#why can he never be satisfied?

[starryknightwrites]

Like father, like son amirite? 😬

#adrien agreste #gabriel agreste #gabi grassette #ml paris special #they even both have spiky neck wear #reverse gabi should be proud #why can he never be satisfied? #this is why he has these problems

[mudstoneabyss]

actually. the specific phrasing that boy Kevin wants to kill older Kevin with "I must disassemble him, piece by piece, so that everything inside of the Old Kevin comes out. Only then can the New Kevin truly begin." is so incredibly the idea that to heal from trauma and "improve" you have to destroy every "wrong" part of yourself, that everything "tainted" by it has to somehow be replaced by something untouched (which isn't possible)

#reading back that phrasing I do think that'll be the way brinknor takes it #this arcs seeming like it'll be so. breaking the cycle of abuse and violence and coming to terms with yourself #and maybe understanding that you can never remove the parts of you impacted by trauma and start again completely ''pure'' #but you can treat yourself with the kindness you should've been given #which i hope it is that because. and understand i am biased. but i'd love that direction for Kevin #it feels much more satisfying than any more. angsty way this arc could go imo #like he's been through enough! #because of the way Kevin is portrayed in fanon. not as frequently anymore but still pretty common. I worry about coming off as woobifying #by saying I want him to heal I want him to have nice things I think he deserves them #when he's also simultaneously Not A Good Person #yknow the poor little innocent cinnamon roll baby etc etc fanon #but. well for one im Not Like That about him. but my main point of bringing that up is. him not being a good person is why I want to see hi #get better and generally have a good life. why does someone have to be good to deserve to heal from trauma #especially when trauma is a big reason for the way they are #like its fiction yeah yeah i'm still tired of mentally ill people having to be ''good'' to ''deserve'' to get better yknow #i mean especially in fiction you tend to either see mental illness as the poor traumatized one who's allowed recovery because they're nice #or the insane psychopath who cant be ''fixed'' so ''deserves'' bad things-up to deserving to die!- for it #i didnt mean for this to be a rant erm. oops #wtnv #wtnv spoilers #joyousposting

[sysig]

For requestober ! do you have anything in mind for some yanderapy angst?

Day 28 - Better dead than caught

#My art #Requestober #Yanderapy #Angst you say #This is still firmly non-canon but hgg now that the idea of them being on the run from authorities has been sowed- #Specifically in the circumstance of Ishida helping Mitsuru! If the situation ended up going poorly #Realistically they can only run/get away with it for so long even with both of them being careful and Ishida covering for him #And he /is/ the obsessive type - honestly it's kind of perfect for both of them #The only conclusion that would satisfy both of them #Mitsuru doesn't want to be caught because being separated would be worse than anything #And Ishida doesn't want to give him up to anyone - especially since he'd probably be put to death for his crimes #So if he's going to die anyway why not do it in his arms? Under the promise of never killing another so Mitsu is his first and last ♥ #At this point Ishida has nothing left to lose so what's the harm of being honest? #I was almost tempted to have him in a prison uniform but he wouldn't have the bracelets then D: They'd be confiscated #So he's in initial questioning - enjoying them while he has them #He would be really broken up about it but he's putting on a brave face - and gloating does help! Even sad gloating #It's still hard to imagine canon angst! This AU(?) is fun for it hehe ♪

[girlmadeofclockwork]

I think the potential hilarity of Durge/Karlach is not capitalized on enough, cause imagine being Gortash, the subordinate you sold to the devil ten years ago is back foiling your methodically laid out plans and out to kill you in vengeance for what you did, and then just to add insult to injury she stole your murder-girlfriend as well. L’s up on L’s for this man.

