#which is getting quite long lol

[wikiangela]

fuck it friday

tagged by @daffi-990 @giddyupbuck @spotsandsocks

hi!! i'm back lol - well, the craziness at work is done and I'm slowly getting back to writing bc I haven't written in like a week and it's killing me lol (this is gonna sound dramatic but I literally don't feel like myself if I don't write for too long haha) I don't have anything new to share rn, but I figured since it's already december and since some of y'all are sharing Christmas fics, and knowing I likely won't write one this year, I'm gonna shamelessly plug my holiday fake dating fic with 4 Christmases and 6 Christmas chapters actually 😂 (Christmas was a very important time for Buck and Eddie's relationship in this lol) - there's obvi more holidays in this but anyway, here's a snippet of their first Christmas together also, it's been a year since I posted the first chapter and I'm feeling nostalgic lol, this fic is my baby and I love it so much (tho there's so many things I'd change now lol)

[read on Ao3]

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Turns out, Buck is very much serious about the whole thing, and Christopher finds it hilarious and is eager to play along. Eddie doesn’t have valid arguments not to do it, and it’s not like he doesn’t want to. After another snide comment when talking to his parents, he made his decision. And he already felt this exciting feeling of satisfaction when he told them he’d be bringing someone for Christmas this year – miraculously, Buck and Eddie don’t work on Christmas, and they took an additional day off, so their schedules allow for a three-day trip to Texas. 

So now, it’s Christmas Eve and they’re on their way from the airport to Eddie’s childhood home, and he’s nervous, doubts just starting to seep in. What on earth possessed him to do this? He can’t lie to his family. He can’t pretend to be in love with Buck. What if he really does fall in love with him? What if everything goes to shit? He’s watched enough movies to know it’s a bad idea, but he couldn’t and still can’t bring himself to stop it.

“So.” Eddie says, his voice shaking slightly, as they sit in a cab. “We’re doing this.”

“Yep.” he can hear Buck grin next to him. “Unless you still wanna back out?” he adds quickly. They could still say Buck’s just a friend. No big deal. But Eddie does have this petty desire to stir something up, and this seems perfect. 

“No. It’ll be fine.” he smiles at Buck, and then feels hot when Buck grabs his hand and interlaces their fingers, winking at him. Christopher laughs.

“You’d make a great couple.” he comments. He’s been unusually happy about all of this. He also asked Eddie a few days ago if Eddie loves Buck, which prompted a conversation, but he thinks Chris knows what’s going on now. Eddie doesn’t really know what to think about that.

“Thanks, buddy.” Buck responds excitedly, squeezing Eddie’s hand, and he can’t contain a smile. If not anything else, at least all three of them are going to have a lot of fun.

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#fuck it friday #the holiday fic #wikiangela writes #for a holiday (and forevermore) #some shameless self promo #it's done and 95k and it's fake dating and it's fluffy and cute and I love it haha #also there's quite a bit of eddie and his sisters and it was my fave thing to write (abc give us some big brother eddie pls im begging lol) #and just recently this fic got my first ever 1k kudos which is just mindblowing and i get overwhelmed if i think about it too long lol #so perfect time to share it again haha #buddie fic #buddie #my writing #fic snippet #this post got long and rambling lmao sorry and if you read it all ily <3 hahaha

[absenthearted]

LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD || HACKEARNEY + ALTERNATE UNIVERSES [1/?]

A girl walks into the woods, and a wolf walks out.

The village has a tradition: a girl is chosen as a sacrifice to the Wolf. The Huntsman leads the Chosen into the woods and keeps vigil at the entrance. 

The girl does not come back. The Wolf stays away.

This is how it has always been—until now.

