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i think the thing to me about posts like this that show off some ungodly monstrosity in a shipped game's codebase to prove a point about how doing things the "right" way is less important than getting it done is that it never actually backs up the implicit claim that doing things the right way would have been slower, which is where the actual meat of the claim is. and there are plenty of cases where the simple hack winds up limiting you.

conversely, it's much harder to point at good code and go "this design is so good", so you dont get meme posts about (say) implementing your ability effects as an ADT and how cool this is because it doesn't generate an instinctual reaction

and of course, while most games aren't ongoing projects, anyone who plays hit mmo final fantasy xiv is well aware of the bizarre restrictions in place that are almost definitely due to some ungodly piece of legacy code

#software engineering

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I need everyone to be honest about what you see

#strawberry snoot

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i hate whenever people say "autism and adhd are basically the same disorder" because that isn't even remotely true. autism believes a strong defense is the best offense, and focuses on keeping plays connected in order to steadily earn points, while adhd is characterized by unpredictable high risk combination attacks that prioritize scoring

#shitpost

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i saw this image and thought you’d really like it. it reminded me of you

literally. this is it.

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i just wanna say, as a feeding tube haver, that it's so much more possible to get used to invasive medical devices than you might fear.

i grew up horrified by even being reminded organs exist. i was just so severely grossed out by human anatomy. i got a lot better about it through years of chronic illness, since you just have to get used to it. but that's the baseline i started from originally, in case you are also squeamish and wonder if it's possible for that to change.

so when i needed a feeding tube, i was pretty distressed by the idea. having a tube sticking through a new hole in my abdomen was a seriously horrifying concept, and i couldn't imagine coping with having a stoma (the hole) and caring for it etc. i did it because i needed it to survive but thought i might never get used to it.

and yeah, it freaked me out at first. but eventually i did just get used to it. it just feels normal now. i even feel affection towards it, because it is keeping me alive.

#ableism #medical devices

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some of my favorite replies to this tweet. happy lesbian visibility week!

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It's Lesbian Visibility Week and my five years on testosterone, so I have an urgent message from one random man to all lesbians on T:

YAAAAY WHOOO SOLIDARITY FOREVER I LOVE YOU HOORAY WHOOO HAHAHA YAAAAY CLAPPING AND SCREAMING AND HIGH-FIVING YOU AND CRUSHING BEER CANS AGAINST MY FOREHEAD YAAAAAY FRIENDSHIP AND JOY YAAAAY

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6,000 BC: gamer girl bathwater

6,000 AD: nothing but thermal paste

fandom sucks now I never see PSAs for writers about what can and cannot be used as lube

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Technophobes need to apologise for "just put it in plain English you stupid machine!" because, well for one the decline in accurate error messages in favour of simplicity has contributed to the rise of tech illiteracy, but also because now whenever an "app" has a net connection error it will pop up a box saying something like "oo ooopsie! Your super duper feed went poo poo. We'll try again soon!" which having said to me by a corporation is about 8 million times worse than having to hear the word "network".

#a11y #technical writing #usability #ux #ux design #strongly endorsed

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girl help I'm getting they/them'd by well-meaning people who don't know what a tomboy is

#competing access needs #gender

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i must not stir the pot. stirring the pot is the notifications-killer. participation in the discourse is the little-death that brings total activity obliteration. i will face the bad opinions on the internet. i will permit them to pass over me and through me. and when they have gone past, i will turn the block button onto their source. where the discourse has come from there will be nothing. only i will remain.

#strongly endorsed #people being wrong on the internet #litany against discourse #discourse #undertagged #ref

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Well I like to think in spyfall if it was good thirteen confronts the master and says basically what happened to missy. where did all that good in you go. atp in the masters timeline they haven't been missy yet so they're like what but however many regenerations later they become her and they think back to that conversation with the doctor sometimes . and missy to me is the last incarnation of the master they didn't get more regenerations like they doctor did they die forever in the doctor falls and yk. without hope without witness without reward.

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I've been doing a qi gong routine, mostly in my head with bits of physical movements as I am able, not every day but reasonably often.

Anyways. Today's was nice in that I got a view of fluffy clouds. I also found it hard to stay focused because I had multiple insights as I went.

The second was about boredom, that boredom indicates a need, like thirst or the feeling of needing to use the bathroom, and the need that boredom signals is a need for challenge, to do something that is hard for you or that you could improve at. (I am bouncing off that post about the difference between distracting yourself from boredom, where the boredom comes back full force ones the distraction is removed, and sating the boredom, where the boredom stays away for a bit when you're done.) And I got this really intense flash of anger, because no one told me, I am learning so many things as an adult -- I'm over 40 ffs -- that no one ever told me and it feels like someone should have told me. Boredom means you need enrichment, something equivalent to a toy to chase for cats or frozen pumpkins or a tire swing for zoo animals. It's not something to be driven away with a wide enough range of distractions, it's not a sign it's time to fall as deeply into a video game as possible, it means you are missing a specific kind of "interesting" or "hard" that you need. It is a psychological hunger.

(Another thing I wish I had been told is any useful advice at all about how to get yourself to do things that you don't want to do. Basically all I got as a kid was "well you have to do it whether you like it or not," an attitude that has not served me particularly well in life. Compared to things like "if it's scary, you can get better at facing scary things by facing it" or "sometimes unpleasant things feel better if you think about how it benefits you or makes you a better person to do the thing". Granted I did pick up on "sometimes you can pair a thing you like with the thing you don't like", aka the spoon full of sugar approach.)

The earlier one had to do with happiness. I'd been fairly spiritually inclined as a teen and young adult (well, I still am) and definitely picked up on the idea that happiness doesn't come from having stuff or looking attractive or being popular. But none of that was really a challenge for me anyways, and what I don't think I got explicitly told is that happiness does not come from what you do either. There aren't intrinsically fun things you can do and intrinsically unpleasant things. Anything can feel good with the right mental framing, or at least can make you feel good about yourself for having done it anyways.

I don't know, maybe that seems obvious. But it's breaking my brain right now. I got too much work put on me in high school, and I got overly attached to having time free to do literally anything I felt like in the moment as a result, even though I've known for a long time that having long stretches of just doing whatever I feel like moment to moment does not reliably make me feel good and actually tends to make me feel worse than having work or school, unless it's for a limited period of time during a vacation or holiday.

Which makes sense if there's something about intentional effort that's sort of like, I don't know, protein? An emotional macronutrient, something you need a lot of, that should exist in balance with the macronutrient you get from leisure time. (Which probably has fuckall to do with paid work or doing what you're "supposed to" be doing. And does not necessarily have to be high spoons, like I said I got this insight doing mental qi gong, I wasn't moving and wasn't even concentrating especially hard.)