#bg3 #it’s in my brain because I’m doing my Durge run and romancing Karlach as well so #I sure look forward to Karlach being hit with the information that her GF fucked her former shitty boss #(will be news to Sirris as well but ah) #there are certain things that is very nice because I’m playing a repentant Durge so Karlach being so unrepentantly good is influencing her #and having godly entities controlling the course of the their lives and taking away their bodily autonomy #forging them into weapons who can never be close to anyone ever #(Karlach by literally not being able to touch anyone and Sirris (my Durge) being pushed to kill anyone she’s ever had fond feelings for) #it’s something they got in common and while no recalling her life some part of Sirris heard oh I can’t be with people from Karlach #and whent “man I don’t know why but same hat #I have many feelings about them #and then old Gortash is in the sauce as being a guy they both at one point we’re close to and trusted but also he’s the representation of #like a dark time in their lives and I think killing him wont be as satisfying to them as either of em hope #killing him wont make it so Karlach won’t die and it won’t undo all the hurt Sirris has brought on the world #also in the bad end when Karlach dies I think Sirris would legit just off herself rather then live on and potentially becoming #as much of a monster as she used to be and she believes she won’t be able to be as good without Karlach at her side #anyway I will stop rambling now

[alchemiclee]

I did a sketch on paper with a pencil for the first time in like a decade because i'm definitely not obsessed with him.....I might put it on my tablet and redraw it digitally to make it look better when I can make myself not have art block and migraines

#honkai star rail #star rail #dan heng #imbibitor lunae #hsr #sketches #arts #honkai star rail fanart #dan heng fanart #imbibitor lunae fanart #star rail fanart #hsr fanart #hes so pretty. i want to draw him pretty. but im in one of those bad art funks where i cant draw anything so hes not pretty enough! #i have decided i hate drawing on paper with pencils and digital is more fun #i forgot how gross paper gets when you erase more than a few times.....and i erase too much because im bad at drawing lines #and everything blends together too much. digital is better. i'll try to make pretty dan hengs 🥹 #but i need to stop getting pain when i sit at my desk and try to draw so i can actually do it and also lose this art block #i really want to draw pretty art but im never satisfied ffjddkdk especially pretty characters i love #also it looks like tumblr made the quality garbage? is it just me? why it do that???? click on it i guess maybe it looks better that way

[reachexceedinggrasp]

So when I've been complaining about even fanfiction not being romantic enough, part of what I mean by that is that people take huge, gothic characters in pairings with gigantic, dramatic stakes full of titanic emotions and then make them feel small and mundane. Stripping the very romanicism from the bones of the romance.

There are many things that are deeply appealing to me about B&tB pairings or 'unlikely' pairings or Gothic romance in general, but something that is less structural while still being absolutely key is that it's not an easy relationship to get the characters into. It's not something that would happen under ordinary circumstances for either person. It's not a bond that can be forged without some form of pressure preventing these people from continuing in their regular patterns.

If you're writing an E/C fic where you start from scratch, the moment they so much as touch for the first time should be absolutely show-stoppingly prodigious. It can never be casual, not between these two, the idea of a touch being allowed should be an Event. The reader's heart should be thundering in their chest, the suspense should be palpable, the consummation divine. A single touch is a consummation for them, there should be that much tension. If they hold hands and I'm not holding my breath, you have done it wrong. The first kiss should feel like an atom bomb going off, the world should shift on its axis, a line is being crossed which has left both characters forever altered.

And people will instead write them like a standard romance novel couple who make standard pervy comments in the narration, get a bit flirty, casually hook up and then weigh pros and cons about whether dating fits into their life plans or not. All of this being totally without weight, without feeling like any kind of Rubicon has been crossed or that it's significant for the characters to have entered into something which must foundationally alter their worldview.

Reylo brushing fingers across the galaxy and it being the turning point of the entire narrative, given the same majesty and mystical significance as Luke's vision in the cave or Yoda lifting the X-Wing is the exact correct amount of emphasis for them reaching towards each other in tenderness. You have a character defined by abandonment and loneliness and a character who is surrounded by people but never touched, both unseen by anyone else, both aching for connection, both never having felt anything like this before, both aware of the galaxy-spanning consequences of what they're feeling. Them touching is le big deal.

