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shit is tough

#im single again unfortunately #anyway yeah i think i might make a secret alt under the user of my discord alt if u know it #if anyone wants to have it just lmk #but i plan on just posting whatever i want there in whatever fashion i want

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i feel empty yet somehow still overwhelmed with emotion

it hurts

#sad dogboi hourz

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if one more thing goes wrong im fucking gone this is not a joke anymore

this is mostly a joke for the record

ive been having so many problems it's literally unfair why can I not just be HAPPY

every effort I make means nothing

every effort towards mine or others happiness literally means jack fucking shit like it's literally just pointless I don't even know why I try

i always end up feeling like

nobody loves me and I'm gonna end up alone or in an early grave or both

and that maybe that's for the best

#tw suicide mention #ive had the tendency to write suicide notes and make plans in my head just in case i do go through with it for a while #because i have several mental illnesses and i am unpredictable even to myself #but like i dont think anything is going to come of it #if it does im sorry but i still dont think it will #i feel like people forget sometimes how someone can just be gone in an instant #i try to remember it because i don't want the last moments i have with someone to be terrible #there are a lot of things i want to do in my life i just feel like i cant do them #as much as im currently really upset with her i want to meet my girlfriend in person #even if we aren't partners anymore by then #i want to go abroad somewhere #i want to have my own place #i want to get a job #i want to be able to do dishes again #i want to be loved and feel loved #i want to understand how to cope with my breakdowns and episodes #i want so much but yet nothing #and somehow it all still feels so far away #where are you? why can't i reach you? don't you see how I'm hurting? can you lend me your hand? #what are you up to right now? you're so far away i cant see you #sad dogboi hourz

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chujin

#gnaws on him #uber autism #wooftuals #wooftual art #gonna make that a tag so i can frolick in the fields of my woofies art whenever

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#important #save #apollo hoard

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When I was younger and researching the autism diagnosis criteria and symptoms, I thought “oh I couldn’t POSSIBLY be autistic.” Because when I read “takes everything literally” I thought it literally meant EVERYTHING and I was like “I don’t take EVERYTHING literally, just most things!” And I just realized the other day that it didn’t actually mean EVERYTHING and that was an overstatement.

#im. #please #save

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"All autistics have low empathy" - This statement is wrong.

"Autistics having low empathy is a MYTH, we actually have HIGH empathy!" - This statement is ALSO wrong.

Autistics can have low empathy, they can have high empathy, they can have learned empathy. The myth would be that all autistics only experience one end of the empathy spectrum.

In spreading around misinformation that autistics actually have high empathy, you are disregarding the autistics who do have low empathy. And vice versa.

#important

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taboo kinks like pedophilia/rape/incest are not innate to transfemininity or to queerness or to autism and this current wave of attempts to naturalize them as such is alarming and suspicious

#yeah #i don't have much to say to this other than just yeah because it speaks for itself #im also sick of the normalisation of these things in terms of trauma because it's triggering to see #like No i do Not like it when someone shares similar trauma as me and Likes THOSE Things #it FREAKS ME OUT #which is also why i dont agree with posting shit like that even IF you have trauma #spreading awareness is one thing #making us all out to be . like that. is another

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DONT STOP TALKING ABOUT PALESTINE! DONT STOP TAKING ABOUT GAZA!

DONT LET THEM MAKE YOU FORGET!!

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this place has been super quiet since The Incident sorry

honestly part of me doesn't feel safe here after that shit

#might make a new blog or acc idk?? #apollo srs's #important

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I found this camera on the subway and look what was inside...

#this post is so broken its a legend #apollo hoard #funnies

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man I need more friends

I just made a friend server on Discord without considering the sheer lack of friends I have and it's just like

pitifully empty

#how sad #apollo woofles

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worst part about it is it seems commonplace to fucking censor tags with numbers and symbols for these people

like um. I'm going to fucking yell???

3,000+ notes, people!!!!!!!!!

let that sink in a little

HOW THE FUCK DID I GET GLORIFICATION OF FUCKING EDS ON MY FUCKING DASH

what the FUCK??????? WHAT THE FUCK???????????????????????????

#the more i use social media today the more i want to fucking kitty minecraft sans #apollo srs's

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HOW THE FUCK DID I GET GLORIFICATION OF FUCKING EDS ON MY FUCKING DASH

what the FUCK??????? WHAT THE FUCK???????????????????????????

#anyway time to block those tags i didnt even consider blocking them before #apollo srs's #tw ed mention #do i rlly have to add ppl like this to my dni now #ppl who glorify this shit need fucking therapy u r literally hurting others not just yourself

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#important #pawsitivity #idk if it counts but im counting it #drink water fuckers

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hey gamers

every single evil thing imaginable is going through my mind this morning

#but thats okay we ball #and balls #not elaborating #apollo woofles

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Help me prove my family wrong!

I don't know if this post will break containment, but will you like/reblog if you are or know a man who is asexual? All of the people in my life seem convinced that being Ace is a 'girl thing' and that Ace men don't exist!

#im a trans ace guy :D ! #and nonbinary too #but anyway yes gender has nothing to do with your sexuality or romantic orientation #or at least YOUR gender doesn't #if you like people you like them but if you don't you don't #and you're beautiful and valid and there will be people to love you for who you are no matter what #pawsitivity