#hackearney #travis hackett #laura kearney #the quarry #travis x laura #hackearney AU gifseries #a concept series for AUs i may never write lmao #idk how many i'll actually make since i'm fairly limited with what i can use for travis lol #but i have a very tentative idea for a historical one at least #at some point #anyway you can interpret the gifs and the caption however you wish but it was inspired partly by for the wolf by hannah whitten #and obviously diverges quite a bit from the original fairytale but i think you can spin it multiple ways #i've always loved the idea of red as both the girl and the wolf; and wanted to keep laura's wolf transformation in #(which she does! in that music video! but the makeup was a lil too cheesy lol but i actually loved that video lmao) #this started out as a ~no plot just vibes~ thing but then i went on a little mini worldbuilding spiral for this #maybe i'll make a post about it. maybe i'll write it at some point?? who knows #which. these tags are already too long so i won't get into it lmao but! sources! #1&2: mariah scary and the ghoulish cauldrons 'werewolf valentine' MV #4: red riding hood (2011) #sorry the quality is not great on these gifs i did my best #sometimes i make things #wait sorry 3: the trailer for red light bc i couldn’t think of another gif to use for him lol

[finiel]

ms paint gideon to test my new laptop's palm sensitivity + stylus functionality (poor and acceptable respectively, if you wondered)

#tlt #the locked tomb #gtn #gideon the ninth #gideon nav #tlt art #anyway. as you can see by the time i got to her shirt i gave up entirely on filling things in properly #i don't think she'd mind though #i got this laptop for school - which i start the day after tomorrow - and i've never like. used a laptop for note taking #i'm trying to test all possibilities before school starts but costco's return policy is decent so i'm not too worried #the thing is. i think i like the laptop itself quite a bit. #but i'm like what if i don't end up using it for school that much... i got it with scholarshare or whatever #hm no i probably will need it a lot #even if i don't use it for notes taken in class it'll still be needed for research and homework and stuff #so yes i think it was a good investment #it's the hp envy if anyone wondered lol #it gets a bit warmer than i'm used to and the fans are louder than i'm used to as well #but as long as it runs well i guess that's not really an issue? i hope not anyway #i have yet to look into whether that's a problem with these laptops #if anyone has pointers let me know haha #oh yeah also i did this with my blue light filter on so hopefully the colors aren't too miserable but if they are. i apologize #i mean it's all reds so there's not much to mess up but just in case #finieldraws

[raiiny-bay]

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#tumblrtop10 #i would just like to point out. this is the 2nd year in a row where my top post has absolutely nothing to do with either of my boys #like i genuinely think that is so funny sjfhdksdjfh #i dedicate my entire blog to this scrunkly redhead & yet... lol #i honestly wasn't expecting anyone to like that harthur (harley & arthur) post but i'm glad people did!! #overall i'm not that surprised by the top 10. it's mostly monster boyz which i expect #i am a lil surprised that the valentine's day edit i did made it??? #that post pissed me the fuck off. it took me SO long to get the lighting & the pose & the camera angle right #but in the end. the lighting is quite nice. i really do like the rim lighting effect. it's just hard to pull off #lighting is my weak spot #i think my editing really improved this year though! excited to see what comes out of next year :-)

[evansbby]

I cannot believe the wicked games Drabble was 5000 words long like basically a full ass fic and the low amount of notes it got…

#it makes my heart literally SINK like… #now how am I supposed to post wg4 which is 25k words???? #it will not get any interaction and I’m just done #like I just cannot post it #it’ll legit kill me 🥲🥲🥲🥲 to see it flop #after I poured my heart and soul into writing something so fucking long and making sure it was good #just bc I knew I had to give you guys something long and exciting to read #but what’s the point #like I cannot believe it… I literally just cannot believe it and I don’t want to post anything anymore #omfg #I know many people will read this and roll their eyes and find this annoying #like I’m complaining or whatever #honestly think what you want to think #I’m just so shocked and legit unhappy #like so fucking unhappy #like bummed the fuck out #that it’s come to this #I don’t wanna post shit anymore lol #idk if it’s the algorithm or genuinely people don’t fuck with my fics anymore #I just don’t understand #but you guys have to understand how it would kill me on the inside if I posted a 25k fic and it got next to no interaction #like I just…. #I’m scared it would make me quit writing completely #bc I’m THIS close #I feel so fucking sad bro idek #like it makes me wanna fucking cry #how… a few months ago everything was fine #now it feels like everyone’s gone #and I wasted my fucking time writing a chapter so fucking long that no one’s gonna read #WHY DID I WASTE MY TIME