The kiss for the B&tB pairing, the EtL pairing, any Gothic pairing has to feel out of reach, a chasm that cannot be crossed- until it happens, impossible yet inevitable. Something the characters could never have conceived of taking place at the beginning of the story, an infinite abyss of which they have somehow found themselves on the other side. You have to do the work to get them there, you have to build that bridge stone by stone, and it should be a sublime agony of seeing the path take shape while it still feels like the gap is just unbridgable, that no matter how close you come, it will never be complete, they can never get all the way across. Until they do.

If you write characters who have (or should have) that kind of vast gulf separating them as just kind of falling into an intimacy which isn't earned and thus means nothing, I just have no idea why we're here. Why buy a giant gothic castle of romanticism and then bulldoze it to build a minimalist condo? Everything about the pairing that makes it that pairing is stripped away. If these were people who could just meet at a party and end up in bed, they would be completely different people.

#taking something epic and portentous #reducing it to a casual instant attraction they sort of casually and impulsively act on like it's ordering a coffee levels of important #and then it's all 'well maybe there's ~something there~ whatever tho don't think it matters or anything' while they're going on caj dates' #and ends with 'it's pretty good I guess we're compatible maybe we'll get married eventually' #LIKE #why #why are people so boring #if it is not love of the most exquisite kind #the far far better thing you do than you have ever done #these people would never go through the bullshit of being with their enemy/a pariah/a difficult Beast/etc. #sshg stories where they're casual actually pain me #it CAN'T be casual it's NOT a casual attraction if they were under normal circumstances it would NEVER happen #SOME THINGS HAVE TO BE FORGED IN FIRE OKAY? #the chasm which has to be crossed for it to happen is what makes it so satisfying my guy #WORK FOR IT #don't get me wrong I like low key ships as well but it's just a fundamentally different thing and some characters #absolutely cannot be plugged into a low key dynamic #Erik categorically cannot be a standard mundane love interest about whom one can be casual #he has never had a casual relationship with literally anything #he is intense about everything he does #this is what makes him wonderful #if you don't want to deal with his dramatic virgin antics then you don't want to write about him #and that's fine! but it means THEN DON'T #writing #romance #tropes

[dragoncarrion]

who’s an OC you haven’t shared on here before :0?

ahhhh a bunch 😭 mostly because I have almost nothing on them.... But I'll pick one that is REALLY IMPORTANT yet barely developed. Sad!

So I think in other posts I've mentioned there's a titan beneath the colosseum? Yeah well those are "doomsday" titans, much, MUCH bigger than regular titans, practically country or continent sized. Got a bit inspired by iaconus from cbv as in these were buried a loooong time ago, being akin to gods. These titan's city speakers (and city speakers in general) disappeared, either because they went into hiding, jail, stasis lock or they just were killed sometimes 💀 in fear that they'd try to reawaken these titans. There's some prophecy or whatever of them waking up once again, destroying Cybertron and a whole lot of other planets in a struggle for power, but because of how much time has passed, this had pretty much been completely forgotten, spoken of as myths at MOST. There's around seven of these? And most of them are underneath MASSIVE cities since valuable minerals always surround them, as well as some odd energy that can be used to power up shit yadda yadda. They're technically dormant, but not fully powerless, as their influence can still take hold of feeble minds.

