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1995

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Had you at any point seriously identified as trans and/or nonbinary?

No, not at all.

No, I considered it but never seriously identified

Yes, but I never socially/medically transitioned.

Yes, I socially transitioned, but I have since desisted

Yes, I medically transitioned, but I have since detransitioned.

Yes, but I haven't yet ceased transition

Yes, and I do not plan on stopping transition.

Other?

I'm trying to cover the range of possible unique experiences so if you think of anything else please add it to the poll 🙏

Thanks for the extensive list Anon! It makes it easier for me :D

There was a similar submission earlier, but I've decided to post both of them since they are different enough IMO

#well ig im picking other cause the socially transitioned didnt reach the options #i identified and had been socially transitioned for ... god like 8 years #all together #social transition was more like 6 #changed my legal name when i turned 18 and tried to start medically transtitioning #but then i experienced something traumatic and it kinda snapped me out of it #i still id'd as like vaguely trans but i didnt call myself any specific thing #for abt 1.5 years #and then i realised yeah.. this is just not .. gonna work out #and i started to figure out what made me want to transition in the first place and surprise surprise it was thinking i could escape misogyn #but then the thing happened and i realised huh yeah so that didnt help actually #cause well he knew how i identified and called me by the name id chosen and well

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When I was on anonymous venting sites, I came across a homosexual guy and a homosexual girl who had both been sexually abused as children, and who both had female perpetrators.

Both of them discussed a deep sense of shame regarding their homosexuality, and how they were mortified of the idea that others would attribute their homosexuality to the fact that they were child sexual abuse victims.

It was the first time I really noticed that homosexuals can never simply be recognized as victims of sexual abuse in the same, uncomplicated way that heterosexuals are. For homosexual people, it seems that whether their abuser was of the sex they're attracted to, or the sex they're not attracted to, the sexual abuse will always be blamed for either making them gain attraction to the sex of their abuser or losing attraction to the sex of their abuser.

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#i should get boots like this

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Does anyone have that video of the Gaylor interrupting a gay couple to show them a song that’s like “I wanna have straiiight seeeex…at the gay pride parade…his balls are like a compass I love his ball sweaaaat his balls are like a chandelieeeerrrr”

#good lord #og skit is pretty funny tho i think it goes on a bit too long

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Unmute !

#omg #what a sweetheart:')

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rip to all the “fuckyeah___” blogs that carried our society at one point </3

#ooooghhnygood #thats so fucking funny

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Tracy Chapman

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This is the most enraging thing ive ever heard. The hatred for women is so infinite.

#im gonna cry

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I also think she did a great job of representing how, for those of us with chronic eating disorders, the distinctions between anorexia, bulimia, and binge eating become kind of meaningless. we do it all. we move seamlessly between them based on what emotion the act represents for us, what need the behavior meets. and she captured those emotions and needs perfectly.

restriction is control and achievement. I need to be in control of something. I need to be good at something. I need something I can point to and say "I did that, I made that happen, all by myself." I need the gold star of weight loss, either from external or internal sources.

binging is rebellion and freedom, a different kind of control. a "fuck you" to whoever or whatever we were trying to please by starving (in both her case and mine - mommy).

purging is penance, specifically the penance for feeling like a failure. not about the eating, everyone always thinks it's about the eating, it's never about the eating except insofar as the eating is a metaphor for something else. it's about the sense that you're letting someone down or failing to live up to expectations. sometimes your own, but not usually. in both her case and mine, it's usually mommy.

without ever saying any of this explicitly, she manages to capture exactly how meaningless the diagnostic model is for people like us. because it's not about the food. it's never actually about the food.

#im sorry im not sure i know who she is.. #but #yeah #FUCK #been going through just abt everything this year bcs i started a new school #and i feel so.. inadeguete and bad #out of control and also its all i have #no let me indulge actually bcs im so tired and sad i should enjoy something nice now #but why did u enjoy that? u dont deserve to enjoy things? dont u know? u know. #i dont.. #i havent talked abt this stuff to anyone in full detail and idk if i can #maybe i should try

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Arizona by Todd Michael

#i wish i could see landscape like this someday

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the sydney stabbings were an incel terrorist attack but once again "mental health" is the villain of the day, not blatant fucking misogyny

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anteeks mitä

"In the video the [asmr] artist might be going to bed. At the same time they'd be talking to the viewer: come to bed, love, let's go cuddle, I made the bed ready."

"You could describe it as harmless and free of charge emotional prostitution, where the professional makes the viewer experience intimacy."

#tunteiden prostituutioksi??? #asmr rooli videot???? #HÖRGH #this was an article abt asmr artist in my country #found this bit... so gross #radfem safe #feminism #my translation isnt perfect im sorry i tried my best .. for my current state #radical feminism #radical feminists do interact

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take me on a train to nowhere

#tarviin tällasen #etin näit josku torist #mut en uskaltanu ostaa #ehk pitäis