angelicstalker

[angelicstalker]

I miss you. I want to hold you in my arms and let you just sleep. I don't want to put any stress on you anymore.

#i dont want you to feel this way #i want to make it all better #you deserve so much angel #so much #you are so incredible in every single way #i want to just hold you #i want to listen to your heartbeat #i want to look into those beautiful brown eyes #i just want you to know i care. i do more than anyrhing. i will never let you go through this again. #i wont do this again my dear #mine

[angelicstalker]

I just want you more than anything.

#i want to be with you #i want to make you happy and smile and i want you to feel secure with me #i was insecure and stupid #i dont want to lose you #i wont #i will do everything to make sure you dont have to go through this again. #i love you ollie. #i adore you #i see everything in you #i have changed and i wont stop changing. i will continue. im not going to stop trying to be better for you. #i dont want to scare you and i dont want to hurt you. #i wont again #mine #you are so sweet and lovable and you are so incredible. i will treasure you with my entire existence more than i have been.

[angelicstalker]

I just want to make her feel seen.

#i want to understand her and listen to her #i hate that i messed up earlier #im going to do everything in my power to get this back on track #ill make this better #right now she wants space so im going to give it to her #ii just am worried about her #extremely much #i hate that i caused her to be anxious and uncomdoetable and acared #i hate myself for doing that to her #but i will make this better #ill do whatever i can #we will be okay #i will make sure of it #she can trust me and she knows she can #i love her more than anything #i will do everything in my power to make her comfortable with me. #and ill make sure i put the biggest smile on her face #make her laugh about stupid things #call her pretty and see her eyes light up #watch movies with her when shes not feeling her beat #watch her fall asleep while staring at her long eyelashes #buying her snacks when shes had a eough day #talking to her about her special interests #wayching funny tiktoks with her that she laughs her ass off at #i adore her #i wont lose those things #i want to make her happy #i want to give her an envoronment where shes not scared and anxious every single day #i want her to see me and feel safe #i will make things better no matter what

[angelicstalker]

I can fix this.

#i wont let her feel like this #im not gonna be pathetic or a little bitch in feont of her #i was good for a while #im not going to be stupid and destroy this relationship because of paranoia or me just acting fucking pathetic #im not letting it happen #i love her and i want to be with her #i will not be like this #im not doing this to her again and again #im not going to scare her or make her leave me #i can be better and i will. its not fucking hard #i need to stop the crybaby bullshit about worrying about her leaving me #if i make her happy enough and i keep doing the things i have been dping she wont. #mine

[angelicstalker]

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

#i cant believe i did this in front of her again #and she thinks its becaue of her or me not being able to handle it #which is somewhat true but its because i just CANT EVER SAY THE RIGHT THINGS #I was in my head and it couldnt shut up and the minute i said the thing #about 'youre making it worse' #i immediately knew i said something wrong #and instead of coming back from it i went into overdrive and got scared didnt know how to fix what i just said #or make her believe what i actually meant #and i got so overhwlemed i thought she was gone out of the room #and she was there and i moved up the laptop too but she seen me #hit my stupid fuxking head a couple of times #i feel so pathetic #i feel so worthless #i made her so upset #i ruined her perception of me #and i feel so disgusting #i cant have messed things up any worse #like genuinely #i messed up #ahes going rhough enough !!!!!!! #and i put her through MORE shit #i want to be the reason for her amile amd her laughter and i end up making her scared of me #this is the last thing i fucking wanted !!!!!!!! #i just mess things up so much i dont know why i cant leave things the way they are #i cant belieev i did this #i cant believe i messwd up again #mine

[angelicstalker]

I'm just hhh

#im so fucking worried about her #i want to hold her and calm her down amd twll her everyrhing is going to be okay. #i want to make sure she is never hurt by me ever again #i will make sure this never happens #i just want her to be okay #she shouldnt have to be in this predicament with me #i should be taking care of her and loving her and goving her so much affection hhh #you deserve the world #i promise you that i will give it to you #i want you to be happy more than anything #mine

[angelicstalker]