One of these rotten minds is an odd bot. Not quite an outlier, but not a regular mech at all either. Granted the ability to completely shape shift into whatever body he wishes, he goes by many names, but let's call him Armageddon. I'm still figuring out how he stumbled upon (one of. Maybe) the titans, and also WHICH one, but long story short, they promised power and glory. His mind was corrupted; after all, only city speakers can converse with titans. A destroyed world was a promise to start anew (he's just some doomer wacko and insane. think of the cultists from Dredge) with him as everyone's saviour and new chance of course, a loyal servant to the titans. Little by little, he's been looking for clues and pulling strings to awaken the titans and fulfill this prophecy, bringing in other impressionable and easily persuaded bots, always with the same promises: an end to the wretched today, and a chance for a fresh start, a clean slate tomorrow... Of course, there not doing all this thinking by themselves. Many swear they can feel something at the back of their minds, tugging at their thoughts

#Ask box #As you can see he has a very. Skewed perspective lol #LISTEN I THINK. TITANS COULD BE VERY COOL AND FREAKY #Also they ooze this like. Oil. Actually one of the Titans was badly injured. Where it fell it's blood spilled #And anything it touched was turned into a barren wasteland #Hell an entire section of the planet is almost completely inhabitable because of that titan #Also Armageddon IS various characters throughout the story just in different bodies. One of those alter egos is the one who runs the #Colosseum because like. It's right atop a titan so why wouldn't he #Also this ooze can grant some power. With a cost of course. There's a reason quinacridone has been king for so long #And why his ambition is a bottomless pit #Never full never satisfied #There's probably sooooo many typos bt typing on my phone from browser Tumblr is always so annoying #Also my projection moment here. I grabbed a bit from Armageddon's mindset with how uh... christians (at least the ones I was raised with lo #See the end of the world which definitely did shit to me but I can use that for stories now so 👍

[olehoncho]

How I would fix Dr Who (revisited)

While I am sure there are folks that love the Doctor Who show and the direction it has taken under Chibnal, I know there are others who are not satisfied with certain developments. Ever since the end of Matt Smith's run there have been issues with the continuity of the series: - The expansion of The Doctor's regenerations was first explained via a "time lord energy infusion" in Town of Christmas, but was later revealed to be an aspect of the Timeless Child. - The swapping of sex/gender was first done with the Master and later explored with the Doctor. - Letting go of a Time Lord's power was explored in Human Nature and later in Uptopia, but revisited as being a "female presenting" quality later. - The Bi-Generation creating two time lords.

A lot of this new canon has been... not easy to absorb. And I'm not going to say there's any connection to ratings or audience scores, but as someone who is more interested in the science fiction aspect of the show, I think there is enough of the new canon to play with to fit in with the long-running series canon.

Make The Doctor a distinct being separate from The Timeless Child. - This is the main one, and could be done a couple of different ways. My previous theory was to make The Timeless Child the Time Vortex at the heart of the TARDIS (which explains why it is different from other TARDIS). This would explain the leeching of memories and power to other individuals as well. - Another way to do this would be to have The Doctor either be a bi-generation from The Timeless Child, or perhaps be the son of The Timeless Child who inherited some memories. There are options.

Restore the Regeneration Limit and explain how it was bypassed. - The previous explanation is that The Doctor is the first Time Lord and therefore has endless regenerations. This never felt right. The Doctor being a Time Lord whose uniqueness comes from their decisions, the promise to be "The Doctor" rather than their particular history is the key to the character. - You could do another bi-generation backstory into The Doctor's past, and that part of The Doctor has been dormant, sleeping aboard the TARDIS for near a thousand years (my personal choice would be the regeneration from 2nd to 3rd Doctor). - Then you would have to explain that The Doctor who has been adventuring has been part of The Doctor, but a being who got mixed up with The Timeless Child and is therefore confused. Then explain that the reason for the regeneration limit being bypassed is because of the TARDIS - so many Doctors regenerate in the TARDIS and this is shown to have led to many explosions of energy which were not present in earlier regenerations because this version of The Doctor is growing unstable. - Time Lords are not meant to live more than 12 regenerations, because the energy in their bodies becomes more than they can handle, like a dying star they either go supernova or become dwarf stars.