[sysig]

Anyway, back to testing (Patreon)

#Doodles #Portal #GLaDOS #Chell #Curiosity Core #Space Core #Cave Johnson #So many GLaDOS'!! She needs all the <3 #And then also featuring some others lol ♪ Replaying 1 really made me want to fill out the cast a bit more! #I'm still the most used to drawing her Portal 2 design tho - which is a shame because her 1 design is so weird!! I like it :D #I still haven't given her a proper study but I do like how in the audio commentary they talk about how she has a feminine edge hehe #She does! They did a good job with her design ♪ And improved upon it in 2 I think :D I still haven't gotten to that audio commentary #I'm so curious as to what they'll say about her there hehe ♫ But I'm still just playing normally for now! I forgot how much longer it is :0 #I tore through it the first time so now taking my leisurely time feels funny haha ♪ I am enjoying myself tho :3 #Anyway!! Back to what I love about 1 <3 <3 Her tone switch literally Always has my heart ♥ Ughhh I love herrr #I also quite like Chell's design from both games :) I wonder if GLaDOS keeps making remarks on her appearance because of the changes :0 #She does have fuller cheeks in 2! She's not as gaunt - and she looks like....made-up? Make up made up? Y'know? :0 #Not that we get a particularly good look at her in-game but hm! The differences #As well as in her long-fall boots! The braces really were just stuck on her legs in 1 weren't they :0 No wonder the Curiosity Core was rude #I do really love the Curiosity Core tho haha ♪ Probably my favourite canon Core :D I think she'd get along well with Space Core lol #And then leaving off with that one little human-GLaDOS headcanon thing I posted about! Impatiently lol #I made these like The Day after posting that I couldn't help it I was too deep in the paint XP It was fun ♪ #I really do think she'd look so much more like Cave still! Especially after replaying the bit where he says to put Caroline in ''his'' place #Is that retrofitting? Was it designed with him in mind initially? Hmmmmm #I also figure if I'm going to give her a human design I might as well go the whole way and not just slap robot parts on her face lol #It's hard to imagine her with two eyes tho! Like I might even go so far as to say she can have three eyes but not two! Only one or three #Her third ''eye'' would be the mole next to her eye lol - how would her vision work in that case :0 #Would she have panoptic depth perception or like triple vision or what?? Or maybe just leave her with one functioning eye lol #Handplates!Gaster-core (Core lol); turtlenecked one-eyed evil scientist with labcoat lol #Y'know it's funny - when I first drew GLaDOS several years ago I compared her to Gaster at the time too. Huh. Sure that's nothing :)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying #shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl #in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated #bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not #her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet #so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive #personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd #compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from #happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is #like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil #not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am #barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me #and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them #but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and #thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard #to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds #nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of #brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but #that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer #defying the stats but for how much longer? #i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it #i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else #excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things #unrelated #ed mention #i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama #bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]

[blu3b3rryj4mp1r3]

i feel really guilty for not having any drawings to post, i just haven't felt right

i know i shouldn't feel bad but i do

i also feel like what even am i if i'm not drawing y'know? XD i just don't know

not like i haven't tried but still..