I genuinely don't understand myself

#i want things to be so good #and i dedicate everything in me to just please let today be good let me make her happy and cheer her up. #make her feel better when shes upset #what made me think letting her talk with food in her teeth would be okay #im so fucking stupid #i did the exact opposite. #i ruined everything again. i didnt even fucking mean to i just genuinely fuck things up !!!!!!!! #mine #i will make this better i promise #the last thing i want is to be the reason for her sadness

[angelicstalker]

It really must be stress or something

#minoxidil isnt a dht blocker !!!! #what is wrong with me ???? #i dont understand why this keeps happening it genuinely makes me lose all hope in everything i cant stand going through this !!!!!!!! #god i know im just being dramatic but i DONT WANT TO DEAL WITH THIS AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN THINKING it will stop when it never will !!!! #i dont understand #everybody says im fine #i went lower on testosterone too #i dont understand !!!!!!!!!!! #and i cant keep going to the docotrs because fucking healthcare lmaooo #i just have to deal with this again and again and again #until eventually i become tired #mine

[angelicstalker]

I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her

I'm in love with her ❤️

#mine #i love her so much #we talked about our futures today #she made me feel so much more reassured and she doesnt even know it #she has no idea what she means to me #it makes me so happy knowing she genuinely wants that future with me too #i feel so much immense joy #i want to kiss her and spin her around #i want to grab her by the hand and take her somewhere fun so i can make her smile so big #she deserves to feel how she makes me feel shahsj #i adore her #i was made to love her unconditionally #only thing i need to work on is how to be a bit more sensitive to her #she is so wondsrful and raising my voice at her accomplishes nothing #i dont want to be like any ex she had and i dont want to make her feel like another person to pet her down #ill do whatever i can do to make that girl feel so secure and safe with me #my girl... #i love her so much oh my god like i just cant stop thinking about her jesus

[angelicstalker]

I'm gonna fucking kill. Myself !!!!!

[angelicstalker]

Aaaahhhh I'm so worried about her

#idk i just #i feel really nervous #shes my whole world #when shes like this i just wish i was there to physically comfort her #i want to ground her #i want to be her rock #i just want to wrap my arms around her and tell her how incredible she is #kiss her cheeks and rub the tears away feom her eyes like stsrdust #i just want her to feel like she doesnt have to have the weight of the world on her shoulders alone #ill hold it up with her no matter what #even if i had to hold most of it i would in a heartbeat to give her some relief. #mine

[angelicstalker]

I'm so clingy

#god i love my girl #i love her i love her i love her #i would do anything for her she is so precious #she deserves so much happiness aaaa #i just want to make her smile and laigh when i get home #show her that when shes with me at keast shes safe shes unjudged shes okay and home #i want her to feel that with me #god i adore her so much #i truly do #i wouldnt rather be with anyone in the galaxy #if its not her then its no one. #i am in love with her #mine

[angelicstalker]

Please

#pleasw give me another chance liv #i want to make you happy #i want to be a good boyfirned #i fucking genuinely cant stand myself right now #the fact that i fucking hurt her again im so fucking done #i genuinely dont understand whats wrong eith me #i love her so much #and i fucking hurt her again !!!!!!!!! #im not falling in the same patterns i will not !!!!! #im not letting this shit happen again #i dont want her to leave me and i want her to be happy in this relationship #i want her to take pride in this #i want her to feel safe with this #we had it good for a while #i willl get this back #i will make things okay again no matter what #mine

[angelicstalker]

I'm so worried

#i feel like i really hurt her #i just want to make things better #i want to talk to her and make her smile and make her happy #i dont want to cause her so much pain. she deserves so much more #she is so sweet and lovable #she is my entire world #mine

[angelicstalker]

I really messed up yesterday

#im so extremely worried about her #im a fucking idiot #i should never have made her so upset. #shes so important to me and i never want to lose her again #i should have just been more understanding. #if i just made her laugh more or maybe just tried harder to talk to her things would be okay #she deserves so much #i hate thst i acted like that yesterday. #mine

[angelicstalker]

WOW !

#i have gotten misgendered 4 times today !! #not trying to have a pity party but like #it really does make me feel horrible haha !!! #mine

[angelicstalker]

I feel like I'm gonna go insane without her today

#i really miss her #idk #im so stipid and clingy #but she sent me such a big paragraph today #and it absolutely made my day #but it made me want her even more #even just an extra hour with her :( #mine