Kill off the current version of The Doctor and bring in "The Original" - This could be a series-long arc involving The Valeyard - with the "current Doctor" being the Valeyard and "The Original" questing to stop them, but would end up with The Doctor dying and creating their grave on Trenzalore that is eventually visited by 11 and Clara. - The "original" Doctor would then continue the adventures, absorbing all the memories of their alternate selves - and resume the regeneration limit from 3 (a new 3, not Pertwee) and then regenerating into 4.

Anyways, that's how I'd rework Doctor Who if it was up to me. But it's not, so whatever.

#Doctor who #tardis #seriously though I stopped watching because I hated how mean 12 was to Danny Pink #Like there was no reason to be that rude to your companions love interest #I just could not jive with Capaldi and could not bring myself to go back to the show #kept up with the lore and the drama and felt satisfied I stayed away #but can we stop race-swapping people please #I mean I guess its fine when you consider alternate realities but that was never Doctor Whos thing #Like time travel is fine and all and they really haven't done enough fun back to the future or quantum leap stuff about fixing timelines #but as part of a larger trend I just think race swapping historical figures is lame #Now fictional characters is fine and dandy #But like if Doctor Who went on an adventure with Sun Wukong I wouldnt want the Monkey King played by a scotsman #So its just weird to see Isaac Newton played by Nathaniel Curtis #And then to have the showrunner attack fans as racists #Like he was the one who changed the race of the person showing he was the one with the problem in the first place #this is my problem with folks who cry racism or sexism or shout at fans for not embracing changes #they're the ones who made the change from the source materials so doesn't that mean they are the ones with the problem #like don't say its the fans fault for not accepting the changes you make blame yourselves for not getting it right #but again that's just the way I see things #not a shipping post #yeah I'm done talking about doctor who #I bloody stopped watching the show 9 years ago why do I even care

[seawitchkaraoke]

Sometimes your body just craves something it never usually craves and you can try to fight that or question it but like. You can also just indulge it it's fine

Like I'm currently drinking a coke despite the fact I usually never drink coke (or like. Any sodas or energy drinks) bc I don't particularly like it but I was at the store and my body said get the coke so I did.

It's good. Tastes like coke. Which is usually like. Fine but too sweet and not that good but currently perfect

#usually i really just never drink it #I'll take one sip of an energy drink if I'm going to the store with my brother and he buys one to drink on the way home #but one sip usually satisfies the craving #I'm drinking this whole can #why do i need this today? fuck if i know. it's fine though

[strwbrymlkshake]

Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt. #well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

[laurelwinchester]

one of my many many many arr*w related grievances is that people in the fandom (including in the laurel lance sub fandom) are very hesitant or even outright refuse to admit that quentin lance was an extremely emotionally abusive father. i still don't understand why that is.

#the thing is it's not like you have to go deep to see the abuse #it's actually quite in your face literally from day one which is why i'm forever raising an eyebrow at all the praise he gets #he was an extremely emotionally explosive man who constantly verbally or emotionally abused and manipulated laurel #he shredded her self esteem and confidence #he kept her shackled to him out of selfishness and made her small so he could continue to control her #and eventually he was the direct cause of her violent death #like what's not clicking? #he's john winchester* and yet for whatever reason he still doesn't get the john winchester treatment and i'll never understand why #is it because he more openly loved his children? because abusers often love their victims. it doesn't change the abuse #this rant coming to you because i'm trying to shift back into htlgi mode for the new year so i can at least try to get something posted soo #and i know i've talked about how i'm going to be tackling laurel's mommy issues but with the mommy issues come the inevitable daddy issues #and something i'm currently struggling with is that i....don't think laurel will ever be able to save herself from that man #especially not htlgi laurel #she is simply not capable of removing herself from that cycle of abuse. not where she is right now. maybe not ever. #which means 🤔 #what if - and i'm just spitballing here - i kill him off? #........😏 #oh that does sound satisfying ngl #it's not like i've given him much else to do #he mostly pops up every now and then to trigger both dean's fight or flight daddy issues and his overprotective husband issues #hmmm #anti quentin lance #arrow discourse #(*my hot take is that i think quentin lance is worse than john winchester. disclaimer: yes i'm aware that's an unpopular opinion. #i'm also aware it's ~cringe~ to be arrow posting in 2023 almost 2024 but this is how long it takes me to write lol)