#☆.txt #i wish i was better #lol it's fine #(but it's actually really not) #but also don't worry #:) #who am i trying to trick? #well I'd say myself mostly #eh it'll get better at some point so long as i keep trying #i have come this far which is like at least 6 more years than i thought i would so no point in quitting now #i don't feel like this is a vent post but like maybe it is so I'll tag it as such #vent #tw vent #actually i think im feeling a little better now #sometimes you just need to write what you think or something and then you can let it go or whatever :>

[stevethehairington]

was going to try to write today but instead i have spent the last hour thinking up tattoos for eddie to have

#so far i have: #stick and poke w on his foot for wayne (the very first stick and poke he gave himself) #those like mostly bone bat wing type tats on his shoulder blades #im thinking a fantasy dragon either winding down his spine OR curling around his hip half on his front half on his back; maybe w flowers to #his favorite lotr quote on his ribs? or like lower abdomen maybe? #a tiny lil d20 somewhere maybe an ankle? or on a finger or something #either laurels around his knees or maybe eyeballs above them #a sword either on his thigh or forearm or the side of his ribs like under his armpit #i also think he'd have some sort of music/cc type tribute SOMEWHERE #maybe a stick and poke CC below the crook of his elbow? OR AN ACTUAL COFFIN YEAH as a subtle ref; or a guitar/guitar pick somewhere? #i also think that after he's been w steve long enough he would get a steve tatoo too - not quite sure WHAT that would be yet but he'd do it #a wayne tribute tattoo which could go two routes - serious or silly #serious... i have not quite figured out what yet. i feel like a wagon wheel bc thats what wayne means but all the designs ive seen of that #are UGLY lol so either eddie finds a good way to do it or he picks something else lol #but silly would ABSOLUTELY be that traditional sailor type heart 'mom' tattoo on his bicep but instead of mom it says wayne #i think it would be funny if he let argyle tattoo him while they were high and so he has a tiny lil pizza slice somewhere #OH WAIT HE GETS I LOVE YOU WRITTEN IN STEVE'S HANDWRITING (STEVE TATTED IT ONTO HIM MAYBE?) IN THE CREASE OF HIS HIP OR SOMEWHERE INTIMATE #he also has an assortment or random doodles all over filling in the space #defs a jack-o-lantern; the hellfire logo; a flying saucer; a skull & crossbones; a lil crown; a smiley face; flowers; things like that #he has everyone important to him draw something and he gets that tattooed on him so he has a piece of everyone with him always #that's all ive got so far lol but im still looking and also i am SO open to hearing what tattoos yall think he'd get so 👀👀👀 #eddie munson #stranger things

[reginrokkr]

From tomorrow until the following Monday I'll engage into the suffering of finals at long last. I'm nervous and I feel like I know nothing, but I'm aware that the nervousness is bigger than what the tests will be, so crossing my fingers that it'll be the same thing this time too—

#◟༺✦༻◞ what lays behind the mantle of faux stars ┊ooc.┊ #thankfully and if all things go well #studying will end until September #which is quite a lot #for the first time in... I don't know how long lol #it's an exciting thought #what worries me is that I'm quite self-demanding #but this time I set the bar low for my own sanity #so long as I get at /least/ an 8 / 10 it'll be all good #obviously not as good as it's been thus far #but sufficiently good to have marked myself a minimum #to keep the “level” so to speak #if I don't make it #please know that I'll weep forever on this hill #for Dain's return #whenever that happens 😔

[toastsnaffler]

my parents brought my bike up last time they visited and I'm only just taking her out for the first time today but god she's such a beauty..

#she looks like a piece of shit which is great bc no one has tried to steal her before. but its sooooo nice to ride around #perf weather for it too... i rly need to get a new helmet tho bc they couldnt find my old one so im just taking the risk LOL #need to test out my route to work as well. i think its abt 8 miles there but probably quite a hilly route so idk how long itll take me #but itd be reaaaally nice to not take the bus every day. especially when it gets hotter #anyway at the gym now smell ya later #.diaries

[arolesbianism]

Sier? I haven’t even met her! Laugh.

