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Wow wtf HIV/AIDS was discovered by Flossie Wong-Staal, an Chinese-American woman, and she’s the reason the HIV test even exists. AND THEN she invented the molecular knife that lead to treatments for HIV/AIDS. And she’s STILL ALIVE. We don’t hear about the contributions of Women of Color enough, my word. Madness.

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hi beautiful

[ID: a sketchy drawing of oluwande laying naked (except for his hat) on his stomach, head propped up on one hand and legs folded up at the knee. he has a soft expression on his face. he’s shaded lightly in pencil and a grey wash.]

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Fun History Fact: The overwhelming majority of cowboys in the U.S. were Indigenous, Black, and/or Mexican persons. The omnipresent white cowboy is a Hollywood studio concoction meant to uphold the mythology of white masculinity.

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fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho

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Continue✨ Keep going✨

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Watching Dead Boy Detectives, loving it. It feels like a fanfic story, it's wonderful.

#dead boy detectives

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Had a dream this morning that Archive of our Own had a Random button which would simply take you to a random fanfic, like Wikipedia has. (AO3 does not appear to really have this, I checked and couldn't find one, but I kinda wish they did.) Someone had started a game where whatever fic you got, that was your new fandom, which is very fun! I would love this meme in real life.

The problem came in where so many people used the button that it broke and just started sending everyone to Stealing Harry, and like...I have fond memories of Stealing Harry but it's not my best work and nobody should be assigned to be a Harry Potter fan in this day and age.

So I decide to go off and find Astolat and demand she fix this but when I finally did (there was a whole quest) she turned to me like the baddie in a horror flick and said, "But that's the most random story there is" in a dark voice and I was terrified and woke up.

In the cold light of day I know there are more random stories by me on the archive, let alone by others, but I'm not going to try to get back there to argue my case. Pretty sure whatever I spoke to was actually the demon specifically assigned to plague fandom and not Astolat at all.

I'd say "get thee behind me, demon" but I know just how many porny fics on AO3 begin with that premise. (I've written some.) Begone foul spirit, and take your Satanic Panic with you!

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no matter how terrible my day is. i can always end my day in bed imagining fictional characters making out sloppy style and fucking raw. and that's beautiful. there's some good in this world mister frodo and it's worth fighting for

#this is literally so real #one thing that keeps me going #life #fanfic #head canon #reasons to live

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This is potentially life saving information everyone should know.

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Doctor Who - The Church on Ruby Road

#doctor who #fifteenth doctor

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#the thing that galls me about anti-vax parents #is that question #“would you rather a dead child to an autistic one” #I can guarantee that yes #some of them would #and it's fucking bone-chilling #vaccinate your fucking kids #get your own vaccines too

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People who say bi erasure doesn’t happen need to realize Freddie Mercury is known as the most famous homosexual man when he identified himself as bisexual. If that’s not bi erasure I don’t even know.

#queer history #freddie mercury queen #queen band #queen #india #parsi #indian parsi #bisexual #zororastrian

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I saw recently someone accuse nonbinary people of "riding the coattails" of binary trans people, and I cannot emphasize this enough: take my coattails, hold them in your hands, pull yourself up by my bootstraps. Together is how we thrive, together is how we fight, together is how we win.

There are queer people out there who when they see another branch of the queer community either succeeding or receiving support, their reaction is to try and pull them back down. The logic is often: if I had to suffer, so do you.

If I could give a piece of advice to anyone just entering the queer community, it would be: be wary of people who want suffering more than solidarity.

Remember, in this community, we are not here to fight for scraps, we are here to rise together.

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Self-care Sunday: Does anyone else feel like they need more concrete instructions than "just let go" of intrusive thoughts? Hunter Clark-Fields (author of Raising Good Humans) explains that the reason labeling thoughts works to help let them go is because the process activates the prefrontal cortex---the part of the brain responsible for logic, reason, and decision-making, i.e. the part of the brain that's good at focusing and setting emotions aside. It's been really helpful in my meditation practice to notice where my thoughts go, give them a label, and find it easier to refocus on the present. Labeling thoughts isn't just helpful during meditation! It's a useful practice at any time of day when you notice unwanted thoughts cropping up. The key is in the noticing.

#ohhhhhhhh #meditation

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#peter capaldi #dr who