[riseninsaturn]

one day i’ll write an articulate post about why the gavin brothers are the most emotionally repressed people in ace attorney and maybe ever but in two entirely separate ways but as of right now whenever i think about that very concept i feel like screaming into a bottomless well so that idea is on hold

#saturn.txt #but you guys know the post right #the one about how the most emotionally repressed person is the one who #acts extremely friendly and shows surface level acceptable emotions #but never the true emotions underneath #you know that post right. you know klavier gavin right #klavier gavin who i can only imagine has perfected his emotions to a t #here is what he can get mad at here is what he can't #he can't cry unless it's picture perfect and he's always amicable for the right people #you know how kristoph gavin has the black locks right #how even at the end he won't talk about why he did what he did #THIS is why ic an't write either of these characters in a satisfying way #because they're so fucking complicated when it comes to emotions and and and #screaming at the top of my lungs only one of them will likely have the chance to open up again #but will he do it? would he do it? #how does klavier gavin even begin to untangle his emotions #did hiding them away from the world make them manifest in major outbursts? #does he just dissociate instead? what has happened what happened #rattling him back and forth #i love the other characters in AA but you cannot tell me that anyone is more repressed than the shit these two have going on

[ectoplasmer]

voicing how I get insecure over the fact that I can’t handle horror as well as the bakurae can because i’m a wimp and having a 50/50 chance of being met with a response like “oh no that’s fine!! that just means you’re more sane than me” or “you haven’t seen nor experienced nearly the amount things I have but yes you are a wimp”

#</3 #i just…. get worried that i’m letting them down if i’m not enjoying weird creepy things like they do #i can handle horror movies because that’s more of a ‘controlled’ environment and i know it’s fake #it’s more like… those youtube videos that talk about analog horror or unsolved mysteries etc #sometimes even those videos that are meant to be art projects #the ones that seem more grounded in reality if that makes sense?? #heck i say that but i still get spooked by videos about lost media o_o #listen. as a child who had unlimited access to the internet at a young age #that dumb candle cove creepypasta literally ruined me #anyway i know it really doesn’t matter because i love them and i’m pretty sure they’d still love me even if i can’t handle some scary things #but my brain is mean and never allows me to live down anything so #i personally think bakura would like having an excuse to act all tough and protective for me #(even if the body he inhabits probably has a vitamin d deficiency lol)/lh #he’s kind of been stripped of everything that made him powerful and threatening #so if he gets to still behave as such towards nonexistent threats over his fraidy-cat of a girlfriend i think he’d be satisfied <3 #and i know ryou would be happy to cuddle me until i calmed down #he’d probably be just as enthusiastic about explaining what the media means/how it was made/etc as he would be watching it :) #it’d… also probably make him feel good getting to ‘protect’ me from those kinds of fears lol #anyway (x2). why did typing this out actually calm me down a little #woahhh distraction methods actually work what a surprise #anyway hi tumblr i’m alive happy new year hope you’re all doing well <333 #spooky ghosts #four of spades

[tiredassmage]

finals 1 of 2 down, was reminded of one of THE most satisfying chapters of KOTET today in the tags, decided I’d celebrate by letting Tyr choose violence again xD

(y’all are so right this never gets less satisfying lmao)

#as a treat #and also he's been through enough like y'all asked for it a little #swtor #imperial agent #ch: tyr #it's a minor shame him and acina still catch over old issues #they were so close to maybe pragmatically getting along and then she had to go and prove his trust issues right on iokath #but for now they can commit a bit of murder together as a treat #swtor kotet #kotet #anyway i don't think tyr's done anything more satisfying in his life #life advice from cipher nine: set your boundaries and enforce them lmao #also the amount of 'i never got paid enough for all this sith bullshit' running through his head this chapter klfandkfnsldf #poor fuckin boy i love him #and if you've ever wondered why the hell i set my subtitles to purple? #idk i thought it was pretty no its not always easy to read i'm so sorry about this #but also if i turn them off i'll perish #what they also did right here was letting me push lorman's buttons every chance i got #choosing active malice in spite