#keese draws #oc art #oc #ocs #eternal gales #today has been a shit day but Im feeling a bit better now that I’ve drawn sier #long story short one of my friends is being harassed by their ex #so I’ve been in a blinding rage all day and combined with me not getting enough sleep and cleaning all day today quite sucked #but hey. I drew sier and made them a new mini ref so that’s gotta count for something #but yeah sier my beloved I’ve been thinking abt them all day they’re just so cute and I love drawing them #I forgive them for being a human character they’re silly and have shapes #I now have only 4 eg refs to go I think? which is honestly a lot closer than I thought I was I thought this was gonna be another year of #last minute refs for artfight and some that don’t get remade but honestly this is super doable #rly the only big problem is going to be fydd since it’s been so long since I’ve drawn him properly #the other three are just dodie tali and bloom which shouldn’t be too bad at all #now idk if the icons are happening but it’s definitely feeling a lot more doable now so idk maybe I’ll get to some of them #key word maybe I make no promises #thankfully I don’t rly have any other ocs that I feel pressed to make new refs for so I can take it easy leading up to artfight this year #I’d like to get some of them icons but that’s not necessary #hopefully sier will get drawn this year she hasn’t been attacked since her old design from years ago lol #but sier is also a character I’ve gotten other pieces of art of over the years so I won’t be heartbroken if they keep getting ignored lol #I don’t rly know who I’d like to see attacked most tbh #obviously I’m always happy to see art of any of my ocs but usually I do have a preference #so Im excited to see who gets attacked even if it’s only a few of them #I’m willing to bet teke will get at least one attack I believe in him #hopefully teka gets drawn too I love her dearly as well #anyways shower time and then sleep time gn gamers

[mummer]

found 3 potential creative writing ma programs in the uk i’d be happy with… no idea if i could get into any of them but… that seems like a good number….

#having one year programs is actually quite nice cause like. Could i move somewhere for 2 years idk #but a year is not that long and easier to sell to my family #and yes all of them are technically near the coast lol #east anglia (seems very competitive and prob difficult to get into but well regarded) #liverpool (is also centred on critical writing which i do enjoy partaking in) #edinburgh (similarly seems highly regarded but Horribly expensive) #british people weigh in will i survive

[sysig]

Giving nicknames, testing boundaries (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #Max Vyer #Dexter Favin #How /did/ Max come to like him so much in just two years? I have my theories :3 #More Teen Max!! Nothing has changed I just continue to love him lol #Two years is a pretty quick turnaround for such a stubborn kid - though I guess for a child two years can be a long time haha #Went from just hating Dex's guts of trying to drive him away and make him quit and hating being kept on a short leash #Does make me wonder how much of him kissing him was an impulse - I mean obviously lol but how much was genuine attraction! #Certainly seemed like a lot :0 Even upon being rejected he couldn't give it up! Still took him another several years to act again tho haha #I mean - in the text lol who knows what they got up to in the time skips hehe ♪ #AnyWay lol - them getting used to each other of slowly working into tolerating each other #Max said something in one of his wake-ups that as I read it implied Dexter was something of a polyglot?? Which - love that ♪ #If not conversationally-fluent then at tourist-fluent y'know I think that's great <3 #Which got me thinking about other languages and insults and curses haha #I like the idea of Dex only really strong-arming Max about Actual deviant behaviour - something that puts himself or others at risk #Harmless little things like any teen would do - like name-calling! Haha - just get a kind of neutral ''Huh'' #As well as interest <3 Not an outright dismissal not a lecture but at least the appearance of investment! #Considering Max's home life I can't imagine he had all that many people genuinely (or fake) interested in his shenanigans #All about suppressing the symptoms more than rooting out the cause it's amazing what just showing a little interest can do #I also just think it's cute of Max getting away with something silly and harmless but totally biting and mean! <in his mind haha #Silly lad <3

[shoechoe]

Learning languages is so difficult but that moment where you hear someone speak the language you've been studying and it hits you that you can actually understand what they're saying without subtitles makes it all feel worth it I think

