something he may still not be ready for.
So you settle for breaking your own heart each night, smiling like a drunken, enamored fool while he rests his head in your lap. And you twirl his pretty little curls about your fingers, watching his lashes flutter, and his cheeks redden with your blood—you still offer it to him from time to time. That’s what friends do, right?
And though your lips twitch with a question, with that urge to ask what happened to us—with a need to lean down and kiss him—you stomp down those impulses.
You’re content with sitting with him like this, watching a smile round his lips and his chest quake with a fond chuckle because maybe he’s still as much taken by you as you’ve always been by him.
And maybe it’s just you being wishful. Maybe it’s the candlelight playing tricks on your eyes. Perhaps it’s the wine warming in your veins, making you delusional.
But you feel his hand at your nape, slowly drawing you closer. And the world around fades into a beautiful bokeh when your lips meet, and your neck hurts from the angle, and maybe your lips are a little chapped and unrehearsed after all this time, but…
Well, it’s every bit of perfect. Just like you remembered it.
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steve tilts billy’s head back with gentle hands
careful of the bruises and bleeding
and presses the softest love against his mouth
silent promises and loud whispers of protection
“i’ll never let anyone hurt you.”
licking billy’s tears and wounds
stitching him up with affection and tenderness
letting the blond snap when it becomes too much
knowing it’s what he does and that’s okay
because steve’s holding him close as they fall asleep in his bed
listening to the soft breathing and gentle sleep sounds billy makes
and loving him and loving him and loving him
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shoutout to everyone with a complicated or negative relationship to antipsychotics. to everyone who’s “noncompliant”. to everyone who’s on them due to force or coercion. to everyone who’s on them because they’re afraid of not being. to everyone who’s going through withdrawal without medical supervision & against medical advice. to everyone who hates the side effects but still prefers them to being unmedicated. to everyone who dislikes them for “disordered” reasons. to the people on them who don’t think they need them & the people off them who think they do. to everyone who doesn’t like them but does better at school or work on them & to everyone who likes them but does better without them. to everyone who gets them on they grey market. to everyone who self-medicates with illegal drugs instead. to everyone with medical/psychiatric trauma. to everyone refusing to go to doctors (even if they would be helpful with other things) because they don’t want to be put on antipsychotics. I see you & im here with you. no matter what your diagnosis is you deserve bodily autonomy.
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I’m at work right now, but I feel like doing gifs/portraits of tavs tonight once I get home… if anyone wants to allow me to borrow their tav/oc to make some gifs and portraits, send me a dm and/or ask into my inbox!! <3
I’ll need all the info for their mods and all the customization stuff so I can apply it into my game. Also an idea of what kind of scene/theme you would like + colour palette (since some may want it different from what I usually do)
If you play on console and maybe are missing out on mods (but have an idea of what your modded tav would look like), I’m happy to do so as well ! 😊
EDIT: forgot to add, the photos will be 4K and I can email the original PNG files to you as well for higher quality downloading. The gifs quality aren’t guaranteed to be suuuper amazing because it honestly depends on the length/colour complexity of the gif, but I can also export a higher quality (over 10mb) gif and send it by email if you wish.
ANOTHER EDIT: A lot of people are concerned about if there are a limited number of slots. I have no limit as of right now and will be taking every request that is sent to me until I impose a limit (which I probably won’t). If I receive a lot, it will just be first come, first serve and MAY take like 2-3 days MAX. I pretty much do nothing with my life except play games, sleep and go to work lol.
Thought i'd do a template to make it easier if you aren't sure what I need to know:
Picture of your tav/oc
DETAILS
Name:
Race:
Head:
Body type:
Skintone:
Scar:
Skin details:
Eyes:
Body art:
Piercings:
Makeup: Eyes- Lips-
Hairstyle:
Haircolour:
CLOTHING LIST
head:
neck:
body:
hands:
shoes:
MOD LIST
(links to your mods)
THEME
(what kind of scene/theme did you have in mind?)
COLOUR PALETTE
(a general colour palette, e.g. cool tones, focus on blue hues, dark and gloomy or warm tones, focusing on orange/yellow tones, bright and cozy)
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