[leatherbookmark]

i swear to god, jgy being bitchy/prickly as a proof that he's finally opened up to someone is possibly my most disliked fandom treatment of him, because with obvious jgy haters at least I know we have exactly nothing to talk about! aaaaand block! but then people who claim to love him just make him into a total opposite of who he was in the novel and it's just like. sigh

#practically every time i bitch about it i bring up the fact that Yes the perspective of being able to be your worst self with no fear that #the person who sees that will hate you and book it is seductive and heady #but its never about that. or rather: when you read the novel you get the feel that jgy is wearing a smiling mask almost #constantly and it would be nice for him to not have to do that. but often fanworks lack that element and jgy is just a bitch #i mean yes sometimes you get a vague mention of difficult work! or some vague idea of a backstory that hints at jgy being a bitch #because he got hurt in the past and its his armor. and thats nice but its not jin guangyao. whose whole thing in canon was that he was #ALWAYS polite. i guess most fans picture a smile that you can See is fake and murderous but its not the case in the novel at all #and even if there really IS a setting where jgy can let himself be a bitch in front of his partner... it's just. so annoying #like jgy isn't a person but a little chihuahua throwing a little fit hihihi! how funny! have we mentioned he's so short? #I haven't found a fic where jgy genuinely can complain about his work/family/whatever troubles him and the other person reacts in a way #that would be a satisfying and appropriate emotional reaction for him (idk how to put it but for example when i need to vent i also need #the person im venting to to agree that yeah this is shitty/bullshit! which is why i dont really vent to people anymore lol) #it always has this comical undertone and it feels so wrong 4 me #on top of that this bitchy little a-yao is so popular that people dont even think twice about it. just like nmj who's so warm and loving #not to mention endlessly queer and supportive that people forget the original flavour (to borrow the sv term lol) #and again i do understand! one of my past otps was very Quirky and over the top (thats anime 4 u) and i soaked up the rare moments when #they were just people with complex feelings like a fucking sponge. then my fic was all about the complex feelings without any of the #quirkiness because i was tired of its abundance in canon. but in a way because of this they were a complete 180 from their canon selves #so like. i guess i understand. but what i dont understand is that this assumes thay jgy's smiles and kindness are ALL a front and that the #bitch (or gremlin! he and wwx are ~gremlin friends~ uh huh) is the True Self. and i mean. w h a t #people got So hooked up on short bitchy customer service employee forced to hide his oceans of snark behind a smile so fake its cracking at #the edges thay they forgot about the man who would do everything for people he loved + enjoyed making them happy and comfortable #and was kind to his subordinates. there's nothing of that dude in popular fics and im not even sure if authors know he existed #the closest we have is him trying to be the favourite uncle/satisfy his in-laws first/show off which just seems so shallow lmao #and its like Oh God #i know 'these are all fictional characters eli' but ashfhfkflsahfjsgod #shut up shrimp

[dlasta]

I’m just gonna say it: Nightmare Alley had no chance of ever working because of casting. 

#nightmare alley #I don't get why they hire these specific actors for roles that need a lot of charisma #bradley cooper is like dicaprio the last 15 years #cold and actor-y #I can tell he is acting a lot but it's fake emotions like a sosiopath #he's literally the opposite of likeable #and then you add to that rooney mara? Yikes #the movie looks beautiful and I can easily tell what it aims for #but since there is *nobody* likeable on screen it fails #I can tell how it ends and it's gonna be artsy fartsy and not satisfying #I have never seen del toro fail this big #so weird