#not jojo related #personal #me learning spanish #i feel like i am starting to get a little bit of a handle on grammar #just starting to learn was so rough i felt like everything i learned just fell out of my brain #but now i think i'm starting to pick up on it and i can write some sentences from memory now which is exciting #i can just never remember verbs and object names right... #if only i was better at being consistent with studying on my own outside spanish class lol #i had a really long duolingo streak but i quit that cause i didn't like the layoffs thing #i do not want to live my life knowing only 1 language so i want to keep studying beyond school

[ritzcuit]

i aam deep in dhurkedatz specifically thoughts today. Oh the them. oh the unspoken of it all. the unlabeled. we got a good thing going. of course this is my ... he's my. You know. well hes my right hand man of course. im the fangs o' the defiant dragon. but that doesnt explain it fully.. thats business. and their lives are almost entirely business but Not Quite. and beyond the revolution they escape description...thats his best friend. that's his datz..

dhurke loves amara like crazy his love for her never died at all ... datz isn't a replacement ... hes just his datz. you know? 20 years of partnership cant go away like that. theyre together. partners!! and rumors fly and theres jokes. call off your boyfriend! so whens the marriage? and theres shared looks and pitying looks and understanding looks and skeptical looks but no one Speaks on it.. its unspoken!! but its there. by god.

like i wouldnt dream of doing anything without you. or that dhurke knows when he gets reunited with his family once more, for real this time, datz is gonna be there. and amara isn't being replaced so shes not concerned at all lol shes like ... what ... and take away his datz? what kind of monster do you take me for :( Like she knows. and everyone KNOWS. thats just his datz. and thats his dhurke. and you cant seperate them its unethical its cruel and unusual punishment its not nice

All the small tiny things... the years of history in each others actions ... the energy and focus shifting between them without needing to ask. in a discussion fixing to break out into a fight datz defuses it. datz tense and uncomfortable outta his mind and dhurke spots the way he tugs at his scarf and makes an excuse for datz to leave early. he asks to be waken up in a few hours so they can trade ofd guard duty and datz says yeah but they both know he'll stay up the whole night just to let dhurke sleep longer (this i stole from such terrible tales bc that detail made me sick) Like Ugh Like i cant Like i just dont know

and its not that they dont want to label it but its just so...what would change really. dhurke knows datz loves him and datz knows dhurke loves him (though maybe some nights he really does need reassurance, and he gets in his head about it, and somehow- through ways datz doesn't have a clue how- dhurke can tell when datz is quiet from upset as opposed to another reason, and he'll take datz's hand and kiss his knuckles and Thank Him so deeply and earnestly that it burns out any negative thought datz has ever had in his life ... crazy.)

and hes the family friend and the sort of uncle and the right hand man and compatriot and everyone knows just by the way they lean against each other and speak in half finished sentences and answer questions that weren't fully asked ... reference jokes from years ago and diffuse each other and the way datz is obviously gloomy when dhurke is gone vs perks up when he comes back And the way dhurke is on edge and his leaderly dad warmth is slightly colder while datz is in prison like even when theyre not together you can tell the impact left on each others lives LIKE IM SICK FOR REAL

#girl who reads blackmadhi fic only to come away with terminal dhurkedatz worms. Sorry man #sorry yuty #i like your weird dad situation sorry man. forgive me ok? #Also my apologies to amara for sidelining her for my mlm ship. i still think she'd be cool with it though #like dhurke has enough love in his heart for two people. she can believe that easily #i think she teases datz but it doesnt quite work bc i think datz is way too convinced she's gonna oust him one day #i think datzs innate urge to leave things unlabeled and untied down and loose kind of bites him in the ass #i think if hes left alone for too long he gets way into his own head abt His Place in the family #smth which does not get better in a post soj canon #like he relishes it being something special tht defies a label but also hes like. #Could use the comfort of a stictly and unambiguously romantic label rn. Lol #but he wont ask for it. Bc thats crazy. so he has to survive off of a million unambiguously romantic moments instead #however will he make it... his poor soul (hes fine)